Hello, and good morning. How's it going?? Me, I am so so. There are a lot of things out in the World, and none of it is really any good. None of it means anything. There is no significance to all the efforts put out there. You won't make the World a better place. You won't make any difference to anything at all, and that is hard for you to accept. It is the truth, and the truth like I said soooo many times, and for soooo many YEARS is the hardest thing YOU will ever do.
You gotta hold on though don't you. You gotta hold onto the World, because it is all YOU know. Your life has to mean something right?? There has to be some good right?? This shit is for a reason right??
Well, unfortunately all life is pretty pointless. A mass mixture of various types of suffering, and selfish deeds, and infinite justifications, and false beliefs, and false truths, and all kindsa crap like that. I mean if you could boil life down to one thing, wouldn't you want to make YOU the best person you could be??
What would you do?? Go out and make a lot of $$$?? Put forth effort so much you throw up all over the place, because throwing up is your bodies way of telling you that you are doing healthy stuff right??
Somehow someway you want to prove that you matter huh?? Your life matters. You are smart, and you know how to make this World a better place, and you hold onto false truths, and false paths, because anything else is scary right??
Isn't that what trust is all about???
What answers do you have?? What path are you taking that is going to make you the best a person can be??
You don't want any of that do you. You want you, and you want this World, and you want to see what type of mark YOU can make no matter the consequences??
The worst that is inside us is the parts that have the answers. The parts that "know" our direction and our destination. The parts that "think" we must be fabulous somehow. The worst that is inside us is Everything. Why?? We all are one big lie. We don't recognize all the bad stuff inside us, but always trying to show our self-perceived good side, with our infinite ability to justify damn near anything.
I ask and ask and ask, when are you going to be strong enough to overcome you?? When will you see your life for how it really is??
When will you finally agree I am not the best a person can be, and really I wouldn't even know how to achieve that??
When will you finally in all your weakness become strong??
That is what I'd like to know. I really don't want to read about the other B.S. It is all false and lies, and worthless.
Truth is a bitch like I said, and none want to look at it, or accept it. Really the truth seemingly is about the last thing you want to deal with. You would rather hold onto some type of false fabulous crap.
blah!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Sunday, April 6, 2014
What Is In A Life??
Hello, and good morning all. How's it going?? Me, I guess I am doing okay. My day yesterday was out of whack. I didn't sleep enough after work. I wanted to make Lisa a nice dinner to celebrate her new job. I made ribs. I had some wine and fell asleep early. That is the problem with not getting enough sleep. I know I'll be sleeping early. I guess it is okay, because I wasn't going to do anything anyway.
So what is in a life?? To where I am now I get frustrated easy I think. There isn't much in a life, and that is a hard thing to accept really. I mean it is a big World out there, and there is a lot of color, and there are trees, and things, and flowers, and blue skies, and blue water, and green grass.
You would think there is something good out there huh, with all that out there. Throughout all of History people had to make a decision. Do what felt right in their heart, or do whatever the people in charge wanted us to do. That is what life a lot of times boils down to. A choice. Many times we trust the people in charge too, but they are just people. As imperfect as you and me. Motives are not always clear. Society is an imperfect entity. It is here really to ensnare and enslave us basically. Do this, and do that. Our Corporate overlords put fear into their employees. As an hourly person it really has no bearing on anything, but to those in charge. In management positions they typically will side with their corporate overlords, as opposed to what is decent and right. Enslaved to their jobs. Why?? You lose your job you lose your house, and stuff right??
People really should never use the word freedom in any sense, because that is the last thing you have. Nope, you have to go out and as much as possible make sure all your i's are dotted, and t's are crossed, because what may happen.
So, as I say what is in a life?? Well, death is a certainty. You won't escape that. Death is hard for us to see though. We have our life, and why do we think we will live forever??
