Morning all, how is it going?? Me, I am doing O.K. For some reason, I have decided to stay up late the last two nights. It was unplanned, and I was really just having fun. Hanging out etc...
I am pretty sure I don't have much today, but I will get some coffee, and see what comes up.
brb. :)
Okay, I am back. Also I have some coffee, so it is like I izzz all ready to blog.
Sometimes when I blog I think it is o.k. to blog about some things I thought of the day before. Want to know one of the things I thought of?? This blog?? I throw a lot of love on here, and it seems like the most natural thing in the World to me. Some days I need a dose of reality. That is not a normal thing is it??
How is it I do that?? Funny how a few blogs ago where out of nowhere I said rock, paper, scissors, love beats all. I have the gift. It was given to me as part of my journey, and I guess I didn't really know it was possible to have it before the final thing I did. This little thing I do on my end must help you on your journey in some way. Maybe it is something to show you what is possible.
Life has some tough things in it. This blog has some tough things in it. I know that. I know I have been pulling hard for a long time, and I know the desires in your heart to make this awesome and great name for yourself.
That is where trust comes in though huh?? Do you trust. It is so hard to overcome ourselves huh?? When I think back to my time I was able to overcome... barely. That is by design I think. You need to have some hard fought victories, and that probably is by design too.
I'll tell you on the other end, and this is due to me not having very much understanding, it all seems so easy. How Where Why?? Remember all those hard races you did that you never knew you could?? Marathon/Iron(Wo)Man races. ;) Don't they seem so easy after the fact?? Like you want to just go out and do another again??
That is how it seems to me. Like the easiest thing in the World. Those of you who read this know though there probably was nothing easy about me getting to where I am. This isn't even the finishing point. I have one very hard thing to do. It is a necessary step in order for me to get the one thing I have wanted forever.... UNDERSTANDING.
With understanding comes the ultimate strength, and the ultimate knowledge, and it is something I cannot attain too, although it is what I seeked more than anything on my Summer of discontent. It is without understanding that makes me so imperfect. Trust and strength walk hand in hand in this part of the journey. I have a bad voice. It is a strong voice, and it can overpower me. What gives the bad voice leverage is lies and stuff like that. Honesty, and truth, and trust all keep him pretty hidden. The one who overcame long ago though is still able to help me overcome all steps in my journey here. We have help. It isn't easy, because it isn't supposed to be.
I am here in this no man's land. Having already gone through the eye of the needle. It has made me different, and makes me see things different. It makes me see the all things are possible type thing in the World, although the World runs on the same old logic that we all live with. You cannot see the World through my eyes, and I can no longer see them through yours. Understanding corrects that. This isn't even the final destination. I am just a little old dude who is poor in Spirit doing what I do.
A little secret between you and me??? I LOVE DOREEN!! :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Finished up doubling up on a 6.7 mile run on Mon and Tues with Jerry. Now I just finish up this weekend, and it is time to start getting this Fall/Winter training going. WOOOP WOOOOOP!!! :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Extras for Doreen, cuz I love her. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D
Have a fab one all. MWAH!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :)
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Monday, October 15, 2012
Weird Dream...
Well, I had a weird dream. I was up early this morning, like 1:00 am early thinking SHEESH, this is too early to get up. I did fall back asleep though, and had a weird dream. It didn't mean anything, but I was late for work. I couldn't get through with a call. It was some kind of weird day at work, because I didn't do anything, and their was food to eat and stuff. I saw a lot of people who don't live near where I live, and I was wearing a white dress. :) I kept thinking, man, it has been a while since I wore a dress to work. :)
So anyway, I like to kid around a lot, and I do on this thing. At this stage of the game my p.s. was just a p.s. with a little humor.
I know it was a big weekend with my blogs, and for those who may remember my one desire when starting up the Journey was to be right. I was to be faithful though remember?? I didn't even know what that meant. Being right is my final destination. A gift, because obviously I cannot do any of that on my own.
So my life is pointless in ways. Do right here, or bad here, or whatever. I am glad in my heart is only to live this simple life I live. It isn't righteous or anything like that, it is just how it is in my heart to live.
People get themselves in pickles in life. There really are only two avenues when that happens that I can see. Anger, and defend oneself, or humbly accept your flaws, and let people see the person who is not perfect.
