I Am Up Early...

I am up early as my title suggests, that wasn't the case the previous two days. I stayed in bed til I had to get up. I was genuinely tired. No idea why.

I have some stuff on my mind I guess. I'll try to spare you day to day type details, cuz that shit is boring. I don't give one flying fuck about my stupid day to day shit, and frankly all our lives are boring.

Since that is the case, and we don't want to deal with the hard shit of life many will go out and build their Great Wall of China in whatever form. It makes us look good. We have a plan. It is generally accepted as good by those who judge that type of shit.

The plans of the heart are flawed cuz you are not dealing with you. You aren't dealing with your life. All the important shit you hide. You know hiding is the one thing that is disliked the most. Everything is forgivable, but you have to come to the light.

It doesn't matter what stupid shit you do or have done. You can't hide. That is your only mistake.

You don't build a Great Wall as a way to make you perfect. The wall is no defense.

I really don't have much else to be honest.

Your plans are whack, cuz you miss the whole point. There is a fine line between hate and love. It is a choice.

Right now I know your choice.

Fear, and cowardice, and everything that the wrong choice entails.

Bye

Life's Decisions...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I thought maybe I'd sleep til when I had to get up. I slept okay last night, but thought I maybe a little tired. I stayed in bed for a bit, but I think I am done sleeping so. Also I have nothing to blog about.

Here I am though blogging and not sleeping.

Anyway I think my cold is fine. Had a couple days where I woke up with a weird throat, but it went away quickly. I think maybe from drinking fluids, but not sure. It never drained my energy, just made some typical things I do harder. I'll take Hope after this.

Other than that not much going on. Yesterday I was wondering, and now too I guess. How do people feel? I know how I feel, and why. I don't know how you feel. I don't remember.

Are you bored??  I know you are not as happy as you can be, cuz that is impossible in your current state. Do you fill your life with business to take away your loneliness??  I know for a fact deep down you are lonely, cuz no one knows who you are, and you don't know who you are.

What does it feel like to live with it being so dark in you??  Where you are afraid of the light, because that would expose you. The one thing you want is the one thing that scares you. To let people  see the imperfect you.

It is amazing how many pics you see in one day. Maybe not me cuz I rarely look at pics, but one can be bombarded.

We want to prove we matter huh??  We do things right, and we want to show people we make a difference??

Life is this crazy thing, and the truth of it flies by us undetected. Busyness is one reason, and who would question anything if they already think they know everything, and if they think they are right?? No one, and that makes everything hard, cuz you live, and believe a lie.

My story is well documented. I did question, and I did find a way out of the darkness. I have a whole story, and it has come to light to help people, but what do the people do??

Good question. Why do I have to go on and on with doing so very very little??

Why are people so scared??

Good questions.

Anyways I guess that is it.

Laterzzzzz.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

That Never Happens...

I don't really keep track of these things, but I am reasonably confident it has been 3-5 years since I've had a cold. I picked up a bug this week. I ran on Thursday morning, and it was difficult. I was just doing a normal run too so it shouldn't have been difficult. It was strange. The next day bam I have a dry/sore throat, and my voice is whack. A couple other people have the same thing. When you never get sick it sure is surprising when you catch a little bug.  Next thing you know I'll get a headache. It has probably been a decade or so since I've had one of them.

So that is kind of strange. Yesterday I slept in til I had to get ready for work, and today is my sleep in day too. I don't think this bug lasts long, as someone was only sick for a couple days last week.

So that is that. Oh yeah, my bike ride to work and back was a little different too. I didn't have the same push I usually do. At this stage of the summer I am in pretty good biking shape even though I don't go long.

Other than that not much going on. I have to work today, and tomorrow early morning. Lisa and I are going to see a movie tomorrow too.

A fun and exciting life I lead.  :)

Geesh, I really got nothing to blog about. Guess I'll just relax before I get ready for work.

Laterzzzz.   :)

Xoxoxoxo

Little Things...

