Monday, February 29, 2016

Bye Weekend...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I feel pretty well rested. I don't really have anything to blog about, but I can let you know what I am thinking I guess. At least what I was thinking about before I got up.

I've noticed a little change in me. Kinda like I lose a bit of myself day over day year over year. It is kinda a crazy thing too, cuz I am poor in spirit there shouldn't be much of me to give, but I can tell I am anyway.

If you remember way back when I was full in spirit, and that is a very secure feeling. It kinda is what I wanted all along, but I learned security comes from elsewhere.

When I give of myself via this blog I presume it must take a bit of me, and gives it to you. That is kinda a dilemma too. You read this so you get this. You have been lured into this, and you cannot unread what I've said. You cannot unknow what I've taught.

I never really had a plan for this thing. I know when this thing started I was on good ground. I knew where I stood, and I knew my place.

What does it mean for you??  It means I am a fisherman, and you've caught the lure. I spose this was my job all along. I don't have a plan. I just do what is in my heart.

I live in the open, and I live in the light. It is something you cannot fathom, cuz you cannot walk in my shoes, and I can walk in yours kinda once being like you.

I know when my final thing comes I will lose the light. That is my security too btw. The only way I will be able to do what I have to is my help. The current version of me has to die, and be made into something better.

I am not the only one who has done this, but it has been centuries since it's been last done.

I know of things you cannot see. I've lived in the terror of the truth of life. I've looked at the possibility of a worse case scenario ending for me.

I've gone up to the judges, and beat them completely cuz of my help. They are too powerful for us. Too crafty with the sword.

Anyway I guess what I think is I give a little of me day over day, and year over year, and then eventually I'll run out of me to give, and I guess I'll do my final thing. That final thing is going to suck pretty bad too. I think some of you will share in my suffering too. I thought that before, but really I totally don't know what those days will look like. I just know the end/new beginning.

We'll see about the rest.

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!      :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I like Monday when Lisa has off. I typically just come home and chill.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Hey We Remembered

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. I don't think this was my best week ever. Kinda like I had a rain cloud over my head all week. Not really sure why. I feel like yesterday and today are a bit better though.

Nothing really significant happened yesterday. The sidewalks were all clear so I was able to bike to work and back. It was pretty strange too, cuz the lawns weren't clear. The sidewalk plows never go all the way to the sidewalk, so there should have been snow on them, like the ground and the trees. Only thing I could think of is the cement retains heat better than the ground and trees. The week before we hit 50 a couple times. Anyway I never knew that.

I came home, and did nothing. I actually fell asleep for a bit. I woke up and did some more nothing. :)

Today is like our 16th anniversary, and we both actually remembered it. That probably puts us close to 50% for remembering this not so important date. It really is just another date, and we pretty much don't celebrate dates too much. To celebrate Lisa is going to a wedding, and I think I'll make myself Chicago Style Hot Dogs for dinner. I have to work for 4-5 hours today, and that is about it. I'll take the Hopester in a bit.

So it is shaping up to be another day in the life. It will be kinda boring I assume, but that is how life rolls. The days keep coming, and the days keep going. March is just around the corner. Who knows, maybe February will always suck the fun out of life. Even if the weather is mild.

Lisa's friend will be moving out in a couple weeks. We took her in during a rough patch. I can't say it will be smooth sailing for her, but it is a new beginning. I don't know what people take away from living with us. Maybe our lives are pretty easy. We work eat and sleep. Lisa has some hobbies, and I stay active.  Hoping March helps me find my give a fuck. It would be nice.

Spring is on the way.  February is the end of death, and Spring is the beginning of life.

We are doing okay I think.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

HopeEveryone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Gonna check the 10 day. I think temps should be pretty mild.

Love You All    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Friday, February 26, 2016

Coffee And A Blog...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I think I feel better than I have all week. We were just sitting around talking about nothing in particular, and the subject of coffee came up. I realized I am back to maybe one cup of week again, if that. I woke up this morning, and thought today would be a good day for coffee. I don't remember the last time I had a cup. Definitely not this week. So there you have it. A cup of coffee, and I'll whip something up on this blog.

Yesterday was a pretty boring day outside of work. When I left work, the wind blew right threw me, so I didn't run. :)   I sat and pretty much did nothing. We ordered pizza for dinner, cuz I didn't feel like cooking anything. Didn't really have a taste for anything.

That was pretty much the extent of my day. Life is very much like that. I look around, and people are in competition with other people. Better at X,Y, and Z than other people = points in some fashion. You add more letters to your X,Y, and Z than you get even more points.

People don't really get points for being better than Hitler, cuz what no one knows about you is all the stupid Bullshit you hide inside. It is why I don't like pictures very much. Pictures only show the surface, and the words for those who are brave can show the Bullshit most/all want to hide.

There are certain things that will happen in life. 6' under is something we will not escape. At this point no one gives a fuck if you were good at cribbage, or what your best 5K time was or how many marathons you've run. Laying in your coffin you won't give one single fuck either.

If you view life with your vision on the end what is significant??  The answers will probably surprise you, cuz most of the answers to life are hidden. People toil and toil so they can come home, and watch a couple shows on tv. The weekend rolls around, and who knows what stupid shit the people have planned.

You'll find we all want to be happy and have fun. Common in everyone. What brings happy??  We've read the stories of happily ever after, but those were just stories. If you look at my life it is just an endless string of seemingly boring days.

I do have a few things on my side. When life hit at a pretty significant juncture in my life I listened. I found a crazy secret that none other have for the last several centuries.

Having no manual and no guidelines I went down a path with no vision. I sought for a purpose  in this crazy World. I was broken during this time, cuz I remember the feeling of feeling like a significant person after graduation, and later feeling like nothing. It really was the first time I guess I realized my trillion dollar coin was not really worth a trillion dollars. I don't know how many times I've learned that, but it is pretty ingrained in me. I do know that in my path I did turn one coin into 5+5. Through no power of mine. I surely am not the author of my route, and I had no clue what I was doing. I had an idea of how my story would kinda look, but I surely thought my brother Jim was part of it. You'll find one coin out of 10 given is 10%, and that is what is asked.

The words you read in the book are Spiritual, and that story plays out. Unseen to you is how I am on the inside. It is how I know what a coin is, and the sword, and things like that. Without understanding the sword is of little to no use so I don't use it.

There will be time enough for that when I become the best a person can be.

Currently we are just waiting for you people to be broken. Where you realize your trillion dollar coin is perhaps a tad over valued by like a trillion or so.  :)

It's a long process. Who knew?

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I don't even remember how to play cribbage. Don't even know why I thought of that.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.   :)

Thursday, February 25, 2016

The Cats Have a Their Favorite Places...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing good. I stayed up late again last night, but not horrible. Lisa has been running errands after work, and has been getting home late. She does like me to hang out a bit when she gets home. Not a big fan if I am just a pos sleeping at 6:00 PM. I am pretty cool staying up late, I just like my early morning routine too. I haven't been running too much before work, but I have that option. Honestly this February isn't going too good at all. From injury to bad habits, I am just not doing that great as far as all that goes. If only I had some give a fuck in me. I am healthy now, and can probably run pretty good, but the give a fuck left me. :)  never thought I'd have a problem with that. Where does that go??