We would want to be strong, and try and help us feel better, but the honest way is a way where like I said it is humble, meaning you don't feel strong.
Anyhoo, just wanted to get that down. I am not right, and I am not perfect, but those things are possible. You don't work for it though, because none of it is in your control.
Remember the greatest gift???
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Another crazy day of football I see.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D :)
Have a great Monday everyone. We skipped our run yesterday, because of lightning and thunder supposed to being around. It wasn't really, so I went on a lil 3 miler, and we are running tonight. So it is all good.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :) xoxoxoxo :D
So anyway, I like to kid around a lot, and I do on this thing. At this stage of the game my p.s. was just a p.s. with a little humor.
I know it was a big weekend with my blogs, and for those who may remember my one desire when starting up the Journey was to be right. I was to be faithful though remember?? I didn't even know what that meant. Being right is my final destination. A gift, because obviously I cannot do any of that on my own.
So my life is pointless in ways. Do right here, or bad here, or whatever. I am glad in my heart is only to live this simple life I live. It isn't righteous or anything like that, it is just how it is in my heart to live.
People get themselves in pickles in life. There really are only two avenues when that happens that I can see. Anger, and defend oneself, or humbly accept your flaws, and let people see the person who is not perfect.
We would want to be strong, and try and help us feel better, but the honest way is a way where like I said it is humble, meaning you don't feel strong.
Anyhoo, just wanted to get that down. I am not right, and I am not perfect, but those things are possible. You don't work for it though, because none of it is in your control.
Remember the greatest gift???
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Another crazy day of football I see.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D :)
Have a great Monday everyone. We skipped our run yesterday, because of lightning and thunder supposed to being around. It wasn't really, so I went on a lil 3 miler, and we are running tonight. So it is all good.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :) xoxoxoxo :D
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Never Been In Your Shoes...
Good morning all. I am up early for no good reason at all. Thought I had a good blog entry yesterday, but guess not. Out of nowhere it came.
Anyhoo, I wonder why my blog is the way it is. It has been going on for quite a while. A long time with a lot of entries. Very few readers too.
Why haven't I been in your shoes?? My battles in life a long time ago were just about being honest. That was one rung on the ladder I was going to hold onto. I didn't need anyone to tell me to look at myself. I was alone, and that is what I was doing. I was looking at the World, and myself as objectively as I can. There was no one out there keeping me in line saying, "Hey, you ain't that fucking fabulous" The truth I searched, the truth I seeked, and the truth I found. With a turn opened up all kinds of windows of learning, and suffering as it turns out.
Not only did I suffer general life hardships, but I suffered other things no one else saw. Then I suffer through the blogs I have written, and deleted as it turns out.
It has been quite a ride, and frustrating too.
The World is crazy backwards. Society is crazy backwards too. We are brought up to believe the World is good, and you are good. Have high self esteem. etc... That is why everyone is on anti-depressants probably. No one feels as good about themselves as we think we should. Why?? Because that is the truth. We look at the "Fabulous" people as if they did something right. They still struggle with the same day to day Bullshit of life we all do.
There is a whole World of learning to be done, and your ability to learn it on your own is impossible. None are smart, or strong enough to attain to the Heights available. That is what makes life, and this thing we do hard. We feel we are smart, and have the ability to learn, but you haven't even scratched the surface of what can be.
We'll see how this thing turns out. It is a bit frustrating to me, because you all are like 'Noooooooooooo, it can't be"
Like at all other parts in times of History it is hard to believe when one comes, and tells you how things are. Very few believed. Now what happens?? I have a feeling some believe against their better judgement, because this story has gone on so long, and I have helped some, and there is no way to communicate with me if the people know what I have done. Do they sense it??
It is a hard road, and a tough journey, and you have to be willing to accept your lack of fabulousness, and your lack of ability to learn on your own what must be learned.
I have never been in your shoes, because I never had to read a blog like mine back in the day. When I was suffering suffering and suffering though there is one thing I wanted more than anything. Someone who knew more than me. Someone who could give me answers. As it turns out I didn't need that someone, because through all my struggles my faith became stronger, and I was able to develop a trust in one who I haven't seen. I have been shown plenty. One time during my bad Summer I was shown what God sees. I looked at the World through his eyes. Saw everything in all his glory. I thought I was the worst person in the whole World, but I thought he wouldn't show me this if I was supposed to be bad. I have twice been taken to the doorstep of Hell. Twice with not my strength I said I was willing. The 3rd one will be the real deal. I will go where there is no hope, and nothing but despair. I will be baptized with fire as it goes.
