Hello, and good morning. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I didn't sleep as late as I wanted, and that may be because I slept in yesterday. I may be tired at work today, but maybe not too. We'll see.
I am really hungry right now, which is weird, because I am not always terribly hungry when I wake up. I remembered though I forgot to bring my lunch last night at work, and didn't eat a ton when I got home. Also I am not having a cup of coffee, because I may want to nap a bit still.
So, anyway I got the leaves done yesterday. There are still more that have to fall, but the bulk of it is done, with one more round to go, once they fall.
Other than that not too much going on with me. I am back in the work schedule which is good for me. A schedule is good for me. Wanna know why?? Say I took like a weeks vacation. It is too much. I don't do enough productive stuff, and I feel down on myself. Lisa isn't that way, but I am. A schedule is good for me, and so is work. Luckily most of the jobs I ever had were active jobs. Me being on my feet actually doing stuff.
So maybe some silly personal stuff about me. I am sorta anti-social these days. I don't want to go out, and do the same things I have always done. I am content to stay at home when I have time off. I don't know if that is aging, or what. I think of all the things I've ever done throughout my life, and it all seems boring.
About the only thing I want to do is work. Hopefully be healthy and maybe even have my first good running year in several years, and then just hang out at home. I don't particularly want to travel, because there is nothing in the World I feel I want to see.
I don't know if that sounds sad or not. It shouldn't because I am glad about how I feel. I feel content just with how I am. I know typically life is a look over your shoulder, what am I missing type thing, and that is how I am different. I am missing nothing.
Maybe that is a way I am different too. We seek inside ourselves what makes us up. Battle ourselves and stuff, and I can only marvel at how I feel, and how I am the way I am.
Anyway, just a little update. A blog about me. I guess this is what I do. :)
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzz
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Monday, November 3, 2014
This Is Post 1259
So, this is my 1259th post to my blog. Just this one here too. That is almost 4 straight years of blogging. Crazy huh?? I don't know why, but I just thought of that.
Anyway it is Monday, and I have to work tonight. I am kinda glad too, because too much time off for me isn't anything I want really. I am weird that way. I had a good weekend though. I did two little jobs, one on Saturday, and one on Sunday, and that was it. I relaxed a lot, and feel ready to start another week I guess. I was going to run yesterday, but decided against it.
So that is that. My life really is just this simple stuff. Eat, sleep, wake up, relax, etc... I will probably run short til January 1, and then start training for Spring races. Riverbank for sure, and not sure if anything longer or not. We'll see. Right now I am contemplating a Fall Marathon for next year. Once again we will see. Running and staying healthy have not exactly been seeing eye to eye in my World.
So anyway, this blog is a thing. It is a going concern. Something I spent time doing, but mostly just cuz I feel like it. With me people come, and people go, but I still remain. This blog still remains, and it keeps going.
Sometimes it has important stuff in it, and I would imagine maybe more times than not it has important stuff in it. It may not be stuff you want to read or hear, but that is tough. Life has some tough stuff to it, and you cannot hide from it.
There is a truth out there, and I HAVE found it. I know what my life is about. I know who I am, and these types of things. It is good to be me, and actually you have no idea how good it is to be me.
I have a life, and I have a story, and perhaps people are just FINALLY coming to terms with the fact you are not the best a person can be. You have shortcomings, and weaknesses, and stuff like that. We build up our lives with pictures, and things, but I know a lot of what is inside people, and we really are not all that are we??
I think deep down we want to live a life that matters, but there only is one way for that. I have gone on and on about that though, and that is another thing you don't want to believe. Pretty funny my life went in a direction it did. My life was set aside to find the truth, and answers, and things like that. I went through a number of things to find the answers, and when it came time to tell people they didn't believe me.
My whole life was for this, and the people spit it back in my face. Crazy huh??
What do I think about it?? Well, I am here for a purpose, and what needs to get done will get done. I just don't know how it will happen, but it will. People have to go through some tough stuff, because hearts are hard, and the flesh is weak, and the World entices, and everything.
There are so many things that need to be done, and we barely even begun. We haven't even made one minor step, and already people are falling away. That to me is pretty nutty too.
Anyway, not much really going on other than that. I have to do the leaves today, because I didn't do them this weekend, but even so, I liked this weekend. It was pretty good.
Sooo, anyway just getting some stuff down.
