So, I Had A Day Off.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I had a day off, and pleasantly I didn't have much to do. I figured I better get our vacation settled. We were going to go through a travel agent,  then I decided to go through Expedia. I guess I didn't care if I got the best deal in the history of the World. Just get plane tickets, hotel, and car. We are going for 4 nights to San Antonio. Just do touristy stuff.  Basically just see a city I've never seen before.

I went to get my tires rotated, and get a couple fixed that had slow leaks. I ended up with 4 new tires. It was an expensive day. I didn't need 4 new tires, but I thought piece of mind. I don't even put 3000 miles  on my vehicle/year, so they'll last me perhaps the rest of my life.

Basically,  I had a day off. I got shit done, and now I am ready to start another week. I am well rested to it seems. I woke up way before my alarm,  and of course fell asleep again before it went off. Sometimes I am tired at that stage,  but I wasn't too bad, so up I am, and I can get a run in.

Other than that not much. Just living out my boring old life. No complaints. My life isn't very busy outside of work,  and I like it that way.  I don't have a ton to do. I don't feel I am even interested in much. Just enjoy my day to day I guess. Not many people blog much, which is fine. I am sure people's lives are just as boring as mine.

None of us are doing anything significant. We all are just living out our days. My life,  and lifestyle have very little stress. If ever I had any burdens they've been taken away. Back in the beginning of my journey things that make people's lives harder had no interest to me. These days I don't even know how people afford kids. How much time does that take up?

I suspect people without means continue to have kids too. I don't particularly think life gets easier,  and I don't particularly think life was ever easy in the first place. People eventually need direction,  and there never were people who knew how to give "correct" direction.

Back in my beginning when fear was my constant companion I was terrified of judgement. Whatever makes less judgement seemed the best course. So, maybe I thought if I never said anything again, that would be a good start.

Remember what I said though,  and what the turn is. If there is some reason I am here let me do that instead of anything else. Hidden in that is if there is some reason I am here... meaning I have no idea. Ideally I'd like the easiest route, but mine wasn't,  and for a reason. Also fear taught me I didn't like judgement,  so I surely would not want to be a teacher,  cuz they get judged harsher.

The reason I am here is not exactly what I asked for, but I didn't have any vision. Security came after overcoming the second time, so I no longer had to be afraid. I am confident, secure, and assured of my ways. People need direction, and that is what this blog is for.

I can't tell how this works, but I suspect people cannot accept the truth. Hearts were hardened, and everyone went their own way. That is fine in a way, cuz I am tied to my purpose. It is a bond stronger than anything else. Those who are with me are with me, and those who aren't aren't. Your choice, and it does not matter to me.

My heart is not perfect,  and this vessel is not the finished product, but with help I still can do good.  Perfection is possible,  and that is my path,  but I can do good labor before that. I didn't know that was possible either. A promise all for good goes a long way.

I am definitely not a Saint, and righteousness isn't reckoned as such, cuz none of us are. It's a different path that leads to that,  and we are tied down by bad teaching, and holding onto false truths. The truth is the hardest thing you'll ever do, because in the truth you'll find out you are wrong. A hard thing for us to accept, cuz it means your life to this point doesn't even really matter. One coin out of trillions and trillions before you.

I was strong enough early on to accept the truth. The wilderness taught me a lot, and mostly that the World is fake, and pretty much our lives. We all at one point are a product of the World, and false teachers. Our hearts don't know any better either.

So my job is pretty much impossible,  but I am a vessel being used for a purpose. I can do it with confidence and strength too, because of my help.

Anyhoo,

Gotta run.

Have fun.  :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Time Creeps Up On You.

This morning it just occurred to me that pretty soon I'll be 8 years from 60. Wow!!  Time does catch up with you. I joined a place called Evergreen Commons not to far from my work,  but farther away from my house. It is for people 50, and over. They have free weights, machines, bikes,  treadmills, and a pool. I mostly am interested in resistance training, although if the weather is bad, I can use the treadmill. It gives me something to do after work, and maybe I can see what type of shape I can get in.

In my opinion 40 ain't nothing, and 50 ain't nothing, but when you first see 60 on the horizon, then that to me is kinda a big deal. I go Wednesday for my weight room orientation, and then I'll have a plan, or one will evolve. Fall approaches too, so there isn't a ton to do after work anyway.

