moynin alllllll!!! :)

Just a quick update I think. Let me get some coffee first, with vanilla/caramel creamer. :)

Want to know what drove my run yesterday?? Jerry had to watch his special needs son and couldn't run. I could easily have run 6 miles, and added long during the relay. I wanted to show up at the relay with bragging rights. I still got my 10 miler in, and am flexible to do whatever. It is kinda a miles before the miles type thing. Oh well I already have such and such miles in!! :) LOL I like to be ahead of the game!! :)

Plan still is to double up on the long-"ish" runs, and get another 10 miler in or so. I figure we will be done around noon or so, and then it is beer and chili!! Yay!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. Today should be phun!!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for everyone too!! Xoxoxoxoxo

Now for really cya cya cya!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

mornin all!! xoxo. xxxx. :)

 Hello folks, how is it going?? Me I am doing good. I have coffee with caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Well what happened yesterday?? We did our taxes. We went to a person this year, because Lisa didn't think I was doing it right. You hear of people getting a ton of money back, and we usually have to pay in a bit. I try and break even btw, so as not to give a 0% interest loan to the guvermint. We owe $400. On the bright side we will in a couple weeks get our profit sharing checks $4500 give or take, and nothing to spend it on. No bills. We will be all caught up on stuff. Most will go to a rainy day fund, and we will keep $500 to pay ourselves $250 for two weeks so Lisa can take a couple weeks off from work. Living without debt is the bomb. We are not smart with our money, especially fake money, but we are so dumb now the bankers don't even know we exist!! :)

I have a fun weekend of running planned. I should do some stuff around the house, and laundry and stuff...but lessee anything on my mind??

Confidence. Don't we all wish we had more?? Many times we view ourselves on a perch. We dress ourselves in nice clothes, and nice houses, but really these are not what define us. They matter none. Think of the Saddam pictures. Head of a Country for many years. The confidence of running a country, with all the security behind him. When it came to his end, none of that mattered. He was just a frightened man. That is our ending btw. None of the things we dress ourselves in matter. We stand naked so to speak. Confidence is a Spiritual Journey of learning your place in the world. Why do I use Journey?? I think because it signifies using time. Time and faith walk hand in hand. :)

Btw I followed another blogger. Mama Simmons. I cannot put her on my RHS due to phone thingies. Just so ya know!! :). I'll get her there eventually!! :) that makes her an xoxoxo person!! :)

LOL. Weird blog!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. I think it is raining. Must be warm!!! :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jenny Harrison again. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!!! :D :D

MWAH!!! :)

What Matters???

 Hi, I just named my title what matters?? I don't know why, but eventually you have thoughts what is my life?? Who knows me?? No one really, because we all have quiet times that are pretty personal to us. Hold on. Going to get some coffee...with vanilla/caramel creamer. :)

Do people know me?? Yes I think so. I am not the same every day though. Some days I am tired, and somedays not. Some days are Joseph Heller days like I have said before, and other times it is a more serious day.

I like training for marathons, and I don't know why. A feeling of accomplishment?? I know it is nice to not worry what I eat, or how often. I will still probably lose weight. I like the discussions during runs, and the dread of hard work outs.

These are my good years. This is a good time for me. I wake up early, and do this. I have some great people who I know. I had to deal with things, no one can comprehend. It made me seem mean at times, but I always get back up. Yes our lives are spiritual journeys. There is stuff inside us different than the stuff that decomposes. What matters is support. Everyone wants to accomplish stuff, but when life happens you all need support. Maybe that is something I am good at. A way to make people think they matter. I try to comment a lot.

I have this blog, and it is strange. I caught a glimpse of why it was weird, and why people struggle with it. What I do here is important, or I wouldn't do it.

I like getting to know people. I have a history with many, and it is kinda strange. I know a lot of Triathletes, and I don't do them. :)

Ahhh I got nothing really. What matters??? You do. Not because of the grand gestures, but because you are living a life. We all deal with the stupid things in Society, but we have family and we have friends, and we are living a life. We all are interested in different things. I hope we all have upgraded from our black and white lens to the color lens. That is progress too!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. I gotta lot of stupid shit to do today. Taxes and stuff!! Blah. Fun weekend planned. Relay Marathon with beer and chili at the end!! :)

Love You All. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jenny Harrison... She needs 'em xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Adding christine McCarthy's sister Karen Kroll to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo too!!

Love you all!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo. MWAH!!! :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!    :D :D

February Trees Ate My Kneecap and Shoulder Toothpaste

 Well good morning all. How is it going?? Me I am doing good. I need some coffee before I get going, with caramel/vanilla creamer. :)

I definitely have to say the 2 best inventions lately are flavored creamers for coffee, and the shiny things girls can use on their nails. I mean we are talking real progress!! :)

Don't have much on my mind. We had a great speed work last night. Jerry brought his A game, and really made Sophia and I work hard. Work out was basically 1-1/2 warm up. 6-600's hard up, and 5-600's recover, with like a mile cool down. So I am done til Saturday, unless I just throw in a little 3.5 miler on Friday.

I really have nothing important to say. Life sure can be busy though. Maybe that is why blogging is good. Our lives are made up of tiny little days. Maybe not a lot goes on, but it makes up our life. Maybe it is nice to know that someone out there cares enough to read the stupid shit that makes up our day to day!! Remember Becky used to blog every day. I bet she thought she was boring, but I never thought so. Maybe that is a good thing about me... I have enough energy and desire to spend time reading up on people's lives, and comments help people feel like people are paying attention. It is the little things like caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Bad thing about me?? Sometimes when you people do different things than me, I just think you are off your rocker!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Thursday = Friday. Is it too early to drink yet??? ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Wanna know why I give extras to Olga?? Not really sure... I just like her. She is a good girl, and who can control their heart?? I am glad she is my friend!! :).

Extras for the rest of you too!! :) MWAH!!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D.  

The Underwear King

 Well I took a couple days off... I think, or was it 1?? I don't even remember. I don't even know what this blog is about!! :)

Hold on... I am getting coffee with some caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Well yesterday I doubled up on runs. That isn't something I want to do often, but I was tired Monday, and decided to add my 3.5 mile to Tuesday along with the evening 6 miler. It went fine. A couple notes for running. We are planning on running 10 miles on Saturday, and only running 5 or 6 for the Frostbite Marathon. Also we are going to start running on Sundays together too to help the Sunday runs be 6 milers instead of my sorry ass-dead legged Sunday 3 milers I have been doing. Running with people helps me.

Other than that not much going on. Speed work tonight, and that is about it. Welcome to my exciting life. It may be dull, and it may be boring seeming, but I like it. That is what it is all about too!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!! :)

Xo's !!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. You all are kwazy!!!! :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really cya cya cya!!!    :D   :D
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I Am Full Of Myself!!

Well I am a bit full of myself. I guess yesterday's post was one of those just throw some shit down, and go from there. When you throw some shit down, and get no responses you figure you must have been a dick. One of the reasons I hate blogging, and one of the reasons I wonder why I do this.

It is an eye-opener though. I am comfortable with me though. So on I go.

