Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Back To Work...

Good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I am going to get me some coffee, and I will brb. 

Well, I am adventurous today.  I made 2 cups of coffee, even though I only drank like 1/2 cup the last two days.  Don't ask me why I feel so adventurous.  Yesterday I had a pretty lazy day.  I did some laundry, and helped Lisa move some of her Mom's things from her old place to the new place.  She is going to a place where she can get more care.  She needs more help than what the other place can offer.  I cannot believer the amount of knick knacky horse shit she has accumulated.  Maybe I am just a guy, but she has a billion fucking worthless figurines.  WTH?? 

Whatever she cannot fit into her new place will be given to Good Will.  It is a good thing to look at Jackie's life.  What is important??  As you near down to your final days you have to realize how pointless most of the Bullshit we accumulate is.  You have to right??  I doubt Jackie does, but come on.  When Jackie goes we will have to collect all that pointless Bullshit, and give to good will anyway.  We are definitely too lazy to do some type of garage sale. 

You take nothing with you do you??  No figurines, no money, no guns, no ammo.  Our lives are full of interests.  Things we like to do, and you won't be doing any of those things when you die will you?? 

Not to be all negative or anything, because that is intended, but to be realistic.  What is the purpose of our little lives here??  Our lives are pretty selfish aren't they??  Me me me.  There is so much anger, and hate all over the World too, and why is that??  People are miserable.  Our misery we blame on this or that.  The scapegoat.  The one(s) who are to blame for our misfortunes.  Politics, Religion, Banksters, Countries. 

That really is us looking at the outside.  The outside World is ugly all over.  various forms of rules and regulations created by Sociology majors (probably)  which try to make rigid our lives.  Rules are necessary, but the progress of the World is a progress of fine print.  We have all become so educated we have no idea how to keep it simple stupid. 

So look inside.  There are really no answers outside, except the vision it gives you.  The World ain't that Fucking Great. 

Anyway,  I am back to work,  Lisa and I are making another trip to move Jackie's crap, and I run tonight.  That is good enough for me.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Good to see you come out of hibernation.   :)   xoxo

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Have a fab one all.!!!   MWAH!!!   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

A Love Affair With The Morning. :)

Morning all.  Hope you are all doing great.  I feel great, and I have a love affair with the mornings.  I wake up, and feel like this most mornings.  How lucky huh??  You never know what the day holds, but typically I am ready to start the day. 

I made me a cup of coffee, and I am going to go get it.  I will brb.  

Okay, I am back.  I don't really have anything to blog about, but that never stopped me before.  Yesterday was a day that started off great, as you can tell by my upbeat blog entry, and it continued to be great.  One of the things I wanted to get done was the leaves in the yard.  Although this time I wanted to cut and bag the grass too to empty everything.  I did that, and it felt good to get it done.  I brought in our hoses, and insulated the outdoor faucets too.  We are all winterized.  Lisa still has a couple things to do with her plants.  It is windy as heck outside, so there will be more leaves, but hopefully the wind will knock most of them down.  We are definitely ahead of the game as far as leaves go.  Getting all ready for the cold part of Fall and Winter.  Little things Little things...

Today I don't have much planned.  I have to run, do some laundry, watch a movie or two.  I have the day off again today.  :)

Also as this blog suggests, I don't really have much to blog about.  Some days I bring heavy stuff I guess, and some days I just have some day to day type stuff.  I never really know when I will have one or the other. 

There is a lot out there in the World, and a lot to life.  I wish you could see the World through my eyes.  It is fun.  :) 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Time for me to watch a movie.  :D

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo   :D   :D 

LOL   Have a fab one all.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  MWAH!!!   :)

Monday, October 29, 2012

Ahhhhhh... Monday Off.

Morning all, how's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  As you know, at least by the title, I have Monday off.  Why all weeks do not start with a Monday off is one of the many questions one should ask in their life.  This feels like about the best thing ever. 

Anyhoodles, I am going to get me some coffee, and I will brb.  

Okay, I am back, and I hazz coffee.  So I got a bit of a run in yesterday.  I wanted to do 6, but we had to stop at 4-2/3 miles, because I had to poop.  Guess I didn't clean everything out.  Oh well.  It was a great running weekend this weekend.  The 8 miler was awesome, and our run yesterday was great.  Running in 35-40 degree temps is so much different than running in high heat and humidity.  I mean one is fun, and one is work type thing. 

Lisa and I saw a movie.  We went to lunch, and watched the first half of the Bears game.  I had a vegetarian sub.  I love those.  Not because I am a vegetarian, but they are just good anyway.  Loaded with veggies, and mushrooms, and melted cheese, and Italian dressing.  YUMMMMO!!  It went well with my beers too.   ;)

After that we came home, and watched a little tv.  I had a couple more drinks, and went to bed pretty early.  After the 4:00 game.  Then I got to sleep in til 5:00.  HOW AWESOMEEEEEEE!!!    :)

I don't really have much today, but I am in a good mood.  I had a lot of fun yesterday, and I am going to watch a movie now.   :D

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  We are going to see another movie today too.  Lisa is off.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D     xoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D 

Have  a Fab one all!!!   MWAH!!!   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


Sunday, October 28, 2012

Movie Day. WOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!!

Morning all, how's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I am going to get me a cup of coffee, and I will brb.

Well today is a movie day, so we will see a matinee.  No better way to start out a Sunday in my opinion.  That is after I run of course.  I got myself in an 8 miler yesterday, which is kinda a new long-run mileage for this time of year.  I guess I'd like to always be around 10 miles or so, and another 6.  6 on Saturday, and 10 on Sunday, or vise versa.  Nothing major about the run, except it was cool.  I wore a jacket, and for 8 miles I barely needed any water.  Now that is running.  :)

Nothing else is really going on.  I know yesterday was a doozy'ish post.  One of the things you have to know about yourself is there is a model of a person who you deem to be good etc...   Kind, forgiving, slow to anger, not jealous, etc... and a slew of other things.  All people have a different view of what a good and decent person is.  Our model can change too... daily.  Our model can get confused easily too with all the nasty propaganda one can find on the internets, and on the tee veees.
In our heart and in our mind is a desire to be happy, to be decent people, kind, etc...  It is a battle we lose.  We always can show some type of person on the outside, but most of who we are is on the inside.  You know the stuff you see in your quiet times??  The stuff you would be willing to share in the wee hours, and delete it when you wake up the next day??  

Life is complex, we are complex, and looking inside yourself you are led on a path to get to know you.  It is like nothing you ever imagined either.

So anyway, I know you are on a tough journey.  That is intended, because you, like I have said before are a flower.  Not perfect, but flawed, but a flower is full of color, and so are we.  Our view of perfect and good is black and white.  Those with a good heart don't see flaws with a judgmental lens.  We see flaws with a colorful lens, and that is beauty.