That will be the end of my journey, and the beginning of the new me. I was asked to follow in the footsteps, and I said I was willing. I know it will be bad, and I know I will suffer, but also I know the one who overcame long ago will be with me, and I will have no fear.
It will be a crazy ride, and some of you will share in the suffering, because I will only be alive in you. Now that my friends is a prophecy too. One I have known a long while. It was the vision I had during my physical depression days. I hit the Alligator/serpent on the head 3 times, and then Katrina and I hugged.
That happened in the early 90's. Not once did I doubt it would happen. I did not know how it would happen. My path I did not make. My story is not mine, because I wanted a good story to be made out of my life, and I gave up any rights to any story I could make, and it turns out there is a pretty good author who made one for me. Like yesterday I was led on my path. I did not lead myself. Who can make this stuff up??
At the end of the day life and what we do on this Earth is crazier than fiction. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I thank you all in advance for pretending you did not read this. I love it when you do that. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D I still love Olga. :)
Oh btw here is a picture of Jacob and me. We drank some beer yesterday to help cure cancer.
Later all. Have a fab one. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo MWAH MWAH MWAH!!! :)
Anyhoo, I wonder why my blog is the way it is. It has been going on for quite a while. A long time with a lot of entries. Very few readers too.
Why haven't I been in your shoes?? My battles in life a long time ago were just about being honest. That was one rung on the ladder I was going to hold onto. I didn't need anyone to tell me to look at myself. I was alone, and that is what I was doing. I was looking at the World, and myself as objectively as I can. There was no one out there keeping me in line saying, "Hey, you ain't that fucking fabulous" The truth I searched, the truth I seeked, and the truth I found. With a turn opened up all kinds of windows of learning, and suffering as it turns out.
Not only did I suffer general life hardships, but I suffered other things no one else saw. Then I suffer through the blogs I have written, and deleted as it turns out.
It has been quite a ride, and frustrating too.
The World is crazy backwards. Society is crazy backwards too. We are brought up to believe the World is good, and you are good. Have high self esteem. etc... That is why everyone is on anti-depressants probably. No one feels as good about themselves as we think we should. Why?? Because that is the truth. We look at the "Fabulous" people as if they did something right. They still struggle with the same day to day Bullshit of life we all do.
There is a whole World of learning to be done, and your ability to learn it on your own is impossible. None are smart, or strong enough to attain to the Heights available. That is what makes life, and this thing we do hard. We feel we are smart, and have the ability to learn, but you haven't even scratched the surface of what can be.
We'll see how this thing turns out. It is a bit frustrating to me, because you all are like 'Noooooooooooo, it can't be"
Like at all other parts in times of History it is hard to believe when one comes, and tells you how things are. Very few believed. Now what happens?? I have a feeling some believe against their better judgement, because this story has gone on so long, and I have helped some, and there is no way to communicate with me if the people know what I have done. Do they sense it??
It is a hard road, and a tough journey, and you have to be willing to accept your lack of fabulousness, and your lack of ability to learn on your own what must be learned.
I have never been in your shoes, because I never had to read a blog like mine back in the day. When I was suffering suffering and suffering though there is one thing I wanted more than anything. Someone who knew more than me. Someone who could give me answers. As it turns out I didn't need that someone, because through all my struggles my faith became stronger, and I was able to develop a trust in one who I haven't seen. I have been shown plenty. One time during my bad Summer I was shown what God sees. I looked at the World through his eyes. Saw everything in all his glory. I thought I was the worst person in the whole World, but I thought he wouldn't show me this if I was supposed to be bad. I have twice been taken to the doorstep of Hell. Twice with not my strength I said I was willing. The 3rd one will be the real deal. I will go where there is no hope, and nothing but despair. I will be baptized with fire as it goes.
That will be the end of my journey, and the beginning of the new me. I was asked to follow in the footsteps, and I said I was willing. I know it will be bad, and I know I will suffer, but also I know the one who overcame long ago will be with me, and I will have no fear.