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
xoxoxoxo MWAH!!! :)
Anyway it is Monday, and I have to work tonight. I am kinda glad too, because too much time off for me isn't anything I want really. I am weird that way. I had a good weekend though. I did two little jobs, one on Saturday, and one on Sunday, and that was it. I relaxed a lot, and feel ready to start another week I guess. I was going to run yesterday, but decided against it.
So that is that. My life really is just this simple stuff. Eat, sleep, wake up, relax, etc... I will probably run short til January 1, and then start training for Spring races. Riverbank for sure, and not sure if anything longer or not. We'll see. Right now I am contemplating a Fall Marathon for next year. Once again we will see. Running and staying healthy have not exactly been seeing eye to eye in my World.
So anyway, this blog is a thing. It is a going concern. Something I spent time doing, but mostly just cuz I feel like it. With me people come, and people go, but I still remain. This blog still remains, and it keeps going.
Sometimes it has important stuff in it, and I would imagine maybe more times than not it has important stuff in it. It may not be stuff you want to read or hear, but that is tough. Life has some tough stuff to it, and you cannot hide from it.
There is a truth out there, and I HAVE found it. I know what my life is about. I know who I am, and these types of things. It is good to be me, and actually you have no idea how good it is to be me.
I have a life, and I have a story, and perhaps people are just FINALLY coming to terms with the fact you are not the best a person can be. You have shortcomings, and weaknesses, and stuff like that. We build up our lives with pictures, and things, but I know a lot of what is inside people, and we really are not all that are we??
I think deep down we want to live a life that matters, but there only is one way for that. I have gone on and on about that though, and that is another thing you don't want to believe. Pretty funny my life went in a direction it did. My life was set aside to find the truth, and answers, and things like that. I went through a number of things to find the answers, and when it came time to tell people they didn't believe me.
My whole life was for this, and the people spit it back in my face. Crazy huh??
What do I think about it?? Well, I am here for a purpose, and what needs to get done will get done. I just don't know how it will happen, but it will. People have to go through some tough stuff, because hearts are hard, and the flesh is weak, and the World entices, and everything.
There are so many things that need to be done, and we barely even begun. We haven't even made one minor step, and already people are falling away. That to me is pretty nutty too.
Anyway, not much really going on other than that. I have to do the leaves today, because I didn't do them this weekend, but even so, I liked this weekend. It was pretty good.
Sooo, anyway just getting some stuff down.
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
xoxoxoxo MWAH!!! :)
Friday, October 31, 2014
In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter...
Remember that song?? Do you ever consider the things we read, and the things we pay attention to, the things we place importance in?? None of these things matter. The writers aren't changing the world. Your hobbies aren't either. Our professions aren't changing things, and nothing we do will change things. Maybe the song could be changed to in the end we don't even matter.
Sadly that is the truth, although I don't feel sad about it. Been done already dealt with that. So if all the things don't matter what is one to do??
Ehhhh, that has been done to death, I am going to make some coffee. I will brb. I have no idea what to write about today, but perhaps I'll think of something, or just delete this. :) It happens.
Anyway, my stretch of multiple job days is done. Today, I just have to work a typical 8 hour day. I was so excited for all the time, I came home from work last night, and had a night cap. I had enough for 2 small drinks, and drank 1-1/2. Don't ask me why. I was celebrating a pretty good 3 day stretch of work, and life really.
Next week I picked up an extra shift too, so I will be working 8 hours on Monday. It will be another big work week, but that is fine with me. As long as I can sleep like I have been it shouldn't be a biggie. I slept good again today too. I slept til like 1:30.
So anyway all the minutiae of life. Work, eat, this and that. Family stuff to do, my favorite t.v. shows are on. Doctor appointments, Dentist appointments. So much horrible stupid bullshit in one day, how do you people survive??
Pay bills, file, invoices, keep track of your finances. Plan for the unknown future, like you can read the tea leaves. At some point it all is just Bullshit isn't it?? Hopefully it doesn't take an illness or something for you to realize you spend quite a lot of time doing shit that Society has placed on us. The people got together, and in trying to make a better and more fair World, just pulled the noose tighter, and made it stronger. Escaping it is next to impossible.
No wonder everyone is always looking for an escape. Big long training expeditions, drugs, alcohol, books. Something to just get out from under the weight of it all huh??
Then the pressure to make it look like you got everything under control. The World is yours, and you have rocked this life thing.
Life is stupid and hard enough as it is. Add kids into the mix, and SHEESH!!
I kinda know what the dark side of life looks like. It is the last thing people want to show, because it isn't allowed really is it?? Our corporate overlords demand damn near perfection right?? It is why Corporate people wear suits and stuff. Nothing real about them. Nothing real about their advertising, and what they believe in is image. Not the TRUTH, image. It is what they sell.