To have the strength to be us, in a judgmental World is a strength only one can achieve with a gift.

and that my friends....is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Movie Day is also Sunday Football Day, and Day off tomorrow day.   WOOOOO!!    :)

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Have a fab one all.   MWAH!!!    :)    xoxoxoxo   :D   :D  

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Up Early Is All Part Of The Plan...

Morning all, how's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I was just thinking yesterday my Friday nights are all planned for an early Saturday wake up.  Why you ask??  That is a good question.  No reason really.  I tell you what though, I love being up right now.  I got up a little after 3:00 AM.  I feel great, and I feel alive.  I didn't get any call last night, so I guess I am running solo this morning, which I will do after my blog and my coffee. 

Speaking of coffee, I guess I will get some.  Hold on,  I will brb. 

So anyway I did a little grocery shopping, and to my surprise Meier had a Seattle's Best brand of coffee on sale for $5.99.  A strong one too, so that is pretty exciting.  I usually buy my coffee at the local lumberyard, but I forgot to pick it up yesterday, and saw it at Meiers.  Their coffee is strategically placed by the wine.   ;)

So, is anything going on??  No, not really.  I am going to get a run in like I said, and I should probably blow leaves.  We actually have a lot in our front yard now.  I think when I get home from my run though, I will watch a movie.  I don't think my neighbors will appreciate me blowing my leaves at 5:00 AM. 

As I think about life and stuff, I know the road you are on.  It is a hard one.  Your thoughts will be taken to a place not of your choosing.  You will have one rung of the ladder to hold onto.  It is the rung of honesty and truth.  A Life's journey is hard.  Nothing about it is easy, but remember my Joseph Heller/Howard Zinn analogy.  Life is zany and fun, and we get to do a lot of fun stuff.  Life has the serious stuff too.  They go hand in hand, and the serious stuff is the stuff we have to deal with. 

I don't know your life's journey, but we will find out.  We all have our 5 and 10 year plans and stuff like that, but their is also another plan.  A plan not of your making, and one who you are not the author of.  Be brave, be strong and trust.  You are in good hands.  :)

You will not be perfect, and beauty is all in being honest anyway.  Beauty is not a life you tried to be perfect in, because in that you fail.  In being honest you succeed.  That is the hard part though, because our stuff is hard to look at, and moreso harder to show people.  So with this hard stuff, you will have help, because there was only one who was strong enough to overcome all.  

So, that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a  Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Time for me to finish my coffee, and then I'll go on a run.  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D  

Have a great day all.   :)   MWAH!!!     :)   

Friday, October 26, 2012

The Subway Buzzards Stepped On My Watch!! >: /

Grrrrrrr,  I hate when I wake up to blog early, and I have nothing to write about.  So, I guess I will start with my day and go from there.  Our run got cancelled last night, so I took Hope for a 'lil 3 miler.  It was actually pretty warm outside.  I mean like 80 degree warm and humid.  Being acclimated already to the cool stuff, it actually was a pretty tough run.  I felt slow.  I am pretty slow right now, but even for my new slow standards.

Lisa, and I just sat outside then.  I had a couple drinks, and then made dinner.  Want to know the easiest dinner??  I bought one of those ham steaks.  cooked it up, and cut it up, and cooked it with scalloped potatoes.  Then I added shredded cheese when it was done, because scalloped potatoes typically don't have enough cheese with them.   ;)  HOLY GOOD, and HOLY EASY!!!   :)

I cranked the tunes, and jammed out for a bit.  It was pretty fun.  Life is fun huh??  I think I kinda see how you view certain things in life.  I also see how I view them.  Differently.  I don't really know what purpose me being the way I am now serves.  Does it give people hope??  One of the very best gifts I have is the ability to support.  Support goes with trust.  This blog has harped on trust forever, and it references it every day.

Other than that not much going on.  A lot of writing today, and a lot of deleting.  That means a hard blog day fo sho!!   :)

So, I guess I'll go get a short 'lil run in.  It isn't a run day, but I got time.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Oh, after today I have a 4 day weekend.  Long weekends, and short weeks are the bomb, and then we are in November. 

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Thursday, October 25, 2012

The Block...

Morning all, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  The reason for my title today is I have absolutely nothing to write about.  What new??  Happens all the time.  I wake up to do this, so I guess I will try and see what happens.  

Yesterday I was able to take Hope for a little 3 miler before work.  It was warm... like 67 degrees or something, and humid, so it was a good warm humid run.  I love starting out the day like that, although it does make me tired at work.  I was tired when I got home too, but it was garbage take out day, so I loaded up our dumpster to the top.  Our little project of throwing all the crap out of our house.  We are getting to be about two weeks out of emptying most of the stuff we wanted to get rid of.  Then we'll just have to continue to find stuff.  

Getting that little bit done gave me a little energy, so I started some laundry, and washed the dishes, and you know little stuff like that energizes me.  So I came home tired, and all of a sudden I felt much better. 

I didn't do too much the rest of the night.  Had a couple drinks, relaxed a bit, and went to bed early.  We ordered pizza, so it was really an easy night. 

So where do we go from here??  I don't know.  I wait and see and watch. 

It does make every day kind of exciting.  What new things will we see.  This blog/my life has been through a lot huh?? 

Life is full of joy huh??  I mean we all have hard times, but if I am any example there is a way to get through those tough things huh?? 

It is like the first time I had Bloody Marys at Phil's.  Those people who didn't want to talk about their hard times in life, or even look at it.  They didn't have enough liquor in them to do it.  The harder parts of life we deal with are hard to look at.  That is all part of the overcoming thing.  I like positive, and also courageous too.  To do the hard stuff we need courage. 

Oh well,   Everyone can work out their own stuff.  That is what it is all about right?? 

Today was a struggle to blog to be honest.   It must be blogging off season.   ;)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Thursday has turned into a run night.  So that is good. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Burn After Reading...

Morning all, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  Yesterday I took a day off, and watched the movie Burn After Reading.  It was pretty good.  I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch at 11:30, so after the movie I got some shit done around the house.  Dishes, clean the bathroom, fold my clothes, garbage etc...   I put a new pill thingy in the toilet that makes the water blue too.  I love those.   :)

I mean let's face it people who have not seen or experienced blue toilet water, have they really lived??  I think not.  Everyone is always searching for the answers to this and that, and this and that, and all the answers are  right in front of their nose.  Blue toilet water.  I am pretty sure if there was only one wonder of the World, it would be that. 

So, I met my friend, and he brought his girlfriend, and Mom.  We did the lunch thing, I had a few bloody marys.  Why not right??   It is my day off.  We shot the shit for a while.  Mostly about all the stupid crap we used to do at work.  I then went, and grabbed some stuff for dinner, and went home.  Screwed around for a bit, and took a nap.  Did dinner, watched a little TV, and went to bed at 8:00.  A day in the life. 

Now it is almost 3:00 AM, and I have time to run before work.  I was thinking how great it is to wake up like this most days.  I am alive, I am content.  I get to go to work today, and run before work, and Lisa and I don't have a ton planned tonight.  We have a couple things to do, and we'll have to make a meal.  Also I am looking forward to raking leaves and stuff.  They have finally started to really fall. 

