Friday, March 9, 2012

Happy Friday

Morning all, hope you are all doing fine.  I realized while walking into work that not running Wednesday was the right decision.  I was walking across the parking lot limping, and thought to myself, I was going to run last night??  So I definitely hit a phase where I am not recovering from my runs as well as I'd like.  I am still able to pull in the long Saturday runs, follow with a Sunday, and Tuesday.  You think too, I was running 5 days in a row not too long ago.  Not much I can do, but hope this week is better. 

Other than that not much going on.  I am at a loss for words???  WOW!!!   :)

I wonder why that is??  You want to hold onto something don't you??  Afraid of letting everything go.  You wanna say if I do this, or if I do that...  You have no idea how strong you can be, and it isn't your own doing.  You are asked to make what seems like a huge leap to you, but it isn't.  That you don't have the eyes for yet.  That is accepting, and trusting. 

As you are finishing your 3rd lap everything hurts.  You wanna stop, and you wanna feel better.  In life you want to hold onto this or hold onto that, but do the seemingly big (but really little) thing.  Deny what you want, and say I got this!!!  

ya dig??

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't mean to be a dick, but that shit was easy for me. 

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Thursday, March 8, 2012

I Slept In...

Hello all, how is it going??  Me, I am doing good.  I slept in today.  I skipped speed work again, and I didn't really plan on it, but I kinda decided right when I left for work.  Lisa wanted to get something for lunch, and I was really kinda unhappy with how my legs felt on the 6 miler on Tuesday.  They really didn't loosen up.  It was really windy, and whatever... last minute decision.   I am not sure what the wind gusts were, but 40-50 MPH wouldn't have surprised me. 

Anyhoo, I still had a good day, and sleeping in today means I am in a good mood today, and still on slate for long run Saturday, so all is good.  :)  Yay!!   :)

Luv Ya's   :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  LOLz,   life is fricken funny sometimes....  just a p.s.  p.s.   xoxo   that is the other one.   :)   LOL

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Have a good one.   :)    MWAH!!!   :)


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Morning All!! :)

I am pretty sure I have nothing to write about, but we'll see.  I am going to get some coffee, so hold on.  I will brb.  :)

Oops, coffee maching was unplugged, it is getting ready now.  I can give you some crazy stuff.  A lot of times when I write stuff, I have absolutely no idea what it means.  Not a clue, although I guess it can mean different things to different people. 

I got a little taste of what some of the points of my life meant.  Remember when after the hospital I went through that physical depression thing??  Just an energy drainer, and man did that suck.  You have no idea how I hated life during that, but you know Natalie got me hitting the exercise bike etc..., and at least helping out in that way.  Then the energy returned.  I knew the exact moment, and I lived a life of Jospeh Heller for a while.  Just a nut, going crazy.  I was out of jail type of thing, and man I was going to have fun with life.  I knew I had some stuff to do in my life, and it would happen.  I didn't know when or how or anything.  Who would have thought it would be this, and my life here and now, and Heimleblog, Journey, The Wait?? 

Anyway on that summer day during Heimleblog when just like that I was taken down.  Low Low Low.  I hit my breaking point.  I cannot do that again.  I cursed, and said WHY??  Why do I have to live this fucking life.  What a piece of shit.  So there I am with not a hope in the world.  Not wanting a hope, and yuck.  You see there was nothing I did to help myself.  I could not have done a thing.  That is a hard lesson too.  We want to think we are good, because we do this, and we do that, but really there is only one good, and we don't even really know what that means. 

I think I know what my posts the last few weeks have been doing.  They have been pulling hard at you I bet, and you all probably have thoughts and stuff about your life.  I guess we are making the turn, and I didn't know it was hard. 

That is trust though.  Trust in what you think you want or trust in the one with the best vision.  This is your journey and your battle.  Just think too, after I made the turn, I suffered.  I suffered for knowledge and wisdom I guess, and figured out that just because I made the turn, it still didn't mean I did anything good. 

In my heart was belief in the future days coming, which started out with Heimleblog.  Even when I lost hope, and my heart was dead, he took it, and keeps me going so to speak. 

Coffee is done.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.   oh.   o.k.   :)   thought you didn't like me anymore.  :)   xoxo  Good Luck!!  :)

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Oh, Jerry and I ran the 6 miler last night.  It was warm out, and a lot of people out and about.  There may have been some cute girls too.   ;)

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Gotta Rush This One

This may get a bit nutty today, because it can get nutty any day.  Like I said before I don't put a lot of thought into what I write, but trust my heart to be in a pretty good spot, and if not really that good at least honest.  Let's face it too honest is better than good, because we have control over that mostly, although we don't always want to do the honest thing, because really there is a lot to us we would rather just keep to ourselves.  Not to mention do you ever wonder how bad we are as communicators??  Many times we just internalize stuff, instead of expressing our displeasure and stuff. Some people are the opposite too, where they are just bitching all the time.  I guess I am glad I have a pretty good easy going personality.  Riding the wave of life I guess.  I don't get too high and I don't get too low. 

In blog land I haven't always been too good at these big changes that happen out of nowhere.  You know  my heart has been stabbed though at other times.  To the point where I was as low as low can be, even where I questioned the reason for my existence.  What a fucking waste, but with help I always got back up.   I even got to the point where I said no more.  I am done, and I couldn't have lifted one penny of strength to help myself.  That night I was lifted up.  I went through some more hard times, and then I went through the Journey, and boom right after the Journey starts "The Wait"  Do you wonder how I came up with the title??  I have absolutely no idea.  I just woke up one morning, or whenever I did it, and started it up.  Who titles their blog "The Wait" ??  I mean I obviously know why it is called the wait, but sometimes I am taken over to go in this direction or that direction. 

