It Is Sunday.

So it is dark out still cuz of daylight savings. I wondered why people get mad at daylight savings. Does it really matter?  Aren't there other things to worry about?  Maybe no one gets irritated by daylight savings,  but I thought I saw rumblings before.

Yesterday was another Saturday. I worked 9 hours, and finished one book in my latest series and listened to another. That's like 15 hours of listening. Such an uneventful day.

Today I have to do my Sunday shit, and work. Sunday is a pretty nice day to work. I like my Sunday this way. Monday off is pretty sweet too.

Really not much else on my mind. After last week I guess I am recharged and ready for the busy season. Yesterday I could have finished, and worked 8 hours, but I decided to finish the last section I was working on. So I worked 9 hours. It helps I really have nothing better to do. Working,  and listening to my book is fine with me.

I don't know what people do on Saturday mornings, but I make money. I don't know what else I'd do.  I never do leave work on Saturday with less than 20,000 steps either. 

I am happy with my schedule I guess you could say. Really not much else going on with me. I ain't doing anything great here you know?  There isn't much else you really need to know about me. I am happy with my jobs. My days need to be filled up with stuff and they are. That helps me.

My age is a pretty good one. I have nothing to prove to anyone. I just do my own thing. I guess that is basically filling up my days. I ask nothing more of life. This here is good enough. I am good on my own doing this thing.

I am living happily ever after in a way I guess. It isn't what you think either. It's just being content in your days. Not expecting more out of life than it really has to offer. Not getting tied down to what people in suits say on the t.v.,  and elsewhere.

I belong to no group. Not hindered with any of that either.  I don't have to play any part. People can think bad of me, and that's fine. I am strong on my own. Not perfect yet, but strong.

Now I gotta do my Sunday shit. After my coffee, and maybe a few games of solitaire. 

Laterzzz.     :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeee.    :)))

Ending The Week.

Some days you really have no idea what to do with the title. Yesterday was okay.  Work has been fun this week. It was fat Tuesday, St. Patrick's day is coming up, so is Easter, so we will be busy from here on out. I guess it's nice to have some slower weeks,  but the challenge to get everything done, and stay ahead is fun too I guess.

One of the owners made homemade caramel, which I then added to our standard base homemade donut glaze. That is about the neatest thing I've seen. I am excited to try it  today. It tasted good once I got it all mixed in, but I want to try it on a donut. Caramel is ridiculous. So much flavor out of just sugar, butter, and cream.  Who knew?  So now we have our own caramel recipe. Just like that.  We also made a Guinness glaze for this weekend til next weekend. I guess I learned something yesterday.

Other than that not much. I was surprisingly tired when I got home,  so I didn't do much. I did make dinner for the house, but I was the only one here. I say fuck it. I think I'll just do dinner by myself tonight.

You realize living with people is different. Not everyone does shit the same way, and that can be annoying I guess. We have a dishwasher, but someone the last two times decided to hand wash half the dishes, and leave water in the sink. You know stupid shit like that.

People all complain about different shit too. Everyone is wrong, except no one is looking in the fucking mirror.  I have no ideas of what people will do in the future. What percentage of people grow up to work so they can play video games during their down time?  I don't know.  It may be a lot.

I know money is not the key to happiness.  What the fuck would you do with it?   I feel more excited about a new caramel recipe than I would about a big fucking yacht. Who the fuck wants to clean a 47 room house?  Who wants to spend whatever it would cost to have it cleaned? 

You are born with no answers. You seek out fun and happiness, and your heart leads you in any number of ways. Still you have no answers. There are no authors who can teach you the way. The pen is mighty in ways, cuz being published gives you credibility I guess. Makes a person seem better than another.

Still you are here on this Earth. Living a life. Still you have no answers. The key to me is my story I guess. I've rehashed it so many times it isn't even worth talking about. An interesting story would be to see what all the people are doing now who I once sorta got to know with this thing.  Are they happy,  active, married,  divorced. Who knows you know?  In the end that doesn't even really matter. I have my own simple little life. I am excited about fucking caramel ffs. How much simpler can it get? 

