My First 3 Days.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got my new teeth on Monday so pretty much just recovering. I went from a horrible smile. Smile of shame to a perfect smile. I actually look in the mirror now, and it is pretty ridiculous.

I wasn't really nervous going into the thing til the day of. I came home. The bleeding stopped pretty quickly, and the pain meds are magic. Lisa picked up my scripts. I almost told her to not worry about the pain ones, but like I said, they are magical. I am probably done with them, but might take one here or there if need be.

I feel really good about it, cuz goodbye big dental bills. I know these things are usually looked at negatively, cuz bad hygiene and what not. I actually went to the dentist every 6 months, and I am one of the few who flossed every day.

Whatever. I walked the walk of shame for 1-3/4 years. I am no worse for the wear.

Anyway I finished the first Game of Thrones book, and watched the first season. I am on the 2nd book now. I am enjoying my downtime this vacation. I am not bored,  and I don't care I am not doing shit. It is actually pretty relaxing. I probably won't run til my gums are healed either, so I am really being lazy. I also am on a soft food /liquid diet as I heal. Gotta get used to things too, cuz it is different.

That is basically about it. Just being lazy and quiet.

The thing about walks of shame is they suck. The World looks at you in a negative light.

Maybe underneath us all is stuff if it was known, would start us on our walk of shame. Who wants to go on one of those?  

No one. The World dresses stuff up, and we like it. None of us are perfect, and we all have our own walk of shame.

Each their own story. In that way we stand alone. It is why most/all cling to groups. The truth of us all is some type of walk of shame.

Anyways, I am just getting something down. I know you miss me when I am quiet.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

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Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

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p.s.  today should be a pretty lazy day. Looking forward to a gourmet dinner of Ramen noodles and pudding.   :)

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Had To Check The Numbers.

I am getting close to 1700 updates on this blog. As a nice gesture I think it would be good for all of you to go back and reread all of them.  ;)

J/k. I can't think of a worse thing to do. Yesterday I had another day.  Nothing too significant. Work, eat, sleep. I did take another day off, but am going after this. I was tired, and still sore yesterday. Today I slept in, and don't have to be to work til 9:00, so that's perfect. Speaking of work,  after today I am done til next Saturday. I will have as many days off this week as I had probably since last February.  :)  Now that's funny. 

Other than that not much. Just doing this life thing. Doing nothing really significant. It's life, so there isn't anything significant to do. I know people probably don't realize that. You ain't changing the World. You are not the best a person can be. The time you spend doing whatever is time you won't get back.

In other words like me you just aren't that important. We are strange creatures that way. Our whole being and foundation is built on a lie. The true foundation is one of humility and meekness, yet your hearts are far away.

You seek for heroes in this World cuz currently you are not strong enough to live in a World where there are no heroes. Someone had to do something right...   right? 

Everything you think is progress probably has another negative side. Technological advances are not really advances. We can make better video games, but that is hours wasted. We can make better cars, but people drive everywhere. We can make better fertilizer, and that leeches its way in the ground and water supply.

There are less farmers,  and more cubicle workers. I haven't done any math or anything, but I bet a cost/benefit analysis suggests higher education is probably not worth it if you are taking out several thousands of dollars of debt.

Being enslaved to that kinda debt starts off your working years in a big hole. Financial concerns will be a pretty good burden. Especially since in life we want to have fun.

Here is a secret. Life isn't fair. Not one person you are acquainted with is a Saint. None are perfect. Your heroes aren't. People who get awards created by Society aren't heroes. They just did something society awarded them for.

All amounts to zero points as does our life. Points come from different things, and it is what you seek. To matter. To live a life that matters.

Left to your own devices = it isn't going to happen.

I go on and on though. I've done my labor. I've gone through my trials, and endured tribulations. I was able to throw everything away,  cuz I was led in that direction. If life pulled I listened. When the real truth of me became known I accepted. When I saw the World for how it is I took the only step that made any sense.

Still not sure what a lot of you are doing.

Anyhoooo,

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think I'll have another cup of coffee. 

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH.  :)))

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I Have Absolutely Nothing For a Title.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going? Me, I am doing fine. Yesterday I was toast. I was sore as Hell. Shoulders chest,  etc...  my legs were dead. I could barely pedal home. I went to bed at like 5:00 PM too. Of course that jacked up my sleep pretty good, so I was up for a few hours at prime time doing nothing, but trying to sleep.

So today is Friday, and I have all of next week off. I really just plan on reading a lot. Besides that not sure. Probably mostly relaxing. Maybe some odd jobs that need to get done. I know it will go quick. I know I'll get bored probably,  but I think it will be good.

Other than that not much on my mind. You wanna know something of me??  As far as being a family member as we all are, I kinda suck. There are rules to how one is supposed to do these things, and I suck at it.

One reason is I am selfish. I've known that all along. The ladies of our family have been dead a long time, and Pejchls left to their own devices do just that. Whatever the Fuck we want.

