Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Just Getting Something Down...

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. We had to leave work early, cuz we didn't have enough supplies, so I've already got a bit of sleep in. I'll run later on, but the plan today is to stay in bed and read. It is a luxury.

Other than that not too much going on with me. Living this silly little life. I guess I have been through some things that really aren't silly at all. It is nuts too, because I learned so much, and I share stuff here, but it really doesn't do much does it??  So what's the purpose??

I mean I learned the real meaning of life. I faced my final judgement twice. Not people judging like I cheated on my girlfriend, or I failed at such and such, but the real one. It was not a favorable judging, and I was given the strength to accept it. The next one will be a doozy, because it will not be a favorable one either, and I go where no one wants to go.

I know it will be bad, and I know I will suffer greatly, but that is where understanding lives, and that is what I seek. It will be at this point I will be the best a person can be.

I am nothing special, and I surely ain't some great person. I am lucky. I know it must be hard kinda too, because what if I stood in your shoes, and read someone like me??  You need a good heart to listen. You need not harden it, because that isn't courageous at all. Yes you have to do tough stuff, because all you believe now falls short.

You are a child of this World, and you seek child like knowledge from this World. I teach you other things. Not of this World. I know I know lowly old me. I have help. I  not who I would be without it.

Just so you know.

that is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  I took a day off from running yesterday. I decided to after my blog. :)

Love You All    xoxoxo xoxoxo

Ya'All are the best   xoxoxo xoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

MWAH!!!   :)

Monday, January 26, 2015

Books, Runs, And Meals...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I got a good night sleep last night, and I feel refreshed.   I work tonight, so I get back to my regular working schedule, which is actually quite good for me.  There isn't much in life to do, so it is always good to work.  At least for me.   Some people like quite a bit of time off, and I don't think I've ever really been a huge fan of it.  It is just how I am. 

So anyway, I had another good run yesterday, and I am just as fast now as I was before my NYE 5K.  I don't know exactly how fast my 5K time is right now, but I think I will gear for the April 5K season. This will be the year of the 5K, and 10K for me.  I should step on the scale sometime, because I looked at myself in the mirror, and I looked skinny again.   Like maybe 165 lb. skinny.  Hard to believe in my younger years I was once 150, and even at one time 130.  Yikes.  

Also I know what happened in the book.  The author lets us know around 2/3 of the way through.  The wife is kinda psycho, so she is weird, but we don't know how this plays out.   I am glad I am reading the book though.   It gets me a truer picture of life in a way.   This author is a good writer.  I read what she has to say, and I look at all the stupid crap people want to show, and there is a big disconnect, between the true gross nature of life this author points out, and the candy canes, and chutes and ladders World you think there is.   Many people are really messed up, and having kids probably makes people worse.  Why??  They want to raise their kids in some kind of silly chutes and ladders shell of a World, and the World is way the Hell different than that. 

There are video games played hours on end, porn sites people visit.  Wars, and murders, and gangs and drugs, and shit like that.   That is real life.  There are hookers, and strip clubs, but everyone would have you believe in some form of chutes and ladder World that quite frankly isn't there.  So I may step on some toes here, but if you have kids, you probably messed yourself up.   I get it, because the natural thing to do is to try and raise your kids in some shell of a World to keep all the bad stuff out.   Truth, honesty is one thing.   It is a good thing even though a lot of the truth is gross.   Shell living in Chutes and Ladder land leads to misery.   Anything that isn't the truth is bad.   Just take that as a statement of truth. 

So you parents have it hard.  

Anyway, I gotta finish my book, and I am going to go for a run in a bit.   I will probably make a cup of coffee too.   :)  Shit, my title.  We had tacos last night.   I like my meals.   :) 


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I told you the truth will be the hardest thing you ever do.   Why??  It goes against the grain of human nature, and against the Current of the World.   The Fall of man was when he first started to hide, and that is what humans do.   We hide all our shit, and paint everything in some form of chutes and ladders land.   The truth will bring you back to the correct way, but it won't be easy, and you will need help.   No one is strong enough to stand up to the World.   I know you sure aren't. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D  

MWAH!!!    :)

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Who Knows??

