Monday, October 31, 2011

Coffee and A Blog.

Well, I have absolutely no idea what I am going to write about today.  Why do I write so often??  I don't know.  There are a million different directions a life can take at any point in time.  You can choose to do damn near anything, and work toward it, but all plans can be shelved due to poor health. 

You want to know what I have been thinking lately??  I think I can write dang near anything on here.  I don't think too much about what I write.  Maybe me writing helps people think of stuff.  I do know the direction I took leaves me with a freedom now.  A freedom of not second guessing.  I still feel vulnerable sometimes, like after Saturdays post, but I never worry too much.

I guess I don't have to do anything.  I still am out there, being a bit crazy.  I am a bit wild, because why not.  I just don't understand a lot of you.  Who are you??  You know who you are??  No you don't.  You don't know who you are, and what you think about, and what you want to do can change from day to day.  I guess you seek consistency inside your shell, but it isn't there.  You seek for happiness with your goals, but it isn't there. 

The thing here is we are being led down a path.  Your lives will have stuff in it for you to see every day, and you are looking, and you are seeing, and not all of life is happy.  Not all of life is sunshine, and not all of life is predictable. 

In other words I have no idea what to write.  :)  still love you all tho.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  oh shit,  I got a picture of my room, lemme add it.  :)

Trainer ride anyone??  :P
Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

No extras cuz it still is Monday you knucklheads.  :D   Have a good one.  :)   MWAH!!!!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

I'll Take A Miller "LIGHT"

Well yesterday's post seemed a bit heavy, so maybe I will lighten it up a bit.  First off I ran yesterday morning, and ran with Ken from work. Ken is 65 I believe and ran the Chicago Full, and the next weekend the Grand Rapids half.  If you remember I tried helping him on long runs, but got injured again last year, and couldn't help him.  He did most of the training himself.  Solo marathon training.  YIKES!!  We did like a little 6 + mile route, but since I ran home from a spot my run was probably close to 8 miles.  I didn't time it, and I didn't check the distance.  Didn't really care.  I feel I am slow right now, but I am healthy, so that matters.  :)

Give you a couple things I was thinking about this morning, before I got up.  I am excited to getting back to running/riding bike to and from work.  It will be all part of my training.  A run, and a bike with a destination is good exercise for me.  Starts the day off right, and gets my work day on the right foot.  I like work.  It gives me a place to have to be, and sometimes as crazy as it may sound I dread my vacations.  :)  My wife thinks I am nuts, but work is a good routine for me. 


Anyway I guess that is about it for today.  I know life is so big, and so much out there, and dammit sometimes the grass is green in other spots, but the search is to find where the grass is green in your mind.  It is all about how you feel inside.  How do things look inside you??  How do you feel?   Paradise comes from the inside.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I thought for myself to set up my trainer, and get little 30-45 minute workouts in here and there.  Every little bit helps, and I cannot do the killer trainer rides the other ones do.  Too boring for me. 


Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Wisconsin football fans.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen too.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

Saturday, October 29, 2011

The Fork Was North And South

That is the one less traveled.  Well here is what I was thinking.  The path less traveled is the one in where your spirit soars.  You shake off all the chains that bind you, because the chains ain't worth anything.  Quit holding onto stuff that really doesn't matter.  When you take the path less traveled you actually take the path up.  It is then when you let your color, and light shine.  I mean the easy way is to bury all who you are.  Don't show anyone, and you know that is an easy thing to do, but it leads to such unhappiness.  The shell is some form of security, but you will not find happiness keeping it on. 

I don't know that is what I was thinking.  My heart is full this morning, and it pains me to think some people don't have a ton of confidence.  So many people I think are worthy of all my praise.  :)  I tell  you one thing, I love that Charisa blogs almost every day.  I mean her life is a heck-u-va lot busier than mine, and she always gives us a little something.  She does it with humor, and style, and confidence, and well, ya know I think she is about as great as they come.  :)

I had a lot on my mind this morning before I got up.  Some of it of the nutty variety, but I don't really have a real train of thought, so I am just going to give out xoxoxoxoxo's  if ya don't mind.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I know I know it is 3:00 am and I am up doing this thing.  :)  Nuts!!!

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Christie cuz she struggles with confidence in all kinds of areas.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  Through our weakness we find strength.  :)  xoxoxo

Extras for Gina, cuz there is no one I know who wants to be loved more than her.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz I don't know her story, but I know there is sadness in it, and I love her.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for all the xxxxxxxxxxx people, because they are so open and honest, and they are the best, and I love them all.  :)  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'd give extras to Olga, but she always gets 'em it seems.  Ehhhhh, what the heck.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I truly only do what is in my heart, and my heart is happy, and full like I said.  I know people are struggling with health issues, and wish I could be there more for them, but I do what I can with what is in my heart.  So just stay strong, and this is something I guess you will have to face.  I know it is scary, and I don't know your fear.  I know you feel alone, and I don't know your sadness.  All I can say Naomi is you are a strong girl, and even though you feel weak, you are strong enough to deal with all you need to deal with.  Even if you don't feel like it.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, October 28, 2011

Important Public Service Announcement!!