Deny your personality, and your life, and succumb to our bylaws and PRETEND you live a certain way.
The way of the World is not the way of truth. The way of Corporations is not the way to a better us. People should be mad, because the systems in place make our life harder and more miserable than it need be.
1984, hell yeah. There have always been systems in place though that made life hard. Religions, and Feudal Systems, and Monarchies and such. We were never free. Even during Revolutions the power was handed over to someone lacking perfection.
The perfect life and the perfect World is out of the reach of Humans, because we suck. Doncha get it??
This ain't paradise, and it isn't anywhere near.
At the end of the day the best you can hope for is to have a happy heart, and even that isn't in your power.
It is a bad and evil World. The systems in place are bad, and everyone wants their piece of the pie, but no one is content. Why?? Our hearts are not made that way.
Anyway. Happy Friday. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. My knee has been kinda bugging me lately, but I will probably get a bit of a run in. Been keeping it to little 3 milers, just to play it safe.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Sadly that is the truth, although I don't feel sad about it. Been done already dealt with that. So if all the things don't matter what is one to do??
Ehhhh, that has been done to death, I am going to make some coffee. I will brb. I have no idea what to write about today, but perhaps I'll think of something, or just delete this. :) It happens.
Anyway, my stretch of multiple job days is done. Today, I just have to work a typical 8 hour day. I was so excited for all the time, I came home from work last night, and had a night cap. I had enough for 2 small drinks, and drank 1-1/2. Don't ask me why. I was celebrating a pretty good 3 day stretch of work, and life really.
Next week I picked up an extra shift too, so I will be working 8 hours on Monday. It will be another big work week, but that is fine with me. As long as I can sleep like I have been it shouldn't be a biggie. I slept good again today too. I slept til like 1:30.
So anyway all the minutiae of life. Work, eat, this and that. Family stuff to do, my favorite t.v. shows are on. Doctor appointments, Dentist appointments. So much horrible stupid bullshit in one day, how do you people survive??
Pay bills, file, invoices, keep track of your finances. Plan for the unknown future, like you can read the tea leaves. At some point it all is just Bullshit isn't it?? Hopefully it doesn't take an illness or something for you to realize you spend quite a lot of time doing shit that Society has placed on us. The people got together, and in trying to make a better and more fair World, just pulled the noose tighter, and made it stronger. Escaping it is next to impossible.
No wonder everyone is always looking for an escape. Big long training expeditions, drugs, alcohol, books. Something to just get out from under the weight of it all huh??
Then the pressure to make it look like you got everything under control. The World is yours, and you have rocked this life thing.
Life is stupid and hard enough as it is. Add kids into the mix, and SHEESH!!
I kinda know what the dark side of life looks like. It is the last thing people want to show, because it isn't allowed really is it?? Our corporate overlords demand damn near perfection right?? It is why Corporate people wear suits and stuff. Nothing real about them. Nothing real about their advertising, and what they believe in is image. Not the TRUTH, image. It is what they sell.
Deny your personality, and your life, and succumb to our bylaws and PRETEND you live a certain way.
The way of the World is not the way of truth. The way of Corporations is not the way to a better us. People should be mad, because the systems in place make our life harder and more miserable than it need be.
1984, hell yeah. There have always been systems in place though that made life hard. Religions, and Feudal Systems, and Monarchies and such. We were never free. Even during Revolutions the power was handed over to someone lacking perfection.
The perfect life and the perfect World is out of the reach of Humans, because we suck. Doncha get it??
This ain't paradise, and it isn't anywhere near.
At the end of the day the best you can hope for is to have a happy heart, and even that isn't in your power.
It is a bad and evil World. The systems in place are bad, and everyone wants their piece of the pie, but no one is content. Why?? Our hearts are not made that way.
Anyway. Happy Friday. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. My knee has been kinda bugging me lately, but I will probably get a bit of a run in. Been keeping it to little 3 milers, just to play it safe.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Thursday, October 30, 2014
My Laptop Is Kinda Bonky...
Hello, and good afternoon all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept pretty good again, and slept til 12:30. I don't have to be at work til 5:00, and the coffee is on. :)
Anyway I don't really have a ton on my mind at all. Pretty much nothing, but that doesn't always stop me, so I'll get my coffee, and see what comes out. Hold on...
