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Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am tired, but not horrible. One thing on my mind is shoveling is a work out. The ice/snow crap was heavy. Our driveway is all bare though so that's good. You never know if we'll eventually get a month straight of freezing temps, and a lot of snow. The last couple of years we had at least two months of that.

Also this year my blog total is 226. Last year was 143, but I figure I'll approach 300 next year. Seems like I am back in my routine. Last year I was off for sure, and I know why. I've been going at this blogging thing for several years, and among all these years of plenty so to speak you have to imagine there would be a year of drought. That's my thinking anyway.

A lot of people have stopped blogging basically, and I don't really know why. You go year over year blogging you get a pretty good idea of how people are. I genuinely look at people now compared to other times in the past, and everyone seems a bit different. Lives seem different. Happily Ever After is out of reach kinda.

What makes a person happy??  I know I am, and I know why. I wake up genuinely in a pretty good mood. I work during the day, and am pretty excited to come home and chill. I like to go to bed early, and wake up early.

Tomorrow we start a new year, and it is always good to have a new beginning. Sure a lot of people have great intentions, and we'll all typically fail at resolutions, but new beginnings are nice.  I thought of trying to come up with a resolution, but I don't really have one. I'll try and take hope every day, and maybe sometimes twice/day. That's the best I got.  :)

Anyhoooo it has been a year. I am ending it better than I started it. I am back in my routine I guess.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Time to check the weather and take the hopester. I am going to run to work, and Lisa will pick me up. She gets out early. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya. :D   :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Then I Had A Weird Thought...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept pretty good last night, and woke up before my alarm. Yesterday was a pretty good day. For one thing I was in a pretty good mood from biking home in the crappy weather the day before. I wanted to do it again, but the roads were horrible. As I was running Hope I realized I won't be biking in this shit. I only bike for transportation too, so you will never catch me on a trainer even though I have one. Worst investment I ever made.  :)  funny how I lost 47 lbs. by riding an exercise bike. :)  I was once a fatty, but those days are long gone it seems. Reason I say that is I don't diet, and my running is way down from marathon training, and I am down to marathon training weight. Somehow I think my lifestyle just changed. I don't have a huge appetite.

Anyways while I was running Hope in the sloppy snow I thought why not run to work??  I did it at a previous job roughly the same distance so I did. On the crappiest day of the year I ran to work and back. When I got home I drove my truck to get groceries for dinner. :)

So that was fun. I added the run to work in my arsenal, and I'll use it. I won't use it today, cuz I am going to drive. A buddy of mine is on vacation, so we kinda planned on having a couple beers sometime this week, so I will hopefully meet up with him later. One of those funny things where you hung out with a guy on occasion. You knew him for approaching 20 years or so, and saw him at work a million times over your life.

Pretty cool guy, and I guess I know as much about him as anyone. Kinda weird if you think about it. Seems I should know other people better.

Anyway I better take the Hopester, and I got some shoveling to do.


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great And Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Today should be another pretty good day. Definitely getting pizza for dinner.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Being Alive I Guess...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I wouldn't have minded sleeping a bit more but whatevs. Yesterday I followed Jan's law from work. If it isn't raining when you leave ride. So I biked to work knowing full well I was going to be riding home in crappy weather. It was raining??  Snowing??  Ice rocks. It hurt your face. :)  

It made me feel alive though. Also it was kinda fun. Luckily the wind was an easterly wind so mostly to my back. If it was a westerly wind my blog might titled being dead. :)

Anyways that was kinda fun. I would have taken Hope for a 2nd time, but that shit really did hurt. :)

Today I am skipping coffee, cuz I am not in the mood. I'll be taking Hope to scout out the roads, cuz I wanna bike to work. It doesn't look too bad out there.

Not sure what to do for dinner. I'd like to make something good. I may go through my cook book.

I guess today I will just live another day in my life. I do this shit pretty well, and my secret is my heart. Ha!!  I can't make myself like me, and I can't make you like me. I can only show you the way.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I'll have to check the weather before I take the Hopester.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D      :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Another Day Down...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got a good night sleep. I had one of those midnight wake ups where I felt almost ready to get up. I drank some if my water and slept pretty hard til my early alarm. I was kinda surprised by that. Not the waking up at midnight, but sleeping so hard after. It is not very often I wake up still maybe wanting to sleep more.

Anyways not too much on my mind. I feel good, and my heart is upbeat. I am starting a new week, and pretty soon a New Year. All this stuff seems pretty interesting to me. I don't know why. I have a feeling this year is going to be a good one. Not cuz I have any goals or things to accomplish, but just cuz.

So anyway work was pretty easy yesterday as I predicted. I saw the Star Wars movie, and I thought it was good. I watched football and ate. Lisa made her cheesy meatball thingies yesterday. She does it once/year for her brother, so I ate a lot of them, and fell asleep sometime during the 2nd game.

Not a bad day. If you want to know something about me, I wish I would do more stuff after work. I have a lot of down time, and I wish I'd use it more. Being tired ruins me. The wake up me is always just a little different than the I am done with work now Steve. If I had a New Years wish I guess it would be to be more worth a shit when I got home. :)

I kinda had a thought to take Hope before AND after work.

We'll see. I'd like to be a little bit more worth a shit though.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Time to finish my coffee and take Hope

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxz

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

A Bonus...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Usually on Sunday morning I sleep til 2:30 AM, and go to work, but I woke up early so a bonus. :), or not. Guess it depends on how you look at it. I am pretty excited about work today, cuz for some reason I think it will be an easy load. It might not be, but it seems like it should. For all purposes the Holidays are over for the grocery store. The eating from Thanksgiving to Christmas is over. Not being one to eat cookies or anything I can't say my diet changes at all.

Anyway yesterday was a pretty good day. I got a lot done at work, and today I wake up very excited for a new day. Not really knowing what this year has in store I still am excited about it. What will I be like??

So life continues to move on. Day after day after day. Much of what we do remains hidden. People are not really privy to the goings on in our life. Maybe you are a bit to mine, but there isn't much here. I love that I wake up like this most days.