It will be a crazy ride, and some of you will share in the suffering, because I will only be alive in you. Now that my friends is a prophecy too. One I have known a long while. It was the vision I had during my physical depression days. I hit the Alligator/serpent on the head 3 times, and then Katrina and I hugged.
That happened in the early 90's. Not once did I doubt it would happen. I did not know how it would happen. My path I did not make. My story is not mine, because I wanted a good story to be made out of my life, and I gave up any rights to any story I could make, and it turns out there is a pretty good author who made one for me. Like yesterday I was led on my path. I did not lead myself. Who can make this stuff up??
At the end of the day life and what we do on this Earth is crazier than fiction. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. I thank you all in advance for pretending you did not read this. I love it when you do that. :)
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D I still love Olga. :)
Oh btw here is a picture of Jacob and me. We drank some beer yesterday to help cure cancer.
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Saturday, October 13, 2012
The Western Winds Heal Those With Oil Filter Wrenches...
Don't ever say you won't get useful information on this blog. Just this title alone is a doozy, I am sure you never thought of. Probably never even knew what the cure was.
As my title suggests, and as happens with most days, I ain't got SHIT. I am going to get my coffee though, and see what happens.
brb...
So it is a Saturday. I am back into my routine. We are running this morning around 7:30 AM. I have a little work to do around the house, I may take a nap. Lisa works til 3:00, and then we have a party to go to. College Football is on, so it should be a good day.
Boy, I really have nothing today. How strange. Now I will really have to wing it. SHEEEESH!!
As I search my brain for something I keep thinking of people, and how confused they really are. Seems to me some people think they know themselves. Got themselves all figured out. This is how I am and this is how I am day over day. People try and hold onto something or another. Just one little rung of some ladder, and say look... I do this I am strong.
That is life though, and that is the truth. There are no rungs to hold onto. Life is this thing we do, and there is nothing fabulous about any of it. Life is two ways. The one way has more questions than answers. There are so many "Y" intersections in life, and internally we can find fault with each path chosen. That is our internal sword. We have one. We can judge others, but we should be pretty good at judging ourselves.
The strange and mystical path is one you don't see. It is a path of faith. It is a yellow brick road in ways. It is a path filled of gold bricks. It is a path you don't make. It is a path you don't lead, it is a path you are lead on. The path starts with a step. A step of trust. It ain't easy, I have gathered that much, but it is something you work out on your own.
Our lives are solo. Any "group" means nothing. All questions of life, and everything are something you have to work out. All people put their faith in some pretty strange and screwy things.
Big Bang?? yep, probably. By fluke or by design?? Evolution??? yep. How?? It don't make sense. Well, on the 7th day he rested, and that my friends is a prophecy. The 7th day we have not reached yet.
Everyone always closes their minds to everything, and I think it is o.k. to say what if there is just a little bit of truth in everything. In that everyone is alike. Closed minded. The believers, and the non-believers have that in common. Their understanding is so very little though, that what they share in common is a hate for each other.
Long ago there was a person who came. He grabbed a couple people. Told them to drop their lives. Everything. Jobs, family and everything. "Come Follow Me"
You never had to do that. You have been asked to do something though, and something that takes trust. The path is one of being humbled, because those who are humbled will be exalted. You have to trust the path ain't easy. You have to trust in the path being laid that you cannot see, and that you don't control.
Why??? Because the lessons taught were not about the sword. The lessons taught were actually about love. Rock paper scissors, Love Beats all.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Secretly rooting for the Cardinals. Only reason is they are an improbably team. They were my team to watch anyway, because of their crazy run differential for the season. Pujols goes, and the Angels don't make the Playoffs, and the Cards are as good as any team left. LOVE IT!!! Not really rooting against anyone though. Whoever wins the WS will deserve it.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :D :D xoxoxoxo :D :D LOL
I love Olga. :)
LATER ALL Have a fab Saturday. MWAH!!! :)
As my title suggests, and as happens with most days, I ain't got SHIT. I am going to get my coffee though, and see what happens.
brb...
So it is a Saturday. I am back into my routine. We are running this morning around 7:30 AM. I have a little work to do around the house, I may take a nap. Lisa works til 3:00, and then we have a party to go to. College Football is on, so it should be a good day.
Boy, I really have nothing today. How strange. Now I will really have to wing it. SHEEEESH!!