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I had a good night sleep last night, and actually I have already been up for quite a while.   The title today is because I have absolutely no idea what I will be blogging about today.  There is literally nothing much on my mind at all.   :)

Anyways, as I stated yesterday I started reading the Gone Girl book.  It is good.   I am about halfway done, and I have no idea where this thing is headed.   I recommend it, even though I haven't finished it.   Yesterday I had a good run too.   A little 3 miler, that let me know I am still in relatively pretty good shape.

Other than that not much going on with me.   Today is a day off, and Lisa has a day off.  I am going to be running in a bit.   Seems like it is warm outside, as I let Hope out.

That is it.  My little life filled with regular type days.  This is all life is too btw.   Whether you are World Famous or not life is just filled with regular type days.   All those glamor stories about lifestyles of the rich and famous are just stories.  Fairy tales.  Guys are still cheating on their wives, and wives on their husbands,  and doing drugs, and getting drunk, and eating meals.   They just do it with more money.

The secret to life is not about the fabulous, even though that shit looks great I guess.  I really did find the secret of life I guess, and in that way I am lucky.   I don't have to strive for things.   My heart is good, and in good hands you know??

To be who I am, and to do the things asked of me I am finding out is so ridiculously impossible it is bordering on hysterical. 

How can I with my words get through to people like you.   Impossible huh??   So I need help, and I get it.   Your lives are filled with stuff, and it is this stuff that makes you think of things in a different light than maybe you would have if I didn't do this.

That is just a guess, but probably a pretty good one.

Anyway, you know me, and you know what I am about.   :)

That ain't so horrible is it?? 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   Been a while since I got into a book.  I am glad.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D 

 MWAH!!!  :)

Saturday, January 24, 2015

What A Week...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I feel really well rested, and I am going to go on a run in a bit.   I took a couple days off running.  One of the days I was beat, and yesterday between coming home with a sore knee, and not being able to fall asleep etc... it wasn't going to happen.  Wasn't in the mood anyway to be honest. 

Today I feel really good though as I said.  It is the start of my weekend, and I am going to get a couple things done around the house, and make lasagna for dinner.   I may start reading a book in between.   You wanna know what book I've been eying??   Gone Girl.  Don't as me why, but my wife has it, and I know they made a movie about it, so what the heck.   I have no idea what it is about, but I know Lisa wanted to see the movie when it came out, so why not.  

Other than that this is totally what my life is like for those who pay attention.   Deal with stuff, and deal with it pretty quickly, and back to me being me.   I am lucky like that.   Yesterday I dealt with stuff, and it was totally clean.   No angry out of me, and nothing really left me.   People's lives have sorrow, and I guess in a way I have to deal with some of it from some people.   I like when it is clean like yesterday.   It is just sads, but good sads, and dealt with in a good way.

Sooooo, that was a crazy week.   Like I said though today is the weekend, and I am excited for it.   I guess there are two ways in which you and I are different.   One is me dealing with stuff like yesterday, and one is me being able to live my life feeling like I do right now.  

You know what that means right??   That means I win, and that means it sucks to be you.  :)

LOL


That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  ehhh, I don't really have a p.s.   Oh well.   :)  

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D

MWAH!!!    :)


Wednesday, January 21, 2015

I Think I Lost You Somewhere...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing okay.  I have not gotten enough sleep yet, but we can worry about that later.  I work both jobs today, and I am going to go in really early to the first one.   I was kind of dreading it last night, but this morning I am excited about going in.  Also, I am going to get my run in right after this.   For the time being I just switched back to the little 3 milers I was running.   I enjoy them, and they do help me to get in shape.  The longer distances will be a wait and see type of thing. 

Anyway, other than that every thing is going okay'ish.  We are behind on a couple bills, and trying to get all that crap straightened up. It happens.   I switched my taxes around, as I had them taking out a lot when I was working 2 part time jobs, and now that I am full time I don't have to do that.   Enough gets taken out.   So it is like I gave myself a raise, and actually last night I got a $1/hour raise.   :)

So that is that.   It is just my life, and it is one of those things where there isn't much to see.   :)  I feel good when I do this sometimes, although I wasn't happy about my last post that much, because I don't like those much.  I only write what is in my heart, and what I am thinking though at the time, and it may not always come out pretty I guess. 

Where do we go from here??   Good question.   I know people seem to try to hold onto their life, and prove the worth of their actions, but in the questions pertaining to things I talk about outside of the World, and stuff there isn't much there. 