I've gone on and on with this here blog. It, and a couple others have been around for years. What is in a life?? Let's look at mine. There is nothing here. I grew up. It was mostly a normal'ish life with all kinds of imperfections. A little boy growing up, and trying to do what was right. As a young man I had to learn the balance between work and play. So I did all that Society asked of me, and my life made a big turn. So I go on and do this crazy stuff that no one saw but me, and the maker of my path. I survive the night of the Hospital only to suffer a bit more, until the energy came back. My work was done. I knew I had other stuff to do, but it was going to be later. I didn't know it was going to be like 17 years later.
So anyway I start up Heimleblog and I was heavy into training. I swam 3-4 times/week only to have such bad form I am guessing I cannot swim anymore. I rode my bike a lot, and was always training for distance. Running Hills, and trails, and wherever and whenever. Always trying to stay healthy.
Anyway I ran a few marathons, and had a living trail of my endeavors with my blogs. My life wasn't always easy, as I had to suffer some stuff along the way. Take stuff from others. Sometimes I even took the worst parts of others, and I think that was so they could get a clearer picture of their life. Our demons inside us hide real life from us. It often takes serious things like a death to put things in proper perspective.
So anyway I have done all these things, and if this here blog the wait is any indication of anything, it is life doesn't mean anything. We really are not in charge of anything at all. My blog had a purpose, and it meant something, but it fell on deaf ears. No one would listen, and no one would pay attention, even though I put a lot of time into it. I am not really all that mad about it, because Most days I felt like doing it. These days I wake up, and many times I really don't care.
I don't care about anything I have to write, and I don't care if anyone reads it, because it is a quid pro quo in a way, and so far it has only gone one way.
People have their own lives, and you have to live it, but you will be pulled. Not by me either, because there is a story going on. It isn't your story, and you are not the author of the story. You remain blind though, because you want to hang onto you.
Deep down I think we all want to be happy, and we want to matter, and we want to make a difference. There only is one way for that. Always has been and always will. Oh, I know the History books will paint great pictures of all the great deeds people have done, but History books are painted with false brushes, and false colors. Howard Zinn is closest to the truth, but no one wants to look at the truth. I guess it is too scary. Why?? It means everything we ever believed in is wrong. We have been wrong our whole life.
Yeah, Did that crap a long time ago.
What is in a life?? A lot of imperfection. Most people don't want to show that stuff, because aren't we supposed to be "this type" of person?? Many people only want to try and show the self-perceived attributes that they believe will be respected.
Well truth is respected, and that is what being tough is all about. The truth ain't about being perfect. It is about all the ways we fail in life. You know the stuff we want everyone not to know.
So anyway, I guess this is long winded.
So I will say goodbye for now.
We are going to see a movie. The new Captain America. I am going to take the Hopester for a little run. I am basically just a 3 mile runner here and there. After my runs I typically struggle bending at work later in the night. :) No biggie.
cya.
So what is in a life?? To where I am now I get frustrated easy I think. There isn't much in a life, and that is a hard thing to accept really. I mean it is a big World out there, and there is a lot of color, and there are trees, and things, and flowers, and blue skies, and blue water, and green grass.
You would think there is something good out there huh, with all that out there. Throughout all of History people had to make a decision. Do what felt right in their heart, or do whatever the people in charge wanted us to do. That is what life a lot of times boils down to. A choice. Many times we trust the people in charge too, but they are just people. As imperfect as you and me. Motives are not always clear. Society is an imperfect entity. It is here really to ensnare and enslave us basically. Do this, and do that. Our Corporate overlords put fear into their employees. As an hourly person it really has no bearing on anything, but to those in charge. In management positions they typically will side with their corporate overlords, as opposed to what is decent and right. Enslaved to their jobs. Why?? You lose your job you lose your house, and stuff right??
People really should never use the word freedom in any sense, because that is the last thing you have. Nope, you have to go out and as much as possible make sure all your i's are dotted, and t's are crossed, because what may happen.
So, as I say what is in a life?? Well, death is a certainty. You won't escape that. Death is hard for us to see though. We have our life, and why do we think we will live forever??