I work,  I don't have bills outside of utilities. Mostly cuz of dumb luck.  I had an uncle with a lot of money,  and two people to leave it to. My life hasn't changed much I don't think. If my uncle didn't leave me money I'd still be okay, I would still have a mortgage, and we wouldn't have done as much shit as we did to the house last year.

I think I would still be the same. Work, eat, sleep,  with some chill time. Life can take you in any direction. I left my life in smarter hands than my own. So now I stand as I do now. Really without a worry. A lot of pretty cool gifts.  Energy,  an upbeat heart.  A desire to labor.  A desire to have productive days. An ability to go to sleep early, and wake up early. Also being content. You know how I said it would be interesting to see what people were up to now?  Even that doesn't matter. It affects my life none.

So, I guess I'll get another cold run in. It warms up as the day goes on. I like cold runs though. I layer up. I don't need to dress the part. I wear a pair of baggy lined pants over my pajamas. I rarely run in running pants anymore. I wear a hoody under my running jacket too.  I stay warm.

Anyways, I'll probably see you here Sunday. 

Laterzzz.     :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeee.      :)))

The Saplings Have Yet To Recover From The Autumn Rains

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. Although,  I will say this. DO NOT eat a salad with a vinaigrette at 1:00 am. I did cuz it was there, and I love all things vinegar, but my stomach wasn't really too excited I did that. Lesson learned. No vinegar first thing in the morning.

Yesterday was pretty normal. I worked,  worked out. I did stop for a couple beers. It's been a while. It was boring. I came home,  finished my work out and made dinner. Lisa was out with friends for dinner so I went to bed super early. 

This morning I was done sleeping,  but I still thought about being able to stay in bed for 2-1/2 more hours. It is a luxury I don't take advantage of often,  but something that's there. This morning I got  up. I'll take Hope for a run in maybe the last cold day, until next winter. Cold is all relative,  but past February anything above freezing is warm. At least until our bodies acclimate to 60,70, and 80°, etc...

I have no idea what I'll do today. Work shouldn't be horrible, I don't have to work out,  so not sure what I'll do. Maybe see a movie. I don't think I thought of anything too interesting yesterday. I am just living. Doing the life thing. Day after day of stuff. My life is simple, but I don't really get bored. I listened to music last night. I never did turn on the tv. My dad and I talked some. Being old is a trip. The other day he said he went North somewhere. Then he said he was in Grand Rapids which is East. We kinda asked him about that, cuz maybe he got lost again. Somehow in his old man brain he thought Lisa was worried he was looking for a new place to live or something. That we give any thought as to what the Hell he does. I kindly reminded him his 84 year old self is not important anymore. Really we aren't even important at 54 either,  but he can be kinda ridiculous.

He kinda thinks he is the one revolving around the Sun, and the World hitches a ride on him. Maybe we all have a tad bit too much self importance we place on ourselves. Catch it now, and deal with it. At 84 it looks pretty silly. Maybe at any age.

Really besides that not much else.  I have another day today.  Not really anything to worry about. I am sorta getting excited about our trip to Seattle. It will be here before we know it. I think I am excited cuz San Antonio was such a good trip. It's cool to check out new cities. The weather will get warmer. It's been a while since I haven't thrown a hoodie on when I  get home. Pretty soon we will be sitting outside with flip flops on. It's good to do different things. Hoodie season is a good change from the dog days of Summer.

Yeah, not a lot going on with me. Coffee is in me. I think I'll poop, and take Hope. I am kinda looking forward to it. It should be fun. I guess I am recovered from vinegar stomach.    :)

Laterzzz.       :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

You Can Use This Joke Only Once With Your Wife.

A joke that works perfectly rarely comes along. I was eating some hummus,  so I asked Lisa if she knew the difference between a Garbanzo bean, and a chick pea?  So, I told her, "I wouldn't pay money to watch a Garbonzo bean." 

She's like, "So you'd pay money to watch a chick pea?"   "Oh gross", bonk on my head.   God I laughed. 

So anyway,  how's it going?  I am doing good. I feel great actually. 6 hours and 21 minutes of sleep. That's good for me. Yesterday was pretty busy. A full day of work,  had to run the snow blower. Used the roof rake, did dishes. I had some time to just chill. Ran the robot too, which is nothing work wise, but it vacuums the house.

