Monday, November 30, 2015

1500...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I actually relaxed a lot this weekend and watched a lot of movies. Work went really easy at the grocery store. I couldn't do what I normally do on Saturday, cuz there was no load on Thursday due to Thanksgiving. The thought was there would be a person to do the load Sunday, and I'd do the Endcap. The guy never showed up, and I guess he didn't very much anyway. So Sunday morning was going to be brutal, but it wasn't. The manager did the Endcaps, and the grocery guys did aisle 10, which is the worst aisle. I only worked a little over 4 hours.

I thought about trying to nap, but I didn't. I looked at movie times, and the Bond movie started at 10:15, so we went and saw it. I rented a couple more movies, and that was my day.

So we start out a new week. Some days this blog just goes on it's own. Blind to the real World, cuz it isn't my job to deal with the ugly part of life. I already did it, and came to terms with me and my life. Things you must still do. You have to reconcile real life, and the fairy tales. Imperfection vs what you want to show.

Your life is imperfect. Your relationships are imperfect. To make matters even worse is your overall view of life is wrong. Bad things happen in life, and we do bad things too. There is a way to a better us, but you gotta be willing to throw the fairy tales out. It is what people are made of.

Just do a simple experiment. What if everything is wrong??  Then what??

You should think of that, cuz everything is wrong. As far as being on the right side of right, you still aren't.

It isn't about being right and good, it is just about the truth. What is your truth??  If someone were to look at your whole life having a clear view of everything how do you fare??

Like us all.

You don't want to consider these things do you??

Funny I was getting excited for 1500, and it turns out like this.

Booooooooooo.  :)

Laterzzzzzzzzz. xoxo

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Life Isn't Easy.

Yesterday was kinda a challenging day. As a person I think we'd all like to be helpful. I had a lot on my plate yesterday. Inexperience causes me to not be great. Experience is something good in ways. At the bakery there are 4 people whose name is on the sign. They are the owners. Everybody in Holland seemingly knows them and likes them. They all have different personalities, and they all are different.

As an employee you try to balance stuff out. What does each person like??  Here is something I ran in the other day. I always show up early, and typically punch in around 10 minutes before my shift, and arrive probably 15-20 minutes before. I am ready to work.

What happens if you have a busy week, and by Friday you are pushing overtime??  Stay and detail at time and a half, or let the high school kids detail as they come in after school??

Yesterday I let myself get scheduled for two jobs, and there was a timing problem. I was thinking my Friday was going to be easy, but it wasn't. We do extra shit on Thursday to make Friday easier. We were off Thursday. :). So I rushed to get my stuff done, so I could get to the other job. I told Jacob I was leaving, and he mentioned the bakery needs to be detailed, as Christmas is coming around, and we'll be busy as Hell.

Inexperience on my part says I don't know what all of detail means, and I don't really know how to organize stuff. The old adage "when in doubt throw it out" takes experience. I don't know what people use and need. Experience is a good teacher.

Being new at the bakery job I am still learning. Anyway the funny thing is I felt bad leaving the bakery with things unfinished to go to a job where I spent time detailing floors. :)  lol. I swung some offices, and burnished them, among some other stuff. Swinging is basically taking a top layer of wax off to clean, and burnishing shines things back up.

I kinda fucked up by spreading myself too thin on Friday. I told Jacob to give me a list for Monday and Tuesday. They are easy days and I can get a lot done. Experience tells Jacob I don't need a list, but my inexperience says I do. He's been there too long, and he is blind to how ignorant I am. You know that is why teaching is hard. The inexperienced people are dumb. :)

Anyway that is what I was thinking of yesterday. Today I have to work at the grocery store. I think the frozen guy starts soon, so my schedule is about to get much easier. I think I'll do the cleaning thing every other Sunday, and a short shift on Saturdays at the grocery store. Next weeks paycheck puts us over the hump too. Income will start to be significantly greater than the outflows so we can start saving for some shit that needs to get done.

Life isn't easy, but I am cool with it.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!?   :)

p.s.  If I could do it all over again I wouldn't change a thing. Life is fluid. There is constant motion, but I have a promise that is unfathomable. I win. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzz   Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Friday, November 27, 2015

That Kinda Sucks.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had every intention of getting a good night sleep. I went to bed early, and I slept hard til like 9:30 PM, but couldn't fall back asleep for a while. I kept checking on the Bears game, and finally slept pretty hard on and off around 1:00 AM or so.

I could sleep more probably, but I am working two jobs, so I have to go in early. The Holidays make things weird.

So I didn't sleep as good as I normally do. That is what kinda sucks. Anyway yesterday was pretty low key. Hope, and I went for a little run. I showered, and was back in my pajamas by 5:30 AM. :)  I finished my book that took me forever. It was good  it was fiction, but kinda showed the bad side of War. It seems when people go out to kill other people the rules of Society get kinda put on hold.

When people see a lot of death and danger and stuff you never know how things will turn out really. The book took place in Vietnam, at least the War part, and 18 years later a massacre comes to light. The author spent some time in Vietnam. Nelson DeMille, so who knows what he saw.

Anyway after I finished that I had nothing to do, so I watched some football games I didn't give a shit about. There isn't much to do, or maybe much I want to do on a day off. I have a choice to take a day off tomorrow too, but I'll probably go in for a bit.

I am who I am, and I am the way I am. How are you people??  What do you fill your day with, and how do you feel about it??  Life isn't always fun is it??  A lot of stuff we "have to", and "should do" huh??  I know a lot of life is boring, and what if it all means nothing??  Just spending time here doing shit, and then we die.

Gosh it took a lot for me to learn the truth of life. A lot to learn my place, and it took something impossible for me to totally be cool with everything.

Sometimes at times like this I can see in your heart, and see what life looks like.

Anyway I want to give you a link. It doesn't really have much to do with me, and every year I don't pay much attention to it, but last night I thought sheesh. Maybe some people check this out sometimes not hers. Seems a bit of a stretch, but maybe someone might be interested in this. A free coach for a year, and you just have to blog, and be active on social media. 

Seems like a good deal to me.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  The Bears and Lions beat GB in Lambeau this year. That is crazy, and Rodgers is healthy.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

I didn't really have much to write about, but I am so close to 1500.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzz   Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)


Thursday, November 26, 2015

My World Is A Jumble.