I've gone on and on with this here blog. It, and a couple others have been around for years. What is in a life?? Let's look at mine. There is nothing here. I grew up. It was mostly a normal'ish life with all kinds of imperfections. A little boy growing up, and trying to do what was right. As a young man I had to learn the balance between work and play. So I did all that Society asked of me, and my life made a big turn. So I go on and do this crazy stuff that no one saw but me, and the maker of my path. I survive the night of the Hospital only to suffer a bit more, until the energy came back. My work was done. I knew I had other stuff to do, but it was going to be later. I didn't know it was going to be like 17 years later.
So anyway I start up Heimleblog and I was heavy into training. I swam 3-4 times/week only to have such bad form I am guessing I cannot swim anymore. I rode my bike a lot, and was always training for distance. Running Hills, and trails, and wherever and whenever. Always trying to stay healthy.
Anyway I ran a few marathons, and had a living trail of my endeavors with my blogs. My life wasn't always easy, as I had to suffer some stuff along the way. Take stuff from others. Sometimes I even took the worst parts of others, and I think that was so they could get a clearer picture of their life. Our demons inside us hide real life from us. It often takes serious things like a death to put things in proper perspective.
So anyway I have done all these things, and if this here blog the wait is any indication of anything, it is life doesn't mean anything. We really are not in charge of anything at all. My blog had a purpose, and it meant something, but it fell on deaf ears. No one would listen, and no one would pay attention, even though I put a lot of time into it. I am not really all that mad about it, because Most days I felt like doing it. These days I wake up, and many times I really don't care.
I don't care about anything I have to write, and I don't care if anyone reads it, because it is a quid pro quo in a way, and so far it has only gone one way.
People have their own lives, and you have to live it, but you will be pulled. Not by me either, because there is a story going on. It isn't your story, and you are not the author of the story. You remain blind though, because you want to hang onto you.
Deep down I think we all want to be happy, and we want to matter, and we want to make a difference. There only is one way for that. Always has been and always will. Oh, I know the History books will paint great pictures of all the great deeds people have done, but History books are painted with false brushes, and false colors. Howard Zinn is closest to the truth, but no one wants to look at the truth. I guess it is too scary. Why?? It means everything we ever believed in is wrong. We have been wrong our whole life.
Yeah, Did that crap a long time ago.
What is in a life?? A lot of imperfection. Most people don't want to show that stuff, because aren't we supposed to be "this type" of person?? Many people only want to try and show the self-perceived attributes that they believe will be respected.
Well truth is respected, and that is what being tough is all about. The truth ain't about being perfect. It is about all the ways we fail in life. You know the stuff we want everyone not to know.
So anyway, I guess this is long winded.
So I will say goodbye for now.
We are going to see a movie. The new Captain America. I am going to take the Hopester for a little run. I am basically just a 3 mile runner here and there. After my runs I typically struggle bending at work later in the night. :) No biggie.
cya.
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Wow, I Sure Don't Do This Thing Too Much...
Hello, and good morning all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up early today. I needed some time to catch up on my sleep, as I was working a lot. Spent a little time on Opening day to watch baseball instead of napping, and the next day I had to go to court, so I was running on like 4 hours of sleep in 2+ days. Actually I surprisingly felt pretty good. The two hours I slept before working the other night held me over.
So what are some things about me?? Some things about me is life is a crazy thing. People are some of the craziest people you have ever met. They get themselves tied up into various groups. People with similar interests and stuff, and think they must be good. I am a part of this group, so we are cool.
The World is full of groups. As little as the chess club to as big as Society. Not one of them actually mean a damn thing. You don't go to judgement day saying I belonged to such and such group. You will wear no badges of honor. You don't bring your bank statements. You don't bring trophies, or letters of recommendation. Nope, you stand like Adam before the fall. Naked of everything. All your accomplishments, and plaques hanging on the wall saying you are accredited to do this stupid shit mean nothing at all.
So, when you throw all the shit YOU fucking hang onto, what is your life worth?? What part of your life is significant?? What important things have you done??
I am here to tell you nothing. You haven't, and you won't do anything that is important. Oh there are things that need to be done, but you don't know what they are. You cannot do them, because it isn't your story. You are all tied up and wrapped in making your own Goddamned story though aren't you?? You gotta be fucking fabulous somehow right?? In some way you have got to be the shit right??