Is it normal??  For a while this year I'd go back and read past blog entries of same day different year stuff, and it seems I was always injured. Oh well.

Currently I do not go back and read my shit anymore. It takes work, and I don't give a crap about that anymore. Til this day I do reread the stuff I wrote in the morning to try and get some understanding. What do people think??

Am I an asshole??  Or what??

We did get a pretty good amount of snow yesterday. I was able to bike home before we got a ton though, so I lucked out. It was one of those rare occasions too where the wind was favorable on the way home.

I didn't do much. I chilled for a bit. Did dishes, took a shower, and made chili. Hung out a bit later than planned, but did wake up before my early alarm. That is one thing I truly do like. Getting up now, and feel rested. I don't want to hear the early alarm, and want more sleep. I want to hear it and pop out of bed.

I am not going to run this morning, but talking about my pos'ness has me wanting to go when I get home. It should be fun.

Other than that the cats sleep in their designated spots. When it warms up that spot will be outside somewhere, but now it is inside.

Life goes on. I appreciate one of my bosses publicly likes my blog. He kinda is an important person. He has his name on a building, and they are going to open up another building with their name on it. I don't particularly think my stuff is always politically correct, but Sam is always kinda a wild card. Pretty cool.

Anyway. Just another day, and another blog entry.

Good chance I'll have one tomorrow.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I never really listened to Pearl Jam much on my own, but my Pandora stations play a lot of them. Eddie Vedder is a pretty good front man I'd say.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH. :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Acting Like An Asshole This Week.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am fine. I've been staying up later than normal this week, and that has me kinda out of whack. I thought about getting up yesterday to do this thing, and was like fuck that.  I am staying in bed. I stayed up late as Hell. Has maybe a 1/2 drink more than I should have, cuz I was about as hungover as I get. I didn't feel 100%. Maybe it was just not enough sleep, or both together.

Anyway just being a complete asshole. Last night I stayed up a bit later than normal too. :)

Other than that everything is basically the same. This stupid life keeps clicking off days. Heck even blogging land has been pretty busy, at least for blog land these days. That pretty much means more than one person updates, and just like me they pretty much have not much to say. The lives of us all are pretty insignificant. I know it, just not sure if the others do.  :)

I got into a discussion the other day. It was about sex and making love. I pretty much said, and believe there is no such thing as making love. It's fucking sex. Making love is just some Bullshit people made up long ago. Fuck everyone feels guilty at some point about sex.

Isn't it taboo??  We are "supposed" to be and act a certain way, but guys sure as Fuck when they are young are masturbating a fuck ton every week. Luckily that wives tale of going blind isn't true, cuz we'd all be fucking blind. We feel guilty about that shit too.

That's the gross thing about men. We've probably undressed a lot of unknowing females in our head. :).

Any hoo make love????   Puhleeeze.

What else??  I guess you know. Today will be work, come home. Fuck around for a couple hours, eat, and then sleep.

There will be no conquering the World in my future here. I don't foresee any great deeds on my part. I will not try to change your mind about politics, cuz I don't give a fuck. I probably won't do much of anything. Just keep this string of days beginning and days ending.

At some point some shit will happen. How, where, and all that I don't know. You need me to write this shit down for some reason, but you still are on a different side of life. I know the true insignificance of us all, and I think we were born thinking we have a trillion dollar coin.

Just kinda how the World operates. People dress in suits, and stuff. Gives people a distinguished look I guess, guys still continue to undress women in their head, or surf porn.

I don't know what the fuck women do. I don't really care.

The World is a certain way. Pretty fucked up kinda. I know it, but it is probably a disconnect.

So see???  I am just an asshole, but my eyesight isn't too bad as to how life is. No rose pedaled lenses for me.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Aesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. Today is one of those days. I'll probably bike to work, but not sure how much snow I'll bike home to.

Love You all xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya       :D      :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.    :)

Monday, February 22, 2016

Fucking Around With Sleep...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay, but I stayed up later than normal, so that has my routine a bit whack. I gots to do this though.

Anyways life goes on. We saw the dead pool movie yesterday, and it was good. I don't think it was necessarily better than other marvel comic book movies, but definitely as good. I pretty much like them all.

We went to lunch after to meet my brother, and his daughter.  It took him about 1-1/2 hours to drive like a 6 minute route. He got lost.  :)

I don't really know what to say of my brother. I am the youngest, and will always have the greyest hair. John said he is at his heaviest weight currently. We are about the same height, and he probably has 90 lbs. on me. The Pejchl gene is not a naturally skinny gene. My brother Jim was pushing 300+ lbs.

John has a cubicle job, and all my jobs have been on my feet. I also don't have a huge appetite. As portions get bigger at restaurants my appetite gets smaller. I cannot eat as much as I used to.

I don't know how to turn a switch on for people. You could probably watch any person for a week, and see their lifestyle. My lifestyle is pretty boring. Work, eat, sleep. I have no problem being in my head, cuz I am comfortable with me. I ain't battling any demons, and I know me.

I could make any number of wishes, but chances are my wishes are fleeting. Meaning I might not give a fuck about my wish tomorrow.

I'll give you a story. I've been FB friends with a girl named Kathleen. We were very much alike in we were always up early to get some type of workout in. Her life became hard with a bad marriage. She has kids, and I remember probably 5 years ago she hit her breaking point kinda. Everything was too hard type of thing. The husband eventually died, and she has her kids. She is a strong girl, and proud, and very sell-sufficient.

She has a story, and yeah I would be interested in knowing it. I guess this is what I do. I have a story, and sadly most of it has been said. There ain't much more to me. Just living this simple life in the way I do.

If you want to know the truth I think life would probably have been better not being born. This existence for all of us is pretty dumb. I was born though, and I found my way through the maze of questions, and found my purpose. My purpose is pretty simple, cuz my heart leads my way. My story is off the rocker crazy, and that is pretty funny I guess.

Your story is not off the rocker crazy, but you have demons in your head you have to deal with. Ya gotta get to know your crazy if you wanna get to know you.

If you are a blogger I read then I guess I wanna know your story. I personally like words more than pictures, but you know that of me. To each their own.

So I guess I'll inbox Kathleen now. She is interesting, and quite possibly the strongest bravest girl I know.  I like that in people.

Any hoo

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. The sidewalks are all clear so I can bike to work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)


Sunday, February 21, 2016

Yesterday Was Better...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday was pretty good as far as days go. I worked for a bit. Actually an hour more than scheduled as I tried cleaning up/organizing the freezer a bit. I was a little worried cuz payroll is always a big deal, but my manager said it was cool. She has inventory coming up in a week.