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up early on my day off. I can take Hope for a run, and read my book. I may do a little laundry. This is my 3rd day off since Memorial Day I think. :)  I work many days, but last week was probably my highest total of 55 hours. Typically I only work like 50 hours each week between the jobs.

Anyway I was thinking of things before getting out of bed, but really nothing in particular. As someone who typically has a clue of what direction this thing goes today I am just living. Nothing really upsetting me, and nothing I am particularly worried about.

What are the things I am interested in??  I think I like my life the way it is. I work, stay relatively active. I kinda look forward to my downtime after work, and supper. I love getting a good night sleep, and I like feeling fully charged when I wake up.

I know my story, and I know me, and I think much of your story you don't know yet.

As long as there is life there have been people wondering why. Most people get shuffled with the masses. There was a story told a while ago, and through the ages everyone said it was easy. The mistakes made Centuries ago are the same ones made today.

The thing is it isn't easy. It is hard, cuz we are blind. We are set up in such a way to think we are the master of our Universe.

I know some things you don't know. Hard things I had to learn in a hard way. I try to point them out to you, but that is a lot harder than it appears to be.

Last year was a hard year as far as this goes, because the well was almost dry. That was for a reason, and the reason is you were probably tested.

Today I have no worries about stuff. Today is a new day, and this year is a different year.

It is good to be me, and you still have some hard stuff to do. Probably the simplest question is being asked by you now in this time in your life.

Why am I the way I am??  Is life everything I thought it should/would be?? Am I everything I think I should be?  What are the important parts of my life??

I guess there may be many questions, but none for me. I've done my life's journey, and am now on the other side. The question of you needs answers. Those are things you must find.

As this blog approaches 1500 entries I don't feel the need to rehash anything really.

Anyway today is a day off. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Everything went super smooth yesterday. They had a good plan, and it seemed to me to work out great.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Lol, this thing must be a trip. I never had anyone like me, and the way I am I cannot stand in your shoes, so I have no idea what having this is like.  Pretty strange.  :)

Laterzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzz.  :)   xoxo

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

That Is Very Much More Better. :)

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. Yesterday it appears I was tired. I don't always know it. I went for a short run yesterday, and now that I think of it, it was more challenging than it should be. My bike to work, and back was sluggish. When I got home I swear I could have fallen asleep. So it finally dawned on me, I was tired yesterday.

Today I feel good. Today should be a pretty easy day for me, cuz the bakery is closed tomorrow, so I just have to do pigs, and maybe help out the store if they need it. I guess today is a pretty crazy day for the store. They have like 4 people coming in at 4:00 am to get orders ready, and staggering a lot of people in the next hours. I imagine it is a pretty exciting time for those whose name is on the sign. It will be fun for me to see how crazy today is. I guess the day before Thanksgiving is a Black Friday for a bakery.

I have all of tomorrow off, so that will be fun. We'll just make a dinner. All of our holidays are pretty low key. I just thought of Marge's first without Melgert, and Lisa's first without her Mom and Dad still living. You know if I ever went through a hard time you would probably know it, cuz I would have told you here. I am not sure how Lisa is coping. She is healthy, she likes her job. I am not a perfect husband, but I am a lame approaching 50 male. I am boring, and I don't do shit.  If Lisa has to deal with her grief I think she is doing okay. She isn't getting sick or anything, and I think stress can cause that.

Other than that not much going on. I'll get a run in today, and I bet it will go better than yesterday. I feel more rested. I am driving to work, cuz I have to pick up a few things from the grocery store after. I have a feeling today will be another day in the life. :)

Glad to see all you people keep your blogs active.  ;)

Hahahaha

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love a You All!!!   :)

p.s. Looking forward to my day off tomorrow.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzz   Gaterzzzzzzzzzz.  :)


Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Strange Tuesday.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. Today is starting off strange. I am done sleeping, but I kinda wanted to stay in bed til my late alarm. I kinda don't want to go run out in the cold either. Not sure if I wanted to do this either. I looked inside myself though, and I guess I am not in a bad mood.

I don't really have anything to blog about. For some reason I don't have all that great an appetite. It isn't what it once I was. I swear I used to be able to eat 3 cheeseburgers, and now I eat one. I am skinny too. I was looking at my arms yesterday in the mirror. I wonder what the change is. For the record it's been several years since my appetite was a 3 burger appetite. Is that an age thing??  As you get older you don't eat as much??

I know one of the good things about my lifestyle is I go to bed early, so I don't snack at 9 or 10:00 PM.

Anyways, just something I was thinking about. What else is going on??  Not much at all. Life goes on. Day after day after day. There is no end in sight, but there will be an end. One of the things we are guaranteed.

What makes up a life??  Work, family, friends??

No one can really answer for other people, but my life is relatively simple. Work, dinner, sleep. I have a wife, and a couple pets. I seem to be lazy after work. Besides making dinner I don't do shit typically.

I am cool with me though.

Anyways this blog has gone on a while. People who read this know me, and what I am about. I don't really know what people think, but I think this blog can change with the day. I can be a smart ass, sarcastic, serious, sad, happy, and angry. You name it. As we get closer to the end of the year, I guess I get a feel for the theme of the year is. Last year was a drought, and this year I got my mojo back I guess.

When do you guys get yours??  :)  (besides Angela, she blogs a lot)

Anyways I really don't have much else.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. This is post 1495. 1500 approaches.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzzzz   :)

Monday, November 23, 2015

I Am Up, And I Hazz Blog...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up early, and I'll get a run in. It is cold outside too, and I'll bike to work. That should be fun.

We got a turkey yesterday for thanksgiving. I like me some turkey.

I don't really have anything on my mind at all, but as you know that doesn't always stop me. I had a pretty good weekend. I worked some. I got a long for me run in on Saturday. A long for me run is typically a shorter run than I would ever do if I was training for a marathon. :)  running is a crazy thing. Speaking of I ran into a former running friend on Saturday while working. He is a Dentist, and like me had many many races he didn't show up to cuz injuries. He was talking about strides, and he remembered mine.  :)  I thought it strange, but now I remember he always ran on his heels. He was trying to fix that, and these days he just tries to stay in 5K shape. My normal route pretty much no matter the mileage goes by his house. I should wake him up at 4:00 AM sometime. ;)   J/k

Anyway I just worked, watched football, and slept this weekend. I slept through dinner last night too. I was tired after work yesterday.