Okay I am back, so what is going on with me?? Since yesterday nothing. I worked, and that went pretty well. I got a lot done. I guess that is one thing about me. What I do in this World for my job isn't important in the grand scheme of things, but many times I enjoy putting forth effort in what I do.
Now as to what is important in the grand scheme of things, I would argue nothing much, because the truth of life = that is one of the lessons people need to learn.
I mean really let's take a look. Politicians wear suits, and smile, and shake hands with people, and kiss babies and what not, but who are these people?? Tell me that isn't a show. Actors on stage playing nice.
Rocket Scientists sitting in their cubicles. Wanting to be the next great Physicist, but pretty much they will live a life the same as many others. Maybe even sometime waking up to go to work wondering what the Hell He/She is doing.
It is a crazy thing this thing called life, because it seems so big, and we seem so important, and there must be all these great things to do. It *seems* we should get married and have kids, and yadda yadda yadda, but the truth of this here life is hidden for whatever reasons.
Throughout the ages Religions were definitely a major power and shaper of Society. They had their leaders dress up in silly costumes. Who the Hell thought that up?? Wearing a silly costume makes you *look* like you are above reproach huh??
People never really had a chance. Society has always overpowered people. The simplest statement ever = "the truth will set you free" Not so easy as it appears though huh??
What is the truth?? The truth is a crazy crazy thing. The path one has to make is waaayyyyyy different than you think. People are of this World, and it takes a lot to open up people's eyes. The World will tell you that you are special. You have gifts, and you should do this and that, and the truth will tell you, maybe you are not as good as you should, and could be.
Inside your heart is already placed what is needed, but you don't like that small voice in there. It speaks of things contrary to what I've believed all these years. It is scary, because I sorta feel secure believing the things that fall short, I've always believed in.
Your beliefs about life and everything come from all kindsa things. All kindsa things that are from this World, and are all trapped in the same old crap. The scary silent voice that brings doubt and stuff into you, tries to teach you things that are not part of this World.
Who has the courage to question their whole life and being??
That is probably the biggest failure of people. The strings can be pulled, and a look at life can be done, but to listen to that little voice trying to help you along in the way, is just too much.
You can see you though, and you must know there has to be something else, and a better way, because people aren't getting any better are they??
The stories make everything seem so easy, and the teachers have made us all stop far short from our search. I stopped far short of my search way back as a kid too, and it took a lot of life for me to look farther.
A lot of ups, and downs, and some deaths, and a willingness to be the kinda person I wanted to be. You would think perhaps I was someone special to come all this way, and do what I do, but I know me, and the truth of me. I am not special. I am not someone who is above anyone else. I know I am lucky to have the path I have. I am lucky to have had a good set of ears, and eyes when I needed them.
I have come so long, and so many miles from the days when this whole thing started. Even just blogging too. You know it was quite a different blog way back when, but somewhere it made a turn, and I bet it is the way it is, because it probably helps people open their eyes.
As you can see it takes a lot for people to open their eyes, and seek out something better than what we have believed all these years.
It is simple and makes sense though huh?? If everything is possible, than why are we still the same people just getting older?
There are steps that need to be made, and probably the biggest one is you overcoming your Worldly desire, and trust when you are pulled to go in a better way.
It could be simpler of course if your heart was different, but that is how it goes. You were always going to have to overcome yourself, because... well I don't really know.
We all carry a lot of Worldly baggage though. Things handed down for Generations, and Society, and Parents, and Peer Pressure, and everything that makes us weak.
We want to live a life that matters, but you won't find it in any of those things. A life that matters involves a turn. A turn from your old ways, and a willingness to find something new and better.
Anyhooooodles, I am rambling.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I think I will finish my coffee, and get a bit of a run in. :) fun fun.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Anyway I don't really have a ton on my mind at all. Pretty much nothing, but that doesn't always stop me, so I'll get my coffee, and see what comes out. Hold on...
Okay I am back, so what is going on with me?? Since yesterday nothing. I worked, and that went pretty well. I got a lot done. I guess that is one thing about me. What I do in this World for my job isn't important in the grand scheme of things, but many times I enjoy putting forth effort in what I do.
Now as to what is important in the grand scheme of things, I would argue nothing much, because the truth of life = that is one of the lessons people need to learn.
I mean really let's take a look. Politicians wear suits, and smile, and shake hands with people, and kiss babies and what not, but who are these people?? Tell me that isn't a show. Actors on stage playing nice.
Rocket Scientists sitting in their cubicles. Wanting to be the next great Physicist, but pretty much they will live a life the same as many others. Maybe even sometime waking up to go to work wondering what the Hell He/She is doing.