I carry no baggage with me, cuz my whole life has been gone through. It is all known, and everything about me can be seen and is seen. I live in the light, cuz I am totally open.

It is one of the things you cannot understand of me. On the outside I look just like a regular person, but I was turned into something else way long ago. For a little while I thought I was the best a person can be. I was full in spirit for a short while a couple decades ago, but I was to become poor in spirit, and that was my path. I took it, cuz to not would have been foolish. At the right times my heart was made to do the right thing.

So I had to learn I am not special, and everything about me is given, I had to go down the path where I gave up. I couldn't go any further. Just like that my heart was taken, and back I was. Seems many times I had to learn of my own lack of significance, and overcoming the 2nd time I learned all I need to know. This is not up to me. This is not my battle, and I cannot win it. I need help to do what I must, and I have it.

I am confident and assured of my ways, cuz they aren't mine. I've been exposed to things you don't even know is real, or possible. I know why my path is the way it is, and I know what it is that makes me weak as a human, and in learning that about me I know stuff about you that you don't.

My story was pretty nutty, and I will never do it again. It is a one way road, and I will not be turning back.

Along my path I guess I was supposed to pick up people along the way, and I have and I do. Whatever my heart wants to do.

People have things to do, and they are hard things. Life is an imperfect thing made up of imperfect people like you. There is no way you can portray a perfection or any kind of good enough, cuz it is false.

Really what you need to do is reconcile your less than perfect self with what is possible, and that is perfection. The truth is a bear like that, cuz the way to victory is to first face your failure.

It is a hard thing, but learning the truth about you is part of the way. So I would throw away all the pictures and stuff, cuz we all fall short of what is possible. Also just cuz this story is way impossible for just little old us, it doesn't mean it is impossible.

The story is our weakness, and failures. It isn't about our greatness, cuz none of us are.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I just have to do the one job today. Pretty easy.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzz GaterzzzzzzZz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

This Year Is Sure Different Than Last...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I ended up taking Hope for a run, and sat on my ass and watched movies all day. As to me getting stuff done around the house, it didn't happen. I think about the end of this year coming, and I am pretty excited about the new year. Not really sure why, but all my years typically are a bit different.

Sometimes watching movies I wonder how people's lives really are. What kind of skeletons do people hide??  I let people know my shit. I was less than a perfect person growing up. People I lived with were less than perfect. I did hurtful things to people for any number of reasons. Selfish, and other reasons I assume.

To this day I remain imperfect, although that is temporary. The thing that is possible, but is not in our ability to be. I found the way to  perfection, and took it. Having done this it also became my job to teach others the correct direction. In so doing I see the way people have always been. I see why the numbers were never good.

People have no one to blame but themselves, especially the ones who see this. It is a good thing I do, but a bad thing if people see this, and don't heed the warnings or act on the teaching.

It isn't my story, and the teaching you get is not from me. The way of the World is to fall short. Some sort of "good enough" mentality.

Turns out life is a pretty serious thing with serious repercussions. It also turns out there is no answers in this World we live. No points in anything we do, so it is definitely a riddle needing to be solved. You haven't solved it yet. Between me pulling on this, and more pulling done with your real life you have stuff to deal with.

Life is hard. Hard stuff happens to us with death, and heartbreaks and stuff. We also do stupid shit too, cuz our hearts aren't perfect. The World says you are special, and good enough, and I teach real things, and say you aren't.

You are not strong enough to walk in the garden of Eden, cuz you hide, and because you are ashamed.

You live  in a World of coloring books, cuz the truth is too scary to look at??

Life is pretty ugly when looked at with real glasses, and the highest virtues you cannot even see let alone have.

You have a lot that needs to be done, and really as far as I can tell you are not one step closer.

Crazy crazy.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  4 in a row is something I can give freely, but something I don't necessarily have to do.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

For having two days to sleep in, I sure didn't.  :)  back to work today. Should be fun.

Byeeeee.  :)   Xoxo.  :)

A Full Day Off...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I have a full day off today, and am pretty happy about it. I am going to take the Hopester, and get some things done around the house.  I'll have to check movies cuz typically Lisa and I will see a movie every Christmas. The last 3 weeks I've worked 2 jobs on Sunday, and this week will be only one. Also we are approaching the New Year, so the excitement if a new year is around the corner.

I thought about my post yesterday, and guess it was one of those big ones. I don't always know that when writing. :)  sometimes with my blog I play a sad song with my guitar, yet I remain happy. :)  it is a way I get to know how your heart is.

Being a human our hearts will betray us. We kinda figure from this day forward we will always be like this, and think like this, but life has a way of changing circumstances. It kinda makes our 5 year plans pretty ridic, cuz we have absolutely no control of very much of the future.

I guess that makes me a bit strange too cuz I know my future. I've known it for decades, because I was let know what I must do. I didn't know what the bad summer was all about while doing it, but I knew after good was done. I still had to do that physical depression thing for a year, and then the energy returned, and so did my confidence. No matter what circumstances my heart was always assured. I carried this secret of mine hidden for many many dead years. Probably like 17 or something. Then I started the first of my 3 blogs. Each being pretty similar in I don't think my voice changed too much in either of them.

The end of the 2nd blog was very much like the night I went into the hospital, in that I overcame again, and I knew good was done. Then started the wait, and the final assurance of me and my story. I have the best help, and I would not be what I am without it.

The story of me is done save one final thing, and we are trying to get to your story. This is a hard story, cuz it is flawed. Your story is not perfect and either is your heart. To get to your story you will need help, cuz I suspect it is too scary to tell. What will people think? Also you need a better vision to your story, cuz time clouds our vision.

You'll find many people will spend much time proving they are right in whatever fashion instead of dealing with themselves really.

So yeah, life is hard, cuz we aren't perfect. We do a lot of stuff that isn't perfect, and everything is not past forgiveness whether it is a Hitler or something less bad. There only is one unforgivable sin, and that is nothing you need to worry about cuz you are nowhere near even being capable of that.

