Monday, October 31, 2016

I Spose.

Today I am going into work a couple hours early, cuz I have a 10:00 AM appointment. I really wasn't going to blog, cuz I didn't plan on waking up with enough time to, but I am up.

It is one of those mornings too where I am not feeling the coffee. Yesterday was okay, except I felt inexplicably tired after work. I was cold too. Expectations probably. I thought it was supposed to be warm, but it was cold when I got home. Warmed up later, but my butt was on the couch watching football.

Kinda a little picture of our silly little day to day we do huh??  Our lives are filled with time. What we do with it is anyone's guess. How much importance we put into it is anyone's too.

I put pretty much no importance into my day to day. Work, eat, sleep. I am not out making this World any better, cuz we all are just filling time.

There are two parts to me I guess. One part is just this person living a pretty simple life. It doesn't really mean anything. It is just my gift for my labors kinda. Long ago when there was no hope I received a blessing as I was really just walking to my death and condemnation. I was looking to be saved.

I had promises,  but they were far from me. My heart was controlled by another and that was just judging. I knew where I stood,  cuz I was forced to accept it pretty much every second I was awake.

Things never got that great internally for me until my energy returned. I knew I had more to do, but it wasn't now. There was nothing I could do to bring my labor closer. I was free to do as I choose. Live a life sorta. I wanted perfection,  cuz I wanted security, but that would have to wait. I was never really in any fear during the dead years though. Just waiting.

Things started up again, and I knew.  There was fear during this time, cuz the judges were back. Fear was back, and here every day. I blogged almost every day. I always woke up strong, but during the day the condemnations were pretty high.

Some may remember I deleted a whole blog. It was hard for me to get up after that. I was kinda broken again. I did the Journey. Deleted that too,  cuz up to the judges I went. This time I wasn't broken, cuz I overcame *with help*  On my own I survive none of this.

A lot of hidden stuff you cannot see, and you cannot know. There is hidden stuff inside you that should make you wonder.

My day to day is of little significance. I've done a lot of hidden stuff invisible to all. You will eventually have to go on your own Journey, but you will have to be changed. A thing you have no power to do.

The labor you will do is outside your normal day to day. A person's life really is placing incorrect value on all things.

Anyways I wasn't planning on blogging,  but I did. I think this is the last day it will automatically post in other areas.   Fun fun.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  as you can imagine I know a lot of Cubs fans. I trolled a bit on Friday, but I don't really care who wins. It doesn't mean anything.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

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Sunday, October 30, 2016

Condensed Milk, But For Giraffes.

I think I just thought of the next big thing. Surely I'll make a Katrillion Dollars from this.

Anyway How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. Yesterday I had a day. I went for a 40 minute run yesterday after work. Just nice and easy. I kept it kinda short cuz I had Hope,  and I didn't bring water. It was warm for this time of year too. I had to poop after my 40 minutes so it worked good.

Other than that not much. I made a dinner, and went to bed early. I slept pretty good too so that's good.

My life doesn't change too much. The weather and the seasons change more than me. There was a lot of Sportsing going on yesterday. Amazing how much time that takes up huh??  It still doesn't mean anything. It is just stuff people do.

We need to fill our time with something. A little secret of life. You can close yourself off from the World, live life solo,  keep your days real simple, and you still cannot make yourself perfect. I think that is what got me in the end.

I found myself all alone in the World. I made my days as simple as can be. Back in my younger years I would read the Bible,  so I did that. I was given good eyes into myself. I tried to be the best a person can be, and it really wasn't all that great.

I was then given a view of my end, and became scared. I wanted to be good,  but it was out of my power.

So that really is where stuff started happening. Your story as of now is not too much different. You find yourself in this World,  and perfection is out of reach. Everywhere you look it basically says that is okay. You ran into me though, and I am telling you right now that does matter.

I know why you aren't perfect,  because I learned all about me in the wilderness. You are a child of this World trapped by powers you don't know.

My time in the wilderness was pretty crazy. Mostly cuz I was living in the Spiritual World.

I don't know everything as to the why,  but I did learn I am nothing. Not worth much of anything. I just grabbed the truth which is I am not much. I believed every bad thing cuz I was afraid of a bad end. The truth I wasn't afraid of.

Having a taste of Hell already that was the one thing I didn't want. I was brought to a comic book version of Hell kinda. It was in my soul. It is what clothed me when I was full for that small while. The real one is what will fully clothe me. I will then be the best a person can be.

Your life right now is just this thing you are doing. The activities you do is just stuff you fill your time with.

