The Long And Winding Road.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday went pretty good. I actually got out of work early in a Friday, which is surprising. I took the long way home on my bike just cuz. I sat outside, and did nothing. Lisa brought mulch home, so I have stuff to do today after work. I gotta take Hope for a run in a bit, and that is about it. I am pretty excited for today. I guess I am like this a lot. I always wonder if today will be a day I become a better version of myself. Typically the answer is no. :)

It is a new day though so you never know. Here are some differences in me now compared to when I was super motivated. I would bike 4 mikes to some trails by my house and run the trails. Hilly trails. Didn't feel like doing that yesterday. I would take my road bike out, and just go long. Can't say I am totally against that.

Back in the day I had goals, and these days not so much. I stay active, but not really hard core like I used to. I look at stuff when I bike. I notice the neighborhood, and my surroundings.

Wanna know why I have no goals??  Part if it is the constant injuries probably finally broke me. I don't think my knee would handle more and more miles. Also it just doesn't even matter. Of the important things in life it just isn't. In this life very little is important, but it will be probably impossible for your heart to comprehend that. What I've learned about myself is I am worth so very very little on my own, but I took the right steps long ago, and I've been made important. Just what I do here.

A blog about life, and this blog shows you I stay on my path. No one is so important they can lead me astray. My strength and confidence come not from me though. My life is mine to live, but in my heart I pull an unwilling people to follow. It is kinda a crazy thing too, cuz I know this will end up in a good way eventually, but you people have made this so much harder than need be.

I was alone, and young when I first started my story. Many of you are attached and old for starting this type of thing. All is possible though so eventually this story has to unfold. Sooner is better than later, cuz if you have to be pulled by other means than me that is usually some pretty tough stuff. Those who have had significant things happen this year can give testimony to that.

Life is not stress free, but if you stray too far, significant things pull you back.

I don't know how the future days will look. I know the one final thing I must do. I've known it for decades, but I surely didn't know about my blogs. I didn't know what overcoming the 2nd time would be like. No idea. That was brutal.

I am anxious for the 3rd time, which is ridiculous I know cuz it will not be fun, but I do end up with all I wanted.

Funny thing though is security was one of those things, but I got that already.

Whatever it is I'll do I will have help. The one who overcame will be with me, cuz that is the only way to victory. On my own = no way. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading !!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. The first warm days of the year are the best. Hoping to be a better version of myself today.  :)

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH. :)))

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The Weather Does Matter.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up early, even for me, and it isn't like I got a ton of extra sleep. I think it may be the weather. I guess in April if you see snow and highs in the 30's you are done with winter, and you are done with being cooped  up in the house. Yesterday it was probably approaching 70°, and it was sunny. I sat outside, and listened to the SOX game. Lisa came home early, and did some raking. Today, tomorrow, and Sunday will reach 70°+. It will be sunny too.  What a difference it makes in your outlook.

I don't really have any major plans this Summer, but as usual I will spend most of the waking hours outside while not at work. We have some outdoor projects to do. Getting home anywhere from 1-3:00 in the afternoon is quite the luxury.

In Michigan this time if year the day's high and low can be a 30° difference. I will run in a bit, and it is probably 45°'ish. I'll bike home and it will probably be 65° or so. I think I'll start my book today.

Anyways weather does make a difference. This is the time where it pays to live in an area that has 4 seasons.  When the weather begins to warm up it changes our perspective. Same as Fall when the weather cools down. It feels like you can change whatever you do to fill your day. No longer are you stuck in whatever you've been doing before. The days look different.

By the time Summer has been around for a few months I am ready for a change in weather, and having another outlook. We eat different things, and we do different things. To me that matters.

Anyhooo, not much else going on with me. Work, eat, sleep, and doing shit outside. *my early alarm just went off. *    :)

I guess we will end it there. How things look now are not how they will always look. You are meant to see other things, and learn other things.  Some may not make the trip, cuz well a variety of reasons. They have no idea the error in their ways either. It is a shame our hearts deceive us. We trust our hearts, and we trust our intellect, and other things that have placed us on top of the food chain.

Being on top of the food chain is NOT some admirable and excellent quality. How can it be when people still kill each other, anger is everywhere you look. Imperfection everywhere you look.

How we are now is not the best we can be. The best we can be is out of our reach, but not impossible. Up to our own devices, yes it is impossible to be the best a person can be.

There is a way though. It is a choice one makes too. What is the most important thing to you??

It's a tough one huh??  You put your trust in the World cuz this is our home right??  It's the only thing we know huh??

I guess in that way I am different. I am no longer a person just born in this World. I know other stuff, and I see so much clearer.

I've been made different, but I am not the finished product. You may be the finished product as you are now. You will never improve much from who you are now, and you might become worse. The way I teach is something different than you've ever heard.

