A Surprising Kinda Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. We had an okay day yesterday. We have some work that needs to be done to our car. Just tie rod ends I think, and structural stuff like that. In the front and back. Lisa's guy could do it for  $500 max. He has no overhead so it was a good price.

Through work Lisa knows a guy whose wife just died. He had a car with 69,000 miles on it he was selling. The price is $4000. Since I never have $4000 laying around we thought we'd see about getting a loan, even though I don't like them. We got the loan. Our credit is actually pretty good. We had a rough patch a while back, but I guess when you have no debt, and you make your house payments you can build your shit up pretty quick.

I was and still am kinda floored by that. For those who know us a car with 69,000 miles will take us 10 years to get to 100,000 miles. We don't drive anywhere and we don't want to.

So that was my crazy day. Now with our work situation too our incoming money is significantly higher than our out flowing money. I guess that's the way you like to have it.

I'll probably get a fatty tire bike before winter.  :)  yay.

I gotta get my teeth fixed too. We found a place for that, which won't break the bank.

So that was what happened during my day between the work, eat, sleep. We bought some cheapy frozen pizzas from the grocery store I first started at a few years back.

So, I guess that is that.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think I'll take Hope, and then make coffee.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.     :D

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Aloha.  :)

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We Did Something Different.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I got a good night sleep, and that is the best way to start out any day.

Last night we went out to dinner to a place I never have been to. Lisa used to go with her Mom once in a while. It was pretty good. Lisa had fish, and I had tacos which I couldn't finish. I think I'll have the leftovers for breakfast.

Not much going on in my life these days. A never ending string of days of work eat sleep.

I was asked yesterday why do I push myself so much. I never thought of that really. I don't push myself. If working 7 days / week is pushing myself I don't see it. We all fill our days with some type of stuff. I figure I might as well fill mine working. You get a sense of accomplishment kinda, and the rest of the day is yours to do as you choose.

I have no guilt. I don't look back over my shoulder. I live life with little concern and no regrets.

I have no baggage really. My life has all been gone through. I am a person who stands on their own. People can pretty much do nothing to me, cuz my existence does not rest with what people do.

Kinda like you are with me or not, and that is your decision. My heart is strong to a fault.

So life goes on. I continue to live it in a simple fashion. My heart is content. It does not yearn for anything. I have no need to find my name in any History books,  cuz I need that not.

As far as this World,  and this life go I need very little.

From where we are now to where we are going is pretty crazy. You eventually will be surprised at how much I knew during this time. Cuz we really aren't doing anything, and we've been doing it a long time. Life goes on. People get older, and our prime has past many of us.

A lot of us just are turning  into older versions of ourself.

I saw a guy I used to work with. He just did some part time work for me. I called him big D from Dallas. Divorced guy I believe. His daughter worked at the store for a bit. He rides a motorcycle, and would go to Chicago for Blues Fest each year.

Anyway he was sitting with two older couples. One guy could not stop talking.  Blah, blah, blah.

I said hi as we were leaving. Who knows what goes on in his life. Who knows what goes on in his head.

I start another day of my life today. It is definitely a life without glamour.

I have nothing of my own I can hang my hat on to say see this??  I am good on my own cuz of this quality.

My life was all about the turn. The one that opened up the Spiritual side of life. I gave up my coin to get a better one.

Man made coins mean nothing in the Spiritual World. You don't learn these things though. It is a quid pro quo.  Kinda like the trust thing. You give nothing you end up empty handed.

The kicker is you really in the end aren't giving up anything. It just seems like it now.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  slept in a bit so don't have time to take hope.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D.    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

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Have a good one you lost souls.   :)

A Day Like No Other.

Just kidding. My day yesterday was very much like most others. Work went good. As I expected I liked it more knowing I'd be there a while. Typically I'll have a set amount of things to do, but we cannot always get into all the areas due to people working overtime, so there will be other projects to keep me busy. I worked a full shift less the lunch I could have taken. Lunches are paid for, but by the time I could have taken a lunch my day was almost done, so I said screw it.

I came home, and chilled the rest of the day. Today will be very much like yesterday. Work,  come home and chill, eat a dinner, and fall asleep.

Life is kinda trippy huh??  Such a big World. Such a busy World. So much to do, and so much to see. Have we seen it all??  Have we done it all? 

I have, cuz at the end of the day there isn't much to see, and there isn't much to do. It is just life. It has one ending,  and that is probably the most important part of life. It will end one day. 

What then??  What will you do with your trophies while your dead?   How will you balance your budget while you are dead? What if you had to make a credit card payment in 3 days, but you died today?? What happens to your credit rating?? 