Other than that I wonder what today will bring.  We shall see. 

I gots nothing else to be honest, so we shall call it a day right there.  :D

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Does anyone ever feel like some days you are important, and other days, just living this small little life??  I go between those two quite a bit I'd say, and I think it is normal.  :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Tuesday, October 23, 2012

The Window...

To Blog or not to blog, the question day after day.  I still do it, and I have a feeling leaves a person with more questions than answers.  It is a window of  my life that perhaps is a mirror for your own lives. 

Yesterday started off fine.  Lisa was under strict orders to just have a nice lazy day to herself.  She has been running around doing things for just about everyone.  Lisa likes time to lay down and read.  I was supposed to go out for MNF.  I took a day off, and those plans fell through.  I was thinking on Monday going out to a bar at 8:00 at night was about the last thing I wanted to do.  Going out on a Sunday at 1:00 or 4:00 is probably more my speed. 

Luckily those plans fell through, so I went out and picked up stuff to make Fajitas  , and grabbed a little wine.  I figured Lisa would be relaxing, and we'd just do our Monday thing.  Well relaxing no.  Lisa just got back from doing something or another, and was on her way out to do some more something or another.  She got home just when I was going to start dinner.  I watched a dumb, but funny movie.  Napoleon DynamiteLisa got home, and I was supposed to turn down the music, and she was in a bad mood, and she needed to relax.  She was quick to anger, and I was too, because she was supposed to have a day to herself.  She is in a shitty mood, so I am in a shitty mood, and FUCK THAT!!

So I got pissed.  I vented.  Why does she have to do everything for everyone.  Nobody fucking helps her out, everyone is like do this do this do this, and my ability to believe in the generosity of people is non-existent.  People are takers, and not givers, so screw 'em.  Those type of people should be ashamed of themselves.  Always do more harm than good. 

After about I made dinner we watched DDD on the Food station, and I apologized, and it was fine.  

That was a window into my day, and that is why I was pissed off.  Also why I don't like people sometimes. 

LATER!!!

Monday, October 22, 2012

A Lil Respect For the 13.1

Morning all, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I decided today was not a coffee day, as I was not feeling it.  It happens. 

So anyway yesterday I ran a 13.1.  I didn't know what to expect.  I considered a 13.1 to be a pretty easy race.  I thought the 2:00 mark would be pretty easy.  I have only done 2 13.1's to 5 Marathons, and 5-25K's.  I have run the distance and more numerous times.  My training hasn't been that good for a while, but has been good 2 weeks going into this event. 

I expected to go slow, and probably pick up the pace around mile 9 or 10.  HAHA HAHA   I guess you have to train a bit more for those races.  There was no pick up at mile 9 or 10.  As a matter of fact I may have even slowed down a bit.  I was getting fatigued on a 13.1  

I ran with Ken up until around mile 9.  We grabbed a Gu, and he got a gap, and we just went our paces.   I think he ended up being a couple minutes ahead of me.  Funny thing about this Half is it runs the first 9 miles or so with the Marathoners.  I was afraid the night before I would want to not turn at the 1/2 turn, but go on to run the full.   OMG  Who do I think I am??? 

Ummmm,  I loved being able to turn at the half.  I ended up being 2:07 for my finish.  I was plenty tired the final miles.  I walked 5 seconds or so through the aid stations to mostly drink Gatorade, and ran the rest of the way.  That is as good as I could have done on this day.  My P.R. is like 1:46 I think, and I paced 15 miles of a marathon passing the half at 1:47.  I am pretty slow for me right now, and not very endurancy.   :)

So, I grabbed a 'lil respect for the 13.1.  Those are the easiest races if you are knee deep into Marathon training.  You cannot just wake up one day and run a good one though. 

Lesson learned.   ;)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.  Guess I better do some push ups and pull ups before work.  Remember plan now is to get in shape. 

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Sunday, October 21, 2012

I Am Up, I Hazzz Coffee, Guess I'll Do This.

Morning All,  How's it Going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I have absolutely nothing to blog about, but I am up, I hazz coffee, and well you can read the title. 

My Saturday was very different.  I did not work, and I did not run.  When is the last time those two things happened??   SHEESH!!   I can not even remember.  I watched an artsy fartsy French film in the morning, and decided I better get something done.  I did some general cleaning, and some laundry, dishes, etc....  I ran to the store, and got the fixins for a pot roast, and threw that in the slow cooker.  That took me til like 1:00, and then watched some Football.  All the way up to the end of the Michigan/MI St.  game.  12-10????   Puhleeeeze. 

What do I have planned today??  I am running a 13.1  I am not doing it for any time or anything like that, because I am not fast at all.  I consider this my kick off for training for a Lansing Marathon.  I hope to get and stay motivated to get fast.  Will I??   I hope so.  I think I can get some good training in this Fall and Winter.  It helps training with people, and I have people to train with.  Will I for sure stay motivated??  No,  Life is full of other stuff for me.  We shall see. 

Yesterday I did get a glimpse of some things about me.  Who I am, and my story, and what it means.  ZOIKS!!  Remember anyone that time at Bromenn hospital, in the old people's room when that lady told me "I need to have the patience of Job."  I went back home to read Job, and I still didn't know what that lady meant.  This was the time when I was on my own.  I dealt with death, and break ups, I was done with College, and wondering what is a person to do. 

I wrote down something to the effect of It is hard to understand Job, unless you walked in his shoes.  So life went on for a bit, and I was reading "The Road Less Traveled" and BAM Persecution started.  6 days non-stop.  I was Evil, and The Anti-Christ etc...  6 days of fear, no sleep, and not eating much.  Through that suffering I could feel people's pain around me, and their life.  I will be honest with you that was the scariest part of my life.  The persecution came from this burning thing in my neck.  Then there was the old guy who asked for money, and I gave him the $20 in my wallet instead of the $1 I had in it.  My spirit leaped. 

I was naked spiritually speaking, and living a life doomed to Hades.  What is one to do??  Well, I needed to be picked up.  When the burning thing in my neck, and the persecution stopped, I re-read what I wrote.  It is hard to see how great Job was unless you walked in his shoes.  That scared the crap out of me, because that is what I just did. 

I was picked up, and made full, and secure for a short while.  Lora and I became friends.  She just lost her boyfriend to a car accident or something, and she was having his baby, so she was going through her own stuff. 

I then had a short little while where life was good.  I felt good about me, and secure in how I was as a person.  Little did I know everything was going to be taken away, and I was going to have to do my little Summer of discontent thingy.  Outside the garbage room of Bromenn Healthcare, I was told to go solo, as I was like the Scribes, Pharisees, and Hypocrites.  I thought how could I have been taken so far away??  Anyone remember the answer??

So yeah, this is a big blog, and what I have been asked to do is crazy sounding, etc...  Also you are asked to believe some crazy stuff, as were others before you. 