BTW I am blogging with my phone now for the next 2 to 4 weeks, when I blog. Guess it takes that long. Eeek!! :)

I did want to tell about our run though, because it was cold, it was long, it was hilly, and it was hard!! I mentioned yesterday the 4 of us met for 3 early miles. That was fine, and easy. The 12 mile route is hard. The 10 mile route is hard, and the extra 2 miles we add is the most difficult 2 miles in Holland, not on a trail. Me Lil Cath, and Jerry ran together for that!! All I can say with the snowy roads it was hard. We got to the point where a start up after a drink stop = Groan!! Been a while, since I ran into that!! Not much else on the run, except the end Jerry and I couldn't keep up with Cath. Not surprising. I felt we got a great workout though, so that feels good!!

I plan on only running like 10 miles at the Frostbite Marathon Relay next week!! A step down week!!

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. NFL games start at screwy times so I'll miss the Giants game!! Booooo!!

Love You All. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best. Xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya. :D. :D

The Rub... More Things About Me...

Want to know some more things about me??  Some more imperfections??  No problem.  I have a lot of them, and I am good at this.  I like talking about me.  First off I want to thank you yesterday for the comments.  That is part of the rub I guess. 

Jeff Stark commented, and busted my balls, and called me a pussy.  I don't know why more of that doesn't go on.  We bust balls all the time.  Shit is funny. 

Christi didn't comment til later, so I know something hit her.  I can always tell.  :)


Kiet gave me a nice comment too, meaning it was a dose of reality. 


Well, I was going to say some things, but I'll just let them slide.  I do facebook, and I do Twitter, so if you want to do them together, you just need to ask.  Steve Pejchl is my name.  Piklman2 is the other.  Have at it.  If you read this I definitely appreciate it.  I follow back on Twitter, and I accept friend requests on Facebook. 

You know my problems before.  Here I am this person.  People know me.  I have lived a life, and I showed people.  I let people in on who I was, and people who I thought were my friends didn't read or didn't care.  Life is full of choices.  Facebook and Twitter are choices.  No one read my blog, than I wasn't going to do facebook or Twitter.  You know there were other things at play too.  For some reason I had to do the Iz song night.  Unplanned unrehearsed, and me taking a lot of shit.  We all have a big burden called life, and I told you the shit has to be dealt with.  It is better if you deal with it yourself, because you are not alone, and you have support.  Your life is more than your next workout.  Holy shit, some people are fricken sad.  I see what you do.  You try to escape.  The world is topsy turvy.  When you are your weakest is when you are the strongest.  The important Howard Zinn days.  When you are your strongest feeling is just one of the many gifts of life called the Joseph Heller days. 

What you think is right is nothing.  The greatest gift is love.  "GIFT"  Works without love profits you nothing.  Remember too the normal thing to do is to harden your hearts when you are told or shown something.  Nah, that cannot be it. 

So anyway we are running 15 miles today.  Jerry, Lil Cathy, and Bob the bullet are meeting a bit early to do 3 miles, and then we run a challenging 12 mile loop.  Hills Hills Hills.  Should be fun.  :)

On a side note, I am going to bring my computer in.  It is under warranty, so I may take a few days off blogging.  I may blog with my phone though, we'll see.  Maybe not too. 

Also some blogs are set up weird so you cannot comment with a phone, so there is that too.  FYI.  I will comment in a social networking way if that is the case.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Today is a cold day, but then we warm up next week.  YAYYYYY.   :)  oh, and xoxoxo   too  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga, just cause.  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  

Some Things About Me...

Just this morning some things become clearer.  People want to do right, and want to be right.  For me it was important to get to a step, where I threw everything away.  Everything I learned just throw it in the garbage.  Start from scratch.  If there is a higher power, which I know there is, than he would lead you in a good way.  If you don't believe in a higher power, which many don't, it still is a search for a higher truth than what other imperfect humans have handed down.  It is a way to look at things more objectively.  Society is really things that have been handed down.  For those who believe in a higher power, than you really have to believe he is alive, and willing to show you things every day. 

Slowly, but surely I am starting to get a glimpse of people, and some of the hang ups.  Life many times is hard.  Raising kids is hard, having kids is hard.  Trying to make ends meet is hard.  Some days it is nice to just cuddle up with a dog, and have a day or a moment for yourself.  Life takes stuff out of us.  We are not always on.  I look back at my last year, and really it was a shitty year.  I was so less than perfect it is un fricken believable.  I was angry a lot.  Slowly but surely I can see life being back to a more better place for me.  A lot of  my hang ups are slowly dissolving.  I am getting to understand people better, and am able to be more accepting.  I had to work through some things.  


I guess this blog gets a little whack sometimes.  Realize, I don't put a lot of thought into what I write.  I wake up early, and go to town.   Do I offend??  I assume I do sometimes.  Am I perfect... hell no.  I don't even try to be, because I know my heart is in good hands, and I know I do help support people, and that is a good thing.  Even in some low points, I was still able to help support people, and that ain't such a bad thing either. 

Life has some real heavy shit in it.  We will not always be young, and we know at some point there will be some kind of a shitty ending.  We don't know the date, but usually the last of our lives probably ain't the best days, and we have that to look forward to.  Most of the stuff we do will not leave a legacy of any sort.  No one cares about our life more than us.  I think we think what we do is a hell of a lot more important than what others think we do. That is humbling I guess.  How we perceive our own value, and our own worth, many others don't value as highly.  We are our own best friends kinda.  I guess I am really blessed with a heart that supports, because when the gray days come, I can see through the fog, and see value in you people.  When the chips are down is when I think you stand tall.  It is when you are your most beautiful, because it is there where you realize you are vulnerable, as we all are.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Lisa said it is supposed to be fricken cold outside, so I am driving to work.  I may go for a short run when I get home.  :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

A little shout out to Damie too.  Life is crazy.  I knew her not at all a month ago, and now I feel like we are good friends.  That is fricken awesome.  :)  Wish  her the best in all things that is fo sho!!!   :)

Extra xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo's for you all.  :D 

We Seem Tough...

It ain't no thing though.  We run when it is cold, and when it is dark.  I would imagine most of us wear two wicking shirts, and a breathing jacket.  If you went out in the cold like that we'd freeze.  If you ran in the cold like that you would come home soaked.  People climb Everest and survive negative whatever degrees.  Probably the most interesting thing is right now if it hits 40 degrees, we'd probably run in shorts.  First day in October we may contemplate running pants.  Bodies do acclimate.  Usually in a pretty short time. 

Speed work is hard. I mean we put ourselves in misery.  None of us have any dreams of reaching the top with our hobby.  Maybe we won't even P.R.  We still do it though.  We push our bodies, because it is fun.  You feel like a million bucks when you are done. 

A night of running is a night of conversations.  Lil Cathy drives from like an hour away to do this.  Why??  Misery loves company.  Sophia was scared of the first night of speed work.  I was excited the first night, and scared last night.  You always dread the effort you are about to give.  Jerry has been wanting to pick up a spin class for cross training.  Sometimes life gets in the way, and life doesn't give a crap about our goals.  You want to know one of the good things about running too??  If I got home after work about 2:00 or whatever, I got nothing to do.  I'd probably have some drinks and listen to music.  Hobbies are good.  Sometimes keep us doing good things instead of maybe a worse vice.  That being said all hobbies can be a vice, if it is an escape.  Even seemingly healthy ones, because at the end of the day Life still is real.  This ain't some fake shit we are doing here.  If you collect all the activities in the world together they still don't mean shit.  You won't give a shit about any of it when your dead.  You want to make a good name for yourself, and put your name on a building??  You won't give a crap about it when your dead. 