Life is full of a lot of i's,  and a lot of t's. It takes much effort to dot all the i's, and to cross all those t's, and at the end of the day they don't matter. Once you die all that dies with you.  The stuff we do does not endure. It is just stuff we do.

I am not saying don't pay your bills, cuz that would make your life pretty sucky, but you can see what life is, and how much it all matters.

We toil in vain, and for no real good reason.

With much suffering, and a couple trials I found the answer to life. My path isn't complete totally, cuz I do have one more thing to do.

I'll give you a hint about me.  My heart is the way it is not cuz of me. On my own I was worth so very little.  Who knows what my life would have been like?? 

I went in the correct direction with a turn. It led me in a direction that was not mine.  I was not the author of any of the things I went through. My reward for enduring the 2 trials is a care free heart.

Who you are now is who you've always been.

Anyways. Just getting something down. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I have time to take the Hopester.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

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Monday is my fun day.  Yay. 

A Coffee and A Quickie.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I had another good night sleep. That must make a lot in a row,  cuz I feel great. I picked up a dunkin donuts dark roast coffee at work yesterday, so I am having a cup.

Today I start my work every Sunday thing. Not sure if today is a full 8 hour thing or not. I don't remember. I think I'll like it, cuz I will be there a while.

Anyway yesterday was pretty uneventful. I woke up early, read, worked, had a couple drinks, and ate dinner, and went to bed.

Today I will work, come home, and we'll see. It's a tough life, but someone has to do it.

I wake up feeling like this a lot, and I know why. I sometimes think of others too.

What's it like to be them?  Life has a lot of unwritten rules. If you have family you are supposed to do this. If you are married and have kids you are supposed to do this and this.

What if you could throw out all your unwritten rules,  without worrying about any of it. Wouldn't that be nice?

Kinda impossible huh?? 

So onward with the life of slavery. The World has you hooked, and trapped. You are ensnared.

It's not your fault. That is what life is. There really is only one way out, and that is what this blog is for.

To help you throw away your acting careers and deal with life and this World.  The truth sets us free right??  Such an easy statement, but I am telling you brace yourself,  cuz the truth is not what you think.  Many/most will want to hang onto their acting careers, cuz what would everyone think if they actually knew you weren't perfect?? 

I'd probably like everyone quite a bit more if they played the part of their true self. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. time to finish my coffee and go to work. 

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D.     :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo. :)

Cya.   :)

Up At Stupid O'Clock

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept really good, and I still got up really early. I've been playing stupid games on my phone for a couple hours. I had a pretty good week this week. I stayed pretty busy, and I wasn't a complete pos when I got home from work.

I think I slept great the whole week. I don't remember being tired. I was planning on doing a couple things yesterday, but it was Friday so I said Fuck it. We went out to a local pizza place for dinner, and I had a beer and their veggie sub. That thing is so ridiculously good. Tonight I'll probably pick up a couple steaks after work to cook on the grill.

Another simple day in this simple life. Work, eat, sleep. Not really a concern at all. Some day I'll die, and I am cool with that. Of course I still have a bit to do before I die. My silly story.

As I wait during this time, I am so lucky to have a content heart.  I have no heroes before me. No human worship in my life.

I know me pretty well, and I know a lot about all people. I think people all seek out the "good" life, but there are no manuals for that is there??  So we all kinda do what is expected of us. It is whatever our upbringing and society have taught us.

The worst part of life is our hearts are not really content on our own. We need more money, more toys, more free time, more fun.

We want to be happy, and that is the bottom line,  and we want to be good. So many things we want, but why is it all out of reach?? 

People want their lives to matter, and that must involve some type of sacrifice. Wars are started, and people kill or die trying. One side is right, and one side is wrong, and typically the right side is whichever side you were born on, as if you had a say.

I, back in the day, stepped out of all sides to kinda find if there is anything else. A lot of life, pretty good vision led me to see there is nothing here for me. I am living this life, and I don't see anything being worth a piss. The World looked ugly,  so why even life?

So all alone in the World,  I made the turn. I was given a strong heart even back then, which made my life my own. If there are rules of how a person is supposed to be regarding damn near anything they don't apply to me.

All the grand things society has dressed up I am not concerned with. The holidays, and pageantry of life I have no use for. I just don't give a crap about that stuff.

Life is just a Web we found ourself in. You may wonder why your heart is not content, and it is because it isn't supposed to be. Instead of being an actor,  you are supposed to seek out other things. There is a higher truth, that goes higher than society, and religion, and pageantry, and everything else. Your heart is not content, cuz all along this is what you were to seek.

