Up Early For a Sunday

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I am up early for a Sunday so I guess I'll try this. I don't really have much on my mind though as usual.

Yesterday was okay. I cleaned the kitchen, and did laundry. We made tacos for dinner. I slept good too, since I am up early. We'll have good weather again today so it should be a good day. I'll get out of work around 1:00. We also have any number of things we can do for dinner. The day is set. Just not sure what we will do from after work til dinner time.

My life is pretty simple. There are probably things I could do different, but I think I am going okay.

In other news there is no other news. There is nothing really to my little life here. I am 50 years old, and I guess I am in my golden years kinda. Not really much to worry about. Typically life goes and ties people up, but it did the opposite for me. There is a reason for that,  and that is my story.

Such a simple statement the truth will set you free. Sounds good too, but in actuality you have to brace yourself for the truth, cuz it isn't what you think.

It is pretty impossible for a human to come to the truth, cuz our whole lives we learned other things. The World always lied. It's what it does,  cuz it doesn't know the truth.

I find it pretty impossible for me to help you get close to the truth, and maybe cuz you battle against it. Maybe we try, and try, and try, and eventually we break. Meaning you just cannot be who you really want to be.

I guess I was that way. When I found myself alone in the World,  and the World was before me, I tried to make me the best person I can be. It turns out I wasn't too good at that. That helped me see the truth. It helped make my heart right for what it needed to do. That is where you need to go.

For those willing anyway. So far I count zero willing, but I don't really know. Who knows what goes on with people?  Surely not I.

Anyhoo,  I guess that's it.

Have fun.  :)

Laterzzzzzz.  :)

James Garner Found The Files I Left In Rockford.

Never thought those would be found. Pretty crazy stuff in those files. Geesh, they could probably make a TV show with them.

Anyway, good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Not much going on with me. Nothing I haven't done too much differently in a long while. I finally saw the John Wick movie. It was good for a shoot shoot bang bang movie. I picked up some stuff for dinner. We did potato skins again. 3rd time this week. Basically just relaxed.

Anyway it appears this blog here is getting to be more and more about nothing. Today I am blogging just cuz I slept in yesterday, and didn't.

Now I should just delete it, cuz it isn't going anywhere.

I won't though. I'll end it here though.  Hahaha

Hope you didn't read it to the end.

That would suck. :)

Cya.   :)

Unchartered Waters.

Looking at the forecast after today the next 8 days will have highs ranging from 48°-59°  since we are approaching late Feb. can winter pop back down?   It would seem Canadia would have to send a good amount of their wind toward us. Is Winter done already?  

If so I guess that's good. The lake is unfrozen,  so July might be hot.  Tulip time will also be a stem fest.

Doesn't really matter I guess. I'll take the good weather now,  deal with the rest later.

I got some stuff done yesterday after work. Picked up my duct fitting to finish the dryer,  cleaned the kitchen,  cleaned the stairs. I also finished listening to another Pendergast book, and started another. I watched the movie I fell asleep through the night before. We also made potato skins again. We got that down. Ours are better than any restaurant I've had.

I guess that is a pretty good day. I was thinking about life a bit. You do all this shit. People die and stuff, and one day you view your end. It all seems dumb when you can see your end. All hearts get broken at some time. People deal with loss,  we fill our time doing whatever. If you are in the rat race I can't think of a worse life. Busy, busy, busy.

I guess every day I have 4-5 hours to do what I want after work. I also have an hour or two before work. That is a lot of free time. I am not saying I am always productive during this time, but I am sometimes.

It is an unbusy, and uncomplicated life. Everyday is a day off sorta,  cuz all the free time. I like my jobs too, cuz everyday I do something you know? 

It is just a good position to be me I guess. I am not lonely, and everyday is a new day to do stuff. There is no guilt, and no remorse. I haven't failed anyone really. I don't know I guess life is easy.

