The Wait

Morning All. :) Luv Ya!!! :)) LOL

2012-02-17T03:21:00.000-05:00

Hey, how's it going?? Me?? I am doing pretty well thanks. I had a pretty good day yesterday. Actually having a pretty good work week. Work is going good. I stepped down a bit from my normal running load this week, and that has my legs feeling better, so I will be able to tackle the 18 miler tomorrow.

I had some friends stop in work this week. Clay Trapp, who I worked with before. I got to know his whole family, his wife, his Dad and Mom, and his brother, and sister, and I even got to know His wife's family too. His wife is a fast runner, and so is her Dad. It was nice to see him and talk some shit. He is a funny guy, and one of those strong people that seemingly don't give a shit what people think.

Jacob also stopped by yesterday, and I know his whole family too. He brought us some doughnuts from the bakery, and we shot the shit. All is going well with him and the Trapp's so that is good.

I don't really have too too much to say to be honest, and maybe that ain't a bad thing. I have a feeling I have been bringing some real doozies, but honestly I don't really know. Like I said I don't think too much what I write, and just plop it down. I have a feeling My heart is steered in the direction it will go. Maybe even sometimes we all get a bit off course, but there is no off course really, because I have a promise that all is for good, meaning we are doing good. We go through hard stretches where we wonder about stuff, but that is to make us strong. Hard stretches help our eyes get a clearer picture. So some stuff is necessary. Like I said before the Howard Zinn days are important. The Joseph Heller days are important too, because as much as possible life should be fun. Hopefully we can all laugh a lot about stuff. Remember though we don't always laugh about stuff though. Be honest about those days, and endure those days, and learn from those days. Trust always, always always hold onto trust, because that is a great crutch. When you feel like you are in despair trust helps us hang on. We are not alone, and we all really have support.

Oh, I did forget I did add another blogger. I don't know her name at all. It comes across blogger jmarslander or something. She teaches in Kuwait I think, and is originally from Wisconsin. I checked her out before here and there when she would comment on Jessica's site. She also comments on Angela's site too, so I added her. She seems nice. :)

Guess that is about it today. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :) xoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Time for me to get my coffee. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga, cuz I love her.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the rest of you too.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Especially Damie.   xoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

And All Was Well...

2012-02-16T04:06:00.000-05:00

Boy I tell you in life it really sometimes can be just simple things that can change our mood. You see everyone looks for these grand gestures, and really life is about the simple stuff. A real pair of eyes is a thing to hope for. Throw away all garbage as much as possible. Our heart strives for this and this, but just maybe... just maybe consider what is in our heart is garbage too.

Like Solomon said, "eat, drink, and be merry for that is your lot in life" The rest is all folly. Why, and how could he say that?? From a pure heart. That too is one of the Beatitudes too right?? Blessed are the pure in heart. We definitely are not born that way, that is for sure. In our heart is to strive for this and this and this and this, but with a pure heart comes the wisdom that so very little really matters, especially when the worms are eating our bodies.   :)

I am not going to tell you what turned around my mood though, although a hint maybe???....   (Namaste)    :)

Track last night. I knew going in I did not want to push. Maybe I never do, but I think I was a bit tired too. We ran 3-10:00 min. runs. Just under 8:00 pace for me..... UGH!! It was a doable pace. It was our first 10:00 min run, and 10 and 12 minute runs are really hard on the track, and I could have done another, so the track won't kill me this year, but I definitely have to get faster.

Couple notes Sarah is flying now. Holy crap. I told Jerry to go his own pace, and he did the final one. As I suspected he is faster than me now. Ganzi made it back to speed work, and as all first speed work sessions go. OUCH!!!    :)

I realize you cannot get faster without the track. I have built up a good base though, so the legs can run, and Cathy and I are going to tackle 18 miles on Saturday. Now the shit gets real. This spring is about getting in shape. I don't see any great marathon for me this spring, but look out fall. Fall marathon is what I am gearing for, and an early spring one helps me with that.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. we did run in shorts last night, and we ran on the track in February. That ain't too shabby.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Love/Hate

2012-02-15T03:41:00.001-05:00

I sometimes have a love hate relationship with this blog. I wake up early to do it, and some days like today I would rather be sleeping, but my internal time clock went off, and I was up. Even if I am tired. So today I am thinking I have absolutely nothing to write about. Why in the heck do I do this?? Then I remember. Even if I have nothing to write I still offer support. That is probably why this blog is so weird too... or at least one of the things. How??? Why??? etc... I know this is weird, because I do know what it is like to be normal. As a matter of fact I was pretty normal when I lived in Normal, IL :P

Internally filled with unhappiness at times. Life wasn't perfect, but I wanted to be a nice and good guy. I wanted to be a nice and good guy, but I didn't know how. Trust me my biggest goal in life was to be nice. I wanted that, but I really was so imperfect. What a strange time my changes started happening too. A lot of external events help shaping how I think. I had some real life non comic book version bouts of suffering too. Things I could never tell anyone. I can tell you all kinds of things that I saw. That was a solo journey. Me being shown things for whatever reason.

I try to get a feel for what people think, and it is hard. I have a feeling the truth is breaking you down a bit. Internally I would have to guess most of us want to be pretty fabulous people, and you think it is within your power. Slight change here, and a slight change there, but also you are on your own personal journey. You are being shown things, and you are finding out a lot about you. Don't worry if you don't like everything about you, because you are not perfect. We all have bad shit in us. Remember I said the hardest thing you ever have to do is be honest. You would think something like that would be easy as hell, but it isn't is it?? Internally we always judge ourselves against Hitler, and other people like that, but the avenue is to just judge yourself with the mirror. That is it. Your path is a personal one, because none have walked in your shoes. There is no, yeah but he did that and he did that. Yeah, he did do that, but you never walked in his shoes. You never saw his quiet moments when he was 16 wondering his way in life?? It is easy to judge at what a person does, but his actions have a story. The story is his life.

It really is hard to focus on just us sometimes, because the world can be a pretty busy place, but it is a good thing to do. You will remember stuff when you need to.

I am adding again. I am adding Teaching Melissa to xoxoxoxoxo. She was an important part of my story. If you remember a vacation a couple summers ago. This was during a rocky time with Nancy O'Toole and her. It made it a hard time for me too. She is a Twitter person I follow who doesn't follow me back. You know that doesn't usually sit well with me, although I have my favorites like Avril Lavigne, and Atrios. Why Teaching Melissa??? On the strength of Olga she is an Atrios or an Avril Lavigne to me. Trust goes a long way huh?? A powerful force that can strengthen relationships huh??

Never underestimate the importance of Olga. Out of the blue comes the quid pro quo, and look how far that has taken us.

and now for something completely different...

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Ken, Jerry, and I ran our 6 miler last night. We asked Jerry how he liked his fast Sunday run. LOL. We laughed, he really had a nice tempo run. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

Oh Gawwwwwwwwwwwwdddddddd!!!

2012-02-14T03:59:00.000-05:00

I have absolutely nothing to write, but guess I will anyway. Going to get coffee first. Hold on...

I have been thinking about my last coupla posts have been doozies, and I think it helps with our vision. Our vision of what our life really is about. All our life we relied on some type of fairy tale or other to always strive for. Work toward this and this and this and this, and the next thing you know your 60. There is security with having money in the bank, but how much is enough?? There never really is enough is there?? I mean we are born with that little flaw, of always wanting more. Do you ever see some of the shit people buy?? Some guy was telling me he had a client who wanted a round vent for their rangehood, because it would look better aesthetically on his/her house. WTF???? Who are these fucking people??

I think your vision improves as you can see down each path a little farther. All paths lead to one area. Something we all have in common.

An absolute search for the truth reveals imperfection in us all. There is no perfect career, job, spouse/significant other. There is no perfect life. I think the truth eventually breaks you down, in order to build you up. It is a journey, so it takes time. Life has a bunch of shit in it. Being raised by imperfect people adds to it, not to mention our own imperfections anyway. Life is hard. Shit ain't easy, and eventually I guess you realize all we strive for is vanity of vanities. All pursuits lead to the same place, and maybe that is what Solomon saw. No one did more in his life than him. He had all the honor of wisdom. He achieved much in building all kindsa things. Had his pick of women. Everything, and he realized he had the best life, but still most of it was pointless. There was no reason for it, and eventually someone came and offered hope. Hope of a better way, and a better future.

Let me tell you too. You have no idea what it entails, but it is nutty. He even saw more than what you can imagine. That too is nutty, and you think why??? Why do I have to do this hard shit??? Why must we suffer soooo?? The answer is you don't understand. It is a higher knowlege, wisdom, and understanding that leads the way, and your cartoon-like understanding cannot attain to those heights... yet. I am in the same boat too. Things seem fricken nutty sometimes.

I press on though, always hoping people will show courage, and honesty. Open up, and show the strength of character that does not show being right, but shows honesty, and courageous, and truth. Being right you cannot attain too, being honest you can.

I don't suffer fools well, and those that lie are just that. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Decided to take yesterday off running, and I am just going to run 6 tonight. I was a bit beat up after my last few weeks so stepping back a bit. Plus we are doing 18 this weekend, so I feel it is a good idea.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Something That Makes Me Happy...

2012-02-13T03:31:00.000-05:00

Want to know something that makes me happy?? Course you do. :) Now this blog can go in any number of directions, and it probably will, but this year, we will be able to save up some money (not spend every cent we have every week) and let Lisa take 3 weeks vacation, and still pay ourselves $250 for each of those weeks. Lisa loves vacations. Stay at home, and do stuff around the house.... or nothing. That shit drives me crazy, and I hate taking my vacations alotta the times, but she loves them. That makes me happy. :)

Work is all relative in anything we do. Lisa works 8:30-1or 2 in the afternoon most M-Fs. She works some weekends here and there, but even she gets burned out. That she gets to take 3 weeks off this year like I said makes me happy. :)

Hold on I am going to get some coffee. We ran yesterday, and let me tell you again how happy I am to run on Sundays with people. I am going through a bit of a dead leg time, so it was good to run with people, because solo dead leg runs usually = 3 mile runs, and we did a 6.4 mile run. Ken and I ran together at our own leisurely pace. Jerry brought some friend of his, and they went like a bat out of hell. I don't know about Jerry's friend, but it was definitely like a 5K pace for Jerry. I kept thinking omg that cannot be a fun run for him. He will pay for that effort somewhere down the line. I don't know what that was about, but ouch for them. My legs on our run felt like cement again. As we were running down 8th street at our ending I could see my gait by looking in the windows. Even though it felt like my legs weren't moving, they were still moving pretty good. Ken and I both doubled up 10 milers with a 6.4, so not a bad weekend.

Today is Monday and an easy day. I may have Hope take me for a little 3 miler when I get home from work. :)

Anything else????   nah not really. No heavy stuff. I never know when I bring the heavy stuff, but yesterday must have been one of those days. All your life you think you have control over your destiny, and your future. The lesson of Anne Frank huh?? Also the important lessons of the fabulous. Hollywood shows the life of the rich and famous. The most glamorous lives still do not lead to the happily ever after fairy tale. We all have our ending too, which is definitely not glamorous.

Food for thought I guess. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. This thing goes on and on and on and on huh??

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Not My Best Day...

2012-02-12T05:26:00.000-05:00

Yesterday we did the cross. I was going to show the elevation, but it must have been on a post a couple years ago. I looked at the entry from a year ago. I said the same dang thing. I forget how hard the cross is.   LOL. I was thinking all day yesterday I did not have my best running day. My legs were tired, and I never felt that great. I know when I feel good the final leg home of the cross turns into a tempo run. I didn't tempo this run home.

Just some things I remember, the first leg to the cross is hard. Out to the 2nd leg isn't too bad, but what you go out on, you have to come back on. We come back, and our final climb is a roller coaster hill. OMG, did that hurt. You keep looking where is the end....UGH.... that far still.   Climb for another minute or so.... look again.... UGH am I in the same spot???    :) Out on leg 4 is pretty easy, but like I said what you go out on you have to come back. Leg 5 I got dropped like a bad habit by Jerry. That is the hardest leg. A lot of climbing, and not enough recovery before the next climb. You never feel comfortable. To be honest my legs felt like crap the whole day, and I never felt really good. One of those days?? or just a bump in the road. I'll know more today when we run. If it is just a bump, I'll plan on doing a double on Tuesday. If I am still sluggish, I will just run the 6 on Tuesday. We will see.

Anyway I was just thinking of something. As you know Whitney Houston just died. You wonder about life huh?? Here is this girl who has all the fame, all the admiration, and all the money, and all the talent. She is on top of her game, but yet she still battled through all kindsa things. Many of us will never know what it is to reach the pinnacle. All we desire, and all we wish is many times a life like Whitney's. There are soooo many stories of people like her. It makes me wonder of that triathlete who is taking a year off. She has achieved everything she wanted, and yet it appears she wants more to life. It isn't all about training, and racing. There is something more for us to seek, which will bring us fulfillment. There is more to life than what we think we want in other words. Don't always trust our own understanding, because trust me, there is a higher knowledge, and wisdom, and understanding, and the funny thing about it is it is within your reach. It is a Journey though, and a Journey takes time, and security is having and knowing things now, but taking time helps develop trust, and trust is important, or time wouldn't be something he uses to such a degree.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I like coffeeeeeeeeee.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D    :D

Blogging With My Computer!! :) YAY!!!

2012-02-11T05:21:00.001-05:00

Hello all, how's it going?? Me?? I am doing pretty good. I am drinking coffee right now, and I will be running the cross in a couple hours. Good times. I don't really have too too much to say.

Well, let's go through with some good news shall we?? I got my computer back, and it works fine. It has a new hard drive, so like brand new. :) Also getting the old one fixed. It is another laptop with the screen demolished. It is a weird size, so an expensive fix, but figured we might as well. We were in Best Buy picking up our fixed lap top, and looking around at all the electronic toys. We were like...oooooh, maybe we should get this and this, or that, and that. Nah just fix up the old laptop, and get 2 new tires on the car. :) That my friends is the life of a Rock-n-Roll star. :) LOL

There is a lot to life, and none of it is easy. We all would really like a stress free life, but there ain't no such thing. Sometimes we want our life to appear to be all that, and none of our lives are all that. There is plenty of shit in life to go around, and it does go around. Systems are set up by imperfect humans, and the systems are pretty fucked up, because Greed trumps all. Revolutions don't answer any questions, because Greed trumps all. Unhappiness is easily transferred into hate, and Killing people seems like the best answer. Our lives would be so much better if those fuckers weren't alive. :)

Sometimes we think the x people overseas are really fucked up. They think weird. Truth is if you were born in the country of the x people you would think just like them. The x people think us people are weird too. They are not blind to our greed, and our motives. We are, because our information comes from us. We like us. We don't see too many faults with us. A wise path is one where we seek a higher knowledge, and a higher wisdom, and a higher understanding, instead of holding onto the crap that has been handed down from generation to generation. (x people does not mean xxxxx people)   LOL x=you pick the country

I look at the pieces I get of people's lives, and I see shit is hard. Answers are not right here where we want them. The thing that drives us crazy, is we want answers now, but answers take time. Faith and time go hand in hand, and that what makes faith so hard. Faith is all kindsa things. Trust being very important. It is being humble, because we have to accept we really are not in charge of our destiny, and our route really, as much as we pretend to be. Strings can be pulled to keep us on the right path, and to open our eyes, and our ears.

The journey is hard. I surely am not perfect, and sometimes life drives me nuts too. I hate seeing shit where people pretend their life is so great. Yeah, a lot of us have some great stuff, but a lot of it fucking sucks too. We all are in the same boat as far as that is concerned. It is about being real. Being humble, and realizing we all are in this fucked up mess called life. Our ending is with the worms too, and it don't matter how pretty we are. :) (me being the most pretty of course)   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. There really are two avenues. Give up, or press on. In life it is all about pressing on. We can always pick ourselves up at any time, and press on. Even if before we have given up.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Christi who got laid off yesterday, and she is probably hung over today. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Extras for me too.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   HA HA HA

Olga too.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Morning!! :D

2012-02-10T02:52:00.000-05:00

Hey Folks, how's it going??? Me, I am doing good. I sure haven't blogged much this week. Been in a bad mood a bit I guess. Who knows why?? Feel pretty good today though!! :)

I have been a bad blogger for me. Haven't commented on many blogs, and may have pushed the mark as read button quite a few times. I really have not been interested in many of your lives this week. Wasn't really very interested in mine really too much!! :)

I did get in some pretty good training though. We had a track workout, and since I haven't been timing things, it appears I forgot how to use my stopwatch!! :)

I still have some paces to gauge my speed on. For February, I think it is o.k.

800-- 7:30

3-5:00 runs were in the 7:35-7:40 range

Last 800 was a 7:06 pace I think.

Maybe a look at my running goals:

Sub: 22:00 5K-- on track

3:35 marathon pace to be my marathon pace-- need to work on that.

Sub: 2:05 Riverbank!! (25K)

A good block of training has me thinking, I may have a good year in the running area. Mileage is growing, and legs are recovering overnight. I finished a 5 day stretch of running every day, while getting 40 miles in. That is pretty good for me.

We shall see!! :)

Any words of wisdom??? Nope not really. I keep going on, and just kinda see where this life thing is heading. Now I am going to drink some coffee!! :)

cya later!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Our computer is done, but I cannot find our reboot disc!! :) have to order a new one I guess!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D

Super Bowl Sundayyyy!! :D

2012-02-05T04:22:00.001-05:00

Good morning all!! How's it goin??? Me, I am doing good. We ended up doing a 16 mile run yesterday. It is our hilly route. I'll tell you about it, but lemme get some coffee first!! :)

First off Jerry, 'lil Cath, and I did 4 early miles. Our Winter route is a 12 mile route max. It is very hilly, and challenging. If you want to add miles, it is best to do it early, unless you are disciplined enough to add after. I like getting extra early, because I know I very well may not add later. Cathy did the first 5 miles with Sara?? I think her name is. She is one of the fast feet. Then she doubled back up to meet us. Sara was only doing 10 miles. Us three added the challenging 2 mile stretch with a Gatorade/water break before, and after with Alan. We shoot the shit a bit at these breaks. I love breaks!! :)

Anyhoo, we doubled back. By the time we hit our last hard hill, I was falling back a bit. The hills were taking their toll. For the record, after next week, I will bring nutrition. 16 miles with no calories is hard!! :)

We hit a flat/ easy downhill for a good stretch, and the legs were turning over. The last mile plus, I was falling back, but caught up toward the end. I was having several ups and downs!! :)

That was it. We are following yesterday's 16 miler with a slow 6+ miler today!! Getting the hard stuff done feels good!! :)

Other than that not much going on. Well a couple things. 16 miler yesterday was hard. Add 10+ miles, and you have a marathon. The tricky math. It is early Feb. Though, and I will get stronger from here on out. That is the plan anyway!! :)

Thanx all for the comments the last coupla days!! I usually don't get a lot!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!! :) xo :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. I have tomorrow off work. I will be rooting for the Giants. Forgive me if I get a little excity, and sweary during the game!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. :) she needs 'em sometimes!! :)

Extras for everyone too!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Happy Long-Run Saturday!!! :D

2012-02-04T05:08:00.000-05:00

There was a lot on my mind this morning, should I bare all???

I'll go through some things... Maybe in a list'ish way.

1. I wonder about Nancy O'Toole. She has made my blog for as long as I can remember. Does she lack confidence??? She is a great and honest person. She is strong, but I think it is a shell. Perhaps she doesn't feel so strong. She wants to be right, and do right. She wants the answers to life. If I do this, and put all my effort into this, than that is the way. We are not afforded that luxury. A life's journey involves time. Only one is comfortable with time. Only one can use it, and it is one with perfect vision. Want me to make a confession?? One of the things that saddens me a bit, is me and her are not open friends like Olga and I. One other thing about her is she has two blogs, so she gets double xoxoxoxoxo's every day I write!! :)

2. I need to get some coffee!!! :)

3. I got some coffee!!! :)

4. I followed 2 bloggers yesterday. One was a different Nancy who went to my H.S. She was one of the people I left for a bit. Also a Laura girl. I don't know Laura, but she is from Northern California, and she runs. Good enough for me!!! :)

5. This week did not go as planned via running, but after next week shit gets real. 18 plus milers, and stuff. The fun part of Marathon training. The days we see what we got!! :)

6. I think I am going to buy a new desktop next week. We'll see.

7. Our bills are caught up before profit sharing. We took some 401K money to catch up the mortgage!! :) we don't do smart!!! :)

8. Today we are running between 15 and 16.5 miles. Jerry, I, and lil' Cath are meeting early.

9. Oh one other thing. I thought of the way of a flower garden. There are weeds. They are a dime-a-dozen. Nothing special. Big deal. There are flowers. They are unique, they are pretty, and the perennials come back up the next season with little babies. Our Journey is to be a flower. To stand on our own, in our unique way. It is scary, because none are strong enough, or confident enough to stand on our own. With help all is possible!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's. !!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Laura is now a xoxoxo person!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga... It is all about trust!! :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. I trust more than just Olga, but it is Olga, and I luv her!! :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!! Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. :D :D

Fridayyyyyyyyyyy!! :D

2012-02-03T02:59:00.003-05:00

Good Morning all. How is everyone?? I had a couple great comments yesterday, one from Christi, and one from Damie. The story you are looking for is your story. Don't look for another person's story. Look for your own. This is hard, this blogging thing, and Damie reminded me. When we do this you can judge our asses. You put yourself out there, and I believe I will help support and tell the Judgers to go Fuck Off!!

Hold on going to get some coffee!! :).

All we do is a distraction really. Your Journey in life is to find who you are. You are not a diploma, a profession, a career, you are a person. We all do different things, and are interested in different things.

Want to know something of me?? I was bored of blogging. I prayed let this be done!! I don't want to blog anymore, but here I am up every day before I need to be. Even when I go to bed later than normal. I think in some blogs people confuse what they do, with who they are. 2 different things people. Use your alone time to find out who you are.
Training can be alone time, but it is just dead time if your mind is empty. Trust me no one is going to give a shit about any of your races when you have been dead for one year. You won't either. The most important part of you is you...not anything else. I don't give a shit what you do!!

Be the ball... Grasshopper!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Damie is like the most impressive person I have "met" in a while!!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Hate Blogging!! :)

2012-02-02T03:53:00.000-05:00

I don't put a lot of thought into what I write on this thing. Sometimes I feel it is important to do this (people read it). Sometimes I think, what's the point??? (People don't read it)

It isn't just that either. I think we look for the good ones. The best people. The best people are not the ones who do everything right, they are the ones who don't pretend to do everything right. Any of you have FB or read some blogs will know what I mean.

Being honest is better than whatever version of fake good you try to be. Honest is achievable. You'll fall short of your version of "good". Your version is different than anothers. There is a mountain of information out there, and you will not possibly know everything.

I know we want our Saints. We want someone out there to look up to to say I will follow him/her. They know what the fuck they are doing. Fuck that!! Take the path less traveled. Follow yourself. Fuck everyone else. It is your life, do what you want.