So that is just some stupid stuff in my life. Geesh I guess if I look back at my life much of it is stupid. I wonder if your life is closed off from your vision. I can remember damn near everything if I try. I am open though. Something you cannot understand of me. There is nothing inside me clouding my vision. You have a big something blocking your vision. I know cuz I was once like that. How I am now once scared me, cuz I had no security. I thought I needed to be full to be secure, but it was other stuff that makes me secure.

I'd say trust is one thing. My heart is another. My heart I don't control, bit it is in good hands. Your heart you don't control either, and maybe you should wonder why it is like  it is.

A perfect person would be such a way, and we are different.

Anyway, I guess I should get ready to run. I think the truth is so hard, cuz we want to put our best foot forward. In my World our best foot may not actually be all that good. Many times people want to prove they are a Saint, and we should all know better than that.

Oh well. I guess the next blog update I read will be mine tomorrow.  :)

Haha

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Gotta finish my coffee before I run.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz   Gaterzzzzzzz

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Sleeping In, Then Having A Cup Of Coffee.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I still marvel at my Saturday sleep in skills. I don't know how I do it. Also, I have been having a cup of coffee every morning too. I am not sure why. I think maybe as the temps get colder it isn't a bad thing to start off the day with a warm beverage. I think it is supposed to get pretty cool, so I may actually have to wear running pants today.

Not much else on my mind. Should have an easy work day today. One of the things I do on Saturdays is switch out the frozen Endcap for the upcoming ad, but they are getting new freezers on Monday, so I won't have to. Actually that is a pretty major thing I do. That is pretty cool. My manager told me Sundays load is light too. I have to do the cleaning thing on Sunday too, but it is like for only 4 hours or something. I'll be working with Randy too, and I worked with him at my old job, before I switched jobs around Memorial Day. It'll be good to catch up with him.

Other than that not much going on. I made chicken noodle soup again for dinner. I don't think I can tire of that. Of course I never eat it during the warm months. I have Thursday off this week, and work two jobs on Friday. Both pretty full days. I am going in early at the bakery, and then to the cleaning thing after. We'll do Friday what typically gets done Sunday, so that's good. I'll be getting paid for 3 cleaning days on my next check plus all my regular stuff. Typically I may only get one day, so that will be a good week. Pretty soon my weekend schedule will be pretty normal. I am looking forward to it too.

What else??  Not much. I have a little life that is made up of a lot of day to day stuff. My day to day stuff is just as dumb as yours. :)  I probably have a lot less of stuff I have to do than you, cuz outside of work there is very little of stuff I have to do.

The World places a lot of burdens on us, and Happily Ever After does too. The stories all said we were supposed to grow up, and do this and that. I kinda took a sneak peak at the World. You know the old if I was born in a racist town, my parents were racist, and I was a HS graduate what would stop me from being racist?? It occurs to me now people may be even further educated. And still be a product of their upbringing. I threw everything out, cuz who knows I may be fucked up and not know it.

It turns out I was. I carried a little sword of ignorance that was dumb. I had false religion in me. Happily Ever After was inside me, and I was still a young guy. I did hurtful things to people I liked just trying to have fun.

I was just your typical fucked up human who was a product of this World. Life pulled, I listened, and now I am who I am.

A long story, and a lot to it. Right now you are a product of this World with no clue how fucked up you are.  :)

That's okay, I still like you.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I like coffee in the morning.   :)

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzz.  Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Friday, November 20, 2015

Sometimes People Just Disappear.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am okay. I was way too tired at my early alarm, so I slept more. I don't really have anything to blog about, but I thought if a couple things. One thing is people just disappear. As long as I've been doing this many have. I was thinking of Jessica of the once my someday triathlon blog. Read her blog for a few years I think. Her husband's Mom died I think. They had to sell her house or something, and they rented or bought a RV, took the kids out of school, and traveled for a year. Never heard of again.

Sheesh there are a lot of people like that.

Anyway, we were talking about something and I remembered  her. What else ?  Not much. Not much on my mind at all. My bike ride home yesterday was pretty crazy. The winds were probably approaching 30mph sustained, and at times I was going really really slow. I made chili last night. I don't have a good recipe yet, so I used a package one. For mine I cut up a lot of jalapeƱos, and put some hot sauce in it. It was really good. Those package ones aren't bad at all.

You want to know one of the good things about being me??  I don't trust in my own strength. I give everything up, and count on my promises. It makes me not be afraid to be me. It is a security I have. I can wake up and just chill kinda.

I feel more and more disconnected. What are people like??  What are the imperfections inside you??  What makes you be how you are??  I know the normal person has a lot if stuff in them. Some people have a lot of anger. Some have I don't know. What is inside you??

What makes a person watch tv?  What makes a person stay up late??  Is life boring??  What is the purpose of this short time here??

I work so much I come home and chill for 3-5 hours before I go back to bed. Saturdays and Sundays I may end up watching football. When I get home during the week I am more than content just sitting with my thoughts patiently waiting to cook dinner.

Ahhhhhh, that is something. People typically aren't just sitting down thinking of stuff. Always needs to be a form of entertainment huh ?  Having a clear look inside myself it isn't horrible to think of things.

I have been given so much, and my heart has to be well cared for, because just a typical human would not be able to do this stuff right. So I have plenty of help, cuz this person who once was a kid ain't no thing. I am now, because a story not of my making has been made. I will be so much more later on too.

Anyway, guess I am just getting something down. :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Leaning toward driving to work today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Lol, this blog is funny.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzz.  Gaterzzzzzzzzzz. :)


Thursday, November 19, 2015

I Wanted To Wake Up Earlier.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I wanted to wake up really early today, but no such luck. I was trying to go to bed early, but maybe went to bed a half hour early. Oh well. I still have time for a run, but it won't be longer than my normal runs.

Other than that not much going on. Yesterday was a pretty fun day. Work went good, I got a little run in, and biked to work and back. Lisa went out with a friend, so I just had leftovers and went to bed.

On any given day there is pretty much nothing I have to do, and typically there isn't much that I do. I do work most days. I had July 5th off, and Labor Day off. :)  I have next Thursday off too. :)  what will I do??  Should be fun.