I saw a movie after work yesterday. Slender Man. It was pretty awful,  but what are you going to do on a Saturday afternoon?  I then went shopping. I picked up stuff for lunches,  some popsicles, and stuff for dinner. Dinner hit the spot. I started watching the first Iron man, and decided to just go to bed. I think I slept 10 hours, which feels pretty awesome. I get to sleep in tomorrow too, but I haven't really been sleeping great on Sunday nights. Maybe cuz it is out of my routine.

I do have to say though at this point in my life it is exciting to try something new. I am not tied into anything that won't let me try something new. Free to do new things you know?  Freedom is what we want in life, and freedom is not something we can find on our own.  I have two jobs I like,  and time to reinvent myself too so to speak.  

Today, I'll take Hope for a run, and probably finish listening to my book, and read my other one when that's done.

Just a day in the life really. One I am pretty excited about, but I tend to always feel that way I guess.

Gotta run.   :)

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

Welp, It Is Friday.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I was tired after work yesterday, so I didn't do much. I helped my brother move some book shelves,  and that's about it. I picked some tomatoes too. 

I really have nothing on my mind. I don't have any big plans this weekend, which is usually the case. I don't even know what I'll do today after work. Life is kinda like that huh?  All this time, and what to do with It?  I guess I do have a couple errands I can run,  now that I think of it. That's the plan. Gotta figure out something for dinner too. So there,  I guess I have a day planned.

Tomorrow I get to listen to another book. I already started it. I liked the first two, and this one seems even better. I think there are only 3 in this series, so then it will be onto other things. I am leaning toward just reading the other series of books, which is what I planned all along anyway.

Other than that not much. There really is nothing going on. Nothing in my little head. I still am the the same as always though. It is different than you,  and you have no idea about how I am. You don't even know it's possible. 

I know how you are, and after all this time maybe I don't. It's dark inside you. You are closed off,  because that is the existence we were born into. Different people have different interests, and outside of me, I don't recall meeting anyone fully content. There is always some issue. Some thing that needs to be done. Some experience to have. Really just a way to feel good all the time I guess. It seems to me a person's natural course of action is to mould events so our hearts are always happy. There is someway we can create that right? 

That is one problem however. Our hearts we don't control. We dont understand our hearts either. Why do we feel one way onetime, and later on don't. Just think of all the divorces. People didn't change all that much the hearts did though. If we could mould our hearts we would mould them to always be happy. Deep down you know that isn't in your cards, so there must be someway to mould the World and your surroundings to make you feel that way.

Really?  You are going to do all that?  What you'll find is we are pretty helpless. The key to us is our heart, and we don't control it. So you need help for a better life. It isn't in your power, and you cannot create it.

The human flaw. We think we are all that, and we are not.   Your not being content should lead you to soul searching. What you want out of life you cannot grab. There are a billion avenues that lead to the same end. Not the one we want. You'll not want to try all billion, and you better start being honest about the one you are on.

You didn't out of malice box yourself into a life that isn't the best one. Everyone is born into it, and we all follow some path somewhere. It is up to you to find the correct one. It's pretty important. All the things that have been done since forever don't mean shit. We haven't done nothing new. You were born into the existence as the multitudes were before you. You do have an opportunity to improve that lot, but the story isn't one you create. You just aren't that smart.

A human is flawed,  but a human thinks they are remarkable. Society has built up walls inside you. Different ones for different people. We all at some point followed false teachers, and some even became ones. Maybe we all have.

I am not a false teacher though, what I say is the truth, but hearts cling to lies. It seems easier or something.

Anyhoo. Gotta run.

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

My Name is Pejchl, Not Pickle.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. So I canned my cucumber slices yesterday. 8 quarts I made. That is a lot. All the jars sealed, so it went okay. I didn't have traditional pickling spices, so I added some stuff I already had that smelled like a good spice. Among the spices I used red pepper flakes to hopefully give it a kick. I did buy dill seed, and garlic, so of course I had that. I also tried a trick I found on the internet using half vinegar, and half apple cider vinegar to make up my vinegar solution. Also they have these calcium chloride pebbles you add, so you don't have to do the pre soak in salt water. It looks like it will taste good,  but I really have no idea. I think it said to wait a couple weeks before I refrigerate and try one. 8 quarts is a lot of pickles. It's not like tomato sauce where you use a full quart for spaghetti,  or lasagna. Pretty exciting though.

