1 Or 2 Cups Of Coffee This Morning. Life Sometimes Is Too Much...

Hello, and good morning.  How's it going?  Me, I guess I am doing okay, even though I just looked at bills due, and crappy things like that.   :)  I don't know how people with kids on a limited income do it.  Talk about people being tied to jobs.  

Anyway, I have a cup of coffee.  As my title suggests I am not sure if I will go for 2 or not.   Hope and I have a snowy run date planned.  We don't have a ton of snow.  Maybe a couple inches, but it really has been the wind blowing that crap around that made everything seem worse than it is.   Temps have been below freezing so the snow is light, and the wind takes it. 

Also I have a big day planned of laundry, and...  well, actually that may be it.  I have some laundry to do.  I'll put a load in before the run.  This week, I haven't been sleeping a lot when I get home.  Only like 3 hours, and then I am up.   That isn't optimal for me, but what can you do.  I have to work this weekend too, because the dude who took over the things I was doing before quit.  :)  It actually isn't too bad though, because this is my main job now, so you tend to make it more important.  Previously when I was doing the weekend thing I wanted to get it done in a hurry, because I had to be back at work that night, so I wanted sometime for myself before I napped for the evening shift.  My weekend work this weekend is just that.   I still have the nights off.  So I'll probably get a little overtime, and some time off early here and there until they find another replacement. 

I probably should apologize about last year I think.   Who can remember how a year goes, but I think it was an off year, and I sure feel I was negative.   I lost faith in many if not all.   I lost trust in people.  People didn't seem to be getting stronger.  They surely didn't get what I was "talking" about at all, or just ignored or didn't listen. 

I want to be this good person, and it is far away from me.   I know this, and I accept it, and I know the direction I need to go to be who I want to be.   My life is a drop everything and pursue that avenue.   It has been done, and I listened, and I followed.   My journey is all done except for the crying, and the gnashing of teeth so to speak.  :)

I have this thing here, and I use it.  I've always been able to do this confidently, even if later in the day I felt like shit.   Didn't matter.   This was my time, and it usually is pretty okay.   Maybe last year I needed to recharge the batteries, so that is why I NEEDED an off year. 

It seems to me though there is only one good thing left in me.   I can support the people who have the courage to take off their shell.   Many will just keep painting pictures.  No support comes from that.   You want to show you have the answers I guess, and you don't.   Many might not have even asked the questions yet. 

You know you have a life.   You see what it is about.   People doing crappy things to people.   People coming together with maybe even pretty good intentions, but making systems that just tie chains around people.   The World is bad in how it is made, because why??  Who is the Father of this World??  

I see the totality of this bad place.   People are enslaved to this bad place, because it is all you know.   There are steps that need to be made, and it will take courage for sure, because you may be humbled.   God knows I have been, and many many times.   Made to be the fool.  Why?? Who knows, maybe so I could always just be raised up again. 

I want to help, because this is how I am, and this is how I am made.   Here for a purpose and here for a job.   You are too, but you have to accept the offer.   At any cost.  

Your eyesight is limited very much so.  What may seem like a big cost, is actually nothing when one looks in the long term.   One must look past retirement (something you don't know what looks like, also something not guaranteed) to the eventuality of your own ending.   6' under will happen, and coins sometimes become worthless.   See examples I always use of Weimar Republic Currency, and Holy Roman Empire coins.  

Wise decisions are based on things you know.   You know this one thing about life, so decisions and questions start there.   Everything else is just make believe.  :) 

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s. I am going to have a 2nd cup of coffee.   Also for those with eyes, yesterday something came across my eyesight.  It originated from someone who I trust wholeheartedly.  It is based on this trust I acted upon it.   TRUST IS ALL in my World.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D 

This Is What I Do...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I have not yet had enough sleep, but I am ready to go to bed. 

Geesh I have a strange story huh??   Blog day after day, cuz you feel like telling people the stupid shit that creeps up in your mind.  It is a crazy story, and it is a true story, and I do it gladly,  cuz that is the way my heart is.

Your heart could be a certain awesome showing kinda way too if you did the things that need to be done. 

~it aint showing the World how Great you are

~It definitely ain't showing how fabulous you are. 

~The light and truth of us lives in our darkside.   The very thing we'd rather not show.   How would you suggest we all get from point A to point B??   Dark to light?? 
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~No easy way, and no easy direction.   Brace yourselves for the truth.  Not the truth of the World, and stuff like that.   You have enough to handle with just the truth of you.


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xoxoxoxoxo


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   temps are warming up this weekend.   :)   xo


Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D  

The 3 Hour Sleep...

Hello, and good morning all.   How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.   I was a bit lethargic yesterday after having a 3 day weekend.   :)  Wake up early, and worry about sleep, because you will be working til the weeeee hours of the morning.  

Oh Lookeeeee here, and today I am up after 3 hours of sleep, and I have to work til the weeeeeee hours of the morning, plus I have to work at the grocery store too.   :)   Working today instead of Wednesday to help make room for the load tonight I guess.   Something about a billion frozen turkeys in the freezer cramming up space.  