What are the important things you need to do??  I don't know your story. I know life here = zero points. You don't want to end in zero points. The labor you must do I am not sure,  but it is more than just your day to day you do now.

So, I guess we will see. I am sorry you were born in this World. In the wilderness it would have been better if you weren't,  but there is a way out. A better way for your life, but you have to be willing get to take the steps.

You won't get any better without it. That matters too.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  not sure what I'll do today after work. I may run or walk, and then we'll see.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

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Aloha.  :)

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Saturday, October 29, 2016

Staying Up Late.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I stayed up late last night to watch the Baseball game. Why, I don't know. I should have gone to bed early. Now I have to run after work. That isn't bad, cuz it will be a nice day. Just inconvenient. Well, I don't know. It really should be nice so I guess it's okay.

I have a simple day planned. Work, run, cook dinner, and sleep. Simple pimple. I'll watch College Football,  but I'll probably miss the Michigan/State game. State sucks this year, but it is a rivalry game so it may be a good one.

Other than that not much on my mind. I've slept in a lot this week. Actually it seems like it was a pretty good week.

It kinda is nice to wake up without a care in the World. I mostly think what to do for dinner.

It is one of those things you cannot comprehend. I don't really know what your heart yearns for. I think hearts typically seek out meaning. What does this all mean??  Life doesn't really mean anything. It is just something you are born into.

It also is your job to try to find the meaning. You are born trapped into a World you had no say in. Born in a Country you didn't pick. It is your job to figure all this stuff out. The World is pretty strong too. It has a hold on you since day 1. Parents, Society,  etc...  Obligations pile up one after another.

You are born as an imperfect vessel. Nothing in your power to make you perfect either. A person is born pretty screwed in this place.

That is the truth, but you have been taught everything but. You also teach anything but.

In the end we all are false teachers. It is what we are. It takes a lot to overcome life. It is something not in our ability. I've come a long way to be who I am today. My job isn't totally over,  but yours has to begin.

That will happen eventually. I don't know how really,  cuz I cannot do anything. We will just see how it plays out.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s of think I'll make pancakes for breakfast.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

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Aloha.  :)

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Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Oh Cripes.

Okay, I am totally thinking of blowing this off, cuz I have less on my mind than normal. Usually I have nothing on my mind, and today there is less.  :)

Yesterday was a day like many other before it. In my life I guess I can say the grass is nowhere greener than where I am, and what I do. What we all yearn for in life is to feel content, and I guess I do.

How does one reach this place??  Let me tell you. My story to date is nowhere near yours. When the time came to make decisions of life you and I took different paths.

You knew what you were doing. You knew your 5 and 10 year plans, and you followed them. I am sure it doesn't look as you intended. There is no happily ever after in this World. No one taught you that though.

My route I didn't know. I had no blueprint. Life broke me kinda. Death, and loss, and my shortcomings. A life worth living I couldn't see. All paths looked kinda dirty really.

So I did what I did. It is pretty well documented. My path is totally hidden from your eyes, except what I can explain.

I've done all that. As I stand now there is no baggage. All the BS one accumulates in life I've gone through and dealt with. My turn coincided with me doing this,  because that needs to be done. It really is what the thief did huh??  A look back at life and he saw what everyone else will see if they do the same.

He and you will see if there are Saints, it isn't us. We didn't lead that life. Also it is out of our power to.

People on their own very little is possible. With help there is no limit,  but ya gotta do the tough miles. The tough miles will be forever hidden without the turn. There is,a bridge that needs to be gapped,  and you cannot do it. I can't show you what I know, cuz my path was solo. It was hidden from everyone's eyes too but mine.

It is written "it is with great difficulty the righteous are saved, how much more the sinner."

Now we know there are no righteous,  cuz we all fall short. There are the faithful, and that is me. that is reckoned as righteous as it is written.

I am faithful, cuz when spoken to I believed. I didn't harden my heart when tough things were said. I was obedient too. I now know my heart was made strong to be able to do this.

In a World filled with people you'll find many/all want to portray themselves as Saints. Compared to others we stand okay. You will need to be the thief. Compare you to how you think you should stand up.

The message has been lost for centuries. the message is about forgiveness. Forgiveness is not given to those not sorry. Sorry doesn't come for those not willing to look at the truth.

Fear does play a big part,  cuz when you see the truth of it all it is scary.

Much is hidden from your eyes, and I cannot help you.

