If I Never...

live another day, I have been paid the most bestest compliment ever.  With help from google translator I found out the meaning of some french words.

You have my trust.... trust me

WOW!!  anyone ever tell you that?  No what I did in response?

I gave this person my username and password to view my deleted blog "Steve'e Journey"  This person felt uncomfortable, and deleted I think, but man oh man. 

For all the bad in the world, and the scared people, this is good.

You know what also??  I used Leigh's name on this blog, and she didn't care.  That also was a great compliment.  I don't know what people think.  I am like Adam walking in the garden Eden, between good and bad I know not.  How things are perceived I know not.  I know faith is a lot harder thing than one can imagine.  I see it with this blog. 

If you lie to me, you get knocked down some pegs in my eye.  That is why my list is "very" select.  Faith is not for the weak, faith is for the honest.  Honesty will be the hardest thing you ever do in your life.  Younger people are better at it, and typically girls are better at it.  Guys are some of the worst people out there.  :)

I went to Beau and Charity's last night, with Seth, Levi, Kevin etc...  The final effortless words goodbye were a hug and I love you.

We show each other everything, the good and the bad.  I know Beau and Charity's anger, and I know they are great.  They know people I dislike who live or have lived in this house, and they still love me, and I love them.  Seth is quite possibly the most patient nicest guy I know.  I know he still deals with pain.  Divorce, Dad dying, kids in Texas, who knows what else.  He works hard, and does no one any harm. 

I don't know what this blog means, and I don't know what people make of it.  I still wake up early, and I still add to it. 

It is easy for me.

I have come a long way.

I did this even during the journey.

If I never live another day it would be fine by me, because Olga paid me the best compliment ever, and I have friends such as Beau and Charity, and I love my right hand side, and some don't even like me.  :)

I think they do though, but have to battle some stuff.

If I never live another day I am fulfilled.

The best compliment ever would help me take a nail to each hand and both feet.  :)

Hard work doesn't make the world go round.  Love does.

The greatest GIFT!!

:)

That my friends is it for today.

oh...  11.14 @ 9:10  :)  The greatest compliment made this pretty easy.  :)

That is it for today!!!  :)

Hope Everyone Has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

ZOIKS!!!

I am up, but I really have nothing to blog about.  :(   I am going to listen to the Dire Straits song "Why Worry"  Why??  because blogger Leigh likes it.  :)

It is a holiday weekend, so maybe I will do a list.

• Labor Day = Fall
• Leaves will turn colors and things will start to die.
• Marathoners and racers love this weather.
• I had a dream last night...
• I wouldn't want my hands and feet pierced by a nail.
• I wouldn't want to have my ribs broken
• That was the easy part. 
• Willingly
• courage
• I won't be going to Chicago til after my marathon, if then
• When I don't hear from people I don't think they like me.
• :)
• Do I seem confident??  I am.... at times.
• I put myself out there with this blog, to be liked, or to be ridiculed
• Which way it goes.... I know not.
• I do it anyway, because....  I can!!  :)
• How out of nothing I can still come up with something is beyond me.  :)
• Full Dislosure:
• I don't use Google analytics, but I just saw this stats thing the other day.
• This blog is internationalish.  Poland, Russia, Canada, South Korea
• Doesn't get a ton of hits though.
• I really couldn't care less
• Rainforest got the most hits!!  :)
• Makes sense.
• Going semi-long today-- we'll see how long  10-13

That is it for me today!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

Blackberries...

Blueberries + Sharpie, or just stairway guides that help protect the feet??   hmmm....    :)

Not really sure if I have anything to blog about really, but I'll just play along, and see where it goes.  I am up anyway. 