You have a lot to do really. You are not a finished product. There is much you don't know. I can tell you things, but you won't understand, cuz I see the World through different eyes than you.

Anyways, I am pretty happy today, and pretty happy about the people in my list. I don't comment always, especially about cookie recipes, but I still read. I don't care about much, but I do care about trust, and I think I have proven the wort to me of that little thing.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!

 Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Have I told you I have a day off today yet???   ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Hmmmmmm, mama S didn't blog yesterday, but now I gotta mention her 4 days in a row.  :)   Lol

I Cannot Even Imagine...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I woke up well before my early alarm, but I fell asleep early. Lisa had to run out to an appointment so I did what I do best. Fell asleep early. Not sure what time I fell asleep, but I woke up at 8:00 PM, and went to bed. So I slept good. I was tired when I got home too.

Anyways just before starting to blog I thought of a couple things. One is really the story of me. Everything was taken away from me. Security, freedom, you name it I was a person walking on the wrong side of being right. I cannot say I was free to do as I choose, cuz I had to find my way. I needed to be obedient, and really there was just a lot of fear in me. Much was that bad Summer, but also before and after that.

It took several years, and many dead years, but everything is back. Security, and currently I walk on the right side of being right. I am free to do as I choose, and my heart doesn't choose to do much. I don't put a lot of importance in most things, cuz the days end, and typically a little later another one begins. :)  between the beginning of the day and the end there isn't a lot of significant stuff that happens. :)

So, I am in a pretty good spot, but the story of the current version of me is only 2/3's done. I still have one more thing to do, and I'll do it when it is my time to do it. I always felt in my heart it was going to be sooner rather than later, but now I have no clue. There is a lot that needs to be done, and helping people on their way is pretty impossible.  Who knew??

So I thought about that for 2 seconds, and took 5 minutes to write about it. :)  as to what this year will look like I have no clue. I do have some ideas why last year was such a hard year as far as this thing goes, and I am pretty positive next year will go very much like the end of this year. At least as far as this goes.

As for you people I cannot imagine. I know we have a lot to get through, and many if you have to be broken, cuz the vision is still pretty poor. Maybe we always think there has to be a silver lining in things, but as far as this life goes have you ever wondered if there isn't??

It is a good thing to ponder, cuz the History of the World is a story showing no silver lining. You have slaves, and wars, and countries teaching hate to it's citizens. One day we were born crapping in our pants. Some day we will die. People get into relationships thinking this is the one, and we will live happily ever after. Many understand when I say if you have been with a person for a while you better be good friends, cuz that is what lasts. I got home yesterday, and sat in Lisa's reading room. She came in, and we hung out. That is a pretty good ending to the day for me. Just chill out a bit you know??

The thing we search for most in life is happiness, and also so much more. We want security, and contentment, and a desire to feel good.

Do you ever wonder if maybe those things are not in our power to attain??  It is something to think about, because it isn't.

The true story of us really is how little we can do, not how much. It is why we seek grand gestures, cuz this has to matter some right??

It doesn't really. We fill our days with various things, and what we want most we can't attain. There is a way, and I teach it. It is an invisible way, as is the ways of our heart. Things we cannot understand.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Oh yeah I mentioned Michelle S yesterday, and I am glad she is blogging a lot. Everyday she has something on her mind. I sometimes wonder where I find these people, and typically I think it was follow up comments. These days I don't really add to my list. Most people have stopped blogging, and I don't even know who is in my list totally. A lot of people out of nowhere I have gotten to know over several years really. It is just I made a turn, and it is the one thing you couldn't hang with. You will though eventually. Maybe this year.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

My Hair Is Getting Ridiculous...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got a good night sleep, and I am up before my early alarm. I wasn't horribly excited about running yesterday, but it was way better than I thought it would be. I am not running huge miles by any stretch, but still getting out there.

Yesterday just hanging out I looked at myself, and I looked pretty skinny for me. I haven't stepped on a scale in forever, but I bet I weigh less than my marathon PR weight. I should get a battery for my scale sometime.  :)  I think it is funny kinda, cuz I still wouldn't step on the scale much. Maybe once or twice/ year. So I probably won't get that battery for a while.

Not much going on. Work is pretty crazy. I looked at the orders yesterday for today, and I was like WTF.  :)  it is the most insane thing you can imagine. A thing called banket just goes nuts. I don't know how that goes with the season, but it does in a crazy way.

I need to get a haircut too, cuz my hair is getting pretty ridiculous. I may drive to work to do that. I can also pick up a free turkey I get. I won't eat that til later though, cuz we've had 3 turkey's already this season.

For dinner last night One of Lisa's bosses got her a gift card to Kozak's. A Chicago style hot dog place. She got a gyro, and I got a juicy Italian beef with giardinara   I also got a polish with the works. I love that shit, and I was too tired to make tacos, so we will have tacos tonight.

So life continues to go on. Little things like this fill up the day.

What does it all mean??

I guess much of what life is just this little stuff. Life goes on and on. We do all this stuff, and I guess many times we are bored so we pick up vices. Vices are just things we do to fill up time. Some more respected than others I bet.

Life continues to move though. One day you wake up, and your 40-something, and what do you make of your life??

What do I make of my life. Much of what I have done was hidden. I explained some things to you as I could, but my whole story is known. I am known inside and out, and I am not ashamed of me. An imperfect person in an imperfect vessel, although I do wait for those two to be perfect. Which definitely is a thing btw, but it hasn't been done a ton that is for sure.

Why???  Cuz people think the story is about them, and they do with their coin as they wish.

I was able to turn my coin in for a better one, and that totally goes against the grain of human nature.

Trust was always a big thing cuz your big life you live in your mind is a false view. Your eyesight is wrong, and we always believe WE ARE THE ONES WHO ARE RIGHT.