You know those 6 days weren't even part of the 3 times I must overcome??  What value is there in it??   I do remember one of the Beatitudes.  Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness.  Remember that thing I received right prior to being admitted?

Well, this is a heavy blog.  If you see it and read it you see it and read it.  Can't pretend it isn't there.  Strength is accepting things.  Doesn't faith believe all things, ENDURE all things, and hope for all things??  

What a long, and hard journey this was.  You have your own journey, and your own story, and I guess we will see what it is. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  ZOIKS, that was a doozy.   You never know do you??  Me either.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D   

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Coffee And A Blog...

Morning all, how's it going??  Me, I am doing good.  I am going to have some coffee, and write some blog about something or another.  It is Saturday so I actually made two cups of coffee.  We'll see if I can get the 2nd one down.  I will brb. 

Okay, so yesterday was Friday, which btw is my absolute favorite day to work.  You know I was finishing up a project, and that kind of crap is fun for me.  For you to get a glimpse of me, people all the time ask me if my job is boring.  ALL THE TIME.  I tell them no.  Half the time in a job, you want to feel like your busy.  Having to be somewhere with nothing to do sucks.  My job never runs out of things to do.  Always stuff to do, and every little thing I do helps, and hopefully adds to a good audit, which happens 3 times/ year. 

So anyway, that is that.  I made plans earlier in the week to stop by Beau and Charity's house.  They called me a bad friend, because I haven't been over in like 2 months.  Wow, where does the time go??  So instead of reading about how having a baby is, I actually saw it in real life.  Life changes, schedules are re-arranged.  Beau doesn't get to the gym as much as he'd like, etc... 

Life goes on.  You find a routine, and still find time to do things you enjoy.  I was a bad friend, and where does time go??  2 months, really??  What do I do with my time??  I couldn't even tell you.  You know I did do a lot of cleaning around the house.  I stay pretty busy'ish.  Life goes like that huh?? 

One thing you can tell though, is we are the same.  None of us have changed too much.  We like to hang, and have a couple cocktails, and to be honest Beau and Charity seem to be doing great. 

I really don't have too much, but yesterday was fun.  I got a little buzzed, and ate some shitty fast food, and went to bed early.  I was pretty tired, so I probably hung out til like 5:00 or something.  I am definitely not the big party for hours on end type of guy.  A few drinks, and BOOM,  Time for bed.   :)

So with that, I will say that finishes up my blog.  Funny I had a stretch of some pretty heavy blogs, and this is just a 'lil one, more normal'ish I'd say.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  Today, I get to do nothing all day.  Read, movie watch, maybe a little housework.  Yay to lazy days.    :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D        xo

Friday, October 19, 2012

Project Day!!

Morning all, how's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I am going to get some coffee, and I will brb.  This will just be a short 'lil blog, cuz I thought it was 2:00 AM, and it is past 3:30 AM.   ZOIKS!!

So, I know the past 4-5 posts have been pretty heavy.  I never have any idea when that happens.  Those are the pulling ones huh??  The ones where you imagine if logic can be bent.  If there is more out there than our understanding of what we see day to day.  No matter what walk of life you are on there is more than what we see, because there are things as Big as Galaxies, which we have no idea how to make, and things as small as elements, which we would not be able to create.  So yeah, logic gets bent no matter what walk of life, because you know the World was once flat. 

Anyhoo I had a great day at work yesterday.  As I do my weekly thing, I keep my eyes open, and sometimes an area or two is a complete mess.  I am not happy or confident with the accuracy of what I am seeing.  Those are the things I turn into projects for later in the week.  I finished my stuff early this week, so started a project yesterday.  I was going to work a little late, but my next section is a BIGGGGG change.  In order to clean it up, I have to make a mess.   I didn't want to start that at 1:30, so I'll finish it today. 

I LOVE MY WORK PROJECTS.  Now it ain't Rocket Science what I do, and as I have said before it takes a special kind of fucked up to like my job.   :)

I came home, and was bored.  Having no runs planned for the rest of the week sucks.  I wanted to do a 3 miler yesterday and Saturday, but didn't feel like it yesterday.  I think I was a bit down for some reason or another.   Who knows??  The night ended up being a little better than I expected. 

I made chili.  I spiced up my bowl, and went to bed.  Stayed up past 8:00 PM by a bit too I think.  What a week.   :)

Sometimes I get a glimpse of how long this thing has been going on.  Me blogging I mean.  SHEESH!!   LOL  wtf???  Now that is crazy, and that really bends the logic huh?? 


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s..   Oh crap,  You are a Yankees fan.   Ooops. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D      xo

Have a fab one all.  It is Friday and the Weekend, and things like that.   :)    xoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!   :)

Thursday, October 18, 2012

What A Week!!

Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I stayed up late again last night.  I was just listening to music, and had a couple drinks.  I made dinner, and just chilled.  Yesterday was a total day off.  Lisa, and I did some yard work.  We have to cut down all our plants when they die, and the City comes picks them up along with leaves etc...  See, some taxes definitely are good, and do good stuff. 

Remember I said a while ago to look at the World and life objectively.  How does one do that??  Throw everything you know and learned away.  That is a pretty hard step huh??  Do you have faith and trust, that you will be led in a direction in which you will find the truth.  A truth that may be invisible to what you see now??  That is stepping out, and that is what I did, and what I said I'd do after graduating College.  It led me in a direction I HAD NO IDEA. 

We kinda get stuck searching and working to be the best person within society, but life is Human Beings.  We all come from different societies, and society living is that which is passed down from Generation to Generation.  Flawed and imperfect. 

What is wrong with finding a higher truth, and a higher way of being??   You might just be surprised at what is out there.  If living within the confines of Society was worth a crap I would put all my effort into it.  Me being as I am now, I live in the Matrix zone.  Don't worry about this or that so much, because I took the right path. 

My heart is pretty good too.  It is open, and within it are things that make me not want to murder, and rape, and kill, etc...  Also I am busy, and active, and although not the hardest worker when it comes to running etc...  I am active. 

Remember that one time when I was taken back to the physical depression days??  I cursed, gave up, and said I cannot go there again.  After that night my heart has been in the best hands.  Somehow someway good has been done since then, and you know I was not the author, and I was not the guider of my own path. 

We kinda get bogged down with things should be like this, and what I do should appear to be like that.  We are better than that.  It takes strength, and confidence, and trust.  You bring out your real side, I'll be there.  Maybe you think the World will judge you, but I won't, and I may judge the judgers. 

That is it for today!!!    :)  

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   I fertilized our yard yesterday, and it rained.   How lucky is that??  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D  

Later all,  have a fab one.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH  not MUAH.    ;)    xo   :)

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Staying Up Late.

Morning all, how is it going??  Me, I am doing O.K.  For some reason, I have decided to stay up late the last two nights.  It was unplanned, and I was really just having fun.  Hanging out etc... 