So the run yesterday.  I was planning on grinding, guess what??  No grind.  It was all easy for me.  I had one of those days.  We started off, and I was standing outside, and it was cold.  I was like, I don't know how to dress for this kind of weather.  Short-sleeve shirt.  WOW!!  been a while, and I ended up with bloody nipples to prove  to myself I don't know how to run with a shirt on anymore.  It has been way too long.  I re-remembered after this day.  :)

So anyway, off I go at my own pace, which was a solo run pace for a bit.  After 4-5 miles The man with many first names and I went together.  Nothing really happened just clipping off the miles.  We got to the beach so the wind could spray the sand at us at 842 mph.  We decided that hurt, but looked on the bright side, and that is we wouldn't have to exfoliate when we get home.  :D    Not that I know what that is, but still found that to be a positive thing.  :)

So this is the 1/2 Marathon course, and around mile 10 it clicks, I start picking up the pace.  I don't pick up race day pace, but it is like in me to pick it up there.  At mile 11 I pick it up some more.  I am feeling good.  I am not going all out 5K pace, like I will on race day, but perhaps 25K pace.  Alan is stopped at the mile 12'ish marker.  I thought that was weird.  He had an easy way for us to tack on miles though.  Instead of going straight to the church, we can take a left.  Go all the way down and back is adding 6 miles, and Take a left at the church and go to the next light is 2 miles there and back.  I went home and mapped it.  It was exactly 8 miles.  I took it easy pretty much til our last water stop.  At 17.5 mile the legs were bouncing off the pavement.  The man with many first names fell back a bit.  He would grind out the rest of his miles to finish with 22.1  I took off.  I don't know what my pace was for the last 3.5 miles, but it was fast.  The legs were great  They kept going, and bouncing.  Really a great day for me.  No negative effects, and I napped til 3:00 p.m.  :)

21.1 @ 8:52  Good enough.

Like I said, I really don't have much today.   I finished my book, and it wasn't really sad like I thought it was going to be.  It was more just a pretty honest portrayal of a man's life.  Mistakes he made, people he hurt, and him feeling pretty bad he isn't perfect.  Wishing he didn't hurt people, but doing so anyway.  I am reading another of the guys books now.  "Norwegian Wood"  :)

White Sox sweep the double header to gain a 1/2 game on the Twins.  Sweep 2 in Boston.  Starting the road trip 5-0.  WOW!!  Now this here is a race!! 

That is it for me today!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

Congrats to all who managed to grind out your miles.  You will be stronger for it.  :)

Now that my friends is a wrap!!  :)

cya!!!  :)

Grind

is the plan today!!

I am not really blogging today.  I slept in til 5:00 am.  Woo Hoo!!  5:00 am sleep in.  lol

Today we run the 1/2 marathon course.  I will sign up for this race this morning after this.  My plan is to grind.  Get the 13.1 miles in, come home and grind out my 8 mile loop.  I am under a new training idea.  No more path of least resistance for me.  Time to embrace the hard miles!!

Wish me luck I don't turn the 8 mile loop into a 4 mile loop.  :)


That is it for today!!!  :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

I'll tell you all about it tomorrow.  :)

cya!!  :)

Rainforest....

and other board game dessert sandwiches for the family to enjoy.  :)


I have a lot today, which is weird, because when I was laying in bed at 1:00 am, I thought I had nothing.  I want to clarify something from yesterday.  I was up blogging, because I was done sleeping.  Yes, I do this for a reason.  I don't know the reason why I need to get up so early, but I do it.  I did it the summer before the hospital too.  Up early early early.  Wake up next to my cat, and off I go.  I walked before work, work, and walked after work.  So anyway just in case you thought I was busting balls, because I really wasn't.  I wake up early for some reason to blog.  No clue why!!  :)  It is fun for me though. 

I read parts of the Journey last night.  I see it with different eyes today, then what I had back then.  It really wasn't a bad blog.  I sometimes felt like everything I wrote would be taken the wrong way, and a lot of times I would suffer throughout the day.  Remember my swimming times???  Ha Ha!!  Good thing I jacked my back and stopped swimming huh??  :)

I found this funny list from the blog, I want to post.  A list of 10!!  :)

1. I like opening and closing Pine 6-panel doors in the summer time.
2. I like wearing winter hats over baseball hats. 
3. I like eating gum from the bottom of my shoes.
4. I like going to bed at noon, so I can wake up and watch "LOST" (or would if I did it)
5. I like cycling, swimming, and running around the world.  (At least 2-3 times each year)
6. I like drag racing.  (only Ford Taurus or slower vehicles however.)
7. I think the U.S. should import ALL their scarves from Winnipeg... oops (I would like that)
8. I like reading with the lights off
9. I like not setting my alarm for times I don't want to get up.
10. I love spending a lot of time swimming teaching myself to be a slow swimmer.