All along we've been taught in some form or another.   Good job, you've done good, now go do your best.  (or some variety of that)  

I have been telling you that teaching falls short.  Human Beings fall short.   It is our nature.  That I have been going on and on is pretty crazy.   I feel like we really have done very little kinda, but I guess it is hard to see all that has gone on. 

It is impossible for me to see how this goes from here.   As a matter of fact I think this entry is pretty much full of nothing.   It seems I lost you, and maybe it is because you don't even know your lost.  

You think you have the answers and you already found them, but that is the human thinking since forever.   I am teaching different stuff.   Maybe it is stuff you don't want to know, or deal with, but is is the real truth.   This is what life is about, and there are things that need to be done, if you want to be found, and value the things that really are of value in the long(est) run. 

Oh well, I am just touching base, as I have been known to do.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Life is hard, and then you figure it is made up of all us imperfect people with imperfect knowledge.   No wonder we blow each other up.   Hard to believe people don't think this World is horrible. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Monday, January 19, 2015

A Little Of Me, and Maybe A Little Of You

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I slept great last night, and slept a lot. I slept through all but maybe the 1st quarter of the  packer game, and all of the 2nd game, and for a few hours even after that. That's a lot of sleep.

Anyway, I wanted to explain something about me.  I cannot do anything to improve me.  I have one more step in my life, and I cannot make it happen. There is not one activity I can or cannot do to make me a better person. Any sort of sacrifice I make is just that. A sacrifice of no use. My work is done, save one thing.  The timing isn't up to me.

You have something you can do to make yourself a better person. It isn't about kids, and families, and getting in shape, and taking pictures. It is only about a turn. Something that will "lead" you in the proper direction.

Why wouldn't you ? You know you are not as good of a person as is possible. Exercising doesn't increase your chances of being better.

For those of the religious type. You know the teachings. You know you don't have the Holy Spirit in you right??  That is something you would know. So if that is the case what are your redeeming qualities??

Best in show from society??

I fit into my clothes nicely??

Labor??

We are born wrong on this earth. Having kids doesn't make you a better person, and really nothing will make you much better.  There are steps that need to be made, and a process I guess for the things in which you must do.   You are not the author of this journey.   In things pertaining to this you walk blindly, save what you may learn from this blog.

You are not the best a person can be, and trust me, there is a best a person can be.   You need to be made into that.

It is a choice sure, and what is your goal in life??

Shouldn't it to be the best version of you possible??

If not why not??

The difference between me and you is I have already done all the steps.   My personal journey is over, and you have done none.   There is still a lot to do for those who want to.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  Sorry about being brutally honest, but sometimes you need it.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxo xoxoxo

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Now for really cya cya cya   :D   :D

MWAH!!!   :)

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Happy Weekend To Me...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I got off work early last night, and my weekend started a few hours early.   Today Hope and I are going to get a run in.  I am going to do laundry, and I am thinking burritos for dinner.   Sounds nummy huh??   I think so too. 

I already drank one cup of coffee, but I think I will make another.   Hold on a sec...

Okay coffee is brewing.   Did you know that we have one of those keurig one cup of coffee makers??   Our best investment ever.   I typically only drink coffee in sums of one cup.   Today I am making two, but typically that isn't the case. 

Anyways, what is going on with me??  Not much at all.   I am excited for the weekend.   No big plans or anything, but I am off work so that is good.

Wow, I have absolutely nothing really on my mind.  You know what??  That's okay too. 

I am not going to say this is my stupidest blog update ever, but it is pretty close.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   I hope no one was expecting a list of 100.   Some people are just more driven and motivated than me.   Maybe some day if the stars align, I may try a list of 5.   ;)   HA HA   j/k

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D 

MWAH!!!  :)

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Shooting From The Hip...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing pretty okay.   I didn't get enough sleep yet, but I woke up wide awake.   You know you didn't get enough sleep when you go to bed probably 6 hours after your wife, and you are up before her.  I don't know why this happens all the time, but I guess it is okay.

I feel fine, and I can get a run in.  I'll do some dishes and stuff, and then I will relax and nap sometime this afternoon.   Actually if I nap early enough anyway, I may wake up in time to hang out a bit before work.

So what is going on with me??  Not much.   Not much at all.  Just doing this life thing as I have been known to do.  I had a weird thing happen yesterday in between jobs.   I was in a pretty good mood, but everything turned strange.   Do you ever get that where you are like, God, am I boring.   OMG people are boring too.   WTH???

