Sunday, March 31, 2013

Been A While...

Good Morning, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I started writing a blog just a bit earlier, and it even bored me, so I deleted it.  I didn't want to read it, and I didn't want to write it. 

So, not a lot going on with me.  I haven't blogged lately, because I slept or stayed in bed til it was time to get ready for work.  Saturday I thought I was going to get up, but Jazz was dreaming, and kicking her legs gently in my back as she was dream running, and instead of getting up that just put me to sleep. 

So anyway like I said not a lot going on.  I have a lot of ideas of how life is, and how it takes shape, and much of the stuff we are ashamed, and maybe a lot of the stuff we don't want to show. 

All is seen anyway.  We cannot hide anything.  All your flaws and all your thoughts are seen.  What you want to show people is one thing, and Very little of life actually means anything.  We are on Earth to not be perfect.  No amount of work/effort/time/sacrifice... anything will get you to be the person you can be. 

I have said so many things in the past, and it falls on deaf ears, because in somehow someway we have got to be fabulous right??  Can we not make our selves that way?? 

There is so much to learn, and the answers are not what you think.  The answers are not what you can do, because let's face it, wouldn't you be better people if that was the case??  Wouldn't you be stronger people?? 

The fork in the road is I want want want to see how good I can make myself.  In this big old World I want to make my mark somehow.  Then the other that seems scary, and does it lead anywhere??  How can I trust??/  I need to make money, and I need a roof over my head, and I need this and that, and I want this and that. 

Trust...  Pretty hard stuff huh?? 

On a day like this why not think about the mark those 12 made.  They had hearts that believed, and trusted, and followed, and they were not perfect, and they made mistakes, but you don't know how much farther they went past after those 3 days.  

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  Yesterday was a good day.  I worked, and got more stuff done than I though I could around the house. 

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Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Surviving Monday...

You never know how a Monday will turn out, and yesterday was kinda Monday'ish.  It was kinda cold and windy, and I was a bit tired.  I got a little run in before work, so that was good.  Lisa finished... well let me restart that.  I say shit all over the place, and I forget people don't see that. 

We were going to buy a new ceiling fan.  One that went with the new floor we did a bit back.  Lisa had the idea to just paint our old one a rubbed bronze color.  I took the ceiling fan down on Sunday.  Lisa painted it, and we put it up yesterday.  I'll e-mail the pics to my computer and post them.  Hold on. 

I didn't take any before pictures cuz I am a retard, but here are the after pictures. 


Looks pretty cool huh??  It was an out of style polished brass ceiling fan, before Lisa painted it.  The ceiling fan we wanted to buy was $130 on sale, and Lisa transformed this one for $10.  Not too shabby huh?? 

Anyhoo, I switched out a bad switch yesterday too.  I left the power on, because I am lazy, and only zapped myself once.  :)  New switch works, and that is that. 

Theme of this Monday??  It was a Monday, I did my grocery shopping.  Prime Rib was on sale, so I made that.  I drank some wine, and watched a movie, but I did get some Shit done after work.  Not too bad.  These are the things I kinda want to do.  Just do a little something after work, before I relax.  I'll fail at times, but yesterday turned out pretty well. 

Not much else going on, and I got nothing to write about. 

Have a good Tuesday.  :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  I have time to take the Hopester for another run before work.  yay.

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Monday, March 25, 2013

Up Early Means I Have Time For a Pre-Work Run...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I got everything done yesterday I wanted so that is good.  I am going to get me a cup of coffee real quick, so hold on. 

So, what is the purpose of this blog??  It is something I do a lot for whatever reason.  Many times I wish it were over, because I have been doing it a long time, and sometimes I feel like I am going nowhere with it.  Why would that be??  I think, because to take an honest and truthful look at life will show some ugly truths.  When you see the ugly stuff, you can either deny it, and get mad, or accept it, and move on. 

Accepting shit is HARD.  It takes strength, and courage, and all the things I have been telling you to be.  The truth of stuff is really ugly.  I know we all want to hold onto some type of hero, and they are not here.  All of us are flawed in ways, and in that regard WE ALL ARE TOGETHER.  To share flaws opens us up to judgement, and that is another flaw of us.  We do that.  We hate being judged, and we want to be clothed in nice Holy robes, but they mean nothing.  Uniforms, and outfits, etc... are just that.   clothes.  They mean nothing no matter how much we make ourselves up.  People, and Organizations have used costumes since forever, and it is supposed to give you some type of personality.  I belong to this group.  Life is an individual thing.  Your "group" means nothing, because life is about you and you only. 

So anyway as long as I have been doing this thing it sure can get frustrating. 

I am just getting something down, as usual. 

I do have time for a quick run though.  Won't the Hopester be happy?? 