I was going to make enchiladas when I got home, but Lisa's friend made leftover sandwich thingies with cream of soup and turkey. It was really good.

Other than that not much going on. The snow is damn near all melted so I am getting excited for Spring. Ready to get back in a groove I guess. Today should be a pretty good day. Going to see a movie, and go to lunch. My brother is in town with his daughter. That should be about it. Living the dream.  :)

In a good mood today.  That's good.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Guess I better take the Hopester. Gotta check the weather first.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)



Saturday, February 20, 2016

Saturday Morning...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Coming off 2 days off in a row, and I don't know how people do it. What can one do with time off??

I did a few things the first day, and not much the 2nd day. I did cook a turkey dinner, since we had a turkey thawing in the fridge for some reason. It came out good, but you pretty much can't fuck up a turkey. Typically I throw some olive oil and rosemary in the cavity, and stick it in a bag. I was watching one of those food shows yesterday, and next time I'll throw a shit ton of veggies also in the cavity. What a great idea.

Other than that not much going on. Now that I think of it I had another day in my life yesterday.  Does this shit ever stop??    :)

It was warm yesterday, so a ton of snow melted. It is like the cold front is long gone. Thoughts of spring and stuff pop up, and I am not really that excited. My life goes on and on. I don't really have anything to accomplish. I know the reason I am here, and what needs to be done. My blog is the wait so obviously the stuff that needs to be done is later not sooner. I know where people stand and they don't.

I was going to say it's not easy being like this, but it is easy. I just expect more from people I guess. Anyway today I work at the grocery store, and I have tomorrow off again. We are going to see the dead pool movie tomorrow. I'll probably pick up something for dinner tonight. Maybe some more V-8. It is on sale, and I pretty much like all the V-8s.

Til next time.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Guess I'll relax a bit before work. Should take the hopester too.

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for creakily really cya cya cya      :D      :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Friday, February 19, 2016

Calling Into Work, But Like Backwards...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got called yesterday to not come into work again. The main mixer is down, and still won't be fixed today, so there is only so much that can get done. So it is like I am calling in today, but backwards. It'll make for a sucky paycheck, but I don't mind the time off.

Anyway not too much else going on. I did the normal house BS yesterday. Dishes, laundry etc...  I also put in the new for us dishwasher. A dishwasher is a pretty easy appliance to put in, as long as the plumbing is already in place. Electricity is simple, water supply is simple. The only problem you may have is if the discharge hoses from the former machine to the newer machine is a different size. Mine was, so I had to be creative/stress out to make it work. Pretty annoying. It works though.

You'd think getting that little project done would make me feel good, and like I accomplished something. It doesn't make me feel good. It just pretty much annoyed me. It's done though, so that's good.

Other than that not too much going on. I have nothing major planned today. I'll probably just basically relax.

So, I guess today will be another one of those days in the life thing. Life is kinda funny. We as people are all so messed up kinda. So much we wanna do. So many things we don't want to miss out on. What if the truth of life is there is nothing to miss? There is no great thing to see, and no great thing to do, just cuz there isn't. It takes pretty good vision to see this truth. You may wonder why life seems like it is missing something. Our expectations start off way too high. We are wrong in that way too. Life is a thing filled with time. It will end in your death, and at that point you won't give a crap about what was sooooo important today.

The healthiest thing a person can do is to view their life like the thief on the cross. It takes some life pulling to take you there. You need help with vision, and your heart needs to be changed.

You know all this though.

But I gots to blog right??   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. There really isn't much to do on a day off.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)


Thursday, February 18, 2016

Not Ideal...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. I have today off, and I am up too early. I am doing this thing to get it out of the way, and I am having what a waste of time this whole thing is kinda morning. It happens.

I kinda have a lot of stuff I want to do today, but 3:00 AM is not the ideal time to do it, since I don't live alone.

So what has me in the mood I am in. Probably you spend time doing this, and it does nothing. It sucks knowing things, and not being able to get through. It sucks having to do this thing, and it does nothing.

Inside me I can feel how people are on the inside. Some people have just too much anger. That is probably the worst thing for a person to have. How do you combat that??  A source of anger in my opinion is life happening and people not dealing. I added Andrea to a lot of stuff recently. She had another great post yesterday. I don't remember if I liked it it not, but I meant to. She is dealing with life. Never really knew her much, but when life hit her I was in. She is dealing with the life horseshit that just hit her. I think men just have a natural tendency to bury shit. Gotta be stoic and all manly and shit. Life that is not dealt with is a seed of anger. It is a weed too, and has no problem thriving in any condition. If you are stuck with a ton of anger I don't know how you get rid of it. I think that is probably a worse case scenario for anyone. I think you are fucked as a person.

Anyways life keeps moving. Check off another day. They keep coming and keep going. I guess that is fine with me, my life has been dealt with. I don't carry any baggage. Been through the whole thing. Not afraid of it, not scared if it, don't hide it, not ashamed of it. At this stage of the game I guess I can say you have no part in who I am. I owe no one anything, cuz the best parts about me you had no say in. I don't seek out what is special in me cuz I know I am not.

Maybe that is why this thing is so hard. People many times seek out their own virtues keeping a blind eye to our other side. Maybe just hide it too. I dunno.

Just having one of those days.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.. I am going to try and sleep more I think.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH!!!    :)

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.  :)

Wanna give extras to Andrea again, cuz she is dealing with hard life shit in a good way. I don't know if she reads this, but I think about her tough time when she updates. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Later all.  :).  xoxoxo. I feel better already.  :)

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Up A Little Earlier Than Normal.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up a little earlier than normal, but that is a good thing, cuz I can run a little longer. Yesterday was a pretty good day as days go. I ran, I worked, I did a few things around the house, and I cooked supper. My days end pretty early so I go to bed early. These days I seem to sleep in the family room til Lisa is ready for bed, and then I go to bed.

The days are basically filled with time. Time keeps moving, and the days all end. They turn over one after another.

Some common wishes for most people would be to feel rested, be healthy, have a purpose, and really have a pretty happy heart. What exactly do we control??

People can do healthy things, but most of the shit that will kill us is invisible. I am a good sleeper, so normally I am well rested. I fall asleep early too, so I can wake up really 2 hours before I need to. Purpose is interesting cuz what is our purpose??  Many figure part of our purpose is to find the perfect person for us, get a job, have kids, and live happily ever after. A lot of times that is just a standard truth of life. What if that actually means nothing??  It is just shit this World is filled with. It would seem kinda strange cuz all grow up with basic sexual urges just like the beasts of the field. There must be a way to explain that. To make it good. I assume people live with some sort of guilt at times due to our imperfections in that area.

What is happy??  How does one get it??  That is a good question, because there is no manual to life. Most people fall short of even seeking answers, cuz they believed this and that, and said good enough.