I am pretty sure I don't have much today, but I will get some coffee, and see what comes up. 

brb.   :)

Okay, I am back.  Also I have some coffee, so it is like I izzz all ready to blog. 

Sometimes when I blog I think it is o.k. to blog about some things I thought of the day before.  Want to know one of the things I thought of??  This blog??  I throw a lot of love on here, and it seems like the most natural thing in the World to me.  Some days I need a dose of reality.  That is not a normal thing is it?? 

How is it I do that??  Funny how a few blogs ago where out of nowhere I said  rock, paper, scissors, love beats all.  I have the gift.  It was given to me as part of my journey, and I guess I didn't really know it was possible to have it before the final thing I did.  This little thing I do on my end must help you on your journey in some way.  Maybe it is something to show you what is possible. 

Life has some tough things in it.  This blog has some tough things in it.  I know that.  I know I have been pulling hard for a long time, and I know the desires in your heart to make this awesome and great name for yourself. 

That is where trust comes in though huh??  Do you trust.  It is so hard to overcome ourselves huh??  When I think back to my time I was able to overcome...  barely.  That is by design I think.  You need to have some hard fought victories, and that probably is by design too. 

I'll tell you on the other end, and this is due to me not having very much understanding, it all seems so easy.  How Where Why??  Remember all those hard races you did that you never knew you could??  Marathon/Iron(Wo)Man races.   ;)    Don't they seem so easy after the fact??  Like you want to just go out and do another again?? 

That is how it seems to me.   Like the easiest thing in the World.  Those of you who read this know though there probably was nothing easy about me getting to where I am.  This isn't even the finishing point.  I have one very hard thing to do.  It is a necessary step in order for me to get the one thing I have wanted forever....   UNDERSTANDING. 

With understanding comes the ultimate strength, and the ultimate knowledge, and it is something I cannot attain too, although it is what I seeked more than anything on my Summer of discontent.  It is without understanding that makes me so imperfect.  Trust and strength walk hand in hand in this part of the journey.  I have a bad voice.  It is a strong voice, and it can overpower me.  What gives the bad voice leverage is lies and stuff like that.  Honesty, and truth, and trust all keep him pretty hidden.  The one who overcame long ago though is still able to help me overcome all steps in my journey here.  We have help.  It isn't easy, because it isn't supposed to be. 

I am here in this no man's land.  Having already gone through the eye of the needle.  It has made me different, and makes me see things different.  It makes me see the all things are possible type thing in the World, although the World runs on the same old logic that we all live with.  You cannot see the World through my eyes, and I can no longer see them through yours.  Understanding corrects that.   This isn't even the final destination.  I am just a little old dude who is poor in Spirit doing what I do. 

A little secret between you and me???    I LOVE DOREEN!!    :)


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Finished up doubling up on a 6.7 mile run on Mon and Tues with Jerry.  Now I just finish up this weekend, and it is time to start getting this Fall/Winter training going.   WOOOP   WOOOOOP!!!   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen, cuz I love her.    :)    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D   

Have a fab one all.   MWAH!!!!    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Monday, October 15, 2012

Weird Dream...

Well, I had a weird dream.  I was up early this morning, like 1:00 am early thinking SHEESH, this is too early to get up.  I did fall back asleep though, and had a weird dream.  It didn't mean anything, but I was late for work.  I couldn't get through with a call.  It was some kind of weird day at work, because I didn't do anything, and their was food to eat and stuff.  I saw a lot of people who don't live near where I live, and I was wearing a white dress.  :)   I kept thinking, man, it has been a while since I wore a dress to work.  :)

So anyway, I like to kid around a lot, and I do on this thing.  At this stage of the game my p.s. was just a p.s.  with a little humor. 

I know it was a big weekend with my blogs, and for those who may remember my one desire when starting up the Journey was to be right.  I was to be faithful though remember??  I didn't even know what that meant.  Being right is my final destination.  A gift, because obviously I cannot do any of that on my own. 

So my life is pointless in ways.  Do right here, or bad here, or whatever.  I am glad in my heart is only to live this simple life I live.  It isn't righteous or anything like that, it is just how it is in my heart to live. 

People get themselves in pickles in life.  There really are only two avenues when that happens that I can see.  Anger, and defend oneself, or humbly accept your flaws, and let people see the person who is not perfect. 

We would want to be strong, and try and help us feel better, but the honest way is a way where like I said it is humble, meaning you don't feel strong. 

Anyhoo, just wanted to get that down.  I am not right, and I am not perfect, but those things are possible.  You don't work for it though, because none of it is in your control. 

Remember the greatest gift???  


That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   Another crazy day of football I see.  

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D       :)

Have a great Monday everyone.  We skipped our run yesterday, because of lightning and thunder supposed to being around.  It wasn't really, so I went on a lil 3 miler, and we are running tonight.  So it is all good. 

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.   :)   xoxoxoxo    :D   

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Never Been In Your Shoes...

Good morning all.  I am up early for no good reason at all.  Thought I had a good blog entry yesterday, but guess not.  Out of nowhere it came.

Anyhoo, I wonder why my blog is the way it is.  It has been going on for quite a while.  A long time with a lot of entries.  Very few readers too. 

Why haven't I been in your shoes??  My battles in life a long time ago were just about being honest.  That was one rung on the ladder I was going to hold onto.  I didn't need anyone to tell me to look at myself.  I was alone, and that is what I was doing.  I was looking at the World, and myself as objectively as I can.  There was no one out there keeping me in line saying,  "Hey,  you ain't that fucking fabulous"  The truth I searched, the truth I seeked, and the truth I found.  With a turn opened up all kinds of windows of learning, and suffering as it turns out. 

Not only did I suffer general life hardships, but I suffered other things no one else saw.  Then I suffer through the blogs I have written, and deleted as it turns out. 

It has been quite a ride, and frustrating too. 

The World is crazy backwards.  Society is crazy backwards too.  We are brought up to believe the World is good, and you are good.  Have high self esteem.  etc...  That is why everyone is on anti-depressants probably.  No one feels as good about themselves as we think we should.  Why??  Because that is the truth.  We look at the "Fabulous" people as if they did something right.  They still struggle with the same day to day Bullshit of life we all do. 

There is a whole World of learning to be done, and your ability to learn it on your own is impossible.  None are smart, or strong enough to attain to the Heights available.  That is what makes life, and this thing we do hard.  We feel we are smart, and have the ability to learn, but you haven't even scratched the surface of what can be. 

We'll see how this thing turns out.  It is a bit frustrating to me, because you all are like 'Noooooooooooo, it can't be"  

Like at all other parts in times of History it is hard to believe when one comes, and tells you how things are.  Very few believed.  Now what happens??  I have a feeling some believe against their better judgement, because this story has gone on so long, and I have helped some, and there is no way to communicate with me if the people know what I have done.  Do they sense it?? 

It is a hard road, and a tough journey, and you have  to be willing to accept your lack of fabulousness, and your lack of ability to learn on your own what must be learned. 

