Holy Unplanned...

Okay, I was on vacation last week, and I barely blogged, and I barely read blogs.  I think I woke up with like 20 in my reader today or so.  I was like UGH!!!  I will give some observations.  I almost sometimes feel guilty if I don't comment when I read a blog.  wtf??  That is fucked up.  I don't give myself any slack do I??  I guess what I like to do is if someone puts effort into blogging, I guess I'd like to respect that, and give up some of my time to see what people are up to.  Been bad this week, sorry.  :)

Any way big changes seem to have come on my last vacation.  I used to be a big lover of book reading, and for some reason it left me for a couple years??  something like that.  It came back on vacation.  When someone tells you a book hit them, or made them think, or something like that, well that is a blog entry kind of.  You give a bit of yourself to say what hit you to make your thoughts go in a certain direction.  I love that shit.  I always thought if someone you respect gives you their top 5 favorite books, then that tells a lot about a person.  So I read "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" series.  3 books 2000 pages maybe??  They were good.  Disturbing at times, because well... people are fucked up to do some crazy ass shit, so you know it is fiction, but unfortunately you can see how there are probably things the author has seen that make some of it real'ish.  There were a lot of underlying issues the author took up.  Perhaps too many to really do any one justice, but a good trilogy. 

In my reading hiatus I stopped reading the Harry Potter books.  I couldn't get into the 4th one for some reason, and I picked it up yesterday, and  it is fine.  Burnt out maybe?  I know I know,  Harry Potter???   The books are good, so don't knock it til ya try it. 

One other thing, I am not training for anything.  Remember the good ole days  A.B.I.T.??  Yeah, well not so much.  I don't know the reason why... just a change in life.  My plan is to do a lot of running to work, and biking home from work.  A tentative plan is to run long'ish on Sunday mornings with Ken.  He is training for Chicago, and I can at least help him with boring long runs.  He wants to start early, so luckily I rarely get hungover.  :)

So I won't be doing the group this summer/fall.  Weird I know.  Work is crazy busy though, so I plan on working Saturday mornings to help out.  For now it works for me.  :)

I gotta get the fuck going, cause I am running to work you freakin' weirdos.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  whatever happened to that bitch Boston Kim???  She still alive???  Holy FUCK!!!   :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for the O'Tooles for sharing the trilogy, which my wife also tried to share, but like I said I was not reading books at the time.  I guess now is the time.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen, because I always think the world of her.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Gina, because she probably misses me.   :)  Bitch probably doesn't even read this.  :)  xioxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Oh yeah btw it was great hanging with Brian, and his best friend Greg last week.  They may be coming in September to do some work at Greg's parent's house.  I told him I'd take 2 of the 4 weeks as vacation, and help them.  Brian would bring his work to Michigan.  Mostly computer crap.  We'll see.  I drank way too much on vacation.  So much damn tomfoolery.  Bunch of fucking goofs we are.   Laughed my ass off though.  :)   At the end of the day, that is what it is all about. 

cya ya Fuckfaces!!!   :)

I Am Lazy!!

Holy Cow get me in a little staycation, and into a book, and that is all I want to do.  I woke up at 2:00 am yesterday morning... I know what a weirdo.  I slept in til 3-ish today.  :)

I don't really have much to write.  I haven't run the last 2 days, and I did a lot of reading.  It is nice to relax, but now I am halfway through the 2nd of Stieg Larsonn's 3 books.  :)  I'll have to finish it today I guess.  :)

That really is all I wanted to say.  If I don't blog over the next few days it is just, because I am lazy, and if I don't read blogs in a timely manner the same can be said.  :)  Just so you know.  I haven't even been turning on my computer or looking at my phone much.  :)

This is all relative I know, because I usually blog every day, and read blogs everyday, but I am out of my normal element now.  So ya kow.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I think I am going to treat myself to lunch today!!!   :)

Love You All  xcxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

The Train

I really was not sure what to write about today, but the train is something I was thinking about before I got out of bed.  I guess, when I take a week off of blogging, it is hard to tell what I do.  I have been running to and from work a lot still.  I am still getting in a decent amount of mileage in, although I skipped two Wednesdays in a row.  I didn't want to visit the pain train.  :)  I'll get back at it this week or next. 

Anyhoo Brian and Greg are going up North to visit Greg's parents for a few days, so I will have a few days to myself to do what I want.  I am going to read "The Girl With The Dragon Tatoo"  It is a train.  When I see someone I respect likes a book a lot, then I check it out.  It is why I read Catch-22-- my first time-- Hal.  I got into the Beat writers like Burroughs etc... from Brian, and "History of U.S. 1492-present"  "Catcher In The Rye"  I read that one book from that Japanese writer on Olga's recommendation, and even tried the Thoreau Journals... twice.  :)   I am sure I am missing some, but that is what I thought of this morning.  Movies kind of go in the same way too. 