It is 3:30 in the morning, and I am going back to bed.  Just want to say hi though, and tell ya you all are great.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Wanna know something about me??  Usually when I take a staycation I get lethargic, and get in a bad mood.  I think I have done pretty good on this one.  I am in a good mood.  I got a little bit done, and I am still looking forward to the weekend, and not dreading Monday.  Oh, and good news.  Monday is just around the corner.  :)  yayyy.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

 Extras for Gina and Olga, and I will tell you why.  We went to lunch, and the waitress served Lisa and I before.  The waitress is cute kinda how you would picture Olga being cute.  Contrary to popular belief, I barely even know what Olga looks like.  All personality driven.  :)  Anyhoo the waitress had some of the same internal health issues Gina was suffering with last year, and she looked miserable.  It made me think of Gina's struggles last year, and how she powered through, even though it couldn't have been easy.  Anyway that is what I thought of.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Anatomy Of A Day!!

Well, I had my day all planned out.  For the record I didn't run.  I fell back asleep.  I did some general cleaning around the house, and that was good enough.  I prepped the dinner for the crock pot.  Which turned out great btw.  I then decided to do my haircut, and bloody mary thing.  Something was off though.  The great bloody marys at Phil's didn't taste all that great.  Instead of 4 I went with 2.  I was like blah.  So I went home, and made a drink, and listened to music for a bit, and was like blah.  Then I start getting the lows.  No one reads this stupid blog.  I hate FB, and I hate Twitter.  I turn off the music, and just sit there for a bit.  Not drinking, and not doing a damn thing. 

Then little by little things start getting better.  Starting with just a silly little Twitter update by Olga.  Yup you got it.  Why our paths crossed is nothing short of destiny.  Those who read this blog know she is an important person to me, and it must be the quid pro quo thing.  She trusts me through all the zany things I may do, and through the highs and lows.  Remember a long time ago when I said stupid updates are important, because life really is just absurd.  That is the true version.  The absurdity of it all.  I think it can be like Solomon in Ecclesiastes where it seems pointless.  Type of a FML type of thing, or it can be fun, if we just open up and show our crazyness.  Being closed is the path mostly traveled.  Take the path less traveled, and that will make all the difference, in the words of Robert Frost.  A little thread with Kim Sheridan, Faith, and Gina.  More important people in my life.  :)

You know when I get a little wacky the first person to step in is Doreen.  That my friends is the anatomy of  a day.  People are important.  It is important to step in when people are low, and it is a great ability if you can just laugh at the general wackiness of life.  Don't take everything serious, because you are not going to get out alive, and that you can trust. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Always give out a little blogger love, because a lot of the times we all think what we do here is boring and stupid. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D 

Extra love to you all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo  and xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx   MWAH!!!

Now for really really really cya cya cya cya  :D  :D  Olga is great.  :)  xoxoxo

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Blogging Is Hard On Vacation I Think

You want to know why?  I think, because I don't see a shit ton of people.  I don't interact with a shit ton with people, and I think I get ideas throughout the day of things to write about.  I am not really sure if that is the case, but sometimes I think I look, and see all kinds of things throughout the day, and maybe it gives me ideas of stupid shit to write on this thing.  Not saying for sure for sure, but that is what I am thinking now. 

Not to mention what kinds of exciting things can happen at home??  I will tell you this.  Our gas valve on our furnace went out, and we got it fixed.  So now I have new batteries in the thermostat, a new gas valve, a new fuse, a new thermocouple, and a cleaned, and serviced furnace.  The guy said everything looks good too, so a clean bill of health, and no foreseeable problems.  Gotta like that piece of mind going into the cold months. 

Want to know what I feel like doing today??  Well besides a bit around the house, and a quick little 3 mile run.  I want a lunch with bloody marys.  Don't ask me why, but it seems like a good idea to me.  What are Wednesdays for??   :)

You know something I thought about just now.  Everything we do, if taken at face value can mean something.  In what ways can you be misunderstood?? 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I need a fricken haircut!!!   :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D 

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

A Good Start

Well first off I guess I should say when I am on a vacation, I can get super duper oooper scooper lazy.  For me that does not work.  An inertia takes over, and I feel like I do nothing.  I need to have some type of work to do most days, or I feel like a blob.  I am not one of those people who can sit at the beach for days on end, and that is it.  Others can do that, I am just not one of them.  I feel better when I do stuff.

