One Thing I wanted to do...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had one of those good wake ups today where I was surprised how much more time I have to sleep. Strange thing about it was it turned into an I am done sleeping. I sat in bed for an hour, and decided to get up. I wish I felt like this when I get home from work. I am ready to take on the World, but many times after work I am tired. After the holidays things slow down a bit, so Jan-Mar may be a pretty good time. I may try to increase my mileage during this time. See how the knees hold up and all that.

Anyway this blog is over 1500 entries, and I don't remember everything on this blog, but I do know only a select few people have been mentioned 4 updates in a row. Less than 5 probably. So in less than a weeks time Andrea has gone from an acquaintance to a pretty important person as far as this blog goes.

I will know very little of her day to day, but I know it will be a hard year for her. A lot of hard days. I will never know what it is like to be a Mother losing her son way too early, but I've dealt with loss.

You see a little picture of life here though. What can one person do to help another when life is filled with tough things like this??  Not much huh??  This here is real life too. Everything else is just stuff people do. I can do little for her, but in her most difficult time I can try to keep her up. Tell her she is important, and I know a bit of your future for the next year.

She has friends and family she will turn to, and she will have alone time where I presume most of the important stuff will be done.

I am glad I can do this little thing at least.  :)

Anyway not much else going on. I did pick up a new fajita seasoning at the Mexican store. I made quesadillas out of it. 2 thumbs up. I'll do that again. Not sure what to do for dinner tonight. No ideas at all.

I did realize I was tired biking home yesterday. Some guy just blew right by me. My legs had nothing. :)   Kinda funny.

I guess that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  This is such a great part of the day for me.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Also adding Andrea to luv ya's.   :)


Bye all.   :)    xoxoxo.

Another Day Done.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. Yesterday I had another day. I had a busy day of work, I had a meeting to check on health coverage, and we had pizza for dinner. I took Hope for a run earlier, and that was about it. Today will be much the same, except I have no meetings, and we will have something other than pizza.

Life keeps moving, and I do too I guess. It is a simple life I live pretty much.  Work, eat, sleep, and fill up the other time with stuff. I am not very good at society I don't think, cuz I have no interest in it. I have no loans, besides house. I have no credit cards. We owed the irs some money, but that is coming to an end. We were making payments every 15th of the month. I remember we would have to pay most of this year, and then we'd be done. Today is the 15th so it may be our last payment. I'll check to see what gets deducted when I get home. We were paying $75/month. We also have a tax lady do our stuff now too.

I have satellite for tv, and I have a library card. I have 3 jobs too, and I am glad I kept them all. Really everything is just simple. Nothing I am missing in life. Nothing I need to accomplish. I know that probably sounds like a horrible person to you, cuz I have no drive, but my heart makes me this way, and I trust it.

I trust my life, and I trust me. I trust what I think mostly, and I wake up everyday not regretting anything. I could explain stuff like that, but doubt you can understand. It took a lot of life, and a lot of other stuff too, to be placed in these shoes I walk in. You cannot walk in my shoes cuz these are a gift. Given to me years ago. Kinda like good job, here is your new life.

It pretty much is the best life a person can have, until they are turned into the best a person can be.  It is a good life I lead. I never really see where I was headed. Many times I was in the wilderness not able to see much. Turns out I was led in a good direction. My story is well documented.

I am glad I guess, and happy.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Gotta check the weather before I take Hope.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Extras for Andrea again too cuz my heart feels for her xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Bye all.   :)

Sleep Matters.

I know that is stating the obvious, but Saturday Night I slept like shit, and had to work two jobs. I was tired, but I felt like I stayed up all night. If I slept at all it was light with little to no REM. last night I slept good. I woke up a few times, but from a deep sleep. It was always a good wake up too. One where you are surprised how much more time I have to sleep. :)

As to me picking up new vises I guess it will be okay. I had a couple drinks yesterday, but maybe I can get some stuff around the house, watch tv, or read.

Thinking about things like that you can see how the World operates. People tend to think they are better than other people cuz they do this and that, while others are doing that. Which is even worth anything??

You can train/exercise, but that does nothing for anyone. We live this whole life, and where are the points??  Being a good consumer??

Every avenue is just stuff. You have been told all this stuff before though, but no one ever taught this to us. We were told by other people that life is supposed to be this great thing. Life is made up of imperfect people doing imperfect stuff. We all are in the same boat.

So we go on with our life, and there is stress, and all kindsa stuff.

There is a better way to a better you, but I play the fool, cuz that is foolishness no??

Anyway it was another weekend. Every once in a while I thought of how Andrea was doing losing her young son. It was strange, cuz when I saw stuff was serious I didn't know what was happening, and no one really said anything. Then when the son died I felt something. I still don't know what happened. Seems like something sudden like a car accident or something.

Anyway it rained this weekend, but it was going to be a rainy weekend for her and her family anyway.

Life is like that. We go on living doing the stupid shit we do, and something serious happens.

I don't know why people think they are right. The truth is so much harder than I ever imagined.

Sigh.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. No clue if she reads this, but if she does I'll give Andrea extras xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

That Sure Sucks.

So yesterday in a p.s. I mentioned a FB friend of mine had a son battling for his life. I guess he lost the battle. We have 37 mutual friends, and that is quite a lot for me, cuz I probably only have around 250 total. Obviously we went to HS together, cuz that is where most of my mutuals come from.

Anyway that is real pain. You don't plan for that shit, and there is no manual to deal with that. Time is your only friend, because that is what is your biggest ally at this point. Time heals in these types of things. I always put 1 year as the miracle mark, because it kinda is for me.