There is a plan, and it will work out, how I don't know, but We got this... ya know???

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  thank you Damie and Angela for the comment yesterday, and thank you Boston Kim for not considering me a VIP to invite me to ur blog.   BOOO on YOUUUUUU.   still luv ya though.  :)

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

MWAH!!!  

Monday, March 5, 2012

This Thing.

Boy, I tell you sometimes I don't always get this thing.  Yesterday I woke up, and read the blogs in my reader, and normally blog after, but it felt like it would be a chore, so I was like screw it, I am going back to bed.  Even today, I don't really feel like doing this, but I am up nearly 2 hours before I have to go into work, so I guess I will do it. 

I do want to explain some things about me.  This goes back a long time ago, but I am insecure in ways.  I was never good at asking girls out in my day, because I hate, and fear rejection more than anything.  It may seem I am a blunt asshole, but really I protect myself from rejection. 

People always misunderstand people.  It is human nature.  We tend to put higher and better attributes on people, because we want to see the good in the World, and hope for good stuff.  People are not perfect.  Our thoughts are never always pure.  All of us.  If you are looking for perfection, and a perfect life, and perfect everything you won't find it.  Accept life for the good stuff, and accept life for the shit that is bound to come your way.

I did have a successful training weekend I think.  I got my 20+ on Saturday, and let me tell you it was hard.  20 milers are always hard anyway, but we had to deal with a 5.5-6 mile stretch against 20+ MPH winds with 30+ MPH gusts.  I mean really, like a 20  miler isn't hard enough.  I had 6 miles in when we started, but we were running toward my house, so I didn't have to go all the way back to the bike  shop.  I could finish home.  I calculated the distance, and it happened Jerry and Cathy could get 16.  They got 16.5, and I got 20+ when I ran home.  Cath had to finish her route downtown, but we could all run together.  I thought it might be a lonely run early, because Cath and Jerry put a gap on me, but Cathy had to tie her shoe, and we ran together the rest of the way. 

Like I said the wind was brutal.  When we stopped for drinks, we couldn't stand too long, because we were getting really cold.  I don't remember getting so cold so quick before.  It really was tough conditions.  Even when I made my turn for home a gust of wind hit me, and nearly knocked the wind out of me.  It was really a crazy 20 mile run.  The end of the day you are glad you got it done, and you know that is a run that will help you in the future. 

Jerry, and I followed with a 6 miler yesterday, and we started off ouch ouch ouch ouch, but things loosened up, and got it in. 

That is about it I guess.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  one thing I learned yesterday about my run is the ouch ouch ouch to the things loosened up.  On Wednesday if I am feeling a bit beat up, I can do a longer warm up to loosen up, and I don't have to go all out 5K speed.  I can ease back.  That is  my plan anyway.  :)

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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Any Which Way But Loose...

Well this blog is definitely a go in any way at any time.  Today is no different.  I was seeing myself with a clear eye this morning, and kinda chuckled a bit.  Maybe not chuckled, but thought how strange this thing gets seemingly.  I know what this blog does, and what it is.  It kinda is a mirror huh??  You can kinda get a look at yourself through this thing.  We've been doing this life thing for a while, and following along and following along, and I come along and say stop!!!   Isn't this shit stupid?? 

What are we doing?? 

I think staying inside society helps mold us into cookie cutter people, and it is there where we are not happy.  Society is imperfect, and the design of imperfect people.  Life is so much more than the stupid bullshit we do day by day.  When we are 6 feet under all of the shit we have done is pretty dumb.  We won't think about any of it.  We all have to live in the parameters of society.  Follow laws etc...  Luckily for most of you you don't like doing gross things to farm animals on the corner of city streets.  Those of you who do I wonder about.   :)

Life is a Bitch.  You are going to die sometime, and that is the truth.  I think I said before a long term view is a good way to make wise decisions.  Decisions based on certain future events.  The stock market always rises is not a certain future event. 

Life is something to think about, and I don't think following society down it's dead end path is really wise, ya know?? 

20 miler today, and I am still undecided how many miles before the miles I will do.  I will run to the meet up place, which adds 2.85.  Maybe 4 before that.  Why the miles before the miles???  Cuz I don't like running to Mexico to get my 20.  I'd just assume stay close to home.  :)

Have a good one all!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am a fricken hipster ain't I???   :)   LOL

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Friday, March 2, 2012

In Case Ya Wondering...

I am having another off week of running.  Things have been achy a bit here and there, and if given the choice... speed work or long runs, I'll take long runs.  Also after last year's shit year, I don't want to do the injured thing, so I am taking days off.  I love epic 20 mile runs, or high teen runs in shitty weather.  That shit helps me feel alive on a Saturday morning, only to feel completely drained the rest of the Saturday.  Doesn't matter.  I dig that shit, and I don't dig injuries. 

I sometimes think my body is in tune with me too.  When I am really active, I eat a lot, and am always hungry.  Since I didn't do much yesterday I ate some peanuts, and then had dinner.  Not as a diet of any sort, but I eat as I feel.  I'll eat a million calories in a day if I am hungry, and 14 calories if I am not. 

So this week when my legs felt not so great on the concrete on Wednesday morning, I decided to skip speed work.  I train for fun.  I am training for the Lansing marathon, and not even sure if I'll run it.  I like the training, and the race whatever.  I'll definitely do the Riverbank, cuz that is my fav race of all time.  This year I go by a philosophy of less is more, if it keeps me healthy and running.  

Ya dig????


That is it for today!!!    :)

thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I almost wasn't going to blog, but decided to.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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