Gotta Love A Good Sleep.

Hello, and good morning. I had a couple of days of good sleep. Yesterday I zonked pretty good for an hour after my early alarm, and today I zonked til 6:00AM. I fell like a million bucks. Today I am having a cup of coffee. For no reason I haven't had a cup in a few weeks, but it is chilly, so I thought I might enjoy the warm drink.

Other than that very little going on with me. I think I have a slightly pulled muscle in my right tricep area. It hurts when I carry trays, and I carry a lot of trays on any given work day. I really noticed it yesterday a lot. I think it is slightly pulled cuz it hurts like a bruise when I touch the muscle.

Today I work for around 5 hours give or take. Depends on how much there is to do. I will pick up something to cook for dinner after.

I did think of some things this morning before I got up. I was able to see a bit inside people. I see how your life looks. You want to feel happy, and you want to feel content, but there is a slight problem. Your heart is being pulled, and I am afraid that is not in the cards right now. For some of you it won't be in the cards anyway, cuz you will take the wrong path, and your heart will remain hard and angry. You will find no forgiveness, and you will not be able to forgive.

Others will take the proper way, and that too is a hard way, but it is worth everything.  So when people are all dark inside, and they cannot or will not share of themselves, I guess I was still able to get a bit of insight. Without help this thing was never ever going to work anyway, because I can only do so much, but with help the sky is the limit.

So I see the avenues before you, and I see how everything appears to be a dead end, except this one impossible way. It is the way of your heart, because that is what needs to be fixed, and isn't that a great conundrum. Us humans can do so much, but there sure is no exercise to give us better hearts.

So what can one do??  Either pretend they are better then they are, follow the path of lies, or do the scary one. Seek the reasons you are as you are. Find out about you.

I told you the truth ain't no joke, and I told you it was hard.

I guess we will find out those who have the courage to take the right path.

Laterzzzzzz

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Yesterday Was Just A Good Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing good. Yesterday was just a good day. I wasn't sure how it was going to turn out, because even though I got up early, I might have wanted to sleep more. I did my pretty normal take Hope for a run, and bike to work. Before going to work I thought about my day coming up, and it was work, and basically do what the fuck I want. I thought that isn't horrible, so I was in a good mood. Plus I had an easy day at work, and was able to skate out a bit early.

I made a new friend, who is a partner of another friend who I never met. We did some sportsing things in the past. Anyway I added him in a sneaky way in the past. Sometimes I just do stuff via Twitter. I don't put a ton of thought to stuff, and just do as I feel. Anyway her name is Laurie Berry, I am adding her, and trust me, she is loaded with personality.

So on I go. I am getting rid of silly stuff in my blog, cuz keeping it is just silly. I don't put a ton of thought to stuff, so it may have been silly for years.  :)

Back to the  old drawing board I guess, but what remains is still good stuff.

Other than that today will be much like yesterday. Work will be a full day I am sure, and I have to run a couple errands, and then I'll do what I want. Typically when my day is over I don't want to do anything, and that typically is what I'll do. I did ride my bike up to the local grocery store to pick up something I wanted for dinner.

Just a day in the life.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Laterzzzzzzz.  :)

Taking A Step Back...

That is sort of what yesterday was about, and maybe the 3 days before it too. Just taking a quick look back and thinking Holy Hell some things are just silly.

So whatever, on I go. I got a pretty good night sleep last night. I went to bed around 8:00, and woke up an hour before my alarm, and just relaxed a bit. I thought of some things, not really sure if anything was real important.

I did think for me death has no sting. It isn't anything I am afraid of, but I would feel bad for Lisa. I think that may be a bit significant, because others probably worry about that stuff maybe, but I have no idea.

I lived life long enough, and seen enough to realize life is what it is I guess. Yesterday I said a sentence I thought was pretty true of me. I work, I eat, and do whatever the Fuck I want. I don't look toward Politics, cuz why would I??  I have no time for that crap. I don't do religion either, cuz that is a big waste of time. Nope, I do what I want, and don't spend any moment of my life worrying about silly things, as far as I can tell just make people mad.

Life isn't this end of the rainbow great thing, but I got no time for all those "smart" people who just waste their time in empty pursuits. I work, I eat, and do what the Fuck I want.