It is a crazy thing this thing called life, because it seems so big, and we seem so important, and there must be all these great things to do. It *seems* we should get married and have kids, and yadda yadda yadda, but the truth of this here life is hidden for whatever reasons.
Throughout the ages Religions were definitely a major power and shaper of Society. They had their leaders dress up in silly costumes. Who the Hell thought that up?? Wearing a silly costume makes you *look* like you are above reproach huh??
People never really had a chance. Society has always overpowered people. The simplest statement ever = "the truth will set you free" Not so easy as it appears though huh??
What is the truth?? The truth is a crazy crazy thing. The path one has to make is waaayyyyyy different than you think. People are of this World, and it takes a lot to open up people's eyes. The World will tell you that you are special. You have gifts, and you should do this and that, and the truth will tell you, maybe you are not as good as you should, and could be.
Inside your heart is already placed what is needed, but you don't like that small voice in there. It speaks of things contrary to what I've believed all these years. It is scary, because I sorta feel secure believing the things that fall short, I've always believed in.
Your beliefs about life and everything come from all kindsa things. All kindsa things that are from this World, and are all trapped in the same old crap. The scary silent voice that brings doubt and stuff into you, tries to teach you things that are not part of this World.
Who has the courage to question their whole life and being??
That is probably the biggest failure of people. The strings can be pulled, and a look at life can be done, but to listen to that little voice trying to help you along in the way, is just too much.
You can see you though, and you must know there has to be something else, and a better way, because people aren't getting any better are they??
The stories make everything seem so easy, and the teachers have made us all stop far short from our search. I stopped far short of my search way back as a kid too, and it took a lot of life for me to look farther.
A lot of ups, and downs, and some deaths, and a willingness to be the kinda person I wanted to be. You would think perhaps I was someone special to come all this way, and do what I do, but I know me, and the truth of me. I am not special. I am not someone who is above anyone else. I know I am lucky to have the path I have. I am lucky to have had a good set of ears, and eyes when I needed them.
I have come so long, and so many miles from the days when this whole thing started. Even just blogging too. You know it was quite a different blog way back when, but somewhere it made a turn, and I bet it is the way it is, because it probably helps people open their eyes.
As you can see it takes a lot for people to open their eyes, and seek out something better than what we have believed all these years.
It is simple and makes sense though huh?? If everything is possible, than why are we still the same people just getting older?
There are steps that need to be made, and probably the biggest one is you overcoming your Worldly desire, and trust when you are pulled to go in a better way.
It could be simpler of course if your heart was different, but that is how it goes. You were always going to have to overcome yourself, because... well I don't really know.
We all carry a lot of Worldly baggage though. Things handed down for Generations, and Society, and Parents, and Peer Pressure, and everything that makes us weak.
We want to live a life that matters, but you won't find it in any of those things. A life that matters involves a turn. A turn from your old ways, and a willingness to find something new and better.
Anyhooooodles, I am rambling.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I think I will finish my coffee, and get a bit of a run in. :) fun fun.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
If I Were To Plan A Perfect Morning...
Hello, and good afternoon all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I have a pretty simple title, because the most important thing to me today is I got a lot of sleep this morning. I usually get home a little after 4:00AM in the morning, and if I can get a lot of sleep I am happy. Lisa leaves work around 9:00AM, so I will be woken up between the 8:00-9:00 AM hours, and I just hope to sleep for at least another hour or so after that. Today I was in between, and the cat laid on my chest, and I was able to sleep all the way til now. That is good, because I have a busy day with work. My Tue-Wed-Thurs are pretty busy days as I've discussed in a previous update, but I am happy with that. I'd call it one of the better routines I have had in a long time.
The only thing is I won't have enough time for a run, because I slept too much, but that is okay. Talking to one of the guys at work yesterday it sounds like I will soon have a more normal'ish schedule though. M-F just 8 hour shifts, and my little grocery thing I do on Wed. and Saturday. We shall see.
Anyway, what has been going on with me?? Not really much. My BIL was in town so we did stuff on Sunday, and went to lunch on Monday. My current schedule has Lisa and I off Sunday and Monday. Actually all I will do on Saturday is work 4 hours at the grocery store, so I basically have a 3 day weekend every weekend. I have to work a couple hours on Sunday too, but I can do that in the morning and get it done with.