Other than that not much. It was a pretty active day with over 27,000 steps. That seems normal to me, but I do take Mondays off, and it is not uncommon to be nowhere near 10,000 steps. Basically without knowing it I am active. It's just normal day to day stuff, and I don't think about it. Runs are counted in those steps, so that adds to it, but really I do this unconsciously.

I feel this week is another busy week. It seems I got plenty of stuff to keep me busy. Just my pickling expedition took a good amount of time.

Life basically goes on I guess. I don't really have much to worry about. My main job gets deposited into an account that pays our mortgage. I don't have a mortgage, so that amount gets higher and higher. We rarely use that account. I use it if it is the card I pick out. It's the same color as our main account. That is a pretty good problem to have I guess.

Work is fine, I am fine. My heart is just the way it is. Working makes me feel good,  so I like to do it. Life is an endless string of days, so do what makes you feel good I guess. For me that is a good days labor as part of my day. Staying busy, and also relaxing at the end. Wake up every day ready to do it again. I guess I have a pretty good disposition,  and I know I didn't make me this care free. I am a product of my path. I know the anxieties,  questions,  impossible task it is to mold the World and your life into how you "think" it should be.

My way leaves that in other hands. World Shmorld, I couldn't care less. I am content as I am. I will not help shape future events. I am not that arrogant. Having a side causes anger. Sides are dumb. I'll still do my bit, just cuz. That happens with a turn.

Anyhoo,  I basically got nothing,  but you know.

Gotta run.

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Laterzzz.   :)

I Don't Even Think I Tried.

So, my Doctor stuff is done for a year. I am better today than I was a year ago. I didn't even really try. I think now I may take a more active role in basically my nutrition. My lifestyle is active. I don't carry extra weight. I think I could be a bit more active. I think I could eat a bit better too. I don't eat horribly,  and I am not an overeater,  but maybe just actively seek out eating more fruits and vegetables. By this time next year I could be really really healthy. Everything in my blood work is normal, except triglycerides, and that is most likely due to alcohol consumption. I drank less last year than the year before. Basically drinking less when I drink. I think I can improve upon that too. My one vice.

It's been on my mind to do resistance training again, so I  should do that. As I approach the age of 52, I am glad everything points to a healthy me.

So that is basically good news for me. It may be the New Years phenomenon however,  where you think to make a new start that lasts a week. I think I'll be conscious of trying to improve though. It just makes life easier in the long run.

Other than that not much. Work went pretty good. We got a lot done,  and a good start to the week. Working at a bakery you typically maintain the day to day, and build for the weekend, except the two weeks before Christmas, where you try and produce enough stuff, usually failing. School starts pretty soon, so there may be a little slow down after, and once again after Labor Day.

Fall approaches though,  so then you start doing pumpkin stuff etc...   really though I am just mostly excited about being healthy.  It's a good thing to be.

I am going to can pickles today too for the first time. I have about 12 cucumbers or so, and a full pan of cucumbers in vinegar. I cannot eat 12 cucumbers,  but I can can dill slices,  which I love too. (Can can)?!

Anyhoo, as you can see not much going on with me. I have a little life which I live in a pretty easy way. It really is pretty easy being me. I never look over my shoulder wondering if I made a right or wrong decision along the way. That is one of the great things about being me, and finding this path I am on. All avenues are good. All that I do will be for good. A life like that one needs help to achieve, and that was the blessing I received right before overcoming the first time. I thought I was on my death bed, and I woke up the next day.

I was not deserving of any good thing at all. My heart was not perfect. I received that promise before when I overcame myself. My life was before me. It was mine to make the most out of it,  but I gave up my will. Basically I gave up my coin, which I felt looked pretty shiny, and had a lot of potential. I gave it up for another one, and it really is way more better. Even if it took me 20 some odd years to find out how.

Here I stand now. I am 52, and in the best position a person can be. Assured, and content. Almost 52 anyway. My heart was molded at times to make the correct decisions to keep me on the path. Fear was my friend, cuz fear I needed. Courage I was given at the proper times, so I could do what I was supposed to. I am a oerson who did not make myself. It was a hard path,  cuz I could not see. Worth everything though. Worth more than all the gold and silver one could wish for.

Anyhoo, Hope would like a run.

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

Looking Inside.

So starting last year I started going to the Doctor once/year. They look at blood pressure, and blood, check your breathing etc...  I haven't been to a Doctor for a couple decades before that. My blood pressure runs high, but I think I have that taken care of. They took my blood yesterday, and I think my cholesterol will be fine. Somewhere over the past several years they stopped sticking fingers up your butt. For that reason I don't really feel I get my money's worth going to the Doc,  but whatever. 