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  well, I cannot take all morning thinking of a p.s.   so guess this will have to do.  :)

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Sunday, March 24, 2013

Since I Am Up...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  Well, we finally finished our last two weeks.  We are still alive and kicking.  We bought a new for us car yesterday.  Here are the numbers.  We would have spent ~$2000 to fix up our Malibu.  The guy at our garage said it wouldn't be worth it.  They could fix the engine, but it might last only 6 mos.  So we had to find a new for us one.  We went to a couple respected local dealers here, and the kind of car we wanted was all in the $5-6000 range.  So yuck.  Onto Craigslist.  We saw a few priced good.  We bought the first one we looked at.  It was just over $3000 out the door.  It had 4 new tires, runs way better than the Malibu has for years, and it looks sharp.  There are a few minor imperfections in the body, but just plastic fender stuff etc...  We could fix it for $500 but we won't.  I feel good about the purchase. 

The guy who sold it to us works at a new dealership he opened up with a financial adviser.  This guy sold cars for a long time, and he took a steep pay cut to work with the financial adviser.  He just had a baby last January, and his outlook on life is a bit different.  So all in all we got a car for $3000 that any other place would have been $5-6,000.  Paid with cash too, so we own it outright.  No car payments, or anything like that.   WOO HOOO!! 

That couples with the busy season, so I am working overtime, so hopefully we can add a bit to our savings, which we never do.   :)   One can always hope.   :)

It is a good day when your wife is happy, and you feel good too. 

Other than that not much going on.  I know I have had a couple doozy ones this week, and you never know when they will come.  Me either. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  time to get a cup of coffee, check the weather, and take the Hopester for a little run. 

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Saturday, March 23, 2013

Then It Hit Me...

Good Morning all.  Things have been strange... well really for a long time, but lately things have been driving me crazy.  Why are people so strange??  Why do they just want to hide???

It hit me this morning though.  You must see this great big Sword flying through the sky.  It is big it is scary, and it looks dangerous, and what can I do about it??  Can I hide from it?? 

The answer is no.  It is  a scary sword, and it is dangerous, and all that stuff.  I know you want to hide from it, because it is a sword that judges.  One of the things we hate the most in life, and we see this big old dangerous thing.  So, maybe if I do this or do that, then the sword will go away, and I will feel better about myself. 

Here is what you have to do.  You have to go up against this big old dangerous sword.  It will judge you, and it is dangerous, and here is the thing... you cannot beat it.   We all lose against this great sword, but here is where you need courage and trust. 

This sword is used to help us feel remorse for our imperfect self.  It helps bring us to the point where forgiveness can be had.  The sword is for you.  Used for a purpose.  It is used to humble you , so you can be on the road to the new and better you.

Don't be afraid of the sword,  Trust trust trust.  You will not win against the sword no matter what you do.  YOU DO HAVE TO GO UP AGAINST IT though. 

That is the story told so long ago.  We all are filled with a sword, and perhaps we like to turn it toward others to make ourselves feel better, but we have to go up against it by ourselves.  You vs. the sword. 

A losing battle the whole way, but it is the path where you find victory.  Running this race in such a way to win means you have to do some scary, humbling, brave stuff.  You have to be like the David and Goliath story.  Little you up against this big old dangerous thing, and guess what???    You win.  

How???   I toll toll toll you all is possible.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  time to put on your big people pants and do some tough stuff.

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Friday, March 22, 2013

So Many Things I Can Say Today...

Well, as I look back I'd have to say the last couple weeks were not the best weeks I have had ever.  I really had a lot on my mind before I got up this morning.  This went wrong, this went wrong, that went wrong, this doesn't seem good.  You know when you wake up one day and that is how your life looks?? 

I kinda was thinking about that a bit.  You see how life ties us down???  This is life, and we should be free to have fun, but so much red tape, and the rule makers really just make life hard.  I am not talking about murder, and rape, and stuff like that, but some things in life should be easy.  Maybe that is the final outcome of unadulterated Capitalism.  Money is the most important thing, not what really counts. 

Too bad.  We put a lot of faith in that "ism" without really thinking about it.  Insurance companies are probably one of the evil things in this World.  Insurance in general probably. 

I also thought about the thief on the cross a bit.  The guy who didn't belong up there made friends with that lowly guy, while all the suit wearers, tax collectors, religious folk, and Insurance agents were judging these people and putting them to death. 

The multitude had revenge, and hate, and death on their mind.  The thief saw justice, and felt he was getting what he deserved.  The one on the cross was still teaching how far forgiveness goes. 

Society is on the wrong path.  It leads to nowhere.  It is short-sighted, with more flaws than anything.  You wrap yourself in society, and you really are wrapping yourself in a covering the moths already got to.  You cannot see it, because we are born with poor vision as far as that goes, but it is true. 