It is official though.   Today I will for sure be able to use my snow blower.   We didn't get snowmageddon like the predictions, but it was really windy, and my driveway needs to be cleared.   I hope it is warmer than the 15 degrees it said on my way home this morning. 

So what is going on with me??  Not much.  This is the things that life is made of.   Day to day of whatever it is we fill our days with.  Some days we are probably pretty happy.  Some days we would probably rather stay in bed.   Many days I assume are boring.   Perhaps in some way we'd like to make our mark on the World, and that never really happens.  

Let's say you are rich and famous, you would still have to fill your day up with stuff.   You have more money than God what would you do with it??  Buy a never ending supply of knick knacks and stuff??  More cars, and more jewelry, and whatever.   Dinners out, and stuff like that, and you still have to fill your day up with stuff. 

I had a little 3 mile run yesterday.  I really wanted to go on it to clear my head from too many days off.   :)  It was slow, and I was pretty unmotivated.   Say it would have been scheduled a long run for me.   I don't know if I was in the mood to actually do it.   3 miles was all I could stomach yesterday, even though I have been pretty motivated lately.   I am sure many will be able to relate to that.   Where does the inside feeling of us come from??

Today I feel good, and only sleeping 3 hours I feel loaded with energy.  I knew I was done sleeping.  I know me pretty good, and then I think of you.  You don't know yourself very good.   Caught between what is really you, and the pressures of what you think you need to show people. 

What character traits of you do you like??  What don't you like??  I know you are not perfect, and I know some people have some bad parts to their personality. 

What are the parts of you that matter??  What are the parts of your personality that are actually making a difference??   I did think about some things from last year.  The coin, and your final wishes once you are about to die.   My blog wasn't all horrible last year.   Probably my worst blogging year though. 

I know the shortcomings my blog has.   I'd fix it if I could, but we are on a journey here.   From point A to point B, and the shortcomings may not be my fault.  

Maybe this blog is a mirror, and we don't like it.   We want to show the good stuff.   The things we think life is about.   What is the good stuff??  

If life is a game of points where are you getting your points??   Life is a game of points, and life is a game of death. 

A lot of things to think about, and probably the most important part is we don't really matter, and neither do our lives. 

This blog has definitely done one thing though.   It made people stay on the sidelines, and try to convince themselves and everyone else stuff that isn't true. 

I had a tough job to do.   I had to go out and tell my story, and tell it to people who wouldn't believe it.   I've had to withstand the arrows shot at me.  In other blogs they may have gotten the better of me, but in this one here, I remain strong.  

Waiting for others to become strong.  

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.   Time to snow blow.  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

A View Into You...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  I had 3 days off, and I am ready to get back to work.  I haven't really taken many days off this year, and to have a 3 day weekend was pretty sweet.   4 days would have been too long.   I don't work til 8:00 PM tonight, so I will need a nap later. 

Yesterday was just a lazy day.  I got a little run in, and then watched football.  It got kind of weird for a bit, as my mind kind of went away from my "normal" and caught a glimpse of your normal.  It was weird.  I cannot believe how different I am, and I cannot imagine how incomprehensible I am. 

I see how much of a slave people are to their own minds.   The gap between me and you is pretty big.  Seems strange I am the way I am, and somehow I have to help you on your way.  As I look at it I can pretty much do nothing, although in some ways this blog probably helps.  How I don't know, but I know work gets done through it. 

Anyway not too much is going on with me.   I will probably take Hope for a little run in a bit.  There is snow on the ground so it will be slow.  Good thing of running in the snow is it is soft on the legs.  Helps with injury prevention.  I should probably do some laundry today, and Lisa and I may see a movie. 

I know some things about life, and it is pretty much different than we were ever taught to believe.   I had to learn a lot of things about life, and go through some stuff.   Imagine the Summer of My Discontent was so long ago, and it took me from the early 90's to when I started blog #1.  The story of me was told, and the story of me came out.  

Remember on this blog I pulled for such a long time??  Now I don't know what I am doing or what this blog is doing.   Not really sure of the direction, and I cannot see too far in front of me.  I don't worry about it though.   I don't know how my blog relates to you.   What is the purpose of me and you?? 

How will this year unfold??  What will I learn about you??  What will my blog be like??  

A lot of questions. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.  I think a nice run this morning will shake out the cobwebs from a lazy Sunday.   :)  I hope so anyway.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Since I Am On A Roll...

Hello, and good morning all.   How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I had a pretty productive day yesterday.  I put in all 3 lights Lisa wanted me to put in.  All came out perfect, except the one I thought was to be the easiest to put in.  It works, but needs a little thingy~ma~jig to make the trim piece stick like it should.   It is the fixture that frustrated me on Monday.  I tell you one thing of me though, I was happy I got those done.   So happy, I called my wife at work to tell her I did it. 