Anyways life goes on, and do does this.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  A lot of people don't blog a ton, but Mama Simmons has been blogging a lot. I like that she does. I liked her last update too. She is one way, and she questions whether she really should be different. I totally get that. Also we both run our dogs a lot, but I suspect she has a nice dog.  :)  Hope is another story.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Hazzzz Coffee, and Hazz Blog...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept all the way to my early alarm, and remembered I have a late alarm. I haven't used that in a while. Yesterday was a rainy day. It rained the whole day pretty much.

Anyway I am awake, and I hazz a blog. I don't really have anything to blog about, but what the heck. I'll give it a whirl.  A lot of times I don't know how my updates turn out. I kinda just throw them out there, and move on. I still reread my blogs to get some sort of understanding as to how they are. Usually I don't do too good with that. I get a little I guess, but I am different than you, and I don't think like you.

As a person of this World you think there must be something good and right about life. My path, which currently was way different than anything you've gone through showed me the true meaning of life. Life is a strange thing built on hiding, and deception, and lies, and things like that. A person really is not strong enough to stand up to the World cuz the World judges. When one speaks of bringing everything to the light who wants it??  To reveal all our hidden secrets??

Our jealousy, and lusts, and greed, arrogance. All that stuff. Plus we all fail in some ways as far as society goes.

The light is my strength. The ability to let it all be seen. I've been this way a long time, and it is all I know. I only have little memories of how it was before that.

People seek for answers and seek for their own special unique virtue, but the answers are not here, and your virtues you don't have.

We are a coin much like all the other coins before you. That is the battle too. You want your virtues, but you will get nowhere, until you ACCEPT your true worth of being one coin.

My whole life was given for this, and my life is way better than if I did anything else.

You just have a problem with the accept thing, cuz the truth is too scary??  It is too hard to trust??

You just aren't strong enough.  :)

We tries our bestestsssesss my precious.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.guess it is time to take the hopester. You know what I just thought of. I work, and then I can come home and chill.  :)  should be a fun day. Yesterday we did a lot at work. Today should be more of the same.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzz gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.  :)

This And That.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept great on Saturday, so work went pretty good. Had a huge load to put up, but much if it was extra stuff for the holiday, so it took a long time to sort, but after wasn't horrible. Sounds like they got someone to take over the frozen job, so I may not have to do the Sunday morning thing much longer. How long the person keeps the job is another story.

Anyway, as I was working yesterday morning it kinda hit me how lucky I am. Energy, and natural feeling of happiness is inside me, and I know it is something you don't have.

Free to do as I choose really. I don't have to do this or that. People this holiday season probably have a pretty full plate of things you "have" to do. I don't. It is a day off. We'll make a meal, watch a movie, and relax.

Today I woke up before my alarm, and decided to get up. I am going to take Hope for a run in a bit. A lot of life is how we feel on the inside and that is where you and I differ. For one thing my inside is open. It is able to be seen. Your inside is dark, and there is quite the battle in you on a day to day basis. How you are compared to how you are supposed to be. If you follow who you really are you may not like everything.

Who we are is the truth, and that is a person who isn't perfect. Who you are "supposed" to be is just bullshit leaven from the World. The truth is a bitch cuz we are messed up with a lot of bullshit leaven. People were made heroes and they are not.

Fun fun.

I know the holidays will be a tough time for some of you. It will be your burden to bare probably, so be strong. Don't worry about being perfect here, just endure really. Everything gets better in time if you stay on the right path/get on the right path. If you take the wrong path you will just get worse.

Anyways...

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. We get Christmas cards sent to us, and my wife hasn't sent any out in a couple years. Haha. She is pretty bad at that, and I am not sending any out. That is for fuck sure.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

All In A Day's Work...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I sorta feel tired, but I am done sleeping too at the same time. Yesterday I worked 2 jobs. Around 12 hours total, and I felt great. Wasn't tired at all. I walked Hope yesterday instead of running, and I didn't bike to work. I have a feeling those two things probably take a bit more out of you then you think. Maybe it was just a high energy no being tired day. You never really know I guess.

Not really too too much going in here. It was cold out yesterday, and it is supposed to be cold today, but the temps jump up right away to 40 and 50. It is great for the winter, but if the lake doesn't ever freeze we will have a warm summer. It is good now, but we may pay for it later.

Anyway yesterday was a pretty good day. Today I work for a bit. I'll pick up something for dinner, and chill out.

I'll take Hope for a little run.

My life is boring as Hell I am sure, but I like it.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't really have one.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz gaterzzzzzzzzz

Aloha.   :)

Lol.  :)

With A Day Like Yesterday...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got a good night sleep. I feel recharged, and I am ready to start the day. If you want to know what my life is like right now I pretty much give everything up until I get home from work. I work 7 days/week with only one day being a sleep in day. Every day I am at work before 6:00 AM besides Sunday. On Sunday I am at work by 3:00 AM.  I like working every day, cuz left to my own devices I ain't worth a shit. Could I be?  Probably not. Not that much in life that is important to do. It just so happens this time of year is busy, and we work our tails off.

I really am looking forward to 6 and 7 hour days. In my free time I can be a worthless piece of shit if I am tired, but give me an extra couple hours of free time I think I can be okay. I can do stuff cuz I won't be so fricken tired. Yesterday I got home, and I was exhausted. I could have probably napped, but I have no idea what that would do to my sleeping schedule. I kind of count on myself to be ready to tackle the day. I had a couple of drinks when I got home. Lisa got mad at me, and part if the reason is I wanted to go to bed so early. She blames the drinks, but I was ready to sleep when I got home.

When things slow down a bit I'll be a different person, cuz unknown to her is I'd rather do different stuff when I get home. I'd like to get in better habits, but during a busy season all is given as I pedal my last stroke into the garage typically.

I don't worry about that stuff though, cuz every day I still wake up like this. What is it to be like me??  I don't have to prove to you I am better than you. I have nothing to prove to anyone. How I wake up every day does not involve you in the slightest. You are either with me or not, and I don't really care what you choose.

Many try to prove to the World they have the answers, but they don't. Actually many might be afraid of the questions.  One question being what if I am wrong??