After I read the book, I am going to watch the movie.  Nancy and Olga did last night.  :)  Lisa of course has already read it, and has it.  She has read everything.  :)

Oh, and yesterday I did get a little 3 miler in with Hope, and took Cammie for a little 1.25 mile walk.  Not sure what I will do today.  Maybe hit the trails.  I am going to read first though. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't always say thank you, but I do like likes, and comments here and there, so thanks always.  :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for the O'Tooles, because Olga has always trusted me, and I think Nancy is now too.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the rest of you too.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

 

Hey, I Sorta Ran A Race!!!

Not really.  I had a goal, and I was nowhere near it.  I wanted to break an hour, and I did the 10K course in 68+ minutes.  :)  You always have a plan, and I had a plan.  Easy does it Easy does it.  This course is hard.  It is basically 2.4 miles of pavement, and then trails, hills, and sand for the rest.  The hardest part climbing a dune basically took me 10 minutes or so to go 1/4 of a mile.  You also run a couple miles or so along Lake Michigan.  Yes so you have to tackle sandy and watery shoes.  Anyway I have no idea what I ran this course in last time I ran it.  Maybe I should check.  Hold on.  1:02:58.   Oooooopssssss!!!   Someone is a bit slower.  If I remember correctly It was a lot hotter two years ago, and humider two years ago, and I ran to the race too.  :)  O.K. O.K. I am a tad out of shape. 

Anyway I followed my plan.  My plan was easy does it until after the dune, and then pick it up if I could.  I knew I was following my plan pretty good, because I trailed John Emil, the 67 year old who turned 65 this year a good portion.  I passed him somewhere along the sand.  I kept up my easy pace, and survived the dune.  I followed a girl up it just using her tracks.  It made it not so hard.  I thanked her when we got to the top.  No one passed me up the dune, and the one who tried fell back shortly after, so that was pretty good.  Once we hit the trail again I sat down, and poured the sand out of my shoes.  I didn't really have a pick me up pace at that point, and I was not recovering up the hills very well anymore, as a matter of fact I even hit the phase where I was like REALLY????   Another hill??  SHEESH!!!  We finally hit the pavement again, and I may have picked it up a bit, but not really too too much until the last 1/2 mile stretch when I kicked it.  I passed a couple people on that stretch, and didn't get passed. 

Ken and Cory from work ran the race too.  It was Cory's first 10K.  :)  He may never run another.  :)  Ken did good too.  Ken is training for Chicago this year.  He is 65'ish too, and a multiple marathoner.  It was a good effort, a good workout, and I realize I gots some work to do.  I like being a strong runner, and I am at the point where I have been better than what I am now.  I will have to think about what my goals are this week, and what I want to run.  I imagine there will be at least 1/2 marathon, and the Mt. Baldy 15K.  I doubt I want to do a full marathon though.  Not sure if I want to tack those miles.  We'll see.  I'll run this week, and figure stuff out.  As a matter of fact, I will get a run in this morning. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  BIL is in town so expect a lot of tomfoolery!!!   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best!!!   xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

How Great Is This???

Many times in our lives we look for Grand Gestures.  Some want to win the lottery, you want people to respect you, and people to like you, and you know I think when we are most liked, and when people like us the most is when we feel the weakest.  When we let our guard down.  When we take off our turtle shell, and open up our soft side.  The side that can really get hurt.  That takes courage, because really for a turtle to take off his shell, he has to TRUST his surroundings.  Of course I don't even know if a turtle can take off his shell, but you get the point. 