I hate to be a buzz killl, but very little of the shit we do in life really matters in the Grand Scheme of things. Human life is like the worst invention ever!! :). LOL

Everything is fucking stupid, but people can be pretty o.k. Just be real, and be honest. Don't look for perfection in others. You won't find it. Don't pretend perfection to others you'll look just like an ass face!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. Speed work cut short, cause I had to shit!! FUCK!! Think I will run to work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras to some of the married girls tooo!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!! :)

moynin alllllll!!! :)

2012-01-29T06:01:00.000-05:00

Just a quick update I think. Let me get some coffee first, with vanilla/caramel creamer. :)

Want to know what drove my run yesterday?? Jerry had to watch his special needs son and couldn't run. I could easily have run 6 miles, and added long during the relay. I wanted to show up at the relay with bragging rights. I still got my 10 miler in, and am flexible to do whatever. It is kinda a miles before the miles type thing. Oh well I already have such and such miles in!! :) LOL I like to be ahead of the game!! :)

Plan still is to double up on the long-"ish" runs, and get another 10 miler in or so. I figure we will be done around noon or so, and then it is beer and chili!! Yay!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. Today should be phun!!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for everyone too!! Xoxoxoxoxo

Now for really cya cya cya!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

mornin all!! xoxo. xxxx. :)

2012-01-28T06:12:00.002-05:00

Hello folks, how is it going?? Me I am doing good. I have coffee with caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Well what happened yesterday?? We did our taxes. We went to a person this year, because Lisa didn't think I was doing it right. You hear of people getting a ton of money back, and we usually have to pay in a bit. I try and break even btw, so as not to give a 0% interest loan to the guvermint. We owe $400. On the bright side we will in a couple weeks get our profit sharing checks $4500 give or take, and nothing to spend it on. No bills. We will be all caught up on stuff. Most will go to a rainy day fund, and we will keep $500 to pay ourselves $250 for two weeks so Lisa can take a couple weeks off from work. Living without debt is the bomb. We are not smart with our money, especially fake money, but we are so dumb now the bankers don't even know we exist!! :)

I have a fun weekend of running planned. I should do some stuff around the house, and laundry and stuff...but lessee anything on my mind??

Confidence. Don't we all wish we had more?? Many times we view ourselves on a perch. We dress ourselves in nice clothes, and nice houses, but really these are not what define us. They matter none. Think of the Saddam pictures. Head of a Country for many years. The confidence of running a country, with all the security behind him. When it came to his end, none of that mattered. He was just a frightened man. That is our ending btw. None of the things we dress ourselves in matter. We stand naked so to speak. Confidence is a Spiritual Journey of learning your place in the world. Why do I use Journey?? I think because it signifies using time. Time and faith walk hand in hand. :)

Btw I followed another blogger. Mama Simmons. I cannot put her on my RHS due to phone thingies. Just so ya know!! :). I'll get her there eventually!! :) that makes her an xoxoxo person!! :)

LOL. Weird blog!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. I think it is raining. Must be warm!!! :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Jenny Harrison again. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!!! :D :D

MWAH!!! :)

What Matters???

2012-01-27T03:46:00.000-05:00

Hi, I just named my title what matters?? I don't know why, but eventually you have thoughts what is my life?? Who knows me?? No one really, because we all have quiet times that are pretty personal to us. Hold on. Going to get some coffee...with vanilla/caramel creamer. :)

Do people know me?? Yes I think so. I am not the same every day though. Some days I am tired, and somedays not. Some days are Joseph Heller days like I have said before, and other times it is a more serious day.

I like training for marathons, and I don't know why. A feeling of accomplishment?? I know it is nice to not worry what I eat, or how often. I will still probably lose weight. I like the discussions during runs, and the dread of hard work outs.

These are my good years. This is a good time for me. I wake up early, and do this. I have some great people who I know. I had to deal with things, no one can comprehend. It made me seem mean at times, but I always get back up. Yes our lives are spiritual journeys. There is stuff inside us different than the stuff that decomposes. What matters is support. Everyone wants to accomplish stuff, but when life happens you all need support. Maybe that is something I am good at. A way to make people think they matter. I try to comment a lot.

I have this blog, and it is strange. I caught a glimpse of why it was weird, and why people struggle with it. What I do here is important, or I wouldn't do it.

I like getting to know people. I have a history with many, and it is kinda strange. I know a lot of Triathletes, and I don't do them. :)

Ahhh I got nothing really. What matters??? You do. Not because of the grand gestures, but because you are living a life. We all deal with the stupid things in Society, but we have family and we have friends, and we are living a life. We all are interested in different things. I hope we all have upgraded from our black and white lens to the color lens. That is progress too!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. I gotta lot of stupid shit to do today. Taxes and stuff!! Blah. Fun weekend planned. Relay Marathon with beer and chili at the end!! :)

Love You All. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jenny Harrison... She needs 'em xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Adding christine McCarthy's sister Karen Kroll to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo too!!

Love you all!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo. MWAH!!! :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D

February Trees Ate My Kneecap and Shoulder Toothpaste

2012-01-26T03:05:00.000-05:00

Well good morning all. How is it going?? Me I am doing good. I need some coffee before I get going, with caramel/vanilla creamer. :)

I definitely have to say the 2 best inventions lately are flavored creamers for coffee, and the shiny things girls can use on their nails. I mean we are talking real progress!! :)

Don't have much on my mind. We had a great speed work last night. Jerry brought his A game, and really made Sophia and I work hard. Work out was basically 1-1/2 warm up. 6-600's hard up, and 5-600's recover, with like a mile cool down. So I am done til Saturday, unless I just throw in a little 3.5 miler on Friday.

I really have nothing important to say. Life sure can be busy though. Maybe that is why blogging is good. Our lives are made up of tiny little days. Maybe not a lot goes on, but it makes up our life. Maybe it is nice to know that someone out there cares enough to read the stupid shit that makes up our day to day!! Remember Becky used to blog every day. I bet she thought she was boring, but I never thought so. Maybe that is a good thing about me... I have enough energy and desire to spend time reading up on people's lives, and comments help people feel like people are paying attention. It is the little things like caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Bad thing about me?? Sometimes when you people do different things than me, I just think you are off your rocker!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Thursday = Friday. Is it too early to drink yet??? ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Wanna know why I give extras to Olga?? Not really sure... I just like her. She is a good girl, and who can control their heart?? I am glad she is my friend!! :).

Extras for the rest of you too!! :) MWAH!!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D.

The Underwear King

2012-01-25T02:54:00.001-05:00

Well I took a couple days off... I think, or was it 1?? I don't even remember. I don't even know what this blog is about!! :)

Hold on... I am getting coffee with some caramel/vanilla creamer!! :)

Well yesterday I doubled up on runs. That isn't something I want to do often, but I was tired Monday, and decided to add my 3.5 mile to Tuesday along with the evening 6 miler. It went fine. A couple notes for running. We are planning on running 10 miles on Saturday, and only running 5 or 6 for the Frostbite Marathon. Also we are going to start running on Sundays together too to help the Sunday runs be 6 milers instead of my sorry ass-dead legged Sunday 3 milers I have been doing. Running with people helps me.

Other than that not much going on. Speed work tonight, and that is about it. Welcome to my exciting life. It may be dull, and it may be boring seeming, but I like it. That is what it is all about too!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!! :)

Xo's !!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. You all are kwazy!!!! :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really cya cya cya!!! :D :D
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I Am Full Of Myself!!

2012-01-22T05:31:00.000-05:00

Well I am a bit full of myself. I guess yesterday's post was one of those just throw some shit down, and go from there. When you throw some shit down, and get no responses you figure you must have been a dick. One of the reasons I hate blogging, and one of the reasons I wonder why I do this.

It is an eye-opener though. I am comfortable with me though. So on I go.

BTW I am blogging with my phone now for the next 2 to 4 weeks, when I blog. Guess it takes that long. Eeek!! :)

I did want to tell about our run though, because it was cold, it was long, it was hilly, and it was hard!! I mentioned yesterday the 4 of us met for 3 early miles. That was fine, and easy. The 12 mile route is hard. The 10 mile route is hard, and the extra 2 miles we add is the most difficult 2 miles in Holland, not on a trail. Me Lil Cath, and Jerry ran together for that!! All I can say with the snowy roads it was hard. We got to the point where a start up after a drink stop = Groan!! Been a while, since I ran into that!! Not much else on the run, except the end Jerry and I couldn't keep up with Cath. Not surprising. I felt we got a great workout though, so that feels good!!

I plan on only running like 10 miles at the Frostbite Marathon Relay next week!! A step down week!!

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. NFL games start at screwy times so I'll miss the Giants game!! Booooo!!

Love You All. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best. Xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya. :D. :D

The Rub... More Things About Me...

2012-01-21T06:26:00.000-05:00

Want to know some more things about me?? Some more imperfections?? No problem. I have a lot of them, and I am good at this. I like talking about me. First off I want to thank you yesterday for the comments. That is part of the rub I guess.

Jeff Stark commented, and busted my balls, and called me a pussy. I don't know why more of that doesn't go on. We bust balls all the time. Shit is funny.

Christi didn't comment til later, so I know something hit her. I can always tell. :)

Kiet gave me a nice comment too, meaning it was a dose of reality.

Well, I was going to say some things, but I'll just let them slide. I do facebook, and I do Twitter, so if you want to do them together, you just need to ask. Steve Pejchl is my name. Piklman2 is the other. Have at it. If you read this I definitely appreciate it. I follow back on Twitter, and I accept friend requests on Facebook.

You know my problems before. Here I am this person. People know me. I have lived a life, and I showed people. I let people in on who I was, and people who I thought were my friends didn't read or didn't care. Life is full of choices. Facebook and Twitter are choices. No one read my blog, than I wasn't going to do facebook or Twitter. You know there were other things at play too. For some reason I had to do the Iz song night. Unplanned unrehearsed, and me taking a lot of shit. We all have a big burden called life, and I told you the shit has to be dealt with. It is better if you deal with it yourself, because you are not alone, and you have support. Your life is more than your next workout. Holy shit, some people are fricken sad. I see what you do. You try to escape. The world is topsy turvy. When you are your weakest is when you are the strongest. The important Howard Zinn days. When you are your strongest feeling is just one of the many gifts of life called the Joseph Heller days.

What you think is right is nothing. The greatest gift is love. "GIFT" Works without love profits you nothing. Remember too the normal thing to do is to harden your hearts when you are told or shown something. Nah, that cannot be it.

So anyway we are running 15 miles today. Jerry, Lil Cathy, and Bob the bullet are meeting a bit early to do 3 miles, and then we run a challenging 12 mile loop. Hills Hills Hills. Should be fun. :)

On a side note, I am going to bring my computer in. It is under warranty, so I may take a few days off blogging. I may blog with my phone though, we'll see. Maybe not too.

Also some blogs are set up weird so you cannot comment with a phone, so there is that too. FYI. I will comment in a social networking way if that is the case. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Today is a cold day, but then we warm up next week. YAYYYYY.   :) oh, and xoxoxo   too :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga, just cause. :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Some Things About Me...

2012-01-20T03:30:00.001-05:00

Just this morning some things become clearer. People want to do right, and want to be right. For me it was important to get to a step, where I threw everything away. Everything I learned just throw it in the garbage. Start from scratch. If there is a higher power, which I know there is, than he would lead you in a good way. If you don't believe in a higher power, which many don't, it still is a search for a higher truth than what other imperfect humans have handed down. It is a way to look at things more objectively. Society is really things that have been handed down. For those who believe in a higher power, than you really have to believe he is alive, and willing to show you things every day.

Slowly, but surely I am starting to get a glimpse of people, and some of the hang ups. Life many times is hard. Raising kids is hard, having kids is hard. Trying to make ends meet is hard. Some days it is nice to just cuddle up with a dog, and have a day or a moment for yourself. Life takes stuff out of us. We are not always on. I look back at my last year, and really it was a shitty year. I was so less than perfect it is un fricken believable. I was angry a lot. Slowly but surely I can see life being back to a more better place for me. A lot of my hang ups are slowly dissolving. I am getting to understand people better, and am able to be more accepting. I had to work through some things.

I guess this blog gets a little whack sometimes. Realize, I don't put a lot of thought into what I write. I wake up early, and go to town.   Do I offend?? I assume I do sometimes. Am I perfect... hell no. I don't even try to be, because I know my heart is in good hands, and I know I do help support people, and that is a good thing. Even in some low points, I was still able to help support people, and that ain't such a bad thing either.

Life has some real heavy shit in it. We will not always be young, and we know at some point there will be some kind of a shitty ending. We don't know the date, but usually the last of our lives probably ain't the best days, and we have that to look forward to. Most of the stuff we do will not leave a legacy of any sort. No one cares about our life more than us. I think we think what we do is a hell of a lot more important than what others think we do. That is humbling I guess. How we perceive our own value, and our own worth, many others don't value as highly. We are our own best friends kinda. I guess I am really blessed with a heart that supports, because when the gray days come, I can see through the fog, and see value in you people. When the chips are down is when I think you stand tall. It is when you are your most beautiful, because it is there where you realize you are vulnerable, as we all are. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Lisa said it is supposed to be fricken cold outside, so I am driving to work. I may go for a short run when I get home. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

A little shout out to Damie too. Life is crazy. I knew her not at all a month ago, and now I feel like we are good friends. That is fricken awesome. :) Wish her the best in all things that is fo sho!!!   :)

Extra xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo's for you all. :D

We Seem Tough...

2012-01-19T03:49:00.000-05:00

It ain't no thing though. We run when it is cold, and when it is dark. I would imagine most of us wear two wicking shirts, and a breathing jacket. If you went out in the cold like that we'd freeze. If you ran in the cold like that you would come home soaked. People climb Everest and survive negative whatever degrees. Probably the most interesting thing is right now if it hits 40 degrees, we'd probably run in shorts. First day in October we may contemplate running pants. Bodies do acclimate. Usually in a pretty short time.

Speed work is hard. I mean we put ourselves in misery. None of us have any dreams of reaching the top with our hobby. Maybe we won't even P.R. We still do it though. We push our bodies, because it is fun. You feel like a million bucks when you are done.

A night of running is a night of conversations. Lil Cathy drives from like an hour away to do this. Why?? Misery loves company. Sophia was scared of the first night of speed work. I was excited the first night, and scared last night. You always dread the effort you are about to give. Jerry has been wanting to pick up a spin class for cross training. Sometimes life gets in the way, and life doesn't give a crap about our goals. You want to know one of the good things about running too?? If I got home after work about 2:00 or whatever, I got nothing to do. I'd probably have some drinks and listen to music. Hobbies are good. Sometimes keep us doing good things instead of maybe a worse vice. That being said all hobbies can be a vice, if it is an escape. Even seemingly healthy ones, because at the end of the day Life still is real. This ain't some fake shit we are doing here. If you collect all the activities in the world together they still don't mean shit. You won't give a shit about any of it when your dead. You want to make a good name for yourself, and put your name on a building?? You won't give a crap about it when your dead.

Ha ha. I didn't mean to be so serious on this thing. The world would have you fake through stuff. Just last night as I was enjoying a Brandy after my run. (don't normally do that) Lisa had American Idol on. I guess Steven Tyler said a 15 year old girl was good looking, while the whole family was on. It is inappropriate for an older guy to say something like that to a girl who is that young. Not right. Taboo. The truth of the matter is I looked at the TV, and from a quick look, the girl was attractive. The girl who nobody really knows got a nice compliment from Stephen Tyler. Young looking girls are pretty too.

As a matter of fact don't most girls as they age wish and wish and wish they could get down to their 14 year old bodies someway?? Isn't that a normal thing?? It seems to me it is kinda. A girl and how they look is a big thing seemingly in a women's psyche. How they look on the outside is how they feel on the inside sometimes I'd guess. Guys look too. We are visual. We were born that way I think. Thoughts about hot chicks or hot guys are real thoughts. We have them depending on which way we like 'em. :)

Well shit!! This blog is all over the place. LOL.

Life takes us in a direction though, and sometimes we feel we are in a shambles. I talked to Alan yesterday, and life happens, you will not escape it. He is approaching 2 years the death of his mother. Uncle was having some health problems, his Dad was going in for surgery. Alan went through some hard personal times when the market collapsed, and bankers got a ton of money so they wouldn't lend to small businesses, and small businesses suffered. Alan's was one of them. You have personal family issues. Pesonal professional issues, and the shit can beat you down. I don't think I realized until yesterday all the things Alan has been going through, and still he was always there for his group, and his kids. Life gave him a couple body shots, but you can tell he is ready to counter.

Have a Good One All!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Thursday = Friday after work. :)   yay.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D    Oh, and btw Olga is back from Ireland. :) I missed her. :D     ( Back online I mean) I never met her.   :)   LOL

The Climb!!

2012-01-18T03:39:00.001-05:00

Do you ever wonder the motivation of a person?? Climbing to the top has got to be a huge motivation. I just found out Chrissie Wellington is taking the year off from Triathlon. She is actually one I heard of before too, besides the bloggers I read, and have seen around with comments. Retiring while on top. I wondered why. She gave kind of a non-answer, but you realize the grind of professional sport. 82 Basketball games in a year, and all the travel. All the time given to Ironman training. The workouts of boxing. People take years off. Jordan retired on top of his game only to come back and do another 3-peat. Boxers always retire, and come back. Climbing to the top, when you believe everything is possible has got to be a huge motivator. So few get to the top, it is hard to know what goes through their mind. We all are climbers. Not many of us make it to the top. I would have to say they are people too, and they get tired, and life is more than just one thing. Not many know what it looks like at the top. That is a whole nother ball game, and World up there. Trust me, I have been here a long time. ;)

Yesterday I ran, and did my 6 @ 5:15. Nothing too much on the run, except it was getting cold, as the wind was coming from the North. Tonight will complete another round of 5 running days in a row. Sunday and Monday were nothing big, but I hope to build on at least Sunday. I am fine with a Monday run to work. Jerry and Ken ran with us, and we didn't time it. For the record we hit 3 decades. Me at 45-- I think.   Jerry around 55, and Ken at 65'ish. I told both those guys at various times we all are getting old, but you two take it to a whole nother level. :)

I don't really have much other today. I guess I'd like to give you a link. Here is a witty guy I know, who seems to have a lot of interests. He had an interesting blog entry. You know his as a witty guy, and you realize there is other stuff to his life. It goes to show you support goes a long way. It can help pick people up, and continue on with their life in a more positive way.   Life can get us all down at times I'd say, and that is why I stress support. Not everyone needs it all the time, but sometimes people do. Sometimes we all get so wrapped up in our life, we forget the most important things.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. You are a strong person, somethings I can just tell. Not everything is easy, but you are strong enough to deal with all life brings. xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

A Non List

2012-01-17T03:35:00.001-05:00

I was going to do a list, but I don't think I really feel like it. I started doing a list, but it was really sentences, that can be in a paragraph. For the record Monday went well. I ran to work. It was cold out early in the morning, but you still work up a sweat. Legs felt pretty good, and I will run tonight too, and tomorrow night too. Early Monday run is pretty good, since I run next on Tuesday night.

I am pretty excited to see what the future holds. Not so much about what happens in the world so much, but what happens to people. Bad things happen in the world. Life is something real. Something people will go through. You know I do this blog thing, and it seems the most natural thing in the world. I have this signature line that is the most natural thing in the world, and I realize new bloggers who I add to my list might find it a bit odd. Trust me, I don't think it odd at all, and like I said it is the most natural thing in the world, but once in a while you get a glimpse of how odd it may seem to others. LOL.   I love that. :)

You notice I don't add everyone to the signature line, but I always want to. It just comes to me in the morning. Sometimes during the day I hope I add so and so to the signature line, and it doesn't happen. Meaning I get a feeling of wanting too, but it really happens at this time. Sometimes I'll tell a person the night before they will make it, but it is always a feeling. Want to know the weird thing about it?? It is not my doing. Remember when I gave up, I cursed for ever being alive, and what happened that night. In other words my heart is in another's hand to do those things. I don't choose to put you in the signature line so to speak.

As to giving extras too, I think is the same way. I haven't been really feeling giving the extras for some reason. I wonder why?? Maybe because you people are going through things. You have stuff going on in your mind about life, and yourself, and how you stand in relation to everything. I don't know. How would I??

I don't really know what goes on in a person's life so much. Either does anyone else. There is a natural tendency to keep our innermost thoughts secret, because, well it really isn't an easy thing to let our stuff out. Maybe it is hard to even get to our innermost thoughts too, because we are so busy with silly peripheral "life" things. Have you ever taken inventory of your day?? I saw an old lady at the grocery store. 70+ I am sure. Her car was immaculate. Nothing inside. Seats were spotless, the car was too. It obviously stays in a garage. I thought who cares about that crap??? Lisa said her husband probably cleans the car every weekend. I told her what idiot would do something like that?? She said her Dad. Remember our young years when our worth used to be totally what car we were driving?? I plan on being not worth a shit my whole life. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Riding my bike to work today. It is pretty warm this morning too. yay.   :)

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Nuthin On My Mind...

2012-01-16T03:13:00.000-05:00

I am pretty sure I have nuthin on my mind, but since I am up you know?? Yesterday was a pretty good day. I was productive around the house. Long run Saturdays make me tired, and easy Sundays help me get some stuff done around the house, and I did . I went on a short run, that was cut shorter by a loose dog. I had to double back a different way. I ended my first over 30 mile week in a while though, so that ain't too shabby for me. I feel it too. Just some muscles that know they have been working again.

I watched a good portion of the first football game, and all of the Packers game. When the Bears are out, and the Giants are in I always root for the Giants. You would think being a Bears fan I would hate the Packers, but I don't. I think they have a lot of great players on their team, and I don't really dislike them. I don't know how their defense can suck so bad though. They definitely need some Defensive Line help. SHEESH!!

Well we have some good news at work. I guess work is a 2 part thing. The work you do, and the people you work with. If you don't like the people you work with the job may suck. We are getting one of the good ones back. Moving all the way back to Michigan from Minnesota. Lucky ducks. Moving from a just whatever State that starts with M-I, to the best State that starts with M-I. :) Anyway she is one of the good ones to have around work. A good worker, and a terrific personality, and one who definitely smiles more than not. Yay.   :) She is a Stark too, so that is always nice. :) Her fiancee is transferring to Grand Rapids, so they both have to be thrilled to be back home.

Other than that not much going on really. Just doing the live my life thing, and this crazy blog thing, and training, and enjoying this life for what it is worth. I guess in life if you could cut through all the crap that is pointless, and just get to living life that would be the best huh??

A lot of crap to cut through though. I mean a really lot. You don't even know the half of it. :)

Oh well have an awesome day everyone. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Thinking of running a slow trot to work today. Start the week off right. :)

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A Hard Road

2012-01-15T06:10:00.002-05:00

I was thinking some time last night/early this morning the dilemma we have. There is a truth about us, and there is the version of us we'd only like to show. We all are different too, so my interests are not always going to coincide with others. Who we really are is the good stuff. The stuff we really want to get to know, but the hardest stuff to get to know. It is a sad journey in ways, because hard stuff happens in life, and memories are always filled with a bit of sorrow for some reason. Not everything about us is right either. What we try hard at to be good at and improve ourselves on is typically what we judge people on who don't try hard at that stuff.

You want to know the problems of my brother Jim?? He had real issues he had to deal with, but never really did til the end. You get those fairy tale stories in your head of unconditional love and stuff, but people are imperfect. We all have our own agendas, and grown ups like to have fun too. So no one ever has a perfect Mom, Mum, or Dad. We like to do our own shit too. At some point you realize life in many ways is a solo journey, because in the end you stand on your own two feet. All the layers of yourselves are off at the end, and you stand alone. Will you accept me??

It takes courage to take off your layers, because there really is only one who has the perfect vision, and the perfect heart to accept you, but he sees everything you want to hide. Life is a courageous thing. Honesty and openness is fricken hard, because you put yourself out there for all to see and all to judge.