I am calling B.S. None of us are. We are all a bunch of gross humans, who do more shitting and pissing than anything else really. We sure do wear fabulous clothes though don't we. Doesn't that hide how stupid we all look??
Life does matter, and it is significant, but not in the ways you think. You go out and make a white picket fence it doesn't matter one bit.
I could go on and on, but you people don't get it. You wanna believe in this life, and stuff. I see people like to quote dead people a lot. Why?? What the fuck did that person do?? He is dead, how fucking smart can he be? This World is still a shit hole, what fucking good did that person do?
You all want to make some type of sacrifice to show your worth, and your sacrifices are as meaningless as the shit you do to fill up your time of day.
So when are you going to be strong enough to look at the truth?? When are you going to finally accept the truth?? When do you stop holding on to all that is pointless and worthless?? I ask, because I am getting tired, and bored.
What happens if I get tired and bored of you??
later.
So what are some things about me?? Some things about me is life is a crazy thing. People are some of the craziest people you have ever met. They get themselves tied up into various groups. People with similar interests and stuff, and think they must be good. I am a part of this group, so we are cool.
The World is full of groups. As little as the chess club to as big as Society. Not one of them actually mean a damn thing. You don't go to judgement day saying I belonged to such and such group. You will wear no badges of honor. You don't bring your bank statements. You don't bring trophies, or letters of recommendation. Nope, you stand like Adam before the fall. Naked of everything. All your accomplishments, and plaques hanging on the wall saying you are accredited to do this stupid shit mean nothing at all.
So, when you throw all the shit YOU fucking hang onto, what is your life worth?? What part of your life is significant?? What important things have you done??
I am here to tell you nothing. You haven't, and you won't do anything that is important. Oh there are things that need to be done, but you don't know what they are. You cannot do them, because it isn't your story. You are all tied up and wrapped in making your own Goddamned story though aren't you?? You gotta be fucking fabulous somehow right?? In some way you have got to be the shit right??
I am calling B.S. None of us are. We are all a bunch of gross humans, who do more shitting and pissing than anything else really. We sure do wear fabulous clothes though don't we. Doesn't that hide how stupid we all look??
Life does matter, and it is significant, but not in the ways you think. You go out and make a white picket fence it doesn't matter one bit.
I could go on and on, but you people don't get it. You wanna believe in this life, and stuff. I see people like to quote dead people a lot. Why?? What the fuck did that person do?? He is dead, how fucking smart can he be? This World is still a shit hole, what fucking good did that person do?
You all want to make some type of sacrifice to show your worth, and your sacrifices are as meaningless as the shit you do to fill up your time of day.
So when are you going to be strong enough to look at the truth?? When are you going to finally accept the truth?? When do you stop holding on to all that is pointless and worthless?? I ask, because I am getting tired, and bored.
What happens if I get tired and bored of you??
later.
Thursday, March 27, 2014
Has It Almost Been A Week??
Wow, that is kinda unlike me, but whatever. I don't really have too too much to blog about. There is a gap between who I am, and who you are. It is kinda a big one, and I sorta know how you are, and you have no idea how I am the way I am.
So the stuff you don't know about me is a pretty big deal. It is probably something you cannot fathom, and cannot understand. At one point that may have been a bigger deal for me than you, but I probably consider it now to be a bigger deal for you. I can see through people.
All this stuff stems from overcoming the 2nd time. It put me on the path I am now. My path my whole life was very narrow. Very hard, and I had to do some tough stuff. Walk in spots I did not know, and now everything is taken care of. Kinda nice you don't have to worry about you huh?? I guess I should say it would be nice huh??
No second guessing, no looking over the shoulder, and no worries about what others think. What Society thinks. You know what too?? I will not be a horrible person. I will not be a selfish person, and I will support those who let people in. Some won't let people in, because they are afraid. They will bury themselves in the dirt so no one can see. Isn't that what it says about the coin?? Faithful will make 5 or so, and others will bury it in the sand, because they were afraid.