Life is a pretty fragile thing.   People are probably always being pulled to say the "right" thing.   Don't want to hurt people's feelings, and what is the "socially accepted" way to handle this and that.  Here is where you and I differ.  I don't have to say the right things typically, because I just don't.   You put me in a social setting, and chances are I am not an asshole.  I may seem like an asshole in the electronic World, but typically I am just being silly.   Saying asshole random things.

I can lose my temper, and many have seen it, but who hasn't??   Also there are socially accepted ways to act too I guess, and I don't bother with that crap.   Why you ask??  I don't have to.   My heart = stronger than the World, and let me tell you what, in that way me and you are different.

You are still a part of this World, and I pretty much have been taken out of it in a way.  This World is a like a amusement park for adults.   So many bells and whistles, and so many things to do and look at.  That is all it is though.   You ride the rides for a bit, and eventually your like shit this place sucks.   Eventually you grow up, and next thing you know you are smack dab in the middle of your life, and there ain't shit here for you.  Just the daily grind.  The days fly by, and eventually major shit will happen to shake up your World. 

The World is a great big wind, and there are many distractions, and the people keep chasing , screaming I want I want I want.

We are born into this world wrong, and it takes a LOT to make us right. All the teaching save this here falls short. All avenues less one lead nowhere. I could go on. I wont though for now.  :)

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

Xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  i have a pimple on my ear. 2nd time in a month. Wth??

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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now for really really cya cya cya.   :D    :D

MWAH!!!!   :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Wowzers...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing very very good.  Holy cow you ask me that yesterday, and I would have said, "UGH"

Me and my life are well documented.   Sometimes I am taken aside to do things.   Things that if asked I am not sure if I would want to do them.

The pain in people's lives is real.  It is hard, and the most important things in our lives much of it is hidden, because our hearts are hard.   That is the path I offered you.   Your own personal journey into your life.   From beginning to end, because it is NECESSARY as part of your way to becoming a better person.

Dealing with your anger, and your general attitude of wanting to see people die, instead of finding a way to forgive.   Like I said our hearts are hard, and we are not as good of people as we can be.

Isn't that worth everything??   To be a better version of yourself.   To make you the best person you can??   If you had to go out on your own, and do the things I've had to do I don't recommend it.  :)   My job was very hard, and when I have to do more tough stuff, I don't like it.

Even so as yesterday's post is any example, when all the good of me was taken out, what did I do??  I still reached out to give whatever was left, and then I tried the rest of the day to get some sleep.   :)   Took sleeping pills that finally worked.   :)

It will tell you to bear one another's burdens is a good thing, but if you had to look squarely in someone else's life, and feel 100% of their pain, you would not think that is really fun stuff.  Especially when it takes every part of you to do this.   It is good, and the reason I take to low parts after is the worst of the worst is dealt another blow.

When I take shit it is good.  I don't always know how it will turn out for the person, but a good thing has been done.

I was thinking of working today, but I don't think I wanna. I'll probably need to nap sometime before work. Also, I am going to take the hopester for a 3 mile run.

Always good to be rejuvenated.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone Has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

Xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Waiting on the run til it gets warmer than zero degrees. Don't think I want coffee either. I may try one cup.

love you all xoxoxo xoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really cya cya cya   :D    :D

MWAH!!!   :)


Monday, January 12, 2015

Birthday Flowers

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.  I haven't been to bed yet, so that sucks.   I think I may go for a run after this to help make me tired.   My streak is over, I did not run yesterday.  Probably good in the long run.

What a day yesterday was.   Had to do something which I really don't like to do.  I get no warning at all when I do this.  It is very hard stuff.  











Anyway, these are my Birthday pictures.   I don't put flowers on my blog very often, and it really is a select few who get them, so that is my way of saying you are important.   :)   If the person reads this she will know it is for her. 


Anyway, what is going on with me??  Not much.  My sleep is jacked as you can tell, and I gotta be honest, I don't like having to do what I did yesterday.  It is really hard, and there has to be an easier way.   I have been pulling on this thing for quite a while, and your lives are going on.   Bad things happen in life, and you have to learn the lessons of them.  

You are a fragile person, and you are not on the right path.   You cannot handle all the pain you will be dealing with in your life.   It is hard stuff, and to see it as clearly as I did yesterday is horrible.  