I'll add Andrea to Steve R's thing. One of the little things I can do.

I feel bad for her, and don't particularly want to know that pain. Brutal shit, as some of you parents who may read this can imagine.

Anyways as for me, I did go to the library, and picked up a couple movies and a book. The book is about mafia, attorneys, murder, and those getting close to the truth getting closer to danger. Seems like such a short book for all the action promised.

I also started dvr'ing South Park episodes. The people at work were saying this year is great, so what the heck. The first episode I watched, (not sure which season) was about teaching sex ed to 4th graders, and then kindergarten kids. Completely ridiculous. It is a funny show.

Also tallying up my hours this week I end around 56-57 work hours. Not even sure where I have time to have a vise.

Anyway on a day like this I am not important. Andrea losing her son is brutal.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Got Brazilian gas station coffee, and promise to buy coffee after work today. (If I remember). :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)
MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.    :)

In Search Of Another Vice.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am thinking of finding another vice. Something to fill the hours of my day. I find most of life to be quite boring. Projects around the house, TV, books. Everything is boring, and nothing really serves any purpose. Currently my vice is a few cocktails. Something that fills the time, and lets me go to bed.

Lisa isn't happy with my current vice, but probably she just isn't happy in general. The sad fact of life is it is filled with hours and hours of time. I surely could be a better husband, and a better person. It might make her feel a little better, but life isn't about being happy. It is what you seek most, but it is out of reach. One of those little things that we are powerless to grab.

So out of a life filled with time, what should I do??  For sure I should plan afternoon activities. Take Hope when I get home for another walk/run??

Reading is okay maybe, but it is overrated. Reading doesn't make you a better person. It just fills your head with some other shit from someone else. I find many books to be boring, cuz the shit in many people's head is boring.

You look around your little World, and all the people have vices, cuz that is what life is. Selfish things we do, and only to make us cope. Some vices are advertised well, and colored with nice ribbons, but it still is selfish crap that serves no purpose.

The World is filled with time, and we need to fill that time. My guess is a lot of your time is filled with some weird shit just like mine.

So, I don't think I can run a ton of miles without breaking down, but I'll seek another more Lisa friendly vice.

Fucking life.  :)

I know how I am on the inside, and it really is a life coping gift. How do you people cope??  How do you fill the hours of your day??

I'll let you know what I do this afternoon.

A lot of times I come home tired though.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I saw something on FB where a FB friend of mine has a kid in a struggle for his life. I barely know this person, and no clue what the son is suffering from or why his life is in danger. Hard to know stuff if you don't know people or their story.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Gonna Drive Today.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I woke up tired. I slept an hour after my early alarm. There are actually a couple things I thought about before getting up. One thing is none of us are Saints so who cares what we think??  If you are not a Saint then your ideas of a Politics mean nothing, and your ideas of who is wrong and who is right is probably whack. Maybe more important for you is finding out why you are not a Saint. No??

Shit, we can live a whole life being holier than thou, but that is fucking  stupid. Your churches aren't making you better, and actually are making you worse. Those speaking to you from a microphone whether they wear regular suits or funny ones are not Saints. They just play the part. Ask to check their personal computer history. They won't share it with you, cuz they are probably looking at the same shit you are.

Where is one to turn??  Don't turn to politics, cuz that is dumb. Don't turn to the news, cuz the World has always been fucked. There is only one turn that matters, and that turn will help you deal with you. Your anger, and hate, and all the other bullshit that makes you not a Saint.

For my way you will have to do tough stuff maybe. Maybe not too. I had to do some tough stuff where playing the fool was the least of my concerns.

Today I probably will not exercise at all. I will once again not be a Saint in your eyes, but I am in the one who matters, because he plays by different rules. My path is perfection. That is the end of the current me. There is a point where right lives for a time before becoming perfect.

Who knew??  When I was young the false teachers gave me some miracle prayer, and said I was good. It took life really to bypass their teaching by miles and miles. Now I have become what they are. A teacher, except I take no donations. A true teacher asks people to give up their other coin as it is written.

I guess some days I do have stuff on my mind.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am so much different here than in real life. I am just normal me when not in blog land. That must be strange.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz GaterzzzzZ.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Running Out Of Things... maybe??

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good night sleep, and I like that. I don't really have anything on my mind, so that is why my title, but I typically have nothing on my mind, so who knows.

I guess I can talk about me some, since I guess that is what a blog is probably. When I get home from work I let Hope out, and then I sit down. I don't turn on the tv. I chill for a bit, and really I am just waiting to start dinner. I don't know how that looks from the outside, but I am typically content not doing a damn thing. I am more than comfortable in my own head.

I am not a big news person, and I am not a political person. I think most of that stuff is garbage. People will not be changing the World. I figure most Politics is a message of hate and anger. Let's get mad at the other side. Clearly they cannot see clear how tainted their vision has become.

So much anger and hatred. When will people become tired of that??  Will they??  Will they ever think maybe the path of anger may not be good??  Those who wear suits should probably not be listened to??

Who knows. Life is kinda a big deal in we are alive living. I made the right turn long ago, and I am who I am now. Totally different than you. With no ability to really help you very much in life. The big stuff that really needs to be done I cannot help you with.

I don't even know how to make my message easy for you.

You must have some thoughts on you and life, but for many the false teaching and the weeds of politics have such a strong hold on you perhaps you are doomed.

People have to go their own way, and I'll let them, simply because I am right, and if you are not with me that isn't my problem.

So today will start out like many before it. Seems like this may end up being another day in my life.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. No coffee means I better bring tp on my run.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz  Gaterzzzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.   :)