Ha ha.  I didn't mean to be so serious on this thing.  The world would have you fake through stuff.  Just last night as I was enjoying a Brandy after my run.  (don't normally do that)  Lisa had American Idol on.  I guess Steven Tyler said a 15 year old girl was good looking, while the whole family was on.  It is inappropriate for an older guy to say something like that to a girl who is that young.  Not right.  Taboo.  The truth of the matter is I looked at the TV, and from a quick look, the girl was attractive.  The girl who nobody really knows got a nice compliment from Stephen Tyler.  Young looking girls are pretty too.

As a matter of fact don't most girls as they age wish and wish and wish they could get down to their 14 year old bodies someway??  Isn't that a normal thing??  It seems to me it is kinda.  A girl and how they look is a big thing seemingly in a women's psyche.  How they look on the outside is how they feel on the inside sometimes I'd guess.  Guys look too.  We are visual.  We were born that way I think.  Thoughts about hot chicks or hot guys are real thoughts.  We have them depending on which way we like 'em.  :)

Well shit!!  This blog is all over the place.  LOL. 

Life takes us in a direction though, and sometimes we feel we are in a shambles.  I talked to Alan yesterday, and life happens, you will not escape it.  He is approaching 2 years the death of his mother.  Uncle was having some health problems, his Dad was going in for surgery.  Alan went through some hard personal times when the market collapsed, and bankers got a ton of money so they wouldn't lend to small businesses, and small businesses suffered.  Alan's was one of them.  You have personal family issues.  Pesonal professional issues, and the shit can beat you down.  I don't think I realized until yesterday all the things Alan has been going through, and still he was always there for his group, and his kids.  Life gave him a couple body shots, but you can tell he is ready to counter. 

Have a Good One All!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

 Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Thursday = Friday after work.  :)   yay.  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D    Oh, and btw Olga is back from Ireland.  :)  I missed her.  :D     ( Back online I mean)  I never met her.   :)   LOL

The Climb!!

Do you ever wonder the motivation of a person??  Climbing to the top has got to be a huge motivation.  I just found out Chrissie Wellington is taking the year off from Triathlon.  She is actually one I heard of before too, besides the bloggers I read, and have seen around with comments.  Retiring while on top.  I wondered why.  She gave kind of a non-answer, but you realize the grind of professional sport.  82 Basketball games in a year, and all the travel.  All the time given to Ironman training.  The workouts of boxing.  People take years off.  Jordan retired on top of his game only to come back and do another 3-peat.  Boxers always retire, and come back.  Climbing to the top, when you believe everything is possible has got to be a huge motivator.  So few get to the top, it is hard to know what goes through their mind.  We all are climbers.  Not many of us make it to the top.  I would have to say they are people too, and they get tired, and life is more than just one thing.  Not many know what it looks like at the top.  That is a whole nother ball game, and World up there.  Trust me,  I have been here a long time.  ;) 

Yesterday I ran, and did my 6 @ 5:15.  Nothing too much on the run, except it was getting cold, as the wind was coming from the North.  Tonight will complete another round of 5 running days in a row.  Sunday and Monday were nothing big, but I hope to build on at least Sunday.  I am fine with a Monday run to work.  Jerry and Ken ran with us, and we didn't time it.  For the record we hit 3 decades.  Me at 45-- I think.   Jerry around 55, and Ken at 65'ish.  I told both those guys at various times we all are getting old, but you two take it to a whole nother level.  :) 

I don't really have much other today.  I guess I'd like to give you a link.  Here is a witty guy I know, who seems to have a lot of interests.  He had an interesting blog entry.  You know his as a witty guy, and you realize there is other stuff to his life.  It goes to show you support goes a long way.  It can help pick people up, and continue on with their life in a more positive way.   Life can get us all down at times I'd say, and that is why I stress support.  Not everyone needs it all the time, but sometimes people do.  Sometimes we all get so wrapped up in our life, we forget the most important things. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  You are a strong person, somethings I can just tell.  Not everything is easy, but you are strong enough to deal with all life brings.  xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D   

A Non List

 I was going to do a list, but I don't think I really feel like it.  I started doing a list, but it was really sentences, that can be in a paragraph.  For the record Monday went well.  I ran to work.  It was cold out early in the morning, but you still work up a sweat.  Legs felt pretty good, and I will run tonight too, and tomorrow night too.  Early Monday run is pretty good, since I run next on Tuesday night.

I am pretty excited to see what the future holds.  Not so much about what happens in the world so much, but what happens to people.  Bad things happen in the world.  Life is something real.  Something people will go through.  You know I do this blog thing, and it seems the most natural thing in the world.  I have this signature line that is the most natural thing in the world, and I realize new bloggers who I add to my list might find it a bit odd.  Trust me, I don't think it odd at all, and like I said it is the most natural thing in the world, but once in a while you get a glimpse of how odd it may seem to others.  LOL.   I love that.  :)

You notice I don't add everyone to the signature line, but I always want to.  It just comes to me in the morning.  Sometimes during the day I hope I add so and so to the signature line, and it doesn't happen.  Meaning I get a feeling of wanting too, but it really happens at this time.  Sometimes I'll tell a person the night before they will make it, but it is always a feeling.  Want to know the weird thing about it??  It is not my doing.  Remember when I gave up, I cursed for ever being alive, and what happened that night.  In other words my heart is in another's hand to do those things.  I don't choose to put you in the signature line so to speak.

As to giving extras too, I think is the same way.  I haven't been really feeling giving the extras for some reason.  I wonder why??  Maybe because you people are going through things.  You have stuff going on in your mind about life, and yourself, and how you stand in relation to everything.  I don't know.  How would I??

I don't really know what goes on in a person's life so much.  Either does anyone else.  There is a natural tendency to keep our innermost thoughts secret, because, well it really isn't an easy thing to let our stuff out.  Maybe it is hard to even get to our innermost thoughts too, because we are so busy with silly peripheral "life" things.  Have you ever taken inventory of your day??  I saw an old lady at the grocery store.  70+ I am sure.  Her car was immaculate.  Nothing inside.  Seats were spotless, the car was too.  It obviously stays in a garage.  I thought who cares about that crap???  Lisa said her husband probably cleans the car every weekend.  I told her what idiot would do something like that??  She said her Dad.  Remember our young years when our worth used to be totally what car we were driving??  I plan on being not worth a shit my whole life.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Riding my bike to work today.  It is pretty warm this morning too.  yay.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Nuthin On My Mind...

I am pretty sure I have nuthin on my mind, but since I am up you know??  Yesterday was a pretty good day.  I was productive around the house.  Long run Saturdays make me tired, and easy Sundays help me get some stuff done around the house, and I did .  I went on a short run, that was cut shorter by a loose dog.  I had to double back a different way.  I ended my first over 30 mile week in a while though, so that ain't too shabby for me.  I feel it too.  Just some muscles that know they have been working again. 

I watched a good portion of the first football game, and all of the Packers game.  When the Bears are out, and the Giants are in I always root for the Giants.  You would think being a Bears fan I would hate the Packers, but I don't.  I think they have a lot of great players on their team, and I don't really dislike them.  I don't know how their defense can suck so bad though.  They definitely need some Defensive Line help.  SHEESH!!