Anyhooo I hazzz a kitty crawling on my lap wanting to be petted. On a more serious note, I guess I know I have a tough message. Right now I am in a spot where the World doesn't hate me yet. I am not really a part of this World, but I kinda am. I cannot believe what unique shoes I walk in. There was no road map to follow, and no one to turn to. Just me and my path. Me going solo gives me a specific honor that has already been granted, but only known by one.

My heart is strong and well cared for. I cannot even really explain you to me. I know everything about me, but I am a strange, and impossible creature.  After I do my next thing the World will hate me, and I will be its enemy. There will be those on my side, and the others will be swayed by the World. Not much I know past that. I know the worst of the worst will no longer be inside me, and who knows what that means. Probably not good stuff. He laid a trap for me, and with help I overcame the 2nd time, and he ended up being the one trapped.

The best of the best will make sure I overcome the 3rd time, cuz it is his story, and he is the one who works. I am kinda along for the ride.

He is not ashamed of me, cuz he knows there really isn't much I can do. I am not ashamed of me either, cuz I know me. I accept me, cuz I know the true path for me.

There is no labor under the sun I can do to make me who I will eventually be. My game is wait. Wait for you people to start your journey. One you absolutely will not have the courage to do, but you will. Courage will be given if you choose correctly.

Other than that it is just life. Whatever is the norm for where you live, and the customs that are popular around your parts.

While no one was looking you exist in this stupid World. It is pretty ridiculous. :)  luckily for me I like a lot of people in my list. They will be even more interesting when they tell their tale.

That is for you to decide to do though.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I'll finish my coffee and then run. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Ommmigosh.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. It occurs to me you don't wake up most mornings like me. Your life has questions. You have memories that haven't been dealt with. You have wind that still needs chasing.

I forget sometimes what it is like to be you.

I know the truth of the World, and I know the truth of life. I knew many many of the bad things way long ago, and to me it is so crazy how easy it was for it to be bottled up. A story to tell, but that story needed to wait for the right time.

So anyway my story was told. I overcame the 2nd time in my Spiritual journey, and 3rd time if you count me overcoming myself way back when. I always knew I had to hit the alligator on the head 3 times, and so far I've done it twice.

I assume a lot of things as all things are possible, so I believed my time would come at Thanksgiving sometime. There was a 5K where I PR'd in a short course. There was the foreshadow of what it would be like, and that was so much more than that. There was the day before I was scared that night, and woke up in the morning not scared.

So I know I have this thing to do. I don't know when it will take place, but I think I will when the time draws near. Pretty positive I won't be scared, but I may be a little. Not sure.

At this point in time the story is you. This story always was going to lead to repentance, and it seems like such a simple thing huh??  It isn't that we are right, it is that we cannot be who we'd like. The truth is simple in its simplicity, but people complicate things. For one they don't believe the truth, cuz they want more out of life. They want to chase wind.

Many many many people think they are right as they stand, and the truth speaks different. The truth can penetrate your heart even though your heart is filled with all kindsa bad stuff.

Instead of dealing with you, you turn the mirror, cuz it is too scary to look in the mirror. I asked for the mirror a long time ago. It is for you, because the eye we need to look inside ourself is blocked by a big log. So there are steps needed to be made.

I've come to realize much courage is needed, because, the World is harsh, and so are people.

It all seems so easy written on paper huh??  It is in a way, but we are the ones who complicate things, cuz we are a product of this World.

I know it is scary, and strength and trust are words I used a lot before.

Anyway, I guess there is always sometimes this:

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I did make myself a coffee today.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :))(

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz gaterzzzzzzzzzz.   :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Starting The Day Out Right.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I went to bed super early last night so I could catch up on sleep if I needed. I feel pretty good, and I am up early enough to get a good run in. Also I wouldn't mind a cup of coffee now, so maybe I'll buy some.

Yesterday was kind of relaxing. We had a real nice day out, and I should have done another round of leaves, but I didn't wanna. As I was biking home the city guys already picked up our leaves, so I didn't have to do what I probably wasn't going to do anyway.  :)  Lisa was tired, and just relaxing so I did the same.

Anyways I don't have much to talk about. I feel pretty good about me. The World is all screwy, and I didn't expect it to be any different. I remember a while ago I said I was taking everything away from you, and I guess I am.

Your groups, your flags, your uniforms, your Country, your Constitutions , your Religion or lack there of. These are things you cling to, which you think make you better than others. It helps make you right. Maybe it gives you a false sense of pride.

You were born into this World as a kid. Kids of different Countries go to different schools to learn different thing. None ever escape pride of Country. It is definitely in every curriculum. Many find the "right" religion, and that puts them on the right path.

Sadly all the religions are false, and our teaching is prejudiced. Eventually people have to step out of everything. Parents mean well, but they aren't perfect. You have to maybe ponder that maybe... Just maybe everything is wrong. If you are willing to take the proper steps you will learn everything is wrong.

If you go on the correct journey you will lose your fear of this truth.

Life is a serious thing. It will end in our death. We won't escape that. The World grabbed us from the beginning, and there was no escaping that. There is a way out though. A way to a better us, and you have to want it. It is obvious to us all we are not the best a person can be, and we should want to be.


Anyhow, I guess that is good.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love you All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't often give shout outs, but I like Angela Kidd's blog. I think it is by invite only, so it may be hidden, but I invited myself a long time ago. :). She is a courageous person.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

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xxoo.   :)

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Monday, November 16, 2015

Was Tired This Morning.

Hello, and good morning.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I was a little tired after  my early alarm went off so I slept more. I won't have time to run this morning. I may run when I get home from work.

Not much else going on with me. I thought I wanted to blog, but now I am not sure what to blog about, and not sure why I got up now.  :)

This weekend was pretty typical. I worked two jobs yesterday, and I work two jobs next Sunday too. Pretty soon someone will take over my 3:00 am shift on Sundays. They have a new person to do the whole frozen job. T-Tr, and Saturday night/Sunday morning. It sounds like I'll be doing the cleaning thing every other Sunday. So I'll have every other Sunday completely off, and Saturday is just a little shift. We are caught up on bills, and our vehicles are all fixed so it's all good.