So I ended up getting a pretty fair amount of stuff done yesterday.  I feel better about myself when I do that.  I won't bore you with the details, but let's just say I feel pretty good.  :)

I thought of some bat shit crazy stuff this morning.  Real stuff that happened to me that makes me the way I am.  Do you wonder what kool-aid I drank that makes me this way??  Do you know what steps on my journey I took that makes me this way??  You know what??  You are taking these steps.  You are being led.  You'll try to hang onto some types of things for security, but don't worry.  You are being led, and how you feel inside can be changed on a dime.  Due to nothing you have done on your own. 

Don't worry.  I know the journey is hard, and why it has to be that way I am not sure.  Maybe, because it takes a lot of stuff to really overcome the false vision the world teaches us.  You can trust me though.  The Kool-Aid is pretty good, the steps are just not all that easy. 

Like I said before, I wish I could make things easier for you, but trust in the author of your story.  You are in pretty good hands.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  That I p.s. every day is always always mentioning you, I just don't always have little secret p.s. messages.  :)   xoxo  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!!    :)

Monday, October 24, 2011

No Idea What This Will Be About.

Well I will start off with my workout I guess.  I just did a little 3 miler with Hope.  Those Sunday 3 milers have been slow.  Like 10:00 pace.  Why, I don't know.  It is kinda a pain running with him.  He likes squirrels.  :)  I always have to pull him back.  That was about it.  I did a little grocery shopping for meals the next 4 days, some laundry, some more work on my closet room.  :)  Then I watched football, and listened to music, and drank some drinks.  I had a fun afternoon.  I just cooked ribs in the slow cooker.  I have two other slow cooker meals for the next couple of days too.  :)  I love it. 

I have a lot of stuff to do around the house, so I hope my energy for housework remains high.  I am usually a bit different than my wife.  I am usually pooping out around noon, and have to get a 2nd wind.  Lisa is usually getting her 1st wind around noon.  :)   Don't worry,  I generally pass a lot of wind throughout the day.  :)   LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I kinda see where this is heading.  A post like yesterday brings about a true vision.  A true picture. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  MWAH!!!!   :)

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Some Days I Let My Hair Down!!

Hiya all, how's it goin?  Wanna know what I was thinking before I got out of bed??  I was thinking I have a pretty locker room sense of humor.  A lot of "F"-bombs and whatnot come out of my mouth a lot.  Been that way a while.  Sometimes I show it on FB, and Twitter.  I thought of Richard Pryor and George Carlin.  I bet they had a bunch of haters.  Still did their thing.  Life is full of all kinds of things.  Do you want to know how many times each day a 14 year old boy masturbates??  ehhhh.  probably not.  Doesn't mean it doesn't happen.  A real look at real life, and if it weren't so funny and pathetic, it might be gross.  That is how evolved we are as people.  We are taught that all things sexual are bad and stuff, and you cannot control any of it.  You can not control your thoughts on sex.  I see a pretty girl I look.  How many of us guys are checking out girls asses??  How many girls want us to??  All the while maybe we feel we are wrong doing it. 


I am straight, so I use that as an example.  I have gay friends who probably look at different things, but they have as much control over that shit, as any straight guy does looking at the other shit.  How about that?  We are sexual beings.  Can't deny it.  Worse off you can't control it either.  At least your thoughts about it.  You obviously can control how you act about it.  If you are gay, the most healthy thing you can do is accept it.  Don't fight it you will lose.  I don't care what the haters would say.  That is a truth I guess we have to accept.  We are sexual beings. 

Other than that, I had a pretty good day yesterday.  We had a good 6 miler in the morning.  I didn't time it.  One thing I did notice though was the week before when I did time it.  Based on time I figured it was 6.5 miles.  It was only 6.1.  I thought our effort was sub 9:00, but the wind had us closer to 9:20.  I guess running into 40 mph winds does slow you down.  That really stunned me really.  Remember we even tempo'd the last .7 mile.  crazy.  :)

Where this goes tomorrow who knows?  I'll bring it to you straight though.  That you can trust. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I have been surprisingly motivated to really clean and organize our house.  Maybe cuz it is just Lisa and I, with Hailey downstairs.  Kinda want to make a nice clean organized living arrangement.  I have all my clothes in the other bedroom, so I don't wake up Lisa early in the morning.  I love it.   [errr.  that was just a p.s. p.s.  btw.  :)  ]

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

I say let your hair down, and get a little crazy.  You don't have 10 of these lifes, only 1.  So live it up.  Remember you'll have plenty of Howard Zinn days, so live up the Joseph Heller ones. 