This is the walk we are on, and this is what I help to support people on. Shit ain't easy.

I do want to say we ran the 10 mile route yesterday. I added 3 miles before, so I did 13. Lil Cath ran with Jerry and I, because she is recovering from injuries from last fall. Some people you never thought would get injured. Well she tagged along with us, because on the long run she doesn't need to go too fast. She is a unique individual. A real bubbly personality, and a women of many interests. She likes doing projects around the house more than me. She is learning to swim too, and she is busy with a kid, and a husband. They have horses and chickens. She is neat. Running with people is the best, cuz you really get to know them. I love running conversations. We are going for 15 miles next week.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I took myself out to lunch, and had wings, soup, and some beer. Lisa went out with her best friend Sheila.

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A Trip Down Memory Lane

2012-01-14T05:08:00.000-05:00

Well, let's look at my life shall we. I always love talking about myself. :) Here is one of the things about me, and many of you know my story. After High School, I read the Bible a lot. Like I said before I have been spiritual for a long time, and I wanted to be a good person more than anything. Ready to live a nice normal humble life.   My High School girlfriend broke up with me, and I think part of the reason, is my Spiritual/Religion leanings. I rebelled. I was always one who drank here and there, but not a ton. Well, I would drink to get drunk, but I didn't do it a lot. I'd rather hang out with Carolynn, plus I did a car paper route, and had to be at work at 3:00 am 7 days each week my senior year, plus. Like I said though I rebelled. I was willing to live the simple life. Be as good as I can be, and this happens. I strarted partying more. I smoked pot for the first time, and cocaine even. I did one year of Community College, and then it was College. Away from home, out of Dodge so to speak. School seemed pretty easy. My first tests were A's, and I though, holy crap this shit is easy. I stopped trying, and started partying a lot, and the A's turned into C's. So I went a couple years of screwing things up. I was under some self-prescribed pressure to always be a nice guy. If people wanted to have fun, than I would do my part. You would think a life of the party guy is that way, because he can't control himself. I think I just realized, you do things even when you always don't want to, because you want to give of yourself to your friends that way. If you go a little crazy, and have fun it is because you really want other people to have fun too. You want your friends to enjoy days of their lives that much too. Even if it hurts yourself.

For me college was about learning a balance between fun and work. It is a lesson I do try to teach people, that fun is fun, and that is great, but you still have to wake up the next day, and there is still shit to do. Not that I am great at that, because I hate doing projects around the house. I like my job job most days, and I try hard at that, and I like training when healthy, and I have had other hobbies in the past too. I play pretty hard too, but it is fun. :)

I remember going through some real up and down times during School. Me finding myself, and finding a balance. I mean real down times where I pretty much was sure my parents didn't want to see me on Christmas. I stayed in Normal, instead of showing up at home, because I felt I was a burden to my parents. I was too.

Slowly little successes helped me get back up. Getting a job, and working at a Wards near school. Swallowing my pride and taking public transportation, and even walking home if need be. Work, school, and I even found a girlfriend Katrina who was a hot young girl, and she and I dated for 2-1/2 years. She was great, but even when wanting to be a nice guy I failed her too.

Then the my step-mom is going to die. I never dealt with death before, besides my dog Toby, and you remember that story. Life looked different in those days. I mean one day I am this one person, and I get the news, and life takes a drastic change. She died on Dec. 26th the same day as Harry Truman. The last any of us saw her besides my Dad was Dec 25th, and on that day she looked like shit. Like she was already dead, but staying alive for Christmas you know??

So I deal with that shit, and Katrina and I finally break up, and My Grandpa died, and man I really wanted to be a good person, but look at my life?? I am alone now, but I feel relieved about it. You know much more about my story though, because I was working at the hospital at this time. I meet Lora, and I meet Natalie. I confessed my sins to the hot little blonde girl, even though it scared the shit out of me. I would have really like to be fabulous to her, but instead I showed her my Tiger Woods side. I learned that from Lora though. That bitch was honest. I like that, and you know that is to be respected. No one can stand up to honesty. It cannot be beat.

I guess I was going in a different direction with this than planned. I was going to talk about my life, and things I didn't understand about Jim when he lived with us in Normal, IL. One of the things I never understood about his life, is how could he not see Hal, and me find our Mojo, when he was right there. I don't get it. I think he did find his mojo at the end though, and then he was taken. His work was done.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

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New Blogger Is Weird.

2012-01-13T03:34:00.000-05:00

That is o.k. I still love you all. :) Even if Blogger is weird now. :)

OMG, I am pretty sure I have nothing to write about. I look out at the bloggers I read and stuff, and I realize life does not come with answers, and the answers we have been spoon fed since our younger years aren't always the right ones. Meaning we have to find our own way. None of us will escape life changing events like death, illness, losing a job, whatever. Maybe like a William Shirer society tells us were bad. Can you imagine?? The U.S. Gov't telling the whole world you are a bad person?? Why??? Because fear mongering gathers a crowd. Even if the fear mongerer is an alcoholic idiot like McCarthy. Fear mongering comes in many shapes and sizes too. Hitler was a vegetarian for criminy sakes. :) So you vegetarians are basically Hitler. :) j/k.   :)

Life is hard. It is something we have to accept. I told pumpkinsdiary girl that I think sometimes when we feel the most lost and most confused is when we grow the most and learn the most. So our hard times are definitely endurance events, but on the other side comes answers. We all have questions in life, and it is through our hard times we learn the most, because it is when we open our eyes and ears the most, and pay attention. by told I mean blog comment. Obviously I don't talk to her. She thinks I am a loon probably or something. Maybe you all do. :)    Zany Joseph Heller days are the best, but The Howard Zinn days are the most important probably. He gives us the Joseph Heller days as a gift. Time is on his side, and I think he lets time be on our side too. Maybe that is why my blog is called "The Wait" I would have done the shit I need to do a long time ago, but I have been led in a way, that I will do it whenever I think. Not that I am so strong and such a good person, but because of my help.

While I wait he gives me plenty of Joseph Heller days. If you don't know what I mean about Joseph Heller days and Howard Zinn days you will have to read the 600 + entries in this blog, and get my blogger password so you can read the however many entries were in "The Journey" I want that done today too btw, and I want a report handed into my desk by 7:00 am tomorrow. :)

Have a good one all. Luv Ya's. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

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Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

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WOAH!! Did Blogger Just Change??

2012-01-12T03:41:00.000-05:00

Well, good morning all. How are you all doing?? Fine I hope. Yesterday was definitely different. Most of the day my legs were absolute toast. I wasn't even sure if we were having speed work, so I was like WOOOOO!! I am taking today off. I think I'll run some hills on Thursday before work. Then I get the message from Alan. Speed work tonight at 6:00. I LOL'd to myself. I walk on concrete all day, so you know that takes some out of my springiness. I kept thinking, how in the heck??? I knew it was a nap day. Sleep helps in recovery. So I am driving to the pool where we meet, and I run into the entrance, and surprisingly the legs don't feel so bad.

A low turnout the first night, but Lil Cath, and Bob the Bullet, and Carol N. were some of the mainstays, and we all did our warm up together, and talked about what we were training for etc... Then came the hard stuff. Jerry and I did 4 hard ups, and recover downs. The loop is 3/4 of a mile. I let Jerry lead the pace, and it was plenty hard. I think Jerry and I are at the same speed, because it was hard, but we both were able to do it, and we ran with each other the whole time. Lil' Cath was a bit faster than us, and Bob the Bullet, and some new guy were a bit quicker than Cath. On our last up, we started a bit before the fast people so I thought let's try and hold them off.   LOL,   ummm never mind.

I am taking the whole day off today. I am driving to work, and driving home. I am going to have some drinks too tonight. I should get some stuff done around the house, but I promise nothing. :) I will end this week with over 30 miles, so my mileage is getting up there. Oh, and so you know at work I estimate I walk on concrete floors between 20-30 miles/week at work. FYI.

It feels good to be back. I'd have to go back and read to see how my attitude was last year, when I kept getting injured, but truthfully, that is about the last thing I want to do. I do this crap too much, and I don't want to read it. :) LOL

I am already looking forward to long run Saturday. yay. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I even ate after I ran last night. What the heck is up with that??    I ate a ton yesterday too. I had two sandwiches before work. Turkey breast. A girl from work Esther brings food a lot to work, and she brought a whole Taco spread for one of the guys 21'st B'day. So I had 3 tacos before 9:00 am. too. Authentic stuff. #nummy. :) I also ate 3 oranges a container of raspberries, and a container of blackberries, and 2 baked potatoes when I got home. LOADED WITH SOUR CREAM AND BUTTER. I mean a lot. Some salmon after my run. LOLZ. I luv food. :)

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Good Morning!! How'zzz it Going??

2012-01-11T03:24:00.000-05:00

Me, I am doing good. I had a pretty good day yesterday. A little biking. Very little, just a bike to work. Lisa left the same time as me, so I thought... hmmmmm. I think I will throw my bike in the truck, and go home with her. :) HEE HEE. I came home and napped, because as Lisa was driving, I was getting tired. Plus I had to run, so wanted to be rested. I didn't really sleep much, but I rested.

I have a new book to read from the Liberry. It is a book about Gandhi, and it is written from one of my favorite authors of all time. William Shirer. Now some of you may remember his story. He went to the same College as my Dad. Coe College, and he lived in Cedar Rapids as a kid for a bit during a time when the Czech Immigrants lived in like a Communistic way helping each other out. He was a War correspondent during WWII, and he got blacklisted after the war during the McCarthy era. Like I said before though, some people are too good. They overcome, and after a life changing event for a married man, came the classic "The Rise And Fall Of The Third Reich". The best thing about Shirer?? He isn't a fancy dancy writer. Meaning he isn't sugar coating the life of Gandhi. He is telling how great of a man he is naturally, but also telling of his sexual escapades, that may have thrown some of his followers for a loop. A real Historian yay. Deifying people while writing history does a ton of damage. That is why Howard Zinn is so important... or why he was.

Imagine a Revolution won without guns, but won by just showing how Barbaric the ones with the gun powder are? The U.S. has a history of Barbaric Gun Powder ways, and not the Gandhi way that is for sure. See Slavery, Indians, Truman Doctrine, etc...

I just started, but the thing about India as a Country is they were around for 1000's of years, and had a culture, that was well advanced. Britain at the time thought they were the master race, and the man made coin was what life was about. People don't do different. There is a preconceived notion that wherever we were born is the best place. If you were born in Saudi Arabia, or Japan, or China, or wherever you would think your Country was the best. FEW PEOPLE STEP OUT OF THAT. Showing the world you are right by killing people really don't make sense in any kind of logic, but we believe Society. That is what it teaches, and that is what we believe... unless we step out.

I am excited for the book. It seems like it is a good one, and I barely started. I love reading William Shirer. Definitely one of my favorite authors.

Other than that not much going on.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. You people have no idea what you are in for. :)

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No Idea How This Will Turn Out!! :)

2012-01-10T03:36:00.000-05:00

I am pretty sure I have nothing on my mind right now. :) I am pretty sure I have nothing important to say either so feel free to skim through. I would have to say I have absolutely no plan on this thing. I love my new attitude. Just wing it. Roll with the flow. Live my life do my thing, and let everyone else too. I am just a bystander sitting on the sidelines just watching people. We cannot predict our lives for the coming year. We have no idea how things will turn out. As time goes on I think I put less and less pressure on myself.

I don't have to be right in another's eyes, because maybe as time goes on I get stronger and stronger, and I don't really care. I mean I am not a mass murderer or anything like that so that is good. I just do this blog thing for whatever reason, although on a day like today, I don't think I have anything to say.

Well let's move on, yesterday I ran to work, which will make me run 5 days in a row. Since it was Monday early morning, and my next run is Tuesday evening, that is like a day off. As long as the legs feel good on Monday it is a good day for me to run, for that reason. A way to get some miles, while still having plenty of time to recover for my next run.

Lisa and I decided to go see a movie. We saw the new Mission Impossible. It isn't that great. I definitely suggest the Sherlock Holmes movie or the Dragon Tatoo movie over that one.

I do have one thing to say, and we all are different, and we all are going through a different time in our lives. Some want to put away past things, and be strong. Some others might be dealing with things where they are not that strong yet. If you are a bit down and out no biggie. Deal with the things, and that passes. It is an emotional endurance thing. The mojo should come back. We cannot always be on, because life does happen. Always at times not of our own choosing too. When life happens we have to deal.

As time goes on, I come to realize my life is mine to do as I choose. I choose to live my life simply. I like hanging with my wife. I like hanging around my house. I like drinking when I have the chance. I don't really do fake people. I don't really do arrogant people either. Luckily in my job, I don't have to deal with the general public too much. A lot of times people are just assholes. :) Myself included I guess, but whatever, it is my life, and I can be free to do and be my own person, whatever that is. I have a feeling it can be any number of things depending on the day. Nice, jerk, asshole, compassionate. I am all kinds of things. Never really the same person day in day out.

Oh well, I guess I'll stop there. :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

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Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Went from 12-14 Reader Readers overnight. :) yay.   :)

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I kinda give Olga some in my own sly little way.   :D

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A January Monday Morning.

2012-01-09T03:17:00.000-05:00

No snow on the ground still. I live in West Michigan and we have had very little snow this year. Typically we get a lot with the jet stream over a big body of water. Mild winter so far, and let's face it, we just need to survive the rest of January and February. Hold on... have to let the stupid cats in and get coffee.

Okay I am back. I do want to let you know I did run yesterday. I knew right away I was probably not going to do my 6 mile loop, cause I had Hope with me, and she is a pain. Thought of just doing my 3 miler, but the 4 miler has some hills, so did that. Almost thought of tacking on more with a mile left, but legs got a little tired, so called it good at 4.25. I didn't time it. :)

I can tell I am a bit different now. I am way more laid back, if that is possible. Life goes on, and I am lucky I do not carry a lot of baggage. Life is better this way. I don't sleep with an alarm even though I wake up ungodly early. I blog, although if I didn't I wouldn't care. The last couple days the number of people who read my blog in the reader fell from like 15-12, and I don't care. :) I have less readers, and I could care less. I have been pretty faithful to the ones I read though. I realized life happens, and I will let it. I am not going to stick my nose where it isn't wanted. Why bother right?? Just do my thing, and let the chips fall where they may.

Going to run to work today. Yesterday I watched, Captain America, The Unforgiven, and Sherlock Holmes 1. again. Watched the end of the football games too.

That is my little update. Nothing heavy here I don't think. Hope you all have a fab day. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. maybe take @Lisa to see Mission Impossible today after work.

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You know what I think one thing about me?? I think I see people as being people. No matter what we do we are just people. Some may have a better position, or more respected position, but at the end of the day we all are just people. We all fall vulnerable to our ending, which we all have in common.

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Back From The Dead

2012-01-08T02:59:00.000-05:00

Well, I thought my computer that is less than one year old took a dump, but she is back from the dead, so I guess I will blog. I was planning on trying to be a little loosey goosey today anyway. I know I know who blogs at 3 in the morning on a Sunday morning. I do that is who. Why?? Who knows.

I guess I will start off with the run. It was Jerry, Jim, and I. As we started to approach mile 3 or 4, I was falling back from those two. I had no idea if I was slow or they were fast. I was thinking I have 10 miles today, and I shouldn't have to struggle to keep up. So I decided to go at my own pace. As we reached mile 5 Jim stopped. Oh.... he was only running 6 so he picked up the pace a bit. Me and Jerry were only halfway done. LOLZ. The rest of the run was pretty easy. I didn't time it, but definitely had a pretty good workout.

I came home, and did dishes, and then went out for lunch. Ran into Charity and her friend there by coincidence, and talked with them for a while, and filled up my growler, and went over to Beau and Charity's for a bit, and came home around 5 or so. Lisa made dinner, and I fell asleep watching football. I know lame lame lame.

That was my day, it was pretty phun. :)

Want to know something I was thinking?? I was thinking I am just waiting to see what happens this year. See how it unfolds. Just watch, and wait, and see how things happen. I love it. I can already tell this year is going to be better than last year. Today I have to double up on my run. I am hoping to get a 6 miler in. I'll know by 2 miles if I cut it to 3 or 4.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I still need a fricken haircut. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxoxoxoxoxo    :D

Time Off

2012-01-08T02:29:00.002-05:00

I am taking some time off from blogging, as my computer's hard drive just took a dump I think. I'll have to take it in I guess, and I do not want to phone blog, like what I am doing now!! :)

Cyaz laterzzzz gaterzzzzz!! :)

Different...

2012-01-07T05:42:00.000-05:00

I am definitely starting the year out different. I remember last year I wanted to comment on 100% of the blogs I read. I am definitely not doing that this year. I blog a lot and I comment a lot, but not going to do it all the time. It don't mean anything, just like people read this and don't comment.

Want to know what one of my hangups is/was?? I comment a lot, and I guess I thought that is a natural thing to do. I have come to realize it is an unnatural thing to do. The percentage of people who actually comment on blogs is pretty dang low. So, I have a year planned of being more laid back. Stop trying to affect outcomes of things, and let things just happen.

For those of you who don't read Julia's Go Big Green blog, check out her last update. OMG. Best blog evah. Brought a tear to my eye. Kinda makes me think there is a whole lot out there in the world, and you won't know and remember everything, but some things are important to you and you only, and you will remember those things. So much in that update, it is unbelievable. Actually I think I am going to put a link of that update on my blog, so if anyone new checks out my blog I can totally steer them toward that entry. Right below Jen H's insignia coaching thingy ma jiggy. :)

Our lives are our own, and we can do any number of things. We don't have to stay in the same shell, we can always put another one on. Step out of one, and put a different one on. There is no right, and there is no wrong, because all our paths lead to the same place. The puller of the strings of life, can do anything from whichever direction we go. He does more with you in your quiet alone times than he does with someone dropping a knee in front of 40,000 people. It is how he works. He does stuff for you, you don't do anything for him.

Remember when I said there is not much written about Abraham from the promise to the actual fulfilling of the promise. I said that was God's time. I think I was right there, and remember that came right before the deleting of the Journey.

Remember in the book of Hebrews what faith really is. The evidence of things "NOT SEEN" and the assurance of things hoped for. Those who drop a knee are those who would only want to show their good side.   Not the way.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I will probably need to drink more water on my run this morning than last week. ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch- Changes.

2012-01-06T03:35:00.000-05:00

If there is one thing about life you can count on it is changes. I have been doing this a while, and I think one of the things I have said is we are different day after day. Now some people who read this are consistent in doing things they like, whether it is training for races of some sort, or being crafty, or being a Mom, whatever, but sometimes we are not consistent in how we feel. You have a different outlook if you are surviving like the 12th day in a row of gray sub: 20 degree weather, as opposed to your first 70 degree day in April. Things take a toll on us. People get sick, and people die. People get injured, people can be sad for any number of reasons.

What does a parent think when their kid grows up too fast. One day your having an adult time out with a bottle of wine, cuz the little bastards are too much, and then you finish the bottle and the little bastards are in High School. :) Where does time go?? Much of our time is wasted time too with trying to make ends meet. Is this the best you got for us society?? We have this thing called life, and you want us to just go out and make ends meet. Our highest achievement is a high credit score?? That is what we should strive for?? My credit score is nothing when I die. That is not what life is about. What endures in life? You have relationships with people. You have friends who know you. They know your flaws, and don't care. They respect you, cause your fun, and you are comfortable showing whatever.

I don't really have a train of thought today, and maybe that is good. Let's say this. Society has created this great big box, and is it such a bad thing to look outside that box. What else is in the world? It is a big world out there, and maybe it is not such a bad thing to poke our head out of the big encompassing box, and see the real color of ourselves, and others. Look at the vast shapes, colors, and angles of the world. I think I should try to take pictures. I am not promising, but maybe I'll try, because I think pictures are not a bad thing. Get a view of what you see during the day.

I got a couple things to say. The Sherlock Holmes movies are great. See them if you can. I ran yesterday like 4.5-5 miles. Think I will just ride my bike today. Have a long run tomorrow. People who do art stuff bring color in the world. Everything serves a purpose, and everything can be used for good. That is the power, and the lesson to be learned. Everything can be used for good, even if we think it seems bad. That makes me feel good. :) Because we all do stuff that is seemingly bad'ish. Truth opens shit up, and hiding stuff tries to bury stuff beneath the surface. We want truth and honesty from our corporations, and Governments, then I think we should want it for ourself too.

Our natural tendency is to bury bad stuff, cuz we don't want people to see it. Perhaps we are ashamed at how imperfect we are. It ain't no big thing, cuz we all are imperfect, and the natural tendency of the world is to hide stuff, keep it in the dark. It don't understand the light, which is a bright ray of sunshine called the truth. Aren't light rays holding a spectrum of a ton of bright colors too?? Hmmm, maybe that means something. Truth = light, and light = color. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. yay, it is the weekend.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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A little shout out to Jen Gray, and her friends, and Kim Kim Kim who decided to look at things at a different angle. Help support people in a way that says they matter. That shit works, because sometimes we all are a little low on the wave, and little things have a way of bringing us back up a bit. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo   for you two.

Extras for Olga too, cuz I always have a good feeling in my heart for her. I trust her. :D

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

A Million Avenues to Choose. Which Direction Today??

2012-01-05T03:19:00.000-05:00

Boy I looked outside my mind's eye, and realized today I can go in any of a million directions. I will start off with how my day started yesterday. On Tuesday I napped before the run for two hours. So I did not sleep too well. I was tired, so all I did yesterday was bike to work. Lisa and I left the same time, so I drove home with her, and will run to work today. On my Wednesdays now I would come home and nap before speed work if tired, but I don't have speed work til next week, so I came home and drank. I just had fun. I listened to music, putzed around on line, and really just had fun.

I realize how free I am. Last year I tried to do so many things, and failed. This year, I am going to let the year come to me. I am just going to ride this little train called life, and see where it takes me. I am pretty lucky to have such a great schedule. I work early, and now my training season starts, so I run on Tuesday and Wednesdays. Saturday mornings too, and Sundays, and maybe pick up some miles here and there. That really is neither here nor there though, I am just happy. I have a great life, and all with how I feel inside.

I think I will get a little weird here. Now I have said many things in the past, and I am sure some people still read me from a while back. Remember a couple summers ago where I gave up?? Life broke me. I told God I give up. I cursed him for ever making me live to see such days. I cannot do it anymore. That night he took my heart. It was a vision/dream thing. You wonder how that is?? It always is done in cartoon fashion. I think maybe, because that is all we can handle, but that isn't the reason. I have been through some non-cartoon fashion things before. My 6 days of suffering the worst persecutions was all real. 100% real life I am doomed, am bad, I am evil, and I am going to hell type shit. pounded in my head every second of the day. Mind you I did not sleep much those 6 days, and I did not eat much either. Remember the ending?? When I saw a real life angel, and I knew it?? A homeless guy walked up to me and asked me if I had a buck. I looked in my wallet, and had a single, and a twenty. I gave him the $20. I had goose bumps, and cried after he left, because just right then and there came the verse, "be kind unto strangers, because many have entertained angels unawares" I knew with 100% certainty. I still felt I was bad, and evil though. I was lifted. Everywhere I looked there were birds in the tops of the trees, which made me remember that verse.