I am going to need help from you people. You have to step up.

Anyway, I am just getting something down. Tuesday will be much better, because I will be back to work. :)  I am weird like that.

That is it for today!!!   :)

thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

Xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  If I follow your blog your posts show up in blogger just so you know. I don't comment 100% of the time, but I like to try. You know what I am about, and what I want.

Love You All. Xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxo xoxoxo

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Now for really cya cya cya  :D   :D

MWAH!!!

Saturday, January 10, 2015

On A Day Like This...

The possibilities are endless.   Not really, but I have a day off, and I can do whatever I want.   This is my first legit 2 days off after working a full week in forever.   I know I had one of those during the Holidays, but it was all weird cuz it was the Holidays.  This is a legit work week, and legit days off.   :)   It is the little things I guess. 

Anyway, I do have plans.   Snow blow and shovel the driveway.  I have laundry to do, and I can do some cleaning up too.   We have our Work Holiday party tonight, so we'll be going to that.  I gotta get a run in too.   My streak is still alive, but it almost wasn't yesterday.   I went out to check the driveway to shovel, and stuff, and it wasn't horrible.  I decided I had time to get a 'get a run in run'.   So me and Hope were able to do that.  It was actually pretty fun, because toward the end we had to run through snow drifts and stuff.   :) 

So my day is pretty set.  I didn't get a ton of sleep, but whatever.  I feel okay.  What else is going on??  Not really much.   Just doing this life thing, and trying to have fun. 

Life is a strange thing for us human folk.   You are born into this World, and our parents, and schools taught us stuff.  Different Societies are set up in different ways.   We get bombarded with other people's idea of life and stuff. 

I was able to throw everything away a long time back.   Surely I didn't know what I was doing really, but the logic was sound, and now I know how IMPORTANT it was.  Growing up = you are messed up. 

Why??  You never ever went out to seek out your own truth.   You just accepted the crap that has been handed down for generations in your Society, and community.  This World is flawed.   Societies are flawed.  We seek for some great meaning to this life.   We seek out heroes.  There are none.  

This life ends in one place, and one place only.  It ends in our death.   There are no heroes, because as much as this World is flawed, so are people.   We are sheep, who have been herded by our limited learning from flawed Societies and flawed humans.   Books are written by flawed people, and movies are just that.   Politicians are fake as Hell, and why would you trust any of them.  

Who do you trust??   What do you trust??? 

I guess you can probably trust what you read here.   I went through great lengths to get where I am at.   I gave up my coin long ago, in hopes for something better.    There is something better.  

You are not getting any younger that is for sure.  

People are difficult.  You tell them the truth, and they don't believe you.   You give them good info, they ignore you. 

I guess that is fine, but it really comes down the people believe in themselves I guess, and they don't really understand how flawed their learning is.  

Two sides to us.   The arrogant side, and the one who deep down is seeking for something better.   Some meaning.   A reason.

I am after the weak side.   I don't give a crap about you if you want to just hide in your shell.   Everybody does that. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   Yesterday was kinda cool.   I forget what a goof I was in my life sometimes.   :)   LOL

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

MWAH!!!    :)

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The Stupid Things We Do...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I ain't horrible, but I am tired as Hell, and I am dreading running.   It is like a feels like temp. of -17 or some shit.  This week has turned into a just get a run in type of week.   Today I only plan on running like a max of 2 miles, and maybe less.  I have a 2 mile route I can easily cut short.   :) 

Remember those days long ago (2 weeks ago) where the weather was perfect for Winter running??  Sheesh some days I was just running in shorts.   You weren't running on snow, so damn, I felt like I was getting fast??  Plus I was only running 3 milers anyway, and I thought??   Geeesh, I can probably run every day.   New Years comes around, and now I hate myself.   I am the biggest idiot, and obviously the last thing on my mind are my best interests.   What a jerk face I am.  

Anyway so that is that, I have to run, and probably shovel.  We'll be getting like a million inches of snow starting today, and through tomorrow.   How the fuck am I going to get a run in tomorrow with that crap??? 

Light is at the end of the tunnel though.   Starting on Sunday and as far as the eye can see temps will be upper 20's to lower 30's, so that is much more manageable and pleasant'ish.  Really nothing else going on with me.   Still doing this life thing.   Some exciting shit.   :) 

I have no idea how other people live, and what is on other people's minds.   What do people do to fill the time of their lives??  Do you ever wonder??  Watch tv??  read books??  Time keeps moving, and the day is filled with 24 hours.   I assume people sleep anywhere from 5-8 of those hours.  Time goes so fast, and the years cruise by, but why is the day so fricken long??