If at any time you read some of my doozy updates and hardened your heart, well then, you are like all others before you. The message was never an easy one. I know in my past I had an inkling to harden my heart when spoken to. I didn't though. I listened,  and was obedient.  The message I give is not mine. This labor I do is not what I set out to do. It is the job I was given. Not exactly what I asked for,  but I am a vessel used for a purpose. it's a pretty crazy concoction too.

It is why I am where I am today. Delivering a message that falls on deaf ears like it always has been.

Anyhooo. I guess that is it.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I think I am gonna run after work today. a thinking of like a 45 minute run.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

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Tuesday, October 25, 2016

All Things Must End.

So probably as long as I've been doing this I have been using Twitterfeed to post my updates.  It just automatically does it. Sometimes it would go periods without working,  but now they are closing the whole thing down after this week. 

What does that mean??  it means most of my posts will probably be invisible. 

Anyway I didn't run yesterday. Surprising to me is my legs were still sore from Saturday. I have to build up my legs again for this running thing. who knew??  It isn't  like I haven't been running at all. after work I walked Hope, and we'll go out for a run in a bit.

Other than that the most challenging thing on our plate yesterday was what to make for dinner. We opted for sloppy Joes. They were good.

See, my life is dumb. Ain't no great things going on here. That is fine with me, cuz I don't really seek out any great thing in life.

It is just this thing we do for a while. We will eventually die. Up to that point you'll realize most of the things we've done up to that point has been pretty foolish.

Life we think is this grand thing. Amazing things we will do, but there is nothing amazing about this World. Us either, but we grow up with bad eyes, and bad hearts. We see life wrong.

Who knew this really is such a hard thing??  I really was in this thing for myself. My heart was wrong a lot of the time. I was in the wilderness for myself. My victory came not from me. my heart was made strong enough to deny myself for others. the first time it broke me. The 2nd time was no joke either.

In my story I do it 3 times. You'll remember after 2 I was happy, because I no longer am in the equation really. My work is done.  The rest will be done for me.

For some reason I did this blog. For many years. Some have stopped by, but they didn't really like the message, and/or me.

On they went with their lives. Where did that lead??

Who knows. Today, I'll have another day.  A dinner will be involved. Another day in the life.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I gotta finish my coffee,  and take Hope.

love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D       :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

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Sunday, October 23, 2016

Kinda In A Rush.

I thought of blowing this off today,  but I guess I can rush one up. Not a ton on my mind, or nothing at all pretty much, but what new? 

Yesterday went pretty good. My legs got pretty tired on my hour long run. That surprised me, cuz it wasn't too many years ago I don't think I ever ran less than an hour. I worked after the run for about 4-1/2 hours. I am glad too. I stayed on my feet walking. that is what I plan on doing more of too. More walking. It used to be after my long runs I'd lay around like a zombie all day. work will cure me of that,  and on off days I will walk. I remember Emil Zapotek used to do that. He is the only guy to win gold in the 5K, 10K, and Marathon at the same Olympics so.

For me it is all about staying healthy. I don't have any special formula. you kinda have to be lucky at that.  Also a bit smart. So far I am neither of those.  :)

It feels good though. the switch got turned on. I am constantly thinking of what I'll be doing next. Not just take Hope for a little run.

Not much going on besides that. I work 8 hours today. I'll come home and do something. Not sure what. I'll then eat dinner. Then it will be Monday. Pretty boring huh??

That is fine with me. Life is all how you feel on the inside, and I feel pretty good. In that regard I am lucky. You??   We don't even know you.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. A lot of sportsing yesterday.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

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Saturday, October 22, 2016

One Thing I Thought Of.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am fine. We met up with some people from Lisa's work last night. We met at a bar in South Haven, and went to a haunted house. It was pretty fun. The haunted house was not scary, but it was fun to get out. I don't really do that a lot, so it was nice.

Today after this I plan on going for an hour run. I'll probably do the same on Monday. Ideally for me I'd like Saturday to approach 20 miles further down the line,  and Monday to approach 13. No reason, but I feel the halfway point of a Marathon should feel like you just went out for a casual jog. if you feel like you ran a half marathon at 13.1, the next 13.1 will be challenging. My thinking is to have many many runs approaching the 13 mile marker.

Anyway, when I woke up this morning I thought how easy it would be to quit this thing entirely. You could just stop doing it, and call it a day. I think many many people did that.

I know in this thing we've kinda hit a dead end. life in the wilderness is a dead end. In life people kinda seek out what makes them special. What is unique to us that makes me special. The World will give you all kindsa answers. There are many things one can do under the sun. The secret of the wilderness though is there is nothing special about you. you are not some remarkable creature singled out for greatness this World has never seen. 