Well we have some good news at work.  I guess work is a 2 part thing.  The work you do, and the people you work with.  If you don't like the people you work with the job may suck.  We are getting one of the good ones back.  Moving all the way back to Michigan from Minnesota.  Lucky ducks.  Moving from a just whatever State that starts with M-I, to the best State that starts with M-I.  :)  Anyway she is one of the good ones to have around work.  A good worker, and a terrific personality, and one who definitely smiles more than not.  Yay.   :)  She is a Stark too, so that is always nice.  :)  Her fiancee is transferring to Grand Rapids, so they both have to be thrilled to be back home. 

Other than that not much going on really.  Just doing the live my life thing, and this crazy blog thing, and training, and enjoying this life for what it is worth.  I guess in life if you could cut through all the crap that is pointless, and just get to living life that would be the best huh?? 

A lot of crap to cut through though.  I mean a really lot.  You don't even know the half of it.  :)

Oh well have an awesome day everyone.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Thinking of running a slow trot to work today.  Start the week off right.  :)

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A Hard Road

I was thinking some time last night/early this morning the dilemma we have.  There is a truth about us, and there is the version of us we'd only like to show.  We all are different too, so my interests are not always going to coincide with others.  Who we really are is the good stuff.  The stuff we really want to get to know, but the hardest stuff to get to know.  It is a sad journey in ways, because hard stuff happens in life, and memories are always filled with a bit of sorrow for some reason.  Not everything about us is right either.  What we try hard at to be good at and improve ourselves on is typically what we judge people on who don't try hard at that stuff. 

You want to know the problems of my brother Jim??  He had real issues he had to deal with, but never really did til the end.  You get those fairy tale stories in your head of unconditional love and stuff, but people are imperfect.  We all have our own agendas, and grown ups like to have fun too.  So no one ever has a perfect Mom, Mum, or Dad.  We like to do our own shit too. At some point you realize life in many ways is a solo journey, because in the end you stand on your own two feet.  All the layers of yourselves are off at the end, and you stand alone.  Will you accept me?? 

It takes courage to take off your layers, because there really is only one who has the perfect vision, and the perfect heart to accept you, but he sees everything you want to hide.  Life is a courageous thing.  Honesty and openness is fricken hard, because you put yourself out there for all to see and all to judge. 

This is the walk we are on, and this is what I help to support people on.  Shit ain't easy. 

I do want to  say we ran the 10 mile route yesterday.  I added 3 miles before, so I did 13.  Lil Cath ran with Jerry and I, because she is recovering from injuries from last fall.  Some people you never thought would get injured.  Well she tagged along with us, because on the long run she doesn't need to go too fast.  She is a unique individual.  A real bubbly personality, and a women of many interests.  She likes doing projects around the house more than me.  She is learning to swim too, and she is busy with a kid, and a husband.  They have horses and chickens.  She is neat.  Running with people is the best, cuz you really get to know them.  I love running conversations.  We are going for 15 miles next week.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I took myself out to lunch, and had wings, soup, and some beer.  Lisa went out with her best friend Sheila.

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A Trip Down Memory Lane

 Well, let's look at my life shall we.  I always love talking about myself.  :)  Here is one of the things about me, and many of you know my story.  After High School, I read the Bible a lot.  Like I said before I have been spiritual for a long time, and I wanted to be a good person more than anything.  Ready to live a nice normal humble life.   My High School girlfriend broke up with me, and I think part of the reason, is my Spiritual/Religion leanings.  I rebelled.  I was always one who drank here and there, but not a ton.  Well, I would drink to get drunk, but I didn't do it a lot.  I'd rather hang out with Carolynn, plus I did a car paper route, and had to be at work at 3:00 am 7 days each week my senior year, plus.  Like I said though I rebelled.  I was willing to live the simple life.  Be as good as I can be, and this happens.  I strarted partying more.  I smoked pot for the first time, and cocaine even.  I did one year of Community College, and then it was College.  Away from home, out of Dodge so to speak.  School seemed pretty easy.  My first tests were A's, and I though, holy crap this shit is easy.  I stopped trying, and started partying a lot, and the A's turned into C's.  So I went a couple years of screwing things up.  I was under some self-prescribed pressure to always be a nice guy.  If people wanted to have fun, than I would do my part.  You would think a life of the party guy is that way, because he can't control himself.  I think I just realized, you do things even when you always don't want to, because you want to give of yourself to your friends that way.  If you go a little crazy, and have fun it is because you really want other people to have fun too.  You want your friends to enjoy days of their lives that much too.  Even if it hurts yourself.

For me college was about learning a balance between fun and work.  It is a lesson I do try to teach people, that fun is fun, and that is great, but you still have to wake up the next day, and there is still shit to do.  Not that I am great at that, because I hate doing projects around the house.  I like my job job most days, and I try hard at that, and I like training when healthy, and I have had other hobbies in the past too.  I play pretty hard too, but it is fun.  :)

I remember going through some real up and down times during School.  Me finding myself, and finding a balance.  I mean real down times where I pretty much was sure my parents didn't want to see me on Christmas.  I stayed in Normal, instead of showing up at home, because I felt I was a burden to my parents.  I was too.


Slowly little successes helped me get back up.  Getting a job, and working at a Wards near school.  Swallowing my pride and taking public transportation, and even walking home if need be.  Work, school, and I even found a girlfriend Katrina who was a hot young girl, and she and I dated for 2-1/2 years.  She was great, but even when wanting to be a nice guy I failed her too.

Then the my step-mom is going to die.  I never dealt with death before, besides my dog Toby, and you remember that story.  Life looked different in those days.  I mean one day I am this one person, and I get the news, and life takes a drastic change.  She died on Dec. 26th the same day as Harry Truman.  The last any of us saw her besides my Dad was Dec 25th, and on that day she looked like shit.  Like she was already dead, but staying alive for Christmas you know??

So I deal with that shit, and Katrina and I finally break up, and My Grandpa died, and man I really wanted to be a good person, but look at my life??  I am alone now, but I feel relieved about it.  You know much more about my story though, because I was working at the hospital at this time.  I meet Lora, and I meet Natalie.  I confessed my sins to the hot little blonde girl, even though it scared the shit out of me.  I would have really like to be fabulous to her, but instead I showed her my Tiger Woods side.  I learned that from Lora though.  That bitch was honest.  I like that, and you know that is to be respected.  No one can stand up to honesty.  It cannot be beat.

I guess I was going in a different direction with this than planned.  I was going to talk about my life, and things I didn't understand about Jim when he lived with us in Normal, IL.  One of the things I never understood about his life, is how could he not see Hal, and me find our Mojo, when he was right there.  I don't get it.  I think he did find his mojo at the end though, and then he was taken.  His work was done.  


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

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New Blogger Is Weird.

That is o.k.  I still love you all.  :)  Even if Blogger is weird now.  :)

OMG, I am pretty sure I have nothing to write about.  I look out at the bloggers I read and stuff, and I realize life does not come with answers, and the answers we have been spoon fed since our younger years aren't always the right ones.  Meaning we have to find our own way.  None of us will escape life changing events like death, illness, losing a job, whatever.  Maybe like a William Shirer society tells us were bad.  Can you imagine??  The U.S. Gov't telling the whole world you are a bad person??  Why???  Because fear mongering gathers a crowd.  Even if the fear mongerer is an alcoholic idiot like McCarthy.  Fear mongering comes in many shapes and sizes too.  Hitler was a vegetarian for criminy sakes.  :)  So you vegetarians are basically Hitler.  :)  j/k.   :)


Life is hard.  It is something we have to accept.  I told pumpkinsdiary girl that I think sometimes when we feel the most lost and most confused is when we grow the most and learn the most.  So our hard times are definitely endurance events, but on the other side comes answers.  We all have questions in life, and it is through our hard times we learn the most, because it is when we open our eyes and ears the most, and pay attention. by told I mean blog comment.  Obviously I don't talk to her.  She thinks I am a loon probably or something.  Maybe you all do.  :)    Zany Joseph Heller days are the best, but The Howard Zinn days are the most important probably.  He gives us the Joseph Heller days as a gift.  Time is on his side, and I think he lets time be on our side too.  Maybe that is why my blog is called "The Wait"  I would have done the shit I need to do a long time ago, but I have been led in a way, that I will do it whenever I think.  Not that I am so strong and such a good person, but because of my help.