As to other people who knows?   I know they are not like me. Maybe cuz people are always searching for the better version of themselves. Problem is every day is another day. Our moods don't always start the same every day. Mine pretty much does.  I don't seek out a better version of myself, cuz that comes at the end of my story. I found the better version of myself,  but the timing is not mine. The ability to create this is not mine either.

What I get is a content heart. It is what makes me wake up every day mostly with the same outlook. Another day of work,  eat, sleep, with free time added.

You cannot be like me as I am now,  cuz that is part of my story. This too is a gift. The timing of other stuff I just wait and see.

Anyways, I think I'll finish my coffee,  and take Hope.  I may check movies too. I may see one after work. The John Wick one is what I want to see.

Okay, I'll cya.

Have a good one.  :)

Just Sitting Here.

I am just sitting here thinking of a title. Nothing really comes to mind. As far as this entry goes,  who knows?   I did make myself a coffee. Not because I wanted one, but just cuz it is a new package. It doesn't taste any different than older ones. This time I bought a dark roast McCafe one. It doesn't taste as good as one you'd get from McDonalds. Maybe that is why people spend money on store bought cups. I am not really an officianado on coffee so I pay a fraction what others do who buy store bought cups. Also I don't drink coffee every day.

Anyhoo, that is that. Yesterday was a pretty normal day. Our house got appraised. We'll see how that goes. Also the other day we cleaned out our dryer duct. That collects lint I tell you. I replaced a couple sections. I always joked about my wife's fears of dryer fires, but after looking at our ducts I see that is a thing.

Other things happened yesterday too. I rented a movie I fell asleep too. Not uncommon. Lisa gets mad when I do. I am listening to a good book. One of the Pendergast novels.  Authors Lincoln Preston,  and Lee Child. I think there are like 19 Pendergast novels.

So, that is about my day. Today starts another. It won't be much different than others. Life goes on.

How I am every day is kinda like a weekend.  After work there is nothing stressful really for me to worry about. Nothing too stressful at work,  unless I make a mistake. I do new stuff so it happens. I try and work ahead a lot if possible. It's February though, so I should be patient.

Anyway, That is about it. Nothing too important going on with me. As usual.

Cya later.   :)

The Wake Up.

You can always tell the start of a good day when you are pretty much awake about an hour before the early alarm, aka 3 hours before you need to be up.

I didn't do much with that hour. Looked at my phone for a bit, and just laid there. I don't really have much on my mind. Yesterday was pretty okay. I did the work thing. I worked both sides of the table,  but it wasn't too crazy. A full day I guess you could say. I came home, and went out for beers and burritos. It was fun. I usually always see Hawaii Greg there, but I met a few other people there too. Not a bad way to do Monday.

I don't think I thought of anything particularly interesting yesterday. A lot of days I'll write stuff down in my blog. I don't really have any idea how it will go. Usually I start my blog with, I have nothing on my mind.

A lot of times stuff will come out anyway. I am getting to the point that I think this thing does very little.  I still do it cuz now it is just a part of me you know. Wake up. If it is early blog about something. Take Hope if there is time. Go to work,  eventually eat, and eventually sleep.

I guess it is a simple life. I have no idea what my life would look like if I did it any other way. All along I guess life pulled me in a certain direction. Through fun times,  and hard times I guess I learned about myself. A kid growing up is not really easy. A lot of questions. Eventually you realize you have to work. You have to live somewhere. I went to school cuz that is what people do.

Eventually I guess I started growing up. Fun is fun, but you gotta do shit too right? 

Really what I did is I went crazy for a bit. It's fun, but it leads nowhere. I corrected my ship, and got through school. Death visits me, and questions of what to do.

In the end I made a right choice. I was lifted up briefly, and then brought down real low. The time before the dead years was pretty brutal. It is where I learned a lot. I also learned where everyone stands.  I learned the World has been a mess for a long time. The message has been lost for centuries too.

I did not ask the question am I the only one,  cuz I didn't need to know. I know the answer now.

I am put in a position where I guess my job is important. I am secure in myself, and that is a miracle.