Just a little life stuff I guess. Anyways I guess I don't have anything to blog about.  :)

Have a good day.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I gotta check the weather. Thought it was supposed to be nice again.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzz. Gaterzzzzzz.   ;)

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Decided To Buy Gas Station Coffee.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I didn't sleep all that great last night, but that may be good. I work 2 jobs tomorrow, so I'll probably sleep good tonight. I went out and got gas station coffee too. :)  as those of you following along know I rarely even drink coffee anymore. Maybe a cup every 2-3 weeks or so. Don't ask me why either, cuz I didn't really plan it. I just didn't really want it anymore.

As you know I don't watch the news either, cuz it just makes people mad. One cannot escape everything, so I know the World is still bad. Bad information is everywhere, and it doesn't matter where you were born. Most should agree that killing people is probably not that great a thing.

We have more important stuff to do. You aren't going to fix the World, cuz it isn't fixable. Too much bad information. Too much anger, too much hatred. Luckily you just have to worry about yourself.

Some I lose hope for, cuz they won't ever get the courage probably. They will just cling to whatever stuff they have accumulated throughout the years. They'll cling to things like good enough. They won't see inside their heart really to see help is needed.

It seems to me a dead end has been hit, and you will not be able to go one step further, unless you take the correct step. To view your whole life as it needs to be viewed takes vision. A vision you don't have, and one you won't get, unless you are willing to go all in.

This was never going to be easy, and I can't make it easy for you. I can only steer you in the right direction. Few will be able to go through with it, for whatever reasons.

Not much I can do.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. While getting gas station coffee I see it is good running weather. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D

Friday, November 13, 2015

Ya Gotta Wake Up Pretty Early.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good night sleep, and actually slept all the way to my early alarm plus. Thought about staying in bed, but I feel okay, and I want to run. I am doing a little cheating today. It isn't supposed to get terribly warm, and I have to pick up some groceries so I am driving to work.  :)

I thought of biking home yesterday, and picking up the truck cuz I had to deposit my check, and I thought I'd pick up some groceries, but the wind wasn't as horrible as I thought. In the morning it was a SW wind which is totally favorable on my bike to work. I think it switched to a little of a NW wind, so my bike ride wasn't horrible, until I went directly West. So I said fuck it, and biked to my bank. Not totally a fan of getting Hope excited cuz I am home, and leaving right away anyway.

So that is that. Anything else going on??  Nope not really. Seems like old times doesn't it??  Me getting up early and blogging??  Old times I don't think mean much to me. My life has been gone through with a fine tooth comb, and currently life is just this thing I do. Nothing terribly significant in any days of my life really. I am totally cool with this little existence I have. This life ain't no thing.

Other people I am curious to get to know better. Obviously that is a scary thing for people, cuz our life is made up of a lot of stuff. A lot of it isn't perfect either, and either are we. A lot of stuff people probably wonder why. Why are we the way we are. If it were up to our ability wouldn't we just be perfect??  Wouldn't the scales of justice be our intellect. Those scales are above our understanding.  Wouldn't our hearts be caring for those we should care for, and wouldn't our hearts be strong to reprove those who deserve it. We are not the best a person can be. Heck I have been given a promise that let's me go without fear.

My promise isn't that I am perfect. It is that everything I do will be worked with for good. Can you imagine??  That among so many other things is what makes me strong. I know you want to be strong, but there is a path. A way you must go. How do I know??  Cuz it is my job to teach these things. If you would have asked me during my days of living in fear I'd be doing that I wouldn't believe it. I wouldn't think it possible, cuz I know where the path of the false teachers lead. I wouldn't want that.

So really I won the lottery in my existence. Without a worry at all. I can even be of some help to you, as long as you take the correct path.

Your winning lottery ticket is right before you. Of course the way your heart is you would want the riches the Earth provides, and I am pointing you toward a greater and more enduring reward. If only one could overcome oneself huh??

That is your game though. You vs. You.

I'd really like to get to know you people. More than just the day to day stuff, but your heart will lead you in that, cuz you don't have the strength for that. Your journey will come from an invisible guiding hand if you choose to go on it.

That is entirely up to you though.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Sounds like the wind is still howling.

Love You All!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Wowza.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I woke up before my early alarm, and I wasn't sure if I was going to get up. I thought maybe if I did I could get a longer run in this morning. I've run every day this week. Ideally it would be really cool to wake up way early sometimes to do that, but I kinda plan on doing it Saturdays too.

Anyway I went back to bed to see if I could sleep more. I could. I fell asleep, turned my early alarm off, and slept some more.  :)  I can never really tell if I am tired or not. I typically always wake up feeling pretty good.

Yesterday went pretty good. For one thing I didn't see a lot of fluff, which is always nice. It was sunny and 63° when I got home, so Hope, and I sat outside. Today I wasn't planning on biking to work, cuz it is supposed to rain, but I don't hear anything yet, so I may check the weather. We'll see.

Other than that life moves on. Day after day after day. People live alone in their heads. Typically we all do mostly proper'ish stuff, so we can feel relatively pretty okay about us.

To each and everyone though there is more to you. You still are missing something to life. In your head is a way you are "supposed" to be, and you fail to live up to that. It is why we give lip service to various things. Also inside your heart is some pulling. Pulling you away from what you think you know to be true. For one thing you know your heart is not perfect.

We all have a lot of who gives a fuck in us. Where does one go to get a better heart?  What exercises dies one do??  If you know yourself not to be perfect what gives you the right to judge others??

The arrogant should always be avoided, cuz that is a troubled heart for sure.

Anyway having lived my life, and doing what I've done some stuff seems easy for me. When I told you to throw everything out that you believe, and that you were taught I was like big deal. This morning while I was thinking it probably is a big deal. Chances are I did my stuff at an earlier age then the people who read this. The earlier the better for all this stuff. We get entrenched more and more in life.

I still think it is a good idea to throw everything out, albeit scary. It is easy for me to say, cuz I know it will lead you in a good direction. At the end of the day your life is all about you. You need to get you all straightened out before you can help others.

Life is more than the day to day. You have more in you than the day to day. I imagine you wonder why you are the way you are, and what can lead to a better you. I know some things inside your heart. I know some of it you wish wasn't there. The truth of us is pretty nutty. What stops us from being the best a person can be??