I thought about that a bit yesterday. I have no shame, and no guilt. My path was solo, and unwritten rules just tie you down. Actually all lives are solo. In the end it is just you. You get no points for scoring 84/100 in unwritten rule points.  That will get you as far as 33/100. No one is keeping score. No one gives a fuck either.

You'd be surprised at home much BS clutters your mind. If you stopped to objectively ask what is important. You cannot do that if you hold onto stuff. Throw all your preconceived notions of life and family and everything away. Now take a look at this shitty place you call home.

The food supply is probably gross. What kind of slave labor is bringing fruits, and veggies to your home?? 

Don't get me started on fish. I don't even want to know. I have no interest to see how animals get slaughtered. I don't hunt or anything, but I do eat meat.

I find the Health care industry to be completely gross in the US. I have no idea how pills get prescribed,  but I feel the profit motive is the motivating factor.

Insurance is a huge mess, mostly cuz anti trust has not been followed for years. Not to mention it is a big bureaucracy. So much paper changing hands.

People wanted to help I guess at one point,  but now all are part of a flawed system.

Too big to fail,  so too big to fix. Everyone wants a scapegoat,  but it is the World. If you are picking sides,  than you are getting mad at the wrong stuff.

You should be mad this place is so imperfect. You should be mad you cannot do one thing about it. You should be mad everyone else is in the same boat as you.

Maybe you should be mad at you. You are far from perfect like all of us are. Your unwritten rule score sucks probably,  or else you spend a lot of time trying to make it a good score,  and it makes you mad at us whose score sucks. Also you are the only one keeping score.

In other words you all are Fucked.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I slept in today,  so I'll have to do all my shit after work.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH.   :)))

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Where To Begin.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I really have absolutely nothing on my mind, so there is a good chance I delete whatever gibberish may follow.

Yesterday I had a pretty productive day after work. I was motivated. Sometimes you may just find yourself going through the motions of life. Since I decided to try and get in shape for a 5K in 3 months I thought being active in all things will help. So I did a lot of little stuff around the house I may have normally blew off.

I was a bit tired when i got home,  so I rested a bit before I got started. We ordered lisa's favorite pizza for dinner,  and that was the day. I was starving too by the time the pizza came.

A day in the life. I still think foolish things once in a while. I was thinking of running twice yesterday. That probably would have been dumb. Today I am going after work. I did pull ups,  which were easier than expected. Since I haven't done them in a while. I didn't do a ton, cuz I know I'll probably be sore later today or tomorrow. Just a little something in the future can add a little spice to life.

Also I have next week off of work. Sunday will be my first day off since July 4th.  That should be a nice break. After that we have Labor Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas,  and New Years.  A lot of days off as Fall, and Winter return. A lot of stuff to look forward to next year.

That is really about it. No great thoughts about life or anything. I do know a lot of stuff we pretend is important isn't. Streaks and anniversaries and such. I did this x amount of times. Not many have done that. This is our xth Anniversary. Who gives a FUCK. That shit makes you better than no one.

If you want a real number of significance try one. That is the number of times you will die. Same as everyone else. That makes just about everything else pale in comparison.

Many times people will try to show they nailed life in some fashion, but that is seeing how you stack up against other people. Your way of judging others really, so you can Polish the halo you wear.

Crazy crazy.

Anyway, I think I'll take Hope for a,quick walk.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. today should be pretty good. I have a super easy supper planned.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH.  :)))

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Yesterday Was Fun.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?   Me, I am okay. Yesterday went pretty well. If I have one complaint about life it is I don't always feel wide awake like when I get up. Many times when I get home from work I get tired. If only I could bottle up how I feel when I first wake up.

So life goes on. Life doesn't end really. I kind of did an inventory of things I should get done soon. Holy Crap it is a lot. Life is messy.

So many things to do. Once we are dead none of it matters. That seems pretty crazy. All these things to worry about,  and none of it matters when we are dead.

Life is kinda trippy that way. We are so busy with so many things, and they SEEM important.

Life goes pretty quick though. Soon enough we will all be dealing health issues of some sort. As we get older we tend to develop more illnesses. Some shit is invisible. We may currently be carrying what eventually will take our lives.

When the lady checked me out the other day she listened to my lungs. I was surprised how clean my breath was as I breathed deep in and out. Definitely no frog in my throat. I felt that was pretty healthy. I imagine it is from doing cardiovascular stuff. I haven't run a lot lately cuz my knee, but now my knee feels good.

I had a birthday yesterday. Mostly I don't give a shit about birthdays, but it was a milestone one. The big 5-0. I don't really make anything of it, except maybe I'll try to PR a 5K on Thanksgiving.

I started running relatively late in life. For my 40th birthday I ran my first marathon. Trained for about 15 more or something,  and showed up healthy for like 4 of those 15. Running can be a Bitch.

So that is what I thought. A 5 K on turkey day. I also have a fuck ton of stuff to do around the house. Plenty to keep me busy.