To make the most of any day what is that??  Our jobs?? Online shopping??  You get home from work what do you do?? Cook a meal, and drink a bottle of wine?/  That is what I'd do.  What else is there to do??  What of anything matters?? 

All the deeds and things we do really don't matter.   We are not making the World a better place, and people a lot of times are still just people.   The same annoying people (many of them) doing the same annoying things. 

Let's take a look at me??  What of any of my life matters??  What of any significance am I??  Not really much is there??  I do this thing, and I assume it probably is nice to have someone just throw everything out there for people to see, but I know the limitations of this thing here.  

It is just words, and thoughts.   Some information too, because that is stuff that is given me here and there.  I don't know what this does really. 

Life is such a sad and lonely thing kinda for people I bet. 

I am me though, and I've had my life, and regardless of all, it ain't horrible to be me.   :)  Better than being you that is for sure.   :)   HAHAA

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Actually I feel better after my cup of coffee, and doing this.  The sun just popped out too.   WHAT????!!!

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Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Hazz Blog, And Will Use It...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I ain't horrible.   I got more sleep than normal, and maybe it is cuz I stayed up after work for a couple hours.   Reason I say that is when Lisa got up I was still sleeping.  A lot of times I might wake up when she gets ready for work, and sometimes when I am awake, I am AWAKE.  Today which promises to be a FULL day, I am glad I got some sleep.  I can get ready and work a few hours, and still chill for a bit before I run. 

There isn't a lot on my mind, but I have been known to throw a blog entry down here and there.  It is cold out there, but I don't think the temp will be fluctuating much from the 9-11 degree range.  The wind doesn't look horrible either, so it could be worse.    One of the guys from work said last night we were supposed to get anywhere up to 10" of snow last night too, and we got very little.   That is good.  :) 

Since I don't have anything at all to blog about, I think I will make a list of observations.   Some might be good, and some might be bad.  Not sure.   We'll see what comes out. 

  • Why people have to spend so much time thinking about money is probably dumb
  • Not that we are dumb for doing it, but dumb, cuz life is that way
  • Rich people aren't much happier either, cuz they are all getting divorced and shit too.
  • Kind of a disconnect huh??   We think the security of money will make us happy, but it doesn't
  • In that way the World is fucked up.  
  • In that way the World fucks us up.
  • Maybe becoming S.B. champs will make us better people.   Shit, Ray Rice is still fucked up.
  • There is a lot to life here for the living, and impossible for us to know it all.  
  • Hard enough to know the things we have control of.
  • The World is a big and busy place.   
  • Our lives are busy too.
  • All we know is what we have been taught, read, or figured out on our own.  
  • What if all that shit is wrong???  
  • Not wrong in the science is wrong and stuff, but wrong in that isn't the shit that matters.  
  • What if the people were given good information, but did nothing...
  • What then??  
  • Now that is a good question.   

I guess that is it for today!!

I ain't going to do the whole thing, cuz I ain't feeling it.   :)

Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Hope Wants To Run Too...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay, but I feel a little tired.  I am just going to get a short run in today through the snow.   I can run on the snow melt, but Hope doesn't like seeing me get dressed in my running clothes and having to stay inside.   She is annoying like that.   :)  I feel bad seeing her sad puppy dog eyes.  I am well into several runs in a row, and feeling normal aches and pains, but nothing that a good little short snow run cannot help. 

It isn't like I have run a thousand million miles, mostly pretty short, but tomorrow is speed work day, so that will take a bit of a toll.   It will just be hills, and I will only do 4 hard ups, and recover downs.   I believe the loop is 3/4 of a mile I will be doing. 

So, I am tired today, so I plan on working at the grocery store tomorrow, before speed work, so that is a recipe for being a bit tired tomorrow.   :)  What can you do??   I've needed a haircut about two weeks ago, and I should do that sometime too. 

Other than that same old theme same old life.   It just keeps going on and on and on.  We are full of snow and cold, and Winter really. 