It is a good question cuz you are. I dealt with that shit. I believed it, and I lived it. I also survived it, and triumphed over it. A story not made by me, and that is where we differ. I did the tough stuff, and you haven't. You want to make your mark in the World, but you have to go to the beginning. The truth of you.

The truth of all of us is we just aren't all that great.

I can say a lot, but it is hard with you. You still have so much of whatever to prove.  :)

Anyways, today I work two jobs. I feel really really good. I think the bakery should be pretty easy today. We really got a lot done yesterday.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I get to drive to work today.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

You people are impossible.   :)   Haha

On We Go...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing pretty good. A little tired, but not too bad. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I ran, and biked, worked, got some crap done around the house. Not sure what I'll do today. I think I'll start my book.

Today I don't really have much on my mind, but I've been blogging a lot so what the heck. I like reading blogs, and I definitely appreciate the ones who update frequently. That number is diminishing in crazy fashion. You used to be able to get to know people a bit with their updates.

Anyway today is another day. I don't really have anything planned, but work. We will have to do something for dinner. Not sure what to do there either.

Many times I guess I wake up without a care in the World. How can that be??

Lol. I've labored hard and traveled far to learn I am pretty much absolutely nothing. :)  the true story of me, and the true story of life is pretty nutty. It is impossible for you to walk in my shoes cuz my heart is in different hands. As you are now it is impossible for you to understand me.

I kinda know some things about you though that you don't. How to bridge that gap??  I know how, and so do you.

Anyways, I think I'll finish my coffee.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Gotta check the weather.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz

Aloha.  :)

Byeeeeee.  :)    xoxo

One Thing I wanted to do...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had one of those good wake ups today where I was surprised how much more time I have to sleep. Strange thing about it was it turned into an I am done sleeping. I sat in bed for an hour, and decided to get up. I wish I felt like this when I get home from work. I am ready to take on the World, but many times after work I am tired. After the holidays things slow down a bit, so Jan-Mar may be a pretty good time. I may try to increase my mileage during this time. See how the knees hold up and all that.

Anyway this blog is over 1500 entries, and I don't remember everything on this blog, but I do know only a select few people have been mentioned 4 updates in a row. Less than 5 probably. So in less than a weeks time Andrea has gone from an acquaintance to a pretty important person as far as this blog goes.

I will know very little of her day to day, but I know it will be a hard year for her. A lot of hard days. I will never know what it is like to be a Mother losing her son way too early, but I've dealt with loss.

You see a little picture of life here though. What can one person do to help another when life is filled with tough things like this??  Not much huh??  This here is real life too. Everything else is just stuff people do. I can do little for her, but in her most difficult time I can try to keep her up. Tell her she is important, and I know a bit of your future for the next year.

She has friends and family she will turn to, and she will have alone time where I presume most of the important stuff will be done.

I am glad I can do this little thing at least.  :)

Anyway not much else going on. I did pick up a new fajita seasoning at the Mexican store. I made quesadillas out of it. 2 thumbs up. I'll do that again. Not sure what to do for dinner tonight. No ideas at all.

I did realize I was tired biking home yesterday. Some guy just blew right by me. My legs had nothing. :)   Kinda funny.

I guess that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  This is such a great part of the day for me.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Also adding Andrea to luv ya's.   :)


Bye all.   :)    xoxoxo.

Another Day Done.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. Yesterday I had another day. I had a busy day of work, I had a meeting to check on health coverage, and we had pizza for dinner. I took Hope for a run earlier, and that was about it. Today will be much the same, except I have no meetings, and we will have something other than pizza.

Life keeps moving, and I do too I guess. It is a simple life I live pretty much.  Work, eat, sleep, and fill up the other time with stuff. I am not very good at society I don't think, cuz I have no interest in it. I have no loans, besides house. I have no credit cards. We owed the irs some money, but that is coming to an end. We were making payments every 15th of the month. I remember we would have to pay most of this year, and then we'd be done. Today is the 15th so it may be our last payment. I'll check to see what gets deducted when I get home. We were paying $75/month. We also have a tax lady do our stuff now too.

I have satellite for tv, and I have a library card. I have 3 jobs too, and I am glad I kept them all. Really everything is just simple. Nothing I am missing in life. Nothing I need to accomplish. I know that probably sounds like a horrible person to you, cuz I have no drive, but my heart makes me this way, and I trust it.

I trust my life, and I trust me. I trust what I think mostly, and I wake up everyday not regretting anything. I could explain stuff like that, but doubt you can understand. It took a lot of life, and a lot of other stuff too, to be placed in these shoes I walk in. You cannot walk in my shoes cuz these are a gift. Given to me years ago. Kinda like good job, here is your new life.

It pretty much is the best life a person can have, until they are turned into the best a person can be.  It is a good life I lead. I never really see where I was headed. Many times I was in the wilderness not able to see much. Turns out I was led in a good direction. My story is well documented.

I am glad I guess, and happy.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Gotta check the weather before I take Hope.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Extras for Andrea again too cuz my heart feels for her xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Bye all.   :)

Sleep Matters.

I know that is stating the obvious, but Saturday Night I slept like shit, and had to work two jobs. I was tired, but I felt like I stayed up all night. If I slept at all it was light with little to no REM. last night I slept good. I woke up a few times, but from a deep sleep. It was always a good wake up too. One where you are surprised how much more time I have to sleep. :)

As to me picking up new vises I guess it will be okay. I had a couple drinks yesterday, but maybe I can get some stuff around the house, watch tv, or read.

Thinking about things like that you can see how the World operates. People tend to think they are better than other people cuz they do this and that, while others are doing that. Which is even worth anything??

You can train/exercise, but that does nothing for anyone. We live this whole life, and where are the points??  Being a good consumer??

Every avenue is just stuff. You have been told all this stuff before though, but no one ever taught this to us. We were told by other people that life is supposed to be this great thing. Life is made up of imperfect people doing imperfect stuff. We all are in the same boat.

So we go on with our life, and there is stress, and all kindsa stuff.