You really want to dress yourselves with a covering that lasts, and survives all.  One that is made not by the shallow and imperfect thoughts of men, but the one that comes from that which we don't see. 

I know we want to put our trust in the things we can quantify, and see, and touch.  See???  faith is a hard thing.  We all our born with a predisposition to put our trust and faith in the wrong things.  So we have to overcome that, and it is hard/impossible for us. 

With help though, ALL is possible.  :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!      :)

p.s.   looks like it is a bit warmer today.  riding my bike to work, and Friday and Saturday are my fave days to work.  :)

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Thursday, March 21, 2013

The Weather Is Exciting This Time Of Year...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  Well,  I guess things could be better, but you know life always has a bit of stress in it.  For the record I am going to have a cup of coffee today.  Mark it in your spreadsheets.    ;)  

We sorta lucked out with the weather again.  I was hearing as much as 4 inches or so possible, and we got like 1 inch. 

So as this thing goes on I realize, I am getting interested in less and less stuff.  I want to do my job, and this time of  year gets a bit overwhelming, because there is so much to do, and who can do it all??  I'd like to do some stuff around the house this year, but when it warms up.  I have almost no motivation when it is like Winter out.  How much can you really do?? 

I am not sure how much of not being a lazy ass after work I will be.  Probably some days good, and some days lazy ass is my guess.  This week has been a lot of lazy ass after work.  Yesterday we got our taxes done, and picked up our junker from the Automotive place we ALWAYS bring it to. 

I owe more back taxes than I thought.   ooops.    It turns out the lady who does my taxes does too.   :)   They live in a nice area with a nice house, so doubt they are hurting any.  They are moving too.  They have two offers on their house.   I wonder if it is a kids are out of the house let's move type thing. 

So what is the future??  Where do we go from here??   Who knows.  This thing has been going for a while, and I was a pretty strong person, and I don't know what this year holds.   I can almost see the little old me these days.   I am not a winner.  I am really not all that talented in anything, I can tell.  In this big old World out there I want to accomplish nothing.  I don't want my name on any plaque, or be fabulous in any way. 

I guess I know my place.  It is little old me in this big old World.  On my own I am of zero value, but my Journey, and my life was not being on my own.  I had to be looked after, and I had to have the paths laid before me, because that is the only way.  This life I have been through much.  So many things I went through I would not have chosen to do. 

I am here though.  I wake up and do this early morning thing, and our hearts are all wrong.  Our view of us is bigger than it should be.  We are not as good as we think we are.  The World holds no answers for you.  You follow any path this World can show you, and it leads to a dead end.  The logic don't match up.  This is not a very well thought up place. 

Everyone has always had their own agendas.  No matter what our agendas are a lot about us.  This is where the story is supposed to be different.  Can you give up your "agenda"   whatever that may be?  

It is such a hard thing, but the logic ain't bad is it??  The fear is though huh??  What would I have to give up?? 

Trust, fear, weakness, humility.  It seems we need to get to know these things before we can find strength. 

Who wants it??   Who wants to not be all that fabulous in people's eyes?? 

So you see why there was only one who was able to overcome all.  You see how hard it is. 

So so soooooo much to do. 

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a  Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  

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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Lucking Out With The Snow.

Good Morning all How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I can still see grass with a little bit of white stuff, so we have not gotten much snow.  Forecast for today says maybe 1-2 inches, and then we hit 40 soon, and 50 by next Friday.  I see the Northeast is getting like a foot.   :)   HAHAHA!!   Glad I am not there. 

Anyway I was debating about coffee.  I don't drink it every day.  Really doesn't do much for me anymore.  I don't get that jolt out of a cup of coffee, like I did in the past, but maybe I'll make one.   Last week I only had 1-2 cups I think.  I am pretty close to caffeine free, not intentionally either.  I pretty much don't drink pop, unless it is in my brandy.  So all that is really unplanned.  I do drink a lot of water at work.  I always bring my big old cooler of ice water, and a lotta times drink almost the whole thing.  

Anyhoooo, let me make a cup of coffee real quick, and I will brb.  

I really have nothing to talk about really today, but we are doing our taxes today.  This year again we are having a lady do it, just to make sure it is right, because I owe a little from a previous year.  I think we switched things this year so they took more out, so we still should be okay.  Then this weekend we have to buy a *new for us* car.  Luckily Lisa talks to some of the kids who work at night, and one gear head kid may have a couple cars for sale.  He is buying our junker for $300 too.  Not too shabby. 

So we get our taxes done, and the car situated, and we will hopefully be able to settle down into Spring and Summer. 

HA HA   My life must sound like the most boring thing, and like I said before a lotta life is how you feel on the inside, and most days I feel pretty good. 

There always are little pockets of stress in life though huh??  So much to worry about.  No wonder some people want to hide from that stuff.  I do too actually.  I don't like stress, and it is something we all have.  Maybe that is why we look for support in the areas we are not supposed to.  The World is one big trap.