Speaking of Bible thumpers. Those who deem abortion to be the #1 "Christian" topic. Ummmm abortion is mentioned twice in the Bible. Both times in the old testament, and both times it says better off are those who would have been aborted than to see the evil that is done under the sun. (Solomon) Or Job's prayer to be aborted would have been better than his life. Remember the verse Woe to those who teach as doctrine the precepts of men. None of you know shit, so shut the fuck up about that stuff. Your whole religion is based on one guy who lived a shitty life, and he had followers who never married, and never had kids. Leave the fucking sword alone, you play with shit you know nothing about. Your whole fucking salvation is based on believing something the Devil himself believes. That won't get him or you anywhere. Meaning you waste your fucking time. Your eyes have not been opened yet to see the sword for how it really is, and I haven't been through all the things I need to do to understand it. At some point in time the sword I will be able to use for good, but for now it just slashes like a shitty sword. When I go through my final thing, I will have a nice sharp Hatori Hanso sharp sword so to speak. I am not there yet.

Like I said there is not one thing you can do 100% of the time to make yourself a better person, or we'd all fucking do it. What we are doing takes time. This shit is not going to be done overnight. It is living. Doing our hobbies whatever they may be. It is failing at shit every single day, because we all do. It is getting a cleaner, better look at life. It is being real, and honest, and that is the stuff you have control of. You want to tell people your secrets?? No you don't do you. So a lot of stuff is personal to you, and you deal with that in your own way. You can be real, and you can be honest, you have control over that. What you don't have control over is the mirror. That was given you as a gift. It is a good mirror. Trust it. Trust what you see. Don't worry if you don't look pretty in your mind's eye all the time, because a butterfly once was not too pretty. Be courageous and be strong, because we all are being led in a good way, and we have some great fucking people with us too. So don't ruin shit by speaking shit you know nothing about. :) All you really know is you. You are the only one walking in your shoes, and you are not walking in anyone else's.

Truth of the matter is we all are pretty fucking great, and we all pretty much fucking suck too. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. The race of life takes endurance. It isn't a 100 yard dash. Keep the eyes open fuckers. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I accept you all, because you are not perfect. Those who try and show and pretend perfect are ugly, our beauty is shown by our flaws. It makes us all different. We were born different, and we walked a unique path too no one else has walked, and that makes us even more different too. Ya dig??

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Have You Lost Some Of The Magic??

2012-01-04T03:36:00.000-05:00

Your heart does not lie. You are not perfect. You hate people. You hate people who do not agree with how you think. You try and boil your life into a box, and say this is me, and all that does is make you miserable. It makes you hate others who are not inside your box. Others who do not try and be like you. The magic in people is how imperfect we are, not how "perfect" you want to appear to people. The appearance of how you want people to view you doesn't mean shit to who you really are. There is no right answers out there. There is no 100% I can do this, and it will make me a better person.

Life is more like Mindee's update. Tired as hell going back to work, still getting a workout in... somehow. ( I would probably nap first) Falling down, because she doesn't mind laughing at herself, and thinking about a friend far away. That is color. Accepting life for all the angles, and shapes, and circles and everything. Life is not one box.   Small box.

Life is also like Jen Gray, who has gone through a lot with the passing of her mother. Periods of where we may not be as good as we'd like, due to sadnesses, and dealing with personal things. She has lost her magic a bit she feels, but she is a dealer. It is o.k. not to be at your best, because life has a tendency to take stuff out of us sometimes, and you cannot escape that. You have to deal with stuff though.

Have you noticed how Mindee dealt with her past year though?? It seems it came to a head a few days ago, and boom, it let the color in. Now the world is 3D through her eyes. It is full of shapes and colors, and circles and everything. Goodbye box, my house I call my life is made of color now. I don't want to be a person who lives in a cardboard box.

You cannot control your heart. If you could you would be nice to everyone, and others would be too. People are angry, and hateful, and all kinds of things, because they blame the stuff in their life that doesn't make them happy on others. Life is full of unhappy things. You cannot escape that shit, so life is always full of dealing with stuff. No way to escape it.

Life takes a lot of fucking courage too, like the pumpkinsdiary girl who says you know what?? I am trying something new. I don't want my life to be just one thing, cuz that leads nowhere. Embrace life. Accept everything. It is o.k. if you think the world is shitty, cuz it is in many cases. Realize if you hate people it is just a way of blame for your less than 100% happiness, which we all are made up of.

Answers in life will be found with honesty, and being real, and accepting the truth, even if it is scary, and even if we have to admit, we are not that fucking great. :)

With that I say Fuck all ya'all.   :)   Just kidding.   I wuv ya's.   :)   LOLOLOLOLOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Jerry, Ken, and I ran 6 @ 6, which really was 6 @ 5:15'ish. I didn't time it. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I haven't been giving out any extras lately, not sure why. Haven't felt like it.

I'll give some to Olga though, cuz she got some good news and can run again. :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I'll give some to Doreen, Jules, and Brandy, cuz Doreen is going through menopause. :) j/k.   Brandy, because next Wednesday we start speed work, so this will be the last day I can drink Brandy on a Wednesday, and Jules, cuz she is great. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Jen Gray too, cuz she needs 'em. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Mindee too, cuz I love her colorful personality. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Starting Off The Year Slow...

2012-01-03T03:50:00.000-05:00

Well, I am definitely starting off the year slow, as in don't really have much to say. I don't know what that means, maybe nothing. I did ride my bike to work and back yesterday. It wasn't a big deal on the way there. Lisa and I were going to see the Sherlock Holmes movie, but we had an audit yesterday. We have 3 each year. Our first one I expect to come sometime in February to early April, not Jan. 2nd. I was shocked when the dude asked if I was ready? Audit?? Holy Crap!! WTF??   So right away I was not very confident. Every Dept. passed for like only the 2st time ever. WOO HOO!! Not only that, but my year is 1/3 of the way through. I only have two audits left, and a year to do it in. :)

So anyway audit = 10 hour day, so we never saw the movie. We were going to see the 1:30, and I didn't finish til 3:30. Bike ride home was a challenge. Sidewalks weren't plowed yet, the streets barely were. I had to take a different route home, and ride on the streets, which were pretty snowy. That was not safe. I am all for doing bad ass shit, but really riding my bike on snowy streets is not my idea of smart. Usually our sidewalks get plowed pretty quick, so I am putting it down to plow people need to get in snow mode. Must take them a while to get going, or maybe the day that really wasn't a Holiday. Who knows?? I am driving today, besides we run tonight anyway.

Once in a while I will read a blog without pictures is boring. I wonder why that is? Is it really the blog or the person, or both. Obviously if the blog is boring than you find the person boring right?? Or is it just a girl thing. You never hear guys say that. At least I don't. My boring blog rarely has pictures, because I rarely take pictures. If I do I'd probably post them somewhere else anyway. I like the idea of taking a picture of something every day, and blogging about it. That seems like a neat idea, and a neat way to keep your eyes more "open" throughout the day, but I think I'd fail at that. :) I don't take a lot of pictures. Oh well just thinking out loud.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I did my push ups yesterday, although I almost didn't. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are tbe best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Ruffled Feathers I Did Not Eat Cranberry Eyestopper Dictionary Surgery

2012-01-02T03:24:00.000-05:00

Hello and good morning all. Hope you all are doing good. I sometimes think explaining my title is important, so I want to go on record as saying today's title is definitely a title first and go from there kind of title.

As I speak the wind is howling, and there is snow on the ground. A lot of people have dread, but I am excited, because I will bike in this stuff. It will be coldish, but these are life's little challenges I like. A bike to work in the snow. I definitely am more excited in the morning doing it than coming home, but we will worry about that later.

Yesterday I just took Hope on a little 4+ mile run. My legs were a bit sluggish, but they kept going, and kept moving. I am a bit leg-fatigued today too, so am biking. I might normally run on a Monday, but not today.

Not much else going on. Lisa got most of the Christmas stuff done, and I did a few things, and watched a little football. I ate dinner and went to bed really early. :) Ooooh, I added another blogger too. Her name is Damie. Unique name, don't know much about her, but seen her around bloggerland here and there. Seems like she wins a lot of races. I hate her already. :)   j/k.

Not much else going on, hope you all have a fab day. Ohhh, one other thing. I noticed something yesterday. There was a girl who died this past weekend in her sleep. She had anorexia. She knew about it, and battled it, but still ended up dieing. How sad. She was a pretty girl too. What a shitty disease that is huh?? I know so very little about it. I assume it starts off a mental thing, and if taken too far it must also turn into a physical thing, where your body doesn't do food well??? I have no idea, I should research it though. Poor girl. What a battle that must have been. YIKES!!

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. oooh, since I added Damie, she is on my RHS so gets added to xoxoxoxo on my weird little blog. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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10 Hilly Miles. Yay!!

2012-01-01T06:34:00.000-05:00

Well yesterday my season started officially. On New Years Eve I usually would try to run the 5K in Holland Alan puts on, but when it is on a Saturday, well long run is going to take a priority. Jerry, and I tacked on to his route at home an extra 4 miles. There are two ways to run this route. On the bike path or on the street. Ummm the bike path is hilly. This course is pretty flat when on the street, as they level the road when they did the street I guess. The bike path they don't level. so it was challenging. If I ever wondered why I do marathons, I know now. It is a challenge. This 10 miler was probably more like a 12 miler in effort, and it was hard, and I wondered sometimes if I can finish, but the legs kept moving. The time and miles kept clipping off, and we got to the end I felt great. It was an accomplishment. I have a long way to go in the next 4 and 5 months time, but it is a challenge, and it is a time where I feel I want to focus, and get better and do better. After last year so many downs I never felt like I hit that spot where I wanted to focus. As much as last year might have held me back, I am hoping it makes me hungrier this year. I did time it too, and we ended up 10 miles @ 9:04 pace. I'll take that before January 1 for sure.

Not much else going on. I was pretty excited for a good workout, and was in a pretty good mood the whole day. Lisa and I did a little house work, and I just chilled. I had a couple drinks, and went to bed early. I didn't stay up til midnight, but that shouldn't surprise anyone. :)

Today I have to get a little run in, but nothing major. Time to start doing push ups and pull ups too. Time to get focused, and get this thing going.

Here's hoping for a kick ass mother fucking year.   :)    LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day, and year.   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. think I will watch a movie before I run. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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300 For The Year and FTW

2011-12-31T05:46:00.000-05:00

Well it appears this little blog update took a while to get around to Something is wrong with the hard disc on my computer. That sucks. Oh well, at least I can still do this.

I don't really think there is much on my mind, but perhaps a look back at the year. A horrible training year as injury after injury popped their ugly head. We did have some car problems early in the year though, so I tried something new. Biking in the winter to work, and also running to work. I turned those into a staple of my life. Try and get to work without driving, even in the snow. I don't do it every day, but yesterday was the first time I drove in quite a while. I don't remember the last time. Helps we haven't had much snow yet. Helps our car was in the shop too.

My brother Jim died of a massive coronary, just as he started to fight his way out of his preconceived notions of his life. If there was ever a person who wanted the stress free life, and pretend his was stress free, it was him. That kind of dishonesty with oneself leads to all kinds of bad things. He was a manipulator, blamer, eater, lazy dude, who felt everyone owed him some kind of life. This was a huge shock to me, but I blogged earlier about what it meant. What his life meant, and what his final journey entailed. My Uncle told us at the visitation thingy on one of his last days he was listening to a Cubs game, and you know that was a good day for him. No matter our circumstances I would hope we all have good days. I would hope they outnumber the bad ones, because life should be on the whole more fun and funny, than the other side. Only way to that I think is to be real, and honest, and stuff. Deal with life as it hits, because to be less than honest with ourselves is... well nothing good comes from anything dishonest. Nothing bad comes from the truth. There are lessons all over about that stuff.

As Fall approached I found a bit of health, and now I can start training. You know Saturday long runs are really long runs. Get back in the swing of things.

Any goals this year?? No not really, just keep plugging along, and hope to do good with my running. That stuff takes care of itself though with keeping at it. Sometimes I wonder why I do marathons, I mean wouldn't it be easier to train for 5 and 10's??? Who knows, it is what I do though.

I keep doing my blog thing, and step in and help support when people need it. Life is fricken hard, and our own vision of how we think life should be kind of poisons us, because we always feel cheated. Too bad history always tells us of these great people who seemingly lived great lives, and doesn't tell us about the other 99.99% of the people who toiled anonymously, but still had family and still had friends, and still had lives that mattered.

On that note I'd say we all matter. Our lives to us are big, but in relation to the world and universe, and the other people who walked the earth, it would be very easy for us to live a life of anonymity.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Holy shit did I sleep yesterday. I was fricken tired.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

No Matter What...

2011-12-29T03:26:00.000-05:00

I think no matter what we do in life there are struggles. There is no golden brick road to "the good life" There is no such thing as "the good life" Girls get older, and they don't always feel good about it, because there is always another hot 14 ughhh.   18 year old to take their place. :) All your life there is nothing but challenges with school, surviving puberty, decisions of what to do after H.S. None of which are easy, and somehow we are supposed to have everything figured out by the time we are 18. I guess we think society will lead us in the way we need to go. Do this, and this, and this, graduate college, and boom, enter the good life. Well, it don't really work that way does it?? No matter which avenue, or which direction we go we have challenges. Not every day will go as well as you would like, and your life may not go as well as you like. Then you add in your own insecurities, and imperfections, and that is a lot to worry about in one day. Some people don't think about these things, and sweep it under a rug, but this is real life. There are a billion things to think about in a day, and a billion things to ponder.

So I think it is a good idea to accept life as a challenge. Face it head on. You will not win at life. It will try to beat you seemingly in every direction, so stay strong.   Ride the waves up and down, and realize we all are headed in a good direction.

Well, I really don't have much today so I will tell you a story. It is a story of when I used to work in the hospital. I was going home for a wedding, and this mind you was a time of much thinking, and feeling pretty low. I already made the turn at this point, but was waiting. I went home to a wedding, where I would see a bunch of my H.S. friends. I was a college graduate who just went through some things, which have been documented, and I was cleaning floors and bathrooms at a hospital. Now my eyes saw things, and they saw Khien the guy who escaped the North Vietnamese jail. There was no one more meticulous in stripping and scrubbing floors. No one who took greater care in doing a great job in his seemingly menial tasks day in day out. He was my supervisor at the time. My eyes saw, and I came up with a certain logic. Mind you, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Life steered me in a direction where I wanted to matter, but didn't know how. I am just this dude sitting on an island in my own mind by myself. I thought, well you know I could do this stuff. If I did my job to the best of my ability, no matter how dumb it seemed, then maybe I would be recognized, and then maybe even I would be asked to do it for the President one day. Not high goals in a manner of speaking, but striving to be the best at whatever it is I do. Now mind you in my heart was a desire to work at this stuff. Everything I did at work I did to the best of my ability. No job was too dumb, and no effort wasted, because everything was important. My heart was all in.

Now that has to be reconciled during my year after the hospital when I had that physical depression. My heart wanted to be in like it was before. The energy, and the desire, but it was a lost year. As I was buffing a floor up somewhere in the hospital the lost year ended. I knew right when it happened. I was like WOAH!!! I am back. I was like a child at recess. I had the blessing, and nothing I could do is wrong. No matter what I do it will lead in a good direction.

During some of my hard days I endured during Heimleblog and Journey I forgot this, but was reminded I think early on in the wait.

Even last night when I was watching a movie, and I was a bit nervous, I even had other reminders, which make me remember.

Does this mean anything to you?? I don't know, but it is my story. It is me, how I came to be here, and how I came to do this.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. ran to work, and Lisa and I saw a movie, and had dinner. A pretty good day.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Guess I Better Get In The Swing Of Things.

2011-12-28T03:20:00.000-05:00

Well, as we approach January, I guess I am approaching that 16 week period of where I should actually be in training. I have to look up some type of plan, and go from that. I already know my plan will consist of Tuesday's 6-miler. Wednesday's speed work, and Saturday long runs. For no reason whatsoever my Winter runs I try to add shorter distances more frequently, where in the Summer I always tried to add a Monday run of 10-13 miles. Ummm, I haven't run 13 miles in a while, let alone 10. :)

I don't really feel I have been putting my best foot forward this winter at all, but I was thinking I have done some stuff. I built up at least a bit of a base, and 16 weeks is a long time to stay focused. Let's face it, I have other interests. The best thing of running is it takes not that much time, all things considered.

I am a do as I please kind of person, so some days I will watch movies, or read, or drink, and listen to music. Whatever hits me that day. I am directed by how my heart is, and I am so so so lucky. Lucky to have some of the nutty stuff happen to me that did. I can trust my heart. Let it take me wherever it goes, because, I know I am headed in a good direction. I guess I have peace of mind a lot. Especially when I wake up, because at the end of the day I do not 2nd guess anything. Even if I feel bad about something or another, I just see how it works out. I have no need to manipulate anything, and I have freedom to do a lot of stuff. In my heart is to try to help support people as they struggle through this thing called life. Struggle when we feel not so confident. Struggle when we look a the meaning of it all. I think deep down we try to manipulate our relationships. Take a view of ourselves, and judge others accordingly. Truth of the matter is we all are imperfect in ways, and always not truly happy with how we are anyway. We all struggle with more shit than what we are perfect with. We all are riding the emotional waves of ups and downs through this thing called life, and trying to find our way. I think maybe what I say is depressing, but my heart is upbeat, so I don't think it is. A lot of the shit out there is pretty fucking stupid.

Everyone has to find their way in the world, and the people who do the most damage, are those following people who have all the right answers. Those right answers typically are our misery is the fault of these guys. It is why wars are started and stuff. How many people died due to the ideology of the Truman Doctrine. I liked the guy, but that sure was poison. The Marshall Plan of rebuilding, is probably better than the Divisive Truman Doctrine. So I would say the more we realize we are in this together, the better off we'd all be. The people who divide though have a loud voice, and they sound confident, and anger and hate is a great motivator.

Oh well, today I will run to work, and after work Lisa and I are going to see "The Girl With The Dragon Tatoo" Should be a good day. :) Jerry and I ran 6 miles last night. I didn't time it, and I felt sluggish. Probably from watching movies all day. :)

Have a good one all. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I love bundling up and being warm in the Winter. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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300???

2011-12-27T05:06:00.000-05:00

Well, this happens to be blog #297 for the year. Can I make it to 300? Last year I did 289 + whatever I did in January and February in the Journey. I think I was well over 300 in 2010. I have been such a slacker this year. :)

We are approaching the end of the year, and remember all the goals we had at the beginning of last year? I didn't achieve my goals at all. A pretty bad year as far as that is concerned, but I am ending on a high note. I am upbeat. Ready for a new year and new challenges. I don't really feel that way I guess, I guess I am ready to continue doing what I am doing.

I have stuff on my mind, but not really sure if I want to share. I will say one thing my friend Hank said last night. He heard something about to be happy all you need is like 3 close friends. I know what it takes to be upbeat. Feeling kinda shy to share stuff right now, but it has been hinted in the past.

Let me tell you a little something about me. My schedule is so rock and roll for me. It keeps me in a good groove. Wake up early, get to work somehow, hopefully by not driving. Get home from work someway. Workout someway if it is on tap, or just chill and hang til bed. Days off from work, can kinda make be lazy. :) That is me. That isn't you, or anyone else, just something about me.

You know that though. I will tell you one thing though, and I don't know if it is true or not, but are people trying to hold onto something from this world??? Like if I do this it will make me a better person??   I think the truth is hard, because it is not all pleasant. Not all things are nice in this world, and as a matter of fact most of it is kinda shitty. People have shitty jobs. Spend too much time trying to make ends meet. Can't understand the fricken tax code. Murder is bad on an individual level, but on a National scale it is great. The highest most bestest thing you can do?? Don't worry about our U.S. led Revolutions that brought people like Pinochet into power. The lives that regime took don't matter, because U.S. Corp. were able to make a lot of money. That protected our way of life, so if you bought a house 10-12 years ago, you are sitting ~~pretty~~ ugh, I mean you're fucked.

You have been blinded by the wisdom of man. He hooked you into your society, and you never stepped out to make sure you weren't born and raised in a racist society. Still gotta do it. Find your own way. Who wants to follow blindly the wisdom of man? Especially since there is a whole world out there.

Look and believe. Trust your eyes.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. movies today, and running tonight. I have the day off. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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On This Day...

2011-12-25T05:43:00.000-05:00

Why not start thinking outside the box. There is a whole big world and universe, and things so small as atoms are important, and can pack a whollop of energy. You will not understand everything, so why not step outside your comfort zone, and say maybe everything I believe is wrong.

Maybe there is a fork in the road here. Maybe you can hold onto your same old dogma that society has taught you, and you can stay in that and be not the best you can be. Maybe there is another way too. A direction that is less traveled, because it takes COURAGE. Step out of everything you have been taught, and see if there is something else. A higher knowledge and a higher wisdom.

A life's journey should be nothing but seeking out the truth about ourselves. I guess I was going to say it ain't that hard, but it is, you have to humble yourself, and realize you don't know it all. I tell you one thing if there was one thing I could do to make myself the best person I would do that with all my might. I did it one summer. I walked, and walked, and walked, and walked. I didn't drink anything, and I barely ate anything. I think I got down to like 130 lbs. It didn't mean shit.

Do what you do, but be open to all that is being shown you. Have the courage to take the path less traveled, which is one of humble ignorance, and trust it is a good way. To seek out your truth remember a couple truths. A butterfly does not come about without much suffering. A rainbow does not come before a storm. To see your own beauty you will have to endure your own pain. You will have support though. :)

We got this!!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Dragon Tattoo, maybe Mission Impossible, and Bulls today. Oh, and we ran 6 miles yesterday with Jim and Jerry. Jim's last name is Stark too. I sure know a lot of Starks. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Fuck Sticks and Apple Corns.

2011-12-24T05:15:00.000-05:00

For the record this here will be one of them title first and go from there type of entries. Yesterday was a fun day outside of work. I left early. I finished at a good spot, and didn't really feel like starting any projuects. Lisa wasn't ready to leave, and I didn't feel like biking home, so I went to New Holland, and had a couple of beers, and picked her up. We drove home, and then she went shopping. I had some Brandy, and fucked around a bit on line doing my normal silly shit, although I guess some stuff is important.

Some people are out trying to show their fake ass fucking Fairy tale life, while others are down and out. Wouldn't you know it those down and outers need support. You fake fuckers make everyone's path harder, because You are not fucking perfect, and yet you try to pretend to be. For that I say FUCK YOU!!

Be real you ass nips. I am here to support, not pretend to be something I am not. Grow Up FUCKERS!!!

Merry Fucking Christmas too!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Fuck YOu !!!   :)   j/k.   xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Yay For Friday.

2011-12-23T03:13:00.000-05:00

Actually I am pretty tired. It is Friday, and it is the weekend, and XMAS is this weekend, and I took Monday and Tuesday off, and have a 4 day weekend, which means a 3 day work week next week. Now that is doing XMAS right.

BTW we don't do much around here for XMAS. Probably see a movie. I think that is what we mostly do. We just chill, and don't do much. As to the fuss and stuff for a Holiday, I could give a crap. It is a paid Holiday, so that is the best thing I can ask for. I am not really Bah Humbug, but I don't give a shit about Holidays. :)

As you can tell there is not much on my mind. I loved my post yesterday though, it was one of my favs. I didn't do much yesterday. I biked to work and back, I ran a little 3 miler with Hope, that had to be slow, because I felt my legs were going slow. Then I had some drinks and putzed around.

I don't have much to blog about to be honest, so have a good Holiday all. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. ran in shorts yesterday. How cool is that??

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Oh shit, definitely seeing the Girl with the Dragon Tatoo this weekend. fo sho!! :)

Luv Ya's :)   MWAH!!!    :)

Our Past!!