Other than that not much. I'll take Hope in a bit. I would assume I'll be able to bike to work next week. I am sure I still could have some days, but we had a lot of thaw freeze, and the sidewalks are pretty icy. Risk/reward you know?  Really today is how I'd like to start all days. Yesterday I just laid on the couch after this. Today I want to take Hope.

Not really a lot going on with me. Life really is pretty simple. I labor for a bit, and then do whatever. Today is a work out day so I have to do that,  and then eat dinner. Sleep too. There isn't always a lot to do with my down time. Sometimes just not stuff I want to do. You know you can always find chores,  but do you really feel like doing them?  I think I continue to get better at that year over year. Not sure why that is.

Maybe it helps I got on a good workout routine.  M,W, and F. Last year we did a ton of shit to the house, I've had a garden the last couple of years. We built a new fence in our back, resided an exterior wall with shakes,  and blah blah blah. Painted the whole house with trim. I still work ~ 48+ hours each week, except a little less the last 6-8 weeks probably. I am sitting in my breezeway which is finished, insulated,  and has a vent free heater. It actually is the warmest room in the house.  Thermostat is set to the lowest level.

So yeah for whatever reason I get more done around the house.  Of course I ain't running 50 miles per week anymore. Running makes you tired I feel.  So maybe I've always been pretty busy,  but I switched stuff. Running a gazillion miles isn't important to me, cuz I'll still have 60 miles give or take just by living. That I did  not know about myself.

I don't put a lot of stress on myself. I don't really pay attention to what I eat. I have been bringing sandwiches to work. Reason for that is I like them.  I remembered that,  so I started bringing them.  No worries about diet, no worries about exercise.  No worries about living an active life. I am free to do as I choose.  If I choose to spend money watching a chick pea.    J/k. 

What I guess I am trying to say is this thing here is super easy. Nothing to worry about.  I feel pretty good about myself,  and the days are pretty easy.

So, I guess I'll take the Hopester. 

Laterzzz.      :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeee.       :)))

The Pineapples Of Yesteryear Are Really Just Happenstance.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday I slept as late as I could. Stayed in bed as late as I could I guess you could say. I kept wondering why I didn't hear my early alarms go off. Then I remembered I don't have any Monday alarms.    :)

I ate 3 paczkis yesterday. I probably will eat maybe 5 donuts all year, but I've been eating a paczki every day. They are only around for a week. It's basically a jelly filled donut.

Not really a lot going on with me. Work, eat, sleep pretty much. We have a few days of cold, and then the warm up. As we are approaching mid March we may be in Winters final sting.  Although I don't feel this has been a hard winter in the least.

There really isn't a ton of stuff to my life. Nothing to really worry about. Nothing Earth shattering to what I do.  As I come home after work I know I am always relaxed. Nothing to really stress about. I live an easy life.

I don't have anger.  I don't have heroes. I don't feel I think too highly of myself. As a person born to this World there is nothing really special about me. No redeeming quality.  I have the same BS guys are destined to deal with. Shit about us that makes us destined to be less than Saints. I've endured the wilderness so I know how uncaring my heart can be. I know I fall short from being the best a person can be, but I am okay with it. Cuz I am accepted. The final product will be taken care of at some point. I will not be the one creating this. It is out of my power. Even still I don't have to worry about it.

I don't really know other people too well. I know being a person is kinda tricky. I guess I'd say you don't know you very well either. You are "supposed" to act a certain way, but often times your heart betrays you. It is not always in step with how you are "supposed" to be. Which one is the real you?  The smiling person who just said hi to someone,  or the other part of you that silently says go fuck yourself at least 30 times each day?    :)

Life is a trap really. I guess that is one good thing about me. I know me. I know on my own I can not be as strong and confident as I am.  I know the truth about me, and I know our shortcomings.  I remember it not always being easy.  During the journey I wanted to be right, but that wasn't in the cards.  I was tired of feeling judged. It is also hard to live in fear.  Yet here I stand. Not being the best a person can be, but very secure in my future.

Anyways, I spose. 

Laterzzz.      :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeee.        :)))

A Change In Schedule.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am good. I have all of today off, cuz of fat Tuesday. Regular 3rd shifters work tonight,  and I work tomorrow. I am up way early today, but I guess that's good. I gotta be up early tomorrow.