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!      :)

p.s.  gonna give this running thing a try again today.  Should be fun.  

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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

A Title For The Ages...

Sometimes when I am just thinking on and on and on about a title for my blog entry, I just eventually throw some crap down and move on. 

What is the purpose of my blog??  or blogs for that matter.   I did not know really why I have been doing what I have been doing, but I do know now.  It serves a purpose somehow.  It is important'ish in a way. 

Does this blog make people feel uncomfortable??  Perhaps...   I remember a long time ago when I said it would take courage to read this blog.  Why I don't know.  This seems so easy for me... now.   I remember long ago though when I did not want people to know I did this, and what I was writing.  Why??   There is stuff in my life that is not all glamorous and stuff. 

I went through some things that were not of my own choosing.  I mean really life is kinda like that.  We don't hold all the cards do we??   I have been saying kinda let go of yourself in ways, and let someone else show you what other cards there are.   Ones you don't know about, and stuff like that.  They are good cards, but you don't know of them.  You don't know how to get them, and without help you would never be able to see them.   These cards however are the winning hand. 

I know this blog serves some kind of purpose, but exactly what etc... I don't really know.  I know we have a job to do, and we have barely yet begun.  I hope for easy days as far as this thing goes, but many times it is easier to hide. 

A blog is a mirror of your life, and it is like the picture of the pretty lady/ugly lady.   We always want to see the pretty lady, and show the pretty lady, but the ugly lady still is there, and that is probably something you want to hide, but it is impossible, because she is there, and she will find a way to show herself somehow.  

I think that is the direction we go.  To show both sides of us. 

Well, anyway.   I bought a pair of reading glasses yesterday.   :)    I have good vision, but sometimes close up is getting a bit harder.  Also I am going to run to work tomorrow.  I think I am getting healthy'ish.  Always waiting to pull a couple weeks in a row of 2-3 milers pain free, and then who knows??   Maybe I can have a good Summer of running again. 

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.   made home made pizza last night which was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!    :)

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Monday, March 18, 2013

The Way My Week Lines Up.

Good Morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I was just going to talk a bit about how my week stacks up, but first I will talk about the tourney.  Now the past few years I barely paid any attention to NCAA Basketball before the tourney and this year I did pay attention.  It helps when the Big 10 has had multiple teams in the top 20 the whole year.  The Big 10 is the best Conference along with the Big East.  The more I watched the more I have come to the conclusion there just isn't a dominant team. 

I like all Big 10 Basketball teams unlike football teams.  I like Illinois, Wisconsin, Ohio State, MSU, MI, Indiana, etc...   I root for them all I guess.  This year I even had a horse in the race.  I became a fan of Michigan basketball.  They have arguably the best point guard in the Nation, and names like Glenn Robinson III, and Hardaway Jr.   After watching several games I have come to the conclusion G.R. III, and Hardaway Jr.  are really not Superstars yet. 

So anyway I hate my bracket.  A lot of toss up games, and I don't really have a dark horse going crazy.   There are no conservative picks because this year any team can win or lose on any night. 

I'll give you my final 4.  Michigan, Louisville, Miami Fl, and Wisconsin.  Am I happy with it??  No.  I didn't predict Wisconsin would be in from the beginning, or Michigan.  Indiana or Ohio State not in.  Miami FL I like as a pick, because of good guard play.  Louisville is my Nat'l Champ.   I am not a fan of Louisville or Rick Pitino for that matter, but sometimes you just gotta go with the flow. 

Anyway, how my week stacks up.  I am working Saturdays now, which is good for the paycheck.  I really try to get a lot of stuff done after work on Saturdays too.  Sunday I am legitimately tired.  A day of rest, yeah I take it.  At least that is how it has been the last two weeks. 

During the week I am trying to not be a total lazy ass after work.  I want to get some stuff done after work, instead of doing nothing.  Last week was pretty good.  Our projects are pretty much done until the weather warms up. 

As an outsider looking in, my life is probably dull.  Who and what we are is how we feel on the inside.  Most days I feel pretty good.  I am patiently waiting for warmer weather.  Life just is pretty exciting when the seasons change.  A new outlook, and new view of the World, and a different way to look at life. 

I wouldn't want to live anywhere where the temp. is the same 365 days/year.  Change is good. 

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!!      :)

p.s.  Monday is always a hit or miss on being good or bad.  Lisa has off, so I will bring home something to cook for dinner.  Today may be a good one.  :)

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Sunday, March 17, 2013

A Week Off

Hi all.  I took like almost a whole week off of blogging, which isn't really like me.  You know me though, and I can give up almost anything.  Nothing in my life is really that important.  You don't take it with you know?? 