2011-12-22T03:29:00.001-05:00

Do you ever think about how you were in the past? Have you changed at all in the last cuppla years?? Do you think it was for the better, or do you think you maybe were a better person a cuppla years ago. ?:) BTW, I think cuppla is my new favorite word. :)   HA HA

I think we do change. We, in my opinion are not the same person day after day, and we are not the same person year after year, although we may be doing the same things. Jen Gray just had an update where her friend Maya called everyone a snowflake, which is so awesome, because I say the same thing. I say we are all a unique flower in God's Garden. :) Our beauty he tries to show us, but we are afraid of our beauty, because we are afraid of our flaws. God doesn't see flaws. The sword is used to point out flaws, but there is a higher learning, and a higher understanding than the written word. That is what he tries to teach, and he does it on a unique journey. A unique journey only you traveled. Of all the people who walked the earth none have stepped in your shoes. None have stepped in Hitler's or Stalin's or Ghandi's or anyones. The path is hard, because you stand on your own. Fear is a great crutch, because it keeps you humble, and it keeps you on the right path.

I remember after I suffered through some unimaginable things, and I was as low as low can be. Unhappy, doomed, and wishing My life never existed, I was picked up. I was as full as can be and happy. I waved my sword around, because my sword I thought was pretty good. Little did I know... All was taken away, and outside the Bromenn garbage room, I was told I was the worst of the worst. (Scribe, Pharisee, and Hypocrite) My sword sucked in other words. I was told to do something, and I decided to do it. I was pissed though, and I asked why???   Anyone remember the answer??

So I was led on a journey. The Journey led to a blessing, right before it led to the hospital. The blessing may have been the same day I went into the hospital. If it wasn't it was pretty close. How excited was I?? Not at all. I didn't care. I was seeking something else. Can you imagine that wait?? The early 90's til the start of the bloggers and heimbleblog. I knew something was going to happen, but I didn't know when. I knew almost right away though when it started happening.

Look how everything is happening too. Look at all these great people I have met. Bloggers, and other people. Doreen, and her family, Fremd people. People from Steve R's thing. people at work etc...

I know this is a weird blog, but I expect a ton of comments on this update. :)   HA HA   j/k. I expect zero. :)

I am adding though. Nikki and Kyle Vanden Heuvel, Brandon Crabbs, Erik Mayer, and Kristen Martinez get added to xoxoxoxoxoxo.

Hank Haringsma gets added to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

So does Donna, and Kim, and Kelly Stark get added to xoxoxoxoxo

Mike and Ami Harju too get added to xoxoxoxoxoxo

Sam Middendorf too. of the ICBL league

Hal Goeking and his wife, and his whole family. :)

All bloggers on my RHS too. They get added to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo too.

Melanie and Stephanie get added too. :)

Because we all need support, and I like to do my small part.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I ran to work today, and came home and drank wine, and chilled, and Lisa napped. I think that is my favorite day. Get a work out in early, and work, and come home and relax, and have some cocktails and a meal. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Mindee Elam, because she had a great pic. ,and she is pretty. :) xoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jen Harrison, Julia, W, Mary Tanner, and Pumpkinsdiary girl. :) because I read their blogs. They are xoxoxoxoxoxo people, and they commented on Beth's blog, and I read Beth's blog, and I love seeing that shit. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga, because of trust. I love her to pieces. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo I am adding her to xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo too, cuz she is the #1 person along with Doreen. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2011-12-21T03:34:00.000-05:00

Well, I decided to get something down for the title, just so maybe I could get something down on this blog. Let me start off with the workouts and go from there I guess, cuz doubt I have much of anything. Yesterday once again I did no push ups. :) LOL. I biked to work and back, and ran 6 miles with Jerry. Not much on the run, although we did see Amanda my kinda running partner from a couple summers ago walking her dog. Haven't seen her in a while. It snowed a bit, and I timed it, and it was 9:00 pace.

Not much else going on that I know of. You know what I really got nothing so maybe I'll make a list.

We had Chicken noodle soup for dinner last night. I love soup in the Winter.
I had one of those days at work where I looked at my watch, and thought it was noon, but it was 1:30 SCORE!!! :)
I think I am going to take Monday and Tuesday off next week.
If I can finish this blog on time I think I will run to work. :)
I am interested to see each day how things turn out. Things be interesting...
I am thinking wine tonight. :)
I really got nothing. Oh well, til tomorrow probably. :) I'll have time to run to work too.

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I fricken need a haircut BAD!!   Not that I give a shit how I look. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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The hardest thing in life is to be open and honest. Why??? Cuz we all are fucked up in some way or another. People a lot of times are enslaved to their appearances. How you want others to view you, but really that don't mean shit. How are you really?? Oh well, see you laterzzzz gaterzzzzzz.

Luv Ya's MWAH!!!!    :)

Tuesday... Gotta Be Better Than A Monday. :)

2011-12-20T03:48:00.000-05:00

Well first off I did not run yesterday. I got home, and I was tired, and I was feeling kinda Monday'ish anyway. I could have run tired, and it wouldn't have been a big deal, but I sat on the couch, and thought, this is comfortable. :) I know we all run when we are tired, but I just decided not to. It would have just been a little 3 miler, but Lisa and I just chilled. I cooked dinner, and that was it. I went to bed really early.

How is my life going? I think pretty good. I am mostly in a pretty good mood I think, I like to joke around a lot, and I feel I mostly do whatever the heck I want. I have this dumb old blog I do for whatever reason. It must do some good, because I do it every day almost, and WOW, I have been doing it a while huh. Heimleblog, Journey, and The Wait. You want to get a glimpse of my year, or the last 2 years?? You'd have to read my whole blog. LOL. I wouldn't want to do that. HOLY SHIT, it'd take forever. HA HA HA.

I really don't have much to blog about today. Some days I guess just not much on my mind, and I think yesterday was kinda a heavy one anyway. I guess it hit the nail on the head though huh?? I cannot remember, but I believe most of us in our mind have a feeling we are going to live forever, and we are not. With that view you get a more realistic look of life. I know I said it before, but look at Anne Frank's life. She seemed about one of the best girls ever, and things outside her control made it seemingly a pretty bad life. Can you imagine the pain of the Father?? He did survive. What do you think he felt as he read the Diary??    Why does stuff like that happen?? Why does 9/11 happen?? It is a shitty world out there, and you cannot protect your loved ones 24-7. Bad shit happens, and you gotta deal with it. I think having a realistic look on life makes you stronger. The Journey we are all on is just a journey of truth. For those who believe the Bible it says the Truth will set you free, and those who don't believe the Bible you cannot ignore the simplistic beauty of truth, although our mind is many times clouded to the truth. That is why it is a journey. Whether you believe there is one pulling strings to teach you or not, you are still being shown stuff. You are being shown your life, and a lot of times it is sad. Sad because remembering stuff always is done with a bit of sorrow to days gone by.

Maybe we thought our life was better at a time past, but it wasn't. Your best days are ahead, cause we are moving in a good direction. What better blessing can one ask?? We are moving in the way we are intended. We are moving together too. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I have been forgetting to do my push ups again.   SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!   :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Happy Monday. Wish It Was February. ;)

2011-12-19T03:36:00.000-05:00

I don't really have too much on my mind to be honest, but I think I will get some coffee, and see where this goes. I was thinking of something a friend of mine Jeff said in jest. Making a joke, he then said it was all about me. Our life is all about us. Like I said before we will all breathe our final breath at some point, so it ain't such a bad thing to be a little bit selfish about the things we do.

Let me go back to the boxing night. There was a blond girl who was well endowed in the bosom area. She was the card girl who pranced around with the big sign saying which round was coming up. I was getting a beer, and there was a girl who was a bit big, and she said, "damn I wish I was that fine I could walk around like that." That made me think people want to be noticed. We all want to stand apart a bit, and have people think we are all pretty good and decent people. I think the best way about doing that is showing how imperfect we all are. Why put up a front?? The appearance of how we want people to view us don't mean shit. The appearance of how we really are means everything.

Our lives are all poisoned by some fairy tale in our mind of how life we think is "supposed" to be. Well your fairy tales are bull. Accept that shit, and move on. There is a higher truth to life, that is being taught to you. The lessons ain't easy, but it leads you in the right direction.

Life has hard shit in it, especially since it ends in a bad way no matter who we are. Trust the little ones too, because they are actually better able to cope with shit then the older ones. Our natural tendency is to bury shit. The older we get the more shit we bury, and that adds unhealthy stuff to our souls, and makes us worse people. In other words we all are human, and we all are imperfect, and in things pertaining to life and death everything is pretty dumb. Who gives a shit about that North Korean dude. He is dead, and I am alive. Fuck him, at this stage I outrank him. :) LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. In order to be strong you have to accept the truth which will make you feel very much not so strong. Truth is a bitch, but it leads in a good direction. (that is a p.s. p.s. ) This is the other kind. :)   xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Run And Fight Night

2011-12-18T06:16:00.000-05:00

Well yesterday was Saturday, and it was my long day, although I really haven't been running too long. I haven't used an alarm in forever, although my watch does beep like 5 times at 2:00 am, every day. Last night I went to bed at midnight I think, so not sure if I even heard that little bugger. :) Why the heck I am up before 6:00 I don't know. Nothing major on the run. I took Hope for a 3 plus miler, and then met Jerry and Ken for a 6 plus miler. Legs felt good, and I am feeling stronger on the hills. I know when I feel strong on the hills when I want to up my effort going up them. That just means I am getting in shape. BTW if I run 3 miles, which I will run at least that much, that will give me over 25 for the week, which is pretty much what I am shooting for before real training starts. So feeling pretty good about that stuff, plus I still ride my bike to work and back on the days I am not running. For me I need to stay injury free.

Then Johnny had his fight last night. It wasn't really like the Rosemont Horizon, it is definitely a smaller venue. I was thinking it was a different place, but it was still fun, and plenty of energy. Johnny knocked the dude out in the 4th round. This dude ain't no slouch either. He put his time in the gym. He didn't have a 6 pack ab, he had like a 24 pack ab. Johnny was way too quick, and his punches hurt, and he hits the body, protects himself, and when a combination is thrown by Johnny, it looks like that shit hurts. :)

Boxing is putting time in the gym, but also being good at your craft. There is definitely skill involved. You have to be smart, and quick, and in good shape. I think it helps Johnny he travels a lot to Chicago, and Detroit to spar with some good boxers. He'll go 3 rounds with some dude, 3 rounds with a fresh dude, and 3 rounds with another fresh dude. Something like that.

Looks like he can eat McDonalds breakfast for a while. :) I had 2 Big Macs when I got home. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Do you sometimes wonder what each day may bring?? I sometimes do, like right now. Life is pretty fun sometimes when you get past all the boring stuff huh??   LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Betcha Expecting Something Major.

2011-12-17T04:59:00.000-05:00

Nope, this is just my dumb old blog. I can go in any direction, but I am going to go in the direction of coffee, so brb. :)

I really don't have much to say. I have a lot to say, but I don't want to go there. I don't want to bring a bunch of heavy stuff to the table. Let me give you a tale of two stories. One is my Brother-in-Law Brian. Although he lives in paradise his life this year has not been all that great. Him and his partner broke up. It was one of those where his partner was not happy, and he left. It is hard for Brian, because hard not to take that personally. I know Mike Brian's ex-partner, and it probably wasn't Brian at all. Michael just wasn't happy in general. You live a life, you do all the tough stuff. He is gay, so came out of the closet to his parents, and you live a life where you are bound by nothing. He moves from Missouri to Seattle, to Maui, to Oahu. Meets the funniest mother fucker in the world Brian, who is a good looking male with a great personality, and a strong person. You have a great house overlooking Diamond head, great neighbors, and great friends. You see happiness is a feeling on the inside. It isn't what we acquire, or where we live, or what we do, it is how we feel. You ain't going to feel it 100%. When your fairy tales come crashing down, there is an empty sadness that remains. We all need good friends, and we all need support, because there is no heaven on Earth so to speak. You will not find perfection in your friends, partners, your life, or yourselves. Life is full of hard shit, and that is why we need support.

So there is that, and Brian's friend Greg. BTW Greg, and I, and Lisa, and Lisa's mom were a support for Brian when he came out of the closet. We were like I don't give a shit. I was a bit shocked, but I wondered at times. I could give a fuck what anyones sexual preferences are. Just be glad you are not a Dahmer or some weird fuck like that. Anyway Greg and his wife got their divorce finalized a day or two ago. That was a necessity. Staying married for the wrong reasons is never right. It will just lead to unhappiness, and anger, and all kinds of crap. Whatever brought them together in the first place was long gone. They are two different people. Greg is a colorful person with a great sense of humor, and a free spirit. His wife is a complete keep up with the Jones'es person. Not a good match. So Brian is probably down on his split up, Greg has to be relieved. This will be better for the kids too.

At the end of the day you gotta be friends, and that is why Lisa and I work so well. We enjoy each other's company, and we let each other do whatever the fuck we want. :)

This blog ain't no great thing, it is just life.

I am adding Greg and Brian to xoxoxoxoxoxo, because their life has just had a big change, and even those two guys need support. Surfing ain't a cure to all life's ills, but it don't hurt. :) Same with alcohol. It ain't a cure for anything, but it is fun, as long it is not used as an escape.

I am adding John Miller and his whole family to xoxoxoxoxo. Laura Miller and Jim were good friends here and there in their life. John Miller's mom read some poem at the visitation thingy, and John is like the King of Fremd support, and get togethers. Sadly I seem to only make the sad ones. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Blackhawks are on a roll.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Christine McCarthy, she is a great girl. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Happy Friday Everyone.

2011-12-16T03:09:00.000-05:00

Don't know much about history
Don't know much biology
Don't know much about a science book
Don't know much about the French I took

But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you love me too
What a wonderful world this would be

Don't ask me why, but just now those lyrics popped into my head. I do have some news. I am adding Christine McCarthy to xoxoxoxoxo. She went to my High School, and was my brother John's age. I met her again the night before my brother Jim's visitation thingy. Now that was a great night seeing a bunch of old High School/ new FB friends. A couple notes about her. Her Dad died of cancer a few years ago, and from what I remember she has a couple kids I think. I think she is a single parent, and what struck me that night was her talking how much she loved her kids. I am pretty sure she is a private person, but in the right atmosphere you can tell she wears her heart on her sleeve. Lisa remarked how beautiful she was too. Lisa is cool like that. She sees someone pretty she says it, and she don't care if I say it either. :) Everyone needs support, and I would like to do the little I can. :)

Not much else happened yesterday. I ran to work, between the rain. It was fricken 50-something degrees. I was dressed for December 15 not 50-something degrees. :) Ha Ha. That was about it. I actually did some laundry, and dishes, and stuff, and chilled the rest of the night. Only thing I regret is I forgot to do my push ups. I'll do them this morning, since I have like 2 hours before I have to be at work. On another note, I am going to run to work again today, because for some reason my legs are feeling good, although that will be 6 out of 7 days. Gotta love it. :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Johnny Garcia has another fight this weekend. It is in Grand Rapids at the Van Andel. He is the main event. The Van Andel is kinda like the Rosemont Horizon (or whatever bailed out Insurance Company the new name is now) He is pretty excited and pumped.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Well Good Morning All. :)

2011-12-15T03:07:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was not an exceptionally great day for me. It was one of those I ran the night before. I didn't sleep all that great, and here is a weird thing. I woke up when I did, and I was up. I was not going to be able to go back to bed. That is the strange secret to me. The waking up early. I hit no snooze, although sometimes I just stay in bed. I have a feeling this little blog I do is helpful to people, although I feel not many read it.

It seems I have been on a crusade of sorts to get people out an about to comment on blogs. I think I lost that battle. :) Maybe it is just a natural tendency that if people are down, and feeling alone, and not happy, and bad stuff happen, and they spill their guts, readers step in. They don't stand on the sideline. I guess what I said before is true. The race of life is not won without support, and like I said yesterday, you will not escape the spirit shaking things that are normal to every life. It is then when we must step in.

The easiest way from point A to point B is a straight line- the truth. Here is mine. I want to help support people, because everything in life is not easy. You'll have to excuse me if I am a bit nutty, cuz I am. I am just like any of you. I want to have fun. Life has enough serious shit, because we all have stress, we all are headed to a final breath at some point, and we all fuck shit up.

Oh well, I am just getting a little something something down for the heck of it. :)

Have a good one all. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :) [ I am hearing rumors again.] :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Richard Hamilton on the Bulls. Suck it Detroit fans.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Strange Days Indeed.

2011-12-14T03:41:00.000-05:00

I am someone who at times struggled with this dumb old blog. I do it though, almost every day, and you wonder why?? Me too!! I don't know why I wake up most days, and feel like doing this. It seems kind of crazy huh?? I also wonder why I like to comment on a lot of blogs. That seems dumb especially if they don't get published. Who doesn't like comments?? Is this too racy??   I guess this blog gets weird at times.

Am I mean?? Am I jerk?? I don't get it. You ask me to stay away I do. A lot of people don't trust me for some reason, although I don't remember lying to anyone. I try not to be sneaky about stuff or stealth about stuff. I am just here living a life, and having a couple laughs along the way. Unfortunately since it is life, there will be some tears. Life really is made up of two parts. The wacky, zany, crazy stuff, and also the real stuff that can shatter our spirit. The real stuff is hard. It isn't easy, and I'd love to help support people with that stuff when it happens, because that shit is the hardest. You also will not escape that shit either.

Be courageous about life. Be thankful much of life can be done in a spirit of a good sense of humor. Be real about life though. We'll all have down days, and we'll all feel the internal rainy days.

I try and be as real as I can on this thing. I have documented much about my life too, and you see the daily ups and downs for those willing to look. I guess looking at life with a real pair of glasses can be a downer, because there are some real downer things out there huh?? Guys and girls are different. If you girls realized the stupid shit we talked about you'd think we were crazy. Us guys probably don't want to know the stupid shit girls talk about either. :)

Oh well, have a good one all. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Did our 6 miler last night which may be a 5.8 miler if those satellite watch thingies are accurate.

Love You All!!!   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Have a good one all. :)   Luv ya's!!!   :)

Good Morning From Michigan!!! :)

2011-12-13T03:54:00.000-05:00

When I do a title of good morning, I have to think of creative things to add so it isn't a title I used before. So good morning all. I almost wasn't going to get up, but I decided to, because I saw some people updated their blogs. I am going to get some coffee first. Hold on.

I am going to tell you a story of a friend of mine. I moved to Michigan, and most of you know the story. The only reason was I was sick of people moving away from me. (College Town) I was tired of being sad over that, and darnit, I was going to make people sad. So I put in for a promotion, and became a Plumbing manager. I did the Manager thing for like 10 years, and it was great at first. I could work hard, and be creative, and make some money, and I felt I did a good job. As time went on the work became harder, as the company started pinching payroll pennies, so we ended up having to do more work with less people, and our bonuses were even smaller even though our Departments were so much more profitable. Business Majors screw up the economy more than help. :) Anything taken to an extreme let's say is probably bad, and if you focus on labor expense cutting (the whole world) you take a chink out of the most vibrant part of the Economy. Consumer Spending. 2/3 of the U.S. Economy is us little pee-ons spending our money. If we don't have it the Economy shrinks.

Anyhoo, I visited my BIL in Hawaii. I was 217 lbs. A fatty. I was in shape before, and worked out before, but the Back issues were with me for a couple years, and after the surgery I didn't get back into it. While in Hawaii, it appeard it was time for me to get in shape. People all looked healthy, and I was like What am I doing?? I got back home and stepped down from my Manager position, and we who were not getting ahead were getting less ahead, BUT I was enjoying life again. I started getting in shape with an exercise bike, and eventually was going to try to run a few miles. I went one mile, and it was the hardest thing I ever did. I knew people ran marathons, and stuff, so I wanted to try to do that. I eventually crawled up to two milers, and eventually was able to find out how to run slow, so you can go far. (Slow is all relative, but run easy-talking pace)

Anyway the story of the friend of mine. He took on a 2nd job and worked for me. A super nice guy. Always came in was very polite, and did his work. He knew a lot of stuff too, so he could help people with any of their home improvement needs. BTW, I can probably do a lot of stuff too, but I hate doing it. :)   LOL

He eventually stopped working, but would come in several times each year, and I would talk to him. He was a lot like me in he would start projects, but not always finish them when he started. Lost the mojo so to speak. Anyway after all these years I'd still see him here and there, and I found out yesterday one of his sons took his life. Pain medications. A month before or so his son's girlfriend died in a car accident. He was shaken, and he is going to have some tough times, because when those memories come back they will be painful. He was dealing it as you would expect too. I did the dishes today, and that is about it for today.

That shit is hard, and I feel really bad for him, because I have not met many nicer people than him. His name is Dennis, and I used to call him Big D from Dallas for some reason whenever he came in. Hey I used to work with another guy who I called Rob Roy, because I could never remember his real name Doug. That kinda stuck too, because the store manager was known to ask him questions, did you have anything to add Rob Roy??   LOL   HA HA HA

We may have the best laid plans, but life will still happen. When it does, we all need support.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. A friend of mine Leigh who is one of the bloggers who doesn't blog had a baby yesterday. She has been through a couple spirit shattering miscarriages, but now has another baby to go with Liliana. I know some of you can relate to that. :) I am sure they are thrilled.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I'd offer extras for Dennis and his whole family. Doubt they read this, but I am thinking of them, just so you know. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all. :)   Luv Ya's.   :)   xoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Hello!! How ya folks doing??

2011-12-12T03:39:00.000-05:00

Just a rhetorical question. :) One that doesn't need to be answered. :) I slept like crap last night. Sleeping in + not drinking = hard to sleep. I feel o.k. though, so shouldn't be a biggie. I had a crappy run yesterday, but it was a run. I took Hope out. I wanted to do 4 or 6, but ended up doing 3. I am pretty sure the crappiness of it was 9 miler on Saturday + drinking = not the best way to do it. I really should just stick to maybe some Coors Light's if I am doubling up on the weekend. Not that I will, but I SHOULD.

I really don't have much else today. I did do my push ups, and pull ups. Push ups are getting easier, Pull ups not so much. That is kinda strange, because the last time I restarted, the pull ups were easy, and the push ups were hard. Go figure. If I could figure why that is I could be a good coach.   ;)    LOL.

Today is a run to work day, and a bike home, unless I have to pick up the car at the shop, then I may have to drive one of the vehicles home. We'll see.

Here is something I will say to you. In blog land I will always treat whoever I read with respect, and courtesy. I joke around a lot, so I might do that too. If things are rough I will be there. I love it when people can be happy, but realize none of us are 100% of the time. I am kinda a nut, because why not? but when the chips are down I will try and be there for you.

I try and have fun in life, because that is what it is all about. So much of civilization is based on a ton of shit that isn't fun. So many fricken hoops you have to jump through just to try and get by in this world, and most of us would just like to feel pretty good about ourselves, and smile a lot and laugh a lot.

I am not perfect, and I don't profess to be. I don't even want to be, because why strive for the impossible?? I do like challenges though, and that is why I like to try and get to work without driving a car as much as possible. I have learned over the last year that I can do a lot more in the winter than I thought. Just a challenge for me I like to take. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Bears suck, I am officially a Giants fan now. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for me.   Nah Nah!!!!    :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all.   Luv Ya's.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

WOAH!!! Did I Sleep In!!!