How do you make 5?? You don't. You cannot, because you are not even strong enough to do the best thing with the coin you have. Isn't that the old lady and the parable??
So how are you coming along?? What is the significant and important things you do with your life??
What are the lasting and significant things you put your faith in?? I'll give you a hint. You put your faith in you. You trust you, and right now you don't know where that ends.
Also I know how a person feels on the inside. It is a closed and blocked off area. Hard even for you to see. So much of who you are I bet you probably are afraid to let people see.
Soooooo much stuff to do, and damn near all of it has to be done for you, because you don't know the steps at all.
Such a shame.
Oh well. I am out. I am having my 2nd cup of coffee, and then I am taking the Hopester for a walk.
laterzzzzzzzz
So the stuff you don't know about me is a pretty big deal. It is probably something you cannot fathom, and cannot understand. At one point that may have been a bigger deal for me than you, but I probably consider it now to be a bigger deal for you. I can see through people.
All this stuff stems from overcoming the 2nd time. It put me on the path I am now. My path my whole life was very narrow. Very hard, and I had to do some tough stuff. Walk in spots I did not know, and now everything is taken care of. Kinda nice you don't have to worry about you huh?? I guess I should say it would be nice huh??
No second guessing, no looking over the shoulder, and no worries about what others think. What Society thinks. You know what too?? I will not be a horrible person. I will not be a selfish person, and I will support those who let people in. Some won't let people in, because they are afraid. They will bury themselves in the dirt so no one can see. Isn't that what it says about the coin?? Faithful will make 5 or so, and others will bury it in the sand, because they were afraid.
How do you make 5?? You don't. You cannot, because you are not even strong enough to do the best thing with the coin you have. Isn't that the old lady and the parable??
So how are you coming along?? What is the significant and important things you do with your life??
What are the lasting and significant things you put your faith in?? I'll give you a hint. You put your faith in you. You trust you, and right now you don't know where that ends.
Also I know how a person feels on the inside. It is a closed and blocked off area. Hard even for you to see. So much of who you are I bet you probably are afraid to let people see.
Soooooo much stuff to do, and damn near all of it has to be done for you, because you don't know the steps at all.
Such a shame.
Oh well. I am out. I am having my 2nd cup of coffee, and then I am taking the Hopester for a walk.
laterzzzzzzzz
Friday, March 21, 2014
Lisa's Big Day...
Hello and good afternoon all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept pretty good this morning. I think for more than 3 hours, so that is good. It is Friday, so I typically don't do the bank, and I will just do the other thing.
Anyway as to my title, Lisa got a new job, and she gets to put her 2 weeks in today. She has worked at the same place for over 20 years, and she is ready to move on. I won't talk a lot about it, because she is happy. As someone who worked at the same place for over 19 years I just tell her you will totally forget that place, and you may never even want to go back.
When I think of my life, and I guess our lives that place has little to no significance to who I am. A minor blip on my path of life, although I guess I met many people there. People come and people go. It is a part of life. So Lisa and I start a new chapter in life. One where she will be much happier in her job, and her schedule, and how she will be treated. WOOO HOOOO!! Happy wife happy life right?? :)
Anyhooooo, what else is going on?? Not too too much, I am still not running, and I guess that is a big deal in a way. Running injuries. Run through them?? Rest them?? I realize reading some blogs of people with running issues, we never are really sure. What is the best course of action?? Some will go to all the witch doctors to try to fix crap. Not me, that is for sure. Some will try to stay in shape by running in water. FUCK THAT!! :)
I think after this I may take the Hopester out for just a little 2 miler. I was trying to bump up from 3 miles and upward, but I had a little set back with my knees. I have to walk and crouch, and kneel and stuff at work, so I need to be able to be active. 100% of the time I am at work I am on my feet, unless I am taking a shit, so I need my legs to work. :)
It is Friday, and I have a cup of coffee. I know Lisa is probably pretty geeked today. :) Should be a good day. :)
I'll let you know how the run goes.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Was yesterday the first day of Spring?? Well anyway, Lisa's big news has us looking forward to a good Summer. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Anyway as to my title, Lisa got a new job, and she gets to put her 2 weeks in today. She has worked at the same place for over 20 years, and she is ready to move on. I won't talk a lot about it, because she is happy. As someone who worked at the same place for over 19 years I just tell her you will totally forget that place, and you may never even want to go back.