I mean how about them 12.  They gave up everything to follow, and luckily none of us have to do that huh??  They would have needed an amazing miracle to have their heart be strong enough to do that.  Sometimes our hearts need help to be strong.  On our own we can do so very little. 

That is part of the story though, and it is something I learned AGAIN yesterday.  On my own I am nothing.  I need to grab the strength that is inside me to be able to do anything, because just one little minor bump in my walk can take things down a bad path. 

So even I think I am strong, and this week I realize I am not that strong. 

I did have some stress this week, and I cannot even explain really.  Let's just say everything seemed to turn in a bad way, and how can we trust when things seem to be going so badly??  

This blog has been going a certain way for a long time, and it seems its objective is not really working so well. 

There is a fine line between love and hate, and I think we as people really want to show ourselves as being some sort of good, but we are not all good.  Life isn't all great, and as we stand alone in this big old World we are no one really, but we are someone too, and we matter to ourselves. 

We have a long journey ahead of us, and we have so far to go.  I don't know how it will go, and maybe things get a bit ugly.  I am not sure. 

I don't mean to be a downer, but in a realistic look between life and death, and those types of things, our races mean nothing.  It is just something you do.  Your life and you are about other things. 

Oh well, just touching base.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I am surprised WIS beat IND.   This year's tourney is going to be tough.  That is for sure. 

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Sunday, March 10, 2013

Almost A No Go...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing pretty good now.  I woke up in a bad mood, and was totally going to blow off this blog thing today, but then after a bit I felt a bit better. 

I don't know what is happening.  People are silent, and hiding, and maybe the truth is a thing we really don't want to look at.  It is something we don't want to see, because it really means we are not all that good.  

If that is the case then who wants to see it??  Maybe we always want to say, hey I am good, look I do this, and I do that. 

What is good from what your eyes can see is definitely different from someone with a more penetrating vision.  We can sometimes show surface good, whatever that means, but you gotta be able to see inside your true self right?? 

I have only been saying the World is wrong.  It is a bad and evil place, because people really are led down that path, because Society has always been the best things men and women could think up, and well... they don't think all that great, and rules are never really fair for all parties involved. 

Take the War on Drugs.  How many people are in prisons for smoking a weed naturally grown, while zero people are in prisons for a Chemically enhanced thing people smoke that actually kills them??

Who are in these prisons??   Black people???  

It is a crappy World, and our vision is very small and very shallow, and We are blinded by magazines, and t.v. shows, and people in suits announcing our Sports games, and there is a way to get to a higher truth, and it is worthwhile.  Only you know you, and I know the path of the many.  It does not lead to happiness, and it does not lead to fulfillment, and really that is what the story is about. 

You know you, and you know how you feel.   I do too.  

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  You cannot run away from life, and you cannot run from the truth, and you cannot run from you.

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Saturday, March 9, 2013

Same Time Same Place???

Good Morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  As I look back to last year, I remember I was training for the Lansing Marathon.  I was about to go on my 2nd 20 miler, and around 4-5 miles into it I stopped, and walked home.  That feeling where the runner realizes he/she is injured. 

Story of my life lately really, but what can you do??  I remember last year as being a really good year though.  Why??  I worked on Saturdays instead of running, and it was fun.  It was good money, and it is not a bad way to start off a weekend.  I look back with fond memories of last year, although I did nothing of significance running. 

Here we are again.  Will this year be a duplicate of last year??  My running is starting at basically ground zero right now.  Trying to do a every other day for a few miles.  Our busy season is coming very quickly, and as it happens there is a lot to do today at work, so I got the okay to come in to work today.  WOOOO   HOOOOOO!!!

I noticed an uptick in the amount of trucks we were getting in this week, so we will be busy.  There is plenty to do, and will be for.... hmmmm.... through September??  So that is good news. 

In all actuality I was day dreaming yesterday of warm weather runs, and getting back in to the swing of things.  As someone who learns from injuries, I am a total come back with 2 and 3 milers instead of anything more.  A couple good weeks, and you can pretty much get back into the 6+ milers.  I am hoping to string together a good week coming up with no setbacks.  We shall see. 

Other than that not much going on. 

I am up early, doing this thing here, and I get to work today. 

What can be better??  

I know I know, I am a crazy dude.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  time for coffee.

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Friday, March 8, 2013

A Day With No Title...

Good morning all.  How's it going??  Me,  I am doing pretty good.  I cannot think of a title, which probably means I have nothing to blog about, but whatevs.  I'll still blog.  You never know what may come out. 

Anyway, I have a cup of coffee ready, so I am going to get it.  brb...

So, I have nothing to really talk about today, so let's look at some of the positives going on this week. 