Me, and you are different people that is for sure.   I know things of life, and I know things of people.   I know our shortcomings, and the shortcomings of all of humanity.   The World teaches us we are special, and unique, and good in some way, but our hearts aren't perfect.   Our thoughts aren't perfect.  

Here is the whole crux of the problem too.  Our hearts typically aren't as good as we'd like.   Seems like we should be better people, but how does one go about doing that??  There are no books to read to make for a better heart.   There are no exercises we can do to make us give a crap more, and maybe that is what this blog has been about the whole time. 

The truth is really one thing and one thing only.   You coming to terms with the fact you are not a Saint.   What that means in the long run.   You don't have babies as a way to become a Saint, and you don't run races on your way to be a Saint.  You don't work 90,000 hours/week on your way to be a Saint. 

Words like coming to terms really mean the truth of you.   What you show means nothing, what you are means everything.   You, and your heart, and your thoughts, and what you are about.   All the things you think about in private, and all the things you do in private really aren't private.   Everything is still seen, and I know, it sure would be a heck~u~va lot easier if the effort we put in would make us into better people.  

In my story, and my life I had to find out who I am, and what I am worth.   I am worth the coin I spoke of last year.   I was able to multiply my coins, and it wasn't me who did it.  I had to be led in the direction to do what I had to do.  

I had to be placed in circumstances that made me go through some things.   I had to spend a whole Summer living a life of the condemned.  It is what happens when you find out unbeknownst to you that you have become the worst of the worst, even though all you wanted was to be good.  

It is a crazy story, and they all are.   Reality is probably just a little bit crazier though.   Look at some of you.   :)   HAHA    I keeed.    ;)

Anyways, just touching base.   I blogged yesterday, but it was horrible, so I deleted it.   :)  You'll have days like that.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)))


p.s.  Guess it is time to get my little run in.    I don't wannna though.    ;)

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Sunday, January 4, 2015

WOAH Nellie Did I Sleep In...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me,  I am doing pretty good.  I slept in pretty late, and yesterday the snow turned into rain, and then it turned to below freezing, and then it turned into snow again.  So all the snow is stuck on the trees.

I don't have much going on today, and not a lot on my mind.  I got a good run in yesterday.  It was 8 miles like I wanted.  There was freshly fallen snow, so it wasn't exactly easy, not to mention we run in the hilliest part of Holland, so it was  a good challenge.

We have bitter cold coming our way, and snow forecasts as far as the eye can see, so I imagine I will be doing some running on the snow melt over the next week or so.  We'll see how the plows keep up.  We have people who plow our sidewalks too, so usually you can run all year round on the sidewalks.

Anyway running seems to be going good.   I am just going to go for a little two miler today nice and gingerly.  :)  I have some sore muscles after my run yesterday.  I have a feeling I will be seeing a lot of slow short runs this year.  :)  HAHA

Other than that not much going on.   Probably just football today, and dinner, and let the clock keep moving and time keep going. 

There really is no finish line in the day to day.  Life just keeps going on, and one day you'll wake up old.   You spent all your time filing bills, and accumulating stuff, and whatever fills our day to day.   Where does it all end??  Only finish line in our future is the final one.  The one where everything done to that point doesn't matter. 

Weird huh??   What do I think about it??   I think I won the game of life.   I won the lottery, and I have no idea what that means to you, but I keep plugging along.   Doing whatever it is this thing does, and living my life the way I want.   Always ready to do my final thing I guess.

Today I will get my little gingerly run in.  :)  LOL

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s. Going for the 2nd cup of coffee first. :)

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Saturday, January 3, 2015

I Only Got A Couple Minutes.

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good, although right now I am a bit rushed.   Typically on Friday nights I'll work til 4:00AM.  Due to the weird schedule this week I only worked til midnight, so I figure I can meet up and run with Alan's group this morning.  It won't happen often, unless I feel like running long on 3 hours of sleep.  So today I will have company, but probably won't very often. 

Today will be my first long run in forever, and I probably will only do like 8 miles.   It is a hilly run the route we go, so it would be awesome to do 12 miles, but that would be pretty dumb of me.   :)

Anyways, I don't really have a lot on my mind, but I think I'd rather do this thing now instead of later you know??  It is kinda my normal routine.  I really have absolutely nothing going on today.   Lisa works, and I guess I'll make some kind of dinner.  So I'll go shopping.  I don't know what I'll make yet. 