Remember long ago I used to stress trust, and strength, and things like that. It's been years, and still we haven't done a thing. We haven't even made one step.

Life is Bullshit. This World is a pile of crap, because it is all false. Life is kinda dirty. We poop, and fart, and pee. We get sick, and all kindsa stuff. All of a sudden a number of years have gone by, and you wonder what did my life mean??

Our lives really don't mean much, and probably the greatest miracle of all is when one accepts the truth of life, which is not all that great a thing, they can still be content and happy.

Our heart is the foundation of our life. If the heart is not content, than something in life is missing.

One thing I know about all people is they have a heart that is not content. You kinda know that about you,  so the weak become actors.

We want others to think we nailed life.

That's a long entry.

Sorry.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  gonna finish my coffee, take hope for a walk, and read my book. 

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo. :)

Bye all.  Have a good one.   :)

A Little At A Time.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I had a good night sleep. I woke up with my early alarm, and stayed in bed some.

Yesterday,  I had a day. It was pretty uneventful. I used our chop saw, and cut up a bunch of pieces of our old cabinets to fit in our garbage. Our dumpster is huge, and typically we have extra space. I think today I'll be able to get rid of the rest, once the garbage person comes.  I also did dishes, and a load of laundry.

Typically I don't need to do laundry during the week, but as I was biking home all of a sudden I had to poo. It hit me at once. So I was biking home, usually I can hold it, but yesterday no such luck. I ran inside with poop in my shorts.  Getting old sucks. So I had to do some cleaning up, and a load of laundry, and a shower.

On the way home I did see people at the farmer's market, and I wondered what was in their head. I was biking home on a nice sunny day. I didn't really have a care in the World. I was wondering what those people would be going home to.

Bills, mortgages, what else weighed them down??  I wondered if they were tired. Sick of the crazy political drama? 

I knew their lives weren't perfect, and I wondered kinda what was in their head.

At that point there wasn't much in my head, but pretty shortly after that I would be pooping my pants.  :)

I did my work,  Hope and I hung outside a bit. We pretty much decided to do something easy for dinner. I Fucked up an order for a new deep dish pizza place. I thought I ordered enough for both of us, but it was pretty small. Pretty expensive too, so we won't be going back there.

That was pretty much the end of the day.

That is pretty much the end of my blog. Pretty dumb huh? 

I think so too.

Cya.

Tales From The Darkside.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. I haven't blogged in a couple days. Sunday I read my book before work, and Monday I slept in.

We got a pretty good amount of stuff done yesterday. Filled our truck with most of our old kitchen,  and took it to the dump. We can get another pass in a few weeks to get rid of the other crap we have to get rid of. We took care of our bills/ budget. I cut the front yard, and we had time to chill outside.

I was surprised how much stuff we got done by 3:15. I thought it was later. Then I blinked,  and it was 5:30. Time to make tacos at that point. I went to bed around 7:00, and I feel pretty good.

Not much else going on. I decided since I don't work enough to work ~8 hours every Sunday. Back to no days off, but I get Holidays off, and we are taking a week off in August.  Not doing anything in particular.

A lot of stuff going on in the World. Much of it bad, and people are angry. Left is mad at the right. Right is mad at the left.

Pretty crazy. I could tell you things, but this World is ridiculous. You can send a man into space,  but the World still has wars, and poverty, killing, theft, violence.

Maybe a good question would be is everything wrong in this World?? The answer may surprise you, especially if you cannot step out of all the stuff you've been taught since childhood.

We all are guilty of trying to live a life we thought we were supposed to. It took a lot for me to throw everything away in case.

I did it though, and I was able to find answers. The answers are pretty exclusive.

There are no points for anything we do under the sun. There is no labor, and no sacrifice you can do to make you the best a person can be. Marriage certificates, and birth certificates mean nothing.

We all at some point tried to tally up our points for all the great deeds we do, and I found out in not so easy fashion there were never any points for my deeds.

Now as I stand now I have tallied up some points, cuz that was my path. Not my ideas, and not my plans. I walked pretty blindly, and had no clue how to get points.

So I guess it is my job to tell the people they are lost. The life you think you are living as a Saint is not. We all fall short. The great deeds you've accomplished are not.

It is not a good job to tell a proud and arrogant people to step back.  We are not that great, and your life matters a lot less than you think.

That's my job though. 

Not exactly what I had in mind all those years back when I made the turn, but I had no idea really. No clue what exactly I was doing.

Now I see. 

Anyway, I gotta run.

Laterzzzzzz