While I wait he gives me plenty of Joseph Heller days.  If you don't know what I mean about Joseph Heller days and Howard Zinn days you will have to read the 600 + entries in this blog, and get my blogger password so you can read the however many entries were in "The Journey"  I want that done today too btw, and I want a report handed into my desk by 7:00 am tomorrow.  :)

Have a good one all.  Luv Ya's.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)   xoxoxoxoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

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WOAH!! Did Blogger Just Change??

Well, good morning all.  How are you all doing??  Fine I hope.  Yesterday was definitely different.  Most of the day my legs were absolute toast.  I wasn't even sure if we were having speed work, so I was like WOOOOO!!  I am taking today off.  I think I'll run some hills on Thursday before work.  Then I get the message from Alan.  Speed work tonight at 6:00.  I LOL'd to myself.  I walk on concrete all day, so you know that takes some out of my springiness.  I kept thinking, how in the heck???  I knew it was a nap day.  Sleep helps in recovery.  So I am driving to the pool where we meet, and I run into the entrance, and surprisingly the legs don't feel so bad. 

A low turnout the first night, but Lil Cath, and Bob the Bullet, and Carol N. were some of the mainstays, and we all did our warm up together, and talked about what we were training for etc...  Then came the hard stuff.  Jerry and I did 4 hard ups, and recover downs.  The loop is 3/4 of a mile.  I let Jerry lead the pace, and it was plenty hard.  I think Jerry and I are at the same speed, because it was hard, but we both were able to do it, and we ran with each other the whole time.  Lil' Cath was a bit faster than us, and Bob the Bullet, and some new guy were a bit quicker than Cath.  On our last up, we started a bit before the fast people so I thought let's try and hold them off.   LOL,   ummm never mind. 

I am taking the whole day off today.  I am driving to work, and driving home.  I am going to have some drinks too tonight.  I should get some stuff done around the house, but I promise nothing.  :)  I will end this week with over 30 miles, so my mileage is getting up there.  Oh, and so you know at work I estimate I walk on concrete floors between 20-30 miles/week at work.  FYI.

It feels good to be back.  I'd have to go back and read to see how my attitude was last year, when I kept getting injured, but truthfully, that is about the last thing I want to do.  I do this crap too much, and I don't want to read it.  :)  LOL

I am already looking forward to long run Saturday.  yay.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I even ate after I ran last night.  What the heck is up with that??    I ate a ton yesterday too.  I had two sandwiches before work.  Turkey breast.  A girl from work Esther brings food a lot to work, and she brought a whole Taco spread for one of the guys 21'st B'day.  So I had 3 tacos before 9:00 am. too.  Authentic stuff.  #nummy.  :)  I also ate 3 oranges a container of raspberries, and a container of blackberries, and 2 baked potatoes when I got home.  LOADED WITH SOUR CREAM AND BUTTER.  I mean a lot.  Some salmon after my run.  LOLZ.  I luv food.  :)

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Good Morning!! How'zzz it Going??

Me, I am doing good.  I had a pretty good day yesterday.  A little biking.  Very little, just a bike to work.  Lisa left the same time as me, so I thought... hmmmmm.  I think I will throw my bike in the truck, and go home with her.  :)  HEE HEE.  I came home and napped, because as Lisa was driving, I was getting tired.  Plus I had to run, so wanted to be rested.  I didn't really sleep much, but I rested. 

I have a new book to read from the Liberry.  It is a book about Gandhi, and it is written from one of my favorite authors of all time.  William Shirer.  Now some of you may remember his story.  He went to the same College as my Dad.  Coe College, and he lived in Cedar Rapids as a kid for a bit during a time when the Czech Immigrants lived in like a Communistic way helping each other out.  He was a War correspondent during WWII, and he got blacklisted after the war during the McCarthy era.  Like I said before though, some people are too good.  They overcome, and after a life changing event for a married man, came the classic "The Rise And Fall Of The Third Reich".  The best thing about Shirer??  He isn't a fancy dancy writer.  Meaning he isn't sugar coating the life of Gandhi.  He is telling how great of a man he is naturally, but also telling of his sexual escapades, that may have thrown some of his followers for a loop.  A real Historian yay.  Deifying people while writing history does a ton of damage.  That is why Howard Zinn is so important... or why he was.

Imagine a Revolution won without guns, but won by just showing how Barbaric the ones with the gun powder are?  The U.S. has a history of Barbaric Gun Powder ways, and not the Gandhi way that is for sure.  See Slavery, Indians, Truman Doctrine, etc...  

I just started, but the thing about India as a Country is they were around for 1000's of years, and had a culture, that was well advanced.  Britain at the time thought they were the master race, and the man made coin was what life was about.  People don't do different.  There is a preconceived notion that wherever we were born is the best place.  If you were born in Saudi Arabia, or Japan, or China, or wherever you would think your Country was the best.  FEW PEOPLE STEP OUT OF THAT.  Showing the world you are right by killing people really don't make sense in any kind of logic, but we believe Society.  That is what it teaches, and that is what we believe... unless we step out. 

I am excited for the book.  It seems like it is a good one, and I barely started.  I love reading William Shirer.  Definitely one of my favorite authors. 

Other than that not much going on. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  You people have no idea what you are in for.  :) 

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No Idea How This Will Turn Out!! :)

I am pretty sure I have nothing on my mind right now.  :)  I am pretty sure I have nothing important to say either so feel free to skim through.  I would have to say I have absolutely no plan on this thing.  I love my new attitude.  Just wing it.  Roll with the flow.  Live my life do my thing, and let everyone else too.  I am just a bystander sitting on the sidelines just watching people.  We cannot predict our lives for the coming year.  We have no idea how things will turn out.  As time goes on I think I put less and less pressure on myself. 

I don't have to be right in another's eyes, because maybe as time goes on I get stronger and stronger, and I don't really care.  I mean I am not a mass murderer or anything like that so that is good.  I just do this blog thing for whatever reason, although on a day like today, I don't think I have anything to say. 

Well let's move on, yesterday I ran to work, which will make me run 5 days in a row.  Since it was Monday early morning, and my next run is Tuesday evening, that is like a day off.  As long as the legs feel good on Monday it is a good day for me to run, for that reason.  A way to get some miles, while still having plenty of time to recover for my next run. 

Lisa and I decided to go see a movie.  We saw the new Mission Impossible.  It isn't that great.  I definitely suggest the Sherlock Holmes movie or the Dragon Tatoo movie over that one. 

I do have one thing to say, and we all are different, and we all are going through a different time in our lives.  Some want to put away past things, and be strong.  Some others might be dealing with things where they are not that strong yet.  If you are a bit down and out no biggie.  Deal with the things, and that passes.  It is an emotional endurance thing.  The mojo should come back.  We cannot always be on, because life does happen.  Always at times not of our own choosing too.  When life happens we have to deal. 