When I think of my life, and I guess our lives that place has little to no significance to who I am. A minor blip on my path of life, although I guess I met many people there. People come and people go. It is a part of life. So Lisa and I start a new chapter in life. One where she will be much happier in her job, and her schedule, and how she will be treated. WOOO HOOOO!! Happy wife happy life right?? :)
Anyhooooo, what else is going on?? Not too too much, I am still not running, and I guess that is a big deal in a way. Running injuries. Run through them?? Rest them?? I realize reading some blogs of people with running issues, we never are really sure. What is the best course of action?? Some will go to all the witch doctors to try to fix crap. Not me, that is for sure. Some will try to stay in shape by running in water. FUCK THAT!! :)
I think after this I may take the Hopester out for just a little 2 miler. I was trying to bump up from 3 miles and upward, but I had a little set back with my knees. I have to walk and crouch, and kneel and stuff at work, so I need to be able to be active. 100% of the time I am at work I am on my feet, unless I am taking a shit, so I need my legs to work. :)
It is Friday, and I have a cup of coffee. I know Lisa is probably pretty geeked today. :) Should be a good day. :)
I'll let you know how the run goes.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Was yesterday the first day of Spring?? Well anyway, Lisa's big news has us looking forward to a good Summer. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Thursday, March 20, 2014
All In A Day...
Hello, and good morning all. How's it going?? Me, I am doing okay. In case you are wondering I did not run yesterday, because my knees still hurt. At work was miserable. Bending down, and especially getting back up. I am not saying running would have made it feel worse, but I am not sure. Not sure about today either. Definitely a different mindset when you feel healthy, and ready to run, as opposed to not sure what will happen if I try to run.
I am making corned beef today in the crock pot. Gonna have a reuben for dinner. It was very cheap cheap at the local grocer, so I bought a little one yesterday. I am the only one who likes it in the house.
My blog and my life I guess is pretty hard. Hard, because I have to say things on here that people don't want to hear. Many may not even want to think about, and many may want to hide from. That is life. Did I want to seek these things out?? The truth of life, and stuff like that. I sure did, but it was also a part of wanting to be a good person. How does one go about that??
You know in my mind there was a certain type of person I wanted to be, and no matter what I could not make me into that. How are you?? Cool?? "Good Enough"??
What are the things in your life that give you value in your life?? That makes your life a good thing. I don't want the answer being kids, because kids have to grow up and deal with the same Bullshit we all have to.
Do this do that. Follow the path of Society, and wake up one day, and realize, GOD this life is stupid. What am I doing, what am I accomplishing?? What is the point??
Imperfect people in an imperfect World, trying to put a good foot forward. We keep our other stuff hidden many of us, because ... hmmm I guess many reasons.
You battle yourself, and your demons, and boy are they powerful huh?? I mean why can we not just kick the crap in us that makes us less than we would want to be?? Do you ever wonder what it is inside you that overpowers you?? What is inside you that makes you less of a person than who you would want to be??
Weird shit huh?? As people we aren't very strong are we?? What people and society think of us really means nothing, because we cannot even overcome ourselves. Overpowered by things unknown, and things outside our control.
Crazy huh?? There is a way to find answers, and a way to the truth, but wait. Let me just go and show the World what I am capable of. We'll worry about all that other crap later.
Don't you care about that other crap?? Isn't that pretty significant shit??
The thing about this blog is it tells a story, and it tells true ways, and true paths, and as always this kinda shit doesn't go over well with people. Historically always been that way, because well not sure. That sure would be one of the other lessons of Noah though huh?? People have done some serious shit wrong, and they don't know it. Few will listen to the truth, and few will believe it. Many just go their own way.
YIKES!!!