Do you find it kinda funny that so much seems important while we are alive, but once we are dead it isn't?  Life is silly that way. The truth of life is hidden. Actually the real actual truth of everything is horribly frightening. Mostly we cannot even comprehend it. A few times I've been taken to the non comic book version of this hidden stuff.

It ain't no joke.

I know I have to go there once more. The worst place ever. Now that I think about it the truth will be with me after. No more comic book version stuff in me. Just the real serious side of life.

Right now I am used as this imperfect vessel. This too is a test I believe, but it is soooo much easier than other tests, cuz I carry along some good promises, and I have a lot of help.

Anyhooo, 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I gotta check the weather. I think there was a good chance of rain.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D      :D

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Aloha.   :)

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Monday Is My Fonday

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I slept pretty good. I was tired as Hell after work yesterday. I hung outside with Hope,  and then cut the back yard. I'll cut the front today. We had tacos for dinner, and I watched a movie for a bit before falling asleep. I have a lot of housework to do today when I get home. That's about it.

I do have a strong coffee though to start my day. Other than that not a damn thing on my mind.

I am pretty excited about today for some reason. Living another day healthy I guess. Not really much to worry about.

The World goes on doing whatever it is it does. The World is a competition. It pits people against other people. Maybe that ain't such a good thing. Wars are started for whatever reasons. People get killed. People who were someone's son or daughter. People who may be mom's and dad's.

That can be pretty far away from us though. We have our lives. Our lives are filled with day to day stuff. Much of it boring is my guess. Life has a lot of dead time that can be filled with boredom.

A lot of unfinished chores. So many clothes to fold and put away. So many dishes to clean. Did we vacuum under the couch this week/year??  Toilets need to be cleaned. Cars need to be washed. Oil needs to be changed. Sheets changed.

There is no way anyone can get everything done. People sure don't nail life. That's for sure. Life is something we all fail at.

It makes you wonder, if we all are fucking shit up, and living imperfect lives why are we so mad at others??  They are in the same boat.

Maybe in life people think they are good enough, but not by my calculations. If there is a best a person can be you haven't reached it. Either have I. Trying to tell people they are not the best a person can be is something entirely different. The messenger needs to be shot. :)

Anyways I am going to finish early and take Hope.

Have fun.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. it is almost that time of year where I swear at the tee vee for the Bears playing like shit.  Yay.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

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Aloha.  :)

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I Think Most Sentences Should End With ~~off the coast of Ireland ~~

That surely isn't done enough, and I think it is the #1 problem with this World.

Anyway, I got that off my chest. How's it going today??  Me, I am okay. I got a good night sleep,  and I'll be going into work on a bit. I like my Sunday routine. The first few hours I work alone. I try to get as much done as possible,  cuz it makes the day run smooth.

Now that I work every Sunday I remember I liked this job. It is low key. You have so much stuff you have to do, and if you have extra time you can do more. You are always busy, but typically you aren't under a lot of pressure.

Anyway, so that is that. I did think of a couple things yesterday. One thing is if I get sick there is a too much $$ amount that makes treatment not worth it. For me it isn't very high, because why should I live a life of high debt just cuz health care is so expensive. In that regard my life is not worth very much. I never thought of that. If I were you I'd stay healthy if you are like me, and don't want huge medical bills.

That is pretty much what I thought of yesterday. I worked, I ate, and I slept. Now that I had a health scare I wonder what I might do differently in my life. I decided to start eating yogurt every day. The way I eat now is kinda crazy. I may nibble on something before work. I don't really have much at work, but I'll typically have a bowl of soup. Then I eat dinner. I go to bed early, so typically I don't have late night snacks.

As to extra activities outside work,  I am not sure yet. We'll see. Now that I am writing this I sense a difference in me. I always had a dark cloud over my life. For a long time anyway. There is no future for the current version of me dark cloud. It seems I am not concerned with that anymore. So much is out of my control, so I might as well enjoy myself.

Anyways life will be very much the same for me. I do this. I live simply. There isn't really a lot on my plate, and that may be the mistake many make. Must do more,  more, more.

Then again my heart is pretty content, and that is not my doing. So in that regard you are hopeless. One of the best gifts in life is not yours to take. You cannot grab it on your own. It's a gift, not something you earn.

That is a tough lesson. We judge ourselves based on what others do,  and that makes us in our own mind worthy of all good things. You cannot see clearly yet though. You don't see you vs. just you.

In that regard you are just a thief. In the end we are headed toward judgement. It is really everywhere.

Anyway life is just life. Eventually we die, and that is probably a good thing. Can you imagine living for eternity in this World like a vampire?  Doesn't shit end up just getting boring?? 

In the end we just get old. Our bodies don't stay young,  and we get past our peak.

Then what?? 

Anyways this is probably a jumbled mess.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I still haven't watched one second of the Olympics.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D       :D

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Aloha. :)

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