Anyways I think for my age I am relatively healthy. I may even try and be healthier. At my age I tend to look at people,  and think about how their lifestyle looks, and what kind of health concerns they may have. 

Nothing too significant in those thoughts though. I get nervous when I go to the Doc,  cuz I know my blood pressure will have a high reading.

This is kinda a dumb update so far. I don't really have much on my mind. I definitely can feel on my inside how different I am from you. I have a tingling that goes from the bottom of my feet through the top of my head. I've had that since going through the eye of the needle. For a short while I was full. Complete security. Since than I've been poor in spirit. Pretty empty. Being persecuted by the worst of the worst while being empty makes empty scary. In the wilderness I didn't particularly feel I was on the right side of being right. As a matter of fact I was scared of my end, cuz I knew where I stood. As far away as possible from being on the right side of being right.

Really me overcoming was accepting that end. Not what I want. God's will. Most of this stuff you cannot understand. You are nowhere near my shoes. You don't know full, and you don't know empty.  Happiness is not achieved in the fake glamour of society. You cannot be happy there cuz it isn't real. Our lives are all fake.

I know all toil in some endeavors, and I know it cannot fulfill you. No matter how hard you try to think to the contrary. You are born into a lie. This World. It is your job to find your way out of the lie, and the odds are against you. The numbers are actually pretty horrible in that regard. Society looked at closely will only show you the stupidity of it all.

I am not a product of upbringing,  schooling, society, or anything. I am a product of a turn. I walked in blindly, and really very very ignorant toward what comes next.

I am here now. Secure. Assured of my ways. Also of no help to you either. You are a product of society,  upbringing etc...  You don't know fear,  and you cannot know our scary truth. I cannot bridge that gap for you.

Your life is built on a lie. The World has you believing in fairy tales, and such stuff. Just cuz people you are associated with think such and such is right doesn't make it so. The question you must ask is what if everything is wrong? 

The scariest answer to that question is the correct one. Everything is wrong. This place is fake, and full of lies. What now?

I made that walk. Here I am now too. Tested, and I overcame. I am secure in a way I did not know possible, and you still are in the middle of society and this World.

You need help to escape, and I cannot help with that.

Anyhoo, gotta run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

The End Of The Week Is Upon Us.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I've been getting up early a lot this week. Last week it seems I slept in more. Yesterday ended up being what is a pretty regular day for me. I have all these ideas of things I want to do, but it didn't really pan out. Mostly I wanted to cook something good for dinner, but I bike to work most days, and I don't feel like coming home, and leaving again. I may drive today just to run some errands.

My Dad said the most ridiculous thing yesterday. He must not know me at all. At Lisa's work they are selling a '68 Thunderbird for like $8000. I think he wanted me to buy it for $8000 and flip it for $40,000. For one I don't particularly like to drive anywhere. Flipping a car means you must have some interest in cars which I don't. Not to mention the know how needed to work on such car. They must have some show on tv that shows people flipping cars or something.

Turning $8000 into an easy flip for $40,000 might even seem like a good idea, but I already have too much money with nothing to spend it on. What would the point be?  it just seemed pretty ridiculous to me.

Other than that not much. We are in the middle of Summer. The grass looks like shit. I haven't been watering. I have a ton of weeds. My lawn needs a makeover. I got some more cucumbers. I think bugs are eating my squash flowers, cuz I am not getting anymore, and I saw some gross bugs on the plant. Tomatoes are about to explode. I am already getting some.

Life continues on. It's pretty simple where I stand I guess.  I still have shit that needs to get done, but I am sorta relaxing a bit this week. Not doing too much.

I have a book to listen to, which I'll start tomorrow,  and a book to read, which I can start anytime. Shit that can be done around the house. In that regard I have too much to do, and not enough time.  I haven't even seen a movie in forever. I haven't turned on Netflix in forever either.

I will be able to get a run in again today. We really are looking okay today for a pretty good workday. I feel we worked ahead pretty good,  and Monday should be okay for those working Monday. We have another vaca next week. Speaking of--Lisa,  and I have to plan ours.

A day in the life. As easy as my life is, it still is busy. I don't find it terribly stressful though. It's just the day to day. You know I'll always wake up as I am now, and no matter what I'll put in a good days labor, unless on my Monday I do nothing, which doesn't seem likely.

Anyhoo, gotta run. 

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)