A lot to my life,  and a lot to me. In the end my life is about my story,  and not me. I am not who I am without me making right choices of overcoming myself and being obedient.

My foundation is strong. It is kinda trippy I guess. As someone who really is of little value, I have been given value. It stems from my story. My help is my strength,  and it cannot be shaken.

My story is invisible besides the words you see here. In the end my story calls many people. How that all unfolds I don't know. I just know the final thing the current version of me has to do. As to others not really sure.

Why me is a good question. It doesn't matter though. I am too far along. I am too strong now to wonder about any of this. The story will play out. I am a vessel used in this story, just not the author.

I guess in the long run through me kinda you get to learn about the author. Maybe. Not sure.

It's a strange story for sure, and I'll keep some of the zany stuff to myself.

I guess that's it.

Later.   :)

The Start Of Another Week.

Here is something new. I wake up, there is nothing really on my mind, yet I am trying to do this. I know, crazy.

Yesterday I seemed a bit tired.  Must not have been real tired,  cuz I made it to work before 5:00 AM. I came home, and watched a movie,  and then we went downstairs,  and did some cleaning in the basement. We really need a plan of action for our basement. I am going to redo the ceiling, and we need to do some flooring. The ceiling was a plank style ceiling tile. I am going to switch to pallet wood I think. The floor I think we will just buy a box or two of something every week or so.  That's how I did our kitchen, and dining room.

So much to do, and the 10 day makes it look like Spring shows up in February this year. So we will have outside stuff to do too.

I can start worrying about that tomorrow. I got plans for BOGO burritos,  and a few beers today. That is pretty much about it.

Nothing too crazy about my life. Days pile up on each other. Nothing changes too drastically I don't think.  I am just sitting here getting older. I am not trying to make the World a better place, cuz that isn't happening. The World is not that great a place. People are not all that great either. Do you ever think about all the things you think about each day. How much can you not say, cuz it is not a "proper" thing to think? 

I did think about that yesterday. Maybe last night during sleep. We all carry a filter. Why?  Why do we think unacceptable things?  Why is there so much division in life?   Part of division is everyone thinks someone is receiving better treatment. That is probably true too, cuz people aren't exactly fair.

I guess what I am saying is no one is a Saint. Look at your network of friends.  They are not in any better position than anyone else. You look at flawed people. The question is does that matter?  Does it matter if you are not perfect?  

What I've learned is yes it does matter. So I was told to go out solo and find my way. The route I need to take. I found my route in the wilderness, because in the wilderness I found out I am worth very little. In my life I don't deserve anything. I haven't suffered so much that I deserve this or that. Maybe that is what you need to learn. Instead of thinking about your Sainthood,  maybe you should look at the truth.

That will make all the difference.

Okay cya.

Wow. It Is Nice To Sleep In

Good morning. How's it going?   Me, I am doing good. I got a really good night sleep last night. I woke up, and had no idea what time it was. Also I had no alarms to go off. So, I slept a little past 5:00 AM.

I guess really if I wanted to I could sleep that late every day. I don't though. Anyway, yesterday was another day. Work went good. There are a couple days that can be really interesting. Monday and Friday. I probably have to work both sides of the table in some capacity. My normal stuff I've been doing for close to 2 years, and I may have to help or do stuff on the mixing side. My side I always know what needs to be done. The other side has some stuff that needs to get done,  and a lot that can vary. It is interesting to say the least.

Other than that not much. Lisa went out to get another tattoo. I am sure she told me, but I forgot.  I ate left over pizza. We watched some cooking shows on tv, and then I fell asleep.  Pretty good day, but nothing really crazy. Kinda typical really.

Let's see. What else?  Not much. I am having a coffee. I'll take Hope in a bit. I'll read before work,  and maybe play mahjong for a bit. I'll clean when I get home. Lisa is picking up something for dinner. It should be an easy day. Maybe all my days are. I think that is the case. All my days are pretty easy.

Anyway, I got nothing. Just this jibberish, so I'll leave it at that.  Try not blowing your brains out from boredom from reading this.  :)

Cya.