I have never been in your shoes, because I never had to read a blog like mine back in the day.  When I was suffering suffering and suffering though there is one thing I wanted more than anything.  Someone who knew more than me.  Someone who could give me answers.  As it turns out I didn't need that someone, because through all my struggles my faith became stronger, and I was able to develop a trust in one who I haven't seen.   I have been shown plenty.  One time during my bad Summer I was shown what God sees.  I looked at the World through his eyes.  Saw everything in all his glory.  I thought I was the worst person in the whole World, but I thought he wouldn't show me this if I was supposed to be bad.  I have twice been taken to the doorstep of Hell.  Twice with not my strength I said I was willing.  The 3rd one will be the real deal.  I will go where there is no hope, and nothing but despair.  I will be baptized with fire as it goes. 

That will be the end of my journey, and the beginning of the new me.  I was asked to follow in the footsteps, and I said I was willing.  I know it will be bad, and I know I will suffer, but also I know the one who overcame long ago will be with me, and I will have no fear. 

It will be a crazy ride, and some of you will share in the suffering, because I will only be alive in you.  Now that my friends is a prophecy too.  One I have known a long while.  It was the vision I had during my physical depression days.  I hit the Alligator/serpent on the head 3 times, and then Katrina and I   hugged. 

That happened in the early 90's.  Not once did I doubt it would happen.  I did not know how it would happen.  My path I did not make.  My story is not mine, because I wanted a good story to be made out of my life, and I gave up any rights to any story I could make, and it turns out there is a pretty good author who made one for me.  Like yesterday I was led on my path.  I did not lead myself.  Who can make this stuff up??  

At the end of the day life and what we do on this Earth is crazier than fiction.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I thank you all in advance for pretending you did not read this.  I love it when you do that.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D     I still love Olga.   :)

Oh btw here is a picture of Jacob and me.   We drank some beer yesterday to help cure cancer. 

cheers.   :)


Later all.  Have a fab one.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH MWAH MWAH!!!   :)

Saturday, October 13, 2012

The Western Winds Heal Those With Oil Filter Wrenches...

Don't ever say you won't get useful information on this blog.  Just this title alone is a doozy, I am sure you never thought of.  Probably never even knew what the cure was. 

As my title suggests, and as happens with most days,  I ain't got SHIT.  I am going to get my coffee though, and see what happens. 

brb...

So it is a Saturday.  I am back into my routine.  We are running this morning around 7:30 AM.  I have a little work to do around the house, I may take a nap.  Lisa works til 3:00, and then we have a party to go to.  College Football is on, so it should be a good day.

Boy, I really have nothing today.  How strange.  Now I will really have to wing it.  SHEEEESH!!

As I search my brain for something I keep thinking of people, and how confused they really are.  Seems to me some people think they know themselves.  Got themselves all figured out.  This is how I am and this is how I am day over day.  People try and hold onto something or another.  Just one little rung of some ladder, and say look...  I do this I am strong.

That is life though, and that is the truth.  There are no rungs to hold onto.  Life is this thing we do, and there is nothing fabulous about any of it.  Life is two ways.  The one way has more questions than answers.  There are so many "Y" intersections in life, and internally we can find fault with each path chosen.  That is our internal sword.  We have one.  We can judge others, but we should be pretty good at judging ourselves.

The strange and mystical path is one you don't see.  It is a path of faith.  It is a yellow brick road in ways.  It is a path filled of gold bricks.  It is a path you don't make.  It is a path you don't lead, it is a path you are lead on.  The path starts with a step.  A step of trust.  It ain't easy, I have gathered that much, but it is something you work out on your own.

Our lives are solo.  Any "group" means nothing.  All questions of life, and everything are something you have to work out.  All people put their faith in some pretty strange and screwy things. 

Big Bang??  yep, probably.  By fluke or by design??   Evolution???  yep.  How??  It don't make sense.  Well, on the 7th day he rested, and that my friends is a prophecy.  The 7th day we have not reached yet.  

Everyone always closes their minds to everything, and I think it is o.k. to say what if there is just a little bit of truth in everything.  In that everyone is alike.  Closed minded.  The believers, and the non-believers have that in common.  Their understanding is so very little though, that what they share in common is a hate for each other. 

Long ago there was a person who came.  He grabbed a couple people.  Told them to drop their lives.  Everything.  Jobs, family and everything.  "Come Follow Me" 

You never had to do that.  You have been asked to do something though, and something that takes trust.  The path is one of being humbled, because those who are humbled will be exalted.  You have to trust the path ain't easy.  You have to trust in the path being laid that you cannot see, and that you don't control. 

Why???  Because the lessons taught were not about the sword.  The lessons taught were actually about love.  Rock paper scissors, Love Beats all. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Secretly rooting for the Cardinals.  Only reason is they are an improbably team.  They were my team to watch anyway, because of their crazy run differential for the season.  Pujols goes, and the Angels don't make the Playoffs, and the Cards are as good as any team left.  LOVE IT!!!   Not really rooting against anyone though.  Whoever wins the WS will deserve it. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D    :D    xoxoxoxo   :D  :D   LOL

I love Olga.   :)

LATER ALL   Have a fab Saturday.  MWAH!!!    :)


Friday, October 12, 2012

I Ain't Got Shit!!

Morning all.  I have absolutely nothing to blog about at all, so naturally I made some coffee, and I am going to wing it... as usual.

First things first.  I will be right back once I have coffee in hand.

I guess we will just start out with the day, and see what pops up.  I was tired and sore on Wednesday, so that usually means wine night.  Not much else I can do.  That is what I did, and I actually slept til after 4:00.  Lisa woke me up too.  That surprised me.  I haven't used an alarm in forever, and I slept through the alarm I don't use.   That never happens.

More sleep = a productive day at work, and a productive day at home.  Thursday is garbage pick up day, and no day is more exciting around our house.  It means we unloaded a ton of crap, and get to load up more crap in the bin.  It really is the little things.  This new trying to junk-proof our house is a fun chore.  Silly how such little things are such a big deal huh??

So anyway instead of relaxing before my run, I ended up getting a Shit load done around the house.  That felt pretty good.  Our run was uneventful.  We did our 6.7 mile route with Jerry and Ken.  It took an hour, and has me wondering what my 13.1 miler time will be.  Really comes down to how close to 2 hours will I get?  I am a far ways away from a 1:47  half being my marathon pace.

So in general I am just plugging along.  I have some running goals, and some house goals that keep me busy, and keep me active, and I look around, and let me tell you one thing.   Things seem pretty good right now.

On the outside my life seems pretty boring I'd say.  So much of life is how you feel on the inside.  That is where I am winning.  I feel great, and I feel good about me.  That is the battle huh??  No 2nd guessing.  No what ifs???    Also just a little secret I have about how I am me.  What a long and strange journey huh??  It ain't even over.  I still got some stuff to do, but that is the thing, I am willing to do it.  Have been since forever.