I woke up early this morning, and I thought about stuff. It was a lot like yesterday. At first I wasn't in the greatest mood, but things became better. I thought of all kinds of stuff. I knew the title of my blog a couple hours ago. I think I will do as planned too. Make a list. It may be long.

• When things get messy, I can still find strength inside me. 
• Things are messy
• I wear a unique pair of shoes, and you never walked in them. 
• I once wore the same shoes everyone walks in who is born on this Earth. 
• I know a lot about those shoes. 
• You currently walk in those shoes. 
• You battle every little thing to stay in those same crappy shoes. 
• I teach you a way to get a unique pair of shoes. 
• You don't want them. 
• You have no idea how serious that is. 
• Every race has one winner, and many others who didn't win. 
• Timed goals are nice, cuz it is you, and your brains. 
• You probably don't even care who wins, unless it is you I guess. 
• I have a lot of time today, cuz I am driving to work. 
• I have some errands to do after work. Get a haircut and stuff. 
• It is a good idea to not think too highly of yourself. 
• It is a pretty special gift to never think too lowly of yourself. 
• If life is a balance we don't hold the scales. 
• A life we make our own destiny leads to failure. 
• An unwritten law. 
• To walk in the shoes we were born in and think we are special is folly
• The best parts about me you cannot see. 
• The best parts about me I can feel inside. 
• It is real. 
• Being poor in spirit is only the tingling to the ankles. 
• You still feel the tingling everywhere though. 
• My next point is way too weird to tell you. 
• So on I go. 
• Since I am up way too early I may run a little farther today. 
• I ran a little over 2 miles yesterday. 
• It is not out of the realm of possibilities I try and get in 5k shape for thanksgiving. 
• If I do it still isn't that important to me. Just something to do. 
• Maybe a lot of low mileage runs is what I needed to get healthy this year. 
• One other thing. Not being mostly spirit you feel nothing. 
• It is just really dark inside. Hard to see stuff. 
• It's been so long since I wore those shoes. 
• A lot of life happened, and I had a mirror. 
• The World looked ugly, and I wasn't that great of a person. 
• So it was just the truth that made me seek for something else. 
• The ugly truth. 
• There is something better. 
• People can't see it, but it is a physical thing. 
• I can feel it, but there are no X-rays, or MRIs that will show it. 
• That is pretty crazy and nutty. 

Anyway I guess that is it. 

I am not gonna put in the other stuff, cuz things are kinda messy. 

It ain't no thing to me. 

Laterzzzzzzz.   :)

A Lot Of Stuff Maybe...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am actually doing pretty good believe it or not.  Work yesterday went fine. Today should be a pretty easy day, as I am doing 2/3 less pigs than normal, plus I still doubled up on most stuff yesterday. I was asked yesterday by one if the girls who works there something to the effect, "what are you interested in/ what do you like to do??"

So you know me, and actually many if you already do.  "Not much" is my answer. I am not particularly interested in anything. I told her I don't do much. Outside of work I hang out. I told her I used to read a lot of History books, and now I don't even read much.

What does a man with little interest in life do??  Not much huh??  I bike a little, and run a little. I am not rich in Worldly things, although I suspect I am pretty wealthy in non Worldly things, but I don't think about that, so guess I don't worry about that at all. I remember in my folly while being full in Spirit I was going to be the wealthiest in non Worldly items.  Ha!!  I had a lot to learn. None of that is ours to take.

Anyway I do this thing with some regularity. I guess this is important. Want to know how this goes bad??  When insecurity, which is a good thing gets glossed over by putting oneself on a pedestal and tries to shine brightly the trophy they want to show people they are. Yeah, that isn't good.

People want a pat on the back, but all they do is hide stuff, and show a picture of who they want you to see.

Let us take a look at Sports. Your first place finishers in Hockey have 3 bonafide superstars. One has just been accused of rape, and one is getting divorced, which sounds like infidelity is the cause. They have a 2 year old baby or something.