Love You All!!!   :)

Extras for Doreen and Jules.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

:)))))


Now for really really really cya cya cya cya  :D :D  :D     LOLOL

Saturday, October 22, 2011

On A Dime!!

I don't know really where I am going with this, but it can get pretty batshit crazy, or maybe not.  I could explain a lot of things.  Let me just say this.  I am in good hands.  Perhaps... well no, for sure, you wondering what is going on inside me.  I am in good hands.  The best of the best overcame, and the worst of the worst is the one in the trap.  I am along for the ride.  The worst thing that can happen to me is I can misunderstand things.  That is why it is important to shoot straight, because that is what life is all about.  At least to the best of our abilities.  Even if things get bad internally for me, with persecutions, internal, or even external ones, I always hang onto the promise.  Really nothing can go wrong, but things can seem bad. 

I am going to get some coffee.  Okay I am back.  I always forget how weird this thing is.  I woke up in a bad mood.  Beth Rose Mickel and I had a misunderstanding.  I thought she was ignoring me, or maybe she was mad.  She is an important person to me.  She is a strong girl, and I respect her a ton.  It kinda hurt me, and I got angry.  All I can say about that is we squared it away.  I let her know she is Beth Rose Mickel, and that says a lot in my book.  She is just as important as anyone to me, and everyone if you didn't know it, you know it now.  I am adding her to xoxoxoxoxoxo.   She is strong, she is real, and she has a hard, and busy life.  So you all know I love her to pieces.  She is Great!!  :)  So you know not many have a paragraph like that in my blog.  :) 

Today I run.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Life is good.  I know a lot of you stress about stuff, and wish I could make things easier.  You know I suffered through a bunch of crap to get where I am today.  Life is hard sometimes, so for all I add xoxoxoxoxoxoxo  cuz the shit ain't easy. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  she has my sense of humor.  :)

Extras for Beth Rose Mickel.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   She is a strong girl.  :)

Extras for Olga, cuz I love her like a sister.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D

Thursday, October 20, 2011

I Am Soooooooo Lucky!!!

WOW, how great is it to wake up most days with a lot of energy?  I am healthy, and have a pretty good job, one I like doing.  I exercise a bit, train for running races.  You know some people struggle with stuff, and things can be hard, but they keep going.  You know you see a rainbow, and your like man it would be nice to hit that pot at the end of it huh?  I feel most days like I have.  Like I said, having a lot of energy, and waking up feeling like this every day mostly feels great. 

Let me tell you something about me.  Let me get some coffee first though o.k.  :)  I know my drink days pretty early.  By drink days I mean alcohol drinking days.  When I have a good running workout the night before, and I don't sleep well that night I am tired.  I know then I will be worthless, so it is a good day to have some drinks, and cook a meal, and have fun.  Tuesday nights will never be a drink night, because I run on Tuesday, and I don't want to drink after.  Usually cause I go to bed an hour later.  Does that mean anything?  Nah, not really, but it is how it works for me. 

Let me tell you about what is really great.  People are standing on their own two feet.  You know we always seemed to use "the group" as a crutch.  We all are different though, and people are showing that.  It ins't just bloggers, but they for sure are too.  Doreen is different than Tia, and they both are different than Lois, and Kim Sheridan, etc...  They all are great though.  That is kinda the flower thing I was talking about huh?  We are not you, and you are not us.  I am not you, and you are not me.  I can relate to a lot of things you do, but I haven't walked in your shoes, and you haven't walked in mine.  I guess all our journeys really are solo.  Yeah some may be married, have significant others, but no one knows what we think of all the time.

I guess that takes courage.  Step out and say hey world.  This is MEEEE!!!   :)  Takes courage, like that Goo Goo Dolls song "Iris"    "And I don't want the world to see me, cuz I don't think that they'd understand"  Really that is the one thing we all long for, to have people know us, but it really is probably the one thing that terrifies us the most.  That is what we are doing though.  Slowly but surely, and the braver ones are going first.  They are courageous, and they are awesome.  This does go slowly though, because it is hard, and like any race is not won at the beginning, but it can be lost.  It is won at the end.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)


Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)


xo's!!!   :)


Love You All!!!  .p.p


p.s.  penny for your thoughts.  :)   j/k  xoxoxo


Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen, Jules, and Brandy.  been a while  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga and Nancy O'Toole  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Theresa Nelson, cuz I think she inspires people more with her struggles, than if she was full strength.  Gotta love her courage, and determination.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


I'll give extras to Maggs, because she cool, and she has a lot going on, and stuff.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I guess that is it for now.  I'll give extras for all the  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo people too.  Oh, and I am adding Lois to xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,  not sure if I did that before, but if I didn't I am now.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Nice Gestures Are The Bomb!!!