We all have been hurt at some point in time, and maybe we didn't even know it.  Maybe we didn't look at it, because it hurt too much.  Remember those people in the bar who didn't want to talk of sad stuff, because they didn't drink enough yet.  It seems we all have a set of eyes that work.  Every time we have been hurt, I'd imagine the natural tendency is to build up walls of defenses so that never happens again.  I guess we look at life and worry about finances, and jobs, and careers, etc... and maybe the most important stuff is what we feel inside.  The stuff that makes us ponder.  Inside of us is all different things, and it is neat to look at, and you know all of us would like to know what is inside all of you.  Kinda a quid pro quo, I show you my stuff, and you show us yours.  Believe it or not we all are filled with insecurities.  Our easiest thing to show is our self-perceived strength we have built with our walls, but the most fascinating stuff is the stuff that made you build the walls in the first place.  What made you build your walls?    I wonder if that is what we are doing.  Taking down the walls we built, because in the end it really is no defense.  Our truly only defense is trust, trust that when we become naked... so to speak... there is support, and we won't ridicule, and we will not dislike.  Kinda a strange path.  Who would have thought???  We lived a life, and built up our walls, and layered ourselves with clothes, and now we go in reverse, and take all that down.  To heal ourselves we make it so we really feel our most vulnerable, and most scared, and maybe even most insecure.  It is through our weakness where we find strength.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny Garcia won his fight.  DUH!!!   like there was a doubt.  I am running a fun hard 10K today too.  Woooooo   Wooooooo!!!   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Nancy O'Toole again, because now I understand her.  She is very thoughtful, and very strong, but she has stuff inside her she keeps to herself.  So she does need them.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Gina  Behind the strength/walls she built up is soooo much more she hasn't tapped into.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

For the rest of you tooooo, because I think you all are in the same boat so to speak....   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

p.p.s.  There are a lot of people mentioned in this signature line, although I don't put your name on here all the time, you still are in the line. 

Took Some Time Off

Hi,  my name is Steve.  I sometimes blog a lot... meaning several times each week.  Many weeks 7 times in a week, and I think I almost took a whole week off.  So let me tell you about some things going on in my neck of the woods... after I get some coffee first.  Hold on. 

Reasons for time off?  Good question.  Maybe many.  I was down the week before I quit.  I don't think I always know when I am down, but I was.  A lot had to do with... Shit there it is again.  Having to put my dog down maybe... not really sensing I was down, but I was.  Remember the whole Toby died, and Carolynn and I get in a fight, and she apologized, and I cried.  I was down about Cammie, but didn't recognize it til later.  I felt bad about saying I may have to put the dog down... I thought what if people think I am mean etc...  I hate feeling people think the worst of me, and I was like why do I do this??  Why do I blog if  throughout the day I think people think the worst of me.  Also I thought people read this thing.  I have my important people who I really want to read this thing.  It is the O'Tooles, and Gina, and Doreen, to name a few.  Gina basically said she doesn't read, and I sent her flowers on her birthday too.  #SHEESH!!!  :)

So add to Cammie, and people didn't feel me that important to read my little blog.  You know I have a signature line, and it is to tell people in my own pathetic little way they are important.  If you knock me down thinking I am not important, than how will I think my signature line is anything, but a pile of crap??  Ya know??

You know when I was down pretty low last week you wanna know who came to my rescue... again??  Beverley Smith.  aka @bunky1110   I'll give her a #FF since it is Friday.  :) I told you she was a strong girl.

So anyway, I love strong people.  People who are not afraid to be different.  Being not afraid to be different is actually a form of being honest, and being yourself.  We all are different.  None of us are alike, and it is these little differences that make us all pretty fucking neat.  Those who only want to show the follow the pied piper of Society typically are boring people.  I say fuck the Pied Piper, he don't know shit.  Follow the beat of your own fucking drum, because that is a hell of a lot more fascinating than the stupid ass pied piper.  IMHO.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  you know I opened up about some stuff to Nancy O'Toole and she started tweeting more.  It sometimes is just little things people do that help you feel better.  :)

p.p.s.  BIL is in town this week.  He'll be here tomorrow, and I am on vacation.  Look out for a week long of drunk tweets.  :)   Also Johnny Garcia is fighting tonight.  WOOOOOOOOO   HOOOOOOOO    GO GET EM JOHNNY!!  I thought about going to the fight, but I am going to a movie with Lisa, and running a horrible 10K tomorrow.  Basically takes 2 minutes/ mile slower than a regular 10K.  Fun Fun.  A good workout though.  :)

oops... almost forgot this.

Love You all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Nancy O'Toole, because I think she needs 'em  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Gina, cause she is wonna my favs.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen, cuz I had two titles  I love Doreen  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Maggs of SSB who tri's for Bourbon... I like her.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxo

Extras for the rest of ya's tooo.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

For Those Interested...

Decided to do something different.  Keep them separated, and I will take the old little guy out on his own very personalized walks, and hopes maybe he chills out.  You never really pay attention to a dog, and their unique personality, unless you think you are putting him down.  He seems fine in all things, but with the little (big) puppy.  Jealous of energy or what??  Like I said who knows a dog??


I don't think me putting him down would have been very good for me, truthfully. 

I may take a break from blogging for a while too.  fyi

I'll see you around.  :)