2011-12-11T08:57:00.000-05:00

I guess I'll get something down, because I am as free as a bird. I wake up early a lot to do this, but today I am waking up late to do this. Why you ask?? Because this is what I do. My bucket list in my life is pretty non-existent. I kinda wanna be a better runner, but my bucket list of all I want to do I gave away when I made the turn. Look how much fun I have. Look how confident I am, and look at me. This is not the shy little 6 year old who wanted to walk 80000 miles instead of showing up late to first grade is it?? This is not the long haired soccer dude who was pretty good, but more than anything wanted to be a meek person, because I thought they were better. I wanted to be a good boyfriend, but wasn't perfect. I wanted to be a good person, but wasn't perfect. I wanted to be a good son, but wasn't perfect. I wanted I wanted, I wanted, and it got me nowhere. I hit a rock bottom of sorts, and eventually through some tough times I realized I WANT TO BE BETTER, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW!! I want my life to matter, but what is a person to do???

You know what you do when you make the turn. In a way you act in faith, because you cannot see anything. You say I give up my eyesight in hopes you can make a better story for me. Trust me, he can make a better story. Look too, I work, I run, I would have done tri's if I could swim. I was asked to do some things I would not have done on my own, and I had some low spots. Spots where I would have wished to never be alive. OR BORN for that matter, but my strength is not my own. With all I have help.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. a slow 9 miler in the books yesterday. (ur a strong person. betcha don't always think it.) xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Julia, because she is going through a lot with her hubby, yet she takes time out to support other people. I told you before there ain't many better than her. So extras to her and her hubby. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Coffee Is Done, Let's Get This Show Goinnnnnnnn!!! :)

2011-12-10T04:31:00.000-05:00

Lemme get some of the so called coffee. :) My blog is a mish mash of all kindsa things. I cannot paint myself into a corner. I am not the same person every day. Somedays I am shy, somedays I am outgoing, and happy. Somedays I am reflective, and somedays I am silly. Somedays I am super motivated, and some days I just wanna sleep. Some days I wanna say I Luv Doreen out in the open, and some days I just think it. :)   LOL. Some Days I even get called out on a blog. LOL

Do you wonder why I give a lot of love to the bloggers I read?? Cuz what they do isn't easy. They are honest. They are not painted in a corner. Sometimes they are mad, and sometimes they are sad, sometimes they are motivated, and sometimes they aren't. Sometimes they are funny, and sometimes ... well they are people. They are not the same day in day out, and they don't hide their lives. They are living their lives, and showing their lives. So many people just want to show their good side, but we are made up of other stuff. Life many times is hard, because in our mind we have a view of what a good and decent person is. We try to be like them, but we fail probably every day to live up to our own ideals.

Everyone's life is a personal journey of sorts. We try and find our way through this thing called life, and not everything is easy. I think I have hinted at this before, but the best you can ask for in life is a lot of zany Joseph Heller days, but you will still have to endure the Howard Zinn days. Life is fricken absurd so laugh out loud. When the rains come, look though, and those are the days you have to endure. That is the hard part of life the rainy days. As I said before though they are necessary, because a flower isn't pretty unless it gets it's rain. :)   xoxoxoxo

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen, cuz she might get embarrassed xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jeff Stark, and Kiet, cuz I like guys who like xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo's xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :)

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo for Olga too. MWAH!!!!   :)

Extras for Christi too, cuz she like 'em too, :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Am Sore!!!!

2011-12-09T03:18:00.000-05:00

Well first off I did my pull ups. I started off with 3 sets of 3. Eventually I will get up to 4 sets of 6. I am sore from the push ups. The price of stopping doing them. Eventually you get to where you can do them every day. Hold on I am going to get some coffee. I will brb.

Yesterday it was just Lisa and I so we decided to go to the grocery store, and see if there was anything to make for dinner. We picked up some sun-dried tomato and goat cheese raviolis. MMMMMMMM that was good. I decided I wanted some wine too, so I drank some. I wasn't sure of my run, because I fell asleep waiting for Lisa to get off work, and meet me in the truck. As luck would have it right when I got home, I realized I do have energy, and I do want to run. It was sunny, and I even decided to wear shorts. It was cold, but my legs don't get cold too often, so it worked out pretty nice. I just went on the 3 miler with Hope. Another one of those non-timed runs. I didn't care. Just getting out, and getting some miles. I did stop after a couple miles to walk Hope, so he could smell and go potty if she needed. Then I just chilled, and drank some wine, and Lisa read. I ended up drinking about half as much as I normally do on a Thursday = Friday. That was good.

Other than that not much going on. Friday is an off day, so I won't do much. I'll take my bike to work, and back, and do some push ups. Maybe I'll take Hope for a little run. We'll see.

Not really much on my mind. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I love coffee. (yup, pretty much got nothin)   :D

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I Followed 3 Blind Mice, Now Look Where I Am At!!! :)

2011-12-08T03:17:00.000-05:00

Well, I have to get some coffee, and I am out of milk. I like milk in my coffee. You can imagine my horror when I looked in the fridge this morning. Hold on brb. :)

This is totally going to be a stupid update I know, but what the heck. I was going to tell you I got some coffee yesterday at the gas station, even though I already had two cups at home. I accidentally put some flavored creamer in it. Vanilla something or other. That shit was good. WOAH!!!   I can see how people can get addicted to that stuff. I figured that would be boring, so I am not going to tell you that.

Lessee, I guess will go with the day, and go from there. Work went good. I felt not tired yesterday at all, so that really helps. I was in a good mood too. I rode my bike home, because I left it at work the day before, and drove home with Lisa. Our run got cancelled so I decided to take Hope for a little run. A couple notes on my run. I mostly have been doing a 3.13 mile route, and usually after a couple miles I would just stop, and let ~~Hope Smell and Pee~~ catch my breath, and stuff. The last two times my route ended up being the 4.25 mile route, and there were no stops. That tells me I am getting in shape. I love stops when running. :)   I didn't time the run, because I didn't want to. As I was leaving the driveway the thought entered my mind, but I really didn't care about time. I just wanted to get a run in. That was all. It was a good one too like I hinted at, although the wind was surprisingly cold. I didn't expect that.

I also did some push ups. Starting off slow, because I was not sure how sore I would get, so I don't want to overdo it. I ended up 3 sets of 10, and the final two sets were really easy. You know the goal is to get up to 4 sets of 25. Arms fully extended on the up, and touch the top of my chest on the way down. Those are harder. :) I still have to do pull ups, but I'll do them this morning. I have to go downstairs to do them. :)

I then had a couple drinks, and listened to music. Today will not be a Thursday = Friday though, as the last two days = that. Not sure what I'll do today. I may get a little run in again. Just the 3 miler I think, nothing too major, and then we will see.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. xoxoxoxo   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Feeling kinda shy about giving extras on top of extras. Sometimes I think it is silly, but if I wasn't shy I'd give some to Doreen, cuz she gets my sense of humor, and I'd give some to Olga just cuz. I wuv dem bofe. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

The Sad Music Changed My Day!!

2011-12-07T03:09:00.000-05:00

First off I did get a new blog follower. I don't always give them folks credit, but I love blog followers, so thanks to you all. Special thanks to Kiet who is the new person who followed my blog. I followed his back too.

Anyway yesterday I was tired all day. I napped during both my breaks. Not really a big deal, but just something I noticed. I did ride my bike to work yesterday, but that ended up being it. A strange thing happened to me yesterday toward the end of my shift. The music became sad. That is nothing new, but I don't remember it happening in a while. Maybe it was to the extent it made me feel the way I did. I thought about my post yesterday, and I hope it wasn't too bad ass. I am a runner, and that is what I do. Not everyone can be a runner, and not everyone can do what I do, and I hate hate hate when I feel maybe I am calling people out for being lazy. I am not doing that. This is just something I am interested in. I always feel a person should be active. Being outdoors in most cases is better than being inside, although us in the Midwest spend a great deal more time inside this time of year. I think if you were given two options. One to sacrifice a lot to train a lot to do races and what not, or to have compassion for those less fortunate, the compassion side is the way more better thing to have, and to be. That is not man made either. So if you train, and do all kinds of hard stuff to be a good racer, you haven't done anything nearly as good as taking a minute out of your day to help support a person who is down on themselves or whatever.

I also think it is not such a bad thing to be down on yourselves a bit either, because none of us are perfect, and none of us have all the answers. If being down on yourself a bit keeps you from being angry and judgmental toward another then maybe that ain't such a bad thing.

Anyway that is what I thought of when the music turned sad. I hoped I wasn't all bad ass on my last post, and people took it the wrong way. That being said there are choices in life. If you are healthy and stuff and are able to be active you should be. If there is a choice to be active or lazy, it don't take a rocket scientist to figure out the better way. Not to mention people who aren't lazy tend to be respected more than the others. You only have one life, and much of the shit we do is stupid, but no need to be lazy. I mean even active people spend a good amount of time doing nothing and chilling. There is always time for that. :)

Anyway the sad music changed my day too. Since real training hasn't started the Tuesday night run can be flexible, since we aren't doing speed work on Wednesday. So I called Jerry, and we are running tonight. I went home, had a couple drinks, chilled and was lazy. :)   LOL

Have a good one all.   Luv Ya's!!!   :))

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. All blog followers get added to xoxoxoxoxo. So you all get mentioned every day, even if you don't get mentioned. :) and even if I don't read your blog. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Much Ado About Nothing...

2011-12-06T03:27:00.000-05:00

Not really a lot on my mind this morning, so we'll just start with the workout and go from there. Workout wasn't anything major. I biked to work, got chased by two poodles who scared the crap out of me. So much so I had to get my bike up to 80 mph to get the hell away from them. ;)   Totally red-lined it. Couple that with the adrenaline, and my bike to work was pretty hard LOL. Legs were shot. Those little yippy fuckers. :) Nobody really expects the little demons from hell to be barking at you at 4:30 am. HA HA HA.   Little Fuckers.   :)

I ran home too, and my legs were tired. I don't know the pace, around 9:20. I then napped and read, the book I got from the library. Mostly napped. Today will be a rest day until our run too. 6 miles tonight, and a good 4 day stretch to get these old legs used to running some miles, with some of them of the tired variety.

Let me talk of my year here, because I have a history. I do not put a ton of pressure on my Illinois Marathon, because if it is a race that ends up being not so good, then it still is good training for the fall marathon. Also it is good training for the Riverbank 25K. That is my favorite race, and a race I P.R. a lot. Sometimes even when just doing the route in training. I'd love to get another P.R. in that. Also to get that sub:22:00 5K. So a lot on my mind this year. I wonder if people look back at their past years if they feel they have been motivated more some years than others? Do people feel they were mentally "on" some years more than others? I would imagine so. I don't think we are the same day in day out. That is probably one of the things that drive us all crazy a bit. We want to be consistent in how we feel internally. I mean we can be consistent in training I guess, by doing things the same week in week out, but don't we all want to feel great inside too. That is what we all would like I bet huh?? To always feel good about who we are, and what we are, etc... and always feel happy, and stuff. Ehhh, just thinking out loud. :)

Anyway I did want to leave a link for any couch potatoes out there who would like to get their butt out and about, and lose some weight, and take on a challenge. Jen Harrison has decided to team up with Beth Shutt again to get your lazy butt's off your ass. They might not word it like that though. :) LOL

Check it out here. Free coach, and Dietitian as you train for a Marathon. Couch Potato to a pretty cool medal that you will deserve, and you will work for, and that they don't give away.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I was just thinking of how my year is shaping up to be a pretty good one, and you are going through an injury. When things are going good for me, it sometimes makes it hard to think of others, but I know it sucks. :(   xoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Eeeeeek Don't Have Much. :)

2011-12-05T03:24:00.000-05:00

I really don't have much to write about today, I don't think, so I will start with the workout, and go from there. If you remember yesterday I jumped up my normal 6 miler to a 9 miler, and on Sunday I jumped up my normal 3 miler to my 4.25 miler. Just a little step up, but that is 13 miles in 2 days instead of 9. Legs feel good too, so I plan on running home from work today. I'd have to say little by little I am getting in pretty good shape.

I do want to say I definitely want to start doing push ups and pull ups. I let those go, as I always do, but I want to incorporate them in my thing. It is dumb for me to stop I know, but whatever. I did stop, so I will have to rebuild that too. No biggie. I haven't been timing all my runs, but I believe I have been usually in the 9-9:15 range for the ones I have timed. I haven't really pushed any runs, but our Saturday run is a hilly run, so we definitely get the heart rate up a few times on Saturdays.

Nothing else really going on past that. I watched the stupid Bears play yesterday, and I am so over that now. I like my Chicago teams when they are good, but if they suck, I am not going to waste my time. How many people watched the Blackhawks when they sucked?? I will say I am excited for the NBA season, just cuz the Bulls are good. If they sucked I wouldn't care. :) I always like my Chicago teams besides the Cubs, but if they suck they suck.

Well, I really don't have much else. :) I am up though, so I do it. Hope you all are doing good. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Yay it is Monday. One of the 7 best days of the week.   ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Getting Kinda Motivated.

2011-12-04T06:02:00.000-05:00

I don't think I really have much, but I'll put a little something down. I woke up early yesterday, and I won't lie. I drank a lot Friday night, but I felt fine. I did my blog thing, and relaxed a bit, and ended up taking Hope out for a 3+ mile run. I then met up with Jerry, and we did our 6+ mile run. I decided I wanted to start getting a little longer on my runs due to a marathon being early. I have to look up the date, but it is sometime in April. By the time January rolls around I want nothing shorter than 12-13 mile runs for my long runs. Normally that isn't a big deal, but at my stage now it is, because of the injury riddled year I had this past year. That being said I feel hungry. I feel like I want to improve, and I also feel for me to improve I just can't go through the motions. Remember I had that stretch where everything was a P.R. and improvements were fast and furious?? Now I want to do things more correctly. I don't know if some people don't drink during training, but I do. I just don't need to do it so often.   ;) I want to do that for myself too. I also want to eat better. Not that I eat horribly, but yesterday Lisa went to McD's for lunch, and asked if I wanted anything, and I thought about it and said no. In other words my training is something I think about besides just the running part.

That I think is one of the positives of an off year. When you have a year less than what you wanted due to injury and whatnot, perhaps it makes you hungrier.

Life can be strange, and life can be unpredictable, so I like running and training to keep things on a good note for myself. Life isn't always fair, and that is one of the unfair lessons in life huh?? People are sick, and people have illnesses, and sometimes we feel we live under a gray cloud, but ya just gotta hold on. If one thing about life is true is that everything does change, and those gray clouds leave. Remember I lived post-hospital for like a year under a gray cloud. All I wanted to do was sleep. Natlalie got me on the exercise bike, and I started reading more. That helped take away some of the wanting to sleep 1000 hours/day. Yeah me, if you can believe it. Then the sun came out, and still I have some rainy days, but mostly I am in a pretty o.k. mood. Easier to stay in a pretty o.k. mood if I stay in my comfort zone too, and there is no reason I have to do anything other than that.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Hope you have a fun day today. :) xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo and Jules xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Going to add Beau and Charity to xoxoxoxoxoxo, so they don't defriend me.   :)

Shout out to Naomi too. I don't know her well, really just friends of friends, but she is sick, with something or other. Going in for a big surgery, and maybe some cancer involved??   Not sure of the whole story, but she weighs fucking 88 pounds. I don't think she ever feels good, and she has a young son. Count your blessings you are not going through the shit she is. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Today Is A Run Day!! yay

2011-12-03T04:28:00.000-05:00

Well, as I am starting to get myself in shape, and getting a base you may think I have some big marathon goal I am going after. Nope, not really. I don't have a time I really want to hit. My first Marathon goal was sub:4 hours, and I did that twice. I'd love to get back into 3:35 shape. I was definitely that fast once. Not for a 26.2, but I could pace a 1/2 at that pace. That must have been the fastest I ever was. That only comes about with miles, and miles, and miles, and a little more discipline. ;) Really it is about having a plan, and my plan will not start until January. I feel I am in a good place health wise though, and I feel like my legs can handle running. I think I could run for days and days in a row, so definitely getting my running legs back. :)

Oh, and I do have two new bloggers I picked up. I don't know them much, but one is named Kiet. I have seen him around commenting on some sites I read. He seems like a nice guy, and a Libby B. I don't know much of her, but I loved her last update. Just making some changes, and thinking, and looking. It was really a great update.

Other than that not much going on. Hope you all are doing good. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen.   for no reason.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Change Is For The Young

2011-11-30T03:42:00.000-05:00

I don't know if any of you people read Kelly Dunleavy's site or not, but her last post said unemployment in Spain for people her age is 40%. I assume that to be 30'ish. So people in Spain of that age are screwed. So many people, "Everyone" puts so much faith in society, and you know of those 40% are some hard workers. Some people who if given the chance would do a great job. Things outside of their control have made their life hard. We also tend to put faith in people too. Dress them up in nice suits, and they have these great smiles, but even those on the highest perches when they fall turn into just little human beings like we all are. See pictures of Gadhafi, and Hussein after their fall.

I think anyone can follow society off the cliff. What was the correct and right thing to do if you were a German of the age of 30 in 1942. What was your job?? What if you were a police officer in Mississippi in the 1960's. What did you do?? I think there is a higher wisdom, and a higher knowledge than having the best budget, and the best groceries. It is a shitty world out there in many cases, and that is truth. We tend to get blinded by the people in suits who talk to us on the tee vee. We also tend to get blinded by the people who are in suits as they make speeches.

Inside us all though is a bright light called the truth, and it is within our grasp, and within our reach to find it and look at it. The truth you see is not all fun and games. Within the truth are some harsh and hard lessons. Truth you see is not for the weak, and timid. Nope, truth is for the strong. I guess in a way there is some security in not looking at the truth, and get wrapped up in some other stuff, but that won't lead to happiness. Happiness is found by getting to know yourself. It is by getting to find out who you are, and what you are in relation to the world and all. All this can be done throughout the day doing whatever it is you do. You see the Atheist is just as close-minded as the religious. Their closed minds make them hate each other. The light and truth is inside them both. They have that in common. In other words we all have to find our way, but with that we have help. Just gotta find our inner light/truth.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. just a bike to work and back, and a short run, that was shorter due to poopy issues. ;)   Can anyone relate to that???   :)   We are doing our longer one tonight.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I Am Such An Ass!!

2011-11-29T03:46:00.000-05:00

Ha Ha!!   I don't really have much today I don't think, but yesterday was a pretty good day. I woke up did my thing, and instead of getting ready to run to work, make my lunch, etc... I got tired again, so slept in. No biggie I just decided to run home from work. That was great btw. I feel like I am getting in shape, so that is good. I really didn't want to do anything, so I really relaxed the rest of the night. I read a bit, and paid some bills, and glam stuff like that. It wasn't too bad for a Monday. Perhaps I turned a corner, because some days I get home, and I look out the window, and grab a drink. Not this Monday so that is good. I felt pretty good.

Maybe I should tell you some things about me, which you probably will never guess. I don't do rejection well, and it is not like I can go bopping around being the most confident person in the world. If I feel weak internally, you know like people don't like me or whatever, I shrink my little world into more comfortable surroundings. That is with wife and close friends, and that is trust. The ability to go out and support is really based on a confidence, and a trust in myself, and my surroundings, etc... I sometimes feel like I am an ant. I am building this thing up, and sometimes something will make me feel low, and the thing I have been building gets crushed. But being the good ant I am I start rebuilding right away.

In other words I am not that strong, although I believe in myself. I am not always outgoing, although I always feel confident. This thing has come a long ways too, because I have been sharing about me for a while.

Anyway wanna know something I am thankful for?? Let's see, I am thankful I am healthy, and that life every day is a new day to reinvent yourself, or be active or start new things. This year got sloppy at times, and none of us were perfect that is for sure, but I feel pretty good now, and hope you all do too. :) Been a pretty good year huh?? Got to know a lot of people, and hope to continue on that path. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Tuesday is a run night, and another 4 day in a rower. I love it. :) plus I'll bike to work and back. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I Didn't Forget. :)

2011-11-28T03:02:00.001-05:00

Well first off I am adding another person to xoxoxoxoxo. It is a person I work with. errrrr worked with. Her name is Latoya. She has one of the BEST personalities ever. As good as Doreen, and Olga, and Jules etc... Really really one of the best. She has a great smile, and she is as fun as they come, but also like "all" people has her quiet time where she ponders life, and wonders about things. Everyone has these things, but you can see it in her. The serious real side of life. There ain't anyone stronger than her, and yes even she needs support. If an Olga, Doreen, Jules need support then even she does too. I love her tons for all the realness she brings to the table. :)

Other than that I ran yesterday, and watched the Bears lose. I don't take those losses well, and end up being an asshole. :)

Life goes on though, and today is another run day for me. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. A person who had the best life seemingly killed himself the other day. He was a National Soccer coach for Wales. People suffer from depression, and not feeling all that. EVERYONE DOES!! Don't fucking pretend you are always on, cuz none of us are. Like Kelly Dunleavy said you fakers do more harm than good. and your assholes deep down, because you are liars. That was just a p.s. p.s. btw. :)   This one isn't   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.   MWAH!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen cuz I love her.   :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga cuz I love her :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jules cuz I love her. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Latoya cuz she is strong and honest and real. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga's twin sister for the same reason. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo HA HA

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D :D

A Day Unplanned...

2011-11-27T04:05:00.001-05:00

Well on Saturday there would only be two things planned. The run, and the Michigan game. Michigan played their arch-rival, and Michigan hasn't beaten them in a while. I didn't really plan on watching the game at the bar, but I thought I'd go there for atmosphere. Lisa had to work. Michigan finally won. One thing about being at New Holland, and I didn't think of this til later. When I was leaving I told Katy good bye and I luv ya. I mean it was the most natural thing in the world, and she said it back. I thought of it later, and thought hmmmm... maybe not everyone does that. :)   LOL.

On the run not much to note, other than it felt like a good one. We ended up doing the 6+ mile route, and I have to say I felt pretty good on it. I really feel now like I want to want to get in shape. We talked of marathons, and those things seem to be crazy things. It has been a while since I have run long, but I remember how when you are in the swing of it 16 miles doesn't seem like a long run at times. I am not there yet obviously, but I will get there. That is pretty exciting. For the record Jerry, Jim, and Ken went with on the run.

After New Holland I stopped over to Beau and Charity's to shoot the shit for a bit to see how they were doing. I didn't really feel like drinking anymore so I went home, and watched t.v. napped, and watched t.v. :) Just laying low. I'll have to get some shit done around the house today. Not much, but just laundry and stuff.

Nothing real heavy on this post. :) You know I never really know what I am going to write anyway, I just pop it out.

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Johnny won his fight, beat the dude in the dude's home town. That is a big win for him fo sho!!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I am adding Mindee to the Michigan girl thing. She had a year a lot like Alili, not all fun and games, and hit some low spots. I like her a lot. :) I don't know why I didn't before. She is funny, and has a great personality, and also has some hard stuff she has been dealing with. Not to mention she moved from, Wisconsin to NYC. Even things like that are stressful. Just want to add her to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, cuz she could use support too, and like I said I like her a lot. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I'll give extras for Doreen, cuz I love her. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :)

Let's Talk About Football!!

2011-11-26T05:14:00.000-05:00

Well, my blog got all messed up again. yay. So I will have to fix that. Shouldn't be a big deal, because I trust everyone that was on my list, just went through another bad spell, where I think people misunderstood me, and meant they did not trust me. The problem with it too is it ends up doing more damage. We've done this long enough, that I think you can trust this thing to get done right. Remember though I have a bad little voice in me that CAN VERY EASILY make me think the worst.