Way back when 25 years ago, I had absolutely no idea what my days would look like. My job is way more than I bargained for. I know things though. I know how you are, and that says a lot.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Kinda looking forward to my run. Also I started eating a bowl of cereal in the morning before work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz    :)

Aloha.  :)

Nothing.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am okay. I have pretty much nothing on my mind so we will see where this goes. Yesterday I got a haircut. It was a month overdue. I've been wearing a hat 100% of the time, so I just let it go. We are in for a warm up so hat wearing season appears over.

I came home, and planned to hang outside with Hope, but it was cold so I came in and watched a movie. I made dinner, and that was it.

I really don't have anything important on my mind. Life goes on. Day after day. These days continue to come, and go, until one day we die.

Is there a point to this??  What happens if we aren't good enough??  What do we do about that??  I can tell you some scary things about life, but you can't see them. I cannot take you to that place where your heart realizes the seriousness of life. My heart is constantly aware of it, but it doesn't scare me anymore. Most people I realize never graduate out of the lives we were born in.

I did, and I did it a long time ago. My story is two-fold. What happened a couple decades ago, and my blogs the past several years. I've been through some scary things, and now I am not scared. Sometimes I am mystified at how slow this thing moves.

I don't really get people, and they surely don't get me. We are sitting on two different sides kinda, and it is impossible to come on my side except for one thing.

Tough things are asked of you.  The story really is this:  as of now you are the maker of your story, and that is not your purpose. Your purpose is something else, but you gotta give up your story/coin cuz there is a better one.

You get very little help in this, cuz you gotta overcome your own heart, and that ain't easy. You have me on the other side telling you it is okay. Come on it is good. You cannot realize it now, but you will after.

That is your predicament, and few had someone like me.  It really should come down to you looking at yourself. That is the best a person can be??  Some will sacrifice all kindsa shit and labor for hours on end. Really the true way is having it get done for you. The true way teaches us how horrible and worthless we really are.

You are a slave to your body and your thoughts. Not able to be perfect in any stretch. I am not either, but I am on that path. You just are living the life the multitudes have done forever, and you have confidence kinda cuz you trust your "group" of like minded individuals, but life is just you. You die, and you are held accountable to you.

You'll bring no birth certificates or marriage licenses, cuz those papers die with you.

Life is a trap, and most don't even realize they are snared.  I do realize where people stand cuz my story involves me learning these things. I am supposed to help others follow along, but so far it's not going that great. It isn't my fault though.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Time for me to take the Hopester.  Also excited about the warm up.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzz gaterzzzz  :)

Aloha.  :)

The Truth About Cats And Dogs.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am okay. A little tired, but I am done sleeping. I don't really have anything to blog about, but I am up early, and I finished my book. I also have some time before I take the Hopester.

Really I have absolutely nothing going on. This weekend was pretty much nothing significant. I worked, read, watched a little baseball on Saturday.  I ate and slept.  Today will be another day. I'll eat, and work, and take Hope, and go to the liberry to get another book. Not even sure if the 3rd book in my trilogy is written yet, so I'll get another author's book.

I don't know how you people are, but sometimes my mind is kinda silly. For me I know my life has turned out to be important, and what I do here is significant, but right now it just seems silly. Everything is out of my hands. I am along for the ride. I know where we are going and what we are doing, and you don't.

Everything in my life makes sense. I totally trust my path and my direction. Humans really are put into a Weird World and weird life. Like rats in a  maze. Running around looking for something important and significant. Only problem is rats aren't significant. They toil in vain. They live their lives and die, much like us.

There should be a point right??  Somethings gotta matter right??  Why have we gone through all the trouble of living here??

There is a point and there is a purpose, but the purpose is not yours, and your life is not yours.  There is a big World out there. It is filled with Wars, and drugs, and sex, and tv. There is a History of this World, and much of it is Wars, and sex, and rape, and pillage, and stuff like that.

It is an ugly place we live in. Life has been dressed up all pretty to make us blind. Our eyes have been shielded from the ugly truth. The ugly truth is we aren't that great. Either was anyone else. We also are not good enough. We fall short.

These are things I know are true. These are things that don't scare me, cuz I am sitting in a good spot. I am just not sure what you are doing to be honest.

Trying to find something significant in a life and a World that isn't.

It all is pretty silly where I stand, but that is just how my mind is today. Kinda along on this silly ride.

But hey it's Monday. My easiest day of work. I'll take Hope, and check the weather. It rained all day yesterday, but sounds like it stopped. Maybe I'll be able to bike to work.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome a Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Tryna get a picture of how much you can see inside you. I doubt much.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxzxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzz gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Back To Normal... For me.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I feel like I am back to normal. Back to normal for me is inaccessible. FB, Twitter, or Blog. If I don't work with you in person, and I don't see you in any of the other areas I don't see you. I like it that way. Everything in the open for me us best.

I had a few weeks where everything went nuts. Other avenues were open, and Geesh. I closed that all up, and now I am back to regular. Life at any point in time can take you down an avenue not of your choosing. Ya just kinda go along for a nutty ride. I like my simple life. The simpler the better. I don't like seeing people's lives they paint in fairy tale colors. Those people are full of shit, cuz we are not perfect.