Well, I just got a new blog follower.  I wuv that shit.  :)  Just so you know, I appreciate you all.  I don't always say it, but I do.  :)  Her name is Colleen.  I'll give you a quick story of how I got to start reading her blog.  She is a good friend of Boston Kim, but she has like a gazillion friends.  I would check out her blog here and there.  She seemed like a super nice person, but she would always get gazillions of comments, so I was a bit intimidated.  Bloggers to me are rock stars.  They put their shit out there for all to see, and sometimes we aren't just showing our good side you know.  She would comment on Alili's site a lot, and so I finally had the courage to read, and comment on her blog.  Those of you who know me, I don't just read.  I try and comment a lot with the read.  I don't know why, but I think it helps people feel like we are paying attention.  Anyway thanks Colleen.  :) 

Not really much going on.  Yesterday was our run day.  Jerry and I went out for our 6 miler.  First 3 miles were @ 9:15, and so were the 2nd 3 milers.  I mean dead on.  It was a nice run, and as usual we just talked about stuff.  Sports, life, and stuff.  I saw him earlier in the local lumberyard too.  He was fixing one of our faucets.  He is the plumber we call if we need any plumbing done at our store, so he even gets a little business from where I work.  Everyone likes him there.

Well anyway,  what else is going on.  As you know we had Lisa's Mom live with us for a while, when she couldn't do it on her own, and she is gone (assisted living place).  Lisa's brother lived with us a while too, when he was down on his luck, and as of yesterday he is gone.  So we have the whole upstairs to ourself.  Lisa and I have 3 bedrooms... or I have 2 bedrooms to choose if I am in the dog house.  :)  j/k.   living room, dining room.  Plenty of space.  I am on vacation next week too, so I can do a lot of organizing.  I am pretty excited about that.  :)  (not that I will, but I can )   :)

It is nice I guess to help out, but nice to get the fuckers out of here too.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  .p.p

p.s.  Wednesday = Friday???   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for new followers.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Tuesday.... Afternoon....

I always liked the Moody Blues.  That being said, I need to get me some coffee.  Well let's start off with some stuff here.  It hit me yesterday "one" of the reasons my post two days ago was- shall we say a bit different.  If me not knowing how my ending, and new beginning will be isn't weird enough.  I don't know the time, but I always gather it will be a Thanksgiving, but by no means do I know that to be the case.  It is I write with my heart, and I don't always know what is in my heart.  So when I say that "since I seem to be giving Olga a lot of xoxoxoxo's lately suggests trust is important".  That is my story.  Trust.  I was given the strength prior to going into the hospital to lay down my life.  I thought I was dying that night, and I thought I was going to hell.  I was led on a journey remember, and I had no idea where I was heading or what I was doing.  I woke up early every day, and walked and walked and walked.  It was a solo journey, and I had maybe one good night the whole summer.  A night we played basketball.  Other than that I searched searched and searched. 

It is said there is no greater love...  I made the turn.  I gave up both lives, as if they were done.  I also gave up my life when I said I would be the worst of the worst if that is your will.  I had the strength to say your will be done. 

Trust is important too, because for me to win, and overcome, I have to be willing to go where him who I must overcome is not willing to go.  I had a trial run, and the worst of the worst left me.  He would not be willing to do what I am willing to do.  Now obviously I have help with that. 

I know I know I realize this is one of them there crazy posts.  You know why it is important to write down your thoughts???  That comes from the heart.  You don't always know what is in your heart, but if your write it down, you can see a picture of yourself.  Others can see it too. 

I am trying to gather what people are thinking, and I guess the vision is becoming good, because people are trying to hold onto something.  This here in life is good.  If I do this it is good.  Truth is there is nothing here you can hold onto as being good.  People put their faith in worldly things.  A good diet.  The American dream.  Some happily ever after fairy tale of some sort.  You see a lot of stuff out there is pretty good.  Some shit is fun, but if you were going to die tomorrow, and you knew it you wouldn't give a shit about any of it. 

There is something to be said about that country song, "I hope that someday you can live like you are dying."  What do you think about then?? 

For me, I have no bucket list.  I am happy with the life I have been blessed with.  What more can you ask??  I like going to my job.  I like running, and training.  I like cooking.  I like drinking fermented sugars.  :)  I don't need no glamour, because a quick look at all the glamorous people shows they are just as unhappy as others.  Same with the rich people. 