So much of life is out of our control. You look around, and there is probably a good chance you don't know the people around you. It shouldn't surprise you, cuz in many ways you don't know you, and people don't know you.

Lives are never perfect. People are never perfect, and really it probably would be our biggest wish. Not to have to worry about our flaws, and imperfections as people. Not to feel guilt cuz maybe we aren't the best person. Not to feel the sadness of being rejected, cuz we aren't good enough.

The World is full of people going through various motions, and the truth may be far away.

Who am I??

Why life??  Why me??

What is the point to all this??

Factories, and cubicles, and buildings. Wars, murders, poverty. Sickness, disease.

Life, what is all this crap??  What does it all mean??

These are tough questions, and ones we really run away from.

You'll find looking at life and people, it really isn't all that great really. The truth is a good thing, and yet still far away.

I can tell you about me. Most days I wake up well rested, cuz my energy is a gift. I have a purpose, cuz when my life was at a crossroad it is what I seeked most.  I am mostly happy, cuz my heart is different than just the normal me growing up. I don't worry about health too much, cuz I am naturally pretty healthy. Also my purpose gives me a bit of a road map to my life. Not perfect vision of course, but I am strong enough to deal with the day to day I'd say.

I am not perfect however. It is impossible in my current state. I do have a promise of "all for good". I don't know what future things I should worry about. I am not afraid of life, and I am ready anytime for death. That is a life well lived.

Being ready for all the future holds. Walking straight into the unknown with no fear, and no misconceptions.

Having absolutely no fear of standing on my own two feet.

Having confidence, and being assured of my ways is a pretty good thing.

Anyways, just getting something down.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Today I am up really early so Hope and I can get a good run.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :) - she is on a good blogging streak btw. Kinda funny, cuz she finishes mostly a little before I begin.

Cya all. :)    xoxo and xxoo.   :)

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

A Pretty Good Monday...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had sorta a busy Monday kinda. Work was pretty busy for a Monday. We stayed a little late doing a couple things. I got home, and I was tired, but I still had to take the Hopester. We got a little run in. It wasn't really cold relatively speaking, so it was pretty fun. It is why I like to run before work, cuz I a lot of times am tired afterwards. Lisa went, and picked up some stuff from the store. I cooked this huge pot pie she bought from Costco. We ate, she watched tv, and I fell asleep next to her. Another day in this life of endless days. Today will be another.

I kinda chuckle a bit about yesterday's post. I've really been made to play the fool, except I am not. Everything I've been through is real, and like a lamb being lead to his slaughter there is no warning. I've been through some crazy real stuff, and I know few or none have walked my walk. I know the one who overcame, his walk was with a lot of hard hidden stuff we don't know. Mine is with a lot of hidden stuff too. I cannot be as I am without my heart being in good hands. It would be too much for anyone to handle I suspect. I am way different than I would be if I didn't do the things I've done starting decades ago.

A story in the making that is going on probably close to half my life, although I've been through my whole life. I have been given pretty good vision into every aspect of my life. There is no manual for the things I must do. Many days were filled with much fear, but not so much during this blog.

I've had a job to do, and I do it. If there is some reason I am on this Earth I do that instead of anything else. As you can see, being still a part of this World for a short while I still have to work, and stuff. The labor I do is free. I charge nothing, because everything I got was free, save some suffering for learning and building trust.

After my final thing I will still be here, but will not be a part of this World. This will not be a good time for the Earth. There will probably be a small number with me, and the multitudes will side with the World.

I have no vision as to how these days will look, or what my part will be. All along I've just been a vessel used for a purpose. Not my story, and not my idea.

I assume if I had to play the fool others will too. Although what I do isn't foolish, it is just I teach things few in the World ever heard of. I was made into what I didn't want. A teacher. I was running away from harsh judgement, and now I run straight for it. It is my path. I am confident, assured, and brave.

My heart is much better than what ever I was on my own.

That is my day in a bit shell plus some more I guess.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Ooh it's early. Hope and I can get a good run in. Yay.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D      :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Have a good one.  :)

Monday, February 15, 2016

A Tale Of Two Me's.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. Contemplating how I want to plan my day. Run after this or after work. Sorta decided to turn my switch back on, after I let the cold front drag me down a bit.

I was thinking of some things this morning, and really it is just the two sides of me.  The one side is just normal old me. Just a regular person who does regular things. Nothing too important at all. I do twitter, and I don't really have many people who follow my twitter account as is fitting for someone like me. Just careful at person.

Then there is the other side of me. The one that is supremely confident in who I am, and what my message is. So much is different in me, you cannot even imagine. The one thing maybe many people walk with is the confidence they are right perhaps. The one thing I KNOW is I am right, and you are not. I am right, cuz I am accepted. My labor is basically done. My travels and labor were quite hard. I've seen things, and endured things you don't even know is possible. A turn opens up a whole new World, that none, except me know is possible. Everything is hidden, and will remain do for those who can never take the first step.

The avenues were all opened up during my blogging, and me going through the things I've gone through.

I've known for many years I would have to do stuff. I was always just waiting for my final thing. I never had a clue I'd be doing this. That which makes me up is a crazy configuration. I cannot really explain it, but I'll try. Put your crazy hats on. :)

When I went through the eye of the needle during my mid 20s that changed me. Those who come along will go through it eventually. I didn't really know what it meant, but I learned it made me mostly spirit. I was persecuted by the worst of the worst for 6 days, and that shit ain't no joke. Like Job I prayed let me never to have been born, cuz my ending will be no good. I was told I will be the AntiChrist. The worst of the worst. The second time I went up against the judges I was told I had to be the worst of the worst, and there is no way out. The judges will control your heart, so you believe 100% what they tell you. I was given the strength to accept my lot. The correct answer came in my heart. I said "God's will be done".

The eye of the needle did not save me, but really overcoming myself was big. I was even told so. After suffering so much, but being obedient outside the garbage room was important too. Wanna know a great promise about outside the garbage room??

"He who listens to the life giving reproof will get understanding."  You like that??  He who listens, cuz my heart was made to do right. It is why I trust my heart. Also to know my ridiculous exclusivity is "let him who hath understanding reckon the number of the beast."  That will be me, cuz I will get understanding.

That may seem like a big deal, but I am nothing special. Just someone who was made to do a job. All who I am, and all that I do is cuz my help. Trust me I am just a regular guy deep down, but my heart makes me do my labor.

I was told long ago I have to overcome 3 times the alligator/serpent. I've overcome twice, and the last will be the real deal. I will go where, well, I have to go to Hell for a few days like the one who went before me, and others have too. You won't find it written anywhere, but if you ever read the red letters it is where it points. I don't read the sword, but I know the sword. It doesn't do much good without understanding, but I have used it a bit. Sparingly really cuz it is used to judge, and that is not my purpose. My purpose is to teach you the way out of judgement, but you have your own journey. Your own bullshit you gotta deal with, and you'll need to be much stronger than you are now.