As I search my brain for something I keep thinking of people, and how confused they really are. Seems to me some people think they know themselves. Got themselves all figured out. This is how I am and this is how I am day over day. People try and hold onto something or another. Just one little rung of some ladder, and say look... I do this I am strong.
That is life though, and that is the truth. There are no rungs to hold onto. Life is this thing we do, and there is nothing fabulous about any of it. Life is two ways. The one way has more questions than answers. There are so many "Y" intersections in life, and internally we can find fault with each path chosen. That is our internal sword. We have one. We can judge others, but we should be pretty good at judging ourselves.
The strange and mystical path is one you don't see. It is a path of faith. It is a yellow brick road in ways. It is a path filled of gold bricks. It is a path you don't make. It is a path you don't lead, it is a path you are lead on. The path starts with a step. A step of trust. It ain't easy, I have gathered that much, but it is something you work out on your own.
Our lives are solo. Any "group" means nothing. All questions of life, and everything are something you have to work out. All people put their faith in some pretty strange and screwy things.
Big Bang?? yep, probably. By fluke or by design?? Evolution??? yep. How?? It don't make sense. Well, on the 7th day he rested, and that my friends is a prophecy. The 7th day we have not reached yet.
Everyone always closes their minds to everything, and I think it is o.k. to say what if there is just a little bit of truth in everything. In that everyone is alike. Closed minded. The believers, and the non-believers have that in common. Their understanding is so very little though, that what they share in common is a hate for each other.
Long ago there was a person who came. He grabbed a couple people. Told them to drop their lives. Everything. Jobs, family and everything. "Come Follow Me"
You never had to do that. You have been asked to do something though, and something that takes trust. The path is one of being humbled, because those who are humbled will be exalted. You have to trust the path ain't easy. You have to trust in the path being laid that you cannot see, and that you don't control.
Why??? Because the lessons taught were not about the sword. The lessons taught were actually about love. Rock paper scissors, Love Beats all.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Secretly rooting for the Cardinals. Only reason is they are an improbably team. They were my team to watch anyway, because of their crazy run differential for the season. Pujols goes, and the Angels don't make the Playoffs, and the Cards are as good as any team left. LOVE IT!!! Not really rooting against anyone though. Whoever wins the WS will deserve it.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :D :D xoxoxoxo :D :D LOL
I love Olga. :)
LATER ALL Have a fab Saturday. MWAH!!! :)
Friday, October 12, 2012
I Ain't Got Shit!!
Morning all. I have absolutely nothing to blog about at all, so naturally I made some coffee, and I am going to wing it... as usual.
First things first. I will be right back once I have coffee in hand.
I guess we will just start out with the day, and see what pops up. I was tired and sore on Wednesday, so that usually means wine night. Not much else I can do. That is what I did, and I actually slept til after 4:00. Lisa woke me up too. That surprised me. I haven't used an alarm in forever, and I slept through the alarm I don't use. That never happens.
More sleep = a productive day at work, and a productive day at home. Thursday is garbage pick up day, and no day is more exciting around our house. It means we unloaded a ton of crap, and get to load up more crap in the bin. It really is the little things. This new trying to junk-proof our house is a fun chore. Silly how such little things are such a big deal huh??
So anyway instead of relaxing before my run, I ended up getting a Shit load done around the house. That felt pretty good. Our run was uneventful. We did our 6.7 mile route with Jerry and Ken. It took an hour, and has me wondering what my 13.1 miler time will be. Really comes down to how close to 2 hours will I get? I am a far ways away from a 1:47 half being my marathon pace.
So in general I am just plugging along. I have some running goals, and some house goals that keep me busy, and keep me active, and I look around, and let me tell you one thing. Things seem pretty good right now.
On the outside my life seems pretty boring I'd say. So much of life is how you feel on the inside. That is where I am winning. I feel great, and I feel good about me. That is the battle huh?? No 2nd guessing. No what ifs??? Also just a little secret I have about how I am me. What a long and strange journey huh?? It ain't even over. I still got some stuff to do, but that is the thing, I am willing to do it. Have been since forever.
Anyway just touching base. Let you know I feel pretty fucking GREAT!!! :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. This upcoming year is going to be pretty fascinating I think. Can't wait to see how everyone's life evolves.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D xoxo :D :D
First things first. I will be right back once I have coffee in hand.