As time goes on, I come to realize my life is mine to do as I choose.  I choose to live my life simply.  I like hanging with my wife.  I like hanging around my house.  I like drinking when I have the chance.  I don't really do fake people.  I don't really do arrogant people either.  Luckily in my job, I don't have to deal with the general public too much.  A lot of times people are just assholes.  :)  Myself included I guess, but whatever, it is my life, and I can be free to do and be my own person, whatever that is.  I have a feeling it can be any number of things depending on the day.  Nice, jerk, asshole, compassionate.  I am all kinds of things.  Never really the same person day in day out. 

Oh well, I guess I'll stop there.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Went from 12-14 Reader Readers overnight.  :)  yay.   :)

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I kinda give Olga some in my own sly little way.   :D 

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A January Monday Morning.

No snow on the ground still.  I live in West Michigan and we have had very little snow this year.  Typically we get a lot with the jet stream over a big body of water.  Mild winter so far, and let's face it, we just need to survive the rest of January and February.  Hold on... have to let the stupid cats in and get coffee. 

Okay I am back.  I do want to let you know I did run yesterday.  I knew right away I was probably not going to do my 6 mile loop, cause I had Hope with me, and she is a pain.  Thought of just doing my 3 miler, but the 4 miler has some hills, so did that.  Almost thought of tacking on more with a mile left, but legs got a little tired, so called it good at 4.25.  I didn't time it.  :)

I can tell I am a bit different now.  I am way more laid back, if that is possible.  Life goes on, and I am lucky I do not carry a lot of baggage.  Life is better this way.  I don't sleep with an alarm even though I wake up ungodly early.  I blog, although if I didn't I wouldn't care.  The last couple days the number of people who read my blog in the reader fell from like 15-12, and I don't care.  :)  I have less readers, and I could care less.  I have been pretty faithful to the ones I read though.  I realized life happens, and I will let it.  I am not going to stick my nose where it isn't wanted.  Why bother right??  Just do my thing, and let the chips fall where they may. 

Going to run to work today.  Yesterday I watched, Captain America, The Unforgiven, and Sherlock Holmes 1.  again.  Watched the end of the football games too. 

That is my little update.  Nothing heavy here I don't think.  Hope you all have a fab day.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  maybe take @Lisa to see Mission Impossible today after work. 

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You know what I think one thing about me??  I think I see people as being people.  No matter what we do we are just people.  Some may have a better position, or more respected position, but at the end of the day we all are just people.  We all fall vulnerable to our ending, which we all have in common. 

Now for really really really cya cya cya cya   :D  :D  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D  

Back From The Dead

Well, I thought my computer that is less than one year old took a dump, but she is back from the dead, so I guess I will blog.  I was planning on trying to be a little loosey goosey today anyway.  I know I know who blogs at 3 in the morning on a Sunday morning.  I do that is who.  Why??  Who knows. 

I guess I will start off with the run.  It was Jerry, Jim, and I.  As we started to approach mile 3 or 4, I was falling back from those two.  I had no idea if I was slow or they were fast.  I was thinking I have 10 miles today, and I shouldn't have to struggle to keep up.  So I decided to go at my own pace.  As we reached mile 5 Jim stopped.  Oh.... he was only running 6 so he picked up the pace  a bit.  Me and Jerry were only halfway done.  LOLZ.  The rest of the run was pretty easy.  I didn't time it, but definitely had a pretty good workout. 

I came home, and did dishes, and then went out for lunch.  Ran into Charity and her friend there by coincidence, and talked with them for a while, and filled up my growler, and went over to Beau and Charity's for a bit, and came home around 5 or so.  Lisa made dinner, and I fell asleep watching football.  I know lame lame lame. 

That was my day, it was pretty phun.  :) 

Want to know something I was thinking??  I was thinking I am just waiting to see what happens this year.  See how it unfolds.  Just watch, and wait, and see how things happen.  I love it.  I can already tell this year is going to be better than last year.  Today I have to double up on my run.  I am hoping to get a 6 miler in.  I'll know by 2 miles if I cut it to 3 or 4. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I still need a fricken haircut.  :)

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Time Off

I am taking some time off from blogging, as my computer's hard drive just took a dump I think.  I'll have to take it in I guess, and I do not want to phone blog, like what I am doing now!!  :)

Cyaz laterzzzz gaterzzzzz!!  :)

Different...

I am definitely starting the year out different.  I remember last year I wanted to comment on 100% of the blogs I read.  I am definitely not doing that this year.  I blog a lot and I comment a lot, but not going to do it all the time.  It don't mean anything, just like people read this and don't comment. 

Want to know what one of my hangups is/was??  I comment a lot, and I guess I thought that is a natural thing to do.  I have come to realize it is an unnatural thing to do.  The percentage of people who actually comment on blogs is pretty dang low.  So, I have a year planned of being more laid back.  Stop trying to affect outcomes of things, and let things just happen. 

For those of you who don't read Julia's Go Big Green blog, check out her last update.  OMG.  Best blog evah.  Brought a tear to my eye.  Kinda makes me think there is a whole lot out there in the world, and you won't know and remember everything, but some things are important to you and you only, and you will remember those things.  So much in that update, it is unbelievable.  Actually I think I am going to put a link of that update on my blog, so if anyone new checks out my blog I can totally steer them toward that entry.  Right below Jen H's insignia coaching thingy ma jiggy.  :) 

Our lives are our own, and we can do any number of things.  We don't have to stay in the same shell, we can always put another one on.  Step out of one, and put a different one on.  There is no right, and there is no wrong, because all our paths lead to the same place.  The puller of the strings of life, can do anything from whichever direction we go.  He does more with you in your quiet alone times than he does with someone dropping a knee in front of 40,000 people.  It is how he works.  He does stuff for you, you don't do anything for him. 

Remember when I said there is not much written about Abraham from the promise to the actual fulfilling of the promise.  I said that was God's time.  I think I was right there, and remember that came right before the deleting of the Journey. 

Remember in the book of Hebrews what faith really is.  The evidence of things "NOT SEEN" and the assurance of things hoped for.  Those who drop a knee are those who would only want to show their good side.   Not the way.  

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I will probably need to drink more water on my run this morning than last week.  ;)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch- Changes.

If there is one thing about life you can count on it is changes.  I have been doing this a while, and I think one of the things I have said is we are different day after day.  Now some people who read this are consistent in doing things they like, whether it is training for races of some sort, or being crafty, or being a Mom, whatever, but sometimes we are not consistent in how we feel.  You have a different outlook if you are surviving like the 12th day in a row of gray sub: 20 degree weather, as opposed to your first 70 degree day in April.  Things take a toll on us.  People get sick, and people die.  People get injured, people can be sad for any number of reasons. 

What does a parent think when their kid grows up too fast.  One day your having an adult time out with a bottle of wine, cuz the little bastards are too much, and then you finish the bottle and the little bastards are in High School.  :)  Where does time go??  Much of our time is wasted time too with trying to make ends meet.  Is this the best you got for us society??  We have this thing called life, and you want us to just go out and make ends meet.  Our highest achievement is a high credit score??  That is what we should strive for??  My credit score is nothing when I die.  That is not what life is about.  What endures in life?  You have relationships with people.  You have friends who know you.  They know your flaws, and don't care.  They respect you, cause your fun, and you are comfortable showing whatever. 