I am happy to have a lot of the friends I have.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   .p.p

p.s.  I am going to try and add that little .p.p thingy somewhere on the days I blog.  It is how Pakize puts a smiley face, and I want to try to mention her on here every day, even if I don't mention her by name.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen who lost her doggy Tony Baloney  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga, because with her help I realized how important trust is.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Pakize, because I think enough of her to couple her with Doreen and Olga.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Some Positives...

Well for some reason I woke up Saturday, and didn't feel like working.  I wasn't totally tired, but I just didn't want to get up to work.  So I decided to run.  I know Jerry and Jim go out on Saturday mornings, so I called them up for a meet time, and went out and met them.  It was just around a 6.5 miler out on Lakeshore.  Not much on the run, but it was real windy, and that wreaked a bit of havoc.  Jim also turned the tempo up the last mile, and him and Jerry dropped me with a half mile to go or so.  I am used to that.  Jim has dropped me many times in the past.  :)  It felt pretty good to turn the engines on though.  I really haven't done that in a while.  You forget how fun that is. 

I didn't do crap the rest of the day.  I just watched football, and that was about it.  I was tired after the run.  :) 

Other than that not much went on. 

I have been doing this a while, and so you know I do pay attention.  Like Kim Sheridan's son Cole.  I guess I have been keeping track of his running a while. He's made my blogs before.    He started doing cross country and some 5K's.  Yesterday he ran a sub:20 5K after a 4 week hiatus due to a hip flexor.  So wanna congratulate him on here.  He is a kid with a ton of interests.  skiing, skateboarding, running, and all kinds of stuff.  Andrew and Cole both seem like good kids, and the little you get you can tell their personalities are totally different.  Strange how that is huh??  They both come from the same place.   Totally different people though.  I wonder if parents feel like they need two hats as a parent.  The x hat for this kid, and the y hat for this kid, because they both are different.  I would imagine so.  Not that I'll ever know.  :) 

Oh well,  not much else to talk about.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)   

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Hope you have a fun day Sunday.  :D

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Feeling kinda shy'ish today so no extras on top of the extras.  :)    .p  .p 

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, October 14, 2011

Something New!!

Well I feel I am totally in a new area now.  Something must have happened at my last week off.  I wonder if it was like one of those times where I may have deleted my blog.  You know where I felt the judgement on me was high, and everyone thinks me a bad person, and I want to hide. 

I definitely lost trust in some people, and I definitely did not want to read any e-mails directed to me, which I didn't read any.  I wonder if truth is really really hard to handle in high doses.  A true picture for us is not what we want to see, because really it is scary.  You know when I was really little in Palatine thinking what if there was nothing??  I couldn't comprehend it, and became scared, and ran inside. 

Hold on, I am going to get some coffee...

Holy shit, I am up early.  I thought it was 3 when I got up, not 1:00  :)  Remember that time where I was starting to worry about waking up for the day and still being able to watch "The Tonight Show"??   :)  Ha ha ha!! 

What a nutty journey this is.  Now that I think about it, I think the judgements were pretty high against me, when I took my last few days off.  Do you see I am doing better with those.  I am able to withstand them a bit better, those periods where you get a good view in the mirror, and the natural tendency is to not want to look.  Sometimes a true picture of ourself is scary.  We don't want to look, so the safer more secure thing to do is judge.  There is some security in judging, because it takes the view off ourself, but it really isn't the right way.  You know what though??  I have a feeling me getting better with those high judgement days, are also coinciding with you being better at looking at the mirror.  We are not perfect yet, but we are getting there.  As we go through these periods we all become stronger.  We become more honest with ourselves, and really that is the journey.  Us finding out who we really are. 

Your journey coincides with you seeing a true picture of yourself in the mirror, and me being able to endure heavy judgement without judging back.  My final act will be an acceptance of I am the worst of the worst, and I accept that which I deserve.  That was the path I said I would follow, and I remember a long time ago, a little necessary step I had to take.  This was after the hospital, and during my "physical" depression.  I said, "If I am destined to go to hell, please let me accept it as something I deserve." 

I always always thought I was being punished with my physical depression days.  That went on a long time ago, and remember Natalie my ex-girlfriend really helped me along with that.  She got me riding the exercise bike, and exercising.  I didn't feel all that great, but that definitely helped me.  I remember being angry at her, when she got angry at me for calling her at a bar.  What a crazy relationship we had.  We both ended up hurting each other I guess, and that was mostly due to us not understanding each other.  I wrote her letter every day when she was in Denmark kinda how I blog frequently now.  I did not know that it would be hard for her to write so often back to me.  I hope she can forgive me.  I wonder how she is doing now.  Do you ever wonder about that shit??  How ex's and stuff are doing. 