A free life I guess.

So anyway as I looked back at this blog I realized what a mess it is. This blog must be important, cuz why else would I do it??

I also thought a few days ago the table turned. It seems I reached out, but now the people have to come to me.

I don't ... That would have been a lie. I was going to say I don't like to waste time, but if I am not working that is probably the one thing I most like to do.  :)  I don't waste time on empty pursuits though, so I am pretty strong on my own you know??

Anyway, I am just jotting shit down.

Laterzzzzz.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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One other thing I just thought about is why if you have one life would you want to be invisible??  Scared, so you bury your coin in the ground??  That is what that is.

Okay gotta go now.   Cya.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I got a lot of sleep last night, but still thought of sleeping in. :)

Anyway, my title. Took Hope for a walk, fixed my other bike, did laundry, and dishes. I may switch out our kitchen sink today, or maybe 4 months from now.  Lisa found a good SS one from work. It just needs my plumbing expertise, but I am a guy, and pretty lazy when it comes to doing shit around the house.

I read my last two blog entries, and figured they weren't horrible, and wondered why people hate me. A day in the life. To win you have to stop clinging to stupid shit and grab the truth. It is hard, but not that fucking hard. Truth wins, and bullshit dies.

So, other than that I don't have much else besides my stupid glaringly silly signature line.

Before I start that I am giving extras to Brandy Walker. She is Doreen's friend, and I like her. She has a kid I never liked any photos on FB of, cuz I don't do kids. I don't look at pics on FB, but when I first became friends with her I "scouted" her out.  She is fun, and hot, but I am married, and my heart is into other things. I love her though so Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo for her.  :)

She is as good as they come.

That is invisible

Thanks for being invisible.

Hope everyone is invisible b

Wish she was invisible. FB gets bombed everyday with 900 things or so.

Love You All. Probably the best thing I've done.

p.s. You are invisible.

Yadda yadda yadda

Who cares??

Extras aren't horrible.

Extras aren't horrible.

Luv ya's are good.

The mwah part is hard, cuz it is a married woman, and I don't know how to make that right. I haven't given her husband or kids anything either. Seems pretty inappropriate, but I want to give her something, and that is what I came up with. What can one do?

Triple smile is invisible, as is the double D trust thing.

Dumb ass fucking blog right??

I think so too.

Do You Ever Stare At The Title Part, and Nothing??

Today is starting off like most days this week. I sleep for 5-6 hours, and am up. I lay there and relax, and maybe think of some stuff. I still have plenty of time before my early alarm goes off, but then. I doze off again, and the alarm wakes me from a deep sleep. Decisions decisions??  Sleep more or get up. Usually I get up and no biggie, but today I decide to sleep in. I doze off again, and wake up. If it is 3:30 I am going to stay asleep. It is 3:12, so I guess I'll get up.

This is the reason I am up now. This is the reason I am blogging though I have nothing to blog about. So we will see where this goes.

Yesterday I had a day like the day before. A little run, a little bike, and a little chill out. I sat on my chair, and did nothing. I had a pretty good day at work. It was easy, and I was done early, so I helped do a couple things I might not normally do.

Other than that just a day in the life.

I think the crazy thing about life is we all get educated. We all are pretty smart in ways. The World has been going on for a long time, and doing just fine without us. We accept the World, because the World is bigger and stronger than us right??  It's been here forever like Country, and Society, and all that crap. This shit is all right correct?? I mean why wouldn't it be??  It is the World.

So you accept it blindly. You are your parent's kid, and they are their parent's kid. In my life I stepped out, because what if  I am wrong??  What if the World is wrong??  I didn't put a ton of thought to it I believe, but for the first time life came at me full force. I saw my life for what it is. Something that leads to death. I saw the World with a pretty decent lens, and you know what??  I was like what is so great about this place??  It is dirty.

So what is one to do??

That story has been told to death, but what is different is how we feel on the inside. You want to feel a certain way all the time. You want to feel happy and content, but why can we not control that??

How many things do we accept just cuz??

1. Who made borders??
2. Are those right??
3. Why private property??
4. Profit motive always =good??
5. Our Country is the best. (Insert country you were born in)
6. Our country does good. The end justifies the means. 
7. What is the ends??