You need help. The two sides of you are the know it all super being, and the little old lady with one coin. The only way for you to overcome your super person self is to have the old lady give up her coin. It is your job, and you have to be obedient. Trust me it is very important. I wouldn't say it if it wasn't.

There is no point trying to prove you are right to me, cuz I already know where everyone stands.

At this stage of the game this person who blogs is way too strong, and way too assured.

The worst of the worst lives inside me. He became enslaved in the very trap he set for himself. When I go to do my final thing he will leave me, cuz he is unwilling to go where I am going. I have a strength that is not my own.

My whole life was turned into something that was not my own.

So there you have it. :)

Just a regular guy who was made to do an important job. No, I had no idea what I was doing way back when. Life beat me down, and I just wanted to matter. The funny thing about it is what I do does matter, but all who I am really doesn't. Like everyone else I was just this person who had one coin. I gave it to someone better than me, and he made more coins out of my lowly coin... As it is written.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. The World is full of false teachers. Everywhere you look. Everyone falls prey. That is where you stand. You believe in whatever leaven that is in your heart. There is a way to a better you, but it is your choice. The false teachers say it is easy and they fall short. I tell you now. There is nothing really easy about it, and right now you are on the short side.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

I had a feeling one of these days I would have something to write.  :)

Laterzzzz.  :)

xoxo, and xxoo.   :)

Sunday, February 14, 2016

If You Have A Day Off...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going ?  Me, I am doing okay. I had a pretty good day off yesterday. It turns out we really didn't have a ton to do as I thought so it was pretty relaxing. We went to Red Robin for lunch. We had a gift card. I don't even remember liking that place, so we've only been there once. It wasn't too shabby. I mean a burger is pretty much a burger, you can't really fuck those up. I didn't like their fries I don't even really like fries that much anyway. You can eat all of them you want, and I want to eat none. You can substitute an endless side salad for the fries. I like those shitty iceberg lettuce side salads. I may even go there again.

We came home, and watched a couple movies we rented, and that was about it. There you have it. Another stupid day to this life.  :)

Today I have to work at the cleaning place. I am looking forward to it, because I didn't have to work at 3:00 AM today. I am well rested, so after breakfast I will go.

Anything else on my mind??  

Nope. :)

One of these days something will come up I am sure. Something funny did happen yesterday. I use twitterfeed to post my blog. Been using it for years. It stopped working on FB a long time ago, and yesterday out of the blue it started working again. I thought that was kinda funny, cuz, I dunno just cuz.  :)

Anyway that is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I think today should be a pretty good one.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for creaky really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

I just figured out what was so funny about my blog posting to FB. The signature line.  :)  for people who may have never seen this before. Pretty funny.

Anyway I gotta get going.  Laterzzzz.  :)   Xoxo. :)


Saturday, February 13, 2016

I Spose...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I got a good night sleep last night, I have the day off, and I have a lot to do. I don't really have much to blog about, but a lot of times I can give it a whirl. We got more snow, and today is the coldest day of our cold front from Hell. I'll have to check the 10 day, but we start a nice warm up tomorrow or the next day. I am ready. I don't know why I was such a cold weather ninnie this week. At least I am all healthy now for sure. :)

Anyway a couple family members from my wife's ex died. They were found yesterday. I didn't really know them. One I am sure I met, and the other no clue. Got their hands on some shitty drugs. They were working on a pipeline making like $30/hr. The one guy leaves two kids. Pretty fucked up huh?? What a fucked up World. I kinda thought about that shit  a bit. If you can't trust the drug dealers anymore who can you trust??   ;)   J/k.

So that is that. Today I think Lisa and I will go to lunch. My tax lady gave me a $15 gift card to a restaurant for my troubles.

Other than that I ain't got much. I may not have blogged today, but I am on a good streak, even if today I ain't got much.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I do like me a nice relaxing day off.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo. :)

Now for creaky really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Friday, February 12, 2016

The Onions From Haverford Were Always Much More Sweeterer

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I slept all the way to my early alarm today. Today is Friday, and I have tomorrow off. The fridge guy came, and it only cost us $130.  Our freezer just needed to be defrosted, and our connection to our defrost 'fan'?? Had to be reconnected. So he made $130/ hr, but I would never have known about the bad connection. His work comes with a 90 day warranty though. You know what I just thought of??  Service people like appliance people, and plumbers, electricians etc... Raised their prices when gas went up to $4/
Gallon, cuz they work out of their car. The prices they raised probably didn't get decreased even though gas is ~$1.50/gallon.  Anyway we needed no expensive parts so that is a win.

Yesterday could have been a perfect day. I got off work early, and I planned on getting a lot done. I got home, and didn't know it, but I was really tired. I napped and waited for the appliance person. He came about 2-1/2 hours after the time he could have shown up.  :)

I was too lazy to cook dinner, so I had Lisa pick up a pizza. That was my day. We've had a mild winter, but our little cold front is kinda knocking me down. The other day I saw a guy riding his fatty at 5:45AM through unplowed sidewalks. A guy I see running a lot while I ride to work is out still running, and I ain't doing shit. Case of the Februarys maybe?? Not really sure.

Anyway, as some of you know a person I went to HS with lost her son. She updated yesterday she is struggling with every aspect of her life...   I bet. I never really had to look at her pain too closely, which is good. That shit is always hard. It makes me know she is strong. Probably stronger than most. A lot of people have a problem dealing with their shit. It is too much for them, so Andrea is someone everyone can look up to. In a World without heroes look for the strong ones. Not the angry ones, but the strong ones. Angry is as easy as being an asshole. Dealing with the bullshit life throws at us takes courage.  So I'll be on the side of the Andreas all day.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. Today is Friday, and I have tomorrow off. That is nice.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Extras for Andrea, cuz I like her courage.  Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Bye all.  :)   xoxo


Thursday, February 11, 2016

So Anyway, Time Keeps Moving...

Hello, and good morning??  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. It is dark, and cold out again, and I don't think I feel like running. :)  I am up before my early alarm, and for really no reason.

Life is pretty crazy. Hard to stay on top of things. Throughout the work week clothes get thrown here and there. Dishes can pile up. I should run early in the morning, cuz my afternoons can get busy with this and that. I only have so much time, cuz I really should start dinner at 5:00, and I don't stay awake too much past dinner being eaten.

Life is generally pretty busy like that. Out fridge isn't keeping things cold so we just threw a bunch of shit out. The rest is on our breezeway, staying pretty cold. Nice to have an empty clean fridge. Those things can get gross.

So yeah, life keeps going on. The days are filled with a bunch of stuff. Day after day after day. This life thing seems to never end, and one day it will. Society sure does fill our days with a bunch of bullshit huh??