Ha Ha!!  well it seemed funny last night anyway.   :)

So let's see, yesterday I biked to work and back.  At work not much happened, I just sorted and counted an aisle.  I like doing that.  :)   Weird I know.  I napped around 7:30 for 30 minutes or so.  hmmm.  Who cares about that really?

Is this hard?  Do you feel this blog asks you to do something?  Interesting things are happening this week.

Should I tell you all about it? 

Something is up huh? 

Things are different.  I will put up something Gina put down.  I can always throw her on here, cause well she is one of my bestest buds.  The 2 natural IM'ers are well, how long have I been reading you right?  That Janary??  Sunday approaching 2 years.  Man was that a great Sunday.  That is when I really started to improve.  I would have swam and swam and swam forever to get good at tri's.  My back got jacked, just cause they are too expensive.  Road races are what is for me.  I already had two bikes too, so I could cross train.

Anyway Gina said you gotta let the past go.  I disagree, you have to look at the past.  I think Jen Gray must know that.  I feel something is off, because.... well I haven't texted Gina all week.  I feel fine to be honest, but I think things are troubling some of you.  This is the hard part huh?  This you can do though right?  I have done it.  I came out fine.  Some things hurt sure, but like I said last night others have been through worse than you.  I bet Anne Frank walked bravely to her death.  She knew she was going to die.  I am sure she was scared, but she did it. 

You know I was once told to say no to a job promotion at the interview.  I prayed let me have the courage in the morning.  I told the 3 interviewers while I was trembling, and shaky voice, that God told me to say no, so take me off consideration for the job.  They thought I was nuts, and Khien didn't understand.  Can you imagine?  shaky voice, and trembly hands.  God said he would pull me out of everything... every web I'd get stuck into.  We are lambs led to the slaughter right?  We have no idea what we are doing, but we are shepherded.  That is what happens here huh?  We have help now. 

So I say to you, it won't be easy, You bloggers are the toughest of the tough.  You are the honest ones.  God plans on working through you.  Coincidence you are on my right hand side??  no way. 

Well, who knows!!  I sense things though.  Seems like you are being asked to do something scary right.  Truth is right.  How about that?  To be able to go through, and do something you know is 100% right.  What a great gift that is.  Being honest sure is a great gift he gave us.  We are imperfect, so some of our truth may not be that great.  Living in the light means showing our good and our bad.  :)

I don't know what this means to all of you.  I have a feeling you knew something like this was coming though huh?  It is raining where I am now.  I know a hard day. 

Welp, guess that is about it for today!!  :)

Hope you have a Great and Awesome day!!  :)  (I know it will be a hard one for some)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

Be strong and be courageous!!  You got this!!!

Remember Johnny Garcia's last lap,  He waved me off, and said, I got this!!  Didn't want to know his time, and threw down his fastest lap.  You guys got this!!!  You are the toughest of the tough. 

Good luck, but I think you will do great!!  There is a great cloud of witnesses or something like that right.  Others have gone this way before.  You will do fine. 

cya tomorrow... in a sense!!!

Have a good one!!!  :)

IT IS THAT TREE OVER THERE!!!

That's the one that takes my milk money every day!!  :)

I'll start with the workout, and go from there.  You are supposed to go slower and slower on each interval right?  You know how I roll.  :)

4-12:00's The mile splits were this:

close your eyes now if you don't want to see uglyness.  :)

7:18-7:32-7:45???-7:57

I have a couple thoughts I had about this workout.  This workout is a beast, but I was not afraid of it.  I had a goal of finishing strong, and I guess that can take many forms.  On my last lap of the track, I pushed, I picked up my pace...kinda... gave all the effort I had.  We were defiinitely firm on the 2 minute rest.  During 2 and 3 12:00 if I felt I was mentally slacking a bit I pushed myself to go harder.  I gave no thoughts to how I would do my 4th, I was just putting in effort. 

My shoulders were sore after this workout,  umm aren't my legs supposed to be sore???  :)  It was humid, albeit not as warm as it has been.  I'd say mid 70's??  We run the half marathon course this weekend in nice temps...  ahhhh!!!   I'll tack on 6 or so before or after. 