Yesterday was just your kinda typical work Saturday. I did work for 4 hours or so at a building I haven't worked in for a few years. It's definitely changed since the last time I was there. It was kinda strange.

I then saw the movie Greta, which was suspenseful. I came home,  and started watching the new Kate Beckinsale show. Just your typical boring day I guess. A boring day is fine by me. I'll do my typical Sunday shit today, and then I'm not sure. I guess I could go shopping for a meal.

I am not really sure what I'll do. We will have 3-4 days of cold weather, and then I think perhaps a little warm up. Maybe Winter will be over. At this stage 35° is warm. Super comfortable.   :)

What else?  Not really much.  I guess pretty shortly work will start to pick up slightly. My Saturday job always need full time help. Dependable people are helpful in that job. Last week they had some call ins. I guess that's a problem cuz we have attendance bonuses. I rarely call in sick. Probably under 10 times my whole life. 3 days with pneumonia,  one day cuz I was mad or something when I worked at the local lumber yard. Once this thanksgiving, cuz I was puking and ass pissing. I think that's it. I just am naturally pretty healthy I guess.

We will see what this year is like. It should be busy. The weather will turn warm. I don't really know what to expect. I guess I'll stay busy doing what I do.

I'll hit publish to this thing. Obviously not a lot on my mind. There is one thing. Just something that happened yesterday. I thought I was going to be asked to go full time at my Saturday job. It never did get asked,  but me and the guy I worked with both thought so. It made me wonder what that would be like.

I work 1st shift now,  and obviously that suits me. I make good money at both places. My bakery job, I am friends with the owners.  I've had a good working relationship with my Saturday job people.

It just made me wonder what life would be like with a change. Not that I am looking for a change, but you know how you wonder about stuff as an opportunity arises?

That was on my mind.  That's it though. Today is a day, and so is tomorrow.

Laterzzz.      :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeee.       :)))

The Years First.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I think yesterday was the first day this year I slept til my late alarm. I must have stayed  up a little late. Yesterday I watched a bunch of t.v.  I finished the Hunter season,  I had a couple episodes left. I watched a movie. It was good. Interesting.  You know how you see a movie,  and you wonder how that person thinks?  I say it's a good movie if you try to get in the character's head. Then I watched 3-1/2 episodes of Frasier, and woke up on the couch at 10:30.

Today I got out of bed, and had one of my i don't feel like coffee mornings. So basically just another day I guess. Today should be an easy day of work. I'll work out, and maybe squeeze in a movie if the times line up.

Nothing really important going on with me. Not much in my mind. Not much to worry about. My life is pretty set in how I do things.  I am not anxious about the future. I really don't have much stress in my life. A day pops up,  and I am usually cool with it. I wake up the same every day it seems. I imagine the typical person tries to find a good life. One in which you are happy every day. Content. I guess I've done that. I can't take credit for how I feel every day though.

I didn't construct my life in such a way for me to be like this. I guess I looked long term. Toward the end, cuz I viewed death as a real thing. I saw what is of value to do now during the living years so that ending is worth it or whatever. There was nothing of value to do during the living years. That ending overshadows all.

So my life went in the direction I saw best. I had no play book or anything. Then my story started. It is mostly hidden. You cannot really know me all that great, cuz you cannot fathom the shoes I've walked in. It's beyond your realm of possibilities.

So I stand now with my easy life. Made easy because my heart is made to be care free. I do have to suffer once more at some point, and that is so I can finally be who I wanted to be. The best a person can be. I am pretty sure most/all of this guy who once was a kid will no longer be. I'll be someone completely different. It's the wineskin parable. That which makes me mostly spirit now cannot hold my new insides so it has to be remade. It will be made during my suffering, cuz that is the way for this thing. It's how it works.

How I am then compared to how you will be I am not really sure. I've had an extra step in my story, so I really know very little.

I just know I am here today. Living the life you dream of.  The one where you wake up every day, and everything is fine. If I am not respected by my peers I don't care. If I am, I'd be the last to know, and that's cool too.    :)

Anyway I spose.  Today should be pretty easy.

Laterzzz.     :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeee.        :)))