Somehow too out of all this we must be special huh??  Somehow we must be something significant right??  In reality we are just one of the many many billions and trillions of people who have called the Earth their home. Mostly people filling their time kinda dictated by the Society of the day. The vast majority never stepping out to look at things, but basically blindly accepting their lot in the structure of Society. All have had dreams of being special, and famous, yet all still just remained people. Some do better than others in some gauge or measurement of choice, and some just speak like they do better. If none of the activities of Society actually mean anything then what is life??

It isn't a bad question, and most just blindly accepted society without the important questions.

So what if you went, and sought out your life inside the confines of Society?  What if as I say as far as life goes you've been sitting on the sidelines. I came, and was made in such a way as to get you people ready to run the race of life, but you were too scared. I want the same old same old, cuz I sorta know it. What if I spent years talking of being strong, and to trust, but you only trusted yourself, and the World still is your master?  

I've won my race of life, and it really is a long story, and it took a long time. You'll find I suffered many things along the way, but I learned of my own insignificance, and my utterly pretty much useless self. With help I've been turned into someone who can help, but I find many just don't have the ability to ask the tough questions.

One being do I matter??

The answer is nope, you sure don't, but I taught you a way where you can.

I surely don't matter, and either does this life, but one of those miracles is I am being used anyway.

Kinda how you are being pulled too. Give up the wisdom of this foolish World, and maybe just maybe, you can follow the path of the few.

We'll see though. Everything else is just foolish.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think I'll nap.  So lazy.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these.   Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Another Day ...

Hello and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I woke up a little early which I like, cuz I can get a lot done before work. We got some snow last night so not sure about riding my bike to work. I'll know how it is when I run. Yesterday went okay. Our fridge isn't keeping things cool, so I took apart what I could to clean everything, but it didn't work, so it must be a coolant thing I am guessing. Lisa will make some calls today.

That really was my main project, and it didn't take long. Lisa was a bit under the weather so she came home early. She napped, and I was bored. We made our little dinner, and then I napped, woke up, and went to bed. I also worked a little late yesterday. Both sides of the table had a lot to do. Today should be easy, cuz I doubt I'll have coffee cakes to make, and I won't have to do cinnamon rolls. Also this time of year we are doing 100 lbs of pig instead of 150. Not sure what I'll do if I get out early.

Actually I think I already decided. I am going to drive to work, and pick up stuff for chili or chicken noodle soup.

So there you have it. A day planned. Most of my days pretty much amount to nothing. Putting in my time in life. I know all the things in life are not significant, and I am cool with it. In life you'll find people put a lot of significance in a lot of things, and if they knew the truth they would know how silly it is.

A lot of time is spent pondering a lot of information, and much/all is no use. Just putting in time til eventually some shitty stuff happens in your life, or you die. Both will happen to you, one never knows what comes first though.

The secret to a happy life is the truth, but it will not be what you expect. All the things that fill up your day aren't important. You labor to no end, and your labor = zero points. From where you stand that seems unfair, but from where I stand it's cool. I am cool with life, cuz I know the truth, and I have no preconceived misconceptions. Being born in this World you have to overcome a lot. Really you just have to overcome yourself, and the rest is taken care of for you.

Overcoming yourself is hard though, cuz you cannot see from point A to point B. all you see is me. I am saying take the leap. It's cool it's fine, but then again it is just me. All about you is known, and the web you are in, much created by you btw, is known.

In your quest to find happily ever after you forgot to ask some tough questions, so on you went. You were the master of your life, and the master of  your direction. Is it possible one could be set free from the slavery of this World??  Set free from all the anger and stuff that is inside us??

Sure, but it isn't with our own strength these things are possible, but I cannot teach you much where you stand now. The race we've been running has been on a treadmill. Yeah we've been doing shit, but if you look around we are still in the same fucking spot. :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!      :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I was kinda like whatever waking up, but I thought I'll have an easy day of work. I'll cook a meal, and have time to relax. My life does not have a lot to it, and I like it.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

I Caught Myself...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing okay. Yesterday I had a pretty okay day. Work went fine. I made a couple King Cakes for the first time. It is Fat Tuesday so New Orleans cuisine seems to be in favor. I had a spicy gumbo for lunch yesterday. It had a good amount of kick to it.

Anyway in my effort to not be a pos I got some stuff done around the house. I did some dishes, and vacuumed. Once I figured out how to turn it on.  ;). Nothing much, but just some stuff. I also had to finish up some shit with our taxes. Our tax lady's software originally calculated our federal tax withheld wrong. Do we owe $400 not $130. Oh well. :)  my grocery job gets deposited into savings, do I'll just leave that alone all year, and that will take care of that. I forgot little part time jobs don't take shit out for taxes.

Anyway I went to bed a little later than normal, but woke up a bit early. I'll get to take the Hopester, and bike to work. It is easy to get out of your routine. Especially when it is February, and not exactly warm.

I gotta couple things to work on when I get home from work today, so it should be a pretty good day. I also have a very easy meal planned.

So on we go. I am not exactly sure how these days are supposed to look. I don't really question things too much, and I have no idea how weird this is. :)

One thing I thought of yesterday is Aloha, and blogging every day has to do with blogging. So that obviously means something. I don't have an agenda at all I just go as I go. :)

In a World of people not blogging, I guess... I don't know. I guess it means something.  :)

As you can tell I don't have much today.


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I wonder how many people are giving up whatever for lent. I ain't giving up shit, cuz lent is dumb. A sacrifice with no value, as most/all have no value. We haven't gotten to the value part yet. I'm sure we will somehow someway.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Monday, February 8, 2016

There Was Only One Becky Right??

My blog doesn't really have any rules, but if you make the signature line you make it. Even if I don't like you anymore.  :)  there was only ever one Becky though. She gets mentioned cuz I have been known to blog almost everyday. So I add Michelle S to the blogging almost everyday. She has put in good effort, and those of you who have been around a while you know like the :) that ain't no small thing.

You know what??  Today is a new week. I hope to be better than last week. I wasn't horrible last week, but I wasn't excellent that's for sure. Actually I never have been.   :)

I don't know what you people see in me.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am glad Denver won the SB. I didn't stay up to watch the whole thing though.  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D      :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Extras for JPH cuz she gets it.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Laterzzzzzzz.   :)

Sunday, February 7, 2016

It's Official. I Am Old And Lame.

Hello, and good morning. As some/most of you know I don't go out much. Lisa and I will occasionally go out to dinner, but I am pretty busy, so normally I stay at home. I typically don't even go to a bar to have a couple drinks I typically just hang at the house. Last night we had a party to go to, and I was ready for bed at 7:30 PM. I was thinking how lame, but I woke up at 3:00 AM for no reason, and 7:30 is the time I am already sleeping or will be soon. So I am that old and lame person.

I did sleep in today though til 6:00 AM, so that is good. I have to work at my cleaning job, and it will be nice doing it fully rested without 5-6 hours of work already put in.