They get to spend a nice day with a trophy, but sports people aren't heroes. Just people who are up on a perch that will be very difficult to get off of.

I don't think I do well to see arrogance and self promotion. I am guessing because I know what really is inside.  Been there. You cannot fool someone who knows what is inside people.

I woke up mad, and I thought this is not a good time to write, but I was able to see clear. Who knows the gibberish we speak when angry.

Anyway I was able to clean some stuff up, so I don't see things that are of no use, and probably not even good for me to see.

I don't want to see the trophy version of you you'd like to show, cuz that does no one any good, and it just shows your insecurity you want to hide.

It is a form of weakness, and I am only hear to support you while you take off all the layers of your in fabulous self. When you are strong enough to show us your weak side, that is when I can help.

Everything else is just a waste of time.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Since I am up early I may run a little longer. Not crazy longer. Max of 3 miles.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's :)

MWAH.  :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Some Days This a Thing Seems Dumb...

That is how I feel this morning. Why bother with this thing. You probably know that though. I'd say this year I have done it a lot. Probably lately as much as I ever had. You look around though, and people still seek honor in Worldly things as if that is their ticket.

People have the answers to life. They know the correct direction. (Whatever it is in their mind to do). Out to prove to the World they are right, and unwilling to face the toughest question of all. What if everything, and I am wrong??

What if that is the case??  You wouldn't have the courage to change one thing would you??  The web of life we ALL get caught in is too hard to get out of, even if someone gave you good info.

All the important things I've stressed for years, trust, strength, etc... You don't have.

Maybe you are too old. Maybe I came too late, and maybe I will be the only one.

Makes it seem like these years have been a waste huh??

Some days go like this. I find the electronic World pretty boring.

Cya

A Good Night Sleep Is Hard To Beat...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a great night sleep last night, and I love that. I woke up at midnight and felt great, and still had 3 hours to sleep. I stayed up pretty much from 2:00 am on, and thought about stuff.

One if the things that never really occurred to me was how I was with a full spirit, and how everything was good. It was easy to make myself into what I thought the best a person can be. That isn't the goal though. My life is not mine, so I had to be taken a different way. My path is to actually become the best that any person can be, and I have really no idea what that is.

Being full in spirit one feels secure. After suffering things I know none/few have suffered, and then all of a sudden be poor in Spirit is one of the scariest things possible. I was taught a lesson though. The bad stuff returned for a split second, and then it was taken away very easily. It let me know who controls all things. My suffering was for a purpose. To learn things.

Being poor in spirit while things are happening is very scary. The dead years nothing happened, and it didn't matter. When things started happening again though I has bad days. Many of them, but not really after the journey and start if the wait. I finally was in good hands, and the struggles were over, because I overcame the 2nd of 3 times. Everything is out of my hands, but I am in good hands.

Every gift I have makes me strong. I am confident, and assured, and I don't have to worry of stuff. All my life is known, and I can stand in the garden of Eden without shame, cuz I don't clothe myself in false idols. I am not my hero, and I am not my strength. The anger you see in people is not in me.

I took the right path, and it has made all the difference. I don't have to prove to so and so about anything. I am strong enough to stand on my own 2 feet.

I went through a number of ordeals, but I stand in a good spot.

So on I go doing what I do. I have a ton of gifts like sleeping good. Having energy, feeling good about me inside, and being confident.

I think about you, and I realize you have pretty much no idea what I am talking about. Ha!!  That is kinda funny.

You probably have no idea what you are missing out on.

I remember walking in your shoes though. I remember how dark it is, and you have no idea what it is to walk in the light, because currently as you are it is not possible.

There is a correct way you must go. It is simple, but you have to overcome yourself. Throw away all justifications and everything. To look at the truth is to see if you are the best a person can be, than that really isn't that great.

Anyhoodles, that is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Who I am, and what I do is nowhere near possible without help. No way!

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D   :D