So yeah as you can see my life is just as stupid and boring as everyone elses. :) I have things to say, and I have said them, but I don't really feel like saying them today. My heart is at ease, and I have coffee, and I will work for 4 hours, and come home and chill for an hour or so, and then work an 8 hour shift. Then on Thursday I won't have to work til 5:00 PM.
So anyway the way my blog works and I work is no secret. My blog got messed up a bit a while ago, but usually it gets repaired. I have no time limit, because of the name of my blog. Time is on my side, and I don't really have to do anything. I have a history with my blog, and it tells a story, and typically things get fixed if it was meant to be. Usually when things get messed up then people have some more to do.
One thing about me is really what I have said all along. One of the most important things out there is trust. I need to trust what I read, because to get to the good stuff, I need to read the good stuff. I'd say mostly the good stuff is just how imperfect our lives are, and what a confusing thing life is in general. There are no perfect lives, and no path one can take to have a perfect life. Life is full of ups and downs, and the downs say as much about us OR MORE than the ups.
Human nature is such a way though we want to show people we are winning life. We nailed it, and all that stuff, and I can guarantee you, you haven't. You have not won life, and you aren't winning it, and you are not going to.
Our lives are a seemingly an endless string of personal failures. We don't live up to our own standards, and the best a person can be is completely out of our grasp. We cling to the acceptance of others, and at the end of the day that matters none. There are no points to what others think, although if we are respected perhaps it makes us feel good, but not totally huh?? Even something as simple as that is striving after the wind, because it never ever really is enough is it??
Anyway, I guess I am just thinking out loud so to speak.
I am going to finish my coffee, and get ready for work. Is there anything better than that cup of coffee when you first wake up?? Especially if you got a very good amount of sleep. I don't think so either.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Yesterday I got to run, and it was 60, and sunny. Don't foresee too many of those left. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
The only thing is I won't have enough time for a run, because I slept too much, but that is okay. Talking to one of the guys at work yesterday it sounds like I will soon have a more normal'ish schedule though. M-F just 8 hour shifts, and my little grocery thing I do on Wed. and Saturday. We shall see.
Anyway, what has been going on with me?? Not really much. My BIL was in town so we did stuff on Sunday, and went to lunch on Monday. My current schedule has Lisa and I off Sunday and Monday. Actually all I will do on Saturday is work 4 hours at the grocery store, so I basically have a 3 day weekend every weekend. I have to work a couple hours on Sunday too, but I can do that in the morning and get it done with.
So yeah as you can see my life is just as stupid and boring as everyone elses. :) I have things to say, and I have said them, but I don't really feel like saying them today. My heart is at ease, and I have coffee, and I will work for 4 hours, and come home and chill for an hour or so, and then work an 8 hour shift. Then on Thursday I won't have to work til 5:00 PM.
So anyway the way my blog works and I work is no secret. My blog got messed up a bit a while ago, but usually it gets repaired. I have no time limit, because of the name of my blog. Time is on my side, and I don't really have to do anything. I have a history with my blog, and it tells a story, and typically things get fixed if it was meant to be. Usually when things get messed up then people have some more to do.
One thing about me is really what I have said all along. One of the most important things out there is trust. I need to trust what I read, because to get to the good stuff, I need to read the good stuff. I'd say mostly the good stuff is just how imperfect our lives are, and what a confusing thing life is in general. There are no perfect lives, and no path one can take to have a perfect life. Life is full of ups and downs, and the downs say as much about us OR MORE than the ups.
Human nature is such a way though we want to show people we are winning life. We nailed it, and all that stuff, and I can guarantee you, you haven't. You have not won life, and you aren't winning it, and you are not going to.
Our lives are a seemingly an endless string of personal failures. We don't live up to our own standards, and the best a person can be is completely out of our grasp. We cling to the acceptance of others, and at the end of the day that matters none. There are no points to what others think, although if we are respected perhaps it makes us feel good, but not totally huh?? Even something as simple as that is striving after the wind, because it never ever really is enough is it??
Anyway, I guess I am just thinking out loud so to speak.
I am going to finish my coffee, and get ready for work. Is there anything better than that cup of coffee when you first wake up?? Especially if you got a very good amount of sleep. I don't think so either.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Yesterday I got to run, and it was 60, and sunny. Don't foresee too many of those left. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
The World, This Life, and Everything.
Hello, and good morning all. How's it going?? Me, I guess I am doing okay. I have a big day of relaxing planned until I start work at 5:00. I do two jobs today, but from the same employer. Tomorrow I do 3 jobs from 2 different employers. Fun Fun. :)
Anyway what is going on with me?? Not much. I have a flute, and I play sad tunes with it. It is this blog. The crazy story of me is really really nutty. You are expected to believe that little old me found his way, and I am a teacher of the truth in a World full of false teachers.