Life ain't no joke is it??

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I renewed my library book so hopefully the weather is shitty so I can read today.

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Ya 'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

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Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Just Keep a Going...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I got a good night sleep, and actually got up before my early alarm. I was up, and just laying there so I thought I'd get an early start.

I keep this thing going, cuz it is my routine. I know there is some important stuff in here once in a while. Today, I don't really have much to talk about. On my mind are probably controversial things compared to the accepted human truths. As long as there have been Countries there have been young men dying for them. Is that a good thing??  Before you give your standard they taught me in 6th grade it was, think about it. Killing and being killed for dubious reasons at best is good??  You are a product of the World's propaganda, no matter what Country you were born in.

I'll give you a couple examples. 2 guys who flew bombing missions against Germany in WWII. Howard Zinn, and Joseph Heller. Dropping bombs on Cities to help the war effort. What they realized later or during is they were dropping bombs on people. People on the other side, but people are poor people, kids, and Moms and Dads. The decision makers drew the line in the sand. Obviously Germany was in the wrong in this War. That Country got high on success, and were led by an angry asshole.

Your best hope is to find a way out of the World of propaganda that leads people to do stupid stuff. Dying for one's Country is celebrated, but that person did not live a good life, and the people wearing suits and uniforms decided their fate.

Now your job if you choose to do it is find a higher truth. One where killing is not good. One where the religious people have no idea how to wield the sword, and collect wrong coins.

Your job is to seek out the truth.

Question, or better yet throw everything out. Everything you believe to be true, just throw it out. The actual truth stands on it's own. It doesn't use the wisdom of people it just is. If you hold onto stuff it just weighs you down.

You just have to seek the truth, and accept that maybe just maybe you are wrong. It shouldn't be too hard, cuz the truth of the matter is we are all wrong if we are just a product of this World.

The truth is hard, but it seems so easy huh??  It can't be that easy, cuz people are always hiding shit.

This thing goes so much better if people don't make Saints out of people who aren't. The truth has been missing from the World for Centuries. I gave up my coin a long time ago. I suffered much for various reasons to get where I am now. I have a great sword, cuz my eyes were opened to see what the sword is. I don't use it very often, cuz it does little good.  The only good I do comes from my help. I am just a vessel that can be used.

The ball is in your court. If you don't want to find the truth, then I have no use for you. The World is yours, and you can have it.

I just will not have any part in it, or you.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think the temps are still supposed to be good today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Also, you do know if you don't take the right steps you'll just end up angry, and bitter right??

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Another Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. My sleep was a bit strange. I napped for an hour or two before my bedtime, so I was a bit off. All it did was make me wake up a lot. They were pretty good wake ups, but one time I checked on the Bears, and the game was almost done, so it took me a while to fall asleep. I then woke up thinking my alarm was going to go off, but it was only 1:30 am.  I still had 1-1/2 hours til my early alarm, or 3+hours til the late one. Early alarm goes off, and I guess I feel pretty good.

Not a lot going on with me, and my life. I got the leaves done yesterday, which is nice. We have some more to fall in the back, and those leaves don't finish falling closer to Christmas. I don't think I'll have anymore to do in the front.  That is pretty nice.

So there you have it another day done. Today will be taco Tuesday, so there will be another day today too. :)  life just keeps going huh??  Day after day of this and that, and eventually we die. :)  the truth of this existence is clearly something different than what we think growing up.

Our lives are filled with all kinds of stuff. Things that made us happy. Perhaps pride in some things, and also some stuff maybe we are ashamed of. I've gone through my whole life. Plenty of fuck ups on my part. Plenty of selfish deeds. At some point I had a pretty good vision of me, and I was not impressed. I did find a way to a better me, and also the way to the best me possible. Currently I am in the middle. I am not worthless as I am, but I am not at my ultimate goal.

I wait for my final thing, and it ain't no biggie. You stand as everyone else who has walked this planet. A product of the Earth and this World. The best things you see are what your eyes see, and what the History books have led us to believe.

Back during that bad Summer when I learned the truth of life, it was a big deal. Eventually I learned the truth of me, and I was worth so very little. Currently I have been given a better coin, and none of it is from my power. I ain't nothing, and I never have been, but with help I am.

The truth of me is not scary, and not sad. I have this heart that seemingly has a continuous smile.

It's good to be me. You have some stuff to do still. You know all this though.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. After work today there is nothing I have to do, but make tacos. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzzz.  :)

Monday, November 9, 2015

A Pretty Good Sunday.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I worked from 3-8:00 am on Sunday with a good night sleep, so I was able to get some stuff done. All of my laundry is cleaned,  folded, and put away. Lisa's I folded, and put in a basket. All the dishes are cleaned, and put away. That was about it. I made dinner later on, but that is really all I had to do. After that there was nothing to do. I don't know what people do if they have time off. I run out of things quickly. I was thinking of blowing off football, but after watching a couple movies I did watch football. Not that I really cared about the outcomes.

Anyway it is good to start out Monday with all my clothes being in the designated spot. The next two weeks I'll work two jobs on Sunday, so I'll be a bit busier.

Anyhooo, I guess a good Sunday starts out a good Monday. I have time to run before work, so that is good.

Anything else going on??  Nope, not much at all. I guess I just woke up as I usually do. I know me, and I know the way I am. What does it look like inside you??  What is inside your head when you first wake up??  I know how I am, and why. I sorta in ways know how you are kinda. It is different.

I think most people would like to wake up feeling like I do, and there is no equation under the sun. It isn't eating the vegetables, or exercising the correct amount. It isn't doing the dishes or folding the laundry. My formula was a turn way back when. It started with me overcoming myself, and little did I know at the time was that made all the difference.

My story is different than the best things men and women think up to spend the hours of their lives. The truth of the matter is you cannot be like me how I am. It is not in your power. It isn't in mine either.

So yeah the great 'sacrifice' you are asked to make isn't one at all, but you cannot see it. You still remain weak, because society is your security. What men and women have past down from generation to generation is still your only truth. People were just as flawed during any generation.

I have been singled out to find the truth. It ain't no joke either. We must know that in some way, cuz our path leads to our death. That is a pretty significant thing.

