I Can Travel More Than A Few Miles.

So, I actually made it to Saugatuck this year. In the Summer we would go at least a few times/year. For me it was always rum runners, and a salmon sandwich on the butler deck. The salmon isn't there anymore. I had an olive burger. My 2nd one ever, and I will order more in the future. I had a rum runner too. They are still good.

It was a school night, so I didn't really whoop it up. I made it to Saugatuck this year though. I really don't travel much. 10 miles is a long way when I can just stay home.

Other than that the major thing yesterday is I fucked up the bread I made the day before. Forgot the ingredient that gave it the flavor. I think probably everyone does it once, and feels like such a dick, they'll never do it again. I kept thinking I forgot something, I should have voiced my concerns, cuz we could taste the dough and know, or just rewalk the steps and remember.

A dumb mistake, and now I have a warning sign internally it seems.

Anyhoo, that was about it. I watered my garden, and grass yesterday. My bil pulled up while I was just chilling, so we went to Saugatuck. I wouldn't have gone on my own. He bought 10 acres near there,  so we checked out his property.

All in all a day. Would have been better if I didn't fuck up the bread, but today is a new day. Weekend approaches. I have some errands today, so I'll probably drive.

That's about it. Pretty much just getting something down I guess.

Anyway, I'll talkatcha later.

Sorry for not deleting.  :)

This Is My Life.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday I had a pretty good day. Work was fine. I rode my bike home in what was just a perfect day. I had a plan too. I didn't cut the grass on Monday, cuz of rain,  so I planned on doing it yesterday. I did that,  and dishes. We did tacos yesterday instead of Monday too. That is the makeup of my perfect day.

We ended up going to a dealership to see about a prize we knew we weren't going to win. We didn't win anything. We currently have 3 vehicles, but we may in about 6 months see about getting a new, or new for us car. I think we'll go to that same place, cuz they were really nice. We talked to two really nice people. You expect high pressure from car people,  and these people were just nice. Plain and simple. The girl we spent the most time with was just ridiculously cute. My wife called her a cutey patewtey,  and that really was fitting. She was.

Anyhoo, like I said this is my life. It is simple, and the simplest days are just about perfect for me. I get to wake up feeling like this most days too. Also I realize today will most likely be another perfect day.

There is a difference between who I am and you, but I cannot explain really. You would have to go back to the beginning of this blog, and read every update.  :)

haha, I keed.  

I'm out.

Laterzzz.    :)

The Start Of The Week

Good morning. How's it going? Me, I am fine. I slept good last night. I had a good weekend. I easily woke up early for work on Sunday. Made it in by 4:30, when it's been a,struggle to get there at 5:00 AM. That's good. I also saw two movies this weekend. Spider man, and Atomic Blond. They were entertaining enough.

We were sitting down,  getting ready to cook dinner, and I realized I didn't really have a care. I worked on that day, and I was about to eat. Our dinner was easy, and delicious. Bob Evans mashed potatoes. Beans from the garden, and chicken Kievs. So simple, and so good. We watched a little tv, and I crashed. Simple pimple really. I now start off Monday feeling good, and refreshed. I am lucky that way I guess. For me Monday is the same as most days. It's not really the end of the weekend, it is just another day. A day I will have to cut the grass, and a  day we will have tacos.

Pretty exciting huh? 

Anyway, I got nothing I guess, but it is good to be me today.

For no reason, except this life here is pretty simple.

Later.   :)

Not Exactly Sleeping In Today.

Good morning. How's it going? Me, I am fine. I've been up for a couple hours already. I've had my gas station coffee *with vanilla caramel creamer* I am buying some of that shit today.   It is so good. I am buying coffee anyway.

Today I am going to see the spider man movie after work. The time lines up. I can go right after work. I am going to take Hope in a bit, and probably read my book. Another day in the books, and another underway.

There is nothing significant on my mind, and maybe there never is. I feel the World keeps moving on, but I am no part of it. It is kinda like the Matrix. There is pressures of the World,  and many things to worry about, but It doesn't seem to affect me. The World is not my master so to speak.

I am not perfect,  and it is impossible for me to be in the vessel I currently live in.  In that regard you and I are alike. You aren't perfect,  and you will never make anyone else perfect either.

I know things about changing vessels having already gone through a change decades ago. You currently are who you were born as.

We were taught we were special and yadda yadda yadda, but we aren't. No amount of labor or sacrifice makes you the best a person can be. To face our weakness, and helplessness as far as perfection goes ain't a bad thing.

Sometimes I feel people want to prove others wrong to mark their place on a pedestal. I'll help you. Everyone is wrong. None have the answers. You can look everywhere in the World, and you won't find it. You can read every publication and not find it. You can read every book and not find it. Your heroes are flawed. Your heroes blindly lead the blind.

It takes a lot to put a person on the right path, and I don't think anyone has what it takes.

We just go on day after day, and not one of us is any closer to perfection. The difference between you and I is I think that to be significant, you don't. Actually I know it to be.

I've known the shitty truth for awhile. Decades actually. If I could hide it I guess that would be fine, but it is your job to face it. I'd suggest doing it. It's for your own good,  although you are blind toward that.