I didn't do much yesterday. Laundry, and dishes. Put all the dishes away, and folded my laundry too. Except for the small batch of whites in the dryer. I had what you call a pretty lazy day. One thing I noticed though is I want to get back into my not being a pos after work. Last week I ran a lot after work, but not much else. Being sick throws a damper in your routine. You come home and just want to sit. So hopefully next week I'll be a bit better. I had a short week of running on my comeback too, so I bet I am healthy.

Some days this blog is just about silly old me, and my silly little life. Some days like the last two I actually have to do my real labor, although it is just what is in my heart. It just kinda comes out colored with my unique personality. Super strange if you think about it. The way I am being used for this.

Anyway...

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. We are going to breakfast, and then I work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)   And thanks.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.   :)

Saturday, February 6, 2016

I Kinda Wanted To Sleep In Today...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I wanted to sleep in today, but I am up before the butt crack of dawn. Yesterday was okay. I was tired. I figured I'd run when I got home, but I realized early at work my legs were toast after my 3 short runs. You figure I took a weak off. Ran short every other day, took another week off, so I guess that happens.  I plan on taking for a bit longer today anyway so yesterday was a good day off. I was surprised how tired I was. I don't think I stayed up that late, and I only had two beers with dinner. Strange.

Anyways, life keeps chugging along. We all izzz getting older. Yesterday's update was a doozy I suspect. It is what makes it hard. Me knowing the steps needed to be made, and many times people wanting to prove they are a Saint already. The truth of us is pretty silly really. We want to think we are special. We have special abilities, and our minds are clever so we can do clever things.

I don't know exactly the first time I changed how I thought. Early on after I graduated College I wanted to do something. Not sure what, but something. I had thoughts of Peace Corp. furthering my Education etc...   I really felt I could do something. I really felt I was something.  Anyways as you know a lot of life happened at this time. I really started looking at the World, and I didn't see anything for me. I figured people grow up, get married and have kids. At some point in time I found myself alone.  It was kinda a 'finally' feeling I had. I had no one I owed anything to, and really I went on the path of me.

One thing I can assure you of is the truth of all of us is not the best thing in the World. We are not Saints, and we are not perfect. Our truth is a humbling one, because we don't measure up to who we really "should" be. That was hard for me. Really this time of my life led me to repentance, and there is no repentance without overcoming yourself first. The simplest seeming thing to do we are unable. In just something as simple as that you are not able to do. Crazy huh??  Your hearts are too hard. So your path is the thief. You are the thief. You deserve what he deserves, and that is your path.

It isn't greatness, bells, whistles, wrapping paper, and all that stuff. Humility comes before praise. Tough stuff before honor.

The path is worth everything. The path of our not so great self. The truth leads the way, and eventually there is help to make us good. Remember though. Something as simple as repentance is not in your power to do. So really all you can do is overcome yourself. I know that is hard. It is a trust game. Ya gotta trust what you don't see, and all you have is me.

LOL. I guess that is kinda funny in a way.

But yeah. This is my job. It is in my heart to do it, because someone wants what is best for you, and that is who you should trust.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. We have a party at the bakery tonight. Lisa wants me to be on my best behavior. Ha!!  I told her you know there will be beer, and Jacob, and Sam will be there right???  Ha!!  She has known me for 20 years, and she thinks I am going to change now??   :)    Funny

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.    :)

Aloha Saturday.  ;)


Friday, February 5, 2016

Don't Look Now. But I Have Tomorrow Off.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. A little tired, but done sleeping. Yesterday we got our taxes done. We broke even basically. $150 back from the State, and we'll pay in $130 to the Guvmint. I still feel a bit miffed I get fined for not paying $4000 to Health Insurance Conglomerates, when I don't use their Oligarchical type services. If laws were actually followed the CEOs of these companies would be in jail for not abiding to antitrust Laws. Instead we put them on a pedestal, cuz they wear nice suits and have a nice and fancy house(es).

The World is ugly, and very fucked up. All the rules, and systems, and everything is flawed if we just take a look. There is no perfection to be seen, and actually it is something that is possible. For some reason a lot of people think they are good enough although we all fall short. Something about us must be worth a shit, but is it??

The World makes us stop searching we stop searching on our own too, cuz if we judge others than surely we are deserving of stuff right??  I did this, and such and such does that.

What if the stuff we place our highest value in, actually doesn't mean shit? It is an important thing to ponder cuz actually it is the truth.

You were born in this World being taught you were right, and actually we start out being wrong. We judge our way to the upper echelon without ever dealing with us. As you get older you accumulate more and more self-perceived worth, and the truth really just says one coin. You can package shit up all you want, but you amount to no more than one coin.

There is a hidden answer as to what one does with their one coin to increase the amount of coins, and I teach this. Every other way is False and Wrong.

I am the only true teacher, cuz I've been made this way. Not exactly what I asked for, but maybe just more than I bargained for. One coin gets you nowhere, and you are in the most precarious of positions. Not everyone has been shown the way, and those who don't act upon good teaching will have their own penalty.

The story is about truth and forgiveness, and humility. It surely isn't how great you are, cuz we were born not really that great, and the World was just going to Fuck us up more, cuz everywhere is imperfection. Everywhere is Bullshit teaching.

The path is to want better, not settle for one coin.

The truth of your life is like all. Lacking.  Missing something. You aren't sure what it is, but you definitely run from that course. It is hard to drink that many bloody Mary's to find the courage to look at that shit.

You need help, cuz unbeknownst to you is you just aren't all that. The more we strive many times the more we judge.

I really don't know how to make people seek the truth. The truth of me is known. You have had the ability to know quite a bit.

It is really quite the story. I learned quite a bit. Mostly what I learned is I am not all that, but I've been out on a path ANYWAY that is all that. My worth is the story of me. The thing I am not an author of.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I've run 3 days in a row. Short runs, but no worse for the wear.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Garerzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)




 

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Damn, I just deleted my blog entry...

That kinda pissed me off. I was thinking screw it just not blog today, but I have been on a good roll lately.

So let me paraphrase what I wrote earlier. I ran yesterday after work. It was hard to be motivated cuz I was tired. I rested a bit then felt like running. My motivation for running may just be get out and get a little running in. For fun and health, and maybe not much more. Not sure though. I don't think my knee wants me to do anything terribly crazy.

Our truck had to be fixed again. Just some corroded wires, and a relay switch of some sort. It wasn't the starter like I knew for sure it had to be.  :)   Lisa's guy didn't charge us so we'll tack on some extra next time he helps us out.

We had gyros for dinner. Lisa accidentally had them put giardinera on mine cuz I always have it on my Italian beef. That shit is good on gyros too. Who knew??

So that was basically my day. Nothing significant in it at all, but it did make up another day in my life. An endless string of never ending days, except one day it does all end.

You know the secret of me. Prior to the wait I was kinda fired up about doing the most I could do, while having the most fun. Overcoming the 2nd time was a doozy, cuz really it took everything away. What I learned is everything in life we do is pointless, and your deeds will not help you in the least when it comes to what happens when we die.