I don't really have a train of thought today, and maybe that is good.  Let's say this.  Society has created this great big box, and is it such a bad thing to look outside that box.  What else is in the world?  It is a big world out there, and maybe it is not such a bad thing to poke our head out of the big encompassing box, and see the real color of ourselves, and others.  Look at the vast shapes, colors, and angles of the world.  I think I should try to take pictures.  I am not promising, but maybe I'll try, because I think pictures are not a bad thing.  Get a view of what you see during the day. 

I got a couple things to say.  The Sherlock Holmes movies are great.  See them if you can.  I ran yesterday like 4.5-5 miles.  Think I will just ride my bike today.  Have a long run tomorrow.  People who do art stuff bring color in the world.  Everything serves a purpose, and everything can be used for good.  That is the power, and the lesson to be learned.  Everything can be used for good, even if we think it seems bad.  That makes me feel good.  :)  Because we all do stuff that is seemingly bad'ish.  Truth opens shit up, and hiding stuff tries to bury stuff beneath the surface.  We want truth and honesty from our corporations, and Governments, then I think we should want it for ourself too. 

Our natural tendency is to bury bad stuff, cuz we don't want people to see it.  Perhaps we are ashamed at how imperfect we are.  It ain't no big thing, cuz we all are imperfect, and the natural tendency of the world is to hide stuff,  keep it in the dark.  It don't understand the light, which is a bright ray of sunshine called the truth.  Aren't light rays holding a spectrum of a ton of bright colors too??  Hmmm, maybe that means something.  Truth = light, and light = color.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  yay, it is the weekend. 

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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A little shout out to Jen Gray, and her friends, and Kim Kim Kim who decided to look at things at a different angle.  Help support people in a way that says they matter.  That shit works, because sometimes we all are a little low on the wave, and little things have a way of bringing us back up a bit.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo   for you two. 

Extras for Olga too, cuz I always have a good feeling in my heart for her.  I trust her.  :D

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

A Million Avenues to Choose. Which Direction Today??

Boy I looked outside my mind's eye, and realized today I can go in any of a million directions.  I will start off with how my day started yesterday.  On Tuesday I napped before the run for two hours.  So I did not sleep too well.  I was tired, so all I did yesterday was bike to work.  Lisa and I left the same time, so I drove home with her, and will run to work today.  On my Wednesdays now I would come home and nap before speed work if tired, but I don't have speed work til next week, so I came home and drank.  I just had fun.  I listened to music, putzed around on line, and really just had fun. 


I realize how free I am.  Last year I tried to do so many things, and failed.  This year, I am going to let the year come to me.  I am just going to ride this little train called life, and see where it takes me.  I am pretty lucky to have such a great schedule.  I work early, and now my training season starts, so I run on Tuesday and Wednesdays.  Saturday mornings too,  and Sundays, and maybe pick up some miles here and there.  That really is neither here nor there though, I am just happy.  I have a great life, and all with how I feel inside. 

I think I will get a little weird here.  Now I have said many things in the past, and I am sure some people still read me from a while back.  Remember a couple summers ago where I gave up??  Life broke me.  I told God I give up.  I cursed him for ever making me live to see such days.  I cannot do it anymore.  That night he took my heart.  It was a vision/dream thing.  You wonder how that is??  It always is done in cartoon fashion.  I think maybe, because that is all we can handle, but that isn't the reason.  I have been through some non-cartoon fashion things before.  My 6 days of suffering the worst persecutions was all real.  100%  real life I am doomed, am bad, I am evil, and I am going to hell type shit.  pounded in my head every second of the day.  Mind you I did not sleep much those 6 days, and I did not eat much either.  Remember the ending??  When I saw a real life angel, and I knew it??  A homeless guy walked up to me and asked me if I had a buck.  I looked in my wallet, and had a single, and a twenty.  I gave him the $20.  I had goose bumps, and cried after he left, because just right then and there came the verse, "be kind unto strangers, because many have entertained angels unawares"  I knew with 100% certainty.  I still felt I was bad, and evil though.  I was lifted.  Everywhere I looked there were birds in the tops of the trees, which made me remember that verse. 

Speaking of Bible thumpers.  Those who deem abortion to be the #1 "Christian" topic.  Ummmm abortion is mentioned twice in the Bible.  Both times in the old testament, and both times it says better off are those who would have been aborted than to see the evil that is done under the sun.  (Solomon)  Or Job's prayer to be aborted would have been better than his life.  Remember the verse Woe to those who teach as doctrine the precepts of men.  None of you know shit, so shut the fuck up about that stuff.  Your whole religion is based on one guy who lived a shitty life, and he had followers who never married, and never had kids.  Leave the fucking sword alone, you play with shit you know nothing about.  Your whole fucking salvation is based on believing something the Devil himself believes.  That won't get him or you anywhere.   Meaning you waste your fucking time.  Your eyes have not been opened yet to see the sword for how it really is, and I haven't been through all the things I need to do to understand it.  At some point in time the sword I will be able to use for good, but for now it just slashes like a shitty sword.  When I go through my final thing, I will have a nice sharp Hatori Hanso sharp sword so to speak.  I am not there yet. 

Like I said there is not one thing you can do 100% of the time to make yourself a better person, or we'd all fucking do it.  What we are doing takes time.  This shit is not going to be done overnight.  It is living.  Doing our hobbies whatever they may be.  It is failing at shit every single day, because we all do.  It is getting a cleaner, better look at life.  It is being real, and honest, and that is the stuff you have control of.  You want to tell people your secrets??  No you don't do you.  So a lot of stuff is personal to you, and you deal with that in your own way.  You can be real, and you can be honest, you have control over that.  What you don't have control over is the mirror.  That was given you as a gift.  It is a good mirror.  Trust it.  Trust what you see.  Don't worry if you don't look pretty in your mind's eye all the time, because a butterfly once was not too pretty.  Be courageous and be strong, because we all are being led in a good way, and we have some great fucking people with us too.  So don't ruin shit by speaking shit you know nothing about.  :)  All you really know is you.  You are the only one walking in your shoes, and you are not walking in anyone else's. 

Truth of the matter is we all are pretty fucking great, and we all pretty much fucking suck too.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  The race of life takes endurance.  It isn't a 100 yard dash.  Keep the eyes open fuckers.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I accept you all, because you are not perfect.  Those who try and show and pretend perfect are ugly, our beauty is shown by our flaws.  It makes us all different.  We were born different, and we walked a unique path too no one else has walked, and that makes us even more different too.  Ya dig?? 

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Have You Lost Some Of The Magic??

Your heart does  not lie.  You are not perfect.  You hate people.  You hate people who do not agree with how you think.  You try and boil your life into a box, and say this is me, and all that does is make you miserable.  It makes you hate others who are not inside your box.  Others who do not try and be like you.  The magic in people is how imperfect we are, not how "perfect" you want to appear to people.  The appearance of how you want people to view you doesn't mean shit to who you really are.  There is no right answers out there.  There is no 100% I can do this, and it will make me a better person. 

Life is more like Mindee's update.  Tired as hell going back to work,  still getting a workout in... somehow.  ( I would probably nap first)  Falling down, because she doesn't mind laughing at herself, and thinking about a friend far away.  That is color.  Accepting life for all the angles, and shapes, and circles and everything.  Life is not one box.   Small box. 