  • I have run twice this week so far, and it went pretty well.  
  • biked to work and back a few times, and that is fun when it is 40.  20... not so much on the way home.
  • We have had our audit so our next one will not be in the next 1-1/2 months for sure.  
  • No audit coming up = a bit of freedom.
  • I use that time to do as much as possible.
  • Our busy season is starting so I will be working on Saturdays soon. 
  • My bike has fenders so I can ride it in the rain.  
  • Our snow will probably be melted by this weekend.
  • I will run in shorts this weekend.
  • I will do some more cleaning this weekend.  

Life can be a pretty simple thing, but it is not within our power to make it so.  In our life we will have a zillion forks in the road, and we may go in any number of directions.  Society is one big cluster fuck of a bunch of Bullshit.  So much fine print.  Corporations are so fucking big no one is held accountable for anything.   The rule makers might just be a fricken dumb ass, who thinks he is smart.

Life is hard, and it is confusing, and A lot of the Shit we don't even have the time, interest, or patience to deal with most of the silly Bullshit.

There is so far to go, and some hold onto their old-fashioned life used to be better beliefs, but life has never been better or worse.  It always was mostly dumb.  Stupid jobs, people working for the weekends, and doing nothing that mattered.

I remember that one time on a Monday long run years ago.  I knew something wasn't right.  This was a hard time for me.  This was heimleblog time.  Some of the worst days I ever had, but they were also good too, and I blogged every day, and sheesh, thought I had no readers most of the time I think, but I remember it hit me like a bomb.

"I was on mile 8 or so of 12 or 13 miles, and I said and felt...   "My life is worth so very little, do with it as you will."

That is a hard lesson, and it is nothing we can feel on our own.

Our lives are worth so very little, but we think we are VERY VERY important.

Society teaches us one thing, and the true teaching comes from elsewhere.

We are born wrong, and we get taught more and more wrong stuff.

So yeah, a life's journey is a hard and long journey, because the truth is so very far away.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  The month of March with mild temps. is really a thing of beauty.

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Thursday, March 7, 2013

Eine Tasse Kaffee. Eine Tasse Kaffee.

I made a song up about that before.  Wanna hear??  

~~Eine Tasse Kaffee, Eine Tasse Kaffee, Eine Tasse Kaffee, Eine Tasse Kaffee....   etc...  

Catchy tune I know.  For those of you not in the know.  The name of the song was  A cup of coffee.   I am about to get one, I will brb.   

So, how is it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  We had our first audit yesterday, and it went okay.  The hardest departments all passed the new harder requirements to get their full money, and the 2 easiest departments didn't.  Actually the 2 easy departments didn't even pass the easier previous standards.  Why???  One Dept. Mgr. is lazy, and the other doesn't give a SHIT.   What can you do??  Life is kinda like that huh??  You have to put trust in people to do a good job, and people are probably the last fucking people you should trust.  We all have our own agendas, and if Enron taught us anything.  Our agendas are usually all about us.  

That also is a turn too.  Out of nowhere you will be given the ability to care about others besides yourself.  Deem others more important than yourself, and if that isn't what the story was about centuries ago I don't know what is.   Isn't it about being a servant??  

The many layers of lessons that can be taught are unending probably.  We get tied down into the simple Arithmetic of Man logic, and have no idea the complex Calculus logic that is available to us.  Why??  Life and this World is one big trap.   All our lives we have been looking for the best Arithmetic we could find, and never bothered wondering what other types of Calculus there might be.  That is a flaw within us all.  I think that is one of the things we were always supposed to overcome.  

Life makes us blind though, and I think that is why we all have to go through some hard things, because it takes the scales off our eyes.  

So what am I going to do??  

I am going to make a grilled cheese sandwich for breakfast to go along with my eine tasse Kaffee.  :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  The Blackhawks are just stupid now.   :)

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Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The Plans We Make...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  We got zero snow from the storm which is awesome.  Mild temps as far as the eye can see, so all is good here.  I got a little run in yesterday, and no worse for the wear.  Is that the saying??   I'll bike today.

I know this blog has been doing its thing for a long long while.  Some listen, some believe, and some wonder.   This blog is all about the plans we make though isn't it??  That is the turn in a nutshell.  I know we have plans we have thought up, and we looked out to see what the best stuff is, and we do our best with the little plans we can make.  What if there is another plan.  One we don't make.  One where we trust the maker of this plan to come up with the best idea for us.

That is the stuff you have to work out I guess.  I have been saying stuff for a long time, and it seems like I am running in place.  Maybe you are running out of ideas too.  On how to be good, and how to be happy, and what is the best life.  Am I going to be doing the same ole same ole forever.  Is there anything better??  Is this really life???   This is it??  Stressing about the same old shit day after day.  Bills, retirement, do I have enough money to not stress??  Well, there isn't enough money in the World to not stress.  I mean there is probably some rich dudes in the Holy Roman Empire who one day woke up poor.  Currencies are fragile things too.  Not in a day over day thing, but as a year over year thing, and don't most currencies seem fragile these days??