You are just a person living a life. many have done it, and many are doing it. Your head is filled with all types of propaganda,  because that is what the World is filled with. The truth is found nowhere near here. The World  is just filled with many thoughts and ideas by people no better than you. There are no great people in the past.

You have heroes cuz you are not strong enough to stand on your own. Trust me, I lived life in the wilderness. I know the truth of all things pertaining to life. It doesn't matter. We do not matter. The things you strive for is just wind. Your heart isn't right so you cannot comprehend it.

In the wilderness there is no value to our life and our deeds. The wilderness sucks,  but it teaches us a lot. it teaches us a life worth living is something outside our control. The value we really want in ourselves comes from elsewhere.

The wilderness walks hand in hand with the truth. I see that now. I didn't see it back then.  Without going the right way life is just filled with anger. it is a life filled with blame.

So there is you, and there is me. A million miles are between us, cuz I've already done the hard miles. Most are still out for their first walk-run training day. that can start anytime,  but you gotta get off the couch of life. the first step is a hard one, cuz we all are born wrong,  but we believe we are right. Our foundation is built on a lie.

It took a lot to get where I am now. I cannot help you bridge the gap either.  It is your story,  and the future is all up in your hands. It isn't in family,  kids, babies, or anyone else's hands. The truth is all of this would have been easier solo,  as it is written,  but nothing is impossible. There is no Web too great. Your biggest obstacle is probably your own perceived greatness.

That is pretty funny.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Today should be a pretty fun day.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.    :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D       :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)


Friday, October 21, 2016

It's Been A While.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing good. I haven't done this thing in a while, and it felt pretty good. No one has any opportunity to stick their nose in my business.

Really I have no business. There isn't any great thing I am doing. I re-read a post that popped up on my History thing on FB. It was my 1101st post. I think I am at 1600 or 1700 and something now. It was pretty much the same shit I've written for a while.

I see life quite a bit different now than I used to. I settle in for the long haul though. People are going on with their lives. Day after day. Important plans are being made.  5 and 10 year plans are being mapped out.

Anyway I came up with a plan. I realized I am healthy. I am busy working every day, but I had a thought why not train for something. I scouted out my books, and found a Marathon training plan. it is like a 29 week plan. 3 weeks are after the race.

I don't have a Marathon in mind yet, but I figured I might as well see if I can stay healthy. I'll try and be smart. take days off. try not doing 2 a days like I did yesterday.  :)

it's good for me to have a plan. it's good for me to have a map for this type of thing.

it also is good I know it still doesn't mean shit. in things pertaining to life and death there are no points for this stuff. that is where you and I differ. I didn't put all my coins in the pot for a life of racing. it won't keep you alive forever,  and it doesn't make you perfect.

You still gotta deal with you.  you ain't a Saint. it isn't a bad thing to seek out the reasons  why.  It is good also if you know you aren't a Saint. Some people I question if they even know that about themselves.

But hey, this is just a blog. I am just a person. I let you in. Unfortunately for you.  :)

The shit I tell you is hard. Life is hard. We like to have all fun days, but life is a serious thing. it has a pretty serious ending.

I have a Marathon to train for. it doesn't start til next week,  but I already am going to go for a run before my long run Saturday, instead of taking a day off. I am dumb like that.

I am out. Til next time. 

Laterzzzzzz.

xxoo.  :)

Thursday, October 6, 2016

I Am Up. I Don't Really Hate This Thing Today.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am okay. I got a good night sleep. I woke up pretty early,  and wasn't sure how that would work. I was kinda up, but I could sleep more too I thought. I did sleep more, and slept good too. Even woke myself up when I was about to go into a bad dream.

Wanna know how I did it??  I thought this isn't real, so I woke myself up. Weird huh?? 

Anyway I thought of many things. I looked inside myself, and it was like looking into a vast wasteland that went on forever. Inside me is open,  and I could see a long way. Inside me was a sword too, and I guess the sword helps me see this vast area is just a wasteland. The sword is the sword of truth so it will see through things.

It is the wilderness. The wilderness I endured many years back. Only thing now is I don't care. What people really are is ants. We all live in our little colonies doing our labors. We just don't realize the importance of what we do in our labors is not more important than the ants.

Our brains are better though. We are humans, so in this vast wasteland we decorated. We made prizes,  and buildings. We started having parades. We packaged items to make them look nice. Now some people's labor now is to find better ways to package stuff.

The human is bound to get angry. Some people kill others about it, so rules were made. People outsmart the rules, so now there are people whose labor is to write out the fine print in everything.