Life is also like Jen Gray, who has gone through a lot with the passing of her mother.  Periods of where we may not be as good as we'd like, due to sadnesses, and dealing with personal things.  She has lost her magic a bit she feels, but she is a dealer.  It is o.k. not to be at your best, because life has a tendency to take stuff out of us sometimes, and you cannot escape that.  You have to deal with stuff though. 

Have you noticed how Mindee dealt with her past year though??  It seems it came to a head a few days ago, and boom, it let the color in.  Now the world is 3D through her eyes.  It is full of shapes and colors, and circles and everything.  Goodbye box, my house I call my life is made of color now.  I don't want to be a person who lives in a cardboard box. 

You cannot control your heart.  If you could you would be nice to everyone, and others would be too.  People are angry, and hateful, and all kinds of things, because they blame the stuff in their life that doesn't make them happy on others.  Life is full of unhappy things.  You cannot escape that shit, so life is always full of dealing with stuff.  No way to escape it. 

Life takes a lot of fucking courage too, like the pumpkinsdiary girl who says you know what??  I am trying something new.  I don't want my life to be just one thing, cuz that leads nowhere.  Embrace life.  Accept everything.  It is o.k. if you think the world is shitty, cuz it is in many cases.  Realize if you hate people it is just a way of blame for your less than 100% happiness, which we all are made up of. 

Answers in life will be found with honesty, and being real, and accepting the truth, even if it is scary, and even if we have to admit, we are not that fucking great.  :) 

With that I say Fuck all ya'all.   :)   Just kidding.   I wuv ya's.   :)   LOLOLOLOLOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Jerry, Ken, and I ran 6 @ 6, which really was 6 @ 5:15'ish.  I didn't time it.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I haven't been giving out any extras lately, not sure why.  Haven't felt like it. 

I'll give some to Olga though, cuz she got some good news and can run again.  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I'll give some to Doreen, Jules, and Brandy, cuz Doreen is going through menopause.  :)  j/k.   Brandy, because next Wednesday we start speed work, so this will be the last day I can drink Brandy on a Wednesday, and Jules, cuz she is great.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Jen Gray too, cuz she needs 'em.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Mindee too, cuz I love her colorful personality.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Starting Off The Year Slow...

Well, I am definitely starting off the year slow, as in don't really have much to say.  I don't know what that means, maybe nothing.  I did ride my bike to work and back yesterday.  It wasn't a big deal on the way there.  Lisa and I were going to see the Sherlock Holmes movie, but we had an audit yesterday.  We have 3 each year.  Our first one I expect to come sometime in February to early April, not Jan. 2nd.  I was shocked when the dude asked if I was ready?  Audit??  Holy Crap!!  WTF??   So right away I was not very confident.  Every Dept. passed for like only the 2st time ever.  WOO HOO!!  Not only that, but my year is 1/3 of the way through.  I only have two audits left, and a year to do it in.  :) 

So anyway audit = 10 hour day, so we never saw the movie.  We were going to see the 1:30, and I didn't finish til 3:30.  Bike ride home was a challenge.  Sidewalks weren't plowed yet, the streets barely were.  I had to take a different route home, and ride on the streets, which were pretty snowy.  That was not safe.  I am all for doing bad ass shit, but really riding my bike on snowy streets is not my idea of smart.  Usually our sidewalks get plowed pretty quick, so I am putting it down to plow people need to get in snow mode.  Must take them a while to get going, or maybe the day that really wasn't a Holiday.  Who knows??  I am driving today,  besides we run tonight anyway. 

Once in a while I will read a blog without pictures is boring.  I wonder why that is?  Is it really the blog or the person, or both.  Obviously if the blog is boring than you find the person boring right?? Or is it just a girl thing.  You never hear guys say that.  At least I don't.  My boring blog rarely has pictures, because I rarely take pictures.  If I do I'd probably post them somewhere else anyway.  I like the idea of taking a picture of something every day, and blogging about it.  That seems like a neat idea, and a neat way to keep your eyes more "open" throughout the day, but I think I'd fail at that.  :)  I don't take a lot of pictures.  Oh well just thinking out loud.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has  a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I did my push ups yesterday, although I almost didn't.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are tbe best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Ruffled Feathers I Did Not Eat Cranberry Eyestopper Dictionary Surgery

Hello and good morning all.  Hope you all are doing good.  I sometimes think explaining my title is important, so I want to go on record as saying today's title is definitely a title first and go from there kind of title. 

As I speak the wind is howling, and there is snow on the ground.  A lot of people have dread, but I am excited, because I will bike in this stuff.  It will be coldish, but these are life's little challenges I like.  A bike to work in the snow.  I definitely am more excited in the morning doing it than coming home, but we will worry about that later. 

Yesterday I just took Hope on a little 4+ mile run.  My legs were a bit sluggish, but they kept going, and kept moving.  I am a bit leg-fatigued today too, so am biking.  I might normally run on a Monday, but not today. 

Not much else going on.  Lisa got most of the Christmas stuff done, and I did a few things, and watched a little football.  I ate dinner and went to bed really early.  :)  Ooooh, I added another blogger too.  Her name is Damie.  Unique name, don't know much about her, but seen her around bloggerland here and there.  Seems like she wins a lot of races.  I hate her already.  :)   j/k. 

Not much else going on,  hope you all have a fab day.  Ohhh, one other thing.  I noticed something yesterday.  There was a girl who died this past weekend in her sleep.  She had anorexia.  She knew about it, and battled it, but still ended up dieing.  How sad.  She was a pretty girl too.  What a shitty disease that is huh??  I know so very little about it.  I assume it starts off a mental thing, and if taken too far it must also turn into a physical thing, where your body doesn't do food well???  I have no idea, I should research it though.  Poor girl.  What a battle that must have been.  YIKES!!

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  oooh, since I added Damie, she is on my RHS so gets added to xoxoxoxo on my weird little blog.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

10 Hilly Miles. Yay!!

Well yesterday my season started officially.  On New Years Eve I usually would try to run the 5K in Holland Alan puts on, but when it is on a Saturday, well long run is going to take a priority.  Jerry, and I tacked on to his route at home an extra 4 miles.  There are two ways to run this route.  On the bike path or on the street.  Ummm the bike path is hilly.  This course is pretty flat when on the street, as they level the road when they did the street I guess.  The bike path they don't level.  so it was challenging.  If I ever wondered why I do marathons, I know now.  It is a challenge.  This 10 miler was probably more like a 12 miler in effort, and it was hard, and I wondered sometimes if I can finish, but the legs kept moving.  The time and miles kept clipping off, and we got to the end I felt great.  It was an accomplishment.  I have a long way to go in the next 4 and 5 months time, but it is a challenge, and it is a time where I feel I want to focus, and get better and do better.  After last year so many downs I never felt like I hit that spot where I wanted to focus.  As much as last year might have held me back, I am hoping it makes me hungrier this year.  I did time it too, and we ended up 10 miles @ 9:04 pace.  I'll take that before January 1 for sure.

Not much else going on.  I was pretty excited for a good workout, and was in a pretty good mood the whole day.  Lisa and I did a little house work, and I just chilled.  I had a couple drinks, and went to bed early.  I didn't stay up til midnight, but that shouldn't surprise anyone.  :)

Today I have to get a little run in, but nothing major.  Time to start doing push ups and pull ups too.  Time to get focused, and get this thing going.

Here's hoping for a kick ass mother fucking year.   :)    LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day, and year.   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  think I will watch a movie before I run.  :)

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D