What do you put your trust and faith in??

I know what you want to say, but I know the truth.  It is written all over you.  Everything BUT...

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Another Big Game in the Big 10 last night I see.  Indiana loses to jumble things up again.   I love it.  :)

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Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Well, Looks Like We Lucked Out...

I just checked the weather out, and there is a major snow storm hitting Chicago, and Going to miss us it appears.  Our forecast says 30% chance of snow.  Few Snow Showers.  Holy cow.  Today the highs will be like 35, and then we will be approaching the 40's.  That is an oddity.  The jet stream over the big body of water usually gives us a lot more snow.  I guess this thing has a big push from the North, and it may go South of us, as it then heads back up the Northeast.  We'll see.  In March I am ready for very little to no snow.  I want 40's, and then 50's.  etc...

Anyway today I am going to run to work.  With my injury I have been battling I think I can still jog some, but just jog.  I have no extension to go fast or anything.  I guess I don't really mean fast, but hard.  So that is exciting starting the day with a run.  Been a while.  I have exactly one run in two weeks. 

Yesterday after work I actually finished the final two transition pieces so our floor is done.  A home project we actually finished.   WOAH!!!   Who knew it could happen??   Lisa is making progress on the trim, so maybe we'll work on that today. 

Anything else going on??  Nah, not really.  It was an okay Monday as far as Mondays go.  After my project I had a couple drinks.  2-1/2 maybe.  I dumped the rest out.  I made myself an early dinner. We didn't have shells to make tacos, so we will do them tonight I guess.  I went to bed really early, because why not?? 

Today is a get up early day.  Run to work, and well, you know.  It is just life.  This thing I do, and we all do. 

Now is time for my coffee, and I shall see you later.  

Bye for now. 

Monday, March 4, 2013

I Need To Stay Away From The News...

The news is horrible, the World is horrible, and I hate seeing all the stupid Shit that goes on.  I don't think it is really burying my head in the sand as it is, things are really dumb.  This World is horrible, and people do horrible things to each other.  At the same time people have their heroes, and they really are not heroes.  They are imperfect people doing imperfect things, acting on imperfect information, and pretending this is "good enough".

It isn't.  There is better stuff out there.  Things you have no idea, and things you cannot fathom, because you cannot make yourself be the way you want/should be. 

You cannot train a million hours each week to make you a better person, and you cannot work 9000 hours each week to make you a better person, and you cannot read 800,000 books each week to make you a better person.  To become who you want/should be takes it being done for you.  It is a gift.  One in which...   geez, I don't know.  I know at some point I thought I deserved it, because I had to suffer so much.  That was my reasoning outside the garbage room at Bromenn hospital.  Do I do what I am asked, or be rebellious and show him.  I thought why make things worse.  I was mad, and in my heart I wanted to be rebellious, but I did what I was supposed to do.  Go out on my own and find my answers.  They were given to me.  Not at the times I designed, but at times not of my choosing. 

The one day I was asked to go out at night and walk on the track.  I don't remember if I really had to walk on the track, but I think I was to walk a good while, and I didn't want to walk to Anchorage, so I walked on the track.  I was given the building blocks that night, and I was done.  I didn't know I was done, so kept walking, and fell asleep on the ground.  I couldn't go anymore.   As it would happen I felt me falling asleep was bad, and I was horrible, and I am worthless, because I was supposed to walk.  That was the Summer.  Everything I did was wrong.  Judged every second of every day.  The Summer of my Discontent.  yay. 

Even still through my suffering I still did not deserve anything.  Why did it have to be so hard??  I don't know.  The answers are there, but do I really need to know why my path was so hard??  Nah... not really.  I am here to help.  I do it freely.  I don't want to know about your heroes, because they mean nothing to me. 

I have no heroes here.  If you do it is a character flaw.  One in which you are insecure, and you probably need to toughen up. 

Your life is you.  Your heroes will be no help on your personal journey, so take the rose colored glasses off, because it is all about YOU!!!

Got it???

Later.   :)  

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Some Days I Really Have Nothing...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  I usually am a lot better if I have something to write about, and well,   I don't. 

That doesn't always stop me, but today it may.  This may be one of those posts where I start writing and say screw it, and put it down. 

That does happen. 

I keep looking, and thinking of how far we have to go, and what are the things you place the most importance in your life?? 

Life is nothing short of constant failure.  All you are supposed to be you cannot be, at least as it is written.  All you want to be you aren't.  You would like to be free of the this tangled mess of life.  Just to have the freedom to be who you are.  You cannot, because you know the World "thinks" you should be a certain way.  You should dress a certain way, act a certain way, say please and thank you, and all that other crap.  All the crap you get zero points for. 