Anyway just touching base.  Let you know I feel pretty fucking GREAT!!!    :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  This upcoming year is going to be pretty fascinating I think.  Can't wait to see how everyone's life evolves.

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D      xoxo    :D    :D       

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

The Anatomy Of A Day...

Good Morning all.  I am going to gets me my cup of coffee, and I will be right back.  

Okay I am back.  My title may seem like a strange one, but yesterday was one of those days where I was happily surprised with me.  Now as you know I slept like shit on Monday, and I still woke up early.  I did my stupid blog thing, and my push ups, and pull ups, and drank coffee, and switched the laundry. 

I thought I was going to be tired all day, and that was the surprise.  I was not at all.  I biked into work, and had a productive day at work.  I was not in the best mood all day.  Why??  who knows, but you know when you have those days when you just are not all that sociable??  That was me.  Those days we definitely are not at our best.  It is those times, at least for me, where I couldn't care less about people.  On this day my life was about me, and as it turned out it wasn't too bad. 

I did the errands I wanted to do on Monday, and got a haircut, and did the dishes, before running.  Jerry and I went out and did our 6.7 mile route.  With my new found motivation I thought I'd be running light and fast, and etc...   OOOPS!!!   I guess you have to do a bit of work before you get fast. 

I have no idea our pace.  Probably around 9:00'ish.  We did 6.7 miles in an hour whatever that comes out to. 

Oh well, this is a dumb little update I guess.  I was surprised though.  I was not in the best of moods yesterday, but I still had energy to do my stuff. 

Just one little thought.  Maybe this is, and has been my battle for a while.  There are two ways I as a person can be.  I can be this open person with a blog.  A blog that let's people see my life, and all the stupid pointless Shit that makes it up.  Sometimes when I get in a bad mood like yesterday, I hate the Blog, and I hate the Internet.  So I step away.  

Maybe in ways I can be supportive and nice at times, and then the other side.  I get pissed, and outta sight outta mind people.  The good and the bad. 

Guess that is it. 

LATERZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Irritated = Not Sleep Well.

Good morning.  Last night I went to bed irritated a bit I think.  I went back to work yesterday, and it was a Monday, and the first day back is really all about getting back in the swing.  I was tired yesterday.  I came home, and napped a bit.  Lisa put an outlet from downstairs and an outlet cover in front of me.   Oh yeah...   That. 

The Electricity in our house is old.  It doesn't have a ground wire, and it used the old 2 prong outlets for the family room and bedrooms upstairs.  Kitchen Bathroom, and Basement is newer.  I switched a lot of our 2 prongers out to 3 prongers a while ago.  Never did do them all for some reason.  The one in our bedroom almost blew up a couple nights ago.  So I had to get a new one in, so we don't have cords draped everywhere around our room.  I did that without cutting the circuit.  Never did that before, and I was nervous.  I don't understand how the Electricity thing really works.  I knew enough to not be sitting in a tub of water while doing it, and I tried to not have wires touch each other or metal.  That worked.  Maybe I should get a side job as an Electrician.  j/k.  Electricity scares the Hell out of me. 

That was the extent of my day.  I did some Push ups and Pull ups, and watched TV the rest of the day.  Lisa and I were supposed to run a couple errands, but I didn't want to.  Why do on a Monday what can so easily be done on a Tuesday??  That is what I was thinking, and actually she wasn't hard to convince.  She went on and did a couple other things, and picked up stuff for our Monday meal.  I watched TV.  Meal was good.  I watched a little more tv, and went to bed. 

Now I look, and it is 3:00 AM.  I could probably get a bit of a run in, but I am running tonight.  It is October, and I don't need to double up today.  I think I will put the clothes in the dryer, make a cup of coffee, and so some more push ups and pull ups. 

See, I already feel better.  Oh, and this is definitely a phone stay home type of day. 

In life you have to be strong, and we confuse what strong is.  Strong is what we want to be in our minds, but on this blog it has a different meaning. 

I guess I can still do this though...

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Here is hoping today goes a bit better.  Maybe I will get in a better mood.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D     (glad the outlook is better)   :D    xo

Monday, October 8, 2012

Back To Work.

Morning all, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  It is Monday, and I go back to work today.  Monday, Monday, but that is okay. 

I really don't have much to write about today, so I think I will do a list. 

  • I got 8 miles in yesterday.  6 of them with Jerry.  I run better with people.  I do better when I can share miles.
  • My cousin Rudy ran a 2:49 marathon.  I was wondering what kind of shape he was in.  New job, marriage, move to East Coast.  Guess he is still in good shape.  (2 minutes of his PR)
  • Race results to the phone is a good idea.  It was pretty cool getting those texts.   :)
  • You know I think I can get down to 3:35 Marathon pace.  I paced that for 15 miles a few years back.
  • Wouldn't that be something to get back there again??  A worthy goal.  I'll have to get my big boy cold pants on, and ride to work and back in the Winter.  Everything helps.  
  • We had tacos for dinner last night.  Not sure what we will have tonight.  
  • I didn't do any push ups or pull ups yesterday.  I finally don't feel sore today.   ;)
  • Lists can be kind of cool, because you just search your brain for something or another.  
  • I think I may run the Grand Rapids 13.1 with Ken.  It will be like a long run.  I am pretty sure his race pace is pretty much the same as his training pace.  I paid for it anyway.
  • I don't have a lot today, but yesterday was a pretty good day.  Nothing like starting the day with a run huh?  
  • We are going to start up again our Tuesday night runs.  
That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I find it strange that sometimes I blog, and it is a doozy, it just flows, and sometimes I have an entry like this.  Oh well.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D    :(    xoxo

Sunday, October 7, 2012

The Turn... For Me.

HA HA HA.  This isn't the turn turn.  This is just a turn that has been made in me.  For some reason, and for so long I have been missing a spark.  I mean, I could do the work, but my mind really hasn't been on the GET BETTER path.  I have been for so long just going through the motions.  Do this, do that, because that is what I do. 

NOW... something clicked.  I want to get better.  I want to be a better runner, and I want to be faster.   All things are relative mind you.  A good Marathon for me would be a 3:45, and a good 5K would be sub: 22:00.  Want to know why I don't do many races??  I was not near PR fast.  I don't want medals, and I don't want to do races just to do them.  I want to have a shot at being better than what I have been. 

So look out, somehow, someway the fire is back.  The drive to be better.  The drive to do more and more day after day.   The drive to do more than go through the motions. 

I will be unorthodox.  I will still drink, etc..., but I have time to get this body in shape.  To slim down, and get faster.  I have no idea what I weigh, but I am sure I could stand to lose 10 lbs. or so. 

Me having a drive also coincides with me having a future.  We have so far to go, and LIFE WILL HAPPEN. 

Life happens to give us a better view of life.  A better view of life doesn't necessarily mean life looks better.  It means we see it more clearly.  Remember my life turn??  death, break up with girlfriend.  Me not being who I want to be.  Me failing to live up to my own standards.  A desire to be a good person, and the desire to live a life that matters. 