Oh well.  I guess I am just rambling.  Anyhoo just so you know, Pakize had a pretty good day yesterday, and she talked to her mum.  So that is good.  She called her mum.  :)  I love that.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has  a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  well, I don't really have one.  hmmm....  Oh yeah.  The Yankees SUCK!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I don't really have any extras, but I'll give some to Olga,  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I guess that I have been giving a lot of extras to Olga suggests trust is very important.  The quid pro quo.  That suggests to me that Olga really has a pretty high spot in my view.  Now so do a lot of you too, but always remember trust.  We aren't perfect so try and look past our shortcomings.  Just keep trusting, because that is what it is all about.  :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D  

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I Hazz A New Friend.

I don't know if I would normally tell you about it, but I am going to, because on the surface it wouldn't seem appropriate at all.  For some reason I became friends with this girl Pakize.  I didn't know her, and I just figured what the heck.  I am 45 and married, and she is a 16 year old student.  From what you hear all over, I want to let my blog readers, and anyone whoever wants to know anything about me know this about me.  45 year old male, and 16 year old girl do not mix.  It seems inappropriate, and like I said on the surface sure seems kinda creepy.  So that kind of shit, I'd just assume tell you. 

Anyway she is a nice girl, she lives in Turkey.  She does her school away from home for some reason.  I guess I should have asked her why.  She misses her family a bit, and stays up really late at night.  Past midnight.  Anyway I feel bad for her, and like I said she seems like a pretty nice kid. 

Couple other things, I may not blog as frequently as I did before.  Like this morning, I kinda wanted to stay in bed, but I guess I was awake.  Don't think anything about it.  I may want to just sleep some mornings.  :) 

Also I do not feel the most confident right now, so I am not all outgoing and stuff right now.  I woke up this morning, and I feel if I was a turtle, that I would not have all my shell.  So I live in a bit of fear right now, what people would say about me, and think about me.  Just so you know.  Sometimes we think people are always strong, etc.... and I don't feel that way now.  Just so you know.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All !!!   :)

p.s.  I hafta poop.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga  just cuz.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :)

Extras for Pakize too.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

What A Long Break!!

I didn't count on taking so much time off, but I did.  The last day I started a post, and realized, oh crap, I have absolutely nothing to post about.  I was a bit off last week.  I think I was tired last week.  I had a rough patch I had to deal with, and dealt with it how I normally do.  I leave it inside myself, and let time run its course.  When things get a bit weird, I just let a natural course run itself. 

A lot has happened this past week though, and much of it good.  I was up early one morning, and I did look at my next year.  I looked at marathon training plans, and realize they are typically 4 months long.  That gives me a lot of freedom til New Years, when I really need to be into "real" training.  So I am taking it easy, trying to stay healthy.  Having said that I have run 5 of the last 6 days.  Nothing too long.  Last night's 6 miler would have been the longest.  Last week I had a couple dead leg runs, where I was coasting at 10:00 pace.  Like I said I was tired last week, and the last two days I felt really good. 

I will be honest here trust is an important thing.  Without it you got nothing really.  Trust comes in many forms too.  I have said a long time ago for a person to open up, and spill their guts is not an easy thing, and a person would really have to be strong, and trust that we won't leave you hanging.  I think if we open up and show you ourself, and we get ridiculed, or judged, or whatever, it ain't no thing for us to just shrink into our life, and live it by ourselves.  I told you before my life with Lisa is pretty easy.  It isn't high maintenance, and there really is not a ton of stress.  We work together almost every day we both work, and it isn't a problem. 

I don't want to shrink into just my life though.  I want to share some of mine, and hopes most of you will do the same.  Our life is more than just racing and our hobbies.  You know at the end of the day our racing goals are ours, and we do the work, and it is important to us, but we'll do harder shit in life.  What is harder any race, or a bad diagnosis for ourselves or a loved one??  Which is going to take more of your thoughts, energy, and everything to deal with?? 

Many of us will put ourselves in a bit of hurt in racing whatever discipline we have, but it is the other shit that makes up our life.  To be honest I don't know of anyone who deals with, and has dealt with as much as Julia.  Sometimes the miracles in our lives are people like her.  Those who overcome all obstacles to still be a bright spot in people's lives.  Now that is some of the good shit life is made of.  People like her.  :)  She is an xoxoxoxoxoxo  person too.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Healthy days where you can do whatever your want are the best.  How I feel now.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga because trust always starts with her, and she is a friend who always makes me feel pretty good about myself.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Blogging Vaca...

taking a little time off here.  Not sure how long.  I'll see ya around.  :)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Background