Why would you believe me?? For one I told you what the sword is I guess, and what it is worth without understanding. I've used the sword sparingly for this reason. I don't play a part of any sort. You won't catch me wearing a suit to look good for the crowd, or you won't catch me wearing a silly costume to stand out from the crowd. As a matter of fact I am not even a part of any crowd.
You have this blog here, and it has been around a long time.
You would think it is worth something huh?? It isn't really, because our lives really aren't worth anything. A big whole World out there, and you would think there would be something worthwhile huh??
There were those 6 days way back when that in one instant changed my life forever. Nothing was the same again. I wasn't the same, and I got slapped across the face with the truth of life. No warning or nothing, just suffering. No one to tell, and no one to share it with.
This guy here was set aside for a solo journey. Am I the only one?? Those were questions that kinda went through my mind, and I didn't need to know the answers probably, and not sure if I even cared. It is my job to do some things in this life, and I have done them. I followed this path of life, and really just did what came my way. In spite of myself stuff got done I guess. Who am I really to be of any significance?? No one.
My life has been used for a purpose though. Not of my choosing, and not of my plan. It just happens I went and did other stuff too. Anyways I sit in this great spot now. I have great promises, and I have been given strength, and what once was my biggest weakness probably is now my greatest strength. I am solo. I am tied to no one, and I need no one.
People need a lot of help, and I cannot really give it. I am standing on point B, and have been for a while, and you are standing on point A, and cannot make the leap.
A lot needs to be done, and it isn't me who can do anything really. You have a lot to figure out, and you are nowhere near figuring it out. You are tied to this World, and tied to your lives. In no way free to be who you are, because freedom is nowhere to be found. You have to live up to certain Societal obligations.
Anyway I am approaching 50, and the thing I keep thinking is life is pretty gross. How are our eyes so clouded from the truth to think the existence of us is anything but?? The human is one gross creature. How could we not think otherwise??
In a life of zero points how is one to get some?? Not within your power. All the things that need to be done cannot be done by you. Probably the best lie the World ever told was saying we were special. Unique, and these kinds of things. The truth is far from that. We are not special. We are not deserving of anything. All the effort you put into whatever doesn't mean much.
It is a silly silly life, and it isn't important. Even mine is really silly. It just happens I've been singled out to do important stuff. Not a big deal. I know the worth of me without the things I have done. Nothing. I guess the World never lured me, because just the way my life played out I guess.
Anyhooooodles. I have a big day of relaxing like I said. A big 3 day stretch of work, so I will need my zzzzzzzs. :)
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Anyway what is going on with me?? Not much. I have a flute, and I play sad tunes with it. It is this blog. The crazy story of me is really really nutty. You are expected to believe that little old me found his way, and I am a teacher of the truth in a World full of false teachers.
Why would you believe me?? For one I told you what the sword is I guess, and what it is worth without understanding. I've used the sword sparingly for this reason. I don't play a part of any sort. You won't catch me wearing a suit to look good for the crowd, or you won't catch me wearing a silly costume to stand out from the crowd. As a matter of fact I am not even a part of any crowd.
You have this blog here, and it has been around a long time.
You would think it is worth something huh?? It isn't really, because our lives really aren't worth anything. A big whole World out there, and you would think there would be something worthwhile huh??
There were those 6 days way back when that in one instant changed my life forever. Nothing was the same again. I wasn't the same, and I got slapped across the face with the truth of life. No warning or nothing, just suffering. No one to tell, and no one to share it with.
This guy here was set aside for a solo journey. Am I the only one?? Those were questions that kinda went through my mind, and I didn't need to know the answers probably, and not sure if I even cared. It is my job to do some things in this life, and I have done them. I followed this path of life, and really just did what came my way. In spite of myself stuff got done I guess. Who am I really to be of any significance?? No one.
My life has been used for a purpose though. Not of my choosing, and not of my plan. It just happens I went and did other stuff too. Anyways I sit in this great spot now. I have great promises, and I have been given strength, and what once was my biggest weakness probably is now my greatest strength. I am solo. I am tied to no one, and I need no one.
People need a lot of help, and I cannot really give it. I am standing on point B, and have been for a while, and you are standing on point A, and cannot make the leap.
