As Far As Mondays Go...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. It is now Tues morning, but as my title suggests Monday was not horrible. I did my typical morning routine of shirt run, and bike to work. I came home, and hung outside for a bit. The humidity broke, and it actually started to get cool. I came in and watched MI 3. Those movies are good. I ate dinner, and went to bed at 7:00 PM.

There you have it. My life in a nutshell. I did think about some things before I got up. Many times for no reason at all I will remember how I am different than you. I'll think back to my life, and how hard it was for me to get where I am at now. You have no idea the things I've seen. No idea what I've had to endure. I cannot really say exactly, well you know what??  At some point in time decades ago my life as I knew it was over. Never to be the same.

Between the 6 days of being tormented 24/7, and the Summer of my discontent I saw with 100% clarity the brutal truth of life. I've endured days during my two previous blogs where it seemed every day my heart was troubled.

Then I had a big change. When I overcame the 2nd time with 100% help I was basically done. My work was over, and I guess now it was my time to help others along. This has been years in the making too.

It is odd knowing sorta how you are on the inside. It has to be real struggle too, because where you are now as a person is hard, and pretty horrible in ways. I've used the word trust before, and as I have said we all walk as people who currently are not as good as a person can be, but also either is your life. Your heart dictates your thoughts, and you and I differ there.

My heart is clear, and so are my thoughts, but seems at this stage people are striving for that which is impossible to attain.  The better life, and the better you are not in your power. On your own there is very little you can do. The things that are possible are probably infinite with help, but in this story you are to be changed. Your heart will be content with meek goals. You will have no need to make a great name for yourself.  With help you will accept life for what it is, and you will have a thankful heart, because you will be made into what you are meant to.

So you know I had absolutely no vision of how my life would look these days. The only thing I knew was I had to overcome 3 times, and I know what the 3rd meant. Heck I figured I must have already overcome twice, at least for decades. Overcoming = hitting the serpent on the head. To be honest I didn't even know what overcome was really.  It is what was done centuries ago. With a strong heart not holding onto your life, but giving everything up.

To give it up with no hope, but in enduring you see hope and your heart becomes courageous. In trials we strengthen trust.

Where you are now is nowhere. One of the trillions of pebbles of sand on the beach. That isn't the plan.

Better things are in store for you. You have to give up you though. Willingly give up your coin even though as far as you can see it is worth more than anything else.

Trust trust trust. What makes it hard is you are given no vision of what it looks like after. You have me though telling you it is worth it. That is it. You get no more. :)

Alrighty I gotta get going. Too long for me to proofread.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

It Is Strange, and Unfair...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a pretty good Sunday. It had work, a movie, hang out time, food, and sleep. I did not change the World, and I did nothing of any significance.

My title is me as I am now, and knowing how you are now. My message is a pretty tough one in ways, because it tells you how insignificant we are. You are on the other side though, and inside you there must be a pull that says you are, or can be significant.

Life has an end, and that is significant. Life has a lot if imperfection, which people look past. Your life has imperfection, and you have to deal with it. You cannot cover anything up with flags, and pageantry, and whatever else there is.

You are dark inside, and have a dark past with imperfection. It needs to be dealt with, because that is an important part of life.

What also is unfair is I am so much further along in my life's journey. I've made the tough steps. I've endured harsh trials and tribulations, and I believe you people still have a false view of your worth.

You believe false teachers. (Any church). You believe in good enough. You believe in he or she does this, and I do this. You believe in everything and anything but the truth.

The truth is you are not good enough. The truth is you don't believe. The truth is everything you don't want to believe.

The truth is for the strong, and the strong will have to deal with the low spots of our existence.

We don't matter.

Really a simple test for you is a quick look inside yourself. Is that REALLY the best a person can be??  What step would you make to improve that person in the mirror??  There are no exercises to make a better heart, but there is one step.

That is it, one step. No more, and no less. You found the answer, because my whole life is for this.

Anyhooodles I guess that us it.