I promise you this.  Last night on the track I gave it my all.  I thought of all the strong runners I read, and used them as motivation.  I got a little help pacing on my third 12:00 for about a lap and a half.  WOW is that nice.  I am definitely getting strong.  My ability to tackle the hard workouts is going well.  It may not show up in my times, but it will show up when the temps cool. 

So from a looker on the outside it may not look like a great workout, but I think it was.  I dug down deep within myself to push myself.  I will be stronger for this workout.  We will do this again too, and I will nail that sucker!!! 

Other than that not much to report I don't think.  I got my book from a Japanese author.  It is really good.  A very honest fictional book.  "South of The Border West of the Sun" is the name of it.  It is short, but the author is pretty intropective, like most of the people I read.  I don't think a fictional author can really take the non-fiction out of his or her writing.  At least the good ones. 

On another note of my workout, I did not eat dinner after, and I couldn't sleep very well, but yet here I am up again really early.  I will pay for this.  Hope I don't fall asleep on a shelf at work.  Hey wait!!!   I forget, we sell mattresses at the local lumberyard.  Better stay away from those.  :)

That is it for today!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  :)

Apples Are Red Because...

No one likes to eat yellow snow.  Well you might be the exception.  :)

I guess I'll start off with my workout, and see where it goes.  My workout yesterday was... well I biked to work and back the last two days, but you can pretty much just assume that, unless I sleep late, or it rains.  I will still bike if there is rain in the forecast if it currently isn't raining.  I don't wanna be wet when I get to work... well besides my sweat, which I can towel off with.

Funny story about yesterday...kinda funny.  I'll get back to it though.

My workout was just a 6.2 mile route.  I am soooo glad I did it before work.  Holy hot!!  As you all know I am not a tough runner.  I am a runner who has fun.  It may seem like I am tough, because I would run hills at 2:00 am, but that is easy for me.  You know my sleep habits are definitely a blessing.  Anyway the run was at 9:20 pace I believe.  Pretty slow, but the legs felt good after about 2/3 of the way done.  I started picking up some speed, with no detrimental effects to breathing.  It was probably still mid 70's and humid.  My shorts weighed in around 1000 lbs. when I was done.  I sweat soooo much. 

Naturally getting only 4 hours of sleep after my 1 hour of sleep, I needed a nap during my first break.  40 minutes I think.  :D  I was a bit zonked, but the nap lasted me the day.  Yep, I am lucky with that fo sho.  Maybe some of you are too.  Need less sleep??  You have more energy?  perhaps.  It is a blessing trust me.  :)  I had it, it was all taken away.  1 year of physical depression.  No energy.  Now I have a ton of energy.  Too bad it doesn't make me particularly a fast runner.  I am fast compared to some, but not a lot of the bloggers.  We all have things we are pretty good at.  :)

Oh story about yesterday's work.  I thought I grabbed my work shirt, but I went into my backpack and oops!!  it wasn't a work shirt.  It is the funniest shirt I own.  Our last time on Oahu a few years ago, Lisa of course had to go to Waikiki for shopping.  (Waikiki is the boringest part of Hawaii-- tourist area)  I stayed at Brian's.  She bought like 10 t-shirts for 50 cents or something stupid like that.  This particular one has a big picture of a pot plant all over it.  Ummm,  did you even look Lisa??  Ha Ha!!  I decided not to wear that at work.  :)  I was still out of uniform.  I had a white race shirt on, and a vest.  Everyone noticed somehow??  Huh???  I would never in a million years notice that shit.  We have white shirts we are allowed to wear.  How everyone didn't think it was just that shirt is beyond me.  Maybe cause it was just out of the norm.  Who knows.  I thought it was really weird though. 

Anyhoodle, I really don't have much to write about today, so let's see if I can be creative.   hmmmm not really.  :)

Maybe I'll still do a list.  I have been doing a lot.  :)

• nah!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

got a tip on a good book to read.  Gonna check the library after work.  Oh and tough workout tonight fo sho.  3.1 miles of speed last week = 9000 miles of speed tonight prolly!!  :)

cya!! 

Manny being Manny on the on deck circle, and A.J. gets a fat one.  Coincidence???  I think not!!  Thanks Tigers you stupid assholes!!  :)

I think Coop saw something in Edwin Jackson.  Coop is pretty great!!  :)  Relievers need to get healthy.  

now for real cya.