At the end of the day no one gives a SHIT if I ever get my PR's except me. 

So I feel I got the spark back.  It has been missing. 

That my friends is good for me. 

I am going to get some miles in with Jerry at 7:30.  First I am going to drink some coffee, and get some miles before the miles.  It is a new day and a new Steve.  It is never too late to re-invent yourself.  I am no different, except maybe I want to be just a little bit better runner, with just a little more drive. 

WOOOOP    WOOOOOOOOOOP!!!    :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   I am tracking Marathons and 10 mile races for the first time in my life today with my phone.  Iz be so technologicalllleeeee   wif it.   :P

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D 

How stupid is that last line??   LOL.    :D

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Movie Day...

Morning all.  How's it going??  I have absolutely nothing to write about today, but you never know what may pop up.  I am going to get a cup of coffee, and I will be right back. 

So yesterday I did something I rarely/never do.  I spent all day watching movies.  I watched a French film of a lady doing an article for "Elle" magazine.  It was about two hookers she interviewed, and became friends with.  How they started, and what it was like and stuff.  I watched "Return of the Pink Panther"  I never saw any of those before.  It was pretty good.  A movie called "The Red Violin"  A few more.  I didn't really plan on doing just that, but I kinda enjoyed it.  I never do that, and to give a day to myself to do just that seemed pretty fun. 

Today, I am going to get my run in early.  I have a ton of housework to do etc...  

Monday I am back to work.  Mostly I don't like taking full weeks off, but I actually enjoyed this one.  I don't know why.  Most of the time I feel lazy when I am on vacation, and maybe guilty for being lazy.  I didn't overwork myself on this vacation, but I am okay with me getting a little bit done each day.  (except yesterday)

Do you ever feel guilty??  I could have should have done more.  That is how I mostly feel while on vacation after the first couple days.  I didn't get that at all this past week.  Made for a rather enjoyable week.  I will be ready to go back to work though.  Get back in my routine.  I am a much better runner in my routine, than when I am out.  I am better with structured days I guess. 

Well, I think I will stop there.  I told you I had nothing, but I could probably go on and on, about all the stupid shit that really makes up my life.  I will spare you.   :)

I am excited for today.  Mostly starting it with an early morning run.  Then clean clean clean, and cook a nice meal.  weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I was sore as Hell from the pull ups yesterday.     OUCH

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

Friday, October 5, 2012

Some General Thoughts.

So yesterday on my post about pretty much nothing, I said this blog was weird this week.  I guess I want to clarify that.  For a long time, it seems this thing was getting pretty heavy, and now it really isn't at all.  The thing I thought about this morning was this blog was really pulling hard in a way, and now it isn't.  What does that mean to me??   It means we have time.  I guess I said that before. 

Did we pull in vain??  No, because this is going to work out.  Life goes on.  As you all know life has some hard stuff to deal with.  That is what we do.  we deal with life.  We don't pretend everything is always great, because we are living this thing.  Not all things we go through are easy, and we don't always fell all rah rah. 

Sometimes we do though. 

Want to know some of my motivation problems??  I can boil it down to one little statement.  At the end of the day (life) nothing really matters.  All we strive for doesn't mean squat.  Now that is a tough pill to swallow.  It was a tough thing to learn, and the thing Solomon I don't think knew, was it doesn't have to be a sad thing.  Maybe he did know.  He did say eat, drink, and be merry, for that is your lot in life. 

One of the hard things in life is us.  Trying to figure out us.  There is who we want to be, and who we want people to think we are.  Then there is the real us, the one we battle.  I am this way, but I don't want to be.  In other words you don't accept yourself.  You are not who you want to be.  The best thing about my journey to this point here, is I accept myself.  I am going to be made a certain way, but that is after this thing I have to do. 

This is good enough for me.  The way I am, I am not afraid to show who I am.  All the dark little secrets that make up who we are, I am not afraid to hold up to the light.  It seems like such an easy thing huh??   That is the journey though.  Us holding the darkness within us to the light.  The darkness is afraid of the light.  Why??   because there is this great sword.  We cannot survive the sword can we??

Rock, paper, scissors,  Forgiveness beats the sword. 

Complicated huh??  A lot to get through huh??   Yep,  none are smart enough to make their own path.  Many haven't even taken the first step.  We have a long way to go on this impossible journey, but the lesson of the camel through the eye of the needle is all things are possible.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I got a little run in yesterday, and some pull ups.  Pull ups are hard again.   ;)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D  

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Back To Normal?? Me?? Yeah Right!!

Good Morning all.  I went to bed early last night.  I am on vacation, so it was actually at my normal time.  I went to bed a little before 8:00.  As you know, or as you may tell, this is my time.  I love this early morning/middle of the night time.  I don't know why, and one thing I can say about it is, I am lucky to be like this, and to pretty much feel like this every morning. 

This week my blog has been a bit weird to me.  That probably means it has been normal to you.   :)   Give me a stay up late to watch MNF, and a stay up late the next night to watch 3 hours of "The Big Bang Theory" and things get a bit out of whack for me I'd say. 

One thing I can say is I am having a GREAT relaxing time this staycation.  I get a little bit done around the house, and get a lot of relaxing.  Our house is like 90% the way we want it now too.  You can always do some detail cleaning here and there, but we are actually organized.  We don't have a lot of clutter, and the stuff we want to just throw out is organized in a corner of our garage to throw in the regular garbage every week.  It may take a couple months. 

What is not to like?? 

Anyway just a short little update.  I think I will make a cup of coffee, and read my book now, or maybe watch a movie.  We shall see. 

Have a Great one ALL!!!    :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I got a little run in yesterday in a cool drizzle.  Perfect running weather.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

WOAH!!! I am Human...

WOW,  I had such a good Monday.  It was so productive, and it knocked me out.  Yesterday, I did very little.  Well little, for me.  I did dishes (twice) laundry, and well...  oh,   I cooked dinner too, and that was it.  I read, and kept falling asleep. 

It took me a while, but after around 12 hours, I figured I caught a cold.  I was a bit sick.  SHEESH!!!   been a while.  I must have had a low grade fever too, because I was hot last night, and Lisa said it wasn't hot.  She told me I must have had a fever break. 

I feel better already today though.  I only have been in bed for like 6 hours, a little tossing and turning, so I guess I will probably try and get some more sleep. 

What was supposed to be my first week of "real" solid training will be put on hold.  No sense getting all crazy, when I feel a bit under the weather.  I am just doing the base thing anyway.  Real training doesn't start til after Jan. 1.  I got time. 

I decided to start doing push ups and pull ups too.  Outlooks are always better without battling a cold.  Motivation too. 

So here is to good Health for all.  Life is way more better that way.   :)

Laterz Taterz.   :)

Monday, October 1, 2012

Blog Update.

I got nothing today.  I am on vacation, and going back to bed. 

Have a good one all.  :)

xoxo