You people are pretty silly huh???   :)

Yeah I think so too. :)

LOL

Alrighty I'll cya.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!   :)))

The Deleted Entry

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I was able to sleep in til 6:00 am, so that is good. I don't want to always be talking about sleep, cuz this isn't supposed to be a sleeping blog. ;)

As I say that though I bet sleep is a pretty important part of us. We spend a good portion of our life doing it, so I guess that means something. It is one of the things I typically am pretty good at. Getting my sleep.

Anyway what is going on with me??  Not much. Lisa and I went to Bob Evans last night for dinner, so I guess I am officially old. It was pretty good though so I think I may make myself some eggs this morning. I work today for a few hours or so.

Oh crap, I am totally at the part of my blog where I delete it, cuz I have nothing

On 2nd thought I'll just show you a blog entry I typically will delete.

Here it is...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Now last night I slept great. I can always tell a good night sleep when I wake up before the alarm feeling refreshed. It is such a luxury to be able to just lay there and relax. I know I know what you are thinking. You work at 6:00 am why use an alarm. It's been a while since I did the early morning routine, so to be safe. I never hit snooze though, I typically get up. One day I didn't, cuz it was supposed to rain, I was tired, and I was going to drive to work, so I stayed in bed past 5:00.

Fascinating huh??   Yeah my life is filled with all kinds of stuff like this.

Geesh, I don't really have anything to blog about, and nothing really is on my mind. I do kinda wonder what people are doing sorta. I have this blog, and it does stuff, but then again it seems like it does nothing. As I go on though I find lives are strange in a way.  People place importance in things I place almost none in. My life is boring as you can tell by reading this, but I am cool with the shear simplicity of it.

I am work, hangout, eat sleep. These days I typically run before work a short run, and bike to work and back, but that means nothing. Why do people many times try to fill their lives with more and more stuff. Are they afraid of a boring life??  Afraid you will miss out on something??  Need some type of pat on the back of some sort??

I think I am pretty lucky having a content heart, and if people try and fill their lives with more and more stuff I couldn't care less. As my post yesterday suggests, and as Solomon saw everything we do is pointless anyway.

There was a person who came with a message of repentance, and as I have told you your heart is unable. You are powerless in all things without a turn, unless you want to live a life of anger, and vengeance, and all the shortcomings we all are born with.

As for me, I am content. I lack nothing, and my heart is cool. I've had sooooi much help though in me being who I am. You are just a person trying to make you into some type of version of a person you want to be.

Too bad you got all that other crap inside you huh??  All the crap that makes us imperfect and horrible people. Yep, if only there was a way to get rid of that.

Guess what??  That is another thing you are powerless against.

Funny how the World threw us that zinger that we were all that huh??  Yeah, the World is good like that.

Happiness is knowing your true worth and having a heart that is totally content with it.

You?????   Yikes.

Okay, I don't think it is thundering so guess I can take the hopester.

Laterzzzzzzzz

Not A Perfect Night Sleep

First off as you can tell by my title there are many many many major things that happen to me on any given day. Today the first thing on my mind is I didn't get a perfect night sleep. Probably from napping during the movie we "watched".  You may ask why not sleep in, and it is cuz I was done sleeping.

Other than that not much going on with me. Doing this life thing. Lisa did tell me something that hit me though. She told me today was the longest she has ever gone without talking to her mom. I was like WOAH!!  You forget about that shit. That is real life right there. Life changing shit. Having some experience in this stuff I told her one year is how long this stuff takes. She also said something to the effect many times she'll think of something she wants to tell her mom during the day.

So there is a little picture of life. All the stupid shit we waste our time on doing stupid World stuff vs. you are going to die.

Decisions and thoughts should stem from the only important thing in that equation. The World is stupid, and so are the things we do. You are going to die is important on many levels. All your awards and bullshit you collect you do not take with.

Sheets of paper saying you are accredited or a graduate of such and such means nothing. You have to live life, so yeah you will collect these things, but it is about time you start placing the correct importance to things. One need not look far or long to see we all put on a charade. Seeking the acceptance from people and society, while hiding the true us.