A passing grade by Society at the end of the day gets you squat.  being successful in your job whatever that means doesn't mean squat.  There is a big old World out there, and your mind can think of all kinds of things to do, and you get zero points for any of it.  The greatest gifts in the World are just that gifts.  Gifts aren't being blessed with some kind of cardiovascular system.  That too doesn't mean squat. 

Gifts are things like my last couple posts, of which I have had many.  Reproof is a necessity if you plan on going on the right path.  You don't know the answers and you don't know the way.  A little turn, and all is done for you.  You will feel the things though, and you will go through all you need to go through and feel all of it. 

It is tough'ish, but not horrible. 

How it helps you having someone on the other side I do not know.  It must in some ways.  All my things were done solo.  Not seeing anyone or anything to give me help.  All the things I went through were hidden.  Away from anyone's sight.  I couldn't even begin to tell you. 

I have known for a long time life is pretty stupid.  Filled with all kinds of stupid pointless things.  I have had interests and hobbies, and those kept me interested.  I still knew they didn't mean anything.  You all have lived a life, and so far you have zero points.  You haven't done anything yet in life, and if you continue on you will end with zero points. 

The Journey starts with fear and doubt, and it builds strength.  Everything is easy for the one in charge, and he makes your path hard, because to overcome all is not easy.  You have to know how very little you can do, but learn how very much you can do with help. 

It is a humbling ride, because we on our own are worth so very little.  A lesson in life. 

Be prepared to take your fabulous robes off, because they aren't real. 

You want real, because that is one of the good things. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  You know cleaning Marathons are hard.  You never get all you want to get done.  I wish I worked at it every day, but after work, I am lazy.   mostly.  

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Saturday, March 2, 2013

Such Hard Things...

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  I have a big day planned of cleaning.  I mean an all out cleaning marathon.  Normal stuff, and also the stuff you always forget to do.  Why??  Why not. 

I was thinking of my last couple posts this morning before I got up, and Holy Cow are they doozies.  I am probably going to lose some people I guess.  You see what happened centuries ago??  See what those 12 people walked away from??  Their jobs, upcoming triathlon season.... Did they do Triathlon back then?? 

You are unable, and you would be unable huh?? 

Remember what I wrote the 2 most important rules were??  Remember it also says "those who loved me are those who have done what I said. "

So, you see how far we have to go??  You are not where you need to be.  You are caught in the big old trap of life, and there is one way out.  The thief on the cross, but your heart is hard.  It is unrepentant. 

You don't believe, you don't listen, you trust in yourself, and you are enslaved in the web of life.  A slave in many ways.  There is no freedom in your life, and no freedom in you.  Even if you went all "Into the Wild"   There is one path, and I have been telling you about it. 

What is your next step???

We shall see. 


Later...

Friday, March 1, 2013

Where Did The Week Go??

Good Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  A lot has happened this week, so perhaps a look back. 

Lisa was sick pretty much all week.  It went from, well I hope it is just a 24 hour thing, to a we have to go to the Doctor to get a note, so she doesn't lose her job for being sick.  The Doctor thing worked out pretty well, because the Nurse Practitioner told her to take another day off, because of not eating, and that really turned into several days off.  She has a funeral to go to today, and she was scheduled off Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, so she gets plenty of days off.  She actually felt much much better yesterday.  She shopped and cooked dinner.  That is better.  Doing stuff, and eating.  So that is good. 

I was thinking this morning my Winter was pretty much nothing for training.  My leg still bugs me too, so I have no plans on anything as far as that is concerned.  This blog has always used running as a disguise anyway.  It was always about other stuff anyway.   :)

We had our anniversary.  We fucked that up as usual.  I blame Lisa this year, because she said our Anniversary was the 28th, and I was like??   hmmmm.   Wasn't it the 27th??   It turns out I was right, it was the 27th.  She was like, "Why am I such a guy about that??"   HA HA. 

So we have hit March.  Winter is over, because we may get snow, but we are a lot closer to warmer temps. than colder temps. so that is good. 

My life is wide open.  No huge plans of anything yet.  I am thinking this will be the Summer of work, and House work.  A little turn in life, which is always easy for me.  It is the way I have been led.  It was my path laid before me.  The freedom to do as I choose, and be who I am. 

From that day many Summers ago where I could not go on, to being guided with a much better heart than I could make myself. 

We have soooo very very far to go.  Yesterday knocked it out of the park.  I hope you realize the importance of what I have been saying.  It is not within your power to grab all the good things life has to offer.  In your mind you try and grab the best things you can think of, but that isn't the best stuff. 

What I say also means stuff to me too.  I have a thing to do, and I know I have been led in such a way, that I would be able to give up all that is me. 

Sooooooo,  We'll see how this goes.  I think you can tell this year is much different than other ones. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  No big projects this weekend, but big cleaning.  Think, Spring cleaning... at least on the inside.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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