I sometimes can be a lazy and worthless SOB, and when I do good, I am happy with myself.  :) 

Once again there isn't too too much on my mind.   I am thankful I have another year to do stuff.   I am thankful, I am pretty healthy I can run.  My knee isn't perfect, but it isn't horrible.   I don't bend as much at work anymore, and I think that helps. 

I have pretty much been running only 3 milers, but still, one more 3 miler today = 20 miles for the week.  Not too shabby.  Typically I like to stay close to 25 miles/ week, but for my plan this year I am happy with 20.   Gotta stay healthy.   :)

This is day 3 of my 3 days off in a row.  I may be able to snow blow.   We got a little snow.  Not a ton, but maybe enough to snow blow.   :) 

I have an easy dinner planned.   Either spaghetti or tacos.   Probably tacos.   Other than that not too too much going on with me.  I don't mind either.   :)

At this stage of the game, I am happy, and content, and I am pretty okay with things.   My blog is going good, and so am I.  :) 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  crap,   I blogged without making a cup of coffee first.  #fail   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D 

Early Morning Goodness...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I had a good sleep yesterday, and last night.  I am up early, and ready to start my day.  Actually I already started my day, as I have been grocery shopping already.  Today I will be making a pot roast in the slow cooker, and I will get a few things done around the house. 

So what is going on with me.  What is on my mind??  As usual pretty much nothing.   Yesterday was a good day, and I had fun.  I am on day 2 of my 3 day weekend, and I am well rested.   The weather feels mild outside, so it will be a good run I have in a bit. 

Well this kind of sucks.   I have been on a pretty good roll with blogging, but I seriously have nothing on my mind.  

Maybe I will just jot some stuff down that is in my heart.   I can always do that, and usually can find something.   I never know how it will turn out though, so you are warned.  

I feel like this every day pretty much.   A calm sense of ease.   There are stresses to life, but they can be erased in my mind.   My heart is filled with a drug almost that helps make me strong.   Makes me as carefree as humanly possible probably, and it isn't a drug I take.   It is a change in me that happened long ago, and through many steps and many hoops I stand where I am now. 

Having been this way for so long I find it hard to know how you are.   I know some things from memory, but I am open and free, and you are closed, and it is dark inside.   Hard to see you for you, and me, but I can see sometimes with your words.   Some people I can feel on the inside of me.   It is how I can think of any one person at any one time. 

It is a delicate balance being how I am, because people have no idea how it is to be me, and you probably have never seen anyone like this.   It is because there is no one else like this.   Just me.   I am as unique as can be, and there is no way to explain how I am.  

I have explained in ways, but like the whole equation of understanding is, you cannot know me unless you walk in my shoes, and that is pretty next to impossible.  So that is kinda neat and fun. 

Anyway today is a new day.   I have no idea how it will unfold, and what will happen, but that is how all days are I guess.  

I really have nothing too too much on my mind at all, but you know what??   That is okay too.   We are on a pretty good stretch huh??   Things are looking good huh?? 

They are for me,  I know that.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.  almost done with my coffee, so it is almost time to run.   :) 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D  

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  MWAH!!!    :)

What Will Today Bring??

Hello, and good afternoon all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I am at the start of my 3 day weekend. 

Very rarely these days do I give out extra xoxoxo's and stuff like that.  I am not sure the reasons.   As those who have been around awhile know though, I don't have much to offer people.  I cannot shower them with gifts, and stuff like that, but I can and will stop by their blogging doorstep if I know them. 

I don't want to be a nuisance, and I want to treat people with respect, but there is this crazy sense of humor side too that loves to joke around.  People don't always get it.   One thing of me though is if I feel I am a nuisance or annoying I walk.   At this stage of my life I don't need drama.   I am strong on my own, and that says a lot.

Rarely if ever do I give a shout out to people.  

Today that changes.  

I want you all to know a person who has had many names on my blog.  JPH,  Jen, Jenny Parker Harrison, maybe others too.   Who can remember.?  

She is a strong girl.   She has like a zillion friends, and I think she would bend over backwards for most of them.   She is well liked by all the people who know her.   She has no enemies, and I think if the World was made up of people like Jen the problems of the World would probably diminish exponentially.  

She and I have a History that goes way back.   I shared something with her long long ago.   There was something in her she was not able to deal with.   Like the dude who lost his wife of a million years.   I have no idea what it was, but it is a connection that binds us.  

She is married, and has kids.   She coaches, and has a social life.   As with all people as busy as her she has to juggle stuff, and I cannot imagine anyone who juggles the stress of life with more strength, dignity, and grace.  

We will call this Shout out Friday.  

Jen, knows I love her to death, and I think the World of her.   She trusts like no other, and as far as character goes I think she is the full package. 

This is a blog, and it goes in any direction. 

The direction today is JPH. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.  I am having a coffee, and contemplating to run today.   Leaning against it, and maybe go a bit longer tomorrow.   :)   I'll make a nice dinner though.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D