Guys are horrible creatures. I don't think we will ever outgrow checking other girls out. I don't know what gay guys look at, but I am sure they are just as gross as straight guys. Girls I have no clue about what they think, and I don't really care.

I do know some things. None of us are Saints. You are as imperfect as me. The difference between you and I is I know where I stand. I know I an not perfect, and without help I'd be a complete piece of shit. There is no step in the stairway of life I can say hey look. See what I did here??

My life means very little, and all my worth is tied up in my journey, which I am not the author of. You are tied up in hero worship, and human excellence, which is the biggest lie you believe. We all die, and we will not escape it. You bring a kid in the World you bring in more imperfection.  Nothing you can do about it. The kid will never graduate the "good enough" school. You will share that in common.

Your life would look different now if you paid attention here. You checked it out, but you didn't believe, cuz YOU hardened your heart.

You are guilty.

That is something you must deal with.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Next week Spring shows up.  Yay.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really  really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Larerzzzz Gaterzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

To Tell You My Sins.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. Lisa is pissed at me so we'll see how that goes. Mostly cuz I sleep too early. She complains she doesn't have a husband. I guess if I stayed up later that would be one thing. I would stop doing this.  I kinda like doing this at times, but does it even do anything??

Yesterday I got drunk. I am kinda celebrating my "weekend off". I just work today for 4-5 hours, and I'll probably get all of Sunday off. I thought of maybe seeing a movie after work today, but now I am not sure if Lisa wants to talk to me. We'll see. Btw getting drunk = being silly for a bit falling asleep, and not being hungover. I feel fine today. Like a million bucks.

The thing about me is I am not mad. I am not unhappy. I expect of life what I get. Not much, so I am not disappointed in anything. I think life can be funny cuz it can be so ridiculously stupid. I asked one guy yesterday if such and such girl was married??  He said,"I am not at the point where I notice wedding rings."  "I don't notice if people are wearing rings,  I've seen her boobs."  He just blurted that out and I laughed. Life in the open is pretty ridiculous, but everyone hides behind stuff.

So today will be this. I'll take Hope, and then work. Seems like a perfect day, except Lisa is super disappointed in me. I'm not disappointed in me. I can only be so good as I am now. It is out of my grasp to be perfect. It is out of my grasp to give too many shits about my current existence. My life is over from where I stand. I am just waiting for my final thing. I am kinda disappointed in people. You haven't done what you are supposed to.

I was thinking of the last few weeks, and wondering why. Then I figured I was allowed to go down a crazy route to test others. I am not going to be perfect in this thing as that is impossible. Testing people gets rid of the weak ones.

The less people for me the better too it seems. So many saints out there I surely don't want to see their  lives.

Anyway that is that.

I guess this is this too.

I've lost the signature, so we shall see.

Laterzzzz.

Getting Back To Normal, Whatever That Is.

Hello, and good morning. How's it Going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Had a pretty crazy 3 weeks or so, and I don't know where that shit comes from. Not to go into all the details, but have you ever just seen your life go down a crazy avenue, and you pretty much out of control??

I think it has happened before to me kinda. I never really get too nutty. You eventually kinda catch yourself, and things seem normal again.

Anyway not to go into details, but I am glad that is over.

My life is simple, and it should remain so.

Yesterday I woke up, and tried to blog, but I quit after 3 sentences, and deleted it. It was a struggle to get 3 sentences, and I had nowhere else to go. So I deleted it, and sat doing nothing for 2 hours. I could have taken Hope, but it was raining on and off, and I didn't feel like running in the rain.

I don't think it is horrible for me to drive once/week anyway to do some errands. I don't like to come home only to leave Hope right away.

Actually I guess for me things are okay. Get back to my normal life. It is kinda boring I guess, but typically I am not bored.

I have a tough message. It is made tougher for you, cuz you want your messages to come from heroes. Part of my message is there are no heroes. I certainly am not one, and either are you. We kinda wanna have someone to look up to, and unfortunately you stand alone. There is no one who can  help you with the fact you are responsible for you, and your life. You are held accountable for you.

I've lived a long time, and til this day I remain not perfect. I don't expect my life to get too crazy, but after the last few weeks you never know I guess. Like I said though I feel back to normal.

The difference between you and I is not that one of us is a better person, but one of us did deal with the BS that I ain't that fucking great. Decades ago I saw what I deserve. I deserve the thief's end, and you still believe you deserve a heroes end.

I found my path for a better me. It never was in my control. Either is the timing. It was hard in many instances.

I guess I can say a lot of things, but I remain on my path. The longer this goes on it may seem the less I care what you do. The reason I do this is to lead you in the correct way. A way to a better us. Part of that is so you can get to know you. I've seen enough of people's lives. All of ours are pretty boring I'd say.  I want to get to the good stuff, but that is not in your power. You don't have the vision of you, and you don't have the courage.

Life is a game of failure, and as far as I can tell people still cling to the belief they have the winning lottery ticket

You don't. You just don't know it. The World has your heart.

Anyway I gotta take the hopester.

Laterzzzz.