If you get down to life we all are born on a path to blindly accept a lot of stuff. We go out and seek a niche to try to make a name. Perhaps be part of a group. 

It is a big deal to blindly accept stuff when it is our life. It isn't the World's life, and maybe the most devious thing that ever was done to us is we accepted our part in the World. Everyone told us we were good. None of us are perfect, but that is okay. 

We don't have any questions, but don't worry, you don't need them. 

The secret to the whole World is it wasn't our fault, but we are born wrong, and we need to find right. 

Okay, I gotta go. 

Laterzzzzzzz

xoxoxo

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Just Some Things I Guess...

I sorta thought of a couple things yesterday. Maybe I thought if a lot of things, but I think in our hearts we want to be free. To be able to do as we choose. Maybe some have a yearning to go to Walden pond, and see what living like that is.

Who knows, but life doesn't really let us do it does it??  Many people decide to go the kid route, and now your life is no longer your own. Now your 'I's need to be dotted, and 'T's crossed. You cannot be the free carefree kid you once were. You are now a slave to your income, and actually we kinda are anyway with or without kids. You have to be a certain way to be accepted by the World.

How can anyone even get out if that web??  Most things are impossible for us lowly humans. The World overpowers us as do our demons. We are scared of what the World will do so we live a lonely existence, cuz no one knows you, and your life us way to busy you don't even know you.

Then we all have this screwy thing in our head that says we are good. We are smart, and we control the Universe, and I am going to show people I am special. I will do this one thing.

We aren't special. We are kinda like ants doing our jobs, cuz we are supposed to, and outside of your ant colony is something way different. It is better than anything you can imagine.

I found my way out of the rat race, and incomprehensible to me is I have to help others. It wasn't what I asked, and maybe not what I particularly wanted. I won life. I found the way, and life was good. Then it was all taken away, because it was deemed better I go in the loser's bracket to go for the win. This path is way harder, and way scarier. It wasn't easy, because I wasn't walking by sight. I had to go through a lot of things, and I did. I survived the loser bracket, and ended up winning. The loser bracket is a bracket of learning, and a bracket of humility.

So when I get home from work, and I ponder what now should I do??  Should I sit outside, although it is a million degrees outside. Should I watch a tv series on netflix??

I just sat in my chair, and did nothing. My heart was fine, and content by me doing nothing, and I wasn't bored.

I wish you could see how things look outside the ant colony. You would not be disappointed, but if only there was a way. Obviously humans are not strong enough to escape. If only there was some help. If only there was someone to teach us this stuff.

Lol

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I should have a pretty easy day at work today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Because I Can...

I live the way I do because I can. Things are not always what they appear on the outside, and for me that truly is the case. I have no idea what it looks like for outsiders looking into my life, because I do not have understanding. Knowing all about me though I know what I can do. Life is a balance I have said before, and none if us hold the scale. I think I have protection from going past the balance point too much. I live life like a person who wants to have fun, but I still get a good amount if sleep, and I feel good most times.

If I were to translate how I am compared to how you are there is no translation. How I am is incomprehensible. You have no way to walk in my shoes, and I have no way to explain really.  I am not a person enslaved in my former self. I am a new person. Not the same as I once was. It just so happens I have to be changed once more to really be who I want to be. Being who I am now isn't horrible.

Want to know who I am??  I am the person who has to be faithful in unrighteousness mammon so I can be given the good stuff. Seems like I have to be an imperfect person, and still do good work, and that I am able to do. To get past 2 of
my 3 trials is when the blessing I received before the first trial took hold. To finally be secure in who I am. All the things one may strive for in life I don't really do.

My heart is helped with doing this thing time to time, and then just living life. Who you see here is typically who you won't see outside this area. I am different daily after I do this. At least I think I am. I don't get in any conversations I don't believe in things you may read here. I think this here is the better part of me, and outside of here, I am pretty much just regular Steve.

That is the way I see it.

Anyway yesterday was a pretty good day. I plan on having another one today too.  :)  also my last couple runs have been good and fun.

I think I'll do another.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Sometimes I am floored by people's bravery. I've read Charisa's blog for a long time now. She has let us in on a lot, and she uses her filter in a pretty great way.  Almost like she doesn't have one. Her story and her are more important than whatever the World will do. I like it.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D