There is a lot of work to do, and pretty much none have done any. You have a choice to make, and it involves you currently being on the wrong side. It also involves every little thing you do in the World doesn't mean shit in things that are important.

That my friends is me just keeping it real, and speaking the truth. The truth is a Bitch, and one needs to be strong to deal with it.

You people should go the better, and correct way. I for one know the true value of your life, and all your deeds.

Later.

Put Another Notch On The Wall

I did it. I lived another day in my life. It had much of the same things as previous days. My life doesn't change too too much. There was a big decision that needed to be made though. Cut the grass or no??  In the end I opted not to cut the grass, and just sat outside after work. Lisa was off, so we just chilled. I then went in to make dinner.

A little after dinner I was able to go to bed, and Lisa was able to tinker making her fairy garden. She was excited about making some furniture out of cork. :)   She made a fire pit and other stuff. I'll have to check it out after work today.

So I continue to tally the days. One after another. Some things I know is for some people your life probably will never be the same. You may try to battle you, but there is a truth, and at first it may seem harsh, and then there is everything else you "think" you want life to be. The World is a great lure, and it fishes for more and more people. Quite successfully too. Then there was this one fisherman, who was successful in his own right.  He fished, and taught others how to fish. This fisherman is who taught me how to fish. It is the reason I was allowed way back when to be taken so far away. To save more lives.

The Lure the World uses is basically candy coated lies. Temptations perhaps. The one who battles these fairy tale poisons is armed with the truth. The World is no match for the truth, because that which is based on lies cannot stand against the truth.

That is your choice too. Do you want to stand with the World, and lies, or would you dare stand with the greatest fisherman of all. Right now you are on the side of the World, and it is impossible to stand on both sides.

So yeah, in the end no matter what you are not all that. Either am I. I've been made into a better version of myself already, but not the best version of myself I can be. You are still what you always were.

Okay. I'll cya. I got a run date with the hopester.

Common Theme??

Hello, and good morning. Guess what I did yesterday???  I lived another day of my life. It had work, and food, and doing dishes, petting my dumb cat instead of running since she was plopped right on me.  I had a couple drinks, and some sleep. It was like another day in the life.

Couple things about me. I typically don't place value to things that have none, and that is because my heart is pretty true. If you could place the percentage of me that is me, and the percentage that is created from this weird poor in Spirit existence I have now I couldn't tell you. I'd say the important stuff about me is mostly from help, and the silly and stupid part of me is just the silly dude who continues to linger around.

So that is something. I am not who I would be if I hadn't done the things I have done. What does that mean for you??  Even though it has been decades I realize how dark an existence one (you) live without going through the eye of the needle. I can't remember what my days were like, but I definitely could not see myself as I can now.

What was I lacking in life to make me question things??  I was alone, and I wanted to be.  I just wanted to be a decent person whatever that means. At this point in my life I was living a real simple life, and still I was not able to make me into the kind of person I wanted.  As time went on, and I wasn't improving, but really seeing more clearly the true nature of me, I saw my end as I stood now.

The rest is history really. I don't know the timing of the turn compared to the time of repentance.  I have no idea.

It is what people lack right now. A meek view of yourself that sees the true picture of you. One has to look at the pointless nature of their life, and swallow that bitter pill.
You have to do some tough stuff (look at the truth) if you want to get to the good stuff.

You don't have the good stuff, and I have help, but I don't have the ultimate good stuff either.

Hard to tell people who love the World that life is dumb. It takes a lot of life to make turns, and a lot if unhappiness unfortunately. A lot of questioning too.

Probably not everyone gets pulled either so many will continue on their own merry way into an existence like the trillions of people who lived empty pointless lives full of hate and death, and whatever else it is people do these days.

Those who choose the World I have no use for. Those who choose the better way I can help. As far as I can tell I am not much help. I can't help people who choose the World as their home. It isn't why I am here.

Anyways, today will be another day in the life. I look at it with as clear of vision as my heart and help let me.

For you it is another day in your life with a very dark inside that is hard, but for one to see.  In the end there are no secrets, and a life lived is filled with secrets.

Okay, I am out.

Laterzzzzzz.