Well, I slept in today, and it felt good.  Well stayed in bed til like 6:00.  I am still tired.  :)  I had a blast yesterday.  I worked for a few hours, and came home and napped.  I then went on my run.  I was kinda hoping to do my 8 mile loop, but my quads were pretty blah.  I am not sure when I decided to only do the 6 mile loop, which I cut to 5.5.  I was going real slow, like a 10:00 pace.  I decided to just stick to 21 miles this week.  Let's face it I am still building up strength, and at this stage is no reason to overdo it.  I had Hope with me, so he she got a good workout, and pulled my shoulder out of my socket I think.  Fucker!!   :)

I get home, and Beau and Charity are ready to hang out.  That was perfect timing.  I took a shower, and went over there, and we had a couple drinks, and headed to New Holland.  We talked about all kinds of things, and I really got some background of me.  We kinda talked about how weird people are.  I guess we want to think we are special, and really neat, but we are not that evolved.  People will still follow some stupid ass with a loud enough voice.  I mean how special are we really.  We all still fart, and we all still shit.  :)

We got a little drunk, and we were getting a bit silly.  We went over to Jacob's to hang out for a bit.  We played some basketball.  Just horse and around the world.  It was fun.  Someone had the idea to shot gun a beer??!!!   WTF???   Haven't done that since I was like 4 years old.  :)  Whatevs, it was a good time, we had some laughs, and really a pretty fun day.  Lisa got off work at 4:00 pm, and went out to dinner with her friend Sheila.  Sheila is going through some shit, and Lisa is her best friend, so helping her out.  Life sucks for a lot of people here and there.

Part of the fairy tale huh???  No such thing as a perfect husband, partner, or wife.  None of us are perfect, so how are we going to be perfect in that role??  What is the divorce rate like 50%???  How many more people stay in a marriage or relationship for some other stupid reason, even though they are unhappy?  That gives people a lot of shit to deal with in their life huh.  How many people are in no relationship, but are lonely and would like one??

I consider myself very lucky with having my wife Lisa.  This shit is pretty easy.

You know one other thing that is pretty crazy??  Charity most people would say really is very pretty,  you know even she sometimes is insecure in her relationship??  There is definitely more to life than looks.  Maybe we all want to feel special, but we are not good at letting people know they are.  I think the more you show the more special you are.

I love the sinners.  :)  They are the best.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  xoxoxoxoxo   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras on top of the extras toooooo.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga too.  She is cute, and I don't even have any pictures of her.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Something Out Of Nothing???

That is what this post is about.  I have absolutely nothing on my mind at all.  That means this should probably be one of my best posts.  :)   Hold on brb.  COFFFEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Well, as I was pondering the little I have to write about today it occurred to me. I am healthy.  I am running, and training.  I have my eye on possibly one or two spring marathons.  A couple 5K's maybe by the end of the year.  My mileage is finally up to 25/week, and hope to build from there.  Lisa and I have been working more this year, so our finances are better.  We'll never be millionaires, but who is??  We have no open lines of credit.  We still have a little non-house debt to get rid of, but less than $3000.  No car payment, and I don't know things just seem pretty good.  Amazing how crazy a life can get at times, and things are starting to actually shape up for us around here. 

I think about yesterday's post, and I think maybe it can put things into perspective huh??  When we stop trusting in fairy tales, and look at things in a real way, it kinda makes you stronger to accept the "Shit" life throws at you. 

Maybe that is what life is about.  Maybe that is what we are doing.  We grow up blind to all that is real, because we wanted our fairy tales.  We watched the great lives lived on TV and movies, and dammit we won't settle for anything less.  Well history proves the percentages by A LOT far outweigh those who lived a serf's life as opposed to the glam life.  Truth is we ain't got it so bad.  I think a lot of our anger is we feel cheated when life ain't all that.  What the fuck did we do wrong??  Why am I not 100% happy all the time.  Truth is cuz no one is.

Well fuck, I really have nothing to be honest.  I am going to work for a few hours, and then get my run in, and then we'll see.  Lisa is working today, but not sure what time til.  Oh we got cable yesterday too.  Haven't had it since like March or something.  Lisa talked 'em down to $29/month for 6 months, and she gets HGTV.  Her favorite channel.  That shit bores me.  Fricken house projects.  Hate 'em.  :)  I'll be able to watch football on Sunday though so that is good.  Lisa can watch her shows while I go to bed early too.  She likes TV.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I love Saturday Mornings.  :)   (p.s. p.s.)--  xoxoxo   The other one.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Oh hey if you are up and reading this Brian.   Have a beer for me.  :)  FUCKER!!!  Kevin was always my favorite male Kossen, and Melgert was my 2nd fav.   :)   Ha ha!!!   j/k. 

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D