People struggle with stuff, and a lot of you people are really important people. I like to put names on this thing too, and some people lack confidence, and I'd like to couple them with confident people so they know they are important too. People don't always feel great about themselves, and it is nice to know some of us think about you, and think you are important.

This blog is going to get weird time to time, because that is part of the plan, just like me doing this blog is part of the plan. I have been doing it a while, so sometimes I am shocked that this seems weird to people. :) I guess I have said some crazy things though huh??

Oh shit I was going to talk about football. I just want to say here and now I think this year has been great for College and Pro Football. I think I have enjoyed it more than most years. You really cannot tell who is going to win on any given day. It makes it fun to watch.

You know what is kinda great though?? I have no problem adding everyone back. I feel comfortable with them all. So that is good. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Johnny Garcia has his biggest bout to date. He is fighting in Cincinnati against another undefeated boxer who is from Cincinnati. Think positive thoughts for him. Remember he has that extra gear. The I got this gear. I don't have that gear that is for sure. I have a It got me gear. :)   LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

Some People Lack Confidence!!

2011-11-24T07:47:00.000-05:00

That is what I notice sometimes. I guess out in the world people dislike all kinds of different people. Many times internally going down some slippery slope to think the most ludicrous things of people. Republicans and Democrats have the potential to hate each other so much in our country we forget we are all just people. I know in my life as I was looking and looking, and this would have been early 90's btw. I was looking what is a good thing to do with ones life?? Now my life was being steered in a direction. A direction in which my vision was not liking what it saw. Do you know what happened on my birthday on a August 15th. My girlfriend and I Katrina broke up. She did it. Now my step mom was already dead. I had a degree in College. It was a B.S. in Business Administration, and yeah I def think the B.S. part is quite aproppos. :) I don't know if you remember or not, but I was relieved. I am on my own, my own life to do my own thing. So I worked, and read the bible every day, because I wanted to be a good person. My Grandpa died a couple days later the 18th of August maybe. I was like hmmmm. I got in trouble for not telling Katrina. She was mad. I told her well we were broken up, I figured you wouldn't care. Us guys are dumb. We don't understand the capacity of women to care for people. We don't understand, cuz many times we are not the most compassionate/ caring people.

Anyway, what I noticed is I was not becoming a better person. I had a "view" of what a good person is, and I failed. I looked into the mirror, and judged myself into what I felt a good and decent person is and was. If there was a way to make a person into a good person, I was all in. That is what I wanted. We all are in the same boat. Everyone in the world. I don't care what country you are from, you are going to fuck up, and you aren't perfect. Killing brown people overseas is pointless, cuz they are imperfect. Brown people killing us on our own soil is stupid too, because we are imperfect. Like the lesson of Noah too, if God wanted to kill people he don't need our help. There are no holy wars so to speak. Although the lesson of Noah also was he wanted to save people, not kill them. Not many believed though.

Anyway since it is Thanksgiving I wanted to mention something about my own little special Thanksgiving blogger Dee. I think she is brave, and honest, yet inside at times feels not so confident. She doesn't get a lot of support either I don't think. No one really understands her complex personality. She wants to be skinny, but struggles with diet. Are 90% of girls like that?? I have no idea what she looks like btw. She it seems to me is a 100 percenter. She would love to boil her life to just focus on one thing 100 percent of the time, and give it her all. Many athletes are like that. Trying to find the path that leads to happiness is really what we are all about. Not all life is happy though.

Oh well just blogging about. My Signature line is to help build up o.k. If I use your name in this thing then in my world that is an honor, cuz not everyone makes it on here a lot.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Enjoy your day today everyone. I hope some of you have to work. ;)   j/k   :) Ha Ha

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I Did A Little Math!!

2011-11-22T04:18:00.000-05:00

Okay Okay, so I gots me this here crazy little blog, and like I said this is what I do. I wake up early, and do this for whatever reason, and I have been doing it a while. As a matter of fact it is my 3rd blog, because I deleted the other 2. When my stuff came out, there was no support, and no blog, and a shortened list of who I read. Yet I still survived, with help. How I started back up after heimleblog, I have no idea. I still needed to get stuff out, and there came the Journey. I many many days during both those blogs would feel bad throughout the day. I mean actually horrible about myself, but always always always woke up strong the next day. I think it helped to have Becky write every day. I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on with her either. She had a kid what a year or so ago?? Probably still cheering for her Shitty Jets team. :) Does she still work out 8 hours/day???   I have no idea. We communicated via our blogs kinda every day as friends, and now nothing. Life goes on, but I sure haven't thought of her in a while til now. Oh yeah, I forgot. That I blog almost every day mentions her. No one is as consistent as her, but no one is as crazy either. :)   j/k. Life has many changes huh??

Anyway if any of you noticed the little change yesterday you will notice there are two people lumped together in my signature line. Steve R's thing, xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, and Blogger on my RHS. Yep, Leigh is still on my RHS, and Jen Gray is the only other person to be like that. I kinda like that. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. just ran to work and rode my bike home yesterday. It still was Monday. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Keep Me Away From Politics.

2011-11-21T03:45:00.000-05:00

Man, I can get fired up. It is people who see everything in black and white that really get me. That dude on 60 Minutes last night does so much harm. He is a divider not a uniter, and damn if everyone isn't that these days, but he really drives a wedge. Fine everyone you want no deficit. CUT DEFENSE spending. Obvious what we spend on defense doesn't win wars, or we would have won in Afghanistan already. Why must a nation such as ours spend so much money trying to find different ways to kill people. Haven't we been doing that enough??

Okay, I am done. Killing people is not the answer, and I AM NOT ON BOARD, and will never be on board. So I remain aloof. Let the world fight their own battles, because that is what they are going to do. There will be wars, and revolutions, and whatnot, and things will still be messed up. I worship no flag, because it is made of cloth. Dress me in words, not silly childish things we were taught to believe in Kindergarten, and most never questioned the validity of it. How many false idols do you hold onto??

So there. I am cleaning up my blog. Or adding some things. I said blogger Leigh can be added to whatever, but I thought she should blog. Well, she has a lot going on, and so does her hubby Chris. I didn't know, so I am adding them both to Tia, and Tammy's thing. That is Steve R's thing, and xoxoxoxoxoxo. Chris had some health issues, and Leigh is pregnant, so that is tough. Tia is pregnant too.

I remember a long time ago when Leigh was going through her loss, I wanted to take her sadness, and deal with it myself. This is the weird stuff btw. I have done that before. I really wanted to do that for her, but she is too strong. She can handle all her own stuff. I really tried too, but obviously it isn't me who does it.   I wanted to take Gina's too, a long time ago, but she was too strong too. Strange I take people who I don't know, like that old dude, and even Lisa's Mom. Remember me looking out her window. I knew someone as unhealthy as her was alive for a reason. Folks that is and was a SHITTY life.

You know what that 60 Minutes dude is?? arrogant. Now no people I know are like that, but it isn't good for me to see people like that. Good thing I stay away from tv except for silly stuff, and sports games. Arrogant people bring out all kinds of bad things. I am sure there is some stuff written in Proverbs about that.

I said before Doreen could give xoxoxoxoxo's to anyoone as if they were from me, so I will be adding her sis Jen to xoxoxoxoxo. :) I am sure she would want it that way. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Just ran my little 3 miler yesterday, and am running to work. No coffee today though, because I don't feel like I need it.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D

Extras for Doreen. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jules too. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

This For Sure Will Be About Nothing.

2011-11-20T07:50:00.001-05:00

OMG, I am almost thinking of blogging. I can't imagine I have anything to say. I slept til like 7:00 am, so slept late, but I'll put something down for the heck of it. :)

You know the routine. Coffee first. :) brb.

Looks like we have a nice sunrise happening. :) You know orange pink and red.

I'd take a picture, but cannot be bothered to get out from under my afghan. :)

So yesterday Jerry and I ran the 6.2 mile run. We were thinking of adding, but I had to go #2. It was one of those where I tried to go before the run, but I couldn't, and I knew it was going to pop up. Oh well, maybe I'll run just a tad bit longer today. My week will end up just a tad below 25 miles probably so a good week. Also I plan on running to work tomorrow, so another 4 days in a row with Tuesdays run. I am starting to get back into it, so that is good. :)

Now there is a lot of crazy stuff I can tell you about me, but much has been said before. If you have fear, or if you have doubts don't worry about that. Fear was my blanket of protection during my horrible summer. Remember I had very little good times, and WOW, why did I have to do that. I always had bad dreams that there were bad fish, dangerous fish in the sea. With horrible teeth. Not sure what that meant. Maybe the time for me to do whatever I am supposed to do was not yet. The road had to be paved so to speak, and who knew it would take me this long.

This is what I do. My blog. For whatever reason, I do this almost every day. I am glad I developed a liking to running, because it is healthy, and it is something to strive for. It is not something I am totally 100% running is my life type of thing, because you know I am never going to win a race. Not in the genes, but I can improve, and get better, and get faster. You know my goal would be to break 22:00 in a 5K. I could run a zillion miles a year, and doubt I could break 20:00. Maybe if I weighed 120 lbs, but that ain't happenin either. :)

So you know this is what I do. This blog. I work, and view life, and run, and hang out, but my blog is what I do.

Keep it real folks. Your lives ain't perfect, so don't pretend they are. I'll keep mine real.

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I sorta know 4 people doing IM AZ Good luck to them. Charisa, M. Tanner, Jenny Harrison, and Molly, who is a great commenter on sites. We were almost friends once, and then I got blocked. I have no idea why, but good luck to them. Not that they will see it, before their race, but that I am thinking of them. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Oh hey, I am adding Faith to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo too. She already gets mentioned every day, but wanna add her to xoxoxoxoxo. She has a hard life, and could use support too. :)

Extras for Olga.   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen.   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Faith. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the 4 doing IM AZ   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D

Oh shit. Jessica is running a marathon today. Extras for her too.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Have a good one all.   MWAH!!!!   :)

Blog About Nothing = List

2011-11-19T06:05:00.000-05:00

I think I will make a list, because I pretty much have nothing to write about, and stuff, so why not??

I have to get some coffee first. All lists should start with that first bullet. IMHO. :)
I love Doreen. :) I love Olga too. :)
Hee Hee Hee, it is my blog, and I can put whatever I want. :)
I could stop there. :)
Today we are running, and that will make a pretty good week for me, when I add Sunday
I think Barbara Davies has the best outlook on life. So cheerful. I love it. :) xxx
I think it is a good idea to trust your thoughts. They will steer you in the right direction??
Know why, because the one with the best eyes can see your thoughts. Trust them.
Do you find yourself blocking some thoughts because you think they are wrong?
They are still there.
I think people have been turtles for a long time, and with their head in their shell.
Now you are taking a look, and realize the world is vast, and a lot out there.
You tried boxing yourself in, and say this is me. AND YOU NEVER KNEW YOU
Now you will find who you are, and trust me, you will never believe it.
It is cwazy!! :)
I am curious what will happen this Thanksgiving, because it has been a big day the past couple years.
I think it will be more about you this time though. Or maybe nothing.
Remember my 5K, and the Sophie B. Hawkins night??
Last year was the dream, of me winning the race. I went where no one else can go, but I was alone, so not happy...
That I have another year to do stuff is good and bad.
Good in so many ways, but sometimes life sucks really bad still.
I love Doreen though...
I love Olga too. :)--- and her sister Nancy, although I don't understand Nancy at all.

I love the rest of you too. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. run, and football today. Is there anything better??

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga cuz she cannot run all the time. :(   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz she is Doreen. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Do You Ever???

2011-11-18T03:43:00.000-05:00

Get tired of blogging, and feel what you have to say is boring?? I think I am kinda going through a bit of that funk right now. Oh well.

Anything important happen yesterday to me?? Nah not really. I worked and ran home. Instead of running home 3.5 miles, I tacked on a couple more miles. So I ran a little over 5 miles. Then that was it. Maybe this is interesting maybe not. It is 3:00. Now what?? I haven't been into books lately... for some reason. I go through spurts. You know me, I barely can stand t.v. unless it is a 70's Show, or a Seinfeld, or Football or something. I don't do it. So I have a couple cocktails, and get a little crazy. You have to forgive my antics, because I know when I am in my moment I am an assface, and I can get a little PG-17, or worst maybe, BUT If the chips are down I would hope I'd be there for you.

That is one thing you can guarantee yourself about life too. You will have your low spots. You will not escape that. That pill to make us 100% happy and 100% in a good mood has not been made, and will never be made. You all will fuck shit up here and there too.

Life is supporting people, and sharing. The rest is just stupid bull shit to keep us busy.

That is my opinion. :)   BEEOTCHES!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. May have to come back to that. Got nothing right now. still don't...

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen who is under the weather. :(   boooozies.   :( xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Christie too, cuz she always comments on my site, and none of you others do. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I Forgot To Drink Coffee Yesterday, and I Forgot To Eat Lunch.

2011-11-16T03:59:00.000-05:00

I know what the heck, what the heck??? I did have a pretty productive day though. I am having a pretty good 3 days off. A little run on Monday turned into a fun night, what with the help of bloody marys. Remember the last time I went for bloody marys and I said I only had 2 instead of 4?? No way can I drink 4. Holy crap. I had 2 on Monday, and it was perfect. When I got home the wine was perfect too. ;)

Anyhoo yesterday was a pretty productive day like I was saying. I finished all the rest of the leaves with the lawnmower, and bagger. Our trees are done too. No more leafing for me. Nice to get that shit done before the first snow fall. That is not always the case. We lucked out this year.

I did get a couple good workouts in too. I took advantage of the weather, and rode my bike for 2 hours. Not giving the distance. ;) We then did our 6 mile loop. Jerry ran an early extra one so he went over 7 miles, and I just ran 6. I wanted to quit at 4.5 miles. We hit a stop light, and after the 10 second rest I felt better. So I finished the 4th loop, and the 4th loop felt great. So that is a pretty good workout day for me. I stopped after the run to have a couple beers, because I never get to do that on a Tuesday, due to work the next day. It was something to do. :) Came home and went to bed pretty much.

Today I have to get inside work done. Laundry, and Dishes. I think I am going to treat myself to lunch, and make a dinner. Tomorrow is my Monday. Thank God Friday won't be so far off. :)

Have a good one all!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I filled up my growler too. Should be a fun day. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga for the heck of it.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

MWAH!!!   :)

A Change!!

2011-11-15T03:41:00.000-05:00

Well good morning folks. I have a change of plan. It appears to me that this blog really isn't that important to people. I always felt people should read my blog if I am going to read theirs. I don't think that happens, and that used to make me MAD. I always think what I do here must be important, because I have been doing it a while, and I still wake up early most days to do it. I have had my struggles in life, but I keep plugging on and on.

I used to be more disciplined in my workouts, and that seems to be when I could swim, which I cannot. Whatever back problem I had that stopped me is still there. That being said I did drive to Saugatuck yesterday for bloody marys after my run. I looked at my biking route on the way home, and thought..... hmmmmmmm. It is supposed to be close to 60 tomorrow, maybe I'll take my bike out before my run.

I don't really have much to say today, but I will say for those of us who run, we help support each other. Those who do tri's help support each other, and this blog here, is to help support those in life. Not all who read this are healthy, and not all can run, but it don't mean you ain't an important person.

I don't know what it takes to make my signature line. It is something that hits me inside. I do know it is important if you see someone down. Do NOT pretend you don't see it. Step in and help support. That is called "winning"

Have a good one all!!! :)   Luv ya's!!! :) MWAH!!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Oh yeah, I got a little 3 miler in last night, and felt like a million bucks after. Those who can should. It is good for you. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

cya laterzzzz gaterzzzzzzzzzzzz    MWAH!!!   :) xoxo   :D

Monday Looks Different When You Don't Have To Work!! :)

2011-11-14T04:30:00.000-05:00

Woo Hoo, I have the next 3 days off. Where will this entry go?? I don't really have anything serious to say I don't think. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I got a bit of a run in, and walked Cammie, then watched football. I played Bejeweled a lot on my phone. :) Then Football and Tacos and stuff. Some wine. :)

I think it is healthy and a good idea to look at life from point A to point B. Birth to death. We all have that in common. If you don't look at a point B then you lose out on a lot of life. It doesn't have to be a depressing thing, it can be a positive. We get caught up in such stupid stuff of every day life we lose track of the big picture. Let's face it too, every day life can be pretty boring. Some pretty shitty jobs out there. :)

Ehhhh screw it. I got nothing today. Just stopping by to say hi. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. nothing there either. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Even more extras toooooooo.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Have a fab day all. MWAH!!!   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Am Thankful I Feel Like This Most Mornings.

2011-11-13T04:58:00.000-05:00

It really does feel good, when you wake up, and have a happy heart. I still don't know what happened last weekend. Why?? I hit that empty feeling, and I don't know why. Did you see how mean I was, and I wanted people to feel how bad I felt. You know I think about that Penn State dude. You know in his mind he knows what he did was wrong. No one thinks that is right, or they would tell people about it. For most people you have to be thankful you don't have those urges, and for the ones who do, YIKES!! Sometimes the things which make us imperfect are pretty powerful things.

I guess a look at the totality of life a lot is hard. We are not always who we'd like to be. I keep thinking of what I have been saying in comments around the internets. Our own personal closets. See we have this shell, and we like to keep it waxed, and looking good, and we have other stuff in our personal closets that make us sad. Make us sometimes not be all who we want to be. I think back to my brother Jim, and he never dealt with his personal closet til the end. I don't know if he wanted to be strong for people, but he was unhappy, but always said he was happy. He blamed all imperfections in his life on other things. Imperfect childhood, and what not. Well we all have that.

I have a lot of crazy things I can tell you. I mean really wacko type stuff. My energy is one thing, I have hinted at that before, but I do know where it comes from. I ain't telling you. It is nutsy. We all have this stuff inside us. Our own little personal closet, and we have to look at it, and deal with it to be healthy. The thing is that dude from Penn State did nothing he can not apologize for to the one who forgives the most. The world hates him for what he did, but there is one who would hear his cries of guilt, and shame, and remorse, if he were led down that path.

I guess if I were to say something. Who cares what we eat, and what we drink, etc... Realize there are a lot of unhappy people out there who are sad, and not happy with how they are, and would really really like to feel good about themselves, but feel like they are bad people. Remember when I said if you have a mirror, and you look at yourself in it, then that is a good path. If you turn the mirror toward others, it will just bring about hate, and anger, and all kinds of other stuff. Trust in your thoughts as they are directed toward you, because that is the path you have been given. A look at yourself. Remember I asked for the mirror a long time ago. As for me, I am open. I hide nothing like Adam did pre-fall. That was my journey. To walk many many years, and get to a point where I trust , and yeah I trust.

You want to know why Olga makes it so much. Trust. Doreen too. It is why they are the best of the best.

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am pretty excited about Oscar Shutt's marathon today. I get more nervous for his than anyone else's Isn't that crazy??   LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen, and Jules, and Brandy. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Of course Olga. I love her. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all. Luv ya all. :)   MWAH!!!!

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Oh shit, I ran 6.1 miles yesterday, and I'll double up on something today too. :) MWAH!!!   :)

Marathon Goals...

2011-11-12T02:08:00.000-05:00

They are something huh?? It is a 26.2 day. Most "human" people can get in top form probably twice/year for a 26.2 race. I know some people run like a million each year, but most people can go for their goal once in the spring and once in the fall. At least that is how I see it. I am lucky that I had that 40 year old wish list thing to do one. I was hooked right away. It wasn't a once and done thing for me, it became a lifestyle. It seems a big part of my life over the last 5 years or so is marathon training. For a person like me that definitely has its ups and downs. Will I stay healthy, will I get my fitness. I love love love that I always have the desire. I mean I wake up and if the legs feel good they want to run.

What made me think of marathons is it is Laura Chihak's birthday today. I know a lot of you read her blog post about Rudy breaking 3 hours, and how many times it took. Cousins of mine btw. If I have new readers let me link to it again. Hold on. Here it is.   If you read this you will see it is a great tribute from sister to brother. I don't know them well, or at all, but on FB, but a quick story. I became friends with her on FB a long time ago, and the first thing I ever saw her do was link to some dance thingy to the Coldplay song "Yellow" She is a dancer, and ... or at least was, and the youtube video was a dance thingy. The Yellow song always makes me think of that. :) Why who knows. Well anyway since it is her birthday I think it aproppos I hit that link again. There were only 2 blogs I commented with my heimleblog up and running. Laura's blog thing she did for school, and Don Kerns. I really was afraid to show people my stuff back then. Look how far we've come huh??   LOL.

This weekend is another big marathon goal thingy for a guy I have read on and off again. I believe his goal is 3:10, but really he is sub:3:00 fast. He is patient... now... and hoping to not have cramping problems. Marathon goals are pretty fricken exciting. You know marathon goals are a journey in themselves, because it takes miles and miles, and sometimes years to be able to withstand the beating to hit your 26.2 goal. I get to follow along on one this weekend. :) yay.

It is Saturday morning so today I run. 5.5 hours from now. :) Ha ha!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I was bored last night and went to bed at like 6:00 :)   Ha ha!!

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D   oh and I hope Olga feels better. She is sick. :(   booooooooooooooo

Luv ya's alllllzzz MWAH!!!   :)

Friday Morning yayyyyy!!! :)

2011-11-11T03:26:00.000-05:00

So how's it all going then?? Me I am doing pretty good. I don't really have much important today, but I'll just go with whatever comes up. First off I have a crush on Olga. :) You know she has made my blog for as long as I can remember, and I never really had a picture of her. Just a half picture on her Twitter profile. She showed a couple updated ones yesterday. I had no idea she looked like that. :) So anyway now I have even more of a crush on her. ;) LOL. She looks really healthy, so glad to see she is doing good. I think I will add a picture of me. Just so you know what I look like. I think my eyes are closed, as I don't take good pictures, and don't really like taking pictures of myself, but here goes...


Hiya, that is me. :)

So anyway I did run to work yesterday, and biked home. Run was low 9:00 pace. It felt pretty good. One thing I noticed is I am starting to get used to the cold. I think it was 37 or so when I ran, and I ran in shorts. It does take a while to acclimate to the cold weather. I think it was colder riding the bike home, and I did get cold there, due to being against the wind the whole way.

I went over to Beau and Charity's after work. I drank some wine, and played uecker with them, and Beau's mom. Beau and I lost. Got our asses kicked both games. They got all the jacks. Fuckers. :) We just hung out. Charity just had back surgery, but she looks to be doing great.

Other than that not much going on. Just doing this thing. You want to know the highlight of my day?? Seeing Olga's picture. Isn't that strange?? Boy she went on and on and on and on about how much she eats sweets and stuff. She is tiny. :) LOL. When I ride home sometimes I look at the trees, and I wish I remembered my camera to show the colors. I am such a bad blogger that way. Oh well.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. After today I have the next 5 days off. :) Bloody Mary Monday???   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

silly ain't I???   :)

Luv Ya's   MWAH!!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Wednesday Hump Day

2011-11-10T02:47:00.000-05:00

Well well well. I had a real great day yesterday. I woke up in a great mood. I woke up early, and had time to get my run in. I ended up going somewhere between 6-6.5 miles before work. I didn't map it. Instead of doing my normal 3.1 mile loop before heading to work, I crossed over to South Shore street instead of looping back to my house. South Shore I take to work, and running back home is going out of the way, so not really sure how long it was. I do have a couple notes though. 6+ miles before work, before walking on the concrete should fatigue my legs. I felt great the whole day. Maybe I am finally starting to get my runner legs back. I mean I will be able to run to work again today too.