There is a better way to a better you, but I play the fool, cuz that is foolishness no??

Anyway it was another weekend. Every once in a while I thought of how Andrea was doing losing her young son. It was strange, cuz when I saw stuff was serious I didn't know what was happening, and no one really said anything. Then when the son died I felt something. I still don't know what happened. Seems like something sudden like a car accident or something.

Anyway it rained this weekend, but it was going to be a rainy weekend for her and her family anyway.

Life is like that. We go on living doing the stupid shit we do, and something serious happens.

I don't know why people think they are right. The truth is so much harder than I ever imagined.

Sigh.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. No clue if she reads this, but if she does I'll give Andrea extras xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

That Sure Sucks.

So yesterday in a p.s. I mentioned a FB friend of mine had a son battling for his life. I guess he lost the battle. We have 37 mutual friends, and that is quite a lot for me, cuz I probably only have around 250 total. Obviously we went to HS together, cuz that is where most of my mutuals come from.

Anyway that is real pain. You don't plan for that shit, and there is no manual to deal with that. Time is your only friend, because that is what is your biggest ally at this point. Time heals in these types of things. I always put 1 year as the miracle mark, because it kinda is for me.

I'll add Andrea to Steve R's thing. One of the little things I can do.

I feel bad for her, and don't particularly want to know that pain. Brutal shit, as some of you parents who may read this can imagine.

Anyways as for me, I did go to the library, and picked up a couple movies and a book. The book is about mafia, attorneys, murder, and those getting close to the truth getting closer to danger. Seems like such a short book for all the action promised.

I also started dvr'ing South Park episodes. The people at work were saying this year is great, so what the heck. The first episode I watched, (not sure which season) was about teaching sex ed to 4th graders, and then kindergarten kids. Completely ridiculous. It is a funny show.

Also tallying up my hours this week I end around 56-57 work hours. Not even sure where I have time to have a vise.

Anyway on a day like this I am not important. Andrea losing her son is brutal.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Got Brazilian gas station coffee, and promise to buy coffee after work today. (If I remember). :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)
MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.    :)

In Search Of Another Vice.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am thinking of finding another vice. Something to fill the hours of my day. I find most of life to be quite boring. Projects around the house, TV, books. Everything is boring, and nothing really serves any purpose. Currently my vice is a few cocktails. Something that fills the time, and lets me go to bed.

Lisa isn't happy with my current vice, but probably she just isn't happy in general. The sad fact of life is it is filled with hours and hours of time. I surely could be a better husband, and a better person. It might make her feel a little better, but life isn't about being happy. It is what you seek most, but it is out of reach. One of those little things that we are powerless to grab.

So out of a life filled with time, what should I do??  For sure I should plan afternoon activities. Take Hope when I get home for another walk/run??

Reading is okay maybe, but it is overrated. Reading doesn't make you a better person. It just fills your head with some other shit from someone else. I find many books to be boring, cuz the shit in many people's head is boring.

You look around your little World, and all the people have vices, cuz that is what life is. Selfish things we do, and only to make us cope. Some vices are advertised well, and colored with nice ribbons, but it still is selfish crap that serves no purpose.

The World is filled with time, and we need to fill that time. My guess is a lot of your time is filled with some weird shit just like mine.

So, I don't think I can run a ton of miles without breaking down, but I'll seek another more Lisa friendly vice.

Fucking life.  :)

I know how I am on the inside, and it really is a life coping gift. How do you people cope??  How do you fill the hours of your day??

I'll let you know what I do this afternoon.

A lot of times I come home tired though.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I saw something on FB where a FB friend of mine has a kid in a struggle for his life. I barely know this person, and no clue what the son is suffering from or why his life is in danger. Hard to know stuff if you don't know people or their story.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Gonna Drive Today.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I woke up tired. I slept an hour after my early alarm. There are actually a couple things I thought about before getting up. One thing is none of us are Saints so who cares what we think??  If you are not a Saint then your ideas of a Politics mean nothing, and your ideas of who is wrong and who is right is probably whack. Maybe more important for you is finding out why you are not a Saint. No??

Shit, we can live a whole life being holier than thou, but that is fucking  stupid. Your churches aren't making you better, and actually are making you worse. Those speaking to you from a microphone whether they wear regular suits or funny ones are not Saints. They just play the part. Ask to check their personal computer history. They won't share it with you, cuz they are probably looking at the same shit you are.

Where is one to turn??  Don't turn to politics, cuz that is dumb. Don't turn to the news, cuz the World has always been fucked. There is only one turn that matters, and that turn will help you deal with you. Your anger, and hate, and all the other bullshit that makes you not a Saint.

For my way you will have to do tough stuff maybe. Maybe not too. I had to do some tough stuff where playing the fool was the least of my concerns.

Today I probably will not exercise at all. I will once again not be a Saint in your eyes, but I am in the one who matters, because he plays by different rules. My path is perfection. That is the end of the current me. There is a point where right lives for a time before becoming perfect.

Who knew??  When I was young the false teachers gave me some miracle prayer, and said I was good. It took life really to bypass their teaching by miles and miles. Now I have become what they are. A teacher, except I take no donations. A true teacher asks people to give up their other coin as it is written.

I guess some days I do have stuff on my mind.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am so much different here than in real life. I am just normal me when not in blog land. That must be strange.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz GaterzzzzZ.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Running Out Of Things... maybe??

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good night sleep, and I like that. I don't really have anything on my mind, so that is why my title, but I typically have nothing on my mind, so who knows.

I guess I can talk about me some, since I guess that is what a blog is probably. When I get home from work I let Hope out, and then I sit down. I don't turn on the tv. I chill for a bit, and really I am just waiting to start dinner. I don't know how that looks from the outside, but I am typically content not doing a damn thing. I am more than comfortable in my own head.

I am not a big news person, and I am not a political person. I think most of that stuff is garbage. People will not be changing the World. I figure most Politics is a message of hate and anger. Let's get mad at the other side. Clearly they cannot see clear how tainted their vision has become.