So really my life was taken away, because it was time for me to ... Well I don't know. I was put in a good spot. The World can't really touch me now. I am able to do as I choose, and luckily my heart doesn't really choose to do much. Put a string together of my days. Live out my days until it is time for me to do my final thing in my current form.

It just so happens I pull people along with me.  People are a trip though cuz mostly they settle. Good enough better be good enough right??  Cuz you can't do much better, and you have no control at all of your heart, and that for sure is not a perfect thing.

The way to a better you is what??

Something that is impossible for you. I know it and you are lost. You don't know it yet.

That is a pretty weird disconnect too. Me knowing what all are deeds amount to, and you clinging to that which doesn't matter really.

It is pretty strange.

Anyway,

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!      :)

p.s. Life sure is a trip when you stand in my shoes. Such a dirty and imperfect game. It is amazing it can be dressed up as something good.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

The Days All End...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good I'd say. I had another day yesterday. There was nothing significant really in it. I had my first run in over a week. I am coming back from a calf issue. I think it went okay. I felt a little something high up in my calf in question, but I don't think it was anything. I am just paying close attention to everything on that calf is my guess.

We painted the bakery, and got it done. I ride my bike to work knowing full well I'd get rained on the way home, and I did.

We ate dinner. The day ended, and I went to bed. The days all end, and another one begins, and hopefully after a good night sleep.

The days go on and on and on. You definitely see the word inspire thrown around a lot, and maybe something everyone should ponder is no amount of inspiration will help you escape death. We all share that common ending. No one has some supernatural ability to beat that.

I think that is important, cuz it puts us all on the same level. No amount of sacrifice, or labor will release us of death. That there is a whole life out there with stuff to do, there should be answers somewhere huh??  Something has to be worth a shit right??

All societies are flawed. All people in the society are flawed. All leaders in so called societies are flawed. In your search for heroes you'll find with a close look there are none.

Some people may reach the top of their profession or whatever, but chances are we have no clue of the skeletons in the closet. Saddam Hussein was once a leader of his society. Proud, and secure, although he was a scared man when he died. Lance Armstrong, and Tiger Woods were once on top of their profession, and we know about them.

How many times has Lance been married??  I can see one failed marriage, and maybe one would get married a 2nd time, but a 3rd???  What's the point??  I find that shit preposterous.

I find life in many ways to be pretty fucked up. I don't think anyone inspires me, cuz no one is perfect, and I know it.

Things that are worth stuff to me is a good sense of humor. People who don't carry an elevated view of themselves. There are many bad qualities people can have.

I think people use others to prop themselves up. Ultimately all people will just have to stand on their own 2 feet. How are you if you throw work, hobby, friends, and family out.

Who remains after all that??

Does that person scare you??

Do you even know that person??

Life is a pretty busy thing, and it is important you get to know that person. Life is busy, cuz the World wants to hide that person from you, cuz that is your true self. The World has no use for that shit.

We do hide ourselves in a lot of stuff, and it sure isn't easy to in hide ourselves. You'll need help.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  I think I am gonna nap and take Hope after work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

What A Difference A Day Makes...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am actually doing pretty good. If yesterday I felt 100% better than last week, well today I feel 100% better than yesterday. I guess I was a bit tired yesterday. I didn't know it until I got ready to bike home from work. I got home, and had one of those sit down days where you don't turn on the tv.

So we hung out for a bit. Lisa was off, so then she ran some errands. I got dinner prepped, and that was that. She got home, we finished making dinner. We made steak fajitas, and they were probably the best ones we ever made.

Lisa watched tv. I fell asleep next to her, and now I feel pretty great. I got up well before my early alarm too.

So today I will get my first run in since aggravating my calf. I think it should be ok. Also today at work we are painting the bakery. That should be kinda fun I think. We have like 4 guys working on it.

That is about it. Tonight I'll get home. I'll chill out a bit, and make a meal.

Nothing in my life that really needs to be sugar coated. I don't really need a pat on the back for my deeds, cuz none of it is really important.

That is another one of those disconnects too huh??  Some part of this should be important right??

Eeeeeeeks. How different we are.

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. Actually am having a cup of coffee today too.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.    :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D      :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.    :)

Aloha.    :)

Monday, February 1, 2016

What A Difference A Week Makes...

Holy Cow, it has been one week. On Monday I rode my bike to work. I was coming down with a bug, and came home tired.  Tuesday started my horrible cough and cold. I was worried about pneumonia. My cough was bad, and I had a pretty nasty bug. Today I am way at the end of this thing. I know this cuz I am not coughing my ass off this morning.

I guess I'll take Hope for a walk in a bit. I think I am okay to start running again too, but I may wait til tonight or tomorrow.

So anyway what is on my mind?  On any given day there can be a lot on my mind. You and I are different. We look at life through different lenses. I guess you continue to look through the same lens you've always had, and I have a different one. My old ones were taken away a long time ago. Life is this thing we do, and what do you make of it??

Could it actually be this whole World is wrong, and there is no path of you that leads to contentment??  The wind you seek you'll never find. It is a hard job I have knowing the truth of us Humans, and trying to teach the lessons of we ain't all that.

Humans are arrogant. They believe they are so much better than they are. The truth is so hard, cuz rarely do people put  their honest foot forward. You have to look and act in such a way, cuz???  That's an easy question to answer. The answer is the World overpowers you. Do you hide all your thoughts and all your actions cuz you figure they aren't right??

People really have to put always some type of best foot forward, because it is generally accepted. I guess what I am trying to say is the whole World is wrong for you, because nothing is right, until you are right. There are no points to be had for all the things you do. You labor in vain, and the sacrifices you make with time to do Church crap is in vain too. There will be no correct teaching in Church.  It is basically poison for your soul, and it makes your path harder, cuz it is just more shit you have to overcome.

The truth of life is a brutal one. The numbers are not friendly. If you knew the whole truth you would be terrified. You have no idea. I know the full truth. I've lived it. I've been judged twice, and with a strength not of my own I overcame. I was not willing to save myself, but put my life in another's hands.

So these things here I did which was invisible to all, but me and another put me where I am now. I am right. Accepted, and on a good path. You currently are where you've always been. A child of this World. I think people want to believe the easy stuff. Life is good, family shit actually means something, people are nice. Society is a thing we use to help perfect our lives. Believe such and such, and now do our best. That is good enough, although that just makes people fake.

The truth is way different than anything you've ever been taught, cuz the World has no part in it. The World makes heroes out of those who aren't. The World puts glitter on itself so people don't see what a shit hole they live in.

It takes a lot to be put on the right path, and you seem unwilling.

If only you knew the error of your ways. If only you knew how much more courage you'll need. If only you knew you are trapped in a web, and it is worth everything to take the proper steps to be freed. You are still very much a part of this World.  The World is your master.



You thought you were so tough.

 :)  haha

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. Hope will be so excited to go on a walk again. Glad I feel better.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)