There are costumes,  and uniforms. There are any number of things. All this does is hide the true nature of the vast wasteland we live in. The sword is used to judge,  but for me it just looks at the truth of this life.

Now that is a tough thing to accept. People have all lived lives that aren't perfect. They have been hurt, and they hurt people. The sword suggests two things. One being yep you've been hurt. Others too. It doesn't give you a free ticket anywhere. A look at the History of the World is a History of suffering. People have made people suffer forever. Most by believing their cause was right. Their cause was really just an ant's labor in a colony. Their true worth was way over exaggerated.

That too is the life we are born in. We were born to over exaggerate our true importance.

One day we all die, and our years in the end don't matter much. If you added to the pageantry of life, well that doesn't matter either.

For a life to matter you have to let the World beat the crap out of you. You have to become it's enemy. That is my destination. To go where few have gone. To come on the other side an enemy of this World.

The World is a trap really. It doesn't want people to know the truth.

I am not worth much right now, but I have already gained points in this vast wasteland. A solo journey. I have a sword,  but without understanding it isn't much good. It does know the wilderness when it sees it. My sword will have to become perfect by going where the fire is hot.

That is when I become the best a person can be.

Currently the ants continue to be busy doing their ant labor. What happens if something comes. Raises a rock and you see your colony is not the only thing around.

Ants are blind to the true nature of their existence. Much like us. Only problem is it is your job to learn the true nature of your existence. The World wants you to add to life's pageantry though. It takes pretty good vision to see the true nature of your existence. Most people have to be nearing their death to get close. Kinda like the thief. We all are the thief too. Some look at the truth and act like the thief. Some fall short of the truth and figure they are better than Hitler, and we do pretty good ant labor in our colony.

The true nature of our existence ain't no joke.

Pretty crazy huh??  Are you strong enough to be the thief, or do you fall short??  All the World teaches falls short. I lived the thief's life. I've been where he was. I accepted my ending. I gotta do it once more too. I have to accept the ending I deserve.

That Summer way back when, after the hospital I still wasn't free. I had to get to the point where victory was. If I am destined for Hell let me accept it as that which I deserve. That is how I will enter. How I exit is another's story, and that was done centuries ago.

So yeah I currently am happy,  cuz I know my story. I currently know a lot too,  cuz while many were out making their life. Mine was being made for me. I endured the wilderness, and I've learned a lot along the way.

Anyhoooo

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. you know the story. Finish coffee,  and take Hope.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo. :)

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Looking At The Dates.

Geesh, I just opened this thing and looked at my published dates. I haven't been doing this too much. I tried on Saturday. It was dumb, and I deleted it. The past week or whatever I would wake up, and know it isn't a blog day.

Today doesn't really feel like a blog day either, but I am up before my alarm. Actually I was already awake 2 hours before my early alarm would go off. That is still a half hour away.

Nothing new and exciting has been going on. Work, eat, sleep basically. I like working Sunday. I feel Sunday can be a lazy day for me, but by the time I get home, I have 8 hours of work in.

I feel my freedom lets me do whatever makes my heart happy. It isn't much. Just living out my days really.

Such a great big World. Seems like our life should mean something right?  Really we all are living out our days. There is an end to this. A day when you breathe no more.

Your life was set up for imperfection. Kids aren't perfect,  parents aren't perfect. You don't grow up one day, and all of a sudden you are perfect.

People probably throw a blind eye to their past. I once a long time ago saw my past. Just caught a glimpse of the shitty things I did as a kid.

I dealt with all the BS one accumulates in life. When it came time for decisions I wanted something better for my life. I wanted a better me.

Oh I tried. It takes a lot to become the best a person can be.

In my case I went out in the wilderness. Already having been through the eye of the needle it made it way worse.

I saw life for what it is. Life is fake as Hell. The World is one big lie. It hides the true nature of life in the wilderness.

To think what was my worst Summer, it was really pretty important for me.

My story is this thing that is going to happen. Currently the day to day I live is of little significance. I have one more important thing to do, but that is scheduled for a later date. When I am not sure,  but I'll probably know when the time draws near.

If you recall I thought it was near years ago. That was not the case, but we added many more people since then. So that's good.

Let's face it too. My life is pretty easy.

I would like to get to your story,  but that is far away. The World is busy, and your story is not near you.

Life has to pull for you to get better vision. That is not my job,  cuz really I can do very little. As we continue to run in place I really have little purpose at all.

Running in place does nothing.  So we play a waiting game. A game that will maybe find me blogging less. Not really sure. It all depends on what I am thinking when I wake up.

Anyhoooo

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