So much anger and hatred. When will people become tired of that??  Will they??  Will they ever think maybe the path of anger may not be good??  Those who wear suits should probably not be listened to??

Who knows. Life is kinda a big deal in we are alive living. I made the right turn long ago, and I am who I am now. Totally different than you. With no ability to really help you very much in life. The big stuff that really needs to be done I cannot help you with.

I don't even know how to make my message easy for you.

You must have some thoughts on you and life, but for many the false teaching and the weeds of politics have such a strong hold on you perhaps you are doomed.

People have to go their own way, and I'll let them, simply because I am right, and if you are not with me that isn't my problem.

So today will start out like many before it. Seems like this may end up being another day in my life.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. No coffee means I better bring tp on my run.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz  Gaterzzzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.   :)

Getting Something Down.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. I went to bed a little early, and slept pretty good. I like a good night sleep. I don't really have anything on my mind at all, but I'll try to get something down. I still forgot to buy coffee, so I am not having a cup for the 3rd day in a row. I'll pick some up sometime.

My life boils down work, eat, chill sleep, with typically a little exercise in the form of a run, and biking for transportation. Quite boring I would imagine.

As little as my life is the inside of me is quite little too. There isn't much to me. I know me so well, and the truth of my life is I boil down to very little. It is the truth of me, and my life. Since it is the truth, and I am on the right path I totally dig it. It is good, and I am happy.

I think of others, and I don't really know people too well. It is hard to see them. I gather people's lives are big. This thing you are doing is a big deal right??

What if it isn't??  What if it is just a life that trillions have done before you. These trillions had the same ending you will have.

That is why there are mid life crises, and bucket lists, and stuff. Once you view your mortality you realize this thing better matter.

The funny thing is we don't really matter. One of the trillions who walked before us. It says the truth will set you free, but the truth isn't exactly what you think. The World teaches different lessons than the truth. We are born poisoned by the teaching of the World. It takes a great deal to be put on the right path. Fact is it is impossible, but with help it ain't no thing.

We are weak. Just a measly human.

The truth is so far away from what people think.

I kinda can get a little view of you. It is dark inside, and that must make you wonder.

Anyways, you got a lot to do.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Time for a little run.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

A Strange Night.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday ended up being a bit strange sleep wise. I worked at 3:00 in the morning til 8:00'ish, and worked like 3-1/2 hours at the cleaning job. I came home and watched the Bears lose, and slept through dinner. I woke up at some point in time, and had some cereal. I was tired when my early alarm went off, so I stayed in bed a bit.

I will not have time to run, but I'll bike to work and back. I did pick up some extra hours cleaning, so I'll be working a lot the next couple weeks. Come January or before we will just be swimming in money. That is good, cuz we gotta save up for a few things. Time for new phones, we aren't gonna do AT&T anymore. Gonna go a cheaper route, and get our own phones. Also a guy at work is going to build us a new desktop, and then save for me.

Silly silly.

Anyway things are looking up. I went for a long for me run the other day. A long for me run is 4 miles. :)  it felt good, and I thought I could run forever. The only problem is my knee started bugging me a bit toward the end. It didn't bug me after so who knows. At work my legs were a bit fatigued. I like that feeling.

Other than that not much going on. Today is Monday, and that is my easiest day of work. I start off today in a pretty good mood.

What more can one ask for??  It is almost incomprehensible to me that you people not wake up feeling like I do. :)

You don't know what you are missing out on.  :)

I do.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Gotta like Mondays.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzzz   Gaterzzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Took me a while to remember aloha. Was thinking there was something I was forgetting.  :)

Xoxo all.  :)

Just Strolling Along.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday I had a day, and it went okay. Work was fine, I biked to work and back, and I got a free box of wine. :)

I got home, and didn't really have anything to do so I drank some wine. I chilled, ate dinner. Dinner was Thanksgiving 2, as we had 2 birds this year.

So that was that. Pretty good day. I got to sleep in today, and that was pretty great. I did wake up one time wondering what time it was. I was kinda confused, cuz it took me a while to realize I can get up whenever.

So today is starting out with gas station coffee. I'll get a run in, go grab some breakfast, and work. I told my manager to switch my schedule for a bit later, which she may or may not do, cuz she said it doesn't really matter what time I come in. That's cool, I just didn't want to be the guy who always comes late, but the managers have some leeway at the grocery store. I never call in either so.

So not much going on this weekend. I work some both days, and maybe get some stuff done around the house. Maybe drink some more boxed wine. :)

The days keep on going. On and on and on with my boring looking life.

Funny funny how different I am. Strange how it is just my inside that is so different, cuz you can't see it except maybe here.

Strange strange it has to be this way. So much you haven't even seen. I cannot really explain things either.

What the heck though, it isn't my story, I am just along for the ride.

These days the ride is pretty good too. :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I got a Brazilian blend coffee today, and it is pretty darn good.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Lol

Morning Dilemmas

Hello and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept all the way to my early alarm. I did wake up at 10:00 or so for a brief moment, but I zonked pretty much the whole night... Well, at least to my early alarm. My morning dilemma was coffee. I've been having a cup in the morning, but I am out. Hmmmm.  It is dumb too, cuz I was at the store yesterday and forgot to pick it up.

I decided to go get gas station coffee. Reason being is I think I ran every day this week, so I can take a day off.

So that was my dilemma. My morning routine is out of whack.

So life goes on. I was reminded yesterday as to how our best laid plans don't always materialize. We sorta try to carve out a little life with how we feel at the time, but life has curves. These curves are things we don't plan on. Life looks different with turns, especially big ones. Sometimes the us we used to sorta know is not the same person. The little life we carved out might not be even there anymore.

Then what??

I guess I knew there would be some hard curves for many/probably all of you. Curves help out vision of life. Curves are your life being pulled. You are being pulled to make a turn. I pull in my little way, but the puller of the strings of life does the work. Your story will be different than mine, but I gather it will follow a similar theme.