Anyway, today I have a day. There is a lot of stuff that should be done around the house. I don't see getting it all done.  :)

I'll talkatcha later.

Byeeeee.   :)

I Spose

Good morning. How's it going?   Me, I am fine. It is Friday,  and I get to sleep in tomorrow. A lot of times I get up earlier than I have to, so really I could sleep longer most days. Sunday it isn't always easy for me to get to work at 5:00 AM. That is the only day I struggle getting up. Of course I could go in at 6,7, or 8:00, but I like to get in early to leave early.

There is absolutely nothing too crazy going in my life, so this blog is running out of things to say. I try and give it a whirl if I can. I suspect life for many is nothing too crazy and exciting. We pretty much live our day to day til we die.

The World is such a way, and people are such a way that our day to day gets filled with more and more BS,  lives get too busy. People get tired,  and no one ever gets ahead in life. Our day to day is probably filled with us getting just a bit more behind. More shit to do we put off.

We do like our down time. I do too, and I take it without any guilt. If there is a smart way to live I probably don't do it. I work every day, and you know what I like about that?  I typically don't have those Monday mornings dreading how much money I spent on the weekend. I made money on the weekend. If there is one smart thing I do I'd say it is that. My life is pretty simple, and I can find down time every day. Perhaps too much.

I guess that is another thing I may do that's smart. While people entrench themselves with more and more day to day stuff they strangle themselves. The plant you are should flourish,  but the weeds of the World kill you. It is like you are tangled in a spider web.

My life is work, eat, sleep,  with down time. Also I typically never get as much done every day as I'd like, but sometimes I do.

Life is better the more simple it is, but there are a lot of variables. Hearts strive, so who can be content not chasing after wind?  The World is such a way it makes us busier and busier. Who is strong enough to stand up to the World? 

Also we all are a product of the World so we accept as truth shit that is not. You have to throw everything you know away. You have to do it for a couple reasons. If you don't you cannot see anything objectively. You'll just be a mess. Another reason is because the World is just flat wrong,  and you are a product of that. It's what we are born into.

Anyhoo

I guess that's it.

I may see you hear tomorrow.

Laterzzz.   :)

Some Days It Is Like This.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I has just enough coffee left to make a 1/2 cup. I don't really have anything to blog about, but what the heck.

Yesterday was a pretty normal day. I was tired after work for the 2nd day in a row. That happens I guess. A final stretch before school starts. Labor day will be here, and things chill out a bit til Thanksgiving, and Christmas.

People will still work,  but kids are in school. Homework,  exams, after school B.S., and whatever else it is parents do. My life won't change much. The weather will change, but I'll still be doing the same stuff. Dinners change with the seasons. Soup, and chilli, and lasagna, and meatloaf will be made. I guess we'll still do tacos too of course.

I will wear a jacket when biking, and another season of man vs. leaves will be upon us. The years do really start to fly by. I have a colonoscopy coming up in two months. I am pretty confident that will come out fine. I saw my blood work results. They test for a lot of minerals, and vitamins it seems. Everything was in the normal range. My blood sugar I was happy to see at ~45. Normal range I think is 40-99. I fasted during this time so it may be higher normally,  but I think that is good.

My life goes on. Typically outside work many times I don't get as much done as I like. I fail every day maybe. It doesn't wear on me though.  It is just life. We busy ourselves with unimportant stuff a lot I guess.

I don't know people all too well I guess. One thing I count on is I wake up typically feeling okay. I have a day before me, and we'll see how it plays out.

Anyway, like I said not much to blog about.

Sorry I hit publish instead of delete.   :)

Have a good one, I may see you here tomorrow.

Laterzzz.  :)

A View Of The World.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am okay. I was lazy after work yesterday, so I will have to get some stuff done today. I did miracle gro my garden though. Probably for the last time.

Anyway I've been up a while thinking of things. One is the light in me, which I cannot explain to you. It helps me be seen. It also lets me know all is seen. It is my strength I would say. No one can do anything to me, cuz I still have that.

You cannot know what that is like, you don't have it. So it is not really necessary I talk about it. In this way I stand alone. It makes me unique in a way, but it is a gift. Not one thing special about me, except the willingness long ago to make the turn. That is it. I denied myself as it were.

The World was there for my taking, kinda,  but I was broken sorta, and I wanted a better life than whatever I could muster. My story is a turn coupled with obedience. Once fear is installed obedience is a no brainer. One would be foolish not to be. One time outside the garbage room, I could have rebelled, but I played it smart.

Anyway like I said before that story has been told to death. I was thinking this morning of people just going on with their lives. The World is like a big parking garage, but no cars. People are walking with expressionless faces up and down the ramps of this great big parking garage. I can try do get inside their brains, but they are closed. Locked so no one can see.  What is the purpose of you walking up and down these ramps?  To what gain do you do this? 

I can see that far into people, and that is probably a real part of you. There also is the other part that shows various types of pageantry the World is full of.

I think you are an expressionless person in this big parking garage. The parking garage serves no purpose, but you still walk in it, cuz what else is there? 

To no end we wander in this place.

Weird.

Anyway that is what I thought about today, before I got up.

Today will be a day, and I am predicting a good one. Not sure what to do for dinner.

I'll figure that out later. 

Have a good one.  :)

xoxo.   :)