I guess we will just start out with the day, and see what pops up. I was tired and sore on Wednesday, so that usually means wine night. Not much else I can do. That is what I did, and I actually slept til after 4:00. Lisa woke me up too. That surprised me. I haven't used an alarm in forever, and I slept through the alarm I don't use. That never happens.
More sleep = a productive day at work, and a productive day at home. Thursday is garbage pick up day, and no day is more exciting around our house. It means we unloaded a ton of crap, and get to load up more crap in the bin. It really is the little things. This new trying to junk-proof our house is a fun chore. Silly how such little things are such a big deal huh??
So anyway instead of relaxing before my run, I ended up getting a Shit load done around the house. That felt pretty good. Our run was uneventful. We did our 6.7 mile route with Jerry and Ken. It took an hour, and has me wondering what my 13.1 miler time will be. Really comes down to how close to 2 hours will I get? I am a far ways away from a 1:47 half being my marathon pace.
So in general I am just plugging along. I have some running goals, and some house goals that keep me busy, and keep me active, and I look around, and let me tell you one thing. Things seem pretty good right now.
On the outside my life seems pretty boring I'd say. So much of life is how you feel on the inside. That is where I am winning. I feel great, and I feel good about me. That is the battle huh?? No 2nd guessing. No what ifs??? Also just a little secret I have about how I am me. What a long and strange journey huh?? It ain't even over. I still got some stuff to do, but that is the thing, I am willing to do it. Have been since forever.
Anyway just touching base. Let you know I feel pretty fucking GREAT!!! :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. This upcoming year is going to be pretty fascinating I think. Can't wait to see how everyone's life evolves.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D xoxo :D :D
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
The Anatomy Of A Day...
Good Morning all. I am going to gets me my cup of coffee, and I will be right back.
Okay I am back. My title may seem like a strange one, but yesterday was one of those days where I was happily surprised with me. Now as you know I slept like shit on Monday, and I still woke up early. I did my stupid blog thing, and my push ups, and pull ups, and drank coffee, and switched the laundry.
I thought I was going to be tired all day, and that was the surprise. I was not at all. I biked into work, and had a productive day at work. I was not in the best mood all day. Why?? who knows, but you know when you have those days when you just are not all that sociable?? That was me. Those days we definitely are not at our best. It is those times, at least for me, where I couldn't care less about people. On this day my life was about me, and as it turned out it wasn't too bad.
I did the errands I wanted to do on Monday, and got a haircut, and did the dishes, before running. Jerry and I went out and did our 6.7 mile route. With my new found motivation I thought I'd be running light and fast, and etc... OOOPS!!! I guess you have to do a bit of work before you get fast.
I have no idea our pace. Probably around 9:00'ish. We did 6.7 miles in an hour whatever that comes out to.
Oh well, this is a dumb little update I guess. I was surprised though. I was not in the best of moods yesterday, but I still had energy to do my stuff.
Just one little thought. Maybe this is, and has been my battle for a while. There are two ways I as a person can be. I can be this open person with a blog. A blog that let's people see my life, and all the stupid pointless Shit that makes it up. Sometimes when I get in a bad mood like yesterday, I hate the Blog, and I hate the Internet. So I step away.
Maybe in ways I can be supportive and nice at times, and then the other side. I get pissed, and outta sight outta mind people. The good and the bad.
Guess that is it.
LATERZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!
Okay I am back. My title may seem like a strange one, but yesterday was one of those days where I was happily surprised with me. Now as you know I slept like shit on Monday, and I still woke up early. I did my stupid blog thing, and my push ups, and pull ups, and drank coffee, and switched the laundry.
I thought I was going to be tired all day, and that was the surprise. I was not at all. I biked into work, and had a productive day at work. I was not in the best mood all day. Why?? who knows, but you know when you have those days when you just are not all that sociable?? That was me. Those days we definitely are not at our best. It is those times, at least for me, where I couldn't care less about people. On this day my life was about me, and as it turned out it wasn't too bad.
I did the errands I wanted to do on Monday, and got a haircut, and did the dishes, before running. Jerry and I went out and did our 6.7 mile route. With my new found motivation I thought I'd be running light and fast, and etc... OOOPS!!! I guess you have to do a bit of work before you get fast.
I have no idea our pace. Probably around 9:00'ish. We did 6.7 miles in an hour whatever that comes out to.