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I got some shit to do around the house. Don't really feel like it though. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
I am making corned beef today in the crock pot. Gonna have a reuben for dinner. It was very cheap cheap at the local grocer, so I bought a little one yesterday. I am the only one who likes it in the house.
My blog and my life I guess is pretty hard. Hard, because I have to say things on here that people don't want to hear. Many may not even want to think about, and many may want to hide from. That is life. Did I want to seek these things out?? The truth of life, and stuff like that. I sure did, but it was also a part of wanting to be a good person. How does one go about that??
You know in my mind there was a certain type of person I wanted to be, and no matter what I could not make me into that. How are you?? Cool?? "Good Enough"??
What are the things in your life that give you value in your life?? That makes your life a good thing. I don't want the answer being kids, because kids have to grow up and deal with the same Bullshit we all have to.
Do this do that. Follow the path of Society, and wake up one day, and realize, GOD this life is stupid. What am I doing, what am I accomplishing?? What is the point??
Imperfect people in an imperfect World, trying to put a good foot forward. We keep our other stuff hidden many of us, because ... hmmm I guess many reasons.
You battle yourself, and your demons, and boy are they powerful huh?? I mean why can we not just kick the crap in us that makes us less than we would want to be?? Do you ever wonder what it is inside you that overpowers you?? What is inside you that makes you less of a person than who you would want to be??
Weird shit huh?? As people we aren't very strong are we?? What people and society think of us really means nothing, because we cannot even overcome ourselves. Overpowered by things unknown, and things outside our control.
Crazy huh?? There is a way to find answers, and a way to the truth, but wait. Let me just go and show the World what I am capable of. We'll worry about all that other crap later.
Don't you care about that other crap?? Isn't that pretty significant shit??
The thing about this blog is it tells a story, and it tells true ways, and true paths, and as always this kinda shit doesn't go over well with people. Historically always been that way, because well not sure. That sure would be one of the other lessons of Noah though huh?? People have done some serious shit wrong, and they don't know it. Few will listen to the truth, and few will believe it. Many just go their own way.
YIKES!!!
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I got some shit to do around the house. Don't really feel like it though. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Another Day, and Another Blog Entry...
Hello, and good afternoon all. How's it going? Me, I am doing pretty good. I only have to work the one job today. They want me to keep more normal hours at the bank. :) LOL. On my days off I'd go in in the middle of the night. As those of you who know me or have been around these parts for any number of years you know waking up in the middle of the night is not a big deal for me. Staying awake past 8:00PM sometimes is though. :)
So what can you learn from me?? You can learn that I am not perfect. I am not the best a person can be, yet I still can be used. None of you are the best a person can be either, and you don't seem to want to be.
Do you want to just hide in your little World, and not face the truth. Do you not want to deal with the harsh realities that life has to offer?? Many times people hide in the shell of Society. It helps make them feel strong and safe I guess, but where does that lead??
Many years ago those 12 stepped out of Society to follow someone. Gave up everything. Lost their life so to speak so they could find it. That is the path of the few really. Made to look the fool. Isn't that the lesson Noah too?? Made to look the fool, but he was given a strength to stand up to Society. He was given the strength needed, because the path of the few needs no shortage of strength. Needs no shortage of courage, and trials and tribulations are no joke. Internal persecutions are no joke.
The truth of what we are supposed to be doing is so much way farther than what you think you want to do, or should do. The truth of your life is a serious thing. The truth of your existence is a serious thing. The crap in this World is horseshit. Nothing here. No points for any avenues at all.
Your hearts are not perfect, and your knowledge is not good, and your direction is not good. Your ability to hold on to your lives for whatever reason. Fear, cowardice is not a good thing.
Some are looking for silly little answers coming from the tiniest little crappy info from the Human mind. Trying to show somehow they have some type of redeeming quality. Welcome to the nakedness of life. You have no redeeming quality. There is nothing you can do to say I am worth this, because of this. Any equation coming from your mind about what to do with your life = dead end.
Yes you are in a tough place, and that is why life is pretty stupid, and has been forever.
So my life has gone on for quite a while. Been through any number of things, and made to many times wake up wanting to do this silly old blog. Do you see this blog though?? Do you see how worthless and pointless it is??