Oh well, I guess it is time to run.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am really lucky to be me.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Lol, this blog. Can you imagine being assured 100% of the way you go??  It is quite a trip. :)

xxoo. :)

Laterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Rush, Rush, Rush.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I sleep like a champ on my day to sleep in. I don't typically go to bed much later than usual, and today I slept til 6:30 am. Crazy. Anyway, I kinda hafta rush cuz I gotta get a run in before work. I keep forgetting to switch my schedule to 10:00 am. It would give me more time, and I could probably have breakfast at my place of employment. I get a ridiculous 50% discount, and Saturday is my best time to take advantage if it.

Anyway, not really much on my mind. I wake up feeling like this most days, and I bet it is how we are different. What have I done to make me be this way?

I can tell you, but you will not be able to understand. How I feel is not done by me. Mostly upbeat is not me. The energy I have is not me. It is something that can be taken away. It was once too for a few days maybe like 7-8 years ago. I was unwilling to live like that anymore, so I gave up. I was so mad. I could not do anymore.

So in spite of my less than perfect self, I was picked up, and put on the right path. What does it all come down to??  None of who I am is special. I have help in every part of being. My strength is not my own. My upbeat heart is a gift. My energy is a gift. I can not make me the best a person can be. I have some pretty good qualities right now that let me help. I can be used as I am now even though I am not perfect.

How that works is right does happen before perfect. Perfect is unattainable on our own, but it is possible. What drives you crazy is you want to be right by being perfect, which is impossible for you. Your steps, if you decide to take them will help you deal with the darkness within, and the imperfection which scares you, and what you try to hide.

Strength comes before perfection. I use the word courage a lot, and courage is really consumed by fear. Fear is a friend, and I hope you have much, cuz fear, and courage walk hand in hand. They are strange bedfellows, but that is how it works. If you have no fear, that would probably be something to be scared about I'd think.

Anyway I gotta run.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for creasing!!!   :)

Hope a Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Should be a good day. Going to scout out a new recipe to cook tonight.

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D

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Friday, November 6, 2015

Tacos For Breakfast.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good night sleep last night. It sounds like it is raining, so I will probably drive to work. I had tacos for dinner last night. I totally forgot Lisa had a work thing. I am hungry now, so I am thinking tacos for breakfast. :)

Not much else going on with me. I have various sorenesses all over my body. Getting old sucks if you start using muscles you haven't used in a while. #sheesh.

Other than that not much going on. Heck, I don't even have anything to blog about.

Usually, I at least have something to say. I guess I can say I know some things of life. What are some things all people share in life??

Imperfection. None of us are perfect, but people are all out there judging and shit. Thinking they are better cuz they do this, and that. Perhaps cuz they think this and that.

To be human is a crazy thing. We are always dressing up in some fashion to be this "picture" of who we want to be, but inside us is this lonely person. Afraid to let people know us, cuz we may not know all our darkness inside, but we know some of it. Some demons are so overpowering some people can't even hide it.

I can see it, but can the person??  I don't really know.

I know people want to be strong, and act strong, but help is needed, and maybe people don't even think they need help.

You as a person are a slave to the World. Everybody is different. I imagine being born in Saudi Arabia is different than being born in Israel, etc...  You have no say in where you were born, which makes all thoughts of Nationalism pretty ridiculous in the truth version of life. We were all raised on the propaganda of the day though.

I think a lot of societies have some kind of messed up religious traditions in them. The truth stands alone. It doesn't need Country, Society, or anything. There is only one who was strong enough to overcome the World, and I learned way long ago when I threw everything about me out, that life is different than we think.

I think blogging is quiet, cuz people are scared. I know the truth of the futility of your life, but you don't want to take the step that goes in the right direction so you would rather stay silent.

I know it is scary looking into the great unknown fields I point you in, but I have stressed strength and trust, and this blog is approaching 1500 posts.

Time to put your big people pants on, doncha think??  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope a Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. It really is kinda weird us being on two different sides of life. Me knowing things you don't.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

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Haha.  Laterzzzzzzzz.   :)

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Just Some Things.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am okay. I was still a little tired, and was tempted to sleep til my late alarm, but what the heck.

Anyway, yesterday just out of the blue I looked at the shirt I grabbed, and it was from a race in 2008. I tried to think if I was blogging then. I don't remember what year I started this stuff. I had two blogs before this one, and who can remember the years.

If I take a look back then to what I am now, a lot has changed. I am so different. If I was looking for something out of life back then, I sure am not now. I have found all I need. It doesn't matter what year you look at past the Hospital days. There was always something I knew of my life. I've known a long time the one last thing I must do in my current form, but I did not have any ideas what the days would look like leading up to it. Now I don't worry about any of it.

I can tell you something of me. Last night after work we went for a boat ride on Jacob's boat. It was 70° and sunny in November. I don't drink beer hardly ever, but I had a few Coors Lights. Those are pretty good. I forgot. :)

Anyway, as we were finishing up there was a great sunset. Fantastic colors on the cloudless sky. I kept looking at it thinking that must be quite the spectacle. It really didn't do much for me. I think I kinda realized how lucky I am. I don't look to things from the outside to help me feel better, cuz I just feel good. I am just internally happy, because that is who I am now. My labor is done save one final thing, and I am allowed to live like this. Pretty lucky.

Another thing, as you are riding on Lake Macatawa, you can see a lot of nice waterfront houses. Jacob said he read something to the effect be happy with what you have, or else you will never be satisfied. There was this house that was way to big for whoever owned it, and he was like you keep wanting shit like that, and I don't know. Seems like it will screw up your life.

I thought to myself are people still like that??  Keep up with the Jones'es?? I think I remember the Chicago 'burbs being like that, but I am so far removed from that shit.

Most people I read seem to be so busy with other stuff they just hope they can get the dishes washed a couple times/ week, and all the clothes folded a couple times/ year. :)

Who knows, but I see shit, and I think of things, but most of all I am just really lucky to be me.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Going to get a little run in.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

I Woke Up To A New Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. It seems after this weekend I woke up to a new day. I wanted to do more. I wanted to sleep good, which I typically do. I don't know how to explain it, but I have a positive attitude about me staying healthy for once.  I mean I never get sick, but I get injured a lot. Sooooo that is that. I don't know what you call it.