So anyway, as I think about yesterday's post I think man we are not always "on" are we?? I mean somedays we are on top of the world ready to tackle it all, and some days going through the motions. I feel now I am getting better. Yesterday proves to me I am starting to get a bit of fitness back. I was talking to some dude at work Tuesday. I told him to call Ken on the road to tell him we are not running tonight. I told him weather is shit, and you know it is November. I won't have any important races til April. Who cares if we cancel a run? I am on track still to have a good week though. Jerry and I are planning on adding a little distance to our Saturday run, and a run to work today will get me in some good mileage for the week. Good for November, and good for me. I mean goal is to build slowly, stay healthy, and keep after it.

I love days like this and mornings like this where I am "on" I am ready to get after it. Ready to get a good run to work, have a good day of work, and come home, make a meal, chill out. I dunno I guess when we go through some rough times, when we reach the other side, the good side, it makes life so much sweeter.

In other words, I don't have much to write about today. Hope you all are doing great though. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. OMG I need a 12 step class for a girl in boots fetish. I am helpless. :) LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D   -------xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D

This Blog Shit Is Getting Boring...

2011-11-09T02:17:00.000-05:00

Then again I have to be at work at 5:00 am, and I am up before 2:00 am. What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck. I know. Pretty fucking weird. Well where did we last leave off?? I have no idea. Want to know something about me, I think is true?? Who can really tell what is true though. I mean Friday, I am on top of the world, ready to achieve everything, and have a nice hard challenging run on Saturday, and BOOOOOOOOM!!!   Out of nowhere I feel empty. I mean life fucking sucks rip roaring empty. I want everyone to feel as bad as I do, and I want to tell everyone to go bite themself. Fast forward to Monday, and things still are shit. I run to work, and drive to bar at noon after work. HOLY FUCKING SHIT was I down. Why I know not?? Tuesday better, and today I feel great.

So let's just say if I am going to kick ass this year like I planned, I will need some help not to feel like those last 3 days. :) How I feel on the inside can turn on a dime. I trust most my days will be good, but maybe it is a good reminder how low I have been in periods of my life, and how great I have been blessed to feel most of the time. I trust I am going to be mostly "ON"

So anyway let me tell you some things. I skipped last night's run, because of shitty weather. Lisa was off, so I got an idea to make one of her favorite meals. Enchiladas made with Tamale's. NUMMY!! I drank wine, and today I feel great. So great, I am planning on running to work, and adding on 3 miles before my run to work. Last night would have been a 6 mile run, and this morning will be a 6.5 mile run. Yay Me!! Go Me!!!

One other thing on this blog. I think I am taking off any kind of censorship. I will swear on this fucking thing. :) So there.

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I got nothing.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these cococococococococococococococococo ;)

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

want to know something??? Sometimes I feel like it is stupid to give extras on top of the extras, and sometimes I wake up wanting to give extras on top of extras. Isn't that strange??

Have a good day all. I have a feeling it is going to be a good one. MWAH!!! :)

Friday = Not Friday = Different.

2011-11-05T05:49:00.000-04:00

I have to say that was a different. Let me tell you the positives of it. It is really just minor minor things. Now let's say normally, I would go out to lunch with Lisa, and have some beers, and boom, that is the direction of the Friday. This Friday with this "new me" thingy I am trying ended up working an 11 hour day. Instead of going out to lunch I bought something to cook at home. So it is a money saving thing. Now when I get home, I am tired, but I still do some push ups, and rode the trainer for 25 minutes. I was going to go 30, but quit, because I can talk myself out of anything. :P   SWEAT FEST!!!   So instead of alcohol calorie intake, I am doing better stuff. Nothing huge mind you, but better than what I may normally have been doing.

You know what I see?? In my head I am picturing a lean running Steve, and I know from past experiences, when I cut down on drinking, the weight just falls off. Let me tell you too, I copy. I am the biggest copy cat for the better. Want to know who I see?? Our plumbing Asst. Manager Victor quit drinking, and he looks to be at a healthy weight.   I don't remember Nancy O Toole's previous pictures, but her last few pictures on Twitter tell me she has probably been living a healthier lifestyle. I don't know crap about her really, but you can tell she had a healthy summer, because she looks great. Also somehow somewhere Maggs got the bug. The bug to make the most of this shit, and yeah, let's have a good fucking year this year. So you see out there people doing these things to improve themselves in that way, and it kinda gets you the bug. Why not me??? Why not now??? type of thing.

I have always done it that way. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS. When I played soccer in High School, my best move, was a Jim Renny?? (name??) fake shot, with a Evan Privett cut back. Guys would think I am kicking the ball at their nads as hard as I can, and boom, I cross over and am running the other way, while the guys are holding their dicks. :)   LOL   It worked.   :)

My thinking too, is a down year for me last year can be used as a positive. Let's face it I had many good years building myself up, and yeah, a lot of shit happened last year, but maybe I am healthier, and hungrier now, than I would have. Remember Jenny Harrison had her "light" year of mostly running. I am sure that helped her, and I am going to predict this helped me. I have a better vision of who I want to be this year. Sometimes the batteries need to be recharged you know?? Sometimes to take a few steps forward you may have to take a couple steps back first.

That is what I am rolling with. I feel mentally willing, and able to be better this year. Let me tell you too, it feels good. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I feel pretty fucking good to tell you the truth. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Dontcha wish you were her. :D   LOL

Luv Ya's!!!   MWAH!!!!    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Good Morning Everyone Out There!! :)

2011-11-04T03:53:00.000-04:00

I had to throw the out there in the title, because I used all variations up to that. I don't really have much today, because Thursday = Friday, and I slept in. :) Some changes for me though. Thursday = Friday, but Friday does not = Friday. Been a while since I said that. No drinking for me today. I am on a new plan. A new better training for me plan. I won't be able to commute today, because we have to get new tires I think on the car. Just the two front ones, or if were lucky we can just get the bad one fixed. We will see.

I did want to clarify something from yesterday. It is all about getting to know ourselves, so I am not suggesting going out and calling everyone you don't like a fucker every time you see them, but I guess realize the "real"est part of the smile/fucker meeting is not the smile. The smile is on the outside, and the fucker thoughts are on the inside. The inside stuff is really who you are. When you start looking at that stuff, you really get to know yourself better. In other words we all really can be assholes, and we have to be honest with ourselves.

Bike and run yesterday, but most importantly for me is Friday does not equal Friday. Taking this shit for realzzzzzzz!!!   :)

Have a good one all!!! :)

Luv Ya's!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am pretty excited about this new more serious training guy Steve. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Little gestures mean a LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT!! Thank you Jen Gray. :) xoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

ehhh, what the heck. extras for Olga. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   PLUS there are rumors of a soon to be Nancy O Toole blog entry.   :)   Yayyyy!!!   :)

Have a fab day and weekend all. Luv Ya's!!!   MWAH!!!!   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

How Many Things Do We Not Communicate???

2011-11-03T03:21:00.000-04:00

I am trying to think back to a long time ago, and I remember one thing I wanted to be. I wanted to always be nice. I always wanted to put my best foot forward. I wanted to always be nice to my girlfriends whoever they may be, and always have a smile on my face, etc... For me a turning point was Lora who I told the story about before. Now this was during my bad time remember. A lot of shit happening, and we became friends. She just lost her 20 year old boyfriend or whatever to a car crash. You know what I ~~liked~~ loved about Lora? That bitch was honest. I mean she was a complete asshole fuckface of a bitch if she needed. I was like damn, and I equated that with a bit of honesty you know? When I made a bit of an internal turn of what is better nice or honest?? As it turns out honesty is better than nice, because we have more control over that. "Nice" can be really fucking fake if your smiling with your mouth, and in your head you are saying What a complete fucker that person is. Do you have any Lora's in your life?? You know the people who are able to express what they think, that you admire, when inside you think, oh man I wish I could do that??

Damn!! We have been doing this shit a while huh??

Let me tell a couple things. People don't communicate with me too well. I don't understand that. Do you want to know why Olga gets a ton of xoxoxoxoxoxo's and Doreen too?? They communicate with me. Some people I swear pretend you are invisible. Who does that?? And perhaps more importantly why?? That shit is weird don't you think??

Oh well that is just some shit I thought about this morning. Hope it isn't too weird. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. We got a lot of yard work done yesterday, but I think maybe today Thursday = Friday. :D

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Barbara Davies. She is a special person. A great sense of humor, a ton of courage, and just a great outlook on life. She just had a mastectomy this year too. :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

You know why it is great to give Olga and also Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxo, and Barbara Davies too?? Trust, I trust them, and it is great to put them on here, because as I told you before, trust is pretty dang important huh??

Maybe, and I just thought of this. Maybe people are feeling things inside them, and want to let it out, and bare their soul, but are afraid to. Afraid we'll ridicule you or something? Maybe you feel vulnerable, and hmmmm, that must be it. We want to show our strong side always, but afraid to show our soft unprotected side. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo for all people feeling like that. I hear ya.

Now for really really really cya cya cya cya   :D   :D   :D

OMG My Arms Are Sore!!!! >:/

2011-11-02T03:39:00.000-04:00

Wanna know the big chest workout I did with my push ups. 3 sets of 10. :)   OUCHIE!!! :) WHAT AN IDIOT!!! *head punch* :) I never did get downstairs to do pull ups, but I will add those to my repertoire.

Here are some things I am grateful for. I feel the fire is burning bright inside me. I want to get out and work hard. Of course within reason. Staying healthy is always part of the plan obviously, so I have to do what my body enables. Yesterday was definitely a good start. I rode the bike to work and back, and when I got home I rested. I wanted to get some stuff done around the house, but was too pooped. We then ran. Jerry and I did our 6 mile loop, and I think the conditions were absolutely perfect. The temps. throughout the day were low to mid 60's. We ran as the sun was coming down, so probably getting a bit cooler. We did the 6 at around a 8:47 pace give or take, and it was just perfect. We probably won't have too many more "perfect" running days, but really if you are able to get out and run then maybe all running days are perfect.

I don't really have a ton on my mind right now, but a friend of mine, and really a friend of my brother Jim, Sam Middendorf lost his Mom yesterday... maybe the day before. That is something anyone can relate to. I thought him just being an Astros fan was hard enough. He is probably the absolute funniest fucker I have ever met. Just silly silly silly silly. He would always have everyone in stitches at the get together. For those of you who have ever heard the Jozin z Bozin video, that is where it came from. He found that, and we all watched that at one of the get togethers. He will have some hard days, and one of the great things of a sense of humor I think is it helps us all get through shit. Maybe that is one of the gifts of life. The absurdity of life can be looked at in two ways. As something that might be depressing, or perhaps a never ending well of silly funny shit to look at, because we all need it. We'll all have enough of the other shit to look at.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. yay Pub Crawl. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for my friend Charity who will be going in for back surgery in a day or two. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Beau too, because he'll have to do all the housework. ;)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Extras for Olga too. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all. :)   Luv Ya's :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Looking... What?? When The Hell Did I Use That Title Before???

2011-11-01T03:19:00.000-04:00

So anyway, I may have come up with a new idea. The pieces of the puzzle need to be redone I think, all after I get my coffee of course. :) So here is my thinking. I noticed yesterday my jeans appear to be a bit tight. A down year of biking, and riding will do that I guess. Now life is something I would like to enjoy, and me having fun and enjoying life can come in many forms. One of the forms would be to get better at running. Running improvement comes from many things. Staying healthy, being lean, and running. Ehhh, well 3 things I can think of. I am thinking if I can find something more useful, and more productive to do on my time off during the week, then that would help.

I am thinking of more reading, and more movie watching, and more push ups--- been a while--- more pull ups too. Really less drinking. Drinking is a fun past time, and that is why those who partake do the partaking in it. I think if I did it less than that will help my running. At least in a weight control area. I mean I am not fat, but I def. have a bigger belly than last year. Maybe it is time to get in a little better shape. I will still drink, but maybe just do the Thursday = Friday thing, and maybe like Saturday night, or something. We'll see. Just food for thought. It is about time for me to have a good year running though you know. Time to get back in shape again. I'd have to say the last time I was in shape was the last Riverbank and Bayshore pacing... I guess I was in shape for my last G.R. marathon, but didn't know it because it was so fricken hot that summer. I couldn't run for shit, and was pretty fast doing the 1000's before the marathon.

I got some goals, and maybe it is about time I start taking them a little more serious. I guess it got to a point that improving became so fricken easy, that I forgot I have to do a little more than go through the motions. Let's hope we can keep this flame lit. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. ooh, I got time to do push ups this morning. Going to be sore tomorrow and the next day. Why do I stop doing those?? I am such an IDIOT!!!   (Does Chris Farley head punch)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D   :D

Have a good one all. :)

Coffee and A Blog.

2011-10-31T03:47:00.000-04:00

Well, I have absolutely no idea what I am going to write about today. Why do I write so often?? I don't know. There are a million different directions a life can take at any point in time. You can choose to do damn near anything, and work toward it, but all plans can be shelved due to poor health.

You want to know what I have been thinking lately?? I think I can write dang near anything on here. I don't think too much about what I write. Maybe me writing helps people think of stuff. I do know the direction I took leaves me with a freedom now. A freedom of not second guessing. I still feel vulnerable sometimes, like after Saturdays post, but I never worry too much.

I guess I don't have to do anything. I still am out there, being a bit crazy. I am a bit wild, because why not. I just don't understand a lot of you. Who are you?? You know who you are?? No you don't. You don't know who you are, and what you think about, and what you want to do can change from day to day. I guess you seek consistency inside your shell, but it isn't there. You seek for happiness with your goals, but it isn't there.

The thing here is we are being led down a path. Your lives will have stuff in it for you to see every day, and you are looking, and you are seeing, and not all of life is happy. Not all of life is sunshine, and not all of life is predictable.

In other words I have no idea what to write. :) still love you all tho. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. oh shit, I got a picture of my room, lemme add it. :)


Trainer ride anyone?? :P

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

No extras cuz it still is Monday you knucklheads. :D Have a good one. :) MWAH!!!!

I'll Take A Miller "LIGHT"

2011-10-30T06:28:00.000-04:00

Well yesterday's post seemed a bit heavy, so maybe I will lighten it up a bit. First off I ran yesterday morning, and ran with Ken from work. Ken is 65 I believe and ran the Chicago Full, and the next weekend the Grand Rapids half. If you remember I tried helping him on long runs, but got injured again last year, and couldn't help him. He did most of the training himself. Solo marathon training. YIKES!! We did like a little 6 + mile route, but since I ran home from a spot my run was probably close to 8 miles. I didn't time it, and I didn't check the distance. Didn't really care. I feel I am slow right now, but I am healthy, so that matters. :)

Give you a couple things I was thinking about this morning, before I got up. I am excited to getting back to running/riding bike to and from work. It will be all part of my training. A run, and a bike with a destination is good exercise for me. Starts the day off right, and gets my work day on the right foot. I like work. It gives me a place to have to be, and sometimes as crazy as it may sound I dread my vacations. :) My wife thinks I am nuts, but work is a good routine for me.

Anyway I guess that is about it for today. I know life is so big, and so much out there, and dammit sometimes the grass is green in other spots, but the search is to find where the grass is green in your mind. It is all about how you feel inside. How do things look inside you?? How do you feel?   Paradise comes from the inside. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I thought for myself to set up my trainer, and get little 30-45 minute workouts in here and there. Every little bit helps, and I cannot do the killer trainer rides the other ones do. Too boring for me.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Wisconsin football fans. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen too. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

The Fork Was North And South

2011-10-29T03:20:00.000-04:00

That is the one less traveled. Well here is what I was thinking. The path less traveled is the one in where your spirit soars. You shake off all the chains that bind you, because the chains ain't worth anything. Quit holding onto stuff that really doesn't matter. When you take the path less traveled you actually take the path up. It is then when you let your color, and light shine. I mean the easy way is to bury all who you are. Don't show anyone, and you know that is an easy thing to do, but it leads to such unhappiness. The shell is some form of security, but you will not find happiness keeping it on.

I don't know that is what I was thinking. My heart is full this morning, and it pains me to think some people don't have a ton of confidence. So many people I think are worthy of all my praise. :) I tell you one thing, I love that Charisa blogs almost every day. I mean her life is a heck-u-va lot busier than mine, and she always gives us a little something. She does it with humor, and style, and confidence, and well, ya know I think she is about as great as they come. :)

I had a lot on my mind this morning before I got up. Some of it of the nutty variety, but I don't really have a real train of thought, so I am just going to give out xoxoxoxoxo's if ya don't mind. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I know I know it is 3:00 am and I am up doing this thing. :) Nuts!!!

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Christie cuz she struggles with confidence in all kinds of areas. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Through our weakness we find strength. :) xoxoxo

Extras for Gina, cuz there is no one I know who wants to be loved more than her. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz I don't know her story, but I know there is sadness in it, and I love her. :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for all the xxxxxxxxxxx people, because they are so open and honest, and they are the best, and I love them all. :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'd give extras to Olga, but she always gets 'em it seems. Ehhhhh, what the heck. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I truly only do what is in my heart, and my heart is happy, and full like I said. I know people are struggling with health issues, and wish I could be there more for them, but I do what I can with what is in my heart. So just stay strong, and this is something I guess you will have to face. I know it is scary, and I don't know your fear. I know you feel alone, and I don't know your sadness. All I can say Naomi is you are a strong girl, and even though you feel weak, you are strong enough to deal with all you need to deal with. Even if you don't feel like it. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Important Public Service Announcement!!

2011-10-28T03:44:00.000-04:00

It is 3:30 in the morning, and I am going back to bed. Just want to say hi though, and tell ya you all are great. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Wanna know something about me?? Usually when I take a staycation I get lethargic, and get in a bad mood. I think I have done pretty good on this one. I am in a good mood. I got a little bit done, and I am still looking forward to the weekend, and not dreading Monday. Oh, and good news. Monday is just around the corner. :) yayyy. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

Extras for Gina and Olga, and I will tell you why. We went to lunch, and the waitress served Lisa and I before. The waitress is cute kinda how you would picture Olga being cute. Contrary to popular belief, I barely even know what Olga looks like. All personality driven. :) Anyhoo the waitress had some of the same internal health issues Gina was suffering with last year, and she looked miserable. It made me think of Gina's struggles last year, and how she powered through, even though it couldn't have been easy. Anyway that is what I thought of. :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D

The Anatomy Of A Day!!

2011-10-27T05:09:00.000-04:00

Well, I had my day all planned out. For the record I didn't run. I fell back asleep. I did some general cleaning around the house, and that was good enough. I prepped the dinner for the crock pot. Which turned out great btw. I then decided to do my haircut, and bloody mary thing. Something was off though. The great bloody marys at Phil's didn't taste all that great. Instead of 4 I went with 2. I was like blah. So I went home, and made a drink, and listened to music for a bit, and was like blah. Then I start getting the lows. No one reads this stupid blog. I hate FB, and I hate Twitter. I turn off the music, and just sit there for a bit. Not drinking, and not doing a damn thing.

Then little by little things start getting better. Starting with just a silly little Twitter update by Olga. Yup you got it. Why our paths crossed is nothing short of destiny. Those who read this blog know she is an important person to me, and it must be the quid pro quo thing. She trusts me through all the zany things I may do, and through the highs and lows. Remember a long time ago when I said stupid updates are important, because life really is just absurd. That is the true version. The absurdity of it all. I think it can be like Solomon in Ecclesiastes where it seems pointless. Type of a FML type of thing, or it can be fun, if we just open up and show our crazyness. Being closed is the path mostly traveled. Take the path less traveled, and that will make all the difference, in the words of Robert Frost. A little thread with Kim Sheridan, Faith, and Gina. More important people in my life. :)

You know when I get a little wacky the first person to step in is Doreen. That my friends is the anatomy of a day. People are important. It is important to step in when people are low, and it is a great ability if you can just laugh at the general wackiness of life. Don't take everything serious, because you are not going to get out alive, and that you can trust.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Always give out a little blogger love, because a lot of the times we all think what we do here is boring and stupid.

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Blogging Is Hard On Vacation I Think

2011-10-26T04:58:00.000-04:00

You want to know why? I think, because I don't see a shit ton of people. I don't interact with a shit ton with people, and I think I get ideas throughout the day of things to write about. I am not really sure if that is the case, but sometimes I think I look, and see all kinds of things throughout the day, and maybe it gives me ideas of stupid shit to write on this thing. Not saying for sure for sure, but that is what I am thinking now.

Not to mention what kinds of exciting things can happen at home?? I will tell you this. Our gas valve on our furnace went out, and we got it fixed. So now I have new batteries in the thermostat, a new gas valve, a new fuse, a new thermocouple, and a cleaned, and serviced furnace. The guy said everything looks good too, so a clean bill of health, and no foreseeable problems. Gotta like that piece of mind going into the cold months.

Want to know what I feel like doing today?? Well besides a bit around the house, and a quick little 3 mile run. I want a lunch with bloody marys. Don't ask me why, but it seems like a good idea to me. What are Wednesdays for??   :)

You know something I thought about just now. Everything we do, if taken at face value can mean something. In what ways can you be misunderstood??

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I need a fricken haircut!!!   :)

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A Good Start

2011-10-25T04:41:00.000-04:00

Well first off I guess I should say when I am on a vacation, I can get super duper oooper scooper lazy. For me that does not work. An inertia takes over, and I feel like I do nothing. I need to have some type of work to do most days, or I feel like a blob. I am not one of those people who can sit at the beach for days on end, and that is it. Others can do that, I am just not one of them. I feel better when I do stuff.

So I ended up getting a pretty fair amount of stuff done yesterday. I feel better about myself when I do that. I won't bore you with the details, but let's just say I feel pretty good. :)

I thought of some bat shit crazy stuff this morning. Real stuff that happened to me that makes me the way I am. Do you wonder what kool-aid I drank that makes me this way?? Do you know what steps on my journey I took that makes me this way?? You know what?? You are taking these steps. You are being led. You'll try to hang onto some types of things for security, but don't worry. You are being led, and how you feel inside can be changed on a dime. Due to nothing you have done on your own.

Don't worry. I know the journey is hard, and why it has to be that way I am not sure. Maybe, because it takes a lot of stuff to really overcome the false vision the world teaches us. You can trust me though. The Kool-Aid is pretty good, the steps are just not all that easy.

Like I said before, I wish I could make things easier for you, but trust in the author of your story. You are in pretty good hands. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. That I p.s. every day is always always mentioning you, I just don't always have little secret p.s. messages. :)   xoxo

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No Idea What This Will Be About.

2011-10-24T05:32:00.000-04:00

Well I will start off with my workout I guess. I just did a little 3 miler with Hope. Those Sunday 3 milers have been slow. Like 10:00 pace. Why, I don't know. It is kinda a pain running with him. He likes squirrels. :) I always have to pull him back. That was about it. I did a little grocery shopping for meals the next 4 days, some laundry, some more work on my closet room. :) Then I watched football, and listened to music, and drank some drinks. I had a fun afternoon. I just cooked ribs in the slow cooker. I have two other slow cooker meals for the next couple of days too. :) I love it.

I have a lot of stuff to do around the house, so I hope my energy for housework remains high. I am usually a bit different than my wife. I am usually pooping out around noon, and have to get a 2nd wind. Lisa is usually getting her 1st wind around noon. :)   Don't worry, I generally pass a lot of wind throughout the day. :)   LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I kinda see where this is heading. A post like yesterday brings about a true vision. A true picture.

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo MWAH!!!!   :)