My life is unplanned a lot I guess.   Many days I guess I'll try and do this thing.   This year, I am going to be stupid and run a lot of days in a row.   I have work, and some type of meal to eat.  That is my whole life these days I'd say.  I don't mind one bit at all either. 

I am free of people debt I guess you can say.   I don't owe anyone anything really.  Life is a snag at times and it really takes good vision to be led in the proper ways.   I am reminded of that saying don't be a surety to a stranger or whatever.  Life is a snag like I say.  Everyone always owes people something right?? 

I am a husband, wife, brother, mother, father, friend.  Whatever, it is life, and you have responsibilities.   What do you owe people??   Don't all people sometimes just wish to have a little freedom to just be them??  

Life is being tied down.   Tied down to jobs, and responsibilities, and all kindsa things.   It is words like the truth will set you free that make sense.   There is nothing on our own free of life.   We are chained to our life, and chained to this World. 

You better believe the truth is a spiritual battle, because this World has absolutely no meaning at all. 

It is just a weird place where people poo, fart, act like imbeciles, and hide everything with pretty clothes, and fake smiles.   The old smile and say hi part of life.   :)

LOL

Oh well.   I guess it is time to run. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has  a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   Regardless of all a good Saturday run is good for the soul.   Or good for afternoon naps.  :)

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Friday, January 2, 2015

All Kindsa Things...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   My sleep is kinda jacked up right now, but we'll get 'er situated in the next couple of days.  I have a lot to do today, or I can just blow it off, and do it later.  I have to run today, probably a bit after I do this, and I work tonight at 7:00 PM.  Busy, busy, busy. 

It is life though, and we all have to fill up our time doing something.   Strange huh??  What are the best things in the World to fill your time with??  Not to get all philosophical or anything, but we end up 6' under, and the things we fill our time with really don't mean anything do they?? 

Life is confusing like that huh??   Here we are in this World.  We wanna be good people and do decent things, but we'll end up hurting people.  It is in our nature.  We get tied into relationships with people who are imperfect, and people who are different than us.   New relationships are the best.  Everything is new and exciting, but eventually people become familiar with each other.   No one ever had a relationship that was perfect, and that was without faults.  That is just fact.

You will never ever hear about that stuff though, because our closets are filled with shit we don't want you to know about.  We want you to know the milestones, and the sparklies, and the ribbons, and the wrapping paper.   We show you good stuff.  

The good stuff is the bad stuff, because we all are in the same boat.   No one is more perfect than us that is for sure.   Yeah, maybe people do this and that, but it doesn't mean anything, because our end is all the same. 

What does it all mean?? 

It means it is good to be me, and I think you know why.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  We have a cold front coming in soon.   I saw yesterday a high of like 12 degrees someday coming up.   Yikes.   That sucks. 

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Thursday, January 1, 2015

Some Days I Guess All You Can Do Is Put In Some Effort...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  So I am sure I have been boring you with so much talk about a stupid 5K, but I am not happy unless I am boring you.  :) 

Anyhooo, I wanted two things from the 5K I ran last night.  I wanted a time close to 23:00, and I wanted to know how fast I was to start the new year.  I got neither.   I won't go into all the details, but the first mile was easy.   My GPS thing lost the audio right at the 1 mile marker, so I was running blind.  I was looking at the runners near me though, and I felt we were going at a pretty good pace.  I was wondering how fast am I??   The sky was the limit at that point.  Then we had to turn. 

The next two miles the wind was not friendly at all. (wind was upwards of 40 MPH gusts, and 20-30MPH sustained)  I never ever ran in a race where the wind had so much say in the time.   My 2nd mile was 8:35, and that is typically an easy pace for me.  It was nothing near easy.   I was putting in effort and breathing hard.  I tried to draft a couple times, but then running was soooooo much easier you ended up on the people's heals, and it is a 5K you want to put forth effort. 

I guess if given the choice in a 5K give me drafting or give me effort, I want the effort.  It is what a 5K is all about.  Yeah you want the time, but we don't control mother nature, but we can control our effort, and I gave a good effort.   Not once did I go below my red line.  It was a solid effort the whole way, and I don't plan on really having a good 5K until April anyway. 

I wanted two things from this night, and I got neither.   I gave good effort though, and I battled the wind, and that crap only makes you better in the long run.   So still a success.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   OMG that shit is soooo much fun.   :)   You forget sometimes.   :)

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