A lot needs to be done, and it isn't me who can do anything really. You have a lot to figure out, and you are nowhere near figuring it out. You are tied to this World, and tied to your lives. In no way free to be who you are, because freedom is nowhere to be found. You have to live up to certain Societal obligations.
Anyway I am approaching 50, and the thing I keep thinking is life is pretty gross. How are our eyes so clouded from the truth to think the existence of us is anything but?? The human is one gross creature. How could we not think otherwise??
In a life of zero points how is one to get some?? Not within your power. All the things that need to be done cannot be done by you. Probably the best lie the World ever told was saying we were special. Unique, and these kinds of things. The truth is far from that. We are not special. We are not deserving of anything. All the effort you put into whatever doesn't mean much.
It is a silly silly life, and it isn't important. Even mine is really silly. It just happens I've been singled out to do important stuff. Not a big deal. I know the worth of me without the things I have done. Nothing. I guess the World never lured me, because just the way my life played out I guess.
Anyhooooodles. I have a big day of relaxing like I said. A big 3 day stretch of work, so I will need my zzzzzzzs. :)
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Monday, October 27, 2014
Who Are We?? What Are We??
Hello, and good morning all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I woke up from a strange dream this morning. Me, and my brothers took some kind of shot, and probably some other people. It was supposed to make us go on some type of hallucinogenic trip of some sort, and help enlighten us. WEIRD.
Anyway, I think of myself, and who I am, and I am really not a great person at all. You would think for who I am, and what I have to do I'd be a much better person huh?? I mean I am not horrible or anything. I don't kill people, and my job doesn't screw over poor people, and make money doing stupid shit, but I ain't perfect. I don't pretend to be. I don't work for it, and I don't try to do the impossible.
Being perfect is not in your power. Nothing you can do to make yourself perfect, so what would you show?? Some comic version of some grand life huh?? I do this and this, and my life is this and that, and who are you on the inside?? What are you filled with??
It is a hard thing for you to see, because it is very dark inside you. It is a way I am different than you. I am very light on the inside. All of me can be seen, and I am not afraid of it. Most of you cannot be seen, and it really isn't possible for you to live in the light in your current condition.
I was once like you, and I know what it is like. In my younger years when I found myself to be alone the only thing I wanted was to be good. I wanted to be the best person ever, and I decided to work for it. It was what my heart seeked, and I guess I found the way, and it sure isn't what I expected.
For you to go from point A to point B is very simple. You cannot do it though, because your life is too important. Too many things to do, and as time goes on I realize I cannot help you, and this is not going at all like I imagined.
Many are falling away, and that to me is ludicrous.
To what gain??
What on Earth is any of this life worth??
Ive seen social networking, and I know what a life is worth. Not much. It is just a path to the grave, and we fill it with hate, and judging, and comic book versions of some type of paradise, and there is death, and fights, and wars, and you name it.
This is the good stuff though huh?? Living a life where we are full of dark, and just putting in our time til we are 6' under??
I don't get it.
Anyway, I think of myself, and who I am, and I am really not a great person at all. You would think for who I am, and what I have to do I'd be a much better person huh?? I mean I am not horrible or anything. I don't kill people, and my job doesn't screw over poor people, and make money doing stupid shit, but I ain't perfect. I don't pretend to be. I don't work for it, and I don't try to do the impossible.
Being perfect is not in your power. Nothing you can do to make yourself perfect, so what would you show?? Some comic version of some grand life huh?? I do this and this, and my life is this and that, and who are you on the inside?? What are you filled with??
It is a hard thing for you to see, because it is very dark inside you. It is a way I am different than you. I am very light on the inside. All of me can be seen, and I am not afraid of it. Most of you cannot be seen, and it really isn't possible for you to live in the light in your current condition.
I was once like you, and I know what it is like. In my younger years when I found myself to be alone the only thing I wanted was to be good. I wanted to be the best person ever, and I decided to work for it. It was what my heart seeked, and I guess I found the way, and it sure isn't what I expected.
For you to go from point A to point B is very simple. You cannot do it though, because your life is too important. Too many things to do, and as time goes on I realize I cannot help you, and this is not going at all like I imagined.
Many are falling away, and that to me is ludicrous.
To what gain??
What on Earth is any of this life worth??
Ive seen social networking, and I know what a life is worth. Not much. It is just a path to the grave, and we fill it with hate, and judging, and comic book versions of some type of paradise, and there is death, and fights, and wars, and you name it.
This is the good stuff though huh?? Living a life where we are full of dark, and just putting in our time til we are 6' under??
I don't get it.
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