You know still to this day my life here on this Earth is only worth one coin. Now I have had increases made to my coin, but it wasn't my doing. I don't keep it here. Any worth I have that is more than one coin is stored in a place where no one could get to it.
You see that time long ago when I won the race, and I went where no one else could go. I was alone, but you have to come to this place. It is impossible to get to, but with grace you will be allowed to enter.
You see we deserve, well, let's not speak of what we deserve, but since you are alive, you can still find a way.
I have gone on and on and on with this thing.
I think sometimes I get annoyed when people go out of their way to somehow say their life matters, and all my work has been done in vain. Like I said though, I have been accepted. My life has been accepted, and I am cool with how I am.
One can only wonder what happens when I am made into the best a person can be. Maybe that is the strangest thing of all. I am able to do stuff, even though my crappy little self/life is only worth one coin here. A worthless piece of junk still being able to be used for a purpose.
I have no false view of myself and my worth. I have no false view of my life, and this World. I don't try to hold onto crappy stuff to try and make my life seem anything more than the miserable little thing it is. :) LOL
HAHA. Okay, I guess that is it.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. time for a shower, and pick up something to cook for dinner.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
So what can you learn from me?? You can learn that I am not perfect. I am not the best a person can be, yet I still can be used. None of you are the best a person can be either, and you don't seem to want to be.
Do you want to just hide in your little World, and not face the truth. Do you not want to deal with the harsh realities that life has to offer?? Many times people hide in the shell of Society. It helps make them feel strong and safe I guess, but where does that lead??
Many years ago those 12 stepped out of Society to follow someone. Gave up everything. Lost their life so to speak so they could find it. That is the path of the few really. Made to look the fool. Isn't that the lesson Noah too?? Made to look the fool, but he was given a strength to stand up to Society. He was given the strength needed, because the path of the few needs no shortage of strength. Needs no shortage of courage, and trials and tribulations are no joke. Internal persecutions are no joke.
The truth of what we are supposed to be doing is so much way farther than what you think you want to do, or should do. The truth of your life is a serious thing. The truth of your existence is a serious thing. The crap in this World is horseshit. Nothing here. No points for any avenues at all.
Your hearts are not perfect, and your knowledge is not good, and your direction is not good. Your ability to hold on to your lives for whatever reason. Fear, cowardice is not a good thing.
Some are looking for silly little answers coming from the tiniest little crappy info from the Human mind. Trying to show somehow they have some type of redeeming quality. Welcome to the nakedness of life. You have no redeeming quality. There is nothing you can do to say I am worth this, because of this. Any equation coming from your mind about what to do with your life = dead end.
Yes you are in a tough place, and that is why life is pretty stupid, and has been forever.
So my life has gone on for quite a while. Been through any number of things, and made to many times wake up wanting to do this silly old blog. Do you see this blog though?? Do you see how worthless and pointless it is??
You know still to this day my life here on this Earth is only worth one coin. Now I have had increases made to my coin, but it wasn't my doing. I don't keep it here. Any worth I have that is more than one coin is stored in a place where no one could get to it.
You see that time long ago when I won the race, and I went where no one else could go. I was alone, but you have to come to this place. It is impossible to get to, but with grace you will be allowed to enter.
You see we deserve, well, let's not speak of what we deserve, but since you are alive, you can still find a way.
I have gone on and on and on with this thing.
I think sometimes I get annoyed when people go out of their way to somehow say their life matters, and all my work has been done in vain. Like I said though, I have been accepted. My life has been accepted, and I am cool with how I am.
One can only wonder what happens when I am made into the best a person can be. Maybe that is the strangest thing of all. I am able to do stuff, even though my crappy little self/life is only worth one coin here. A worthless piece of junk still being able to be used for a purpose.
I have no false view of myself and my worth. I have no false view of my life, and this World. I don't try to hold onto crappy stuff to try and make my life seem anything more than the miserable little thing it is. :) LOL
HAHA. Okay, I guess that is it.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. time for a shower, and pick up something to cook for dinner.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
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