You are not stronger than life, and your insides you don't really control, cuz if we did our lives would be perfect, and we'd always be smiling and shit.

Beth, had a great update yesterday, I'd link to it, but I am lazy. There would be no :) without her, and the blogging every day, and the :) are the 2 things that always come first.

There are other special things I give, but the smile and the blogging have been around the longest.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Tomorrow is sleep on day.  Yay.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Another Night.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had another night where I woke up at midnight. This time I couldn't fall back asleep. I went to bed around 7:00 PM. I definitely got close to 5 hours of solid sleep. There you have it. I feel good, and plenty rested. I'll probably run a little longer *for me* since I got the time.

I kinda been going by a general rule of biking to work if it isn't raining, although we need dog food, so maybe I'll drive today. We'll see.

Other new things is my wife is on FB, and she actually logs in. Haha. Now that is funny. She even posted an update about something or another. I think she was bitching about the PC bullshit in the World.

Had a meeting at work last night. Just kinda getting people to get ready for the busy pre-Holiday rush. Being my first year here everything is new to me. As is the case with most businesses everything slows down in January and February.

Not much else. Just an endless string of days tied together. Does my life even boil down to anything besides work/eat/sleep??  I do a bit of exercise, but it doesn't consume my life.

I have a feeling it is a way I am different. My life is so insanely simple, cuz all the complicated stuff has been taken away. All our lives have some level of Bullshit in it. Some childhood crap from imperfect parents. Some just normal Bullshit, cuz none of us are perfect. Just shit we fuck up just cuz.

High School guys are a walking boner, that is that. Maybe some guys don't even graduate too far from that. Girls, I have no clue about. It seems they spend a lot of time clothe shopping, and hair coloring, make up for some??  I don't know. It is easier for me to be in a guys head.

Really though I don't know people all that well. I know me, and I know me pretty darn well.  What if what I say is true??  All your Bullshit you have to deal with. All the mistakes, and all the Bullshit you hide inside.

No one wants to do it. Why??  Cuz your just a miserable human, and we all do some stupid shit. Hell, we all shit, and that is pretty fucking gross. Yesterday I shit outside during my run, and wiped my ass with wet leaves.

Our clothes cover out flaws, and the sheet we use to hide all our sins helps no one see us.

The best part of life is showing our less than perfect self, but it takes steps, and obviously that is way harder than I ever imagined, cuz this shit wasn't hard for me. Everything after the step was hard and scary.

Now my life is easy, of course we all come across some BS along the way, but I am good.

I did it the right way. I didn't do it the perfect way, but the right way. I was obedient, and I was led on a good path. One where my own greatness could not help me, cuz I am not great. I needed much help to get where I am today.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. After today our highs are in the upper 40s lower 50s. Pretty sweet for December.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.   :)

First Thing On My Mind...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. First thing on my mind today is sleep. Mine was unique last night. First off I slept good. I woke up at midnight, and felt great. Like I was done sleeping great. I was just sitting there for a while planning my morning in my head, and maybe thinking of other things. Not sure, but somewhere I zonked again, and slept hard on and off til right before my early alarm. Sometimes I wake myself up with my mental alarm. Remember years ago I always woke up at 2:00 AM without an alarm. These days I set an alarm for 3:00 AM, in case I need it.

Anyway that was the first thing on my mind this morning, and that is about it for me today. :)

I'll go on though cuz you never know. I am back to drinking a cup of coffee most mornings just cuz. There really is not a lot to me and my life. There is nothing particularly interesting in it, although I am not really bored.

Yesterday I wanted to do a couple things around the house when I got home, but I was tired. When I leave in the morning I want to do this and that, and many times after work I am tired. It isn't really a sit down job, and actually none of mine are. One of the dishwashers was sitting down taking a 5 minute break. He was on his feet the whole shift, and it made me realize I was on my feet the whole day too. It really isn't anything to me, but one of those things you think about during the day.

My day ended with tacos. Lisa had to go to a Christmas parade with work. They drive a work van or something in the parade. I went to bed early and slept good.

So there you have it. A day in the life. Nothing particularly interesting, and nothing particularly significant.

That is one of those little truths too I bet. A little thing that escapes us if we let it. There is nothing particularly interesting or significant about our lives, but we beg to differ. :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I have to check the weather, in case it is warm. Winter warm is 40 degrees btw. Short running weather.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

Tuesday Is Gone...Like The Wind.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Had a pretty good day at work. I made sloppy joes for dinner, and I woke up before my early alarm. I feel pretty good, and I'll get a run in. Sounds like it is raining too, so I get to drive to work. :)

Anyway yesterday at work Jacob made a to do list for us, and it felt good to do some detailing. I cleaned, and maintained floors at my previous main job, and it takes good eyesight to see things. Not reading the letters on the sign from 10' out, but a trained eye to see what needs detailing. One of the things I cleaned was the bakery table kegs. To me it looks like the table is built with 1-1/2" black iron pipe braced with a floor flange. I now see those legs can get gross, and those flanges collect a lot of crap. That is one thing I never even looked at before, and I've been working there a little before Memorial Day.

You know that is kinda how our life is too. We go living day to day. Life goes on and on, and how much stuff do we not even notice??  One day you wake up old, and where the fuck did life go??

Yesterday was cyber Monday, and I upgraded my running app at half price. That's cool. Maybe it will help me get more motivated. I mean I run, but with no chasing goals. Just running to run. :)

Other than that not much going on. Yesterday was kinda a swordy update. Sometimes you get bombarded with too much crap. Life is hard, life is not perfect, people aren't perfect, yet people many times want to show they are right, and doing things right. Sometimes it is too much.

That is why I got rid of my Instagram thing. Pictures are pictures, and no one shows us the crap that is crusted on the floor flange. Do you not even know it's there??

Probably not, cuz your eyes are not trained.

It's there though.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Do you ever get the feeling my signature line adds more people then the amount of people who read it??  I sure do, but mostly I don't care. Also I've added a lot of special things, but I got nothing for Colleen K yet. Something will come up. I just don't have anything right now.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)