Yesterday was pretty okay. I'll give you something about me. I wake up early a lot, and yesterday hope, and I had a good run. It was a * my legs are getting fatigued* run.  Haven't had that in forever.

Anyway I felt great. I biked to work on these tired legs, and worked my shift. I felt great though. I want to do more. I bike home, and I am tired. I want to bottle up my energy sometimes I have at the beginning of the day, and save it for later. I came home tired, but I sat down for a bit and then got a few things done in the yard.

Energy and desire are good things. I don't have any point to make, and I have nothing to prove to anyone, but this is just for me. I start off this new day at a pretty good weight. I never step on a scale, but I can put my hands around my wrists, and touch my middle finger to my thumb. That means I am at a good weight. :)

Soooo, that is that. What else is going on??  Not much at all. Living a life in this imperfect body, and doing as I feel. I have no questions that need to be answered, I have no worries about my future, and no concerns really. I can take life for what it has to offer, and I think I am pretty cool with most things.

I have a realistic outlook I guess you can say. I don't look to anyone to give my life meaning. I don't cling to things as a security blanket to say this here is why I am important.

I cannot explain me to you. I have an inner wall of joy I guess you can say. I didn't make it, and it is not in my power to make me feel like this. Today is a new day, and we will see what comes of it.

First off, I am going to get a run in.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Going to be another nice day today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Some a Days Everything Seems Clear...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept good last night. I had one of those wake ups where you are not sure what time it is. Is it time to get up?? Close??  It was 11:30 PM. Not quite. I love that. So I have been up a bit before my early alarm, just thinking of stuff.

Wondering how my day will pan out. I was able to skate out of work a little early yesterday, today I have more to do. Yesterday I did not sleep all that great, and last night I had a good night sleep. I have some stuff to do when I get home.

Anyway, what I was thinking about was me. How I feel on the inside. My whole life has been dealt with, and there is nothing in my past I worry about.  I am not afraid or ashamed of anything in my past. My future is wide open as to how I live my life.

I know why I feel the way I do, and I cannot really explain it to you that great. I cannot help you walk in my shoes, but I know your shoes are not as good as mine. You are missing something and you are not sure what.

I kinda feel bad for you, cuz you are not content. Something has to matter. What is the meaning of all this time on Earth??

You know what a tough thing about life is??  I'd say just my walk. If there was a sacrifice or a labor I could do to get what I wanted, I would have done it long ago.

My story was predetermined. At least as far as I see. There was no sacrifice to make, and no labor under the sun. There were words like wait, and patience, and seek. Words of faith not of action.

I've labored plenty, but really it was just my path, and me learning the way.

A life of learning about life, and a life of learning about me.

Anyways my whole life is ahead of me, at least for someone who approaches 50. I don't have a care in the World, cuz my path is well lit.

I can help you very very little, cuz you still have to do your tough stuff. It is a good place to be in life not worrying about anything, which might be imperfect in your life. All lives are filled with that shit too.

We can try to dress it up, but it all still remains. How to get to the spot where we are not afraid or ashamed of us.

If only there was one to teach the way.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Pretty excited about my run I'll be taking Hope on.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH. :)))

xxoo

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Monday, November 2, 2015

Might As Well Start This Day Super Early.

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am done sleeping, so I figured I would just get up now. I was just laying there thinking of things. That is fine, but I remembered I still haven't finished my book, so I might as well do this, and get a run in, and read my book.

So a lot of stuff happened this weekend. First off I get an email from a buddy of mine who lives in the St Louis area telling me two things. First off where I used to work they are opening a store in Independence, Missouri. It is Harry Truman's hometown. He told me it reminded him of the baseball leagues we were in for a bit. My name was the Independence Haberdashers in honor of Harry S. KC just won the WS, and independence is real close to there.

Also he heard a rumor the guy who fired me got himself in trouble at work. The rumor it sounds is true, later corroborated by Lisa. She saw some people where we used to work, and that is what they think happened too.  It is really bad for him, cuz he probably was making $110-$120,000/year.

You don't replace those types of jobs in retail. Not sure if he is fired or demoted, but sounds like there was alcohol on his breath from drinking the night before, and he drives a company car. Alcohol is one thing. Demote the person, send him somewhere in Antarctica like the Twin Cities, but the company car is a brutal wrench. Who knows.?

I got fired making $30,000/ year. I didn't have so far to fall. I was kinda thinking about people who I got to know doing this stuff, and some lives look very different for what that is worth.

Anyway I got to thinking of myself, and I wondered if I could change my life a bit.  It is an easy thing for me to do, because I am not really tied up in anything. Me changing is maybe me doing more running, and other things. Many times after work, I'd have a couple drinks, cook a meal, and fall asleep early. I have plenty of time to do more productive stuff.

I don't think I'd quit drinking alcohol like I did coffee, but maybe I can make a little change, and see what that is like.

So, I also got to thinking about this blog.  Haha. :)

I think of me, and this blog, and I think of others. It is very hard to see how some people think, and how their lives are.  I know me, and the webs of life don't control me. I look in my heart, and it is strong. It is like protected with an unseen shield, and nothing can penetrate it.

Wanna know what happened??  Way back when for that short while of me being full in spirit, I was right, and I was secure. I trusted being full in Spirit. That was taken away, and so was my security. That led to my Summer, and the reproving outside the garbage room at Bromenn Healthcare. I was obedient to go solo, and I lived in constant fear that whole Summer.

I went through that physical depression. My weight jumped from 130-170. I met Natalie, started riding the exercise bike, and some running. I never really felt that great til the energy returned. There was nothing I could do for myself. The things I wanted were not mine to take, so I lived a life waiting. For what exactly who knows, but I knew things were happening once I started reading the running blogs.

Anyhoo, what I really meant to say, besides getting understanding, I do have security, and I have it while being poor in Spirit. I just figured that out. Way back when I wanted to be full in spirit, cuz I wanted security.

The secret to that is we think we know what we need to feel better about stuff, but that may not be the case. We are really dumb, when it comes to this type of stuff.

I tell you one thing though, I feel really good about me, and pretty happy, and excited.

I know I can be a hard ass on this thing, and sorry about that. I just don't know where everyone went. :)

Anyhooooo, I guess that is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xos!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Sorry so long, and also I took a trip to independence to check out Harry's library, and saw a KC game in like 2000 or something

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D