Oh well, this is a dumb little update I guess. I was surprised though. I was not in the best of moods yesterday, but I still had energy to do my stuff.
Just one little thought. Maybe this is, and has been my battle for a while. There are two ways I as a person can be. I can be this open person with a blog. A blog that let's people see my life, and all the stupid pointless Shit that makes it up. Sometimes when I get in a bad mood like yesterday, I hate the Blog, and I hate the Internet. So I step away.
Maybe in ways I can be supportive and nice at times, and then the other side. I get pissed, and outta sight outta mind people. The good and the bad.
Guess that is it.
LATERZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Irritated = Not Sleep Well.
Good morning. Last night I went to bed irritated a bit I think. I went back to work yesterday, and it was a Monday, and the first day back is really all about getting back in the swing. I was tired yesterday. I came home, and napped a bit. Lisa put an outlet from downstairs and an outlet cover in front of me. Oh yeah... That.
The Electricity in our house is old. It doesn't have a ground wire, and it used the old 2 prong outlets for the family room and bedrooms upstairs. Kitchen Bathroom, and Basement is newer. I switched a lot of our 2 prongers out to 3 prongers a while ago. Never did do them all for some reason. The one in our bedroom almost blew up a couple nights ago. So I had to get a new one in, so we don't have cords draped everywhere around our room. I did that without cutting the circuit. Never did that before, and I was nervous. I don't understand how the Electricity thing really works. I knew enough to not be sitting in a tub of water while doing it, and I tried to not have wires touch each other or metal. That worked. Maybe I should get a side job as an Electrician. j/k. Electricity scares the Hell out of me.
That was the extent of my day. I did some Push ups and Pull ups, and watched TV the rest of the day. Lisa and I were supposed to run a couple errands, but I didn't want to. Why do on a Monday what can so easily be done on a Tuesday?? That is what I was thinking, and actually she wasn't hard to convince. She went on and did a couple other things, and picked up stuff for our Monday meal. I watched TV. Meal was good. I watched a little more tv, and went to bed.
Now I look, and it is 3:00 AM. I could probably get a bit of a run in, but I am running tonight. It is October, and I don't need to double up today. I think I will put the clothes in the dryer, make a cup of coffee, and so some more push ups and pull ups.
See, I already feel better. Oh, and this is definitely a phone stay home type of day.
In life you have to be strong, and we confuse what strong is. Strong is what we want to be in our minds, but on this blog it has a different meaning.
I guess I can still do this though...
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Here is hoping today goes a bit better. Maybe I will get in a better mood.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D (glad the outlook is better) :D xo
The Electricity in our house is old. It doesn't have a ground wire, and it used the old 2 prong outlets for the family room and bedrooms upstairs. Kitchen Bathroom, and Basement is newer. I switched a lot of our 2 prongers out to 3 prongers a while ago. Never did do them all for some reason. The one in our bedroom almost blew up a couple nights ago. So I had to get a new one in, so we don't have cords draped everywhere around our room. I did that without cutting the circuit. Never did that before, and I was nervous. I don't understand how the Electricity thing really works. I knew enough to not be sitting in a tub of water while doing it, and I tried to not have wires touch each other or metal. That worked. Maybe I should get a side job as an Electrician. j/k. Electricity scares the Hell out of me.
That was the extent of my day. I did some Push ups and Pull ups, and watched TV the rest of the day. Lisa and I were supposed to run a couple errands, but I didn't want to. Why do on a Monday what can so easily be done on a Tuesday?? That is what I was thinking, and actually she wasn't hard to convince. She went on and did a couple other things, and picked up stuff for our Monday meal. I watched TV. Meal was good. I watched a little more tv, and went to bed.
Now I look, and it is 3:00 AM. I could probably get a bit of a run in, but I am running tonight. It is October, and I don't need to double up today. I think I will put the clothes in the dryer, make a cup of coffee, and so some more push ups and pull ups.
See, I already feel better. Oh, and this is definitely a phone stay home type of day.
In life you have to be strong, and we confuse what strong is. Strong is what we want to be in our minds, but on this blog it has a different meaning.
I guess I can still do this though...
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
xo's!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)))
p.s. Here is hoping today goes a bit better. Maybe I will get in a better mood.
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D (glad the outlook is better) :D xo
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